Most of us are walking around with a relationship to ourselves that is pretty dysfunctional — and we don’t even realize it. We bounce back and forth between shame and grandiosity, sometimes minute by minute, and this constant internal cycle quietly damages our marriages.

In this first episode of our new series, we unpack what real self-esteem actually is, how shame and grandiosity act as two sides of the same coin, and why so much of the disconnection in our relationships actually starts with the relationship we have with ourselves. We also introduce the three types of “outside-in” (or pseudo) self-esteem that many of us unknowingly rely on.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re not enough one minute and superior the next — or wondered why connection with your partner sometimes feels so hard — this episode will give you language for what’s actually happening.

What You’ll Learn in This Episode:

• Why shame and grandiosity are both distortions of real self-esteem (and how they show up in marriage)
• The difference between inside-out self-esteem and the “outside-in” versions we often rely on
• The three types of outside-in (pseudo) self-esteem: performance-based, others-based, and attribute-based
• Why we bounce between shame and grandiosity — and how this “cycle” affects the safety and closeness in our relationships
• The very first step to interrupting the pattern: building awareness through a simple noticing practice

Your Practice This Week:

Keep a simple Noticing Journal for the next 1–2 weeks. Each time you notice your internal state shifting (especially around your spouse), jot down:

• What just happened? (the trigger)
• What did you notice in your body first?
• What emotion was underneath?
• What thought ran through your mind?

No fixing. No judgment. Just noticing.

Next Week:

In Episode 2, we go much deeper into the shame side of this equation — what it actually looks like in real marriage, how it shows up differently for different people, and what we can do when that one-down feeling takes over.

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