Being a mom and balancing a business or your career can be a juggling act. You often wonder, "What ball am I going to drop today?" Maybe there is a different way to look at this balancing, juggling act that doesn't seem to work or fit the life you want to create.
Why not find the right blend for your life, career, and family? The missing ingredient might be blending your life with faith. Having a "silent" partner that's always there for you, guiding you, lifting the burden. Who provides you a safe place to connect, commune, and communicate with a Father who loves you.
Samantha Cordero shares her journey into motherhood and entrepreneurship during the pandemic. Feeling isolated and alone, she was invited to join a Bible study, and she then invited God to have an integral part in her life.
The yes to those invitations turned a mother who thought she just wasn't built for motherhood into a mompreneur who has blended all that matters into a life that she loves.
Samantha's Bio:
My name is Samantha Cordero, and I'm the founding champion of our agency. As a passionate entrepreneur, I bring expertise in project coordination, executive support, and operations consulting. I have worked closely with business owners and executives across different industries, gaining insight into the unique challenges that face small businesses.
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God, Faith, Moms, business, motherhood, faith, entrepreneur, blending faith, family, and work.
SPEAKERS
Diane Belz, Samantha Cordera
Diane Belz
Hello, and welcome to the home state can podcast. I'm your host, Diane Belz. And today my guest is Samantha Cordero. We're Darrow is a business center and mother of two who wants to share with her with us her journey of embracing motherhood and being an entrepreneur and trying to balance both of those and find love in both of those roles that she is partaking in. Now. The Samantha, just tell us a little bit about who you are, how this sort of intersection of mother and entrepreneur got started, and when some of the challenges that you had and how you sort of come forward with it, that you can give hope to other young moms who are entrepreneurs seems to be that's what most moms are to think nowadays. I don't Yeah.
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I remember also, my so we, I think a lot of moms know about love every which is a Montessori toy box, which was really awesome. So we got that for a kid. And in the little pamphlet of the toys that it gives you, it tells you, you know the intention of that toy? How like what the child is supposed to learn with this toy? My husband saw me reading it once. And he was like, Oh, what is that? And I'm like, Oh, it teaches you how to play it tells you how to play. And he made the joke of you need that you need to be told how to play and I started laughing and crying all in one. I was like, Yes, I do need this. Like, thank God, someone put this in writing for me to read. Because I needed that. Being a mom to a baby was not it didn't just click for me. I loved my child. Yeah, I loved my child. I didn't regret becoming a mom. But I and I knew what I was doing in the sense of I knew how to take care of my child that I didn't know how to really engage with him. And I needed help with that. So that was its that was its own. I see you chuckling a little bit.
Diane Belz
What? Well, there's just a couple. You know, I would say intersection that I felt the same way. Like I knew that I could take care of my daughter. But it was just that idea of how to play with a baby. I was never attracted to babies, as at any age of my life. And if they didn't talk to me, I didn't know what to do with them. Tell me what you want. Good. And I'll give it to you. And that natural act of playing when I could see you know, my older sister. She loves playing. She's still playing with her grandkids. I don't have that. That playfulness. So I understand I think that we're not alone, Samantha. There are other moms like us.
Samantha Cordera
Yeah, it's Yeah. And also like, you know, babies can do the same thing over and over, right? Hide the toy under the blanket, lift the blanket up. Hide and lift right. And I was just like, I could do this about three times. And then I'm gonna check out of this process.
Diane Belz
It's not fun anymore for you,
I'm like, This is not We need to do something else. Let's move on. So I struggled with that. And then I also was not I just wasn't feeling fulfilled, I didn't feel like I was doing what I was supposed to be doing. So then I started questioning well, was my pregnancy and was this child in God's timing? Or was this not in God's timing? Was I supposed to be doing something else. And I saw, I started getting ideas for business. And I was able to start my business. But then, you know, it was also the pandemic, now that not everything was going smoothly, and I had to balance taking care of an infant that needed a lot of my attention, and trying to figure out how to start a business.
Samantha Cordera
And if I wanted help with my kid, that I needed to make sure that my business could fund a nanny for us, you know, even part time for certain days of the week. And a lot of that just built up in, in a lot of shame and guilt and greed. And I, I felt really bad about my ambitions, I felt bad about having an interest in my business or having an interest in a career, having an interest in anything that really took away from, from my baby, right. And I know I had every rights to be my own person, that motherhood was not my own identity, it was not my only identity. But it was still a really big struggle. And also, you know, we talked about postpartum depression. And for me, I didn't, I didn't feel like I had that because I was like, I don't want to cause harm to myself, or my baby. So if I don't want to cause harm to anyone, then obviously I don't have this postpartum depression, but it built up in postpartum anxiety and all these other ways that I just didn't recognize it.
Samantha Cordera
And I just got to this place of darkness. And for me, I didn't recognize that it was hopelessness because it just felt lonely. And I was like, I know that things can get better. I know that eventually I will see a light at the end of the tunnel, even if I don't see it now. So I didn't, I didn't exactly feel hopeless. But I felt very lonely. I felt very disconnected from those around me. I felt guilty about things that I should be positive about right, those ambitions that I had the creativity or strategy that I had in my business. And I also felt like no matter how much I loved my kid, it wasn't enough. It wasn't I wasn't loving him in the right way. It's so well.
Diane Belz
That's all that comparison, it sounds like to that social media can connect us but also disconnects us from reality, because my guess is if you follow them. On a daily basis, things won't look. So they're beautiful, so perfect. So they've got it all together, and I don't. And that's where I think it can be really difficult. And the other part that you said, if you're, I don't know, I enjoy adulting more than I enjoy kidding. Just even at the kid I think I enjoyed adults more than I enjoyed good that it can be very difficult to feel like you're shut off. So it sounds like you had a career outside of the home before. Then you had this baby with the expectation that you would go back to work. And then COVID shut that door. So you're like, oh my gosh, now I'm feeling very isolated. I don't have that adult connection. That you can see with like this. I don't want to call it a perfect storm because it was an imperfect storm of some sort. That really left you feeling unbalanced. Yeah, that grief that all of that I can understand that. So what did you do, Samantha to get you past all of that?
Yeah, I was very blessed to have a husband that had a community in in Denver, right. So I had moved from Florida to Colorado, and I had met my now husband shortly thereafter, and I hadn't really built up my community, all that well before things shut down. So I kind of latched on to his friend group. But there are these. They're these girls of the friend group, Katherine and Elizabeth, who were sisters, and just absolutely amazing. And they invited me to a Bible study. And I started joining this Bible study, and I'm the only mom in the Bible study.
Samantha Cordera
I went to this, I went to this retreat, and she broke it down into these beautiful stances of, you know, you worship and then you thank Him for all the things you are need to be grateful for. And you can confess and forgive. And you ask Him that you want to love H im more, but you want to love yourself more. And then you want that to be this generating love that overflows to other people. And I was like, that's, you know, that's what's missing for a lot of moms is everyone is comes first.
Samantha Cordera
So the book that they chose, to me felt a little bit more geared to the fact that a lot of the girls in the group were single. So I was like, okay, I'm just going to engage in this, because this is obviously what the other girls in the group need. But a lot of this isn't maybe resonating with me, but hopefully, something will shine and something will click here. Going through this study. Nothing was clicking, nothing was clicking and then we did an in person retreat. So this was you know, a few months into into the pandemic. So we had our protocols down and getting tested before you go to the retreat all those things. We go to this so that one of the ladies kind of ranch, which is outside of the city, got to be secluded for a weekend. It was the first time I was away from my kid, I got to be with these girlfriends. And it was run by one of their moms who it was all about, you know, how do you pray? And how do you build this relationship with God, and I was like, This is what I needed. I, I, especially growing up Catholic, for me, prayer was a very structured thing. It was it never really had that intimacy for me. And so, you know, I didn't know how to play, I didn't know how to play and I didn't know how to pray.
Samantha Cordera
And that just your baby has to come first sometimes, right? Like, if you don't put them first they will demand to be first they will find a way to be the first priority, right? They are persistent in that way. So, but then I was like, okay, we're gonna take a step back, we're gonna start I was like, I don't know how to love myself right now. I'm gonna just ask God, can you help me love You? Can you help me see where You are in my life, because I know that it's a sin to not be grateful for the things and to, you know, be in denial about Your work here, but I cannot see it.
Samantha Cordera
Right. And I just I need to, I'm not going to feel bad about that. I'm just going to ask Him for help so that I can see Him. And then I'm going to add, once I see Him, I'm going to I'm going to ask for help to love Him. And once I get there, I can say, Help me love myself and help me love others. And help me feel good about the things that I'm doing helped me know that I'm on the right path, right, all those things, but I had to approach it very step by step. Right, take one step in the tunnel, eventually, I will see the light. And that was really, really a big change. For me really big transformation. My faith is from then on, I started saying, okay, I'm going to be in this communication with God. It's going to be a two way street where I'm not just expecting Him to show up. I'm not just expecting Him to come save me. But I know that He can save me, but I will also put the work in for this. And from then on, I started feeling I just started feeling slightly lighter. It wasn't this immediate, really big relief, but it was just kind of day by day. I don't know if that's how things I know, you know, sometimes we hear stories where everything changes overnight, for this person in their faith.
Diane Belz
Oh, some can but most stories are like yours that like almost like a gentle invitation that someone gave you into a community. And then that invitation was like, well, let's open up and understand what this relationship could be. Because it feels very odd to have a relationship with someone that you cannot see, feel and touch. You know that it's not. Sometimes you can hear audible, you feel like God's really speaking to there's different ways that we all respond. And it can be a difficult to rely and trust and love someone who where are they?
Diane Belz
Yes, I get that. And then when you look at all the invitations, because there is always that He's calling us close. And most of us, especially if we're strong and independent and like to do things our way. And you say I got it, I've got it. God, I don't I don't need you right now. I know you're there. But it's not like I don't I don't need you, you know, and then all of a sudden, we hit that spot of saying, oh my gosh, I am so overwhelmed. I'm feeling all these different feelings that I don't know how to process and deal with. It gives that opening that then He you know you're inviting H im in. Okay, I can't do this by itself. Sorry. I was wrong. Yeah, can you helped me now. And it's like that, that, just that invitation, and then just that release of saying I can't do it on my own. And that's invitation. Every day, the daily invitation. Come on in. Yes. Thank you. I needed that today for you to tell me this today Samantha
Samantha Cordera
Something that you said I'm like, oh, I need you but you know, those things and something that clicked for me during that retreat as well was they said not every time you talk to God, it shouldn't always be a 911 prayer, right? It can't always be like, you can only talk to him when you need major rescuing. And I was like, oh, okay, this should be a daily thing, right? Which sounds silly. That sounds like common sense. But especially when you're in the trenches as a mom, you just forget between the dishes and feeding and diapers and bath time and trying to take care of yourself, right? You just get sometimes you just forget. Then that was a big thing for me of like, okay, I need to be talking to Him every day.
Diane Belz
Right. And as he said, In the beginning, I think you were going over, it's called, like the ACTS. It's the adoration, contrition, thanksgiving and supplication, you know, what do you want. And if we forget that He's not there to, He's not the genie in the bottle. And too often we feel like it's expecting if we, we have this right process, or we do these things the right way, then, like, we're going to unlock his grace and goodness, and it's just going to pour down and everything's going to be perfect. I think that's more of a Disney movie. Then a relationship with God,
Samantha Cordera
we all wish we could be a Disney princess for a day or have a little fairy tale in our mind. But that's not how he worked. Right?
Diane Belz
Well, I think because when they're there, they're trying to sell movie, the doll. But that's their MO, and God's really trying to help us become all that He's created us to be. And sometimes that's ripping away all that we created for us to be. And having that relationships, that's okay, I'm vulnerable. Now. I'm willing to listen, maybe there's a different way. This is always really, really hard, is they're different way.
Yeah, He tends to not make it easy for us, right. But I think that's also common on we also tend to make things harder for ourselves sometimes. And we need to just, I think, we just forget to just be to simply. Be right, to just be who we are, be with Him be present. There's a simplicity that we forget about in our day to day lives sometimes. And God is like, alright, let's make things difficult if you want to make things difficult, right?
Diane Belz
I think when when I'm hearing you say that, think of the relationship with the that you have with your young child, sometimes we feel like we have to do more than just be with them. You know that we have to play this game of hide the toy under the blanket where it might be just being there being next to them being present with them, listening to them when they when they need us. And I at times still feel like I have to be doing mom, a doing grandmother and not a being. And when I went up to visit my granddaughters, they're saying oh, we want you to do is just be with us. Like you don't have to take us somewhere or buy something. I think the younger ones still likes me buying her stuff. They want me to just sit with them rub their back, watch some TV or just be with them. And I think we are such in a maybe thats a Pinterest environment that it's doing doing doing. And it's not being and when I look back, I wrote all my Facebook posts about my two moms, my my mother, my mother in law. And my mother in law was really into that being she could really she would just sit and have tea and chat with you for hours. My mother was a doing mom and just trying to get her to be a being Mom, just sit with me. And as I got older, I would have these special times with her on Fridays, where I wasn't working at the time. You know, my kids were in school. I was you know, in college and just knowing I had that, that being time with her was really precious. But maybe it's the same exact thing you just doesn't feel like we're doing anything. We're just saying I'm just here in your presence.
Yeah, you know, I makes me think of so my youngest is now one. And I think about he's like my just my chubby happy kid, right? So my oldest is my Superman Spider Man, go go go climb on everything. And my youngest is just happy and curious. But when I see him smile, the biggest is when his dad or I decide to instead of sitting on the couch, just sit on the floor with them. It's like I have not brought any toys with me. I have not brought an activity in mind. I have literally just sat on the floor near him and he gets so excited. He crawls over to us he gets really happy and then he goes and does his own thing. Right if I think if he gets sad if we leave and yeah, it's just that being with them. For them knowing that we're there for them.
Samantha Cordera
And I think that also the the connections that we were the things that start to click for us as mothers with our children. For me, I realized that I could not understand a relationship with God without that. I needed to become a parent for me to understand how God was there for me, which is like, I and it was the biggest probably epiphany for me ever. I remember like, when my my first was really little, he's crying for food, and I'm making the bottle. And I'm like, if you could just if you can realize that I am making your food, and it is coming. If you could just trust that it will be there for you. It's coming, you don't have to start freaking out. And then it was like, oh, like God is going to provide and I don't need to freak out about all these things that I cannot control. Like, He knows what I need, even if I'm not screaming. I mean, yes, I can scream to Him if I need to. If I need to express myself like that I can, but also, He knows what I need. And He's going to provide that. That was so transformational in my faith. I just I couldn't comprehend the relationship with God, with Him being the Father and us being the child without becoming a mother first.
Diane Belz
Well, I love how you just put that all together. It makes so much sense, right? He promises to give us our daily bread and we went or are like retirement bread. I want to see it all. You know, I want to see my everything. To the end, we want to see more than just today.
Diane Belz
And when you look at children, they're not looking past that basic need that they have. They're, they're not Well, Mom, are you saving for college? Mom, you know, what, sports team should I be playing on? They're not thinking that they're right there in the present. So it really is a very good depiction of that relationship. Because Jesus said, you know, be like little children have faith like little children. My guess is right now your your your sons are saying, I think she's got this. I think she's gonna get my diaper you there's probably less of that crying the toe anxious and demanding and more of like, I'm not liking this right now. I know you're busy. I just wanted to let you know that. I have poop in my diaper. Little little different. And that's the thing with our faith, right? We're really like, okay, I can I can release the reins and know that God has got it. Yes, a beautiful story, though. I love how you just shaped it all together. So how are you balancing it now Samantha? You know, you're still a mom, you're still trying to build your business? What are some things that you're doing to so that you can give yourself the love you need? Give God the love He needs. You have your husband, your sons, you have your clients or customers? You're like, oh my gosh, how are you keeping it all in check?
Diane Belz
Yeah, a few different strategies. One, when it comes to my business, I am very clear on where my boundaries are. And I think sometimes like work life balance, sometimes it's more of a blend, right? Like it's not always either or it can blend. But for the most part, I try to be very definitive of like, this is when I am not working. Like if even if a client emails me and I'm like, it's towards the end of the day, I'm still in the office, if I know I can't answer it, or complete that task before I need to. I need to end my day. Like it's just not going to get answered. Even if it's Friday, it will wait till Monday. I even use the focus settings on my iPhone so that I only get notifications from family on the evenings and on the weekends.
Diane Belz
And that is Yeah, and I just I've worked a lot. I'm going to be present with my kids or with my family, you know, when I'm not working. And I also found a way that prayer works for me every day, right? Like I one of my spiritual mentors, she can spend an hour with God every day and I'm like, That's awesome for you. I cannot sit down for an hour to do that. It's more of like an hour broken up right? So maybe I can't sit down with my Bible and read Scripture every day. But I can read my devotional every day. I know that I can listen to music when I want to at home but in the car, I'm gonna listen to K-Love and that's going to reset me even when I go to pick up my kids. Just that 10 minutes of have some Christian music on the way to my nannies like that helps me unplug and helps me refocus on my kids and also gives me a chance to be grateful for whatever has happened that day. Or to you know, maybe scream a little at God like okay, why did this happened today. Hopefully I can focus on the evening and on dinner and be happy. But God, this wasn't that cool. I also, I also just tried to see Him more in my in my daily life than the simple things if there's traffic, that just means He doesn't want me on a certain place on the road at a certain time. Right. So I just tried to slow down a little bit in practice just being right. And that has helped a lot.
Diane Belz
Well, I love what you're saying, too, is that you're setting up boundaries, because it's so hard for us to do that phone and that computer constantly binging, like, my sister calling me in the middle of recording. It's like, how many different distractions can you get at one time. And just saying, I, I can't do it the way everyone else is doing it. Let me find a rhythm that works. For me, you know, with your children, with your business with your family, with God. And it's Samantha's way of doing it. And that should always erase some of these Pinterest pictures from your mind. This is Samantha's way to do it. And it's perfect for right now.
Samantha Cordera
Yep, yes.
Diane Belz
And take the pressure off.
I still use Pinterest every now and again. When I'm like, Okay, I got to think of some kind of activity, one of the Pinterest Mom's doing, but it's with a lot less pressure. It's not with the why didn't I think of that it's more of like, Oh, how cool that they thought of that. I'm going to do that too. And it also helps to put things in perspective, right? Even if setting boundaries means that my business grows a little slower. It's it's growing in God's time, right? How He wants me to grow this and how He wants me to prioritize other things in my life. And there's just so much more confidence and peace with it all now.
Diane Belz
And that has to be a blessing in itself. You know, when you can have confidence and peace? You need this perfect combination. So what about your business? What are you doing? How are you? Why did you decide to become an entrepreneur? Tell me a little bit about that.
Samantha Cordera
So I decided I want to be an entrepreneur, one because I was going a little stir crazy at home, right want to do something wasn't finding those opportunities. But also, when I think back at the jobs that I had before, I want to put myself in a position where I could actually enact change. So it wasn't so much about I didn't want someone else to be my boss totally fine if I have a boss, but I didn't feel as though as in positions before that I was empowered to make decisions and to make change that I thought would be beneficial for others. So in our business now we provide administrative and operations support to small businesses. So we have a team of virtual assistants that will be remote office managers, for small businesses, or the solopreneur. That just they don't need a full time employee, but they need someone to help them right. And on the operation side will help to streamline processes, automate systems and different things. And we've discovered that a lot of small business owners are great visionaries, and they have these great areas of passion, but they don't always excel at running their business. And that brings us a lot of joy, where we can step in behind the scenes to make our clients look really good. And while we run and organize all the chaos that they have going on.
Diane Belz
I can see it on your face is saying you really enjoy this. Why did you decide to step into that space?
Samantha Cordera
Well, my background was in supporting executive teams, project coordination, office management. So it was something that I was familiar with. It also was something that I felt small businesses really needed. Again, when we look back or when I look at, you know, their their visionary, that all their aspirations and all their ambitions. And I also look at who do I want to be connected with, I want to be connected with people that didn't make me feel bad about being ambitious, that made me feel inspired. And so I get to help my clients but I also get to feed a little bit off of their success by just being inspired by them and learning from them. And it really gives me ideas for what to do next and you know what the next year or next phase in my business might be? And I also think that it feeds a little bit into into how I'm how I am as a mom and how I show up as as a wife. Right and I get to be in a in roles where I am supporting but I am supporting in a way that makes me feel good.
Diane Belz
Okay, because sometimes we feel we don't want to be in that supporting role where it It can give us a lot of joy, knowing that. Because I would tease my former boss, he was the CEO, I was an executive as well. I would say, I'm just your highly paid executive assistant. And he would say, no, you're not. And I would say, yes, because you're trusting me to do things that and I'm okay with that, I want you to look good. That's what all of us should be doing with our boss to make them look good. And help them and I would, I enjoyed that aspect of what we were talking about the ying and the yang, he would want me to write and then he was the editor, he would find that missing comma. And, he would give me back the paper with red ink on the changes that I would have lost administrative assistant or his administrative assistant, or according to how private it was, I will just say he'll confidential was, you know, make the changes.
Diane Belz
And I, I like supporting people who were smart, and we're doing good work, that it's okay to be in that role. And at times, we can feel like, well, I want the starring role. Well, you can be the star at any given time. But part of our being a star is lifting others up. So even today, when I am podcasting, right, who's the star of the show, you are me? You!
Diane Belz
I'm just supporting your story and getting your story out there. And that, that feels right, I don't have to be the star all the time. And it's just well, we can realize that we can go into much enjoy doing these things that at one time, we might have felt would have been less than. Or if I'm going to be a business, because you're still the CEO, or you're still the business of your company. But then that look of joy that you had and saying, you know, I want to be around really smart people, how do I do this, then, you support them. And it becomes this really good synergy relationship, You're supporting their success. And by them having you on board they're supporting your success. So with that, that balance again? Or is it a blend? I don't know you'd like the word blend
Samantha Cordera
little bit of both there.
Diane Belz
That is awesome. So how are your kids doing now? They sound like they're not in your home anymore? Are there? I don't know how that the working relationships are.
Yeah, we have set up or part time within nanny share. So I get them out of the house for three days a week, I get to focus for those three days. And then two days a week plus the weekends, they're home with me, which sometimes, you know, they'll go a fourth or fifth day, depending on how busy I might be with our my team or with our clients. But for the most part, that's the rhythm that we've settled into. They are three and one and they absolutely they my oldest loves being a big brother. And I've caught him praying with my little kid by my little one before like this. There's just those moments of like, okay, I've done something right here.
Diane Belz
That it Precious Moments precious moments. Yeah.
Samantha Cordera
Yeah. So we are we're doing well as a family.
Diane Belz
Oh, that's awesome. I really do love your story. Because I think that there's so many of us that gets so busy. We feel like we've got it, we're in control. And then you realize that there's someone who really has got us. And He's in control. And if we can just let it go. Oh, I needed to hear this today, Samantha. So thank you. Thank you well. Well, I'll put the information in the show notes. If you are someone who needs some support. Reach out to a man, Samantha I'm sorry, I don't know why I want to call you Amanda, Samantha. And we'll we'll share all that in her show notes. Any last words for moms or entrepreneurs that you want to any advice? Any wisdom?
It's just you got to have hope and you have to know He's there for you. Even Even if you don't always feel Him is there. If I can actually if I could squeeze in one more story, if that's okay,
Diane Belz
Go right ahead.
Samantha Cordera
Sometimes it will feel like when you are going to meet someone at a coffee shop and you think that they're late and you're texting them, like where are you? And then you look up and He's there and He's like, I've been here the whole time. I just needed you to look up. And that's how it's gonna feel sometimes. And He's there for you. He's given you coffee. He's given you what you need, and you're gonna get through it.
Diane Belz
I am just so glad that you met these ladies that spoken in to your life and gave you something that there was an there was a void that something was missing. And how it filled you up to really, you know, speak into your children, be a good wife and mom and then be able to do this business as well. And how would I even felt if it didn't happen? It didn't happen. Just go back to that, pre Samantha always relying on herself. And just what are some of the differences that you're seeing now that you have this firmly established faith?
Wow. Oh, wow. That I mean, that wasn't really angry. Samantha, that was, as I you know, is I was jealous and envy. You know, I would see a mom on the street. And I'm like, you know, I don't even care if she had a rough day, she looks like she's happy right now. And that's not fair. Or I would be resentful to my husband, if he had a good day at work. I would be resentful to my friends that didn't have kids because they got to go out and go do things and explore and do things that I just wasn't able to, because I got kids at home. And I honestly don't think that I would have had success in my business because I think they would have just been consumed by all that negativity. And I don't think that I would have the community that I have, I think I would still love my husband because he loves me and he's faith based. And he's like that we're in a marriage between you, me and God. I'm not giving up so I think I'd still have him. But also like, my children wouldn't be as happy, right? And I wouldn't have my business I wouldn't have that community and so I think my life would look very different even though it's only been a few short years, but it would I think it would look really different.
Diane Belz
Well, I am glad you met God and I'm glad that I met you so thank you.