PART 1 –
WHO ARE YOU?
Isn’t it funny when, THEY TRY TO DRAG YOU DOWN but that only rises you up even higher!
What do you stand for?
In this podcast you will hear me state very
clearly, that in order to really know what you stand for, you have to know WHO
YOU ARE. You have to be VERY clear on WHO YOU ARE!
Back in 2020,
I went on a self-discovery mission. It started when I was in the phase of my
degree modules looking at ‘THE SELF’ from a philosophical and psychological
perspective and in breaking down the attributes that determine the self, it
made me really see things from a multi-angular perspective. It really made me
tap in to parts of myself I never knew existed. This, my friends, is growth.
Evolution of our interpersonal and intrapersonal selves and how we help shift
through this thing where song lyrics started to have a deeper impact on me and
I really started having AHA moments where the meanings behind a lot of things I
had never clicked with before started to really hold new weight and make sense
to me in a way they never had before. One in particular, was the song the
pretender, Foo Fighters, where please, go listen yourself but, in a nutshell,
WHO ARE YOU? And are you going to stand up for the truth, your worth, your
In order to
do that, you have to peel back all the layers and go inside and underneath to
find out WHO YOU ARE! This my friends, is what is otherwise known as ‘the dark
night of the soul’. The beginning of your self discovery journey and it is
painful, brutal and will shake your world so wildly you won’t be the same
person on the other side that you were when you first went in. The alchemist is
the one who transforms their pain in to wisdom. Now thyself!
One thing on
that, is the difference between your ROLE and your identity. If you label
yourself as ‘Mum, Wife, Friend, Accountant, Teacher etc etc’ then you are
limiting yourself because those roles are ever evolving and when they shift and
change, our only constant, you will be left with ZERO SELF WORTH and you will
not be able to form authentic relationships or fulfilling life possibilities
because you are not putting any essence of YOU in to the parts of your life
that require more. Those parts require YOU and you can never get what you want
out of life if you’re coming from a place of unknowing, inauthentic pretence,
superficial understanding and limited belief. This is the problem with most of
the world. We are too afraid to BE who we truly are. The real I AM that comes
from identity and not role. That part of you that is soul based and goes deeper
than the role. I AM an introvert / extrovert. I AM quiet / reflective. I AM a person
that dreams almost every night or that gets deeply affected when I listen to
Chopin. I love walks in the rain because it makes me feel…..I love swims in the
sea though I AM afraid of deep water. I LOVE psychology. I DO NOT LOVE maths. I
LOVE to star gaze. I AM an empath….you see, its far deeper than I AM a mum. I
LOVE being a mum but I am more than just my role. It does not define who I
truly am. In honesty, nor does the above either on a grander scale because if
we look further a field in to other energetics (story for another time) then we
are even more than that too. This again, is evolution but, right now, we’re at
the birthing stages of a new understanding so baby steps are required. Let’s
not go too fast but, lets at least start somewhere…And that somewhere is
exactly what I AM talking about! WHO ARE YOU? Dare to question it please!
– The only way you
can be true to your SELF is by being accountable for the things you have done
wrong, said wrong and perceived wrong so that you can say ‘Ah, ok, I see it
now. That was not right. I was wrong and I AM sorry.’ I have come to learn as
mentioned in the podcast, that I cannot lie any more. It destroys ME and my
light to lie. I have to come from a place of truth otherwise I will have to
repeat repeat repeat the same lessons over and over until I have figured it
out, and I don’t want to continue in these lower energies where the pain is
held because I want to be free from those parts of me that I have held to
account. But, on the other side of this is, if I see someone else also needing
to be held accountable that’s energy or consequence is entering in to my life
and embedding its effects there, I will say so and I will hold them accountable
too, for I cannot do the work on me and my life and surroundings for someone
else to come by and shatter it all through their fault and soulless destruction.
No! And this is what we all must do, for we only ever rise up when we are shown
that we are at fault and that fault needs correcting. As adults, we seem to
have this misinformed notion that we must discipline and rule over children.
That we are the authority over them and that they must do as we say. I would
argue that most adults are in need of strong re-correctional behavioural and
mental awareness themselves and that they’re in no position to set the
standards for our youth until they’ve done that work themselves. I would also go
as far as to say that the youth that present problems of self-worth and who
display temperaments of bad ego, bullying, rudeness, bipolar disorder, anxiety
and depression stem from adults who are harbouring trauma, do not take
accountability and do not know themselves. These are trauma cycles that, as I
have said time and time again, unless we cut the cords, bonds and shackles and
break free from these learned behavioural loops that are embedded in our
generational lineage, we will be doomed to repeat repeat repeat until we do.
Well, I am
done! That’s why, this little black sheep is no longer afraid to speak her
truth or show up in her own way any more. You may say whatever you like. You
may not understand but….I DO! Those that judge others don’t even know
themselves so what does it matter, right?
through some old twitter posts last night after a friends daughter came over
and they found me online haha and I am historically very private about my
twitter with my closest, nearest and dearest as that’s my place to get weird
and be me, as she called it ‘unhinged’. It’s been one of the greatest learning
platforms for growth and development and I have embraced the far outness that
has come from many of those I network with there but I never wanted anyone in
my daily life to know it was me or see what I was saying in case it could be
used against me, except how can it? I am all clear, because I’ve done the work!
And given certain recent events on a personal scale where I have been abused by
a poor, sad narcissist that refused my light and their own, it has only
confirmed my calling to me and made me rise up even higher, so, I reject my own
doubts and fears and I am out there, ME, MYSELF AND I and I don’t care who
knows it or sees it because I have nothing to hide and my messages are ALL to
help others rise up and hold themselves to account so that they can also do the
I have spent
years now, studying various degree fields in philosophy, psychology, theology
and so on and so on, and all because I have a deep, intrinsic need to know why
we’re here and who we are so that with that knowledge, I can change the world.
Sounds a big job right? I can’t do it alone though….In the last few years, I’ve
found my army. I am armed to the hills with the highest forces and some of the
most incredible souls I’ve ever met! The universe, once you understand how it
all works and understand the part you play (role) Who you are (soul) and why
we’re here (Goal) all comes together to assist. I lost all my anxiety and fear
2 years ago. It melted away like butter in a pan. Ask my husband, the
difference between the person I was before I found myself to the person I am
now…..And you can do it to! SO, WHO ARE YOU? Don’t be a pretender!
voice inside your head
face that you have to face
left, I'm what's right
hand that'll take you down
to your knees
So who are
in the dark, you know they all pretend
CONSCIOUS PERSON USES THE WORLD AS A MIRROR TO BETTER UNDERSTAND AND MASTER
THEMSELVES. THE UNCONSCIOUS PERSON ATTACKS THE MIRROR FOR THEY DO NOT REALISE
IT’S A MIRROR
LIGHT AND SOUND podcast for more info about how we’re all just light triggering
rays and reflectors. Either you’re awake or you’re not)
I am in the
throws of writing my works that are compiled parts of my ‘ALL THE SCATTERED
PIECES’ podcast and they are designed in
1) Embodiment – Learning to hear what
your physical body is trying to tell you
2) Mind control – Connecting the body
and mind to create a unified balanced state of neutrality
3) Respiratory – Respirar – To breath -
Learning to Re spirit yourself through the power of breath and how that alters
you on a physical and mental level
All of these
body, mind, soul works help you put the pieces back together. That is why we
are all here. We are all just guiding each other home!
PART 2 –
WHERE ARE WE AND WHY?
biggie. Not just my work but POV from a few others. Open your mind for this
one. It’s next level….
reading. If you resonate, please share!