In 2020 I decided to start a business. I was thinking and thinking about what kind of business I wanted to start, but I couldn't get past that block. I ignored the block, decided to continue on the path I was already on...until I couldn't go along further.

In this episode, I share how I stumbled onto my healing experience and how it propelled me into the actual dream of starting my own business.

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Welcome to episode two of the Be A Boss Coaching Podcast. My name is Beatriz. I'm an entrepreneur coach, and I don't know if this podcast will be named be a boss Coaching, honestly, but since I don't want that to stop me not knowing the name of this podcast to stop me, I'm gonna call it Bea Boss Coaching for now.

Okay, so just a little bit of vulnerability here of getting into a vulnerability space right now. But every time I think about recording an episode, I get so nervous. I was talking to my partner, Shaun about this, and I was telling him that I get so nervous whenever I have the podcast booth reservation and I record these episodes at the library. There's a booth that you can reserve for free. And every time that I have a reservation, I get so nervous the day off, and I think about it and I. I don't know why I like sometimes wanna cancel. And my partner was saying that, why don't you think about it like a job, like it's your job.

That's what you're doing, right? This is for your business, this is your job. And I was like, I could think about it that way, but at the same time, I've been in situations where I've had a job and like I didn't wanna do it right? Like I used to get anxious going to my job too. So it doesn't really help that I think about it as a job, but in a way, if I wanna stay accountable to myself then I have to, I do have to think about it like a job. It's my responsibility because I told myself that I wanted to do this and I'm actually doing it so we're gonna do it. And with all the nerves and all the feelings and emotions. And if you haven't heard yet, I'm a true cancer, and I feel a lot of stuff.

Alright. But. That's my vulnerability piece a little bit, and I do wanna take the time to remind y'all that , if you're someone like me who has fears around showing up online, around taking up space, around sharing your story, and really putting yourself out there so that you can teach people and impact a community or impact a group of people and you're having a hard time, grab my social media guide for introvert entrepreneurs. I really designed it and created that for people who are more on the introvert, shy side of things, because it's hard, it's tough, right? Like especially if you wanna start a business and you're starting by yourself and you're starting on creating assets for your company or for your business.

You are the one person that's going to be front and center. Your voice, your face, everything that you create. Even if you do create content in media where you don't show sometimes it's tough to create something and then put it out and put your stamp on it, and if that's something , that is difficult for you.

Go over to my website at beabosscoaching.com and download my free guide. It goes over the ways in which I slowly but surely actually got over the initial fear of posting online for my coaching business. And I would love to know how it has helped you in your journey as a new entrepreneur navigating the world of social media.

Okay. Okay. That I needed to take a deep breath. Y'all. I realized that when I'm recording a podcast, I run out of breath. I don't know if any it, does it happen to anyone else? It's weird to just talk and talk. I don't normally talk this much, which is crazy. I'm like literally talking to myself.

But I actually have, I. People in mind, I have people in mind that I'm talking to. And today I wanna talk to you about healing and that journey, what it was like or what it has been for me in this, embedded in this journey of starting my business. And let's get into it. . So in the beginning of my journey, I was trying to embrace this new identity of an entrepreneur, and I didn't realize that's what was happening because when you make the decision to start a new business, you don't realize that you're actually taking on a new identity. And I was having a really hard time trying to figure out what kind of business I wanted to start.

It was very exhausting, and I'm not gonna lie to you, okay? I'm a lazy person, okay? I hate working. This is why I started my own business, right? Like I hate working. I don't. Hate working when I'm doing something that I love , but I'm starting to be okay with this fact, right? That I'm, I don't like to work and accept that I'm a lazy.

B I T C H. But that doesn't mean I'm not a hard worker. Okay? I'm lazy, but I work hard and I have the master's degree, the work experience, and now the coaching business to prove it. And actually this new podcast to prove it as well. But here's what makes me lazy, okay? I think ahead. To when I think I'm going to be tired.

I try to avoid it and because I try to avoid it, I end up not doing what I said I wanted to do because I have this aversion to feeling exhausted and tired. And here's the thing with that, right? I've come to understand that I value self-care, like that's one of my biggest values, and that's always been one of my biggest values even before starting this journey.

And because of that value and the belief that you should put yourself first and practice self-preservation first, knocks down all of the other beliefs that I have around hard work and the values that I need and the beliefs that I need to create a business from scratch.

I think that honestly, like that's something that I've thought about and have reflected upon recently is the fact that I value, self care so much that sometimes I wonder if that actually stops me from putting in hours and not getting myself to the point where I'm going to burn myself out and not going and wandering into the hustle mentality, which is something that I'm always afraid of because I don't like to get myself to that point. But it goes so much deeper than this, and this fear of exhaustion was keeping me from really doing the work of deciding on a business idea. And this is wild because when I think back on that time, I also was afraid to go hard on a business idea because I was so afraid that when I did go extra hard, And then take the time that I need to recover to take care of myself, that I would be letting down my friends and my partner, because ultimately I was only putting myself first.

And this is why healing is so important for any journey that you decide to embark on, especially when that journey is one that prioritizes you.

when you decide to do something big, like starting a business. You're gonna feel blocks, you're gonna feel stuck. You're gonna be at a red light waiting for a green light to show up. And let me tell you what happened to me and how it manifested for me was I had made the decision to start a business, but my block was trying to figure out what kind of business I wanted to start.

But instead of working on that block and instead of working on any healing that I needed to do, I actually decided to go after my L C S W. And for those of you who don't know what an L C S W is, it stands for Licensed Clinical Social Worker. I'm a social worker, so I had my license in New York, but I decided to do and process my paperwork for my license in California because I was moving and.

Because I had already been on this path of a social worker, I had gained the experience in New York. I knew that I could get that in California. I knew what I needed to do to get my license in California. Even though I was very resistant to it because number one, I didn't wanna be a therapist.

Number two, I didn't want to continue on this social work path. But yet I went and continued on that path because I didn't want to figure out the block that I was having around what kind of business I wanted to start, even though that's actually what I really wanted to do.

But I didn't listen to myself. So what I did is I purchased access to courses that provided me with the missing courses that I needed to get my license anyway. But I came across a particular class that really triggered me. And when I feel ready, I'm gonna talk about it.

But I was being so triggered by this class, and I guess in a way, now when I think about this was part of the process. I guess this needed to happen in order to come to that point where I knew that I couldn't move along any further in this journey without addressing the healing that I needed to do.

And I'm telling you like I couldn't sleep, I couldn't concentrate, and I finally realized in the middle of the night, I realized that I had a therapist, that I had a therapist for like the past four years, and I didn't think to text or call her and be like, Hey, I am, I'm triggered. I can't sleep, I can't concentrate.

And she had known about this journey of mine or this new decision of mine, of starting my own business, but, and I had talked to her about that, but I hadn't thought to talk to her about my trigger about why I was getting triggered. So I texted her and I told her, essentially I was having some serious thoughts about just the trauma that I had never discussed and that I had never discussed with her.

But I needed the help in that moment to process and to let things go, to heal to talk about. Things that I had been holding onto for a very long time, and she provided me the space to talk about what I needed to talk about out loud, which was wild to me. How I had never even spoken out of my body, my voice into words things that I really needed to heal from, and.

She gave me the space to talk to voice what I needed to voice to let it out of my body, and she provided the support that I needed to understand what my healing process could look like for me. ,

After going through this with her and really finally taking the needed time that I needed to speak with her, to process with her, I felt so much lighter. I felt lighter in the sense that I knew that I wasn't alone, and I could always rely on my support system to help me whenever I called upon them.

And my healing journey, what it looked like for me was being able to talk with my loved ones about something that I had never talked to anyone, not even to myself about , if that makes any sense, but something that I carried with me and shove down didn't realize it gave me the self-doubt, it stopped me from being authentic.

It stopped me from making decisions. And no longer hiding. Or no longer feeling ashamed. . Being able to speak with my family about it, it really just proved to me that I could do anything. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do is talk to my partner about it, to talk to my closest family about it, and I knew that after that because that was such a hard thing to do that I knew I could do anything.

And sometimes I have to remind myself of that that I did that, that I'm courageous enough to do that, that I did it. And it was such a liberating experience for me to create my own healing experience I know that this is some deep shit y'all, and for a second episode. I don't know how this is gonna turn out. I don't know, but I'm here today and I'm here creating this podcast today because of embarking on that journey because I needed to go on that healing journey, and I want to illustrate that because when there is blocks and experiences that make it hard to understand why we can't make simple decisions, why we can't think clearly, it's probably because we're trying to shove things down that.

Take energy, even though we don't realize it, the take up energy we've probably been doing it so long that we don't even realize it. And shoving down your emotions and not going through the healing process that you need, clutters your being okay. You don't make room for your own sense of self-worth of confidence and clarity.

So whatever journey you want to embark on, whether you're starting a business or on a quest for self-discovery, you'll have to muster all the resilience and courage to , reinforce. The idea that you're a person capable of creating badass moves and that you're worthy of abundance, that you're worthy of being your full, authentic self without any shame, and that you're worthy of stepping into the boss of your life in your truest authentic self, you're entitled to that.

Overall, that will require facing the parts of your life that you want to forget, and they'll always be nagging at you until you address them and begin to heal them in ways that only you can define. But I'll guarantee you that they will free you.

 I hope that was helpful, and if this resonated with you, screenshot this episode. Tag me on Instagram at Beabosscoaching, or send me an email. I'm at beabosscoaching@ gmail.com. And come on over to beabosscoaching.com

That's my website. Check it out. Send me a contact form. You can book a call with me there as well. If you'd like to explore coaching for yourself and you're thinking about hiring an preneur coach for your entrepreneurial journey, it's a journey that is truly. A unique one, a very special one. And to walk in that journey authentically is a, it's just an amazing and feeling truly.

So come on over. I'd love to hear from you and I hope that you continue on your journey with grace, with a passion, with love, and. That was it for me, y'all. Have a great rest of your week and we'll have people on here. Hopefully, I'm still learning.

How do they manage their identity as an entrepreneur? How do they, how have they molded that entrepreneur identity for themselves? And , we'll continue to have these conversations. All right. Bye, y'all. Have a great rest of your week.