A story that spans continents and the quiet ways a calling finds you. This conversation follows a woman whose prophetic dreams pulled her toward a work she never went looking for, and the cultural and spiritual mantle, the korowai, that parents hand to their children as the foundation for everything that follows.
Esther welcomes a guest whose obedience to a dream became a mission across cultures. They talk about the korowai as a symbol of love and inheritance, the courage it takes to act on something you cannot fully explain, and how faith turns a private conviction into work that serves other people.
I am not well connected. I am not even from this country. Who am I to come in and say this is what needs to happen?
The Broker's Table is hosted by Esther Jackson-Stowell. New conversations on faith, family, and the kind of wealth that outlives you.
Welcome to the Berkwell Stable.
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:Today's episode is called Dreams Wrapped in a Chorowai,
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:of Love, a story that spans continents, cultures,
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:and the mysterious ways divine inspiration connects us all.
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:Today we explore the intertwined journeys of two women
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:whose paths were woven together by dreams, destiny,
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:and the sacred traditions of the Maori people.
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:This is about prophetic dreams that transcend cultural boundaries
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:about spiritual gifts, ancient scripture,
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:and about how indigenous wisdom can illuminate the divine connection that bind us.
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:Before we begin, across the world, people have treated dreams as windows
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:into purpose from biblical Joseph and Daniel to Maori
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:understandings of Guar-Ruwa,
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:and ancestral guidance.
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:Science adds that the most vivid dreams typically arise in REM sleep.
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:A uniquely weak, like state, where emotion and memory processing run high.
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:So, Kerry, your journey with prophetic dreams is remarkable.
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:Can you share three dreams that help set things in motion for you?
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:Yes, it was just an ordinary evening.
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:I put my three children into bed,
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:and I didn't realize that when I went to sleep that night
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:that I would be called to do something by the following morning.
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:So, my first dream was where I saw children, thousands of children,
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:who were going hungry.
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:In this dream, I had an insight into their lives
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:and felt this like overwhelming love for them,
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:like that of a mother for her children.
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:And I really felt God's love for them
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:and wished that they could know that I'd had this dream about them.
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:So, in this dream, I was shown that they were suffering from hunger,
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:and that permeated into everything else in their lives,
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:because when you're hungry, you can't concentrate at school.
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:When you're hungry, it affects your temper and emotions.
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:It wasn't just that they were hungry, it was impacting everything.
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:It had this knock on effect.
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:But the thing that was probably the hardest thing in that first dream
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:was the hopelessness that they felt, and I could feel it.
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:And that is something that I really struggled with,
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:because they didn't know it, but they were loved children of God.
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:And when I woke up in the morning, I was like, okay, I was given this calling.
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:The words of my dream said to feed the children,
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:and so I knew that was a calling that was given to me.
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:But then, as the days roll on by, the binamarm, three kids,
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:and just getting on with things, I felt, who am I to even begin this.
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:I'm not well connected, I'm not even from this country,
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:and who am I to come in and say, this is what needs to happen.
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:The doubts that's settling in. Yeah.
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:So, I didn't doubt the dream, but I doubted my ability and why I was given that dream.
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:It didn't make sense to me, and so I just put it on the shelf.
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:But then, later, I had another dream, and in this dream, I saw the same children,
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:the same faces, and they were still hungry.
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:And I felt this like overwhelming guilt that I hadn't done anything, I hadn't started.
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:And I watched as a team of people prepared food,
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:and that then watched as this food was taken to the schools.
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:And so, until that dream, I didn't realize that New Zealand didn't have a food and school system.
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:I just assumed that every country had some sort of system.
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:I'd send my kids to school with a sandwich box, but I didn't ever think about those kids
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:that would be going hungry, because I just had this assumption until this dream.
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:And so, in this dream, it was clear we need to take food into schools.
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:And I made a promise to those children that I would find them,
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:beat them, and serve them.
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:And so, that was the second dream.
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:And that was the time where I leaned over my husband Matt for about two hours.
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:My friends awake up. I startled him.
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:I'm there, and I blow my eyes out over him.
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:And that's when I said, okay, I need to do this, because this is my second dream.
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:And I saw the same kids.
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:So, that's when things began in movement motion.
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:It wasn't like official charity work, but I began delivering foods to schools on the shore
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:and the high-riskers coast, just two families that need it.
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:So, it might be like one or two families in that school that, for example, in one of the schools,
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:there was a mum that was struggling with chemotherapy treatments.
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:She had several children, and so would take food into her for free,
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:late to the school for the children.
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:And so, just alleviating those needs.
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:I knew that I wasn't actually feeding the children that I'd seen in my dream.
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:But when I looked back, those couple of years were good training ground,
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:because it was like finding the right containers that don't leave you,
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:or finding the right boxes to keep things warm.
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:Just even timings, how long it takes to cook things and package things,
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:and also like ordering the right amount of quantities, because that was okay.
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:And I think those preparations helped lead the way to feed the need.
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:But then it wasn't just a catastrophe when we began.
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:During that time, I had a third dream, and in this third dream,
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:I saw myself standing in a government building of New Zealand,
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:and everyone was wearing really lovely posh clothing.
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:And I remember asking in the dream, like, why am I here?
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:And it was because of the work in feeding children going hungry.
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:So, always throughout the years, I always believed that we were probably there
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:because maybe we're going to share stories of what we saw on the ground,
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:the impact it had on the children.
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:I never thought it would be what it ended up being.
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:But in that same dream, I saw this mari man,
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:just stood by these brown doors, and he was holding keys.
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:And he beckoned for me to come towards him,
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:and in this dream, I walked towards him, and as I walked towards him,
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:he used the keys to open this door.
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:And it just for me to walk through the door, and as I did, I walked into this bright light.
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:And that was the end of my dream.
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:And so, I'm really good at guessing what my dreams mean, and I get it wrong.
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:But I always thought, I wonder what light was, what was that bright light?
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:It wasn't like a constant question.
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:Why would we be in the government building?
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:Who was that man?
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:Why was he holding keys?
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:Why was I to walk through that door into that bright light?
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:And yeah, I just knew that one day I'd meet him.
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:One day I'd meet the children from my dreams, and that it would all make sense.
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:But with dreams, like lucid dreams, they are different to dreams where you might have a dinosaur chase in your head.
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:Whatever.
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:It's different, and lucid dreams are where you're aware you're dreaming.
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:So it's kind of different.
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:So people often ask, how do you know it was a dream that had a meaning?
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:It was later on that I read up about lucid dreams and how they were different, and it all made sense.
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:That, oh, okay.
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:Yeah, it was lucid dreams because I was definitely aware that I was dreaming.
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:I knew I was dreaming, but I was confident that one day I would meet their children and meet that modern man.
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:So I have three follow-up questions.
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:The first one is, you mentioned the dreams and how you were preparing for it.
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:There's a lot of echo in that, in the scriptures, whether an angel shows up and then prepares someone for what they're actually going to deal with in life.
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:Just as the angel showed up for Mary and let her know that this is what her job was going to be.
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:And there are other things in the scriptures that shows for that.
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:So I'm glad that you mentioned that because it shows that when you have those divine dreams or divine communication,
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:that you're not just left to figure it out on your own, that God has a way of preparing you.
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:Like you mentioned, so I want to know when you started off with the schools initially, what was it about those schools?
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:How did you communicate with the people to know that these women, this woman needed a little bit of help because she was going through chemotherapy?
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:Like, how did you come about with that?
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:Yeah, so something that I've not written about or talked about is, I wondered how I could find the funds to feed those children from my dreams.
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:So I ended up starting a catering company.
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:And so we'd, we approached schools and we're bringing, and basically bringing in lunches to the schools, like, charged.
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:We'd charge for them. And then the plan was that my income would go to the charitable meals.
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:And so I wasn't planning to take an income. It was meant to go to the charitable meals.
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:Yeah, that took a while for any sort of dollars. And it was very frustrating.
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:We just kept having to borrow more and more money, which was difficult.
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:But you asked about how we found out about the families who were in need in those schools.
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:So we'd be taking those lunches to schools, parents would order online.
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:And then we would develop a relationship to the school staff and just say,
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:Hey, do you know of any families that could use these lunches and we can do it free of charge?
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:And they always knew. I think the office staff are very aware of the needs in our school.
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:Absolutely.
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:And so they were like, every time they were like, yeah, we know over this family.
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:There was always a two or three per school, two or three families that needed to help.
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:And it might be just for a season. And so that, yeah, that was good preparation.
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:I know that it was a couple of years just getting through that.
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:And then eventually the catering company became a cafe in a business complex.
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:And that's really when I was able to put my income into it.
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:Still very limited.
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:It really was. But just I was able to make a start once we got into the cafe.
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:This is because if that makes sense. Yeah.
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:And I would also like to point out that your husband, I love that he trusted you when you cried over him and said,
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:Hey, there's something I need to tell you. And I, you know, this is, and I love that he trusted you and was able to
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:follow through with what your dream was because that's the support that we all need where you have a very specific dream.
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:And to be able to follow through on that. Matt, we thank you for being just supportive and just an amazing husband on that end.
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:First of all, I love what you've done with that and your desire to follow through and not ignore something so important.
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:And recently I gave this presentation where we talked about callings and being able to accept your calling and then persevere to the end.
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:And the perseverance side is very hard sometimes because sometimes I tell people that you know what, I just want to take a nap for a moment.
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:I just want to nap for a moment with this perseverance, but and get back up and do it.
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:So I am absolutely grateful that you were called to do this.
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:You accepted that call and you're still persevering through all the wonderful things that you're doing.
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:So thank you for that, Carrie.
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:Which details made the first and second dream feel like an assignment rather than a passing image, looking back worded faith, community and logistics meet.
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:I feel like in the first dream when I was told to feed the children, I knew that was the invite to the calling.
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:The Divine Calling.
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:And then the second dream was like giving me that nudge.
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:You had to do this. Even though you think you're too busy, you think that you're a nobody, you think you can't have an influence, you think you can't do this and that.
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:It was that nudge to make me go, okay, this is a calling and it is, I meant to do something about it.
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:And yeah, I think it was just like, okay, this is just what I've got to do.
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:And so the community side of things, when I was doing those meals just dabbling basically into the charity work, I was becoming a little bit more confident with close friends and family telling them about my dreams.
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:And so we had people that would, because in the middle of it we adopted our daughter and we just built the kitchen and so on.
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:So we had people like step in and say, oh, look after your baby.
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:Let me help with this and let me pick up your kids from school.
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:So you talk about community that like was, this started at the very beginning.
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:But then as things moved forward, David Falamati, the one who I eventually met, the Maori man that was in my dream that I eventually met in person, he said I want to introduce you to my daughter because her background, I think your line's really well with what.
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:You're calling is.
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:And when we actually, we spoke over the phone, but we realized that actually we had met each other in person several years earlier, when not long moved to New Zealand, and it was in a mother's room.
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:And then that kind of leads into the community side.
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:Okay, so before we have Laurie, I want you to talk about reiterate that dream that you had with Laurie's father, just so that we can bring you into that.
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:When she told me that dream, it was just a very just beautiful first of all.
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:And I want the audience to be able to know because I think there are people out there that do have these vivid dreams and maybe they don't share it with people and maybe they don't talk about it because they're afraid that people won't understand.
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:But I want Laurie, when you speak to be able to share your culture to let people know that this is very much a part of yours as is, it is for my culture as well.
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:But to let people understand that these things are not just today, it's not just happening today, it's been happening in biblical times.
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:And we're just very privy to it at this modern times.
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:And your dreams, especially, they remind me so much of all the dreams, like we have Joseph, the dreamer in the scriptures and his ability to interpret dreams.
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:And what's so fascinating to me is your connection with her father and how you both had the same dream from different perspectives.
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:And to be able to confirm that is incredibly beautiful.
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:So please tell us about that.
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:So after that dream where I saw this Maruman, I didn't know who he was.
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:I didn't know when or when the government building thing would ever happen.
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:And so it was actually quite a while later, we were sat in a conference with my family.
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:And I saw this same Maruman sat on the stand.
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:And so I turned to Matt and I said, that's the man from my dream.
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:And there was somebody that I knew from behind because back then I didn't even have a mobile phone, but then literally I'm a mobile phone.
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:And so I asked him.
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:Here's her beautiful accent coming in.
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:I was a mobile phone. I love it.
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:It just took me a minute for my brain to adjust what I love it.
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:How do I, yeah, how do I phone a man that I don't know and tell him that I've had a dream.
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:So in between that time we adopted our daughter and we were actually going to go and visit her biological family in Hamilton.
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:And I went past this area and all of a sudden it was like the children from your dreams are here.
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:And my kids were wondering why I was crying and Matt was wondering why I was crying because we were just listening to the beach boys eating brown.
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:And that was like the push I needed, I think, to then have the courage to ring him.
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:I didn't know where the children were from my dream.
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:It was almost like I was doing my thing, walking in the dark and just waiting for that next bit of informational.
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:Yeah, so it was like, okay, this is it.
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:This is time I need to ring him.
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:So after that weekend we drove home on a Sunday and I said to my husband, I'm going to go upstairs and ring this man.
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:He was just like, you know what I'm like.
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:This is Matt.
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:Matt was nervous for you.
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:And so yeah, went upstairs and the daughter's number, my heart was pounding.
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:And I said, oh hi, you don't know me.
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:And he said, are you Pakeha?
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:And I was like, yeah.
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:He said, are you blonde?
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:I said, I have high lights.
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:So for the sake of understanding, can you explain what Pakeha means?
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:Yes, so white.
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:He said, I've been waiting for you, cool.
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:And so I hadn't at this point told him anything.
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:Or anyone outside of your family?
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:Immediately I'm like, did he have a dream about me?
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:Which again is not a normal thing, but that was the question.
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:Hey, how's it going?
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:Did you have a dream about me?
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:So you asked him?
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:I did.
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:I did.
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:I thought, okay, what did he dream?
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:He dreamt that he saw this Pakeha woman.
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:And he added that she was holding a baby and we had just adopted.
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:That was cool.
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:I was like, whoa, okay.
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:And I said, what does that mean?
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:He said, well, being, I love you.
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:And he asked the question, how is it a Pakeha going to help our Tamariki, our children?
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:But I was just like, oh my goodness.
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:These dreams that I've had, at least it's a dream that he's had.
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:There's something bigger going on.
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:This isn't my imagination.
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:So confirmations are great for you, but it's also for Matt to know that.
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:So now you've talked about the Maharima, right?
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:Lori, first of all, is visiting all the way from New Zealand.
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:I am.
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:But there's just a very instant connection that I feel with you.
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:And so I'm excited to hear your father's story as he shared with you and just how it connected him to carry.
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:Dad and I were really close.
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:And so for me, my dad has that spiritual gift of dreaming.
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:He's shared many, many a dream about warnings and things that I need to be aware of.
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:Even pull my husband and I in before we got married and we were dating.
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:I remember Kiri meeting here in the mother's room.
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:She was breastfeeded and had bags.
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:So in our church, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, there's a room that's
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:usually close to the bathroom for mothers to be able to nurse.
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:While they're there, and usually there's a speaker in there that allows you to still hear what's happening in the chapel.
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:So that's what they're referring to when they say mother's room.
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:So you went in there to take care of your child.
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:She was already there taking care of her child and you guys met.
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:Yeah, we just chatted.
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:And my background was as a nutritionist and working in across New Zealand and different Māori communities.
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:Interesting.
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:And helping just to share different practices around raising the whole door and health of the community.
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:And so using the whole door or health, well being of a community through good nutrition.
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:I love that you're speaking and you just have this connection with me that I'm like, I understand.
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:I know.
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:But I love it because I know it's important that I let our audience know that what it means.
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:Because I think it's beautiful. I can pick it up.
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:But I know it's beautiful and necessary for them to know what it is.
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:So if I pause you and interject, that's all that is.
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:Thank you.
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:Yeah, please do that.
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:Because I said, I'm going to have to think of the English and English words.
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:Because it's a natural thing.
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:Yeah, we met.
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:And I did recall here from the mother's room and he goes, I didn't know her.
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:And he saw Kari at the same conference.
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:He noticed her.
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:So it was meant to be.
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:And yeah, because of my background, I thought, yes, I probably can help.
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:And also, I'm one of eight children and dad was like a baker, a bricklayer initially.
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:And money was hard to come by.
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:And often I went to school without food.
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:And it really impacted my emotional wellbeing.
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:I really felt a lot of shame because of that.
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:And so I had experience that myself being in school without food and really had that willingness to help and be involved.
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:You understood it.
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:Yeah.
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:But also even in my work, working with these different communities,
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:I realized, oh my gosh, we can talk about good health and nutrition.
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:But actually, the most important thing is actually, can you afford food?
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:And it really came to my awareness that this is a widespread issue, food insecurity.
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:And it became one of my passions and my work to really advocate for that.
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:And like Kari, really purpose driven.
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:And I've never really thought, what career do I want to be in?
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:It's just been, I really feel like this is my path.
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:And I'll take this path and then see where it leads me.
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:And so I felt, I'll have a chat to her and felt a real connection and a real desire to help.
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:Yeah.
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:Oh, from your father's dream.
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:Yeah.
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:But also, when we met, she came over.
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:I was heavily pre-knit with my fourth.
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:I had three preschoolers.
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:Okay.
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:I didn't have a lot of spare time on my hands.
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:And she was a mother of young children as well.
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:But when I met her and she shared her dreams, I felt, again, those impressions, a real,
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:an instant need to help her.
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:Whatever I can do to help, I will help her.
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:But I made it really clear, I've got three little kids now about it.
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:And I have another one.
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:I can only do so much.
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:I'm not going to be hands on.
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:I'm just going to help you strategize and build a plan and all the rest of it.
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:So that changed.
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:Yeah.
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:Yeah.
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:So you wrote the book about those dreams.
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:And you told me the story about how you had her read to her father, had Laurie read to her father.
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:So I wanted just to make sure that my version of the dreams and what I saw and what he saw
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:and what we said that I had it right.
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:Yeah.
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:Because I think sometimes we can, over time, forget things and what.
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:And so I wanted to make sure that it was right.
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:Accurate.
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:And so I asked Laurie if she would read it to her dad.
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:Was it when he was in the hospital?
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:I can't remember.
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:I actually can't remember doing that.
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:But she came back and said, he said it was all correct.
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:And he added that he'd also recognize me in that same conference.
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:And up until Laurie read it out to him, I didn't know that.
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:I didn't realize that he'd actually recognize me.
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:So that was just really nice to learn that.
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:Because he did pass away.
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:It was a nice sort of last.
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:Confirmation.
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:Confirmation.
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:Yeah.
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:I just wanted to have you explain that moment and just sharing that confirmation.
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:Because like you said, there are doubts that creep in the way here and there.
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:And even it's that sometimes even if you absolutely believe it, those doubts would still come through.
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:So I love that you had that opportunity to give her another confirmation of just when he was sending
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:at the pulpit up on the stage that you, he recognized you.
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:Yeah.
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:In the crowd.
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:In the crowd.
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:And it just says you recognized him.
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:Yeah.
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:And I think that's just very powerful and just shows the divine in all of that.
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:Yeah.
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:And the work that you've, you ended up doing.
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:So this partnership ended up being this incredible thing that the New Zealand government ended
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:up implementing a whole food process for the schools in the school systems.
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:So tell me a little bit about that.
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:So basically we ended up doing a pilot and we did it in a cura.
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:Actually, this was before Feed the Need was actually established and Dave Varamati opened the door
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:for that.
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:And so we fumbled during that pilot.
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:It was very interesting.
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:But yet we saw miracles as well.
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:And there was, you talked about earlier community, there was like a whole team of volunteers.
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:And so that particular cura and that pilot, the thing that I remember the most was a miracle
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:to do with baked potatoes.
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:But also the principle of the school asked for the children, asked for us to attend the
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:school assembly and asked the children to come up and give us a hung.
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:And so we were in a line with some of the volunteers as well.
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:I'm going to pause right there.
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:Yeah.
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:Please explain to our audience what a hanger is.
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:And cura is school.
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:A hanger is school.
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:It's a school.
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:It's a school.
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:It means school but when you're saying cura it's a total immersion in the Māori language.
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:So it's, yeah, once you walk through the gates it's all in the Māori language.
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:Tiddell Māori.
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:Yeah, so that's where we went first and piloted because of our connections on my father's
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:connection.
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:And then the hanger is...
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:Shall we just become rest demonstrated?
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:Yes, please.
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:So you just touch noses and forehead and just lean into each other and she'll breathe.
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:That's a way of connecting with the other person.
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:So it's very much like when...
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:Very connected.
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:Yeah.
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:And it happens just in normal greetings, especially with males when they connect.
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:Yeah.
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:Yeah, I think that was, I'd never done that.
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:And so you line up and the kids lined up and they all gave you...
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:And they'd go to the people along the line.
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:Yeah, I...
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:It was such a special feeling.
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:And a special privilege I felt that day.
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:It was my first time experiencing it.
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:For you, obviously you'd have many of those.
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:Did you think it was special to have on that with the children?
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:For me it was...
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:I was crying.
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:Yeah.
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:When the children were performing.
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:Yes.
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:I felt the connection.
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:They were performing traditional songs.
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:Yeah.
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:And I felt this real love and connection with them.
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:Yeah.
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:Yeah.
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:Before we'd even served any food to them, we were all in emotional mess.
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:I think it also, like that feeling also confirmed the importance of this work.
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:Yeah.
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:Like every single one of those children were known to God and precious.
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:And we were having the privilege they trusted us to provide.
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:And the school, they were all so supportive.
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:Yeah, it was just a great experience.
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:We did fumble.
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:There was mistakes made.
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:Of course.
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:I think it's a lot of fun at this point.
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:Yeah.
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:When they were doing bite potatoes again.
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:Yeah.
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:But you know what?
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:It's the same word with the scriptures.
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:But took Moses some trials before he actually accomplished what he set aside to do.
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:So it isn't perfection, but it's perseverance.
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:Yeah.
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:Your willingness to persevere and fumble.
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:Yeah.
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:And finally get that done where the schools are now feeding those children.
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:And their well-being is truly being taken care of.
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:Like you mentioned, you know, when you didn't have food when you were a child and how it affected
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:you, like you know that those kids are not going to go to school and feel shame that they
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:haven't eaten or feel this need to act out because they're hungry and they are tired and
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:frustrated and don't know how else to behave.
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:So you, your work as alleviated those things that you felt and that you went through as well
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:so that they don't have to do that.
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:So then they can focus on school and what's important.
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:A lot of the focus is often like physical because you're filling their stomach hungry.
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:But actually you're trying to listen to someone when your stomach is growling or it's in pain.
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:It's important to have that physical nourishment.
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:But even more important, and this is from my own experience, is feeding that soul.
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:Nourishing this soul because I wish that I had that when I was growing up.
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:So I didn't have to experience that shame.
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:I shouldn't have experienced it because it wasn't my fault or even my parents' fault.
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:But it's just a natural part of being human and being different to everyone else at school who had
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:lunches.
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:But that was confirmed by a number of our young people that worked in the kitchen as we interviewed them.
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:I think every interview, most of them cried and I cried as well. Not untypical for me, but because they all experience the same thing, shame.
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:Feeling like their parents didn't love them enough to feed them.
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:And really it was just circumstances.
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:They understood that as they were older but still those feelings were so raw for them.
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:And also like some of those kids would take on that sort of...
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:So I remember just a letter saying that when my mum opens the fridge and cries, I know that we're going to go hungry that day.
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:And some of the kids would actually save some of their food and say, I'm going to take it home for my little sister.
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:And even I'm going to give some to my mum.
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:So I think that burden of food insecurity impacted the whole family.
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:And these kids were really sensitive to that.
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:So another thing I think that we learned was that it was actually not just feeling hungry pakus tummies, but actually knowing that people out there cared.
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:That was why I was the number one.
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:That's what I learned.
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:I was thought, okay, we need to feed them. We need to feed them.
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:But I think when we got the letters, the fact that we're caring, you must really care for us.
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:You must really love us.
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:Just stuff like that.
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:And so that was... Yeah, that was really interesting.
631
:And we did focus groups in money to a South school, remember?
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:Yeah.
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:Focus groups, teachers and with students as well, just to get underneath what was it impact?
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:What impacts were they saying? That was the number one impact that both teachers saw and students felt that they expressed to us and it just confirmed that didn't it.
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:How important that was?
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:So they weren't alone. You know what I mean? Their sufferings were known.
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:And I think along this whole thing we talk about this book, I think really towards the end of writing the book, I really felt like they knew they weren't alone.
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:They knew that there were people out there that cared for them. Their needs were being met.
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:But they never really knew the dreams. They didn't know about Dodafaramati's dream. They didn't know about my dreams.
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:And I feel like they deserve to know because God knew them before I did.
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:Yes.
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:And so that's one of the things that I really hope that comes out of this book, that even if it's just one of the children that read it, they understood that they were not...
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:That their suffering was known to a loving, Heavenly Father. Who had a plan?
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:Absolutely.
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:Yeah, so.
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:That's absolutely beautiful. I think a lot of times when we are struggling with our own insecurities and things that are going on in our lives, there's a tendency to feel like you're alone in this.
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:Yeah.
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:But there's something beautiful to know that you're never alone.
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:Yeah.
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:And it's the same thing that I tell our kids. Like even if you, it seems that way and it physically seems that way because it's just you in that room and you're crying, you're never alone.
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:Like God is always with you. And I love when our Heavenly Father provides people like you and you.
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:That are willing to say, God used me as a vessel to do thy work on this earth.
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:And I think for me that's the prayer that I pray every day, is that He will use me as a vessel to do His work because I cannot do it alone.
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:I don't know.
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:Like you didn't know which where the children were.
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:Yeah.
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:But you felt it when you drove through that area.
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:And you met Kari a long time ago, but your dad helped you connect in a way that was just completely different and more spiritual.
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:Yeah.
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:And more meaningful. Right.
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:Yeah.
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:And where you, yes, you still had your children. You still had all your responsibilities. But all of a sudden, because there was a different drive and a different meaning to the help that you were providing her, you were able to carve out time.
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:She actually had an experience.
664
:Yeah.
665
:Just going to tell me.
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:Yeah.
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:Because I just think how us, your, her, Olin experience was that first dream.
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:And when she first came to me, that wasn't my Olin experience. It was like, okay, come and help her.
669
:A little bit of this, a little bit of that.
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:And just help strategize because I got my kids here and that's a priority as always. And then we met one night.
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:We're planning out how to, we're to secure the cada, the school to do our pilot.
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:And then we're planning out who can we have on the ground, who's going to come in and back to the school.
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:And then we had, Curie has had an amazing community around her, friends that just wanted to help. She just has that way of drawing people in.
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:And so I was really amazed.
675
:Yes.
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:Like so many people helping out. And I thought I can play a little role. But I certainly didn't see myself being evolved operationally until the night that we met to figure out who would we invite to do that.
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:And as we had our little list of people, and we're going through the list. And then as we're going through the list, I felt this huge, like a baseball bat really, of spiritual confirmation.
678
:And that moment that I was to be the one on the ground leading out in that space. And I Curie saw my, what was my reaction?
679
:The reaction literally was like, that was her reaction. And I'm like, what just happened? What just happened there?
680
:And so at the time I was running that cafe. And so we were going to use that cafe to prepare the meals and get them out. But I knew I couldn't be everywhere.
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:And so that was where we were going through like, how was this going to work? Like, I can get, prepare the food. We can get it packaged. We can get it in the boxes.
682
:But will I be able to always go down to deliver? And just all those logistics? And she had this moment where she literally went and her eyes went wide.
683
:Yeah. Yeah. And cried. And cried. And so in that moment I just felt basically I need to do that. But then I don't have the gift of dreaming and having visions.
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:But occasionally I've had some experiences, but it's not a common thing for me. But in that moment God showed me my path and how it had led to where I am sitting today and how that was an important part of my contribution and preparing me for feed the need. It was all for that.
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:So it showed me I was at university. I'd already done two years. I didn't like, I was doing like bio chemistry. And I was like, oh gosh, don't want to be in a kitchen for the rest of my life. And I was thinking, what can I do?
686
:And my two friends were going to a different university. I was flicking through the prospectus. And then nutrition popped up. And I said to them, I'm going to do nutrition.
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:I'm coming with you guys to the South Island of New Zealand to study. And I always thought that was random. But actually what I was shown in that moment was that wasn't random.
688
:I was 19 years old, had already done two years. It wasn't random. It was the spirit saying, this is what you need to do. And I was like, your path was being left in front of you.
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:Yeah, it had been. And so that was no coincidence. And then my first job, which I exposed me to so many different Māori communities and even propelled me into leading in a national indigenous role at only 24 years of age, which I did not feel prepared for.
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:But my mentor who was in the role said, you ought to, I'm retiring, you ought to fill my shoes. And I thought, I can't do that. I spoke to it literally every day for six months. What do I do in this situation? What did it?
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:But I was shown that how I was connected into that job. My mentor is preparing me for that role and supporting me and how that was all to lead to helping Curie and her work with Feed the Need.
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:So that was my all in. I thought, this is my purpose right now. And that's all I needed. Although I cried all the way at home and called my husband. I called him and he said to me, and he was in between jobs. And it was the bottom of the economy back then. And he couldn't find work.
693
:And whilst I called him to cry to him to tell him what was doing, how am I going to do it with three little kids?
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:He said, I think you need to find a job. I think you need to go out to find a work. I said, I can't. I've got other work to do. We need to figure it out another way.
695
:And it wasn't easy. The next week, our next door neighbor came over and said, you do training. I can get you into a job next week. Heavenly Father tests you.
696
:And he really did bless us. But it was required a lot of faith and perseverance. But just a commitment.
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:Like when I know my kids always says to me, like, Mum, if Heavenly Father told you to divorce Dad, would you do it?
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:Like testing me and asking me questions was I know that I just can't not do it no matter how hard it is.
699
:And I think that's why it worked. Yeah. Because we both just had this. We've had our moment. We've had the conviction that this is what we're meant to be doing.
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:And it's not going to be easy. We're going to make mistakes. We're going to have the light persevere. But we're both in for the long haul. Whatever it takes. However long it takes.
701
:Yes, perseverance. That's what I tell you guys. Sometimes I just want to take a nap. I want to take a nap in the middle of perseverance.
702
:That's fun. Just get out and get out and keep going. It's going to take the easy part.
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:Yeah. So yeah, we ended up taking on more schools. And then the Salvation Army actually let us build a big commercial kitchen in their building that they could use on the weekends.
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:And that we could use during the weekdays. And that was a great partnership. And then we just kept expanding the numbers of children we fed and also the schools.
705
:But in the end, a woman named Jacinda Rodden, we met and she ended up joining our board. And we were working together with her. And we didn't know at the time that she was going to become the Prime Minister of New Zealand.
706
:What? Yeah. She was actually an I body back then. Yes. I want to have a road map. Everything that led you to this and then how you join and then now in this person.
707
:Because that is absolutely beautiful. It would be great to have that in visual form. Yeah.
708
:So I can't get Aaron to do it. My husband's after sick. There we go. Yeah. Something for him to do. So when I'm mad, Linda, I really felt that she was going to move mountains.
709
:That was why I actually found Laurie and said I think she's going to move mountains. We need her on our board.
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:Do you remember my response? What was your response?
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:You're like she needs to be on our board. And I said, no, she can't be on our board. Because of the political stuff.
712
:Yeah. Politically, right? She's aligned to a political party and then it could, we could be seen to be aligned to a political party.
713
:It's too, I don't like the idea. She goes, I know, I know. She's just meet her and then you'll know. Yeah. I meet her and I'm like, okay. Yeah.
714
:Yeah. And I think she was also meant to be on that. She already had history of philanthropy. Yeah.
715
:And she'd worked in a soup kitchen in New York. Yeah. Just she'd done all these things. I don't like it. Yeah.
716
:And so she was passionate about alleviating food insecurity. And I think with anybody, with everybody, we're not always going to agree on everything.
717
:That was one thing that we definitely agreed on that the food insecurity needed to be addressed.
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:And she was definitely very passionate about it. And yeah, I just felt like she was going to move mountains.
719
:And she was very much, met her. She felt the same thing. So it was a little bit of a tricky thing getting her on to a board.
720
:Because some people left because of the political party. Most of them left. Yeah. Yeah.
721
:And that was literally, Lori and I at this particular board meeting went around the corner.
722
:And Laurie's, I don't know if you remember this, but you're just like, okay, we need to make the final decision.
723
:And I was just like, oh, we're going to lose some good people. But then it was like, okay, I've got to stick to that feeling
724
:it was important to bring her on.
725
:Yes.
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:And so we did that and we got more people.
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:It ended up being actually really positive change over.
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:And so then she became quite well-known after that.
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:And by the time she up, she ended up like,
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:she came out to a couple of the schools,
731
:worked in the kitchens.
732
:And by then she was like deputy leader
733
:of the opposition party by that time.
734
:And then several months later,
735
:she became the partner minister of New Zealand.
736
:And one of the first things she did was
737
:the within school program.
738
:And imagine if we're gone.
739
:I have goosebumps.
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:I just imagine if we had caved to.
741
:And kept the board members who wanted to,
742
:who didn't think it was a good idea.
743
:Yeah.
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:So you were sweating.
745
:I wanted to.
746
:You were really under pressure.
747
:But what I like in that story is that
748
:sometimes you are not going to be in agreement
749
:to when you're trying to do the right thing.
750
:With a lot of people.
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:And it's OK.
752
:Yeah.
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:As long as you know deep down in your heart
754
:that you're doing the right thing,
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:I've been through that situation before with my family.
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:I knew that the path that I was taking
757
:in getting married was the right path
758
:when people didn't agree.
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:And I stuck with it.
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:I stuck with it not because I wanted
761
:to be in disagreement with my family
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:because nobody wants to, you don't
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:want to be in disagreement with your family.
764
:But I knew what God wanted me to do.
765
:And I am grateful till today that I took that path.
766
:Because I have seen my life blessed over and over
767
:for sticking to that.
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:So I'm glad that you stuck to that.
769
:I just seen your father opening that door,
770
:putting you in place to help lead her into that light
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:and that light being that bigger picture of not just
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:this one or two schools, but all the schools now,
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:being able to have that, the food insecurity taken care of.
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:And now you're going to have future leaders of New Zealand
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:who will grow up because they can focus on important things
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:and be able to lead their country
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:and be able to lead families and do much bigger things.
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:Like I, I'm so curious sometimes to see the domino effect.
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:Yes, the domino effect of that one child
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:that whose lives got changed, who got to go invent something
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:that now is curing some sickness in the whole world
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:and is now people are being saved, it's just incredible.
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:So thank you, thank you, thank you for just accepting a calling,
784
:persevering and then just making it such a beautiful thing
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:to just look beyond yourselves, look beyond your insecurities,
786
:look beyond who am I, question and just trust
787
:that God will truly lead you and guide you.
788
:Yeah, and you mentioned the light.
789
:I think it really was, we both got an email,
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:highly confidential.
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:Don't tell anyone. Yeah.
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:And there was this like crown stamp on the letter.
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:Yes. And so the first time, I think I told you I got it.
794
:Yes, they're scammed.
795
:Like a scam. So I was like ignoring it.
796
:I didn't know that. Sorry, rang my hand.
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:I'm like, I got second email saying,
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:highly confidential, shall I open it?
799
:And because I really am bad at technology.
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:And so I wasn't sure if it was going to bag in the whole
801
:computer system. So anyway, but when I opened it,
802
:I literally was like, oh my goodness, that's why we're going to the
803
:government building.
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:And obviously we could take immediate family with us.
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:You didn't know that I had received the same letter.
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:And then I'm like, can I, then she called me and she was,
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:I'm not going to tell you this.
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:But I'm going to tell you.
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:I'm coming over because I'm receiving it.
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:And I'm like, I am too.
811
:She's like, why don't you tell me?
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:I'd assume because you were over in the States
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:by that time that it wasn't a thing.
814
:But I was so excited that you were going to be coming over for that as well.
815
:And I think the fact that like, your dad was there.
816
:And one of the things that happened up that way, he was there.
817
:He was there.
818
:And he was telling everybody all these strangers,
819
:like the guests that were out there.
820
:So I'm telling all these strangers about our shared dreams.
821
:And you're like, I live through.
822
:I'm coming up to us and they're like, task.
823
:So he had to do it. And I'm like, whoa.
824
:I'm not comfortable with this.
825
:And so I shied away from sharing my dreams.
826
:And I look back and I have felt I really shouldn't have done that.
827
:Like I should have been courageous.
828
:And we were talking last night just how like bold and faithful and courageous he was.
829
:But then Laurie was like, he wasn't always that way.
830
:Like it kind of came later.
831
:And so I was like, oh, OK.
832
:Oh, he was.
833
:Yeah, he was mocked for it when he was younger
834
:because he would share how he would see someone's dead grandparent or something.
835
:And thinking it was just normal and natural as it's what they would do.
836
:And then he would get teased about it.
837
:So he just locked up.
838
:And it took him a long time to be able to share those things.
839
:Probably in his 40s, it's when he started to do that, share it wider.
840
:So he was human?
841
:Yeah.
842
:Oh, definitely human.
843
:Yeah.
844
:So I think that was something that propelled me to share my dreams.
845
:And he's obviously when he passed away, I made a promise to him that I would.
846
:And I've tried to keep that promise.
847
:But you talked about the light.
848
:And I always wondered, I'd always think, well, maybe this, maybe that, maybe this.
849
:But when I actually went through those brown doors, there wasn't the bright light that I'd
850
:sing in my dream.
851
:There were guests.
852
:There was this red carpet.
853
:There was shunned liers.
854
:And I literally was like, why was there that light in the dream?
855
:And that's when I had my moment of final understanding that the light was about God's
856
:love, God's work, and an invitation to serve and come closer to Christ.
857
:And yeah, by the time I've reached the end of the red carpet, I was a blub room mess.
858
:And so I think I just got that final understanding, which was really beautiful because we were
859
:both wearing cotter-wise.
860
:Can you explain for our listeners?
861
:Yeah, cotter-wise a cloak of, a traditional cloak of jia feathers and flax that has been
862
:processed.
863
:It takes a really long time and put together and sew on carefully.
864
:It takes a long time to do that.
865
:And it is something that is used on really special occasions to honour the person that
866
:is wearing it.
867
:And yeah, we were both able to wear.
868
:So first time I had worn a cotter-wise at the age of...
869
:And I didn't know that until we were driving here.
870
:Yeah, to this podcast, I didn't realise that was the first time.
871
:So it was just a real special experience.
872
:I was telling Kerry that I thought it would be just like a stuffy kind of no-feeling kind
873
:of experience.
874
:That's what I thought, but it was so different.
875
:I came in thinking, oh, it's going to be hand-out, you certificate, a bit cold and...
876
:Yeah, official.
877
:...official, but it was the exact opposite.
878
:I was really blown away by the feeling of reverence that was the honour for everyone
879
:that was receiving an award.
880
:And so I certainly enjoyed the experience and came away like I was on a cloud.
881
:Yeah, for sure.
882
:I didn't know.
883
:So our daughters, biological family, were the ones that asked if I would want to wear
884
:their family cotter-wise.
885
:And initially I thought, oh, that's probably been insensitive to the Māori culture.
886
:Should I be wearing it?
887
:Here's that doubt again.
888
:I had this little debate in my mind, and so I prayed about it.
889
:And when I prayed about it, I was actually driving at the time.
890
:And I remember it was just like, this is an extension.
891
:They're extending their love.
892
:And appreciation.
893
:Yeah.
894
:And this is a good thing.
895
:It's an honour.
896
:Yeah.
897
:It's an honour, absolute honour.
898
:I only mailed back and said I'd be on it to wear a rip.
899
:But we were talking in the car earlier that I asked what the cotter-wise symbolised.
900
:And their particular cotter-wise symbolised the arms of love from past generations, present
901
:and future.
902
:Which is cool.
903
:It's so beautiful.
904
:But I didn't realise until Marianne Abbe's grandmother placed it on me.
905
:I actually literally felt this overwhelming love come over me.
906
:That literally took my breath away.
907
:And I thought, is Marianne feeling the same thing?
908
:Does she know what I'm feeling?
909
:And she looked up at me as she was tying the string and her eyes were filled with tears.
910
:And I'm like, okay, she's feeling it too.
911
:And so that was, I love that I had the opportunity because it made it all, like Laurie was saying,
912
:it was actually a lovely ceremony with lots of feeling.
913
:And it was just a beautiful ceremony.
914
:But having, wearing the cotter-wise also and seeing Laurie and her cotter-wise, she looked
915
:amazing.
916
:Like it was just all that more like incredible.
917
:And almost you've done the works and you're allowed to enjoy this moment.
918
:And guess what?
919
:You're going to have Abbe's ancestors with you.
920
:And so that was special, wasn't it?
921
:Yeah.
922
:Yeah.
923
:And what an incredible connection to your daughter as well.
924
:Yeah.
925
:Just saying that you've gone over and beyond for her people and for her just ancestors in
926
:the future.
927
:Yeah.
928
:But you've made a path for the future.
929
:And that's huge.
930
:Thank you so much.
931
:I want to also touch on what's happening now, you know, with the feed the need, how
932
:if things are still being measured.
933
:So Laurie is actually, she's in a really an amazing position nationally to do with the
934
:Food and School programme.
935
:So when she was talking earlier about that path leading to feeding.
936
:Yeah, nutrition.
937
:Like she's still having flashbacks to like, oh my gosh, be the need, prepared me for what
938
:I'm doing now.
939
:So like her role is pretty huge and her responsibility is pretty huge.
940
:And it's just, it was, but then the government cut all our jobs.
941
:So I'm still there.
942
:Yeah.
943
:I've still got my big mouth.
944
:So.
945
:Yeah.
946
:And so, yeah.
947
:So that's what, but yeah, we can go into that.
948
:Yeah.
949
:Okay.
950
:So let's talk about the little boy.
951
:Yes.
952
:Okay.
953
:Yeah.
954
:Tell me.
955
:Yes.
956
:So we were at a school and this little boy came out.
957
:Oh, it was their pilot school?
958
:Yes.
959
:And he came up and said, are you two sisters?
960
:And he was looking up and I kind of just giggled because I'm just like, well, obviously
961
:not.
962
:We had a good laugh at it, didn't we?
963
:And then, but he stood there and we were kind of like, he's like, no, seriously, I'm asking
964
:it.
965
:Yeah.
966
:Serious question.
967
:Like, so then I'm like, oh, he's, this is a serious question because we'd get like questions
968
:all the time, like, we'd have kids say to me, like, why don't you have any eyebrows?
969
:So now I colour them in.
970
:But like, just kind of cute stuff.
971
:Yes.
972
:But yeah, so I just thought it was just another one of those.
973
:But then I realised that he was being earnest in his question.
974
:Like he really was sunning their weight.
975
:And so I said, well, we're not sisters.
976
:But when we serve together, we feel like sisters.
977
:And it was funny because with that, he kind of was like, oh, and then run off.
978
:And it was funny because it wasn't actually like that significance of that interaction.
979
:It didn't really hit me until years later until I was here actually living in America.
980
:It was one morning I woke up thinking about this interaction.
981
:And I just felt like, I need to write about this.
982
:There's a story in this that needs to be heard.
983
:And so it kind of took me a surprise because I hadn't really given it much thought until
984
:this particular morning.
985
:So I started like, you know, putting it into my notes on my phone and then ended up lubbering
986
:my eyes out and really feeling like this is an important message that if we could all
987
:act like we're brothers and sisters, that the children who are watching us very closely,
988
:you know, how different the world would be if we actually did demonstrate how we should
989
:be treating one another.
990
:And then also it kind of highlighted the fact that, yeah, we are different.
991
:Laurie's Maori, I'm English, Pakeo White.
992
:We've got lots of differences, different cultures and so forth.
993
:But then, which is a beautiful thing, having those differences and I think we should celebrate
994
:them.
995
:But then at the same time, like to remember that actually we have more in common than
996
:we do differences because actually we're all brothers and sisters and there's a loving
997
:God that's waiting for us after this life.
998
:And so I think that was another message that I felt like I was being taught as I was typing
999
:on my phone, lubbering my eyes out.
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00:59:28,989 --> 00:59:30,789
And so that was eventually published.
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I never planned it.
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00:59:31,789 --> 00:59:35,789
I just put it out on my family and friends' Facebook post, but then eventually it was
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00:59:35,789 --> 00:59:38,949
noted by somebody and put forward.
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00:59:38,949 --> 00:59:40,389
So then it was published.
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00:59:40,389 --> 00:59:44,309
And so it definitely was a message that I think, and I think we still need to keep be
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00:59:44,309 --> 00:59:45,309
reminded.
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Yes, we do.
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00:59:46,309 --> 00:59:49,590
And I think children can teach us those simple things.
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And so, yeah.
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00:59:50,949 --> 00:59:54,389
So when she told me this story, the first thing that I thought, of course he thinks you're
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00:59:54,389 --> 00:59:57,750
sisters because children are looking at you with spiritual eyes.
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Yeah.
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00:59:58,750 --> 01:00:04,789
And so much thinner for them than I feel like with adults, we get like our, it gets like
:
01:00:04,789 --> 01:00:10,070
washed away with all the stresses of life, the get a job, go to school, do all these things.
:
01:00:10,070 --> 01:00:12,030
And then we kind of get away from that.
:
01:00:12,030 --> 01:00:14,469
But then with children, they're so pure.
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01:00:14,469 --> 01:00:18,750
And it's part of why Christ tells us to be like children, right?
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01:00:18,750 --> 01:00:23,630
So because they're so pure and it's just the way that they see things very differently.
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01:00:23,630 --> 01:00:26,630
So I think what, when you told me that story, the first thing that I thought, well, of
:
01:00:26,630 --> 01:00:28,710
course, he's looking at you.
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01:00:28,710 --> 01:00:30,469
He's looking at you with the spiritual eyes.
:
01:00:30,469 --> 01:00:32,829
And he just wants to confirm what he's seeing.
:
01:00:32,829 --> 01:00:38,869
And when you didn't respond in a way that was confirming to him, it was just like, well,
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01:00:38,869 --> 01:00:39,869
are you?
:
01:00:39,869 --> 01:00:40,869
Yeah.
:
01:00:40,869 --> 01:00:43,949
You know, like let me know so I can move on to my next play.
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01:00:43,949 --> 01:00:50,710
And I'm glad that you let him know that because even though he could see it and it didn't, obviously
:
01:00:50,710 --> 01:00:52,829
he can also see the differences too.
:
01:00:52,829 --> 01:00:54,869
And that's why he's trying to like connect.
:
01:00:54,869 --> 01:00:58,510
And you explaining that to him was just a very perfect way to just let him know that
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01:00:58,510 --> 01:01:02,630
like, yes, I know we look different, but we are, we're still sisters.
:
01:01:02,630 --> 01:01:03,630
Yeah.
:
01:01:03,630 --> 01:01:07,150
Again, I love that you wrote that down and you said it has been published.
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01:01:07,150 --> 01:01:09,110
Can you tell us where it was published in?
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01:01:09,110 --> 01:01:13,110
Sorry, it was published in the Lea Hana.
:
01:01:13,110 --> 01:01:15,630
And it was interesting because.
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01:01:15,630 --> 01:01:19,789
And for those that don't know what the Lea Hana is, it's the Church of Jesus Christ of
:
01:01:19,789 --> 01:01:22,710
Latter-day Saints magazine.
:
01:01:22,710 --> 01:01:25,309
And so it went from a Facebook post.
:
01:01:25,309 --> 01:01:29,110
And then someone else saw it and then someone asked if it could be published there.
:
01:01:29,110 --> 01:01:33,909
Because it was that beautiful and that meaningful and it's something that we need to be reminded
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01:01:33,909 --> 01:01:34,909
all the time.
:
01:01:34,909 --> 01:01:35,909
Yeah.
:
01:01:35,909 --> 01:01:39,590
Because I think sometimes in society we tend to forget, we tend to, you know, just, oh,
:
01:01:39,590 --> 01:01:41,269
strangers, strangers, that's not my problem.
:
01:01:41,269 --> 01:01:44,429
But we are truly brothers and sisters in Christ.
:
01:01:44,429 --> 01:01:48,590
And we need to take that more seriously and live that way.
:
01:01:48,590 --> 01:01:49,590
Yeah.
:
01:01:49,590 --> 01:01:50,590
Yeah.
:
01:01:50,590 --> 01:01:51,590
We would lie down our lives for our family.
:
01:01:51,590 --> 01:01:54,670
I think of my, I've got two younger sisters.
:
01:01:54,670 --> 01:01:56,670
And we can finish off each other sentences.
:
01:01:56,670 --> 01:01:58,989
We will not sandwiches and sandwiches.
:
01:01:58,989 --> 01:02:04,789
I mean, I'm having a drink and while I'm talking, my sister just grabs a drink out.
:
01:02:04,789 --> 01:02:08,710
You know, there's that closeness and that love that's there.
:
01:02:08,710 --> 01:02:12,219
A witch I think is what he would have seen.
:
01:02:12,219 --> 01:02:14,059
We love each other.
:
01:02:14,059 --> 01:02:18,579
And do anything for each other as you do, your brother or sister.
:
01:02:18,579 --> 01:02:20,820
And I think that's what he saw.
:
01:02:20,820 --> 01:02:23,500
But a wonderful lesson, right?
:
01:02:23,500 --> 01:02:28,420
We like a stranger on the street is our brother or our sister.
:
01:02:28,420 --> 01:02:32,539
And God expects us to show them the same kind of love and affection.
:
01:02:32,539 --> 01:02:33,539
Yeah.
:
01:02:33,539 --> 01:02:34,539
Yeah.
:
01:02:34,539 --> 01:02:39,380
You know, one of the refugees that we work with, he's an interpreter and he told me he has
:
01:02:39,380 --> 01:02:40,380
dreams.
:
01:02:40,380 --> 01:02:43,579
And I'm like, so I think God can reach everyone.
:
01:02:43,579 --> 01:02:44,579
Oh, absolutely.
:
01:02:44,579 --> 01:02:45,579
Which ever could be.
:
01:02:45,579 --> 01:02:46,579
Absolutely.
:
01:02:46,579 --> 01:02:51,559
And I, so for me, I remember thinking, you know, growing up, the, the scriptures always
:
01:02:51,559 --> 01:02:55,440
seemed so like, oh, it's about those people at that time.
:
01:02:55,440 --> 01:02:58,280
And then one now is like, well, what's, what's wrong with us?
:
01:02:58,280 --> 01:03:00,199
Why would God not talk to us?
:
01:03:00,199 --> 01:03:03,840
Why would God not show his presence in our lives today?
:
01:03:03,840 --> 01:03:07,639
And when I was investigating our church, that was one of the things that, but that was one
:
01:03:07,639 --> 01:03:13,800
of the realizations that I received was if God spoke to Moses and spoke to all these
:
01:03:13,800 --> 01:03:17,119
other people in the New Testament, why would he not?
:
01:03:17,119 --> 01:03:19,000
Why would he just leave us?
:
01:03:19,000 --> 01:03:21,840
And just make us wait for Jesus to come again.
:
01:03:21,840 --> 01:03:23,480
Like he's still talking to us.
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01:03:23,480 --> 01:03:25,800
He's still talking to us through Jesus.
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01:03:25,800 --> 01:03:26,880
He's still here.
:
01:03:26,880 --> 01:03:29,320
He's still miracles still exist.
:
01:03:29,320 --> 01:03:33,199
I am a beneficiary of plenty of miracles in my life.
:
01:03:33,199 --> 01:03:40,400
I look back and on my life and I can see his hand in so many different aspects of my life
:
01:03:40,400 --> 01:03:42,480
that I am here for a reason.
:
01:03:42,480 --> 01:03:44,480
I'm sitting here with you guys for a reason.
:
01:03:44,480 --> 01:03:48,000
I know you didn't just call me to say, Hey, Esther, what do you think about this?
:
01:03:48,000 --> 01:03:51,880
Well, there's all part of God's plan and I truly believe in that.
:
01:03:51,880 --> 01:03:54,679
And we look back in the book that we wrote together.
:
01:03:54,679 --> 01:03:59,159
That's, I mean, just a story and not alone is just nothing but God's plan.
:
01:03:59,159 --> 01:04:01,800
His hand has been in every single part of it.
:
01:04:01,800 --> 01:04:05,960
And yes, we had to write that book together just so we can sit here together and talk about
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01:04:05,960 --> 01:04:07,480
something completely different.
:
01:04:07,480 --> 01:04:08,480
Yeah.
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01:04:08,480 --> 01:04:13,679
You know, so I know that dreams are a huge part of how God talks to his children.
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01:04:13,679 --> 01:04:19,480
I know that if we allow ourselves to be vessels, to do his work on his earth, that he will
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01:04:19,480 --> 01:04:24,400
truly help and guide us through that culturally, you know, I'm Nigerian.
:
01:04:24,400 --> 01:04:28,880
My culture is deeply rooted in spirituality.
:
01:04:28,880 --> 01:04:32,840
Right before Christianity came, we're just very, I always believe like Africans are like,
:
01:04:32,840 --> 01:04:40,960
we just have such a close connection with spirituality and God because even, you know, just even before
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01:04:40,960 --> 01:04:44,960
Christianity, the way that we've always lived has always been like there was a higher
:
01:04:44,960 --> 01:04:45,960
being.
:
01:04:45,960 --> 01:04:46,960
Yep.
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01:04:46,960 --> 01:04:48,519
And we all on the student that.
:
01:04:48,519 --> 01:04:53,800
So growing up for me, and we grew up in a very Christian home, we had preachers that would
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01:04:53,800 --> 01:04:55,159
talk about dreams.
:
01:04:55,159 --> 01:05:00,840
I remember one dream in particular that one of them had for my sister who is now a doctor
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01:05:00,840 --> 01:05:02,320
in Ohio.
:
01:05:02,320 --> 01:05:07,719
The dream was that she would be wearing a white coat with pens in it.
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01:05:07,719 --> 01:05:14,039
And to us at that time, that white coat meant that she would be a doctor, that she would
:
01:05:14,039 --> 01:05:16,159
be in the medical field.
:
01:05:16,159 --> 01:05:18,719
And that's exactly what she's doing right now in her life.
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01:05:18,719 --> 01:05:24,239
So I remember that dream, even as a kid, like, you know, you hear things and you don't really,
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01:05:24,239 --> 01:05:28,079
like they're not talking to you, they're just talking, their adults are talking and just
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01:05:28,079 --> 01:05:29,079
there.
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01:05:29,079 --> 01:05:30,079
Right.
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01:05:30,079 --> 01:05:32,960
But I remember that always stood out to me, that always stood out to me.
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01:05:32,960 --> 01:05:36,480
And part of that dream was the path for her to come to the United States.
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01:05:36,480 --> 01:05:39,360
And I kind of came along with my sister, the United States.
:
01:05:39,360 --> 01:05:45,760
So to see her accomplish that dream and our help that dream come true, it's just been
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01:05:45,760 --> 01:05:48,239
very impactful in my life.
:
01:05:48,239 --> 01:05:52,800
They didn't have a dream about me being a business woman.
:
01:05:52,800 --> 01:05:55,199
But it definitely had that about her.
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01:05:55,199 --> 01:05:59,480
And it was definitely something that even as a kid, I still remember and I still remember
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01:05:59,480 --> 01:06:02,000
it as Claire's day till today.
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01:06:02,000 --> 01:06:10,480
So I'm interested to know like culture wise, how dreams are seen for the Maori people and
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01:06:10,480 --> 01:06:12,880
how that impacted your life.
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01:06:12,880 --> 01:06:20,800
Yeah, like you, it is just the norm in our culture as Maori, very spiritually rooted,
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01:06:20,800 --> 01:06:28,559
a belief in the afterlife and that our ancestors around us, they are influencing us, talking to
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01:06:28,639 --> 01:06:31,480
us, come to us in dreams as well.
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01:06:31,480 --> 01:06:33,119
But not everyone has them.
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01:06:33,119 --> 01:06:40,199
And our family, it's a gift that's been passed down from God through the generations.
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01:06:40,199 --> 01:06:43,960
And as I said, my sister has the same gift as my dad.
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01:06:43,960 --> 01:06:47,159
And so it's just been a normal part of conversation.
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01:06:47,159 --> 01:06:52,159
And even like those who aren't, don't have Christian beliefs, who are Maori, still that
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01:06:52,159 --> 01:06:58,679
is, there is still that belief in the afterlife that life goes on that our ancestors are connected
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01:06:59,239 --> 01:06:59,760
to us.
:
01:06:59,760 --> 01:07:05,519
So there's a huge alignment with the gospel of Jesus Christ, our church.
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01:07:05,519 --> 01:07:10,480
And that's always been natural and normal for someone to say, oh, you know, my auntie
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01:07:10,480 --> 01:07:13,320
had a dream that this and that.
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Around the table at work, if I'm working in a Maori organization, is just the norm.
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And so I particularly have been really blessed to have my father have that gift.
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We've had warnings, you know, guidance around our path and what we should be doing and,
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you know, where we should be going.
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So in my sister continues that with my dad having passed away.
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And Kerry's got the same gift.
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We call it Mata Kite, which is the seeing eye, being able to perceive and see things
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that are spiritual, that, you know, human physical eyes cannot see.
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And that is, yeah, that's been a real gift and real blessing for our family.
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So let me just ask, having seen the same gift that your dad had and your sister has in Kerry,
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like does that just blow your mind?
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Yeah, because it's not something that I would talk to an Maori person about.
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Yeah, particularly Caucasian because it's not typically a line to what their beliefs
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system often is.
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And so it was just buzzy for me to see.
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Like, wow.
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So that, and I think that's dad's why this, well, he didn't say Paki, it was like the
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skinny Paki, like, not fitting the bill of what who might typically have that gift.
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And so that it was kind of, it was just weird for me to have someone that wasn't brown,
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their heads, those same experiences, just like my dad has a feeling that kind of weight
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of responsibility that comes with it, that my father would carry as well.
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So it was kind of, yeah, it was really weird.
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Well, there was one occasion where we were trying to get this kara to do the pilot.
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And so before we ended up going the three of us, David said to me, I want you to share
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your dreams.
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And I had not shared my dreams like ever publicly.
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And so I was just like, that's not happening.
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You're alone on this one.
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Right.
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There were lots of people at that.
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Wow.
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That gathering to what you were in the right place though.
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Well, it's interesting because of that.
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So he said, David said, pray about it.
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And then when I prayed about it, I'm like, you got to share your dreams.
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And so I was super nervous.
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Laurie was my little cheerleader on the side and saying it's going to be OK.
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But David stood up with his toco toco.
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We haven't actually talked about that.
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And was talking in his language.
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And then he said my name and gestured for me to, it was time to stand up.
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And I remember it was so awkward because I'm like, hi.
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My name's Karen Owen.
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But it was shifted when finally it was like, OK, just let go and go.
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So once I started sharing my dreams, it was interesting.
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It was interesting for me as this white English girl who'd never publicly talked
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about my dreams to be in this situation.
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But what was very noticeable was that their expressions changed,
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their posture changed, they sat up and they were listening,
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their eyes were locked on mine.
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And you could see some were crying.
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And it was in that moment where I was just like, David was right.
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This, I needed to share my dreams because otherwise it would just be like,
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hi, I'm Kerry Owen, you know, sort of thing.
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But it was, yeah.
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And so it was like, this is bigger.
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This is bigger.
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And trust, trust in what I'm going to say, I guess.
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And they did.
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And it was, you know, I put it, I write that experience in the book because I
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realised that this was a language dream, talking about dreams.
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It's a language that a Marty, like respect, trust.
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And so I think it was probably strange for them to have this English girl.
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Their eyes were like, what it would have been.
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Yeah.
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How is she like, right?
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How is she capable of doing that?
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If that was our thing, yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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And I remember at the end, the principal stood up and said,
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you've now adopted 183 children.
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And because we'd just adopted our daughter, we adopted our sudden few years earlier,
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that was like, whoo.
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That was like extra special, but also that responsibility as well.
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Like, OK.
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Yeah.
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It is.
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Yeah.
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And I think, for me, that gave you credibility because you're someone not of
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their culture coming in.
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And for us as Marty, trying to regain our autonomy, to be able to make
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decisions for our own welfare and our own well-being, as opposed to that being,
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yeah, being put on us and those decisions being made by a government or a community,
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a white community that doesn't understand the needs and how to do that.
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It's something that we as a community want to retain that autonomy to make
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decisions for ourselves and do things for ourselves.
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So having an outsider come in and say, I can help you.
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And it's like, no, we can help ourselves.
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Yeah.
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You think you are coming into your community.
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You sharing those dreams, help them to see into you as a person.
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And help them to see your heart.
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Because I think of the connection that we had.
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And when I talk to friends who are Marty about our relationship, they're like,
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I'm like, it's kind of like she's a brown person, trapped in a white body.
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Like, that is how I feel.
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And it's, you know, race aside.
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It's more like the values that we hold the way, you know, of it's all about caring
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for other people.
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That is what drives you.
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It is about, it's not about anything else except the people.
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I mean, that's what you had at the end of your book as well.
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It's always about the people.
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The people, it's not any other kind of motive that's there.
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That was really clear when you spoke.
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And so that allowed them to see into you and what was driving you.
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It's funny because I kind of knew, although I hadn't been in this country that long,
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01:13:33,199 --> 01:13:40,159
that like, I was worried that people would interpret my eagerness to help as like,
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01:13:40,159 --> 01:13:41,560
who are you to come here?
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You know what I mean?
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I usually say, you know, let's don't try to be the white Jesus.
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Yeah, yeah.
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And it's like, they're people that have that sort of like, we're okay.
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Yes.
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And you didn't do that.
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And it takes me back to your dream where you asked why me.
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Yeah.
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And the answer was because you have a good heart.
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Yeah.
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And that's what they saw that day.
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That was David's dream.
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Yeah.
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Because you have a good heart.
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01:14:12,319 --> 01:14:13,439
And that's it.
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Not because you're white, not because you're blonde, not because you're blue-eyed,
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not because you're a skinny white girl.
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You're just, you know, you have a good heart.
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01:14:20,960 --> 01:14:25,479
And at the end of the day, that's what God sees and wants others to see.
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And you've gotten a chance to see that.
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And I saw that from the first time I met you.
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So thank you.
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I don't know if you're in nature.
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I think you're in nature.
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Like, yes.
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Jumping into, you know, being out of the comfort zone.
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01:14:39,800 --> 01:14:40,800
Mm-hmm.
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01:14:40,800 --> 01:14:45,800
I do feel like the charity work forces you to go out of your comfort zone for sure.
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01:14:45,800 --> 01:14:51,199
When I was, when you're sharing that story about Dad saying, why is this, all this girl
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01:14:51,199 --> 01:14:52,199
help?
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And I was thinking, well, there are other things as well.
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That is the most important, that's the most important.
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01:14:56,800 --> 01:15:03,890
From what I, like, one of the gifts that Curie has is that she is a ridiculous advocate
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01:15:03,890 --> 01:15:06,170
for children or for the vulnerable, right?
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People can walk all over here.
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01:15:07,890 --> 01:15:11,329
She lets them do that because she's such a kind soul, right?
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01:15:11,329 --> 01:15:17,609
And she won't stand up for herself a lot of the time, but boy, look out because she is
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01:15:17,609 --> 01:15:20,250
a fierce mama bear.
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And I've seen it.
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01:15:21,250 --> 01:15:23,609
I'm like, I saw glimpses in the video.
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01:15:23,609 --> 01:15:24,609
Oh my God.
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01:15:24,609 --> 01:15:25,609
She's a fierce mama bear.
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01:15:25,609 --> 01:15:26,609
I'm like, I'm a bear.
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01:15:26,609 --> 01:15:27,609
You know, when he gets here, it's not.
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01:15:27,609 --> 01:15:32,289
She'll share with me how she had an experience with someone kind of attacking her and how
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01:15:32,289 --> 01:15:33,289
she kind of freaked out.
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01:15:33,289 --> 01:15:35,369
I'm like, bring that mama bear out, man.
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01:15:35,369 --> 01:15:37,329
Like, hand it back to her.
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01:15:37,329 --> 01:15:42,439
But that's not how she rolls, but in that space, just where it's about looking after
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01:15:42,439 --> 01:15:49,239
those who are less fortunate, who are vulnerable, she's like, it's who you want on your side,
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you know?
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01:15:50,239 --> 01:15:51,239
Absolutely.
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01:15:51,239 --> 01:15:54,319
And, yeah, being able to persevere with that and just go at it.
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It's just been amazing to watch on the sidelines.
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01:15:58,319 --> 01:16:02,439
I think we both advocate in our different areas.
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And obviously, I moved here and it was just kind of like the same sort of like I had some
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01:16:07,720 --> 01:16:08,720
dreams.
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It was like, okay, time to keep going.
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I wanted that nap.
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I wanted that time.
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I know you did.
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I just say it to make us feel better.
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I know it definitely exists.
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But in my mind, when I say it, it just makes me feel just a little bit better.
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Okay.
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I took that nap, but we persevered.
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I don't think either of us have taken that nap right.
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01:16:29,909 --> 01:16:30,909
But yeah, so I kind of feel like-
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I was trying to take the nap.
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So, okay, time to chill out.
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And then my dad came to me in a dream.
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That's right.
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Yes, so I just had a dream.
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Yeah, because I was kind of- I had an impression that I needed to step back from feed the need
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a couple of years after Kerry left.
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And it was really hard to do because it had been everything that had been my-
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I hadn't worked.
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Yeah, I hadn't really worked or anything.
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But it kind of led me into doing other work and eventually ended up in the government,
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in the school food program that just put in place.
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And so I was kind of just cruising in that role.
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01:17:12,670 --> 01:17:17,149
And then my manager said to me, I would like you to play for my job because I'm-
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I'm going into another position and I'm like, not doing a job.
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Because it's full time.
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I wanted a week part time.
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I need to be there for my kids and too much work.
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But dad actually came to me in a dream.
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And I don't have dreams.
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Yeah.
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Obviously it was important.
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And basically said, pull up your socks, get off your butt and start leading and do some
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work.
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So I called it back and said, okay, I'll apply for it.
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And yeah, I've been in the thick of it within the actual government and the program which
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has been an interesting experience.
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But yeah.
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Yeah.
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Amazing.
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Yeah.
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So I'm still involved with Feed the Need.
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I saw us sitting on the board still.
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But we've got a team of people now sort of on the ground doing their thing.
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And so we do food for weekends and school holidays when kids can't access that food.
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So there's still needs, you know, even though there is this program, there's still going
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to be needs definitely in the homes, you know, if they haven't, they still might have those
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empty fridges and empty cupboards.
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So that's Feed the Need, still going.
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We were privileged to, the Church of Jews of Christ of Latter-day Saints have a thing every
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01:18:30,510 --> 01:18:33,430
Christmas like the world, giving machines.
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Yes.
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Yes.
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So we have been able to feed the need of being able to be on that, giving machine for two
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years.
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Okay.
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01:18:40,909 --> 01:18:44,189
So then we're able to kind of do some good work with that, which is awesome.
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And so yeah, Feed the Need, still going.
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And then over here, I direct a charity called Reach Out Today.
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Women, dreams have directed that.
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And both roles, everyone is voluntary based and no one's paid.
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01:18:58,550 --> 01:19:02,479
And so it's just kind of doing the same thing, but very different.
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01:19:02,479 --> 01:19:05,119
I'm meeting very different cultures in New Zealand.
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I would say, you know, you have the Polynesian cultures.
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And, you know, and we did have some children from different countries.
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But here, working with refugees, it's very diverse.
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And then families that are struggling financially, just going into their homes and meeting them
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and learning about their cultures.
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And I feel like New Zealand was almost like preparing for this part, you know?
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And so...
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I'm excited to see the next 10 years of Carrie's life in New Zealand.
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Because I feel like God is preparing you for a much, much bigger role.
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And whatever it is and wherever it takes you, I look forward to that to be in a sideline
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like cheering you on and making sure that you're not dwelling too much in those doubts
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and just keep going.
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One of your work that's very dear to me, and I have my assistant who's here who's been
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able to be a part of that because of what you've done.
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And when she saw the movie, our movie, she was like, hey, what's Kevin doing there?
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I know Kevin.
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And so I know that you haven't got a chance to meet these kids that you've been a part
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of, helping.
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And I just want you to know that she's...
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One of them is in here today with us.
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And I do want you to meet her because she just wanted to chat with you and just thank
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you for doing that to be able to have her be a beneficiary of such wonderful work.
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So I need you to understand that your work is going far and beyond.
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And it's touching lives all over.
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I may not be in New Zealand to see the kids in the schools there, but I know that your
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work that's extending here is being felt and is definitely being utilized in such a
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good way that Ms. Nay over here is a participant in that.
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So thank you.
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So cool.
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Yeah.
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So cool.
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I want to jump across the table.
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I know.
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So study shows two way communication with lucid dreamers during REM is possible that participants
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answered math questions and followed problems without waking.
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That's not reductive.
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It suggests God designed a brain capable of active awareness during dreaming.
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Hmm.
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Not that.
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Neuroscience also ties dreaming and spiritual practices to networks of self awareness, emotions,
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a memory of a plausible channel for symbolic personal messages that prompt real world actions.
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Do these findings resonate with your experience?
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God meeting you in a state where heart and memory are especially open.
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Yes.
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The simplest possible.
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Absolutely.
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Right.
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Yeah.
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I knew when I was having those dreams that they were inspired dreams.
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It wasn't something that I'd kind of created in my mind.
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And there was a Harvard professor that was in an interview and he was talking, he's a professor
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of sleep at Harvard and he was talking about a lot of the research they'd done with dreaming.
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And it really intrigued me because I had this sort of spiritual understanding of dreams, but
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I'd never had like the scientific.
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And so it was really interesting just learning about how they have proved in their research
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that two strangers can experience the same dream.
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I'm like, whoa.
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And they've actually had evidence that some people can see a vision.
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A vision of the future in their dreams, which I'm like, yeah, I dreamt of those children
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and knew their faces and when I met them, I knew that they were the ones.
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So that always, even to this day, sort of blows my mind just that it's not incredible
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that you can actually see people that they've never met before.
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So it's not just the mind playing tricks on you.
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It's definitely inspired because how does that happen if there's not a divine power?
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Divine power.
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Yeah.
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Absolutely.
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It's really interesting just hearing the scientific proof that these things can happen.
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Just kind of like it was like the icing on a cake for me, just kind of understanding
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that.
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And it also talked about if you're a light sleeper, you're more likely to remember your
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dreams and I'm a light sleeper.
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It even talked about if you've had hearing loss, you're more likely to have lucid dreams
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and I'm deaf in the morning.
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So it's just really sort of like intriguing and interesting and it kind of all made sense.
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And so all the dots connected.
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Yeah.
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And they do talk about how everything during the daytime, every like tissue box you see,
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every table, every person, every road sign, your brain is taking pictures off.
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And then when you're sleeping, you're processing.
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And I think that is the science behind dreaming.
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This lucid dream is different.
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And yeah, definitely I feel that's the divine.
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You know, when you talked about going to that school and speaking to the crowd and people
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crying and because you were chairing your dream, I wonder if that little boy that you
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saw in your dream was in that crowd.
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I wonder if just somewhere he's able to hear and connect, maybe he also had a dream
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and saw you and just in some way, I would love to hear that connection later on in life.
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So in that meeting that I was talking about, it was actually just to the school board.
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OK.
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So I know the boy wasn't there.
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But the boy that I, the first boy I met is that the one you're referring to that came
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to me and stroked my face and told me he loved me?
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Is that?
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No, I haven't heard that story.
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OK.
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So yeah, the first boy that I recognised with it was in a school in South Auckland.
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And he just kind of made a beeline for me and sat next to me.
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And just I wasn't, I was like trying to keep my emotions in check.
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Yeah.
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Because I just couldn't believe that I was actually seeing him.
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Yes.
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And that it's taken, it's taken so long to find him.
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And just this love that I had for him.
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You know, if only he knew, like if I could just tell him the story.
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But it was interesting because it was like he recognised me.
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Uh-huh.
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And that.
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That's what I'm thinking.
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Yeah.
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And I'm pretty sure he had the same dream and that's he just knew.
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And he just was like, are you an angel?
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And I love you.
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He said it first.
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I didn't say it first.
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And I'm like, he said it first.
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I should have said it first.
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But I think I was just kind of taken away with the whole thing.
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And it was actually after that we were driving home.
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And I'm like crying at the wheel.
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And Laurie's like, do I always take over driving?
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I'm very poor.
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I'm very poor.
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I'm a little over driving.
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I'm a bear for my life.
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I'm a bear for my life.
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I remember trying to explain it at the time.
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I don't know if you remember it, but I asked my wife.
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Yes, I do.
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It's like we've laid down the foundation of a road.
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Yeah.
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Like we're driving on it.
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And it's like we're going forward.
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It didn't make any sense.
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But it just like everything kind of just was like, wow, we're actually now really doing the work.
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It had been years of trial and error.
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And so what but the fact that I'm seeing the first boy
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that I'd seen in my dreams, that was significant.
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But that it was kind of the pilot of multiple schools.
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And we only had enough money to do soup twice a week, over eight weeks.
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Yeah.
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I think it was.
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For the winter period.
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And I was saying to her, it's just wait.
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We've got more money so we can do it properly.
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And she said, no, we've got to do something.
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And then that experience happened just from soup.
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Yeah.
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Twice a week.
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Over two over two months.
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Yeah.
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I had a massive impact on this boy.
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And then we were like, wow, OK.
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Luckily, you didn't listen to me on that one.
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But I think that was the moment where it was just like, if all this work, all these years,
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all this effort was only for this one boy, it was worth it.
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And that was kind of like a like, even if we did nothing else, all that was worth it for this one boy.
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Yeah.
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So it was a real spiritual experience.
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Yeah.
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Real spiritual experience.
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And I hope one day I'll meet the adult.
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Yeah.
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That would be pretty special.
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That would be more in tune and able to vocalize what he saw as a child.
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Yeah, I'd be interested to know.
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Yeah.
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Let me know when that happens.
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I might be the podcast number two for this.
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Yes.
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That would be amazing, actually.
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The New Testament list gives Romans 12, 1 Corinthians 12, Ephesians 4.
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Prophecy appears repeatedly, spirit given speech that builds up the people of God.
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Joe's promise quoted in Acts 2 says,
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Your sons and daughters will prophesy.
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Your old men will dream dreams.
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The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints teachings on continuing revelation complements this.
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God still reveals many great and important things and invites members to seek personal direction
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for their stewardship.
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How have you both discerned and tested dreams?
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Scripture, prayer, counsel and fruits.
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Oof.
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That's a deep one.
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That is a deep one.
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I expect deep answers.
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Bare minimum.
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I mean, I think the fruits one, looking back, you can see the fruits of those initial dreams
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that David had, I had, and then the impressions that Lory's had, just how following those
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has resulted in children being reached, children being fed, but most importantly, children being
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loved and fed for by people in their community.
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So the fruits, I think, we literally saw children so joyful and excited about having
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the food in schools.
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So we were actually able to literally see the fruits of our labors.
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So that's really what jumped out to me when you asked that question.
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I've forgotten the rest.
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It's okay.
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My listening comprehension isn't great.
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It's okay.
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How have you both discerned and tested dreams with scripture, prayer, counsel and fruits?
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I think about the confirmations that you get in terms of testing to make sure that you're
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doing the right thing, by taking that step to speak to David, her father, and call him.
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Feeling that impression when you drove through that, right?
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That's like, and then actually reaching out, just this is a random person calling you and
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just saying that, hey, I have my dreamt about you.
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Like what is that?
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You're actually taking that step.
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So that's being tested.
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You're testing to make sure you're in the right path.
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But most of all, you're following through and doing something so important.
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And it makes me also wonder, after looking back now, do you still have that same dream?
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Or is it different now?
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Like if you do dream, do you see those children?
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Or are they what's the outlook?
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Or did that just end because you feel feel the job that you were supposed to do?
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Yeah, I haven't had any more dreams about those children.
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I haven't had any sort of seeing them in the future or anything like that.
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I think it was kind of like I needed those three dreams to do that work.
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Do that work.
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And then not that Feed the Need isn't doing anything they are.
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It's still alleviating food insecurity.
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01:30:47,579 --> 01:30:53,899
But yeah, I haven't had those same dreams to do with Feed the Need, the charity work there.
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I'd get new dreams.
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Yeah, it's kind of like when we moved here, I'd have new dreams that would
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I'd see people's faces and see the work that needed to happen.
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And yeah, is that what you're asking?
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It seemed that when you had those dreams until you took action,
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you continued to have those dreams.
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But because you took action, it was almost like you could close that chapter for a certain time
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because you've implemented the necessary work that needed to take care of the well-being of the children.
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Like you fulfilled God's request to some, you know, just for that for now.
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And maybe there will be another part where you'll see.
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But you've basically given someone else a torch to keep it going
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and implemented something that will keep going long after we're gone.
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So I think that's just incredible.
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I feel like, well, the latest dream that I did share with you, I could share right now.
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Sure.
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But I saw myself in a hospital, an old hospital building, and the walls were cracked.
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And it was very, very quiet.
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And I saw this woman nursing people.
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And the way she was like caring for these people was incredible.
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It was like I was being taught like how to really care for somebody, like at another level.
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And then this person turned around and it was Mother Teresa.
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And I literally was like, Mother Teresa.
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And she said, I need your help.
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And then I felt bad because I was just watching her doing her thing.
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And then she walked over to me and she patted my arm and she said, you'll need these two things.
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And she handed me a towel and this jar.
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And when I looked down, it was labeled a balm I've gillied.
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And I remember thinking, OK, the towel makes sense because you're always using that when you're serving people.
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But this balm I've gillied, what did that mean?
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What?
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I've heard of it, but what does it mean?
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And then I was trying to make sense of it in my dream and then woke up.
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And then I was just thinking, you know, I got my phone out, googling balm I've gillied,
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went and told my husband.
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And that's when he said, why can't you just have normal clothes?
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Yeah.
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And then he was like trying to find stuff about balm I've gillied.
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And I feel like it's a message.
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01:33:17,659 --> 01:33:24,819
I think now's the time to bring your faith to the table.
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01:33:24,819 --> 01:33:28,380
Like when you're going out serving using practical ways, using that towel.
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01:33:28,380 --> 01:33:35,779
Also, you know, you can let those children in New Zealand know that this God had given you these dreams.
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01:33:35,779 --> 01:33:37,899
He knew them before you did.
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01:33:37,899 --> 01:33:45,140
You can go into a home and just say, the reason I'm doing this work is because I've had dreams that have motivated me
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01:33:45,140 --> 01:33:50,100
to come and serve people like you and let them know that there's a love in Heavenly Father.
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01:33:50,100 --> 01:33:50,859
Absolutely.
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01:33:50,859 --> 01:33:57,539
And that Jesus Christ came to earth and sacrificed his life for us.
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01:33:57,539 --> 01:34:03,140
And so maybe like I'm meant to bring those into those everyday interactions when I'm serving people
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01:34:03,140 --> 01:34:04,420
because I've never done that.
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01:34:04,420 --> 01:34:08,819
I've never bought my religion or my faith into anything.
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01:34:08,819 --> 01:34:11,380
Like with those children, I never felt it was appropriate.
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01:34:11,380 --> 01:34:13,739
So I had a dream about you.
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01:34:13,739 --> 01:34:21,279
I've always kind of held back telling the recipients and even like the young people in that transitional housing
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01:34:21,279 --> 01:34:25,560
just that love that I feel for them, even though I've not met them, but I'm going to meet one.
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01:34:25,560 --> 01:34:26,760
Yes, absolutely.
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Like do you see that?
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01:34:27,880 --> 01:34:28,880
Yeah.
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How God is working all this out?
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Yeah.
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01:34:31,479 --> 01:34:39,079
And how like that love that I feel is actually from Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.
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01:34:39,159 --> 01:34:45,000
And being I suppose like courageous enough just to let them know that it's not just,
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01:34:45,000 --> 01:34:52,880
oh there's this woman trying to be nice and do nice things like to be a little bit more confident and bold with the why.
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Yes.
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01:34:53,880 --> 01:34:55,390
Yeah.
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01:34:55,390 --> 01:34:58,439
So that was my latest one that I'm like, OK.
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Yeah.
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01:34:59,119 --> 01:35:02,680
Absolutely.
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My God.
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01:35:06,729 --> 01:35:08,890
It's funny because I don't have that gift.
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01:35:08,890 --> 01:35:22,020
My challenge is actually taking on that, not counsel, but the direction that's provided by either my sister or my dad around certain things that they've been shined.
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01:35:22,020 --> 01:35:26,939
And often it is very much like you're trying to interpret what the heck does this actually mean.
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01:35:26,939 --> 01:35:31,909
And it's interesting because some in my family, I kind of like me.
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01:35:31,909 --> 01:35:32,470
Yeah.
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01:35:32,470 --> 01:35:34,430
I don't listen to that.
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01:35:34,430 --> 01:35:43,710
But I have learnt just over the years that there's no reason why I shouldn't like, you know, these things that have been showing, they've been showing for a reason.
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01:35:43,710 --> 01:35:48,430
And so I see it as a real blessing to do that.
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01:35:48,430 --> 01:35:57,020
But I know even though it's hard sometimes, yeah, I get lots of warnings like my sister had a dream a few years ago.
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01:35:57,100 --> 01:36:01,859
I just finished reading this finance book and I was on a mission night.
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01:36:01,859 --> 01:36:05,380
I'm going to do this, this, the finances, that, that, that.
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01:36:05,380 --> 01:36:18,859
And she had a dream and she had it with me, which basically we interpreted it as if you do that, it's going to cause real issues in your marriage.
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01:36:18,859 --> 01:36:21,579
And there would be this distance between you and your husband.
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01:36:21,579 --> 01:36:23,779
And so I thought, and I was like, what?
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01:36:23,779 --> 01:36:26,020
This is really good for us.
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01:36:26,020 --> 01:36:30,979
I know it is, but looking back now, it was not the right timing for that.
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01:36:30,979 --> 01:36:34,100
And we weren't prepared to take those steps financially.
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01:36:34,100 --> 01:36:36,699
But we are now, and so we're kind of taking those steps now.
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01:36:36,699 --> 01:36:42,939
But yeah, but really grateful that my sister was able to share that with me because of that.
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01:36:42,939 --> 01:36:54,479
And so I've, yeah, my, the challenge for me, and it's not a challenge anymore, it used to be, is to take that on board and to be humble and know that that's for a reason.
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01:36:54,479 --> 01:36:57,800
And I need to, I need to follow that.
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Yeah.
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Can I add to that?
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01:36:59,119 --> 01:36:59,560
Absolutely.
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About Laurie.
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01:37:00,399 --> 01:37:04,720
I remember Matt saying to me several times, I haven't had your dreams.
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01:37:04,720 --> 01:37:06,039
I remember that.
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01:37:06,039 --> 01:37:10,880
So like, you know, when things kind of are a little bit mucky, messy, difficult.
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01:37:10,880 --> 01:37:13,760
I'm like, but it just is the way it is.
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01:37:13,760 --> 01:37:14,640
We've just got to do it.
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01:37:14,640 --> 01:37:17,640
Like, you know, and then he's like, but I didn't have those dreams.
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01:37:17,640 --> 01:37:24,760
Like, almost like, I've got like this added bonus of being able to visualize what needs to happen.
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01:37:24,760 --> 01:37:28,239
But then Laurie hadn't, and Matt hadn't.
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01:37:28,239 --> 01:37:35,239
And what I love about Laurie is that, so for example, there was one story we were just talking about last night.
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01:37:35,239 --> 01:37:40,640
There was this young boy that had seen in a dream, and that he was at this crossroads.
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01:37:40,640 --> 01:37:44,000
And I felt like he was going to go down the rock.
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01:37:44,079 --> 01:37:45,000
The rock.
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01:37:45,000 --> 01:37:48,840
And in the night I rang a mutual friend, Ricky.
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01:37:48,840 --> 01:37:50,119
No, I didn't ring him.
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01:37:50,119 --> 01:37:53,119
I texted him and I just said, listen, you know, this lad.
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01:37:53,119 --> 01:37:58,720
Like, because he had a really, Ricky had a really good relationship with the youth that were like involved in our kitchens.
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01:37:58,720 --> 01:37:59,840
He was running the kitchen.
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01:37:59,840 --> 01:38:01,359
That was kind of like the main tool.
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01:38:01,359 --> 01:38:05,680
Like, you know, as the years progressed, you know, the more children we had, you know, we're like,
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01:38:05,680 --> 01:38:06,960
okay, we need somebody in the kitchen.
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01:38:06,960 --> 01:38:07,960
He was perfect.
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01:38:07,960 --> 01:38:10,880
He was the right person because he just connected with these youth.
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01:38:10,960 --> 01:38:13,520
And so I texted him, I said, you need to take him under your ring.
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01:38:13,520 --> 01:38:14,319
You need to help him.
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01:38:14,319 --> 01:38:18,359
Like, when he comes in this morning, like, you need to, because he's going to go down the wrong path.
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01:38:18,359 --> 01:38:24,600
And then I get a call later from Laurie, and she's just like, I've heard you've been dreaming again.
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01:38:24,600 --> 01:38:28,880
And but like, Laurie is like, okay.
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01:38:28,880 --> 01:38:34,319
And so the situation with this young lad, Laurie made a decision based on that dream that I'd had.
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01:38:34,319 --> 01:38:37,039
Because we were told you need to let him go out the kitchen.
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01:38:37,039 --> 01:38:37,960
He's in trouble.
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01:38:37,960 --> 01:38:44,119
He was in a second chance school and they were saying, you need to kick him out of your programme.
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01:38:44,119 --> 01:38:51,079
You know, but because of that dream that night, it was like, no, we need to hold on to him.
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01:38:51,079 --> 01:38:52,479
And give him that support.
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01:38:52,479 --> 01:38:54,399
And so Laurie's really good.
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01:38:54,399 --> 01:38:58,960
If I say, oh, I haven't had a dream about this, you know, the Joshua and Jericho thing.
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01:38:58,960 --> 01:39:00,600
Like, she's all in.
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01:39:00,600 --> 01:39:03,199
She's all in, which is quite an amazing thing.
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01:39:03,199 --> 01:39:04,199
Yeah.
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01:39:04,199 --> 01:39:06,359
But I've been prepared for that with my dad.
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01:39:06,359 --> 01:39:07,359
Yes.
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01:39:07,359 --> 01:39:10,039
It's like, like, we should not just get on with it.
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01:39:10,039 --> 01:39:11,039
Yeah.
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01:39:11,039 --> 01:39:12,039
Yeah.
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01:39:12,039 --> 01:39:13,039
That's really mean.
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01:39:13,039 --> 01:39:14,039
Get on with it.
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01:39:14,039 --> 01:39:15,039
Yeah.
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01:39:15,039 --> 01:39:18,199
I've had dreams where you wake up and it's so vivid.
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01:39:18,199 --> 01:39:23,640
It's so vivid that like, I wake my husband up and I'm like, okay, so I just had a dream
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01:39:23,640 --> 01:39:24,640
and then love, love, love.
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01:39:24,640 --> 01:39:28,359
And then like, as I'm telling him, I'm like, that sounds so weird.
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01:39:28,359 --> 01:39:29,880
That sounds so weird.
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01:39:29,880 --> 01:39:30,880
So go back to sleep.
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01:39:30,880 --> 01:39:31,880
I'll just write it down.
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01:39:31,880 --> 01:39:32,880
I'll just write it down because I don't want to forget it.
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01:39:32,880 --> 01:39:37,079
And I have like my little on my phone and where I'll write them down.
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01:39:37,079 --> 01:39:43,899
And then sometimes, and sometimes it isn't so much that the dream makes sense, but it's
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01:39:43,899 --> 01:39:50,819
the feeling that you have in that dream that it's just like real and intense.
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01:39:50,819 --> 01:39:52,300
It's really intense.
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01:39:52,300 --> 01:39:56,460
And I've had, everyone has this spouse and your spouse gets on your nerves sometimes
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01:39:56,460 --> 01:40:01,739
and like, they'll do things, but there's just something never.
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01:40:01,739 --> 01:40:07,180
But there's something about like my dreams that are constantly confirming the love that
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01:40:07,180 --> 01:40:09,380
I have for my husband.
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01:40:09,380 --> 01:40:16,189
And it's just, it is the most, I don't want to say weird, but in a very good way because
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01:40:16,189 --> 01:40:20,989
every time I see him, like I tell him all the time, like I feel that feeling that I had
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01:40:20,989 --> 01:40:24,390
when I first met you, like it's still there.
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01:40:24,390 --> 01:40:29,430
And sometimes it's like weird because like how can not be, you know what I mean?
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01:40:29,430 --> 01:40:31,310
But it's just like, it's just there.
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01:40:31,310 --> 01:40:32,909
I don't know how to explain it.
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01:40:32,909 --> 01:40:37,149
And I tell him like, I just want to like fold you up in, you know, in the little box
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01:40:37,149 --> 01:40:39,149
and sticky in my pocket and just carry you everywhere.
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01:40:39,149 --> 01:40:42,270
Like, that's how much I love you.
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01:40:42,270 --> 01:40:45,630
And I don't know how to explain that love.
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01:40:45,630 --> 01:40:47,350
And I'm so grateful for him.
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01:40:47,350 --> 01:40:52,319
But so one of the dreams that I had one time was like, I can't even remember the whole
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01:40:52,319 --> 01:40:57,079
details of it, but the feeling that I had was like he, it was like he was the voice of
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01:40:57,079 --> 01:40:58,170
reason.
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01:40:58,329 --> 01:41:04,800
Because he's always been the voice of reason for me where we're so my daughter had a hard
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01:41:04,800 --> 01:41:08,800
time getting pregnant with a last child and ended up finding out I had a bunch of like
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01:41:08,800 --> 01:41:12,760
health issues and and months into the pregnancy.
:
01:41:12,760 --> 01:41:18,319
First of all, I took forever to get pregnant months into pregnancy with like diabetic issues.
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01:41:18,319 --> 01:41:22,119
And then they're like, Oh, we just found out that she's got a third degree heart block
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01:41:22,119 --> 01:41:24,399
and she might not make it.
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01:41:24,399 --> 01:41:30,310
So I'm just like, you know what, so I'm left the hospital bawling my eyes out, driving
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01:41:30,310 --> 01:41:34,949
down Fort South, which is like a hill coming down from the University of Utah.
:
01:41:34,949 --> 01:41:39,149
And I was just crying and I called my husband and like they said she has a third degree
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01:41:39,149 --> 01:41:40,989
heart block and she might not make it.
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01:41:40,989 --> 01:41:45,510
And he's like, okay, and in this, this you'll need a pacemaker if she does make it.
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01:41:45,510 --> 01:41:48,470
And I remember him just saying, okay, we'll get her pacemaker.
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01:41:48,470 --> 01:41:50,869
Like so like matter of fact, like it's no big deal.
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01:41:50,869 --> 01:41:57,899
And I remember thinking like, huh, I guess we can get her a pacemaker.
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01:41:57,899 --> 01:42:04,060
But more importantly, in that moment, what I felt was that he's this like a surety in
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01:42:04,060 --> 01:42:09,000
like, we'll get her a pacemaker and then we'll just make it work.
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01:42:09,000 --> 01:42:12,880
But it was like his willingness to walk with me.
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01:42:12,880 --> 01:42:17,479
And that confidence and like, we don't have anything to worry about like we're in this together
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01:42:17,479 --> 01:42:19,399
was that what I felt in that moment.
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01:42:19,399 --> 01:42:25,560
And I don't know when I first heard the news why it was like so traumatic and drastic
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01:42:25,560 --> 01:42:27,720
that I was just like, well, you were pregnant.
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01:42:27,720 --> 01:42:31,760
Yes, yes, I was pregnant and it took forever to get pregnant.
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01:42:31,760 --> 01:42:32,760
And then it was like this.
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01:42:32,760 --> 01:42:33,760
Emotions are extreme.
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01:42:33,760 --> 01:42:34,760
Goodness gracious.
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01:42:34,760 --> 01:42:39,199
But I remember just that little word does that phrase, okay, we'll get her a pacemaker.
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01:42:39,199 --> 01:42:42,920
And then like his voice was just like, and I'll go back to doing whatever I was doing.
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01:42:42,920 --> 01:42:46,739
And I came home and I remember receiving a blessing.
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01:42:46,739 --> 01:42:49,140
His dad came over and I got a blessing.
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01:42:49,140 --> 01:42:51,819
And in that moment, I felt the sense of calm.
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01:42:51,819 --> 01:42:56,619
And remember this like the spirit whispering to me like, there's no reason for you to stress
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01:42:56,619 --> 01:43:02,260
because stress just adds to whatever else will add to you know, negative thing in pregnancy.
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01:43:02,260 --> 01:43:05,020
So I remember just thinking, okay, we're not going to stress.
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01:43:05,020 --> 01:43:06,260
We're in Utah.
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01:43:06,260 --> 01:43:12,420
Utah has like one of the best hospitals for heart issues and yeah, good.
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01:43:12,420 --> 01:43:14,180
What yeah, I'm literally good.
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01:43:14,180 --> 01:43:15,460
We've got good insurance.
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01:43:15,460 --> 01:43:20,140
The job that I'm doing allows me to have free time to just, I would go sit in the hospital
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01:43:20,140 --> 01:43:24,020
for months and every other people could do run around and do the work that I needed to
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01:43:24,020 --> 01:43:25,020
do.
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01:43:25,020 --> 01:43:28,619
So you're good and you have a spouse that's willing to do this with you.
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01:43:28,619 --> 01:43:29,680
So why stress?
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01:43:29,680 --> 01:43:36,039
So I remember going to the hospital week later to, you know, basically get my all the checklist
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01:43:36,039 --> 01:43:40,840
of what I need to do to go sit in the hospital for the next three months or so.
:
01:43:40,840 --> 01:43:44,760
And they're checking those little girls heart.
:
01:43:44,760 --> 01:43:49,279
They're checking it and they're taking forever and I'm thinking, hey, I've got, I'm in my sweat
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01:43:49,279 --> 01:43:50,279
pants.
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01:43:50,279 --> 01:43:52,399
I'm ready to take notes and just go sit in the hospital.
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01:43:52,399 --> 01:43:54,319
Like why is it taking so long?
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01:43:54,319 --> 01:43:59,850
And the tech goes, if I hadn't seen your file, I wouldn't know this was the same heart we're
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01:43:59,850 --> 01:44:00,850
looking at.
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01:44:00,850 --> 01:44:06,960
And I remember thinking, bring your boss over to talk to us because I don't know, you might
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01:44:06,960 --> 01:44:12,880
be seeing something different because we had taken her to the University of Utah, like
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01:44:12,880 --> 01:44:18,800
the pediatrics there, the special, whatever, the specialist to look and they're the ones
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01:44:18,800 --> 01:44:20,039
that found the third degree hop.
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01:44:20,039 --> 01:44:23,479
Like and it was something that was irreversible.
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01:44:23,479 --> 01:44:29,229
So when she said that, and then the doctor comes in and she's like, huh, I guess it was
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01:44:29,229 --> 01:44:30,229
a fluke.
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01:44:30,229 --> 01:44:32,510
And I was like, mm, does not play that game.
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01:44:32,510 --> 01:44:36,140
You saw what you saw the specialist confirm what they saw.
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01:44:36,140 --> 01:44:38,380
Studies have shown that this is what happens.
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01:44:38,380 --> 01:44:41,739
Like it's, this is just the only path through.
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01:44:41,739 --> 01:44:42,739
I didn't say anything.
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01:44:42,739 --> 01:44:45,539
I was like, okay, I'm just going to wait for the specialist to also.
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01:44:45,539 --> 01:44:50,520
So we went back a few days later, especially as they like look through, they didn't see
:
01:44:50,520 --> 01:44:56,310
anything wrong with this girl's heart, not even first, second, let alone the third degree
:
01:44:56,310 --> 01:44:58,989
hop like that they had diagnosed her with nothing.
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01:44:58,989 --> 01:44:59,989
Wow.
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01:44:59,989 --> 01:45:03,590
Her heart was perfectly normal, beating exactly how it was supposed to be.
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01:45:03,590 --> 01:45:07,909
And I remember they were like, I guess we just, I was like, listen, that was my God performing
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01:45:07,909 --> 01:45:08,909
a miracle.
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01:45:08,909 --> 01:45:09,909
Okay.
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01:45:09,909 --> 01:45:17,050
And then I accepted this and I had just basically if, and I'm a firm believer of God will never
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01:45:17,050 --> 01:45:19,090
give you more than you can handle.
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01:45:19,090 --> 01:45:22,890
And in that moment here, I was like, oh, and my husband was like, okay, we'll get her a
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01:45:22,890 --> 01:45:23,890
pacemaker.
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01:45:23,890 --> 01:45:28,439
But that was God like, you know, just reminding me that this is, if this is what God wants
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01:45:28,439 --> 01:45:30,000
us to handle, he'll make a way.
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01:45:30,000 --> 01:45:35,239
And I remember thinking like, huh, Heavenly Father, because I was doing a research into
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01:45:35,239 --> 01:45:39,439
what it took to have someone a third degree of heart block, like what their life would
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01:45:39,439 --> 01:45:40,439
be.
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01:45:40,439 --> 01:45:43,319
And one of them was that they would be prone to heart attacks.
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01:45:43,319 --> 01:45:45,600
And if they just got scared, they could have a heart attack.
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01:45:45,600 --> 01:45:49,239
And I was like, well, Heavenly Father, she's going to be born into the wrong family because
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01:45:49,239 --> 01:45:54,720
I have a husband who is always around the corner waiting to scare people.
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01:45:54,720 --> 01:45:57,840
And a grandfather, his dad who also does the same thing.
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01:45:57,840 --> 01:46:02,500
And I was just thinking, well, this girl is who these two grown men are going to have
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01:46:02,500 --> 01:46:07,180
to unlearn the desire to scare people.
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01:46:07,180 --> 01:46:10,579
And I was just like, okay, if this is what you feel like we're going to have to like
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01:46:10,579 --> 01:46:12,579
deal, they're going to have to learn.
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01:46:12,579 --> 01:46:17,979
And I just remember thinking like, huh, then this is my grandfather, my husband's dad and
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01:46:17,979 --> 01:46:21,500
rich, you guys are going to have to like really learn to not scare people.
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01:46:21,500 --> 01:46:22,500
Right?
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01:46:22,500 --> 01:46:25,100
They will scare strangers.
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01:46:25,100 --> 01:46:31,739
So give people like warnings when they come to my house like listen, my husband will scare
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01:46:31,819 --> 01:46:33,060
you.
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I'm just giving you a heads up.
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So I don't know what your scare level is, but expect something.
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And then so here we were going to have this child that will have a heart attack every
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time she would get scared.
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I'm like, oh, this is going to be a rough, a rough life.
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And so I think maybe Heavenly Father saw I was like Ben and rich are not ready yet.
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They are not going to unlearn the cat.
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They cannot change.
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So we're just going to take care of this so that she could just be born and not have
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to deal with that.
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I was really grateful for that miracle.
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And I told people that I would always so share this news, this miracle, because I think oftentimes
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we're so stuck on the scriptures being so far away for the people of that time that we fail
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to understand that we can also have dreams.
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We can also have visions.
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We can also interpret dreams.
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We can also receive miracles.
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We can also receive answers to our prayers with these kids that are dealing with life
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of scarcity and feeling alone that God can put people in their aware and their path to
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let them know that He hears them, He sees them, and He's always there for them.
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I can't remember what we were talking about.
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So we were talking about gifts.
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So when we talk about these gifts, like what do you do with those, when you have those
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dreams, like how can you capture it?
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How can you make it so that you don't forget?
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And especially when they're recurring like that.
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So what are some things that you do?
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And then Laurie, let us know what kind of, you know, you are receiving in when your father
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shares this with you.
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What do you do?
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You talked about being able to just listen, you know, which is hard.
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So Carrie, start with what do you do when you have these dreams?
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So I used to have a pen and paper next to my bed and would write down details of the dream
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when I got up in the night.
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But now I have my phone and I make sure before I got a bed that the light, you know, on the
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settings, the light is low.
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Yes.
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Then I might, you know.
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And then I just put them in my notes.
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So then to make sure that, you know, there's not one detail that I miss out.
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And even when I'm like sharing a story, I always think even last night we were just talking,
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I was like, actually, you know, I'll just read it from the notes because I never want
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to get it wrong.
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Yeah.
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Like I want to make sure that it's like, and even with this book, The Gift of Charity,
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there's experiences there that I shared with somebody else and just making sure that they,
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it was the same for them.
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Like I'm getting it right.
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I'm not getting it wrong.
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So I think it's important to write down those details or type the details to make sure that
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you don't forget.
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It's interesting though, because in my dreams, like I'll have like pictures come into my
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mind almost like, and also like a video almost that you're watching that I never forget.
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But it's those, if there's words that come into it, I need to make sure that I put those
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down.
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So you were talking earlier about feelings.
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Mm-hmm.
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And definitely still remember the feelings and images that I saw, but sometimes the details,
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I need to make sure that I write down.
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So if people are having dreams, I think that would be important to put a pen and paper
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or have your mobile phone ready.
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So in the night when you have the dreams, I have sometimes thought, I'll remember this
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in the morning.
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Mm-hmm.
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And like I can remember things that I saw, but not always the words.
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And so I've learned that, take a note while you can, and then go about to sleep.
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Yeah.
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And it's almost better because then you're not laying there thinking, okay, I have to
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think about this, I can remember it.
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Yes.
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Think about it, then you stay awake.
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Yeah, so stupid.
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I can't lie.
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Just write it out, get out your head and move on.
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Yeah.
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And then take the first step, take a step.
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I always feel like there's a saying to do not suppress a good thought.
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So if the dream is something that is going to help somebody, help the people that go with
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it, if it's going to do good, go with it.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Now, Laurie, being on the receiving end of other people's dreams and being prompted to
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act on that, how do you discern what way to go?
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Yeah, it's interesting because when my dad or my sister have had dreams about me or my
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family, often just the dialogue, like the call and we'll have the discussion and often
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they won't really know what it's about.
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Yeah.
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So I'm through that conversation that we have.
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I talk about, okay, it could mean these things are happening in my life at the moment.
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Maybe it could be this, maybe it could be that.
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So, for example, the dream that I shared about my sister seeing that distance between my husband
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and I wasn't straight up, it's about finances and what book you're reading.
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We kind of had to figure that out.
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She goes, you know, she was saying, you were kind of like so hyper-focused on it.
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Like nothing else, like full on.
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You know, is it anything you're totally like full on with at the moment?
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I said, yeah, I'm reading this book and I'm going to stay up all night.
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I'm like, right, we're going to do this.
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That hadn't talked to my husband about it yet.
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But I had our plan all set out.
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And so we kind of figured out through the dialogue that that's what it was about and
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we both felt good about that.
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Often it's that dialogue that happened.
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And then even through the conversation, they will remember, oh, I forgot there's this part
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to it as well that I forgot all about and will bring other parts into it.
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So that I think that dialogue, well, what I've experienced is really important if it's
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the dream is about someone else.
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If you're not a dreamer like me, that's not a spiritual gift that I have that is really
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dominant like with Kari or my father.
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But at times I have had dreams or visions and for some people it might seem strange because
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it's going to like, is that real?
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Or does that actually mean something?
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And so at the times where I have, you know, it's good to just actually think, is there a
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message in here for me and kind of work through it?
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What could this mean?
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Again, the dream I had when my dad came to me, he didn't say, you should take that job.
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I wish it was like that.
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I was like, why can't they just say it in black and white instead of just all the symbolic
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language and whatever.
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And the dream I had, it was my dad sitting up on the pulpit at church and I was sitting
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to the side like in the corner.
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And they were actually holding a welcome ceremony, Mardi ceremony, they called a porphyty in the
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chapel, which never happens.
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But I was kind of sitting to the side and he was beckoning me, come up onto the pulpit,
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we've run, can see and I said, no, I'm good here.
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And he got really angry.
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He stood up and he like stomped down all the way around, came to get me and was like, get
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over here.
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And I stood up and I followed him and I sat next to him up there.
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So it wasn't really clear, like it could mean anything.
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But I just thought what's happening in my life at the moment that this could apply to
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and I just thought it is this role that has come up, you know, a leadership role and
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that I didn't even want to do because I thought, one, I haven't done anything like this for
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ages and I don't want to be working full time.
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Thank you very much.
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Wow.
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That's like, yes you are, get up and do it.
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So, you know, for people who aren't dreamers like me who don't often get there, where you
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have those fear, like I was bawling my eyes out when I woke up.
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I knew it was important.
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And so take the time to just really think through, is this a message, a spiritual message from
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my, from higher being or from God or from your ancestors who have passed on, just like the
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message that you got.
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I don't think how does this relate to me now and what guidance can that provide me?
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I just wanted to add that at the end of the book, there was the most recent dream that
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I had with Laurie's dad.
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He was dressed really smart and he looked really well and he said, he tangeter, he tangeter,
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he tangeter.
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Is that how you pronounce it?
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Yeah.
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And so, and that was it.
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And so I texted Laurie in the morning and I'm thinking, what does he mean?
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I knew it meant it is people, it is people, it is people.
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But I didn't know that there was this whole other part of this declaration, proper, proper
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body, probably.
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And so she said, and another friend also commented on the similarity.
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And so I kind of really delved into that proverb.
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Like what is it that I'm missing?
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What is it?
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Why did he come to me in this dream to say it is people, it is people, it is people.
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Like I know, it's people.
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So just kind of like trying to make sense of it, you have to do the work as well.
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I think you have to be willing to do the work.
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And so yeah, just kind of really spent a lot of time understanding this proverb.
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And then really what stood out to me was just like how serving the one, I'll send you the
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proverb, but how serving the one has this knock on effect for generations past and future.
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And I'm like, whoa, that's deep.
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Okay.
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It's about serving the one.
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I don't know.
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It's just kind of like trying to take those dreams seriously and make sense of them.
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So kind of just follow along more.
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Sorry for saying.
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You can cut that, if you want.
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I don't know if we will keep that in because that's wonderful.
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Carrie and Laurie, your live show that when we honor both scripture and culture, both
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signs and spirit, God's breath weaves us together.
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From hungy with children to carawai, mantles of service, from dreams at night to love in
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action by day.
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This is how heaven touches earth.
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May we all attend to our dreams, steward our gifts, and wrap our communities in a carawai
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of love.
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Carrie and Laurie, your live show that when we honor both scripture and culture, both signs
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01:56:34,600 --> 01:56:38,279
and spirit, God's breath weaves us together.
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01:56:38,279 --> 01:56:44,039
From hungy with children to carawai, mantles of service, from dreams at night to love in
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action by day.
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This is how heaven touches earth.
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May we all attend to our dreams, steward our gifts, and wrap our communities in a carawai
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of love.
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Whether we call it prophecy or matakite, wisdom or tohuna council, the test is love.
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scripture sees gifts for the common good.
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Mardi life calls it Manakitanga.
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Different names, one giver, soothe.
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In REM sleep, the most vivid dream stage, your brain processes memory and emotion.
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Researchers even talked with lucid dreamers during REM, getting correct answers without
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waking them.
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If the brain can pay attention while dreaming, no wonder it's a place where God can whisper
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assignments.
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