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Dreams Wrapped in a Korowai of Love
Episode 225th June 2026 • The Broker's Table • Esther Jackson Stowell
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A story that spans continents and the quiet ways a calling finds you. This conversation follows a woman whose prophetic dreams pulled her toward a work she never went looking for, and the cultural and spiritual mantle, the korowai, that parents hand to their children as the foundation for everything that follows.

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Esther welcomes a guest whose obedience to a dream became a mission across cultures. They talk about the korowai as a symbol of love and inheritance, the courage it takes to act on something you cannot fully explain, and how faith turns a private conviction into work that serves other people.

What this conversation covers

  • What a korowai represents, and why inheritance is spiritual before it is financial
  • Acting on a calling when you are an outsider with no obvious platform
  • The line between a fleeting idea and a conviction worth building your life around
  • Serving communities and schools without waiting to feel qualified
  • Passing a mantle of faith and purpose to the next generation

A line worth keeping

I am not well connected. I am not even from this country. Who am I to come in and say this is what needs to happen?

Mentioned in this episode

  • The korowai, a woven cloak of honor and belonging
  • The Broker's Table community, for women building faith, family, and lasting wealth

The Broker's Table is hosted by Esther Jackson-Stowell. New conversations on faith, family, and the kind of wealth that outlives you.

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Welcome to the Berkwell Stable.

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Today's episode is called Dreams Wrapped in a Chorowai,

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of Love, a story that spans continents, cultures,

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and the mysterious ways divine inspiration connects us all.

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Today we explore the intertwined journeys of two women

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whose paths were woven together by dreams, destiny,

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and the sacred traditions of the Maori people.

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This is about prophetic dreams that transcend cultural boundaries

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about spiritual gifts, ancient scripture,

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and about how indigenous wisdom can illuminate the divine connection that bind us.

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Before we begin, across the world, people have treated dreams as windows

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into purpose from biblical Joseph and Daniel to Maori

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understandings of Guar-Ruwa,

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and ancestral guidance.

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Science adds that the most vivid dreams typically arise in REM sleep.

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A uniquely weak, like state, where emotion and memory processing run high.

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So, Kerry, your journey with prophetic dreams is remarkable.

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Can you share three dreams that help set things in motion for you?

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Yes, it was just an ordinary evening.

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I put my three children into bed,

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and I didn't realize that when I went to sleep that night

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that I would be called to do something by the following morning.

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So, my first dream was where I saw children, thousands of children,

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who were going hungry.

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In this dream, I had an insight into their lives

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and felt this like overwhelming love for them,

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like that of a mother for her children.

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And I really felt God's love for them

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and wished that they could know that I'd had this dream about them.

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So, in this dream, I was shown that they were suffering from hunger,

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and that permeated into everything else in their lives,

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because when you're hungry, you can't concentrate at school.

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When you're hungry, it affects your temper and emotions.

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It wasn't just that they were hungry, it was impacting everything.

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It had this knock on effect.

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But the thing that was probably the hardest thing in that first dream

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was the hopelessness that they felt, and I could feel it.

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And that is something that I really struggled with,

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because they didn't know it, but they were loved children of God.

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And when I woke up in the morning, I was like, okay, I was given this calling.

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The words of my dream said to feed the children,

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and so I knew that was a calling that was given to me.

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But then, as the days roll on by, the binamarm, three kids,

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and just getting on with things, I felt, who am I to even begin this.

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I'm not well connected, I'm not even from this country,

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and who am I to come in and say, this is what needs to happen.

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The doubts that's settling in. Yeah.

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So, I didn't doubt the dream, but I doubted my ability and why I was given that dream.

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It didn't make sense to me, and so I just put it on the shelf.

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But then, later, I had another dream, and in this dream, I saw the same children,

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the same faces, and they were still hungry.

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And I felt this like overwhelming guilt that I hadn't done anything, I hadn't started.

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And I watched as a team of people prepared food,

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and that then watched as this food was taken to the schools.

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And so, until that dream, I didn't realize that New Zealand didn't have a food and school system.

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I just assumed that every country had some sort of system.

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I'd send my kids to school with a sandwich box, but I didn't ever think about those kids

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that would be going hungry, because I just had this assumption until this dream.

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And so, in this dream, it was clear we need to take food into schools.

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And I made a promise to those children that I would find them,

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beat them, and serve them.

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And so, that was the second dream.

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And that was the time where I leaned over my husband Matt for about two hours.

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My friends awake up. I startled him.

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I'm there, and I blow my eyes out over him.

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And that's when I said, okay, I need to do this, because this is my second dream.

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And I saw the same kids.

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So, that's when things began in movement motion.

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It wasn't like official charity work, but I began delivering foods to schools on the shore

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and the high-riskers coast, just two families that need it.

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So, it might be like one or two families in that school that, for example, in one of the schools,

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there was a mum that was struggling with chemotherapy treatments.

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She had several children, and so would take food into her for free,

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late to the school for the children.

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And so, just alleviating those needs.

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I knew that I wasn't actually feeding the children that I'd seen in my dream.

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But when I looked back, those couple of years were good training ground,

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because it was like finding the right containers that don't leave you,

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or finding the right boxes to keep things warm.

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Just even timings, how long it takes to cook things and package things,

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and also like ordering the right amount of quantities, because that was okay.

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And I think those preparations helped lead the way to feed the need.

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But then it wasn't just a catastrophe when we began.

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During that time, I had a third dream, and in this third dream,

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I saw myself standing in a government building of New Zealand,

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and everyone was wearing really lovely posh clothing.

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And I remember asking in the dream, like, why am I here?

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And it was because of the work in feeding children going hungry.

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So, always throughout the years, I always believed that we were probably there

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because maybe we're going to share stories of what we saw on the ground,

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the impact it had on the children.

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I never thought it would be what it ended up being.

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But in that same dream, I saw this mari man,

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just stood by these brown doors, and he was holding keys.

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And he beckoned for me to come towards him,

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and in this dream, I walked towards him, and as I walked towards him,

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he used the keys to open this door.

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And it just for me to walk through the door, and as I did, I walked into this bright light.

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And that was the end of my dream.

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And so, I'm really good at guessing what my dreams mean, and I get it wrong.

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But I always thought, I wonder what light was, what was that bright light?

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It wasn't like a constant question.

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Why would we be in the government building?

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Who was that man?

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Why was he holding keys?

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Why was I to walk through that door into that bright light?

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And yeah, I just knew that one day I'd meet him.

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One day I'd meet the children from my dreams, and that it would all make sense.

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But with dreams, like lucid dreams, they are different to dreams where you might have a dinosaur chase in your head.

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Whatever.

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It's different, and lucid dreams are where you're aware you're dreaming.

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So it's kind of different.

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So people often ask, how do you know it was a dream that had a meaning?

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It was later on that I read up about lucid dreams and how they were different, and it all made sense.

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That, oh, okay.

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Yeah, it was lucid dreams because I was definitely aware that I was dreaming.

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I knew I was dreaming, but I was confident that one day I would meet their children and meet that modern man.

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So I have three follow-up questions.

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The first one is, you mentioned the dreams and how you were preparing for it.

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There's a lot of echo in that, in the scriptures, whether an angel shows up and then prepares someone for what they're actually going to deal with in life.

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Just as the angel showed up for Mary and let her know that this is what her job was going to be.

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And there are other things in the scriptures that shows for that.

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So I'm glad that you mentioned that because it shows that when you have those divine dreams or divine communication,

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that you're not just left to figure it out on your own, that God has a way of preparing you.

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Like you mentioned, so I want to know when you started off with the schools initially, what was it about those schools?

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How did you communicate with the people to know that these women, this woman needed a little bit of help because she was going through chemotherapy?

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Like, how did you come about with that?

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Yeah, so something that I've not written about or talked about is, I wondered how I could find the funds to feed those children from my dreams.

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So I ended up starting a catering company.

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Okay.

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And so we'd, we approached schools and we're bringing, and basically bringing in lunches to the schools, like, charged.

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We'd charge for them. And then the plan was that my income would go to the charitable meals.

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And so I wasn't planning to take an income. It was meant to go to the charitable meals.

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Yeah, that took a while for any sort of dollars. And it was very frustrating.

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We just kept having to borrow more and more money, which was difficult.

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But you asked about how we found out about the families who were in need in those schools.

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So we'd be taking those lunches to schools, parents would order online.

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And then we would develop a relationship to the school staff and just say,

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Hey, do you know of any families that could use these lunches and we can do it free of charge?

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And they always knew. I think the office staff are very aware of the needs in our school.

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Absolutely.

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And so they were like, every time they were like, yeah, we know over this family.

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There was always a two or three per school, two or three families that needed to help.

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And it might be just for a season. And so that, yeah, that was good preparation.

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I know that it was a couple of years just getting through that.

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And then eventually the catering company became a cafe in a business complex.

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And that's really when I was able to put my income into it.

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Still very limited.

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It really was. But just I was able to make a start once we got into the cafe.

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This is because if that makes sense. Yeah.

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And I would also like to point out that your husband, I love that he trusted you when you cried over him and said,

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Hey, there's something I need to tell you. And I, you know, this is, and I love that he trusted you and was able to

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follow through with what your dream was because that's the support that we all need where you have a very specific dream.

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And to be able to follow through on that. Matt, we thank you for being just supportive and just an amazing husband on that end.

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First of all, I love what you've done with that and your desire to follow through and not ignore something so important.

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And recently I gave this presentation where we talked about callings and being able to accept your calling and then persevere to the end.

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And the perseverance side is very hard sometimes because sometimes I tell people that you know what, I just want to take a nap for a moment.

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I just want to nap for a moment with this perseverance, but and get back up and do it.

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So I am absolutely grateful that you were called to do this.

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You accepted that call and you're still persevering through all the wonderful things that you're doing.

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So thank you for that, Carrie.

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Which details made the first and second dream feel like an assignment rather than a passing image, looking back worded faith, community and logistics meet.

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I feel like in the first dream when I was told to feed the children, I knew that was the invite to the calling.

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The Divine Calling.

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And then the second dream was like giving me that nudge.

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Yeah.

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You had to do this. Even though you think you're too busy, you think that you're a nobody, you think you can't have an influence, you think you can't do this and that.

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It was that nudge to make me go, okay, this is a calling and it is, I meant to do something about it.

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And yeah, I think it was just like, okay, this is just what I've got to do.

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And so the community side of things, when I was doing those meals just dabbling basically into the charity work, I was becoming a little bit more confident with close friends and family telling them about my dreams.

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And so we had people that would, because in the middle of it we adopted our daughter and we just built the kitchen and so on.

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So we had people like step in and say, oh, look after your baby.

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Let me help with this and let me pick up your kids from school.

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So you talk about community that like was, this started at the very beginning.

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But then as things moved forward, David Falamati, the one who I eventually met, the Maori man that was in my dream that I eventually met in person, he said I want to introduce you to my daughter because her background, I think your line's really well with what.

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You're calling is.

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And when we actually, we spoke over the phone, but we realized that actually we had met each other in person several years earlier, when not long moved to New Zealand, and it was in a mother's room.

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And maybe Laurie can just quickly mention that.

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And then that kind of leads into the community side.

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Okay, so before we have Laurie, I want you to talk about reiterate that dream that you had with Laurie's father, just so that we can bring you into that.

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When she told me that dream, it was just a very just beautiful first of all.

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And I want the audience to be able to know because I think there are people out there that do have these vivid dreams and maybe they don't share it with people and maybe they don't talk about it because they're afraid that people won't understand.

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But I want Laurie, when you speak to be able to share your culture to let people know that this is very much a part of yours as is, it is for my culture as well.

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But to let people understand that these things are not just today, it's not just happening today, it's been happening in biblical times.

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And we're just very privy to it at this modern times.

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And your dreams, especially, they remind me so much of all the dreams, like we have Joseph, the dreamer in the scriptures and his ability to interpret dreams.

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And what's so fascinating to me is your connection with her father and how you both had the same dream from different perspectives.

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And to be able to confirm that is incredibly beautiful.

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So please tell us about that.

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So after that dream where I saw this Maruman, I didn't know who he was.

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I didn't know when or when the government building thing would ever happen.

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And so it was actually quite a while later, we were sat in a conference with my family.

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And I saw this same Maruman sat on the stand.

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And so I turned to Matt and I said, that's the man from my dream.

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And he was just usual.

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You better be sure.

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And there was somebody that I knew from behind because back then I didn't even have a mobile phone, but then literally I'm a mobile phone.

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And so I asked him.

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Here's her beautiful accent coming in.

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I was a mobile phone. I love it.

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Cell phone.

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It's okay. So your way.

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It just took me a minute for my brain to adjust what I love it.

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So I asked somebody if they knew his name and knew his phone and they did.

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Yeah, I thought, okay, I'm going to reach out to him.

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But then I got nervous.

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I doubt.

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How do I, yeah, how do I phone a man that I don't know and tell him that I've had a dream.

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That doesn't happen.

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And it could be a bit weird.

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So it took some time, but it was actually on our way.

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So in between that time we adopted our daughter and we were actually going to go and visit her biological family in Hamilton.

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And as we were driving down, we were actually listening to the beach boys eating brownies.

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And I went past this area and all of a sudden it was like the children from your dreams are here.

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Well, and I was just like person's tears.

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And my kids were wondering why I was crying and Matt was wondering why I was crying because we were just listening to the beach boys eating brown.

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And I said to my husband, where are we?

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And he said, South Auckland.

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I was like, okay.

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And it was like, okay, now I know where those children are from my dream.

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And that was like the push I needed, I think, to then have the courage to ring him.

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Because up until then I wasn't sure where.

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I didn't know where the children were from my dream.

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It was almost like I was doing my thing, walking in the dark and just waiting for that next bit of informational.

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Yeah, so it was like, okay, this is it.

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This is time I need to ring him.

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So after that weekend we drove home on a Sunday and I said to my husband, I'm going to go upstairs and ring this man.

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He was nervous for me.

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He was just like, you know what I'm like.

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This is Matt.

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Matt was nervous for you.

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Her husband was a nervous daughter.

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And so yeah, went upstairs and the daughter's number, my heart was pounding.

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And I said, oh hi, you don't know me.

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And he said, are you Pakeha?

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And I was like, yeah.

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And he was just like, okay.

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He said, are you blonde?

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I said, I have high lights.

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So for the sake of understanding, can you explain what Pakeha means?

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Yes, so white.

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Yeah.

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In Caucasian.

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Yeah.

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He said, I've been waiting for you, cool.

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Wow.

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And so I hadn't at this point told him anything.

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Or anyone outside of your family?

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Yeah, just a couple of close friends.

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Immediately I'm like, did he have a dream about me?

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Which again is not a normal thing, but that was the question.

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No, no, no conversation.

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Yeah.

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Hey, how's it going?

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Did you have a dream about me?

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And so almost like I was testing him and so he talked about his dream.

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So you asked him?

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I did.

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I did.

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So I hadn't told him my dream.

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I thought, okay, what did he dream?

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He dreamt that he saw this Pakeha woman.

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And he added that she was holding a baby and we had just adopted.

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That was cool.

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And then he said that he was told in his dream she's going to help our Tamariki.

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And I said, what does that mean?

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And he said, children.

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I was like, whoa, okay.

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And then he said, and it's going to help their Hyora.

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And I said, what does that mean?

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He said, well, being, I love you.

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And he asked the question, how is it a Pakeha going to help our Tamariki, our children?

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And he was told because she has a good heart.

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Oh, when he said that, I was just like, oh my goodness, that's beautiful.

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Yeah.

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And I thought, okay, maybe that's all that's needed.

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I don't need to be a professional.

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I think as people we put a lot of pressure on ourselves to be a certain way.

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But all that was needed was just the heart.

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Yeah.

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That's actually all that was needed.

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And I think that was something that stood out in that conversation.

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And then he said that he'd seen himself standing in the government building.

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And that's when my brain just exploded.

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I was on a phone that was attached to the wall.

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And I literally was like walking around with this phone.

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And yeah, I'm worried that I might pull it out of the wall.

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But I was just like, oh my goodness.

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And then he said that he was holding some keys that he opened a door for me.

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Wow.

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And that I walked into this bright light.

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And that's when I knew, okay, this is big.

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Yes.

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These dreams that I've had, at least it's a dream that he's had.

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There's something bigger going on.

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This isn't my imagination.

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I'm not crazy.

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Like how did two people have the same dream?

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The same dream.

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So obviously the divine was playing a part in that.

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Absolutely.

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Yeah.

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So he actually came.

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He said, I think we need to meet.

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And so I said, yeah.

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And he came over with his beautiful wife.

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And I feel like that conversation was really good for Matt to be involved.

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Because he's like, finally she's not crazy.

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It's really a pretty good for Matt.

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Yeah.

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It was pretty good for him.

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And I think that kind of helped him go, okay.

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All right.

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Let's plug forward.

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But during that meeting, that's what he said.

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And I would just like to also give a shout out to Matt because Matt.

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Okay.

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Carrie being able to drain their bank account and put into this work.

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So confirmations are great for you, but it's also for Matt to know that.

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This is divine and it is worth following and that he can trust his Heavenly Father to know that you will be okay.

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You will all be okay.

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And I'm just thinking as the man of the house and the knowing that he's still responsible for your family to be able to say, you know what?

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Let's do it.

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And know that you'll be okay.

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So a huge shout out to Matt.

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When you also speak the other biblical stories come to mind with, I think of Moses when he was told to go for his people.

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And he was like, who am I?

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I'm not capable of speaking in this thing.

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And so I hear you say, I'm not like, who am I?

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And God is you are the right person because you have a good heart.

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And that is sometimes all it takes is just a good heart.

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And another phrase comes to mind where it says, God doesn't choose the qualified.

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He qualifies.

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Oh, God doesn't call the qualified.

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He qualifies you.

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And I'm probably saying that wrong.

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I think it's he equips you.

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Yeah, he equips you.

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He doesn't call you because you're perfect.

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He calls you because he wants to perfect you in the process.

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So our job is to be willing and open to accepting those calling and just trust and have faith that God will truly see you through.

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And I think of Jesus's disciples.

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They're like, we're fishermen.

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Like, and he has no come to me.

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I want you to be fishers of men.

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And there's just so many scriptural opportunities that we see in scriptural stories.

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There's so link to your willingness to say, who am I?

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But just I'll have faith that you'll walk with me and just follow.

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And that whole crew of mine, it doesn't just leave.

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It creeps in different stages.

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And I think it'll be something because I think that's just natural.

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It's natural.

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I think it's something that's a part of humility, right?

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Because if you walked around saying, yeah, I am that person, right?

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And I can do it all because God has told me I could do it all.

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Then you don't humble anymore.

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So that's okay to have that creep in.

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But as long as you always remember that Heavenly Father will always be there.

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And he will always correct.

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So now you've talked about the Maharima, right?

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Your father did.

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Lori, first of all, is visiting all the way from New Zealand.

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I am.

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And we're so glad to have you here.

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And I am so excited because it's my first time of meeting you.

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And the first thing that I did was gave her a little dance on the outside to let her know that she arrived.

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But there's just a very instant connection that I feel with you.

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And I see that as well.

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And so I'm excited to hear your father's story as he shared with you and just how it connected him to carry.

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So do share.

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Dad and I were really close.

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We talked every day.

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And so obviously after he chaired it to Kiri, he called me.

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And it wasn't just the norm.

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He called me every day and just said, this parkier girl.

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This parkier blonde girl.

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I had a dream about her and she had his dream.

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And so for me, my dad has that spiritual gift of dreaming.

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I couldn't get away with anything.

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That's a teenager.

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You would dream about it.

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Even as a career, a careerless talk.

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Yeah, exactly.

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I'm like, oh no.

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But it is a real gift to have that.

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And it's something on an hour ancestry line that spiritual gift is.

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My sister has the same gift.

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And so I don't.

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And I'm really grateful for that because it's a big responsibility.

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But I'm grateful for how that has helped me and blessed me.

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He's shared many, many a dream about warnings and things that I need to be aware of.

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Even pull my husband and I in before we got married and we were dating.

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Come on, get on with it.

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So it wasn't unusual for him to share his dreams.

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And so he shared what he had seen with Kiri and said, I think you need to help her.

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Can you meet with her?

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She's got some big mahi or big work to do.

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Wow.

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And I said, yeah.

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I remember Kiri meeting here in the mother's room.

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And I did feel an instant connection with Kiri.

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So when you see a mother's room, tell our audience what a mother's room is.

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Yeah.

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It's wonderful.

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They call it here.

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It's probably still a mother's room.

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But is this church related?

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Mother's room?

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She was breastfeeded and had bags.

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And I was given a baby a bottle.

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So in our church, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, there's a room that's

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usually close to the bathroom for mothers to be able to nurse.

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While they're there, and usually there's a speaker in there that allows you to still hear what's happening in the chapel.

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So that's what they're referring to when they say mother's room.

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So you went in there to take care of your child.

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She was already there taking care of her child and you guys met.

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Yeah, we just chatted.

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And my background was as a nutritionist and working in across New Zealand and different Māori communities.

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Interesting.

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And helping just to share different practices around raising the whole door and health of the community.

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And so using the whole door or health, well being of a community through good nutrition.

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I love that you're speaking and you just have this connection with me that I'm like, I understand.

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I know.

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But I love it because I know it's important that I let our audience know that what it means.

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Because I think it's beautiful. I can pick it up.

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But I know it's beautiful and necessary for them to know what it is.

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So if I pause you and interject, that's all that is.

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Thank you.

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Yeah, please do that.

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Because I said, I'm going to have to think of the English and English words.

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Because it's a natural thing.

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Yeah, we met.

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And I did recall here from the mother's room and he goes, I didn't know her.

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And he saw Kari at the same conference.

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He noticed her.

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So it was meant to be.

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And yeah, because of my background, I thought, yes, I probably can help.

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And also, I'm one of eight children and dad was like a baker, a bricklayer initially.

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And money was hard to come by.

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And often I went to school without food.

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And it really impacted my emotional wellbeing.

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I really felt a lot of shame because of that.

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And so I had experience that myself being in school without food and really had that willingness to help and be involved.

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You understood it.

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Yeah.

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But also even in my work, working with these different communities,

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I realized, oh my gosh, we can talk about good health and nutrition.

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But actually, the most important thing is actually, can you afford food?

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And it really came to my awareness that this is a widespread issue, food insecurity.

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And it became one of my passions and my work to really advocate for that.

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And like Kari, really purpose driven.

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And I've never really thought, what career do I want to be in?

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It's just been, I really feel like this is my path.

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And I'll take this path and then see where it leads me.

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And so I felt, I'll have a chat to her and felt a real connection and a real desire to help.

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Yeah.

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Oh, from your father's dream.

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Yeah.

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But also, when we met, she came over.

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I was heavily pre-knit with my fourth.

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I had three preschoolers.

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Okay.

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I didn't have a lot of spare time on my hands.

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And she was a mother of young children as well.

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But when I met her and she shared her dreams, I felt, again, those impressions, a real,

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an instant need to help her.

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Whatever I can do to help, I will help her.

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But I made it really clear, I've got three little kids now about it.

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And I have another one.

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I can only do so much.

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I'm not going to be hands on.

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I'm just going to help you strategize and build a plan and all the rest of it.

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So that changed.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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So you wrote the book about those dreams.

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And you told me the story about how you had her read to her father, had Laurie read to her father.

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So I wanted just to make sure that my version of the dreams and what I saw and what he saw

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and what we said that I had it right.

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Yeah.

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Because I think sometimes we can, over time, forget things and what.

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And so I wanted to make sure that it was right.

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Accurate.

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And so I asked Laurie if she would read it to her dad.

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Was it when he was in the hospital?

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I can't remember.

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I actually can't remember doing that.

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But she came back and said, he said it was all correct.

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And he added that he'd also recognize me in that same conference.

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And up until Laurie read it out to him, I didn't know that.

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I didn't realize that he'd actually recognize me.

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So that was just really nice to learn that.

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Because he did pass away.

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It was a nice sort of last.

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Confirmation.

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Confirmation.

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Yeah.

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I just wanted to have you explain that moment and just sharing that confirmation.

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Because like you said, there are doubts that creep in the way here and there.

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And even it's that sometimes even if you absolutely believe it, those doubts would still come through.

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So I love that you had that opportunity to give her another confirmation of just when he was sending

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at the pulpit up on the stage that you, he recognized you.

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Yeah.

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In the crowd.

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In the crowd.

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And it just says you recognized him.

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Yeah.

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And I think that's just very powerful and just shows the divine in all of that.

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Yeah.

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And the work that you've, you ended up doing.

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So this partnership ended up being this incredible thing that the New Zealand government ended

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up implementing a whole food process for the schools in the school systems.

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So tell me a little bit about that.

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So basically we ended up doing a pilot and we did it in a cura.

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Actually, this was before Feed the Need was actually established and Dave Varamati opened the door

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for that.

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And so we fumbled during that pilot.

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It was very interesting.

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But yet we saw miracles as well.

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And there was, you talked about earlier community, there was like a whole team of volunteers.

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And so that particular cura and that pilot, the thing that I remember the most was a miracle

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to do with baked potatoes.

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But also the principle of the school asked for the children, asked for us to attend the

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school assembly and asked the children to come up and give us a hung.

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And so we were in a line with some of the volunteers as well.

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I'm going to pause right there.

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Yeah.

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Please explain to our audience what a hanger is.

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And cura is school.

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A hanger is school.

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It's a school.

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It's a school.

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It means school but when you're saying cura it's a total immersion in the Māori language.

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So it's, yeah, once you walk through the gates it's all in the Māori language.

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Tiddell Māori.

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Yeah, so that's where we went first and piloted because of our connections on my father's

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connection.

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And then the hanger is...

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Shall we just become rest demonstrated?

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Yes, please.

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So you just touch noses and forehead and just lean into each other and she'll breathe.

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That's a way of connecting with the other person.

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So it's very much like when...

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Very connected.

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Yeah.

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And it happens just in normal greetings, especially with males when they connect.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, I think that was, I'd never done that.

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And so you line up and the kids lined up and they all gave you...

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And they'd go to the people along the line.

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Yeah, I...

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It was such a special feeling.

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And a special privilege I felt that day.

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It was my first time experiencing it.

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For you, obviously you'd have many of those.

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Did you think it was special to have on that with the children?

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For me it was...

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I was crying.

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Yeah.

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When the children were performing.

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Yes.

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I felt the connection.

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They were performing traditional songs.

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Yeah.

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And I felt this real love and connection with them.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Before we'd even served any food to them, we were all in emotional mess.

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I think it also, like that feeling also confirmed the importance of this work.

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Yeah.

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Like every single one of those children were known to God and precious.

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And we were having the privilege they trusted us to provide.

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And the school, they were all so supportive.

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Yeah, it was just a great experience.

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We did fumble.

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There was mistakes made.

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Of course.

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I think it's a lot of fun at this point.

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Yeah.

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When they were doing bite potatoes again.

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Yeah.

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But you know what?

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It's the same word with the scriptures.

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But took Moses some trials before he actually accomplished what he set aside to do.

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So it isn't perfection, but it's perseverance.

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Yeah.

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Your willingness to persevere and fumble.

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Yeah.

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And finally get that done where the schools are now feeding those children.

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And their well-being is truly being taken care of.

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Like you mentioned, you know, when you didn't have food when you were a child and how it affected

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you, like you know that those kids are not going to go to school and feel shame that they

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haven't eaten or feel this need to act out because they're hungry and they are tired and

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frustrated and don't know how else to behave.

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So you, your work as alleviated those things that you felt and that you went through as well

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so that they don't have to do that.

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So then they can focus on school and what's important.

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A lot of the focus is often like physical because you're filling their stomach hungry.

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But actually you're trying to listen to someone when your stomach is growling or it's in pain.

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It's important to have that physical nourishment.

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But even more important, and this is from my own experience, is feeding that soul.

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Nourishing this soul because I wish that I had that when I was growing up.

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So I didn't have to experience that shame.

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I shouldn't have experienced it because it wasn't my fault or even my parents' fault.

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But it's just a natural part of being human and being different to everyone else at school who had

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lunches.

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But that was confirmed by a number of our young people that worked in the kitchen as we interviewed them.

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I think every interview, most of them cried and I cried as well. Not untypical for me, but because they all experience the same thing, shame.

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Feeling like their parents didn't love them enough to feed them.

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And really it was just circumstances.

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They understood that as they were older but still those feelings were so raw for them.

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And also like some of those kids would take on that sort of...

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So I remember just a letter saying that when my mum opens the fridge and cries, I know that we're going to go hungry that day.

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And some of the kids would actually save some of their food and say, I'm going to take it home for my little sister.

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And even I'm going to give some to my mum.

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So I think that burden of food insecurity impacted the whole family.

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And these kids were really sensitive to that.

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So another thing I think that we learned was that it was actually not just feeling hungry pakus tummies, but actually knowing that people out there cared.

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That was why I was the number one.

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That's what I learned.

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I was thought, okay, we need to feed them. We need to feed them.

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But I think when we got the letters, the fact that we're caring, you must really care for us.

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You must really love us.

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Just stuff like that.

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And so that was... Yeah, that was really interesting.

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And we did focus groups in money to a South school, remember?

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Yeah.

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Focus groups, teachers and with students as well, just to get underneath what was it impact?

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What impacts were they saying? That was the number one impact that both teachers saw and students felt that they expressed to us and it just confirmed that didn't it.

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How important that was?

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So they weren't alone. You know what I mean? Their sufferings were known.

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And I think along this whole thing we talk about this book, I think really towards the end of writing the book, I really felt like they knew they weren't alone.

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They knew that there were people out there that cared for them. Their needs were being met.

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But they never really knew the dreams. They didn't know about Dodafaramati's dream. They didn't know about my dreams.

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And I feel like they deserve to know because God knew them before I did.

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Yes.

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And so that's one of the things that I really hope that comes out of this book, that even if it's just one of the children that read it, they understood that they were not...

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That their suffering was known to a loving, Heavenly Father. Who had a plan?

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Absolutely.

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Yeah, so.

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That's absolutely beautiful. I think a lot of times when we are struggling with our own insecurities and things that are going on in our lives, there's a tendency to feel like you're alone in this.

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Yeah.

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But there's something beautiful to know that you're never alone.

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Yeah.

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And it's the same thing that I tell our kids. Like even if you, it seems that way and it physically seems that way because it's just you in that room and you're crying, you're never alone.

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Like God is always with you. And I love when our Heavenly Father provides people like you and you.

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That are willing to say, God used me as a vessel to do thy work on this earth.

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And I think for me that's the prayer that I pray every day, is that He will use me as a vessel to do His work because I cannot do it alone.

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I don't know.

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Like you didn't know which where the children were.

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Yeah.

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But you felt it when you drove through that area.

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And you met Kari a long time ago, but your dad helped you connect in a way that was just completely different and more spiritual.

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Yeah.

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And more meaningful. Right.

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Yeah.

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And where you, yes, you still had your children. You still had all your responsibilities. But all of a sudden, because there was a different drive and a different meaning to the help that you were providing her, you were able to carve out time.

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She actually had an experience.

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Yeah.

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Just going to tell me.

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Yeah.

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Because I just think how us, your, her, Olin experience was that first dream.

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And when she first came to me, that wasn't my Olin experience. It was like, okay, come and help her.

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A little bit of this, a little bit of that.

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And just help strategize because I got my kids here and that's a priority as always. And then we met one night.

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We're planning out how to, we're to secure the cada, the school to do our pilot.

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And then we're planning out who can we have on the ground, who's going to come in and back to the school.

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And then we had, Curie has had an amazing community around her, friends that just wanted to help. She just has that way of drawing people in.

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And so I was really amazed.

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Yes.

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Like so many people helping out. And I thought I can play a little role. But I certainly didn't see myself being evolved operationally until the night that we met to figure out who would we invite to do that.

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And as we had our little list of people, and we're going through the list. And then as we're going through the list, I felt this huge, like a baseball bat really, of spiritual confirmation.

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And that moment that I was to be the one on the ground leading out in that space. And I Curie saw my, what was my reaction?

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The reaction literally was like, that was her reaction. And I'm like, what just happened? What just happened there?

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And so at the time I was running that cafe. And so we were going to use that cafe to prepare the meals and get them out. But I knew I couldn't be everywhere.

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And so that was where we were going through like, how was this going to work? Like, I can get, prepare the food. We can get it packaged. We can get it in the boxes.

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But will I be able to always go down to deliver? And just all those logistics? And she had this moment where she literally went and her eyes went wide.

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Yeah. Yeah. And cried. And cried. And so in that moment I just felt basically I need to do that. But then I don't have the gift of dreaming and having visions.

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But occasionally I've had some experiences, but it's not a common thing for me. But in that moment God showed me my path and how it had led to where I am sitting today and how that was an important part of my contribution and preparing me for feed the need. It was all for that.

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So it showed me I was at university. I'd already done two years. I didn't like, I was doing like bio chemistry. And I was like, oh gosh, don't want to be in a kitchen for the rest of my life. And I was thinking, what can I do?

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And my two friends were going to a different university. I was flicking through the prospectus. And then nutrition popped up. And I said to them, I'm going to do nutrition.

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I'm coming with you guys to the South Island of New Zealand to study. And I always thought that was random. But actually what I was shown in that moment was that wasn't random.

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I was 19 years old, had already done two years. It wasn't random. It was the spirit saying, this is what you need to do. And I was like, your path was being left in front of you.

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Yeah, it had been. And so that was no coincidence. And then my first job, which I exposed me to so many different Māori communities and even propelled me into leading in a national indigenous role at only 24 years of age, which I did not feel prepared for.

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But my mentor who was in the role said, you ought to, I'm retiring, you ought to fill my shoes. And I thought, I can't do that. I spoke to it literally every day for six months. What do I do in this situation? What did it?

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But I was shown that how I was connected into that job. My mentor is preparing me for that role and supporting me and how that was all to lead to helping Curie and her work with Feed the Need.

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So that was my all in. I thought, this is my purpose right now. And that's all I needed. Although I cried all the way at home and called my husband. I called him and he said to me, and he was in between jobs. And it was the bottom of the economy back then. And he couldn't find work.

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And whilst I called him to cry to him to tell him what was doing, how am I going to do it with three little kids?

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He said, I think you need to find a job. I think you need to go out to find a work. I said, I can't. I've got other work to do. We need to figure it out another way.

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And it wasn't easy. The next week, our next door neighbor came over and said, you do training. I can get you into a job next week. Heavenly Father tests you.

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And he really did bless us. But it was required a lot of faith and perseverance. But just a commitment.

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Like when I know my kids always says to me, like, Mum, if Heavenly Father told you to divorce Dad, would you do it?

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Like testing me and asking me questions was I know that I just can't not do it no matter how hard it is.

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And I think that's why it worked. Yeah. Because we both just had this. We've had our moment. We've had the conviction that this is what we're meant to be doing.

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And it's not going to be easy. We're going to make mistakes. We're going to have the light persevere. But we're both in for the long haul. Whatever it takes. However long it takes.

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Yes, perseverance. That's what I tell you guys. Sometimes I just want to take a nap. I want to take a nap in the middle of perseverance.

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That's fun. Just get out and get out and keep going. It's going to take the easy part.

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Yeah. So yeah, we ended up taking on more schools. And then the Salvation Army actually let us build a big commercial kitchen in their building that they could use on the weekends.

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And that we could use during the weekdays. And that was a great partnership. And then we just kept expanding the numbers of children we fed and also the schools.

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But in the end, a woman named Jacinda Rodden, we met and she ended up joining our board. And we were working together with her. And we didn't know at the time that she was going to become the Prime Minister of New Zealand.

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What? Yeah. She was actually an I body back then. Yes. I want to have a road map. Everything that led you to this and then how you join and then now in this person.

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Because that is absolutely beautiful. It would be great to have that in visual form. Yeah.

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So I can't get Aaron to do it. My husband's after sick. There we go. Yeah. Something for him to do. So when I'm mad, Linda, I really felt that she was going to move mountains.

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That was why I actually found Laurie and said I think she's going to move mountains. We need her on our board.

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Do you remember my response? What was your response?

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You're like she needs to be on our board. And I said, no, she can't be on our board. Because of the political stuff.

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Yeah. Politically, right? She's aligned to a political party and then it could, we could be seen to be aligned to a political party.

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It's too, I don't like the idea. She goes, I know, I know. She's just meet her and then you'll know. Yeah. I meet her and I'm like, okay. Yeah.

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Yeah. And I think she was also meant to be on that. She already had history of philanthropy. Yeah.

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And she'd worked in a soup kitchen in New York. Yeah. Just she'd done all these things. I don't like it. Yeah.

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:

And so she was passionate about alleviating food insecurity. And I think with anybody, with everybody, we're not always going to agree on everything.

717

:

That was one thing that we definitely agreed on that the food insecurity needed to be addressed.

718

:

And she was definitely very passionate about it. And yeah, I just felt like she was going to move mountains.

719

:

And she was very much, met her. She felt the same thing. So it was a little bit of a tricky thing getting her on to a board.

720

:

Because some people left because of the political party. Most of them left. Yeah. Yeah.

721

:

And that was literally, Lori and I at this particular board meeting went around the corner.

722

:

And Laurie's, I don't know if you remember this, but you're just like, okay, we need to make the final decision.

723

:

And I was just like, oh, we're going to lose some good people. But then it was like, okay, I've got to stick to that feeling

724

:

it was important to bring her on.

725

:

Yes.

726

:

And so we did that and we got more people.

727

:

It ended up being actually really positive change over.

728

:

And so then she became quite well-known after that.

729

:

And by the time she up, she ended up like,

730

:

she came out to a couple of the schools,

731

:

worked in the kitchens.

732

:

And by then she was like deputy leader

733

:

of the opposition party by that time.

734

:

And then several months later,

735

:

she became the partner minister of New Zealand.

736

:

And one of the first things she did was

737

:

the within school program.

738

:

And imagine if we're gone.

739

:

I have goosebumps.

740

:

I just imagine if we had caved to.

741

:

And kept the board members who wanted to,

742

:

who didn't think it was a good idea.

743

:

Yeah.

744

:

So you were sweating.

745

:

I wanted to.

746

:

You were really under pressure.

747

:

But what I like in that story is that

748

:

sometimes you are not going to be in agreement

749

:

to when you're trying to do the right thing.

750

:

With a lot of people.

751

:

And it's OK.

752

:

Yeah.

753

:

As long as you know deep down in your heart

754

:

that you're doing the right thing,

755

:

I've been through that situation before with my family.

756

:

I knew that the path that I was taking

757

:

in getting married was the right path

758

:

when people didn't agree.

759

:

And I stuck with it.

760

:

I stuck with it not because I wanted

761

:

to be in disagreement with my family

762

:

because nobody wants to, you don't

763

:

want to be in disagreement with your family.

764

:

But I knew what God wanted me to do.

765

:

And I am grateful till today that I took that path.

766

:

Because I have seen my life blessed over and over

767

:

for sticking to that.

768

:

So I'm glad that you stuck to that.

769

:

I just seen your father opening that door,

770

:

putting you in place to help lead her into that light

771

:

and that light being that bigger picture of not just

772

:

this one or two schools, but all the schools now,

773

:

being able to have that, the food insecurity taken care of.

774

:

And now you're going to have future leaders of New Zealand

775

:

who will grow up because they can focus on important things

776

:

and be able to lead their country

777

:

and be able to lead families and do much bigger things.

778

:

Like I, I'm so curious sometimes to see the domino effect.

779

:

Yes, the domino effect of that one child

780

:

that whose lives got changed, who got to go invent something

781

:

that now is curing some sickness in the whole world

782

:

and is now people are being saved, it's just incredible.

783

:

So thank you, thank you, thank you for just accepting a calling,

784

:

persevering and then just making it such a beautiful thing

785

:

to just look beyond yourselves, look beyond your insecurities,

786

:

look beyond who am I, question and just trust

787

:

that God will truly lead you and guide you.

788

:

Yeah, and you mentioned the light.

789

:

I think it really was, we both got an email,

790

:

highly confidential.

791

:

Don't tell anyone. Yeah.

792

:

And there was this like crown stamp on the letter.

793

:

Yes. And so the first time, I think I told you I got it.

794

:

Yes, they're scammed.

795

:

Like a scam. So I was like ignoring it.

796

:

I didn't know that. Sorry, rang my hand.

797

:

I'm like, I got second email saying,

798

:

highly confidential, shall I open it?

799

:

And because I really am bad at technology.

800

:

And so I wasn't sure if it was going to bag in the whole

801

:

computer system. So anyway, but when I opened it,

802

:

I literally was like, oh my goodness, that's why we're going to the

803

:

government building.

804

:

And obviously we could take immediate family with us.

805

:

You didn't know that I had received the same letter.

806

:

And then I'm like, can I, then she called me and she was,

807

:

I'm not going to tell you this.

808

:

But I'm going to tell you.

809

:

I'm coming over because I'm receiving it.

810

:

And I'm like, I am too.

811

:

She's like, why don't you tell me?

812

:

I'd assume because you were over in the States

813

:

by that time that it wasn't a thing.

814

:

But I was so excited that you were going to be coming over for that as well.

815

:

And I think the fact that like, your dad was there.

816

:

And one of the things that happened up that way, he was there.

817

:

He was there.

818

:

And he was telling everybody all these strangers,

819

:

like the guests that were out there.

820

:

So I'm telling all these strangers about our shared dreams.

821

:

And you're like, I live through.

822

:

I'm coming up to us and they're like, task.

823

:

So he had to do it. And I'm like, whoa.

824

:

I'm not comfortable with this.

825

:

And so I shied away from sharing my dreams.

826

:

And I look back and I have felt I really shouldn't have done that.

827

:

Like I should have been courageous.

828

:

And we were talking last night just how like bold and faithful and courageous he was.

829

:

But then Laurie was like, he wasn't always that way.

830

:

Like it kind of came later.

831

:

And so I was like, oh, OK.

832

:

Oh, he was.

833

:

Yeah, he was mocked for it when he was younger

834

:

because he would share how he would see someone's dead grandparent or something.

835

:

And thinking it was just normal and natural as it's what they would do.

836

:

And then he would get teased about it.

837

:

So he just locked up.

838

:

And it took him a long time to be able to share those things.

839

:

Probably in his 40s, it's when he started to do that, share it wider.

840

:

So he was human?

841

:

Yeah.

842

:

Oh, definitely human.

843

:

Yeah.

844

:

So I think that was something that propelled me to share my dreams.

845

:

And he's obviously when he passed away, I made a promise to him that I would.

846

:

And I've tried to keep that promise.

847

:

But you talked about the light.

848

:

And I always wondered, I'd always think, well, maybe this, maybe that, maybe this.

849

:

But when I actually went through those brown doors, there wasn't the bright light that I'd

850

:

sing in my dream.

851

:

There were guests.

852

:

There was this red carpet.

853

:

There was shunned liers.

854

:

And I literally was like, why was there that light in the dream?

855

:

And that's when I had my moment of final understanding that the light was about God's

856

:

love, God's work, and an invitation to serve and come closer to Christ.

857

:

And yeah, by the time I've reached the end of the red carpet, I was a blub room mess.

858

:

And so I think I just got that final understanding, which was really beautiful because we were

859

:

both wearing cotter-wise.

860

:

Can you explain for our listeners?

861

:

Yeah, cotter-wise a cloak of, a traditional cloak of jia feathers and flax that has been

862

:

processed.

863

:

It takes a really long time and put together and sew on carefully.

864

:

It takes a long time to do that.

865

:

And it is something that is used on really special occasions to honour the person that

866

:

is wearing it.

867

:

And yeah, we were both able to wear.

868

:

So first time I had worn a cotter-wise at the age of...

869

:

And I didn't know that until we were driving here.

870

:

Yeah, to this podcast, I didn't realise that was the first time.

871

:

So it was just a real special experience.

872

:

I was telling Kerry that I thought it would be just like a stuffy kind of no-feeling kind

873

:

of experience.

874

:

That's what I thought, but it was so different.

875

:

I came in thinking, oh, it's going to be hand-out, you certificate, a bit cold and...

876

:

Yeah, official.

877

:

...official, but it was the exact opposite.

878

:

I was really blown away by the feeling of reverence that was the honour for everyone

879

:

that was receiving an award.

880

:

And so I certainly enjoyed the experience and came away like I was on a cloud.

881

:

Yeah, for sure.

882

:

I didn't know.

883

:

So our daughters, biological family, were the ones that asked if I would want to wear

884

:

their family cotter-wise.

885

:

And initially I thought, oh, that's probably been insensitive to the Māori culture.

886

:

Should I be wearing it?

887

:

Here's that doubt again.

888

:

I had this little debate in my mind, and so I prayed about it.

889

:

And when I prayed about it, I was actually driving at the time.

890

:

And I remember it was just like, this is an extension.

891

:

They're extending their love.

892

:

And appreciation.

893

:

Yeah.

894

:

And this is a good thing.

895

:

It's an honour.

896

:

Yeah.

897

:

It's an honour, absolute honour.

898

:

I only mailed back and said I'd be on it to wear a rip.

899

:

But we were talking in the car earlier that I asked what the cotter-wise symbolised.

900

:

And their particular cotter-wise symbolised the arms of love from past generations, present

901

:

and future.

902

:

Which is cool.

903

:

It's so beautiful.

904

:

But I didn't realise until Marianne Abbe's grandmother placed it on me.

905

:

I actually literally felt this overwhelming love come over me.

906

:

That literally took my breath away.

907

:

And I thought, is Marianne feeling the same thing?

908

:

Does she know what I'm feeling?

909

:

And she looked up at me as she was tying the string and her eyes were filled with tears.

910

:

And I'm like, okay, she's feeling it too.

911

:

And so that was, I love that I had the opportunity because it made it all, like Laurie was saying,

912

:

it was actually a lovely ceremony with lots of feeling.

913

:

And it was just a beautiful ceremony.

914

:

But having, wearing the cotter-wise also and seeing Laurie and her cotter-wise, she looked

915

:

amazing.

916

:

Like it was just all that more like incredible.

917

:

And almost you've done the works and you're allowed to enjoy this moment.

918

:

And guess what?

919

:

You're going to have Abbe's ancestors with you.

920

:

And so that was special, wasn't it?

921

:

Yeah.

922

:

Yeah.

923

:

And what an incredible connection to your daughter as well.

924

:

Yeah.

925

:

Just saying that you've gone over and beyond for her people and for her just ancestors in

926

:

the future.

927

:

Yeah.

928

:

But you've made a path for the future.

929

:

And that's huge.

930

:

Thank you so much.

931

:

I want to also touch on what's happening now, you know, with the feed the need, how

932

:

if things are still being measured.

933

:

So Laurie is actually, she's in a really an amazing position nationally to do with the

934

:

Food and School programme.

935

:

So when she was talking earlier about that path leading to feeding.

936

:

Yeah, nutrition.

937

:

Like she's still having flashbacks to like, oh my gosh, be the need, prepared me for what

938

:

I'm doing now.

939

:

So like her role is pretty huge and her responsibility is pretty huge.

940

:

And it's just, it was, but then the government cut all our jobs.

941

:

So I'm still there.

942

:

Yeah.

943

:

I've still got my big mouth.

944

:

So.

945

:

Yeah.

946

:

And so, yeah.

947

:

So that's what, but yeah, we can go into that.

948

:

Yeah.

949

:

Okay.

950

:

So let's talk about the little boy.

951

:

Yes.

952

:

Okay.

953

:

Yeah.

954

:

Tell me.

955

:

Yes.

956

:

So we were at a school and this little boy came out.

957

:

Oh, it was their pilot school?

958

:

Yes.

959

:

And he came up and said, are you two sisters?

960

:

And he was looking up and I kind of just giggled because I'm just like, well, obviously

961

:

not.

962

:

We had a good laugh at it, didn't we?

963

:

And then, but he stood there and we were kind of like, he's like, no, seriously, I'm asking

964

:

it.

965

:

Yeah.

966

:

Serious question.

967

:

Like, so then I'm like, oh, he's, this is a serious question because we'd get like questions

968

:

all the time, like, we'd have kids say to me, like, why don't you have any eyebrows?

969

:

So now I colour them in.

970

:

But like, just kind of cute stuff.

971

:

Yes.

972

:

But yeah, so I just thought it was just another one of those.

973

:

But then I realised that he was being earnest in his question.

974

:

Like he really was sunning their weight.

975

:

And so I said, well, we're not sisters.

976

:

But when we serve together, we feel like sisters.

977

:

And it was funny because with that, he kind of was like, oh, and then run off.

978

:

And it was funny because it wasn't actually like that significance of that interaction.

979

:

It didn't really hit me until years later until I was here actually living in America.

980

:

It was one morning I woke up thinking about this interaction.

981

:

And I just felt like, I need to write about this.

982

:

There's a story in this that needs to be heard.

983

:

And so it kind of took me a surprise because I hadn't really given it much thought until

984

:

this particular morning.

985

:

So I started like, you know, putting it into my notes on my phone and then ended up lubbering

986

:

my eyes out and really feeling like this is an important message that if we could all

987

:

act like we're brothers and sisters, that the children who are watching us very closely,

988

:

you know, how different the world would be if we actually did demonstrate how we should

989

:

be treating one another.

990

:

And then also it kind of highlighted the fact that, yeah, we are different.

991

:

Laurie's Maori, I'm English, Pakeo White.

992

:

We've got lots of differences, different cultures and so forth.

993

:

But then, which is a beautiful thing, having those differences and I think we should celebrate

994

:

them.

995

:

But then at the same time, like to remember that actually we have more in common than

996

:

we do differences because actually we're all brothers and sisters and there's a loving

997

:

God that's waiting for us after this life.

998

:

And so I think that was another message that I felt like I was being taught as I was typing

999

:

on my phone, lubbering my eyes out.

:

00:59:28,989 --> 00:59:30,789

And so that was eventually published.

:

00:59:30,789 --> 00:59:31,789

I never planned it.

:

00:59:31,789 --> 00:59:35,789

I just put it out on my family and friends' Facebook post, but then eventually it was

:

00:59:35,789 --> 00:59:38,949

noted by somebody and put forward.

:

00:59:38,949 --> 00:59:40,389

So then it was published.

:

00:59:40,389 --> 00:59:44,309

And so it definitely was a message that I think, and I think we still need to keep be

:

00:59:44,309 --> 00:59:45,309

reminded.

:

00:59:45,309 --> 00:59:46,309

Yes, we do.

:

00:59:46,309 --> 00:59:49,590

And I think children can teach us those simple things.

:

00:59:49,590 --> 00:59:50,949

And so, yeah.

:

00:59:50,949 --> 00:59:54,389

So when she told me this story, the first thing that I thought, of course he thinks you're

:

00:59:54,389 --> 00:59:57,750

sisters because children are looking at you with spiritual eyes.

:

00:59:57,750 --> 00:59:58,750

Yeah.

:

00:59:58,750 --> 01:00:04,789

And so much thinner for them than I feel like with adults, we get like our, it gets like

:

01:00:04,789 --> 01:00:10,070

washed away with all the stresses of life, the get a job, go to school, do all these things.

:

01:00:10,070 --> 01:00:12,030

And then we kind of get away from that.

:

01:00:12,030 --> 01:00:14,469

But then with children, they're so pure.

:

01:00:14,469 --> 01:00:18,750

And it's part of why Christ tells us to be like children, right?

:

01:00:18,750 --> 01:00:23,630

So because they're so pure and it's just the way that they see things very differently.

:

01:00:23,630 --> 01:00:26,630

So I think what, when you told me that story, the first thing that I thought, well, of

:

01:00:26,630 --> 01:00:28,710

course, he's looking at you.

:

01:00:28,710 --> 01:00:30,469

He's looking at you with the spiritual eyes.

:

01:00:30,469 --> 01:00:32,829

And he just wants to confirm what he's seeing.

:

01:00:32,829 --> 01:00:38,869

And when you didn't respond in a way that was confirming to him, it was just like, well,

:

01:00:38,869 --> 01:00:39,869

are you?

:

01:00:39,869 --> 01:00:40,869

Yeah.

:

01:00:40,869 --> 01:00:43,949

You know, like let me know so I can move on to my next play.

:

01:00:43,949 --> 01:00:50,710

And I'm glad that you let him know that because even though he could see it and it didn't, obviously

:

01:00:50,710 --> 01:00:52,829

he can also see the differences too.

:

01:00:52,829 --> 01:00:54,869

And that's why he's trying to like connect.

:

01:00:54,869 --> 01:00:58,510

And you explaining that to him was just a very perfect way to just let him know that

:

01:00:58,510 --> 01:01:02,630

like, yes, I know we look different, but we are, we're still sisters.

:

01:01:02,630 --> 01:01:03,630

Yeah.

:

01:01:03,630 --> 01:01:07,150

Again, I love that you wrote that down and you said it has been published.

:

01:01:07,150 --> 01:01:09,110

Can you tell us where it was published in?

:

01:01:09,110 --> 01:01:13,110

Sorry, it was published in the Lea Hana.

:

01:01:13,110 --> 01:01:15,630

And it was interesting because.

:

01:01:15,630 --> 01:01:19,789

And for those that don't know what the Lea Hana is, it's the Church of Jesus Christ of

:

01:01:19,789 --> 01:01:22,710

Latter-day Saints magazine.

:

01:01:22,710 --> 01:01:25,309

And so it went from a Facebook post.

:

01:01:25,309 --> 01:01:29,110

And then someone else saw it and then someone asked if it could be published there.

:

01:01:29,110 --> 01:01:33,909

Because it was that beautiful and that meaningful and it's something that we need to be reminded

:

01:01:33,909 --> 01:01:34,909

all the time.

:

01:01:34,909 --> 01:01:35,909

Yeah.

:

01:01:35,909 --> 01:01:39,590

Because I think sometimes in society we tend to forget, we tend to, you know, just, oh,

:

01:01:39,590 --> 01:01:41,269

strangers, strangers, that's not my problem.

:

01:01:41,269 --> 01:01:44,429

But we are truly brothers and sisters in Christ.

:

01:01:44,429 --> 01:01:48,590

And we need to take that more seriously and live that way.

:

01:01:48,590 --> 01:01:49,590

Yeah.

:

01:01:49,590 --> 01:01:50,590

Yeah.

:

01:01:50,590 --> 01:01:51,590

We would lie down our lives for our family.

:

01:01:51,590 --> 01:01:54,670

I think of my, I've got two younger sisters.

:

01:01:54,670 --> 01:01:56,670

And we can finish off each other sentences.

:

01:01:56,670 --> 01:01:58,989

We will not sandwiches and sandwiches.

:

01:01:58,989 --> 01:02:04,789

I mean, I'm having a drink and while I'm talking, my sister just grabs a drink out.

:

01:02:04,789 --> 01:02:08,710

You know, there's that closeness and that love that's there.

:

01:02:08,710 --> 01:02:12,219

A witch I think is what he would have seen.

:

01:02:12,219 --> 01:02:14,059

We love each other.

:

01:02:14,059 --> 01:02:18,579

And do anything for each other as you do, your brother or sister.

:

01:02:18,579 --> 01:02:20,820

And I think that's what he saw.

:

01:02:20,820 --> 01:02:23,500

But a wonderful lesson, right?

:

01:02:23,500 --> 01:02:28,420

We like a stranger on the street is our brother or our sister.

:

01:02:28,420 --> 01:02:32,539

And God expects us to show them the same kind of love and affection.

:

01:02:32,539 --> 01:02:33,539

Yeah.

:

01:02:33,539 --> 01:02:34,539

Yeah.

:

01:02:34,539 --> 01:02:39,380

You know, one of the refugees that we work with, he's an interpreter and he told me he has

:

01:02:39,380 --> 01:02:40,380

dreams.

:

01:02:40,380 --> 01:02:43,579

And I'm like, so I think God can reach everyone.

:

01:02:43,579 --> 01:02:44,579

Oh, absolutely.

:

01:02:44,579 --> 01:02:45,579

Which ever could be.

:

01:02:45,579 --> 01:02:46,579

Absolutely.

:

01:02:46,579 --> 01:02:51,559

And I, so for me, I remember thinking, you know, growing up, the, the scriptures always

:

01:02:51,559 --> 01:02:55,440

seemed so like, oh, it's about those people at that time.

:

01:02:55,440 --> 01:02:58,280

And then one now is like, well, what's, what's wrong with us?

:

01:02:58,280 --> 01:03:00,199

Why would God not talk to us?

:

01:03:00,199 --> 01:03:03,840

Why would God not show his presence in our lives today?

:

01:03:03,840 --> 01:03:07,639

And when I was investigating our church, that was one of the things that, but that was one

:

01:03:07,639 --> 01:03:13,800

of the realizations that I received was if God spoke to Moses and spoke to all these

:

01:03:13,800 --> 01:03:17,119

other people in the New Testament, why would he not?

:

01:03:17,119 --> 01:03:19,000

Why would he just leave us?

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01:03:19,000 --> 01:03:21,840

And just make us wait for Jesus to come again.

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Like he's still talking to us.

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He's still talking to us through Jesus.

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He's still here.

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01:03:26,880 --> 01:03:29,320

He's still miracles still exist.

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I am a beneficiary of plenty of miracles in my life.

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01:03:33,199 --> 01:03:40,400

I look back and on my life and I can see his hand in so many different aspects of my life

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01:03:40,400 --> 01:03:42,480

that I am here for a reason.

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01:03:42,480 --> 01:03:44,480

I'm sitting here with you guys for a reason.

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01:03:44,480 --> 01:03:48,000

I know you didn't just call me to say, Hey, Esther, what do you think about this?

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01:03:48,000 --> 01:03:51,880

Well, there's all part of God's plan and I truly believe in that.

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01:03:51,880 --> 01:03:54,679

And we look back in the book that we wrote together.

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01:03:54,679 --> 01:03:59,159

That's, I mean, just a story and not alone is just nothing but God's plan.

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01:03:59,159 --> 01:04:01,800

His hand has been in every single part of it.

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01:04:01,800 --> 01:04:05,960

And yes, we had to write that book together just so we can sit here together and talk about

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01:04:05,960 --> 01:04:07,480

something completely different.

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Yeah.

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01:04:08,480 --> 01:04:13,679

You know, so I know that dreams are a huge part of how God talks to his children.

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01:04:13,679 --> 01:04:19,480

I know that if we allow ourselves to be vessels, to do his work on his earth, that he will

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01:04:19,480 --> 01:04:24,400

truly help and guide us through that culturally, you know, I'm Nigerian.

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My culture is deeply rooted in spirituality.

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01:04:28,880 --> 01:04:32,840

Right before Christianity came, we're just very, I always believe like Africans are like,

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01:04:32,840 --> 01:04:40,960

we just have such a close connection with spirituality and God because even, you know, just even before

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01:04:40,960 --> 01:04:44,960

Christianity, the way that we've always lived has always been like there was a higher

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01:04:44,960 --> 01:04:45,960

being.

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Yep.

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And we all on the student that.

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01:04:48,519 --> 01:04:53,800

So growing up for me, and we grew up in a very Christian home, we had preachers that would

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01:04:53,800 --> 01:04:55,159

talk about dreams.

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I remember one dream in particular that one of them had for my sister who is now a doctor

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in Ohio.

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01:05:02,320 --> 01:05:07,719

The dream was that she would be wearing a white coat with pens in it.

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01:05:07,719 --> 01:05:14,039

And to us at that time, that white coat meant that she would be a doctor, that she would

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be in the medical field.

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01:05:16,159 --> 01:05:18,719

And that's exactly what she's doing right now in her life.

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01:05:18,719 --> 01:05:24,239

So I remember that dream, even as a kid, like, you know, you hear things and you don't really,

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01:05:24,239 --> 01:05:28,079

like they're not talking to you, they're just talking, their adults are talking and just

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01:05:28,079 --> 01:05:29,079

there.

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Right.

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But I remember that always stood out to me, that always stood out to me.

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And part of that dream was the path for her to come to the United States.

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And I kind of came along with my sister, the United States.

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So to see her accomplish that dream and our help that dream come true, it's just been

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01:05:45,760 --> 01:05:48,239

very impactful in my life.

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They didn't have a dream about me being a business woman.

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But it definitely had that about her.

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And it was definitely something that even as a kid, I still remember and I still remember

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01:05:59,480 --> 01:06:02,000

it as Claire's day till today.

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So I'm interested to know like culture wise, how dreams are seen for the Maori people and

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how that impacted your life.

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01:06:12,880 --> 01:06:20,800

Yeah, like you, it is just the norm in our culture as Maori, very spiritually rooted,

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01:06:20,800 --> 01:06:28,559

a belief in the afterlife and that our ancestors around us, they are influencing us, talking to

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01:06:28,639 --> 01:06:31,480

us, come to us in dreams as well.

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But not everyone has them.

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And our family, it's a gift that's been passed down from God through the generations.

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And as I said, my sister has the same gift as my dad.

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And so it's just been a normal part of conversation.

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01:06:47,159 --> 01:06:52,159

And even like those who aren't, don't have Christian beliefs, who are Maori, still that

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01:06:52,159 --> 01:06:58,679

is, there is still that belief in the afterlife that life goes on that our ancestors are connected

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01:06:59,239 --> 01:06:59,760

to us.

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01:06:59,760 --> 01:07:05,519

So there's a huge alignment with the gospel of Jesus Christ, our church.

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01:07:05,519 --> 01:07:10,480

And that's always been natural and normal for someone to say, oh, you know, my auntie

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01:07:10,480 --> 01:07:13,320

had a dream that this and that.

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Around the table at work, if I'm working in a Maori organization, is just the norm.

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01:07:18,920 --> 01:07:24,039

And so I particularly have been really blessed to have my father have that gift.

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01:07:24,760 --> 01:07:31,309

We've had warnings, you know, guidance around our path and what we should be doing and,

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you know, where we should be going.

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So in my sister continues that with my dad having passed away.

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And Kerry's got the same gift.

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We call it Mata Kite, which is the seeing eye, being able to perceive and see things

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01:07:47,070 --> 01:07:52,349

that are spiritual, that, you know, human physical eyes cannot see.

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01:07:52,349 --> 01:07:59,719

And that is, yeah, that's been a real gift and real blessing for our family.

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01:07:59,719 --> 01:08:08,119

So let me just ask, having seen the same gift that your dad had and your sister has in Kerry,

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01:08:08,119 --> 01:08:10,699

like does that just blow your mind?

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01:08:10,699 --> 01:08:15,139

Yeah, because it's not something that I would talk to an Maori person about.

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01:08:15,139 --> 01:08:23,140

Yeah, particularly Caucasian because it's not typically a line to what their beliefs

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01:08:23,140 --> 01:08:25,140

system often is.

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01:08:25,140 --> 01:08:28,779

And so it was just buzzy for me to see.

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01:08:28,779 --> 01:08:29,779

Like, wow.

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01:08:29,779 --> 01:08:34,100

So that, and I think that's dad's why this, well, he didn't say Paki, it was like the

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01:08:34,100 --> 01:08:40,619

skinny Paki, like, not fitting the bill of what who might typically have that gift.

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And so that it was kind of, it was just weird for me to have someone that wasn't brown,

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01:08:48,649 --> 01:08:54,010

their heads, those same experiences, just like my dad has a feeling that kind of weight

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01:08:54,010 --> 01:08:59,529

of responsibility that comes with it, that my father would carry as well.

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01:08:59,529 --> 01:09:02,369

So it was kind of, yeah, it was really weird.

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01:09:02,369 --> 01:09:08,850

Well, there was one occasion where we were trying to get this kara to do the pilot.

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01:09:08,850 --> 01:09:15,130

And so before we ended up going the three of us, David said to me, I want you to share

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01:09:15,130 --> 01:09:16,289

your dreams.

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01:09:16,289 --> 01:09:21,810

And I had not shared my dreams like ever publicly.

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01:09:21,810 --> 01:09:25,810

And so I was just like, that's not happening.

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01:09:25,810 --> 01:09:27,170

You're alone on this one.

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01:09:27,170 --> 01:09:28,170

Right.

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There were lots of people at that.

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01:09:29,649 --> 01:09:30,649

Wow.

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That gathering to what you were in the right place though.

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01:09:33,289 --> 01:09:35,770

Well, it's interesting because of that.

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01:09:35,770 --> 01:09:39,850

So he said, David said, pray about it.

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01:09:39,850 --> 01:09:44,970

And then when I prayed about it, I'm like, you got to share your dreams.

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01:09:44,970 --> 01:09:46,850

And so I was super nervous.

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01:09:46,850 --> 01:09:50,689

Laurie was my little cheerleader on the side and saying it's going to be OK.

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01:09:50,689 --> 01:09:53,770

But David stood up with his toco toco.

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01:09:53,770 --> 01:09:55,569

We haven't actually talked about that.

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01:09:55,569 --> 01:09:57,689

And was talking in his language.

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01:09:57,689 --> 01:10:02,489

And then he said my name and gestured for me to, it was time to stand up.

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And I remember it was so awkward because I'm like, hi.

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My name's Karen Owen.

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But it was shifted when finally it was like, OK, just let go and go.

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So once I started sharing my dreams, it was interesting.

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It was interesting for me as this white English girl who'd never publicly talked

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about my dreams to be in this situation.

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01:10:25,600 --> 01:10:32,279

But what was very noticeable was that their expressions changed,

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01:10:32,279 --> 01:10:35,239

their posture changed, they sat up and they were listening,

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their eyes were locked on mine.

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01:10:37,800 --> 01:10:40,720

And you could see some were crying.

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And it was in that moment where I was just like, David was right.

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01:10:45,319 --> 01:10:49,119

This, I needed to share my dreams because otherwise it would just be like,

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01:10:49,119 --> 01:10:51,279

hi, I'm Kerry Owen, you know, sort of thing.

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01:10:51,279 --> 01:10:53,319

But it was, yeah.

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And so it was like, this is bigger.

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This is bigger.

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And trust, trust in what I'm going to say, I guess.

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And they did.

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01:11:01,640 --> 01:11:06,199

And it was, you know, I put it, I write that experience in the book because I

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01:11:06,199 --> 01:11:10,869

realised that this was a language dream, talking about dreams.

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01:11:10,869 --> 01:11:15,069

It's a language that a Marty, like respect, trust.

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01:11:15,069 --> 01:11:19,430

And so I think it was probably strange for them to have this English girl.

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01:11:19,430 --> 01:11:21,869

Their eyes were like, what it would have been.

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01:11:21,869 --> 01:11:22,350

Yeah.

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01:11:22,350 --> 01:11:24,029

How is she like, right?

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01:11:24,029 --> 01:11:25,750

How is she capable of doing that?

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01:11:25,750 --> 01:11:27,229

If that was our thing, yeah.

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01:11:27,229 --> 01:11:27,710

Yeah.

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01:11:27,710 --> 01:11:28,270

Yeah.

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And I remember at the end, the principal stood up and said,

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01:11:32,149 --> 01:11:34,630

you've now adopted 183 children.

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01:11:34,630 --> 01:11:39,270

And because we'd just adopted our daughter, we adopted our sudden few years earlier,

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01:11:39,270 --> 01:11:40,789

that was like, whoo.

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01:11:40,789 --> 01:11:44,630

That was like extra special, but also that responsibility as well.

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01:11:44,630 --> 01:11:46,149

Like, OK.

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01:11:46,149 --> 01:11:46,909

Yeah.

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01:11:46,909 --> 01:11:47,430

It is.

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01:11:47,430 --> 01:11:47,869

Yeah.

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01:11:47,869 --> 01:11:55,829

And I think, for me, that gave you credibility because you're someone not of

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01:11:55,829 --> 01:11:57,670

their culture coming in.

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01:11:57,670 --> 01:12:04,989

And for us as Marty, trying to regain our autonomy, to be able to make

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01:12:04,989 --> 01:12:11,029

decisions for our own welfare and our own well-being, as opposed to that being,

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01:12:11,109 --> 01:12:18,149

yeah, being put on us and those decisions being made by a government or a community,

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01:12:18,149 --> 01:12:21,470

a white community that doesn't understand the needs and how to do that.

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01:12:21,470 --> 01:12:25,270

It's something that we as a community want to retain that autonomy to make

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01:12:25,270 --> 01:12:27,350

decisions for ourselves and do things for ourselves.

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01:12:27,350 --> 01:12:31,229

So having an outsider come in and say, I can help you.

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01:12:31,229 --> 01:12:32,909

And it's like, no, we can help ourselves.

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Yeah.

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01:12:33,430 --> 01:12:35,550

You think you are coming into your community.

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01:12:35,550 --> 01:12:40,630

You sharing those dreams, help them to see into you as a person.

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And help them to see your heart.

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01:12:42,350 --> 01:12:45,390

Because I think of the connection that we had.

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01:12:45,390 --> 01:12:50,670

And when I talk to friends who are Marty about our relationship, they're like,

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01:12:50,670 --> 01:12:54,750

I'm like, it's kind of like she's a brown person, trapped in a white body.

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01:12:54,750 --> 01:12:57,270

Like, that is how I feel.

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01:12:57,270 --> 01:12:59,229

And it's, you know, race aside.

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01:12:59,229 --> 01:13:05,829

It's more like the values that we hold the way, you know, of it's all about caring

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01:13:05,829 --> 01:13:06,590

for other people.

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01:13:06,590 --> 01:13:08,949

That is what drives you.

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01:13:08,949 --> 01:13:12,470

It is about, it's not about anything else except the people.

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01:13:12,470 --> 01:13:16,430

I mean, that's what you had at the end of your book as well.

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01:13:16,430 --> 01:13:18,510

It's always about the people.

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01:13:18,510 --> 01:13:21,189

The people, it's not any other kind of motive that's there.

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01:13:21,189 --> 01:13:23,829

That was really clear when you spoke.

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01:13:23,829 --> 01:13:29,199

And so that allowed them to see into you and what was driving you.

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01:13:29,199 --> 01:13:33,199

It's funny because I kind of knew, although I hadn't been in this country that long,

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01:13:33,199 --> 01:13:40,159

that like, I was worried that people would interpret my eagerness to help as like,

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01:13:40,159 --> 01:13:41,560

who are you to come here?

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01:13:41,560 --> 01:13:42,600

You know what I mean?

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01:13:42,600 --> 01:13:47,720

I usually say, you know, let's don't try to be the white Jesus.

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01:13:47,720 --> 01:13:48,720

Yeah, yeah.

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01:13:48,720 --> 01:13:53,000

And it's like, they're people that have that sort of like, we're okay.

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01:13:53,000 --> 01:13:54,000

Yes.

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01:13:54,000 --> 01:13:55,640

And you didn't do that.

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01:13:55,640 --> 01:14:01,399

And it takes me back to your dream where you asked why me.

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01:14:01,399 --> 01:14:02,000

Yeah.

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And the answer was because you have a good heart.

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01:14:04,600 --> 01:14:05,399

Yeah.

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01:14:05,399 --> 01:14:07,520

And that's what they saw that day.

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01:14:07,520 --> 01:14:09,399

That was David's dream.

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01:14:09,399 --> 01:14:10,399

Yeah.

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Because you have a good heart.

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01:14:12,319 --> 01:14:13,439

And that's it.

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01:14:13,439 --> 01:14:16,319

Not because you're white, not because you're blonde, not because you're blue-eyed,

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01:14:16,319 --> 01:14:18,000

not because you're a skinny white girl.

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01:14:18,000 --> 01:14:20,960

You're just, you know, you have a good heart.

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01:14:20,960 --> 01:14:25,479

And at the end of the day, that's what God sees and wants others to see.

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01:14:25,479 --> 01:14:27,399

And you've gotten a chance to see that.

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01:14:27,399 --> 01:14:29,560

And I saw that from the first time I met you.

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01:14:29,560 --> 01:14:31,800

So thank you.

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01:14:31,800 --> 01:14:33,800

I don't know if you're in nature.

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01:14:33,800 --> 01:14:35,800

I think you're in nature.

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01:14:35,800 --> 01:14:36,800

Like, yes.

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01:14:36,800 --> 01:14:39,800

Jumping into, you know, being out of the comfort zone.

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01:14:39,800 --> 01:14:40,800

Mm-hmm.

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01:14:40,800 --> 01:14:45,800

I do feel like the charity work forces you to go out of your comfort zone for sure.

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01:14:45,800 --> 01:14:51,199

When I was, when you're sharing that story about Dad saying, why is this, all this girl

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01:14:51,199 --> 01:14:52,199

help?

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01:14:52,199 --> 01:14:54,600

And I was thinking, well, there are other things as well.

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01:14:54,600 --> 01:14:56,800

That is the most important, that's the most important.

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01:14:56,800 --> 01:15:03,890

From what I, like, one of the gifts that Curie has is that she is a ridiculous advocate

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01:15:03,890 --> 01:15:06,170

for children or for the vulnerable, right?

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01:15:06,170 --> 01:15:07,890

People can walk all over here.

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01:15:07,890 --> 01:15:11,329

She lets them do that because she's such a kind soul, right?

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01:15:11,329 --> 01:15:17,609

And she won't stand up for herself a lot of the time, but boy, look out because she is

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01:15:17,609 --> 01:15:20,250

a fierce mama bear.

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01:15:20,250 --> 01:15:21,250

And I've seen it.

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01:15:21,250 --> 01:15:23,609

I'm like, I saw glimpses in the video.

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01:15:23,609 --> 01:15:24,609

Oh my God.

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01:15:24,609 --> 01:15:25,609

She's a fierce mama bear.

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01:15:25,609 --> 01:15:26,609

I'm like, I'm a bear.

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01:15:26,609 --> 01:15:27,609

You know, when he gets here, it's not.

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01:15:27,609 --> 01:15:32,289

She'll share with me how she had an experience with someone kind of attacking her and how

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01:15:32,289 --> 01:15:33,289

she kind of freaked out.

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01:15:33,289 --> 01:15:35,369

I'm like, bring that mama bear out, man.

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01:15:35,369 --> 01:15:37,329

Like, hand it back to her.

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01:15:37,329 --> 01:15:42,439

But that's not how she rolls, but in that space, just where it's about looking after

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01:15:42,439 --> 01:15:49,239

those who are less fortunate, who are vulnerable, she's like, it's who you want on your side,

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01:15:49,239 --> 01:15:50,239

you know?

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01:15:50,239 --> 01:15:51,239

Absolutely.

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01:15:51,239 --> 01:15:54,319

And, yeah, being able to persevere with that and just go at it.

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It's just been amazing to watch on the sidelines.

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01:15:58,319 --> 01:16:02,439

I think we both advocate in our different areas.

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And obviously, I moved here and it was just kind of like the same sort of like I had some

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01:16:07,720 --> 01:16:08,720

dreams.

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01:16:08,720 --> 01:16:10,720

It was like, okay, time to keep going.

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01:16:10,720 --> 01:16:11,720

I wanted that nap.

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I wanted that time.

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I know you did.

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I just say it to make us feel better.

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01:16:16,960 --> 01:16:20,710

I know it definitely exists.

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01:16:20,710 --> 01:16:24,109

But in my mind, when I say it, it just makes me feel just a little bit better.

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01:16:24,109 --> 01:16:25,109

Okay.

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01:16:25,109 --> 01:16:27,270

I took that nap, but we persevered.

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01:16:27,270 --> 01:16:29,909

I don't think either of us have taken that nap right.

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But yeah, so I kind of feel like-

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I was trying to take the nap.

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01:16:32,909 --> 01:16:35,430

So, okay, time to chill out.

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01:16:35,430 --> 01:16:37,390

And then my dad came to me in a dream.

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01:16:37,390 --> 01:16:38,390

That's right.

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01:16:38,390 --> 01:16:39,390

Yes, so I just had a dream.

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01:16:39,390 --> 01:16:44,829

Yeah, because I was kind of- I had an impression that I needed to step back from feed the need

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01:16:44,829 --> 01:16:47,069

a couple of years after Kerry left.

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01:16:47,069 --> 01:16:53,310

And it was really hard to do because it had been everything that had been my-

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01:16:53,310 --> 01:16:54,310

I hadn't worked.

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01:16:54,310 --> 01:16:56,829

Yeah, I hadn't really worked or anything.

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01:16:56,829 --> 01:17:04,710

But it kind of led me into doing other work and eventually ended up in the government,

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01:17:04,710 --> 01:17:09,310

in the school food program that just put in place.

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01:17:09,310 --> 01:17:12,670

And so I was kind of just cruising in that role.

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01:17:12,670 --> 01:17:17,149

And then my manager said to me, I would like you to play for my job because I'm-

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01:17:17,149 --> 01:17:21,989

I'm going into another position and I'm like, not doing a job.

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01:17:21,989 --> 01:17:23,550

Because it's full time.

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01:17:23,550 --> 01:17:24,550

I wanted a week part time.

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01:17:24,550 --> 01:17:27,270

I need to be there for my kids and too much work.

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01:17:27,270 --> 01:17:30,789

But dad actually came to me in a dream.

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01:17:30,789 --> 01:17:31,789

And I don't have dreams.

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01:17:31,789 --> 01:17:32,789

Yeah.

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01:17:32,789 --> 01:17:33,789

Obviously it was important.

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01:17:33,789 --> 01:17:39,029

And basically said, pull up your socks, get off your butt and start leading and do some

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01:17:39,029 --> 01:17:40,029

work.

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01:17:40,029 --> 01:17:43,590

So I called it back and said, okay, I'll apply for it.

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01:17:43,590 --> 01:17:48,149

And yeah, I've been in the thick of it within the actual government and the program which

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01:17:48,149 --> 01:17:50,430

has been an interesting experience.

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01:17:50,430 --> 01:17:51,430

But yeah.

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01:17:51,430 --> 01:17:52,430

Yeah.

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01:17:52,430 --> 01:17:54,229

Amazing.

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01:17:54,229 --> 01:17:55,869

Yeah.

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01:17:55,869 --> 01:17:58,189

So I'm still involved with Feed the Need.

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01:17:58,189 --> 01:18:00,430

I saw us sitting on the board still.

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01:18:00,430 --> 01:18:04,029

But we've got a team of people now sort of on the ground doing their thing.

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01:18:04,029 --> 01:18:10,350

And so we do food for weekends and school holidays when kids can't access that food.

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01:18:10,350 --> 01:18:14,630

So there's still needs, you know, even though there is this program, there's still going

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01:18:14,630 --> 01:18:19,029

to be needs definitely in the homes, you know, if they haven't, they still might have those

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01:18:19,029 --> 01:18:22,550

empty fridges and empty cupboards.

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01:18:22,550 --> 01:18:24,390

So that's Feed the Need, still going.

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01:18:24,390 --> 01:18:30,510

We were privileged to, the Church of Jews of Christ of Latter-day Saints have a thing every

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01:18:30,510 --> 01:18:33,430

Christmas like the world, giving machines.

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01:18:33,430 --> 01:18:34,430

Yes.

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01:18:34,430 --> 01:18:35,430

Yes.

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01:18:35,430 --> 01:18:38,909

So we have been able to feed the need of being able to be on that, giving machine for two

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01:18:38,909 --> 01:18:39,909

years.

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01:18:39,909 --> 01:18:40,909

Okay.

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01:18:40,909 --> 01:18:44,189

So then we're able to kind of do some good work with that, which is awesome.

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01:18:44,189 --> 01:18:46,350

And so yeah, Feed the Need, still going.

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01:18:46,350 --> 01:18:50,149

And then over here, I direct a charity called Reach Out Today.

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01:18:50,149 --> 01:18:53,069

Women, dreams have directed that.

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01:18:53,069 --> 01:18:58,550

And both roles, everyone is voluntary based and no one's paid.

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01:18:58,550 --> 01:19:02,479

And so it's just kind of doing the same thing, but very different.

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01:19:02,479 --> 01:19:05,119

I'm meeting very different cultures in New Zealand.

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01:19:05,119 --> 01:19:07,600

I would say, you know, you have the Polynesian cultures.

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01:19:07,600 --> 01:19:12,180

And, you know, and we did have some children from different countries.

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01:19:12,180 --> 01:19:16,260

But here, working with refugees, it's very diverse.

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01:19:16,739 --> 01:19:22,460

And then families that are struggling financially, just going into their homes and meeting them

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01:19:22,460 --> 01:19:24,220

and learning about their cultures.

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01:19:24,220 --> 01:19:29,739

And I feel like New Zealand was almost like preparing for this part, you know?

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01:19:29,739 --> 01:19:30,739

And so...

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01:19:30,739 --> 01:19:33,779

I'm excited to see the next 10 years of Carrie's life in New Zealand.

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01:19:33,779 --> 01:19:38,539

Because I feel like God is preparing you for a much, much bigger role.

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01:19:38,539 --> 01:19:42,420

And whatever it is and wherever it takes you, I look forward to that to be in a sideline

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01:19:42,420 --> 01:19:47,420

like cheering you on and making sure that you're not dwelling too much in those doubts

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01:19:47,420 --> 01:19:48,899

and just keep going.

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01:19:48,899 --> 01:19:55,500

One of your work that's very dear to me, and I have my assistant who's here who's been

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01:19:55,500 --> 01:19:58,779

able to be a part of that because of what you've done.

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01:19:58,779 --> 01:20:03,420

And when she saw the movie, our movie, she was like, hey, what's Kevin doing there?

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01:20:03,420 --> 01:20:05,300

I know Kevin.

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01:20:05,300 --> 01:20:09,579

And so I know that you haven't got a chance to meet these kids that you've been a part

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01:20:09,579 --> 01:20:11,020

of, helping.

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01:20:11,020 --> 01:20:12,539

And I just want you to know that she's...

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01:20:12,539 --> 01:20:14,859

One of them is in here today with us.

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01:20:14,859 --> 01:20:18,539

And I do want you to meet her because she just wanted to chat with you and just thank

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01:20:18,539 --> 01:20:25,220

you for doing that to be able to have her be a beneficiary of such wonderful work.

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01:20:25,220 --> 01:20:29,579

So I need you to understand that your work is going far and beyond.

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01:20:29,579 --> 01:20:32,380

And it's touching lives all over.

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01:20:32,380 --> 01:20:37,020

I may not be in New Zealand to see the kids in the schools there, but I know that your

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01:20:37,020 --> 01:20:42,300

work that's extending here is being felt and is definitely being utilized in such a

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01:20:42,300 --> 01:20:47,899

good way that Ms. Nay over here is a participant in that.

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01:20:47,899 --> 01:20:48,899

So thank you.

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01:20:48,899 --> 01:20:49,899

So cool.

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01:20:49,899 --> 01:20:50,899

Yeah.

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01:20:50,899 --> 01:20:51,899

So cool.

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01:20:51,899 --> 01:20:54,380

I want to jump across the table.

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01:20:54,380 --> 01:20:55,859

I know.

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01:20:55,859 --> 01:21:02,979

So study shows two way communication with lucid dreamers during REM is possible that participants

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01:21:02,979 --> 01:21:07,340

answered math questions and followed problems without waking.

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01:21:07,340 --> 01:21:08,579

That's not reductive.

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01:21:08,579 --> 01:21:12,619

It suggests God designed a brain capable of active awareness during dreaming.

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01:21:12,619 --> 01:21:13,619

Hmm.

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01:21:13,619 --> 01:21:14,619

Not that.

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01:21:14,619 --> 01:21:21,420

Neuroscience also ties dreaming and spiritual practices to networks of self awareness, emotions,

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01:21:21,420 --> 01:21:30,039

a memory of a plausible channel for symbolic personal messages that prompt real world actions.

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01:21:30,039 --> 01:21:33,520

Do these findings resonate with your experience?

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01:21:33,520 --> 01:21:38,729

God meeting you in a state where heart and memory are especially open.

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01:21:38,729 --> 01:21:39,729

Yes.

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01:21:39,729 --> 01:21:41,770

The simplest possible.

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01:21:41,770 --> 01:21:42,770

Absolutely.

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01:21:42,770 --> 01:21:43,770

Right.

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01:21:43,770 --> 01:21:44,770

Yeah.

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01:21:44,770 --> 01:21:48,850

I knew when I was having those dreams that they were inspired dreams.

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01:21:48,850 --> 01:21:52,729

It wasn't something that I'd kind of created in my mind.

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01:21:52,729 --> 01:21:58,210

And there was a Harvard professor that was in an interview and he was talking, he's a professor

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01:21:58,210 --> 01:22:03,050

of sleep at Harvard and he was talking about a lot of the research they'd done with dreaming.

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01:22:03,050 --> 01:22:08,960

And it really intrigued me because I had this sort of spiritual understanding of dreams, but

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01:22:08,960 --> 01:22:11,600

I'd never had like the scientific.

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01:22:11,600 --> 01:22:16,640

And so it was really interesting just learning about how they have proved in their research

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01:22:16,640 --> 01:22:19,680

that two strangers can experience the same dream.

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01:22:19,680 --> 01:22:20,680

I'm like, whoa.

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01:22:20,680 --> 01:22:28,199

And they've actually had evidence that some people can see a vision.

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01:22:28,199 --> 01:22:32,680

A vision of the future in their dreams, which I'm like, yeah, I dreamt of those children

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01:22:32,680 --> 01:22:36,399

and knew their faces and when I met them, I knew that they were the ones.

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01:22:36,399 --> 01:22:41,880

So that always, even to this day, sort of blows my mind just that it's not incredible

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01:22:41,880 --> 01:22:46,520

that you can actually see people that they've never met before.

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01:22:46,520 --> 01:22:49,720

So it's not just the mind playing tricks on you.

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01:22:49,720 --> 01:22:54,680

It's definitely inspired because how does that happen if there's not a divine power?

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01:22:54,680 --> 01:22:55,680

Divine power.

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01:22:55,680 --> 01:22:56,680

Yeah.

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01:22:56,680 --> 01:22:57,680

Absolutely.

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01:22:57,680 --> 01:23:03,199

It's really interesting just hearing the scientific proof that these things can happen.

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01:23:03,199 --> 01:23:06,920

Just kind of like it was like the icing on a cake for me, just kind of understanding

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01:23:06,920 --> 01:23:07,920

that.

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01:23:07,920 --> 01:23:11,760

And it also talked about if you're a light sleeper, you're more likely to remember your

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01:23:11,760 --> 01:23:13,520

dreams and I'm a light sleeper.

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01:23:13,520 --> 01:23:19,199

It even talked about if you've had hearing loss, you're more likely to have lucid dreams

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01:23:19,199 --> 01:23:22,520

and I'm deaf in the morning.

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01:23:22,520 --> 01:23:28,199

So it's just really sort of like intriguing and interesting and it kind of all made sense.

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01:23:28,199 --> 01:23:30,199

And so all the dots connected.

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01:23:30,199 --> 01:23:31,199

Yeah.

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01:23:31,199 --> 01:23:36,760

And they do talk about how everything during the daytime, every like tissue box you see,

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01:23:36,760 --> 01:23:42,479

every table, every person, every road sign, your brain is taking pictures off.

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01:23:42,479 --> 01:23:45,359

And then when you're sleeping, you're processing.

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01:23:45,359 --> 01:23:47,880

And I think that is the science behind dreaming.

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01:23:47,960 --> 01:23:50,760

This lucid dream is different.

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01:23:50,760 --> 01:23:55,229

And yeah, definitely I feel that's the divine.

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01:23:55,229 --> 01:24:01,149

You know, when you talked about going to that school and speaking to the crowd and people

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01:24:01,149 --> 01:24:07,479

crying and because you were chairing your dream, I wonder if that little boy that you

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01:24:07,479 --> 01:24:09,800

saw in your dream was in that crowd.

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01:24:09,800 --> 01:24:16,399

I wonder if just somewhere he's able to hear and connect, maybe he also had a dream

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01:24:16,399 --> 01:24:26,770

and saw you and just in some way, I would love to hear that connection later on in life.

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01:24:26,770 --> 01:24:31,170

So in that meeting that I was talking about, it was actually just to the school board.

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01:24:31,170 --> 01:24:32,170

OK.

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01:24:32,170 --> 01:24:33,329

So I know the boy wasn't there.

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01:24:33,329 --> 01:24:38,010

But the boy that I, the first boy I met is that the one you're referring to that came

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01:24:38,010 --> 01:24:40,930

to me and stroked my face and told me he loved me?

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01:24:40,930 --> 01:24:41,449

Is that?

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01:24:41,449 --> 01:24:42,649

No, I haven't heard that story.

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01:24:42,649 --> 01:24:43,170

OK.

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01:24:43,250 --> 01:24:48,609

So yeah, the first boy that I recognised with it was in a school in South Auckland.

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01:24:48,609 --> 01:24:51,529

And he just kind of made a beeline for me and sat next to me.

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01:24:51,529 --> 01:24:56,720

And just I wasn't, I was like trying to keep my emotions in check.

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01:24:56,720 --> 01:24:57,720

Yeah.

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01:24:57,720 --> 01:25:00,479

Because I just couldn't believe that I was actually seeing him.

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01:25:00,479 --> 01:25:01,000

Yes.

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01:25:01,000 --> 01:25:05,560

And that it's taken, it's taken so long to find him.

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01:25:05,560 --> 01:25:08,680

And just this love that I had for him.

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01:25:08,680 --> 01:25:12,319

You know, if only he knew, like if I could just tell him the story.

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01:25:12,319 --> 01:25:15,119

But it was interesting because it was like he recognised me.

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01:25:15,119 --> 01:25:15,840

Uh-huh.

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01:25:15,840 --> 01:25:16,279

And that.

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01:25:16,279 --> 01:25:16,920

That's what I'm thinking.

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01:25:16,920 --> 01:25:17,279

Yeah.

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01:25:17,279 --> 01:25:20,760

And I'm pretty sure he had the same dream and that's he just knew.

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01:25:20,760 --> 01:25:24,590

And he just was like, are you an angel?

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01:25:24,590 --> 01:25:26,029

And I love you.

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01:25:26,029 --> 01:25:27,430

He said it first.

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01:25:27,430 --> 01:25:29,069

I didn't say it first.

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01:25:29,069 --> 01:25:31,550

And I'm like, he said it first.

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01:25:31,550 --> 01:25:32,869

I should have said it first.

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01:25:32,869 --> 01:25:35,069

But I think I was just kind of taken away with the whole thing.

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01:25:35,069 --> 01:25:38,270

And it was actually after that we were driving home.

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01:25:38,270 --> 01:25:39,590

And I'm like crying at the wheel.

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01:25:39,590 --> 01:25:41,550

And Laurie's like, do I always take over driving?

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01:25:42,430 --> 01:25:43,680

I'm very poor.

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01:25:43,680 --> 01:25:44,239

I'm very poor.

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01:25:44,239 --> 01:25:44,760

I'm a little over driving.

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01:25:44,760 --> 01:25:45,840

I'm a bear for my life.

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01:25:45,840 --> 01:25:47,840

I'm a bear for my life.

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01:25:47,840 --> 01:25:49,439

I remember trying to explain it at the time.

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01:25:49,439 --> 01:25:50,720

I don't know if you remember it, but I asked my wife.

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01:25:50,720 --> 01:25:51,520

Yes, I do.

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01:25:51,520 --> 01:25:55,079

It's like we've laid down the foundation of a road.

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01:25:55,079 --> 01:25:55,600

Yeah.

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01:25:55,600 --> 01:25:56,720

Like we're driving on it.

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01:25:56,720 --> 01:25:58,199

And it's like we're going forward.

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01:25:58,199 --> 01:25:59,039

It didn't make any sense.

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01:25:59,039 --> 01:26:04,760

But it just like everything kind of just was like, wow, we're actually now really doing the work.

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01:26:04,760 --> 01:26:07,680

It had been years of trial and error.

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01:26:07,680 --> 01:26:11,520

And so what but the fact that I'm seeing the first boy

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01:26:11,520 --> 01:26:13,960

that I'd seen in my dreams, that was significant.

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01:26:13,960 --> 01:26:18,800

But that it was kind of the pilot of multiple schools.

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01:26:18,800 --> 01:26:24,770

And we only had enough money to do soup twice a week, over eight weeks.

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01:26:24,770 --> 01:26:25,130

Yeah.

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01:26:25,130 --> 01:26:25,569

I think it was.

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01:26:25,569 --> 01:26:26,569

For the winter period.

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01:26:26,569 --> 01:26:29,329

And I was saying to her, it's just wait.

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01:26:29,329 --> 01:26:32,090

We've got more money so we can do it properly.

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01:26:32,090 --> 01:26:34,569

And she said, no, we've got to do something.

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01:26:34,569 --> 01:26:37,729

And then that experience happened just from soup.

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01:26:37,729 --> 01:26:38,130

Yeah.

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01:26:38,130 --> 01:26:39,289

Twice a week.

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01:26:39,289 --> 01:26:41,210

Over two over two months.

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01:26:41,210 --> 01:26:41,649

Yeah.

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01:26:41,649 --> 01:26:43,850

I had a massive impact on this boy.

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01:26:43,850 --> 01:26:47,149

And then we were like, wow, OK.

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01:26:47,149 --> 01:26:49,510

Luckily, you didn't listen to me on that one.

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01:26:49,510 --> 01:26:54,590

But I think that was the moment where it was just like, if all this work, all these years,

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01:26:54,590 --> 01:26:59,229

all this effort was only for this one boy, it was worth it.

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01:26:59,229 --> 01:27:05,220

And that was kind of like a like, even if we did nothing else, all that was worth it for this one boy.

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01:27:05,220 --> 01:27:05,420

Yeah.

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01:27:05,420 --> 01:27:07,579

So it was a real spiritual experience.

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01:27:07,579 --> 01:27:08,300

Yeah.

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01:27:08,300 --> 01:27:09,460

Real spiritual experience.

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01:27:09,460 --> 01:27:11,979

And I hope one day I'll meet the adult.

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01:27:11,979 --> 01:27:12,180

Yeah.

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01:27:12,180 --> 01:27:13,460

That would be pretty special.

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01:27:13,460 --> 01:27:18,100

That would be more in tune and able to vocalize what he saw as a child.

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01:27:18,100 --> 01:27:19,979

Yeah, I'd be interested to know.

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01:27:19,979 --> 01:27:20,460

Yeah.

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01:27:20,460 --> 01:27:21,539

Let me know when that happens.

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01:27:21,539 --> 01:27:23,979

I might be the podcast number two for this.

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01:27:23,979 --> 01:27:25,979

Yes.

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01:27:25,979 --> 01:27:28,680

That would be amazing, actually.

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01:27:28,680 --> 01:27:35,199

The New Testament list gives Romans 12, 1 Corinthians 12, Ephesians 4.

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01:27:35,199 --> 01:27:40,920

Prophecy appears repeatedly, spirit given speech that builds up the people of God.

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01:27:40,920 --> 01:27:44,199

Joe's promise quoted in Acts 2 says,

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01:27:44,199 --> 01:27:47,000

Your sons and daughters will prophesy.

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01:27:47,000 --> 01:27:51,539

Your old men will dream dreams.

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01:27:51,539 --> 01:27:58,420

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints teachings on continuing revelation complements this.

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01:27:58,420 --> 01:28:04,699

God still reveals many great and important things and invites members to seek personal direction

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01:28:04,699 --> 01:28:06,609

for their stewardship.

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01:28:06,609 --> 01:28:10,409

How have you both discerned and tested dreams?

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01:28:10,409 --> 01:28:15,319

Scripture, prayer, counsel and fruits.

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01:28:15,319 --> 01:28:16,319

Oof.

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01:28:16,319 --> 01:28:17,640

That's a deep one.

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01:28:17,640 --> 01:28:21,369

That is a deep one.

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01:28:21,369 --> 01:28:24,050

I expect deep answers.

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01:28:24,050 --> 01:28:28,409

Bare minimum.

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01:28:28,409 --> 01:28:36,529

I mean, I think the fruits one, looking back, you can see the fruits of those initial dreams

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01:28:36,529 --> 01:28:44,689

that David had, I had, and then the impressions that Lory's had, just how following those

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01:28:44,689 --> 01:28:52,449

has resulted in children being reached, children being fed, but most importantly, children being

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01:28:52,449 --> 01:28:56,770

loved and fed for by people in their community.

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01:28:56,770 --> 01:29:04,609

So the fruits, I think, we literally saw children so joyful and excited about having

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01:29:04,609 --> 01:29:06,369

the food in schools.

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01:29:06,369 --> 01:29:11,050

So we were actually able to literally see the fruits of our labors.

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01:29:11,050 --> 01:29:14,569

So that's really what jumped out to me when you asked that question.

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01:29:14,569 --> 01:29:16,970

I've forgotten the rest.

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01:29:16,970 --> 01:29:19,329

It's okay.

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01:29:19,329 --> 01:29:23,090

My listening comprehension isn't great.

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01:29:23,090 --> 01:29:24,050

It's okay.

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01:29:24,050 --> 01:29:32,609

How have you both discerned and tested dreams with scripture, prayer, counsel and fruits?

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01:29:32,609 --> 01:29:37,289

I think about the confirmations that you get in terms of testing to make sure that you're

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01:29:37,289 --> 01:29:45,529

doing the right thing, by taking that step to speak to David, her father, and call him.

:

01:29:45,529 --> 01:29:48,130

Feeling that impression when you drove through that, right?

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01:29:48,130 --> 01:29:53,659

That's like, and then actually reaching out, just this is a random person calling you and

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01:29:53,659 --> 01:29:57,180

just saying that, hey, I have my dreamt about you.

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01:29:57,180 --> 01:29:58,340

Like what is that?

:

01:29:58,340 --> 01:29:59,619

You're actually taking that step.

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01:29:59,619 --> 01:30:00,619

So that's being tested.

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01:30:00,619 --> 01:30:03,020

You're testing to make sure you're in the right path.

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01:30:03,020 --> 01:30:08,180

But most of all, you're following through and doing something so important.

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01:30:08,180 --> 01:30:17,199

And it makes me also wonder, after looking back now, do you still have that same dream?

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01:30:17,199 --> 01:30:18,439

Or is it different now?

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01:30:18,439 --> 01:30:21,279

Like if you do dream, do you see those children?

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01:30:21,279 --> 01:30:25,380

Or are they what's the outlook?

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01:30:25,380 --> 01:30:29,060

Or did that just end because you feel feel the job that you were supposed to do?

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01:30:29,380 --> 01:30:32,420

Yeah, I haven't had any more dreams about those children.

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01:30:32,420 --> 01:30:36,420

I haven't had any sort of seeing them in the future or anything like that.

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01:30:36,420 --> 01:30:39,659

I think it was kind of like I needed those three dreams to do that work.

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01:30:39,659 --> 01:30:40,659

Do that work.

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01:30:40,659 --> 01:30:44,220

And then not that Feed the Need isn't doing anything they are.

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01:30:44,220 --> 01:30:47,579

It's still alleviating food insecurity.

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01:30:47,579 --> 01:30:53,899

But yeah, I haven't had those same dreams to do with Feed the Need, the charity work there.

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01:30:53,899 --> 01:30:55,539

I'd get new dreams.

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01:30:55,619 --> 01:31:00,619

Yeah, it's kind of like when we moved here, I'd have new dreams that would

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01:31:00,619 --> 01:31:05,460

I'd see people's faces and see the work that needed to happen.

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01:31:05,460 --> 01:31:08,180

And yeah, is that what you're asking?

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01:31:08,180 --> 01:31:15,420

It seemed that when you had those dreams until you took action,

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01:31:15,420 --> 01:31:17,659

you continued to have those dreams.

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01:31:17,659 --> 01:31:23,319

But because you took action, it was almost like you could close that chapter for a certain time

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01:31:23,319 --> 01:31:28,640

because you've implemented the necessary work that needed to take care of the well-being of the children.

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01:31:28,640 --> 01:31:34,479

Like you fulfilled God's request to some, you know, just for that for now.

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01:31:34,479 --> 01:31:36,880

And maybe there will be another part where you'll see.

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01:31:36,880 --> 01:31:40,680

But you've basically given someone else a torch to keep it going

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01:31:40,680 --> 01:31:45,000

and implemented something that will keep going long after we're gone.

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01:31:45,000 --> 01:31:47,199

So I think that's just incredible.

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01:31:47,199 --> 01:31:53,520

I feel like, well, the latest dream that I did share with you, I could share right now.

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01:31:53,520 --> 01:31:54,039

Sure.

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01:31:54,039 --> 01:32:00,560

But I saw myself in a hospital, an old hospital building, and the walls were cracked.

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01:32:00,560 --> 01:32:03,239

And it was very, very quiet.

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01:32:03,239 --> 01:32:06,119

And I saw this woman nursing people.

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01:32:06,119 --> 01:32:10,680

And the way she was like caring for these people was incredible.

:

01:32:10,680 --> 01:32:17,159

It was like I was being taught like how to really care for somebody, like at another level.

:

01:32:17,399 --> 01:32:22,159

And then this person turned around and it was Mother Teresa.

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01:32:22,159 --> 01:32:25,869

And I literally was like, Mother Teresa.

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01:32:25,869 --> 01:32:29,069

And she said, I need your help.

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01:32:29,069 --> 01:32:32,270

And then I felt bad because I was just watching her doing her thing.

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01:32:32,270 --> 01:32:38,750

And then she walked over to me and she patted my arm and she said, you'll need these two things.

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01:32:38,750 --> 01:32:41,909

And she handed me a towel and this jar.

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01:32:41,909 --> 01:32:46,109

And when I looked down, it was labeled a balm I've gillied.

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01:32:46,149 --> 01:32:51,310

And I remember thinking, OK, the towel makes sense because you're always using that when you're serving people.

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01:32:51,310 --> 01:32:53,590

But this balm I've gillied, what did that mean?

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01:32:53,590 --> 01:32:54,430

What?

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01:32:54,430 --> 01:32:56,310

I've heard of it, but what does it mean?

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01:32:56,310 --> 01:33:00,939

And then I was trying to make sense of it in my dream and then woke up.

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01:33:00,939 --> 01:33:04,979

And then I was just thinking, you know, I got my phone out, googling balm I've gillied,

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01:33:04,979 --> 01:33:06,619

went and told my husband.

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01:33:06,619 --> 01:33:09,979

And that's when he said, why can't you just have normal clothes?

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01:33:09,979 --> 01:33:11,819

Yeah.

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01:33:11,819 --> 01:33:14,979

And then he was like trying to find stuff about balm I've gillied.

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01:33:15,020 --> 01:33:17,659

And I feel like it's a message.

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01:33:17,659 --> 01:33:24,819

I think now's the time to bring your faith to the table.

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01:33:24,819 --> 01:33:28,380

Like when you're going out serving using practical ways, using that towel.

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01:33:28,380 --> 01:33:35,779

Also, you know, you can let those children in New Zealand know that this God had given you these dreams.

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01:33:35,779 --> 01:33:37,899

He knew them before you did.

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01:33:37,899 --> 01:33:45,140

You can go into a home and just say, the reason I'm doing this work is because I've had dreams that have motivated me

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01:33:45,140 --> 01:33:50,100

to come and serve people like you and let them know that there's a love in Heavenly Father.

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01:33:50,100 --> 01:33:50,859

Absolutely.

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01:33:50,859 --> 01:33:57,539

And that Jesus Christ came to earth and sacrificed his life for us.

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01:33:57,539 --> 01:34:03,140

And so maybe like I'm meant to bring those into those everyday interactions when I'm serving people

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01:34:03,140 --> 01:34:04,420

because I've never done that.

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01:34:04,420 --> 01:34:08,819

I've never bought my religion or my faith into anything.

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01:34:08,819 --> 01:34:11,380

Like with those children, I never felt it was appropriate.

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01:34:11,380 --> 01:34:13,739

So I had a dream about you.

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01:34:13,739 --> 01:34:21,279

I've always kind of held back telling the recipients and even like the young people in that transitional housing

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01:34:21,279 --> 01:34:25,560

just that love that I feel for them, even though I've not met them, but I'm going to meet one.

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01:34:25,560 --> 01:34:26,760

Yes, absolutely.

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01:34:26,760 --> 01:34:27,880

Like do you see that?

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01:34:27,880 --> 01:34:28,880

Yeah.

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01:34:28,880 --> 01:34:30,479

How God is working all this out?

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01:34:30,479 --> 01:34:31,479

Yeah.

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01:34:31,479 --> 01:34:39,079

And how like that love that I feel is actually from Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.

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01:34:39,159 --> 01:34:45,000

And being I suppose like courageous enough just to let them know that it's not just,

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01:34:45,000 --> 01:34:52,880

oh there's this woman trying to be nice and do nice things like to be a little bit more confident and bold with the why.

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01:34:52,880 --> 01:34:53,880

Yes.

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01:34:53,880 --> 01:34:55,390

Yeah.

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01:34:55,390 --> 01:34:58,439

So that was my latest one that I'm like, OK.

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01:34:58,439 --> 01:34:59,119

Yeah.

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01:34:59,119 --> 01:35:02,680

Absolutely.

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01:35:02,680 --> 01:35:06,729

My God.

:

01:35:06,729 --> 01:35:08,890

It's funny because I don't have that gift.

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01:35:08,890 --> 01:35:22,020

My challenge is actually taking on that, not counsel, but the direction that's provided by either my sister or my dad around certain things that they've been shined.

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01:35:22,020 --> 01:35:26,939

And often it is very much like you're trying to interpret what the heck does this actually mean.

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01:35:26,939 --> 01:35:31,909

And it's interesting because some in my family, I kind of like me.

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01:35:31,909 --> 01:35:32,470

Yeah.

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01:35:32,470 --> 01:35:34,430

I don't listen to that.

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01:35:34,430 --> 01:35:43,710

But I have learnt just over the years that there's no reason why I shouldn't like, you know, these things that have been showing, they've been showing for a reason.

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01:35:43,710 --> 01:35:48,430

And so I see it as a real blessing to do that.

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01:35:48,430 --> 01:35:57,020

But I know even though it's hard sometimes, yeah, I get lots of warnings like my sister had a dream a few years ago.

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01:35:57,100 --> 01:36:01,859

I just finished reading this finance book and I was on a mission night.

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01:36:01,859 --> 01:36:05,380

I'm going to do this, this, the finances, that, that, that.

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01:36:05,380 --> 01:36:18,859

And she had a dream and she had it with me, which basically we interpreted it as if you do that, it's going to cause real issues in your marriage.

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01:36:18,859 --> 01:36:21,579

And there would be this distance between you and your husband.

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01:36:21,579 --> 01:36:23,779

And so I thought, and I was like, what?

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01:36:23,779 --> 01:36:26,020

This is really good for us.

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01:36:26,020 --> 01:36:30,979

I know it is, but looking back now, it was not the right timing for that.

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01:36:30,979 --> 01:36:34,100

And we weren't prepared to take those steps financially.

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01:36:34,100 --> 01:36:36,699

But we are now, and so we're kind of taking those steps now.

:

01:36:36,699 --> 01:36:42,939

But yeah, but really grateful that my sister was able to share that with me because of that.

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01:36:42,939 --> 01:36:54,479

And so I've, yeah, my, the challenge for me, and it's not a challenge anymore, it used to be, is to take that on board and to be humble and know that that's for a reason.

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01:36:54,479 --> 01:36:57,800

And I need to, I need to follow that.

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01:36:57,800 --> 01:36:58,239

Yeah.

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01:36:58,239 --> 01:36:59,119

Can I add to that?

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01:36:59,119 --> 01:36:59,560

Absolutely.

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01:36:59,560 --> 01:37:00,399

About Laurie.

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01:37:00,399 --> 01:37:04,720

I remember Matt saying to me several times, I haven't had your dreams.

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01:37:04,720 --> 01:37:06,039

I remember that.

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01:37:06,039 --> 01:37:10,880

So like, you know, when things kind of are a little bit mucky, messy, difficult.

:

01:37:10,880 --> 01:37:13,760

I'm like, but it just is the way it is.

:

01:37:13,760 --> 01:37:14,640

We've just got to do it.

:

01:37:14,640 --> 01:37:17,640

Like, you know, and then he's like, but I didn't have those dreams.

:

01:37:17,640 --> 01:37:24,760

Like, almost like, I've got like this added bonus of being able to visualize what needs to happen.

:

01:37:24,760 --> 01:37:28,239

But then Laurie hadn't, and Matt hadn't.

:

01:37:28,239 --> 01:37:35,239

And what I love about Laurie is that, so for example, there was one story we were just talking about last night.

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01:37:35,239 --> 01:37:40,640

There was this young boy that had seen in a dream, and that he was at this crossroads.

:

01:37:40,640 --> 01:37:44,000

And I felt like he was going to go down the rock.

:

01:37:44,079 --> 01:37:45,000

The rock.

:

01:37:45,000 --> 01:37:48,840

And in the night I rang a mutual friend, Ricky.

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01:37:48,840 --> 01:37:50,119

No, I didn't ring him.

:

01:37:50,119 --> 01:37:53,119

I texted him and I just said, listen, you know, this lad.

:

01:37:53,119 --> 01:37:58,720

Like, because he had a really, Ricky had a really good relationship with the youth that were like involved in our kitchens.

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01:37:58,720 --> 01:37:59,840

He was running the kitchen.

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01:37:59,840 --> 01:38:01,359

That was kind of like the main tool.

:

01:38:01,359 --> 01:38:05,680

Like, you know, as the years progressed, you know, the more children we had, you know, we're like,

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01:38:05,680 --> 01:38:06,960

okay, we need somebody in the kitchen.

:

01:38:06,960 --> 01:38:07,960

He was perfect.

:

01:38:07,960 --> 01:38:10,880

He was the right person because he just connected with these youth.

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01:38:10,960 --> 01:38:13,520

And so I texted him, I said, you need to take him under your ring.

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01:38:13,520 --> 01:38:14,319

You need to help him.

:

01:38:14,319 --> 01:38:18,359

Like, when he comes in this morning, like, you need to, because he's going to go down the wrong path.

:

01:38:18,359 --> 01:38:24,600

And then I get a call later from Laurie, and she's just like, I've heard you've been dreaming again.

:

01:38:24,600 --> 01:38:28,880

And but like, Laurie is like, okay.

:

01:38:28,880 --> 01:38:34,319

And so the situation with this young lad, Laurie made a decision based on that dream that I'd had.

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01:38:34,319 --> 01:38:37,039

Because we were told you need to let him go out the kitchen.

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01:38:37,039 --> 01:38:37,960

He's in trouble.

:

01:38:37,960 --> 01:38:44,119

He was in a second chance school and they were saying, you need to kick him out of your programme.

:

01:38:44,119 --> 01:38:51,079

You know, but because of that dream that night, it was like, no, we need to hold on to him.

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01:38:51,079 --> 01:38:52,479

And give him that support.

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01:38:52,479 --> 01:38:54,399

And so Laurie's really good.

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01:38:54,399 --> 01:38:58,960

If I say, oh, I haven't had a dream about this, you know, the Joshua and Jericho thing.

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01:38:58,960 --> 01:39:00,600

Like, she's all in.

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01:39:00,600 --> 01:39:03,199

She's all in, which is quite an amazing thing.

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01:39:03,199 --> 01:39:04,199

Yeah.

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01:39:04,199 --> 01:39:06,359

But I've been prepared for that with my dad.

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01:39:06,359 --> 01:39:07,359

Yes.

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01:39:07,359 --> 01:39:10,039

It's like, like, we should not just get on with it.

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01:39:10,039 --> 01:39:11,039

Yeah.

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01:39:11,039 --> 01:39:12,039

Yeah.

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01:39:12,039 --> 01:39:13,039

That's really mean.

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01:39:13,039 --> 01:39:14,039

Get on with it.

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01:39:14,039 --> 01:39:15,039

Yeah.

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01:39:15,039 --> 01:39:18,199

I've had dreams where you wake up and it's so vivid.

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01:39:18,199 --> 01:39:23,640

It's so vivid that like, I wake my husband up and I'm like, okay, so I just had a dream

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01:39:23,640 --> 01:39:24,640

and then love, love, love.

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01:39:24,640 --> 01:39:28,359

And then like, as I'm telling him, I'm like, that sounds so weird.

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01:39:28,359 --> 01:39:29,880

That sounds so weird.

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01:39:29,880 --> 01:39:30,880

So go back to sleep.

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01:39:30,880 --> 01:39:31,880

I'll just write it down.

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01:39:31,880 --> 01:39:32,880

I'll just write it down because I don't want to forget it.

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01:39:32,880 --> 01:39:37,079

And I have like my little on my phone and where I'll write them down.

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01:39:37,079 --> 01:39:43,899

And then sometimes, and sometimes it isn't so much that the dream makes sense, but it's

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01:39:43,899 --> 01:39:50,819

the feeling that you have in that dream that it's just like real and intense.

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01:39:50,819 --> 01:39:52,300

It's really intense.

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01:39:52,300 --> 01:39:56,460

And I've had, everyone has this spouse and your spouse gets on your nerves sometimes

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01:39:56,460 --> 01:40:01,739

and like, they'll do things, but there's just something never.

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01:40:01,739 --> 01:40:07,180

But there's something about like my dreams that are constantly confirming the love that

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01:40:07,180 --> 01:40:09,380

I have for my husband.

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01:40:09,380 --> 01:40:16,189

And it's just, it is the most, I don't want to say weird, but in a very good way because

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01:40:16,189 --> 01:40:20,989

every time I see him, like I tell him all the time, like I feel that feeling that I had

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01:40:20,989 --> 01:40:24,390

when I first met you, like it's still there.

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01:40:24,390 --> 01:40:29,430

And sometimes it's like weird because like how can not be, you know what I mean?

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01:40:29,430 --> 01:40:31,310

But it's just like, it's just there.

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01:40:31,310 --> 01:40:32,909

I don't know how to explain it.

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01:40:32,909 --> 01:40:37,149

And I tell him like, I just want to like fold you up in, you know, in the little box

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01:40:37,149 --> 01:40:39,149

and sticky in my pocket and just carry you everywhere.

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01:40:39,149 --> 01:40:42,270

Like, that's how much I love you.

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01:40:42,270 --> 01:40:45,630

And I don't know how to explain that love.

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01:40:45,630 --> 01:40:47,350

And I'm so grateful for him.

:

01:40:47,350 --> 01:40:52,319

But so one of the dreams that I had one time was like, I can't even remember the whole

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01:40:52,319 --> 01:40:57,079

details of it, but the feeling that I had was like he, it was like he was the voice of

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01:40:57,079 --> 01:40:58,170

reason.

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01:40:58,329 --> 01:41:04,800

Because he's always been the voice of reason for me where we're so my daughter had a hard

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01:41:04,800 --> 01:41:08,800

time getting pregnant with a last child and ended up finding out I had a bunch of like

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01:41:08,800 --> 01:41:12,760

health issues and and months into the pregnancy.

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01:41:12,760 --> 01:41:18,319

First of all, I took forever to get pregnant months into pregnancy with like diabetic issues.

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01:41:18,319 --> 01:41:22,119

And then they're like, Oh, we just found out that she's got a third degree heart block

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01:41:22,119 --> 01:41:24,399

and she might not make it.

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01:41:24,399 --> 01:41:30,310

So I'm just like, you know what, so I'm left the hospital bawling my eyes out, driving

:

01:41:30,310 --> 01:41:34,949

down Fort South, which is like a hill coming down from the University of Utah.

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01:41:34,949 --> 01:41:39,149

And I was just crying and I called my husband and like they said she has a third degree

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01:41:39,149 --> 01:41:40,989

heart block and she might not make it.

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01:41:40,989 --> 01:41:45,510

And he's like, okay, and in this, this you'll need a pacemaker if she does make it.

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01:41:45,510 --> 01:41:48,470

And I remember him just saying, okay, we'll get her pacemaker.

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01:41:48,470 --> 01:41:50,869

Like so like matter of fact, like it's no big deal.

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01:41:50,869 --> 01:41:57,899

And I remember thinking like, huh, I guess we can get her a pacemaker.

:

01:41:57,899 --> 01:42:04,060

But more importantly, in that moment, what I felt was that he's this like a surety in

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01:42:04,060 --> 01:42:09,000

like, we'll get her a pacemaker and then we'll just make it work.

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01:42:09,000 --> 01:42:12,880

But it was like his willingness to walk with me.

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01:42:12,880 --> 01:42:17,479

And that confidence and like, we don't have anything to worry about like we're in this together

:

01:42:17,479 --> 01:42:19,399

was that what I felt in that moment.

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01:42:19,399 --> 01:42:25,560

And I don't know when I first heard the news why it was like so traumatic and drastic

:

01:42:25,560 --> 01:42:27,720

that I was just like, well, you were pregnant.

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01:42:27,720 --> 01:42:31,760

Yes, yes, I was pregnant and it took forever to get pregnant.

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01:42:31,760 --> 01:42:32,760

And then it was like this.

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01:42:32,760 --> 01:42:33,760

Emotions are extreme.

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01:42:33,760 --> 01:42:34,760

Goodness gracious.

:

01:42:34,760 --> 01:42:39,199

But I remember just that little word does that phrase, okay, we'll get her a pacemaker.

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01:42:39,199 --> 01:42:42,920

And then like his voice was just like, and I'll go back to doing whatever I was doing.

:

01:42:42,920 --> 01:42:46,739

And I came home and I remember receiving a blessing.

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01:42:46,739 --> 01:42:49,140

His dad came over and I got a blessing.

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01:42:49,140 --> 01:42:51,819

And in that moment, I felt the sense of calm.

:

01:42:51,819 --> 01:42:56,619

And remember this like the spirit whispering to me like, there's no reason for you to stress

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01:42:56,619 --> 01:43:02,260

because stress just adds to whatever else will add to you know, negative thing in pregnancy.

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01:43:02,260 --> 01:43:05,020

So I remember just thinking, okay, we're not going to stress.

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01:43:05,020 --> 01:43:06,260

We're in Utah.

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Utah has like one of the best hospitals for heart issues and yeah, good.

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What yeah, I'm literally good.

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We've got good insurance.

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The job that I'm doing allows me to have free time to just, I would go sit in the hospital

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for months and every other people could do run around and do the work that I needed to

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do.

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So you're good and you have a spouse that's willing to do this with you.

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So why stress?

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So I remember going to the hospital week later to, you know, basically get my all the checklist

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of what I need to do to go sit in the hospital for the next three months or so.

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And they're checking those little girls heart.

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They're checking it and they're taking forever and I'm thinking, hey, I've got, I'm in my sweat

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pants.

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01:43:50,279 --> 01:43:52,399

I'm ready to take notes and just go sit in the hospital.

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Like why is it taking so long?

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01:43:54,319 --> 01:43:59,850

And the tech goes, if I hadn't seen your file, I wouldn't know this was the same heart we're

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looking at.

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And I remember thinking, bring your boss over to talk to us because I don't know, you might

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be seeing something different because we had taken her to the University of Utah, like

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01:44:12,880 --> 01:44:18,800

the pediatrics there, the special, whatever, the specialist to look and they're the ones

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that found the third degree hop.

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Like and it was something that was irreversible.

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01:44:23,479 --> 01:44:29,229

So when she said that, and then the doctor comes in and she's like, huh, I guess it was

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01:44:29,229 --> 01:44:30,229

a fluke.

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01:44:30,229 --> 01:44:32,510

And I was like, mm, does not play that game.

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You saw what you saw the specialist confirm what they saw.

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Studies have shown that this is what happens.

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01:44:38,380 --> 01:44:41,739

Like it's, this is just the only path through.

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01:44:41,739 --> 01:44:42,739

I didn't say anything.

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I was like, okay, I'm just going to wait for the specialist to also.

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So we went back a few days later, especially as they like look through, they didn't see

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anything wrong with this girl's heart, not even first, second, let alone the third degree

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hop like that they had diagnosed her with nothing.

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Wow.

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Her heart was perfectly normal, beating exactly how it was supposed to be.

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And I remember they were like, I guess we just, I was like, listen, that was my God performing

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a miracle.

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01:45:08,909 --> 01:45:09,909

Okay.

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And then I accepted this and I had just basically if, and I'm a firm believer of God will never

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give you more than you can handle.

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01:45:19,090 --> 01:45:22,890

And in that moment here, I was like, oh, and my husband was like, okay, we'll get her a

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01:45:22,890 --> 01:45:23,890

pacemaker.

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01:45:23,890 --> 01:45:28,439

But that was God like, you know, just reminding me that this is, if this is what God wants

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us to handle, he'll make a way.

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And I remember thinking like, huh, Heavenly Father, because I was doing a research into

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what it took to have someone a third degree of heart block, like what their life would

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be.

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And one of them was that they would be prone to heart attacks.

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And if they just got scared, they could have a heart attack.

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And I was like, well, Heavenly Father, she's going to be born into the wrong family because

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I have a husband who is always around the corner waiting to scare people.

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And a grandfather, his dad who also does the same thing.

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And I was just thinking, well, this girl is who these two grown men are going to have

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to unlearn the desire to scare people.

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01:46:07,180 --> 01:46:10,579

And I was just like, okay, if this is what you feel like we're going to have to like

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01:46:10,579 --> 01:46:12,579

deal, they're going to have to learn.

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01:46:12,579 --> 01:46:17,979

And I just remember thinking like, huh, then this is my grandfather, my husband's dad and

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01:46:17,979 --> 01:46:21,500

rich, you guys are going to have to like really learn to not scare people.

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Right?

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They will scare strangers.

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01:46:25,100 --> 01:46:31,739

So give people like warnings when they come to my house like listen, my husband will scare

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01:46:31,819 --> 01:46:33,060

you.

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01:46:33,060 --> 01:46:34,500

I'm just giving you a heads up.

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So I don't know what your scare level is, but expect something.

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And then so here we were going to have this child that will have a heart attack every

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time she would get scared.

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01:46:43,220 --> 01:46:47,300

I'm like, oh, this is going to be a rough, a rough life.

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And so I think maybe Heavenly Father saw I was like Ben and rich are not ready yet.

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They are not going to unlearn the cat.

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They cannot change.

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So we're just going to take care of this so that she could just be born and not have

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to deal with that.

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I was really grateful for that miracle.

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And I told people that I would always so share this news, this miracle, because I think oftentimes

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01:47:08,220 --> 01:47:14,260

we're so stuck on the scriptures being so far away for the people of that time that we fail

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to understand that we can also have dreams.

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We can also have visions.

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We can also interpret dreams.

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We can also receive miracles.

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We can also receive answers to our prayers with these kids that are dealing with life

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01:47:26,380 --> 01:47:32,420

of scarcity and feeling alone that God can put people in their aware and their path to

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01:47:32,420 --> 01:47:37,140

let them know that He hears them, He sees them, and He's always there for them.

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01:47:37,140 --> 01:47:38,659

I can't remember what we were talking about.

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01:47:38,659 --> 01:47:40,979

So we were talking about gifts.

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01:47:40,979 --> 01:47:44,979

So when we talk about these gifts, like what do you do with those, when you have those

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01:47:44,979 --> 01:47:46,699

dreams, like how can you capture it?

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01:47:46,699 --> 01:47:50,260

How can you make it so that you don't forget?

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01:47:50,260 --> 01:47:52,619

And especially when they're recurring like that.

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01:47:52,619 --> 01:47:53,819

So what are some things that you do?

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01:47:53,819 --> 01:47:58,899

And then Laurie, let us know what kind of, you know, you are receiving in when your father

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shares this with you.

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01:48:00,699 --> 01:48:01,699

What do you do?

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01:48:01,699 --> 01:48:06,020

You talked about being able to just listen, you know, which is hard.

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01:48:06,020 --> 01:48:09,060

So Carrie, start with what do you do when you have these dreams?

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01:48:09,060 --> 01:48:14,939

So I used to have a pen and paper next to my bed and would write down details of the dream

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01:48:14,939 --> 01:48:17,100

when I got up in the night.

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01:48:17,100 --> 01:48:22,100

But now I have my phone and I make sure before I got a bed that the light, you know, on the

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settings, the light is low.

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01:48:23,859 --> 01:48:24,859

Yes.

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Then I might, you know.

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And then I just put them in my notes.

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So then to make sure that, you know, there's not one detail that I miss out.

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01:48:32,979 --> 01:48:37,260

And even when I'm like sharing a story, I always think even last night we were just talking,

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01:48:37,260 --> 01:48:39,460

I was like, actually, you know, I'll just read it from the notes because I never want

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01:48:39,460 --> 01:48:40,460

to get it wrong.

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Yeah.

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01:48:41,460 --> 01:48:44,899

Like I want to make sure that it's like, and even with this book, The Gift of Charity,

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01:48:44,899 --> 01:48:51,520

there's experiences there that I shared with somebody else and just making sure that they,

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01:48:51,520 --> 01:48:52,760

it was the same for them.

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01:48:52,760 --> 01:48:53,760

Like I'm getting it right.

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01:48:53,760 --> 01:48:54,920

I'm not getting it wrong.

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01:48:54,920 --> 01:49:00,029

So I think it's important to write down those details or type the details to make sure that

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01:49:00,029 --> 01:49:01,029

you don't forget.

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01:49:01,029 --> 01:49:04,909

It's interesting though, because in my dreams, like I'll have like pictures come into my

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01:49:04,909 --> 01:49:11,670

mind almost like, and also like a video almost that you're watching that I never forget.

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But it's those, if there's words that come into it, I need to make sure that I put those

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down.

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01:49:17,670 --> 01:49:19,069

So you were talking earlier about feelings.

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01:49:19,069 --> 01:49:20,069

Mm-hmm.

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01:49:20,069 --> 01:49:26,310

And definitely still remember the feelings and images that I saw, but sometimes the details,

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I need to make sure that I write down.

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So if people are having dreams, I think that would be important to put a pen and paper

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01:49:34,310 --> 01:49:35,789

or have your mobile phone ready.

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01:49:35,789 --> 01:49:39,550

So in the night when you have the dreams, I have sometimes thought, I'll remember this

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01:49:39,550 --> 01:49:40,550

in the morning.

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01:49:40,550 --> 01:49:41,550

Mm-hmm.

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01:49:41,550 --> 01:49:45,590

And like I can remember things that I saw, but not always the words.

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And so I've learned that, take a note while you can, and then go about to sleep.

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Yeah.

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01:49:51,270 --> 01:49:54,710

And it's almost better because then you're not laying there thinking, okay, I have to

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01:49:54,710 --> 01:49:56,029

think about this, I can remember it.

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Yes.

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Think about it, then you stay awake.

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Yeah, so stupid.

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01:49:59,029 --> 01:50:00,029

I can't lie.

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01:50:00,029 --> 01:50:02,670

Just write it out, get out your head and move on.

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Yeah.

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And then take the first step, take a step.

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01:50:05,590 --> 01:50:10,439

I always feel like there's a saying to do not suppress a good thought.

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01:50:10,439 --> 01:50:17,840

So if the dream is something that is going to help somebody, help the people that go with

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01:50:17,840 --> 01:50:20,640

it, if it's going to do good, go with it.

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01:50:20,640 --> 01:50:22,079

Yeah.

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01:50:22,079 --> 01:50:23,880

Yeah.

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01:50:23,880 --> 01:50:29,880

Now, Laurie, being on the receiving end of other people's dreams and being prompted to

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01:50:29,880 --> 01:50:34,159

act on that, how do you discern what way to go?

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01:50:34,159 --> 01:50:41,180

Yeah, it's interesting because when my dad or my sister have had dreams about me or my

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01:50:41,180 --> 01:50:48,420

family, often just the dialogue, like the call and we'll have the discussion and often

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01:50:48,420 --> 01:50:51,020

they won't really know what it's about.

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01:50:51,020 --> 01:50:52,020

Yeah.

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01:50:52,020 --> 01:50:56,340

So I'm through that conversation that we have.

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01:50:56,340 --> 01:51:01,060

I talk about, okay, it could mean these things are happening in my life at the moment.

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01:51:01,060 --> 01:51:02,619

Maybe it could be this, maybe it could be that.

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01:51:02,619 --> 01:51:07,699

So, for example, the dream that I shared about my sister seeing that distance between my husband

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01:51:07,699 --> 01:51:13,840

and I wasn't straight up, it's about finances and what book you're reading.

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01:51:13,840 --> 01:51:15,319

We kind of had to figure that out.

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01:51:15,319 --> 01:51:20,039

She goes, you know, she was saying, you were kind of like so hyper-focused on it.

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01:51:20,039 --> 01:51:22,560

Like nothing else, like full on.

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01:51:22,560 --> 01:51:25,880

You know, is it anything you're totally like full on with at the moment?

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01:51:25,880 --> 01:51:28,760

I said, yeah, I'm reading this book and I'm going to stay up all night.

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01:51:28,760 --> 01:51:30,199

I'm like, right, we're going to do this.

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01:51:30,199 --> 01:51:32,640

That hadn't talked to my husband about it yet.

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But I had our plan all set out.

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01:51:35,319 --> 01:51:39,279

And so we kind of figured out through the dialogue that that's what it was about and

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01:51:39,279 --> 01:51:41,439

we both felt good about that.

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01:51:41,439 --> 01:51:43,880

Often it's that dialogue that happened.

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And then even through the conversation, they will remember, oh, I forgot there's this part

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01:51:49,560 --> 01:51:54,880

to it as well that I forgot all about and will bring other parts into it.

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So that I think that dialogue, well, what I've experienced is really important if it's

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01:52:00,000 --> 01:52:02,920

the dream is about someone else.

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01:52:02,920 --> 01:52:09,489

If you're not a dreamer like me, that's not a spiritual gift that I have that is really

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01:52:09,489 --> 01:52:12,170

dominant like with Kari or my father.

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01:52:12,170 --> 01:52:20,369

But at times I have had dreams or visions and for some people it might seem strange because

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01:52:20,369 --> 01:52:21,729

it's going to like, is that real?

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01:52:21,729 --> 01:52:24,050

Or does that actually mean something?

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01:52:24,050 --> 01:52:30,649

And so at the times where I have, you know, it's good to just actually think, is there a

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01:52:30,649 --> 01:52:33,050

message in here for me and kind of work through it?

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What could this mean?

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01:52:34,250 --> 01:52:39,489

Again, the dream I had when my dad came to me, he didn't say, you should take that job.

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I wish it was like that.

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01:52:40,970 --> 01:52:45,329

I was like, why can't they just say it in black and white instead of just all the symbolic

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01:52:45,329 --> 01:52:48,010

language and whatever.

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And the dream I had, it was my dad sitting up on the pulpit at church and I was sitting

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to the side like in the corner.

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And they were actually holding a welcome ceremony, Mardi ceremony, they called a porphyty in the

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01:53:01,310 --> 01:53:03,970

chapel, which never happens.

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01:53:03,970 --> 01:53:08,770

But I was kind of sitting to the side and he was beckoning me, come up onto the pulpit,

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01:53:08,770 --> 01:53:10,930

we've run, can see and I said, no, I'm good here.

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And he got really angry.

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01:53:13,050 --> 01:53:19,010

He stood up and he like stomped down all the way around, came to get me and was like, get

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01:53:19,010 --> 01:53:20,010

over here.

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01:53:20,010 --> 01:53:24,289

And I stood up and I followed him and I sat next to him up there.

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So it wasn't really clear, like it could mean anything.

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01:53:28,489 --> 01:53:32,970

But I just thought what's happening in my life at the moment that this could apply to

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01:53:32,970 --> 01:53:40,239

and I just thought it is this role that has come up, you know, a leadership role and

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01:53:40,239 --> 01:53:45,600

that I didn't even want to do because I thought, one, I haven't done anything like this for

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01:53:45,600 --> 01:53:48,159

ages and I don't want to be working full time.

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01:53:48,159 --> 01:53:49,159

Thank you very much.

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Wow.

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That's like, yes you are, get up and do it.

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So, you know, for people who aren't dreamers like me who don't often get there, where you

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01:53:58,439 --> 01:54:02,079

have those fear, like I was bawling my eyes out when I woke up.

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01:54:02,079 --> 01:54:03,680

I knew it was important.

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01:54:03,680 --> 01:54:10,979

And so take the time to just really think through, is this a message, a spiritual message from

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01:54:10,979 --> 01:54:16,899

my, from higher being or from God or from your ancestors who have passed on, just like the

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01:54:16,899 --> 01:54:18,220

message that you got.

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01:54:18,220 --> 01:54:24,590

I don't think how does this relate to me now and what guidance can that provide me?

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01:54:24,590 --> 01:54:28,909

I just wanted to add that at the end of the book, there was the most recent dream that

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I had with Laurie's dad.

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He was dressed really smart and he looked really well and he said, he tangeter, he tangeter,

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01:54:37,869 --> 01:54:38,869

he tangeter.

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Is that how you pronounce it?

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01:54:40,029 --> 01:54:41,029

Yeah.

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And so, and that was it.

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And so I texted Laurie in the morning and I'm thinking, what does he mean?

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01:54:47,670 --> 01:54:51,189

I knew it meant it is people, it is people, it is people.

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But I didn't know that there was this whole other part of this declaration, proper, proper

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01:54:57,069 --> 01:54:59,189

body, probably.

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01:54:59,189 --> 01:55:04,109

And so she said, and another friend also commented on the similarity.

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And so I kind of really delved into that proverb.

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01:55:07,550 --> 01:55:09,550

Like what is it that I'm missing?

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01:55:09,550 --> 01:55:10,550

What is it?

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01:55:10,550 --> 01:55:14,310

Why did he come to me in this dream to say it is people, it is people, it is people.

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Like I know, it's people.

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01:55:16,109 --> 01:55:20,350

So just kind of like trying to make sense of it, you have to do the work as well.

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01:55:20,350 --> 01:55:22,270

I think you have to be willing to do the work.

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01:55:22,270 --> 01:55:26,390

And so yeah, just kind of really spent a lot of time understanding this proverb.

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01:55:26,390 --> 01:55:32,109

And then really what stood out to me was just like how serving the one, I'll send you the

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01:55:32,109 --> 01:55:39,109

proverb, but how serving the one has this knock on effect for generations past and future.

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01:55:39,109 --> 01:55:41,630

And I'm like, whoa, that's deep.

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01:55:41,630 --> 01:55:42,789

Okay.

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It's about serving the one.

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I don't know.

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It's just kind of like trying to take those dreams seriously and make sense of them.

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So kind of just follow along more.

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Sorry for saying.

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You can cut that, if you want.

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I don't know if we will keep that in because that's wonderful.

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Carrie and Laurie, your live show that when we honor both scripture and culture, both

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signs and spirit, God's breath weaves us together.

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From hungy with children to carawai, mantles of service, from dreams at night to love in

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action by day.

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This is how heaven touches earth.

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May we all attend to our dreams, steward our gifts, and wrap our communities in a carawai

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of love.

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Carrie and Laurie, your live show that when we honor both scripture and culture, both signs

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and spirit, God's breath weaves us together.

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From hungy with children to carawai, mantles of service, from dreams at night to love in

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action by day.

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This is how heaven touches earth.

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May we all attend to our dreams, steward our gifts, and wrap our communities in a carawai

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of love.

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Whether we call it prophecy or matakite, wisdom or tohuna council, the test is love.

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scripture sees gifts for the common good.

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Mardi life calls it Manakitanga.

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Different names, one giver, soothe.

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In REM sleep, the most vivid dream stage, your brain processes memory and emotion.

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Researchers even talked with lucid dreamers during REM, getting correct answers without

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waking them.

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If the brain can pay attention while dreaming, no wonder it's a place where God can whisper

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assignments.

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Thank you for joining me at the Broker's Table.

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If today's conversation inspired you, please subscribe, share and leave a review.

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I'm Esther Jackson Stowell.

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Until next time, keep brokering faith, family and freedom.

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