In this week’s Underneath the Underneath, we meet Yaakov alone in the night — the place where every soul eventually finds itself.
There, in the dark, he wrestles with the angel of Esav, the unintegrated shadow that has followed him since birth.
From that struggle emerges something utterly new: a limp, a blessing, and the name Yisrael — the identity earned not by escaping difficulty, but by staying present to it.
Drawing from the Baal Shem Tov’s teaching on chomer (matter) and tzurah (form), we explore how transformation actually happens: not by defeating what opposes us, but by letting pressure, friction, and honest wrestling reorganize us from the inside.
We look at how the soul’s deepest questions — the ones that won’t leave us alone — are not obstacles but invitations.
How the personal and the collective are linked in a holographic dance. How the shadow we fear may be the midwife of our next name.
If you’re in a season of rumbling, reckoning, or re-discovering yourself… if your identity feels like it’s in transition or being refined… this episode offers a map, a mirror, and a blessing:
The wrestle isn’t the detour. The wrestle is the womb— of your next name.
Ohmek Session dated December 2, 2025
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