The episode commences with a poignant reflection on the profound loss experienced by Samantha, whose dog recently passed away, creating a backdrop of vulnerability and authenticity. As Samantha and Melissa share their respective misadventures leading up to their private energy healing session with Terrie Christine, the conversation meanders through the intricacies of life's unexpected challenges. The duo recounts their attempts to navigate the chaos of a stormy day while simultaneously addressing personal tribulations, highlighting the delicate balance between grief and the pursuit of healing. Their candid anecdotes serve as a reminder of the resilience required in moments of adversity, emphasizing the significance of vulnerability in the healing process. Ultimately, this episode provides listeners with an intimate glimpse into the world of energy healing, fostering understanding and connection amidst life's trials.

What's up, Scarce up squad?

It is Samantha and Melissa.

We are here for Season three, episode two.

My dog died yesterday, so I'm allowed to look like a hot mess.

I think you don't look like a.

Hot mess, but you're allowed to be grieving for sure.

Yeah.

So this was my dog that I got when I was probably 20.

She's my shepherd that I've talked about a few times.

The episode that we're sharing today is like a sequel.

Yeah, it's a.

Yeah, a sequel.

Sure.

To the first episode.

An extension of our trip to dc.

Yes.

So you guys heard our interview with Terry, Christine, and learned all about her.

We didn't really talk about.

Excuse me.

Our sessions.

This is a little insight of my session.

Yeah.

So you guys can see that and just kind of get a feel of what an energy session looks like, because I know that I couldn't fathom, like, what would happen.

You were like, what is this even about?

Yeah, yeah, exactly.

So I think a lot of people.

Have just been curious what.

What is.

So that's why we are playing this for you today, which I think it.

Was really nice of you to be like, the guinea pig or like the vulnerable one, because we recorded both of our sessions.

Mine was really, really personal.

Here's we.

There's no way we could, like, fix yours to leave out, like, question.

Yeah.

Maybe in the future we can play some parts of it.

But I thought it was really nice of you and it was really cool that you're, like.

You are.

You're being vulnerable and you're, like, letting people have an insight.

Because energy work does pull out parts of you, I think, or point out things.

Good things.

Yeah.

Things that we can work on.

Things we don't need to work.

I don't know.

It's just a very personal thing.

Right.

And then for you to, like, let everybody kind of have a peek into.

Not knowing what was going to be said.

Yeah.

I think it's really nice.

Yeah, it was interesting.

And actually, I would say that my fail.

I did like, a fail on that day would have been.

Was a dark and rainy day.

It was so stormy.

Oh, my God.

That happened in Asheville, too.

Oh, my God.

Yes.

Yes, it did.

Our last travel, it was a dark and stormy day.

Yeah.

And so we're trying to find the place to meet Terry.

And it really is only two minutes away from our hotel.

And we had planned on walking, but again, dark and stormy.

Rainy.

Equipment heavy.

Yeah.

And so we're like, oh, we're going to drive and for some reason, that was confusing.

And then on, like, while we're driving there, I get a call from my mom, who was watching the kids and the dogs.

And she's frantic.

She's, like, unable to make words.

And she's like, oh, my gosh, the dog just got into a fight.

One of the puppies attacked Kaya.

Kaya's, like, the oldest dog of the pack.

She's, like, 13.

And I'm like, that doesn't make any sense.

Like, Kaya usually bullies the puppies, so I don't understand, like, what has happened.

So I'm flustered because I'm like, well, I can't assess how bad it is.

Like, you're making it sound like, oh, she's been mauled and she's, like, dying.

At least that's what I heard.

Yeah, it definitely was a little bit, maybe a teensy weensy overreaction on that part.

Okay, okay.

I was like, maybe.

I.

Like, I got.

Sorry.

I do love you, but no, I mean, I could see if I were there, I also would have been in, like, this, like, shock.

Yeah, she was probably in shock.

Oh, yeah.

And I know for sure that, like, Emelia, she's the one that called, right?

Oh, I don't remember.

One of the kids.

I guess you're right.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I think there was some shock there, too.

Yeah.

And she didn't know, like, really what was going on.

She goes, I'll get Mimi.

And yeah, so Mom's, like, explaining, like, oh, the puppy was latched onto her, like, trying to kill Kaya, and Kaya was gonna die, and blood.

There's blood.

And I'm like, okay, all right, well, I need to see the puncture wounds to know if she needs to go, like, right now.

Like, what do they look like?

I don't know.

There's blood everywhere.

And I'm like, okay, well, let's try, like, a FaceTime.

And show me the wounds and that.

They were struggling to do that, but every.

You know, everyone's emotions are.

Are heightened.

And so I was like, well, I don't know what to do.

Someone's gonna have to go who is calm and, like, assess this.

And so I'm like, who can go?

Who can go?

I try.

Andrew.

And he was gonna leave work and go.

But he also was, like, an hour away at minimum.

And so then I was like, oh, let me call my stepdad.

Like, can you help her?

I forgot he was out of town.

And so I was like, figure it out.

I guess.

I don't know, because, like, we were, like, in the parking lot.

Yeah, it was.

It was kind of like, I don't know, I can't do this right now.

But you did see a picture, and you were like, okay, that's not.

It's not amazing.

There was blood, but you were kind of like, it's going to be okay, but I have to go in.

But you were still kind of freaking out because every.

There was so many emotions.

Yeah.

And I think I left it as.

I was able to do that because I left it as.

Andrew, can you go and assess this for me?

And he said, yeah.

I was like, okay.

He said, I'll leave work now.

And he.

Yeah.

And I said, just touch base with Mom.

Y'all figure it out.

I can't right now.

I gotta go.

And so I was able to, like, feel like, okay, I can't do anything about it, but there's someone calm and can go and assess it.

And then we were, like, trying to get in the building, and all the doors were locked.

And she's, like, raining so hard, so hard.

And she's like, type this code in.

Type this code in.

Type this code in.

And we're like, it's not working.

So we ran around to the front of the building and we knocked.

And then she was done.

She's like, oh, no.

I guess the cleaners or somebody came in, like, yeah.

Locked the door.

And I didn't.

I don't know.

It was just like, I'm still, like, so flustered.

I'm like, God, this really sucks.

And.

And I remember thinking, we should just.

I can't do this.

But then, like, we walked into her.

Her space, and it's, like, really calming.

It actually was.

It smelled good.

It was clean.

Like, obviously it was clean.

Like, yeah.

But, like, it was just something so neat and tidy and calm.

Homey.

Yeah, even.

But there was definitely a calming presence, like, walked in, and I was like, okay, I can breathe.

This feels good.

And by time I got on the table for my reading, I was like, I'm good.

Yeah.

But it was a whole.

A whole moment.

And I really, really could have easily, like, allowed myself to spin out of control and be like, yeah, I can't do this.

I mean, I know we came all the way here for this, but I can't.

It was a lot right then, and, like, you not being able to be there and, like, you have no control.

You're like, that's also a really scary feeling, too.

Like, there's nothing you can do.

Yeah.

What I.

What can I Do.

Usually I'm the one that has to answer all the pet questions.

And I'm like, I don't even know what's going on.

I can't see.

So it was interesting.

But that's a long way to share my little fail.

Oh, I think it was a successful fail.

A successful fail.

Because it could have been a fail, but it was saved.

You kind of, like, said, I can't do anything about this.

I'm going to try to, like, let go.

The universe can take care of it.

Whatever.

Andrew is going to take care of it.

And.

Yeah.

So it was nice.

I want to talk about your fail because you still.

Yeah.

Have a reminder of it.

Yeah.

So it was really embarrassing because we went out to eat at this.

It was a pretty nice place.

Like.

Oh, it was.

It was so good.

It was really good.

I forgot the name.

Oh, I won't say the name because I should remember.

And we will say the name.

Silver Spoons.

I don't know, actually, I can't really.

Remember the name of it.

I don't want to, like, make it.

Here's the thing.

I slipped and fell on their floor.

Which it happens.

Right.

But we weren't exactly that happy with, like, the way it was handled.

No.

We're walking to the bathroom and they're obviously mopping the floors.

We can see that.

I actually did see it.

That's why I felt.

Oh, okay.

I saw that they were mopping the floors.

We were talking, walking to the bathroom.

So, like, I guess I just saw it.

Look, you guys, if I'm driving and talking, I'm going to miss the exit.

If I'm walking, talking, I.

Okay.

But I was very aware of us walking to the bathroom.

And I know they were mopping and there was no wet floor sign out.

And so she mega fell.

I did.

And Sam, you almost scared me a little because you screamed.

No, I didn't.

Yes, you did.

You said Melissa.

I was like, oh, my God, this is so embarrassing.

Oh, my God.

Are you okay?

It was.

Guys, this wasn't like a slip and, like, land on the floor.

No, this was a go.

Like, whole body didn't know it was coming.

One leg, one knee.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh, and my wrist, actually, I forgot about that.

But yeah.

So I was like, oh, my God.

I'm sure everyone back at the table, like, for sure heard that.

But they didn't.

So maybe it was just in my mind.

I was just embarrassed.

Maybe you're, you know, you're like that.

You know, I was embarrassed.

And then when you were Like, I'm like, don't draw attention to me.

You were really embarrassed.

And so we go into the bathroom, and I'm sitting here, like, going over this in my head.

Yeah.

And I'm like, there wasn't a sign out there.

And I was like, that's a problem.

Also.

No.

There were three employees standing there, and no one asked if I was okay.

No.

And so then they all just kind of were staring.

And so I'm like, oh, we're gonna say something.

Like, this is ridiculous.

Like, they didn't say anything.

They didn't check on you, and there was no wet floor sign for you to acknowledge.

And when we came out of the bathroom, guess what was on the ground?

A wet floor sign.

And.

And who was in front of the wet.

The manager.

And what did he do?

What did he do?

I think he didn't do anything.

He didn't.

He just stared at us as we walked to our table.

Yeah.

Like, oh, do you see the sign?

Do they.

Are they going to say anything to us?

Yeah.

Huh.

Yeah.

So it was kind of weird, and I was pissed.

Yeah.

And then also, one of our other friends who was there that night was like, I'm mad that we didn't get a free meal.

I mean, but it's not about the free meal.

Like, it's the fact that it happened.

And instead of addressing it, the, like, tried to cover it up and pretend it didn't happen.

Unless you complain.

Yeah.

And that is fucked up.

As, like, a leader, you should be like, oh, my gosh, I'm so sorry this happened.

You're right.

Like, if someone.

Yes.

Burnt themselves on your coffee machine at.

The shop, I would for sure be like, oh, my gosh, I have bandies.

I have.

What do I need to do?

Right.

Let me take care of you.

Even though that, like, literally would not be your problem or, like, your, like, fault.

But.

Yeah.

So it's just really bizarre to me.

But it's not their fault.

I'm clumsy.

I just didn't like how it was handled either.

Yeah.

There should have at least been a check.

And you still have a giant ass bruise.

And this is.

Yeah.

Is this a month or two months later?

Oh, shoot.

When did we go?

We went Valentine's Day, February, March.

So it's been a month and a half.

It's the end of March.

Still bruised.

Still.

No one said anything.

So.

Yeah.

I was actually, like, trying to change shelves in a cabinet last night, and I was kneeling on the counter, and I was like, oh, that still hurts.

Why?

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Okay.

Maybe I'm really salty about it.

I love it.

I love it.

It makes me feel good.

What is funny is, I know we're rambling, like, way longer than we usually do, but we're having a good day.

We are.

What's funny is that in this recording, there's several moments where Terry says something, and I, like, look at Melissa.

And she starts, like, cracking up.

And I'm like, oh, no comments from the peanut gallery.

And then there's like, another part where Terry says something that, like, kind of rubs me the wrong way.

I didn't, like, really agree and not in, like, a bad way.

She just called something out and.

And I was like, wait a minute.

Give her some credit.

And I was like, you had my back.

No, I do.

I got it.

Because I wasn't.

I wasn't gonna say, like, oh, well, that's rude.

Like, I've done great.

Like, But Melissa was like, give her some credit.

Wait a minute now.

Multipar.

There.

That's my best friend.

I got you.

Oh, my God.

Look, be kind to everyone.

Anyway.

All right, well, enjoy this episode.

Yeah.

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All right, so what I'm going to do is I'm going to tell you exactly what you're going to receive during this session.

I'll start by putting one hand on your heart and the other on your stomach.

I am clairvoyant, clairaudient, and clairsentient, meaning I can see movies in my head.

I can hear conversations or.

Yeah, and the Claire sentient is I just know.

So throughout your session, I'm going to say, Samantha, I don't care what you say.

I can feel this.

I know it.

And it literally is.

What I'm looking for is what's in.

Your energy field, what is holding you back from dot, dot, dot.

Because you're saying, you know, I could get frustrated, or, why does this keep happening?

Or how can I get to this other place that I want to be?

And that's where the subconscious is holding you from being able to get to that place.

So people come to me because I can shift that energy.

I can shift within that blueprint of what's going on from your childhood.

And that's usually from the childhood.

It doesn't mean that you have emotionally or physically abusive parents.

It's nothing like that.

I mean, that could be part of someone's history, but it's not for everyone.

And you could have an interaction with mom.

She's on the phone, you're drawing her a picture, and this is an example.

And then you say, okay, Mom, I have this picture.

Okay, Samantha, I'll be right with you.

And she forgets.

Then what it ends up happening is that you determine, all right, what can I do to be seen and heard?

And so then you start doing extra things in your life as a little girl.

You start doing certain things to be seen and however that looks like.

Right.

But as an adult, you go to work and you're really organized and you're getting your job done.

And then you realize, wow, your co workers need some help.

So you're like, hey, I can help you and help this one and help that.

When you go home and you're exhausted and you're like, why am I the only one working so hard?

Well, it was because your mom didn't give you the attention you needed, quote, unquote, at the time.

And that you chose to say, I have to work harder.

And that's what it shows up as an adult.

You feeling like you're working harder than others.

And that's just an example of many, many things as something as simple as your mom forgetting to come back to you.

Okay, so it's not all emotional and physical in our childhood is the things that we say we wanted at that time and didn't get.

Okay.

That's also your interpretation of what's going on in your surroundings as well.

So there are five ways to pick up limiting beliefs.

Mom and dad or mom and dad, like figures, like grandparents, God, someone else and something else.

You have a very strong mom block.

Me?

Yes, Very strong mom block.

And a block is the limiting belief.

And I'm going to pick it up and I'm going to share with you.

But when I start, I'm gonna start with the hand on the stomach, hand on the heart.

And then I'm just gonna start breathing a certain way.

And then I'm gonna start seeing movies and hearing things, and I'm gonna share it with you.

Most of my things that I share is what I'm seeing.

And then I might ask yes or no questions.

And then I might say, what's going on when you were at a certain age?

Because I'll pick that up as well.

Well, and there's a little fear in that, too.

So I just felt it.

My stomach did a little ripple.

Yeah.

Like, oh, what's going to be shown Today.

Right.

All right, so you ready?

Okay.

All right, here we go.

So your mom was very overprotective, huh?

Yeah, yeah.

And, and as a child we'll think, oh, this is a safety zone.

However, what can happen is that overprotective, especially moms can give a child a sense of, of feeling a little reserved or.

Well, I'll give you a list of them.

Procrastination, the fear of making decisions because what if it's wrong?

Taking too long to make a decision because you have to reel it in your head to figure out which direction.

You want to go in.

So you're overanalyzing too much.

Because when you have that protective parent.

When it's overprotective, what I ended up.

Seeing was energy wall, like right here.

And it felt really tight, like, oh, she's got you under that protection bubble.

And so you'll find yourself saying, and for you, oh, I can feel it, like there's some fear in your heart.

So feelings of.

When it comes to love or loving something, not just a physical person, it can be a career, it could be, you know that a party you're organizing, you'd love it.

You want to make sure it's all perfect and it's okay.

Maybe just a little.

There you go.

So, and, and that's how it can show itself up when you have an overprotective parent.

And so you've worked through some of it, but if I give it a score, a percentage, 80%.

You still, you're, you're troubled, you're meaning it's not free flowing enough for you and you probably get frustrated with yourself, with, you know, here I am with this pattern I'm trying to get out of my head, but I want it to be right.

Can we get it right?

Can we be it right?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

So I can feel it.

But you know, everything is great.

There's no right or wrong.

Even though.

Because when you're, what you do is you'll end up putting it in a box.

Meaning your end result.

I want it to look like X, Y and Z.

But what happens if it's like better than what you're putting here?

Right?

So let's say an example.

You know, if I do this job, I want to make $100.

Well, what if you could make a hundred thousand?

You see?

So we have to be more broader in what we're looking our end result to be.

So, meaning if your end result was focused on an emotion.

Right.

So give you an example.

If you had a million dollars in A bank.

The emotion attached to that is comfort, is stability, is adventure.

Because we got it, we don't have to worry.

You know, if I get a flat tire, I can buy a new car.

Right.

So we want to focus on the feeling of what you want your end result to be, and then everything around what you're trying to attract will naturally come with it, like you're a magnet.

So if you're saying, I want my podcast to have, you know, million followers, then that's fun, excitement, laughter, dancing, like.

And.

And feeling accomplished.

Right.

And feeling like you're giving back to the community and feeling like people are getting something out of it, which can feel a sense of.

Of.

Of enlightenment, fulfillment, gratitude, all of that.

Right.

So before you have a project, have this feeling first.

Go into it with that.

You'll have your million followers.

It works just like that.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah.

You have a lot of fear.

So the solar plexus is the portal of emotions.

But I feel it so fast, I can't even move my hand fast enough.

Yeah.

And that.

That is the feeling of fear when it's like.

Right.

I'm not saying that a person walks around going, oh, I'm afraid of, like, a little timid mouse.

It's not like that.

What happens is that you're living life, but having a sense of will.

I could.

I.

Should I.

You're already questioning before it's even happening.

Do you find yourself.

Yeah.

Okay.

So when you're questioning stuff, you're already causing a sense of fear.

I feel that so much in my.

It just went right there in my solar plexus.

Meaning.

Yes, you're spot on.

Right.

Yeah.

And so don't question life.

Live life.

Because if you're starting to step into things, even if you're not even thinking that, you're stepping into every moment that we walk, talk, move, you're stepping into something.

Every action is causing something to happen.

Right.

Right.

An action can be your mouth with words coming out or simply walking.

That's an action.

Driving, listening.

Those are all actions.

Right.

But if you're spending so much time in your head questioning, that is being put out into the collective energy to say, all right, what if.

Okay, could I.

And if this happens.

And now you're putting all these questions up here.

So this is the collective energy.

And when you're putting it up here, people that are connected to you or even walking by, you can say, oh, wow, I just.

I'm open.

My mind is open.

I wasn't thinking anything.

I can grab that.

Have you Ever had a moment where.

You went to, if you ever worked in an office or a friend's house.

You were driving and you're like, man, I'm thirsty.

I could.

Like, I should have grabbed something before I left.

And you get there and before you even say anything, they say, if you want some water, or here's a bottle of water.

Never had those moments?

No, not that I can think of right off the top of my head.

So we have to get you to be more present as well, because when we're just existing, you're missing everything.

And it's kind of sad because when you're fully aware.

When I say present, people don't understand that sometimes.

Aware.

But it's not about what's outside of you, it's all about what's inside of you.

So if you are fully aware of how you're feeling in those moments, like driving, going, I'm really thirsty.

And then, like, what that just happened, then you're fully aware that you are already saying it, wanting it.

And then you made it happen before.

You got to the office or your friend's house.

Right?

Someone who's just existing.

I'm just driving.

I gotta get there.

I gotta think about my deadline.

Gotta think about what I'm wearing.

Okay, what's gonna happen?

All those questions in your head is.

Not making room for all the answers you want for the questions you're already suffocating your head with.

Does that make sense?

Okay.

Bringing you back to present means listening more, getting out of your head, and being fully aware of how your body is feeling in any setting, every moment, all the time.

It is a lifestyle.

So bringing you from just existing to thriving and being fully aware changes your entire life.

It's.

You start attracting the things that you're saying you want.

You can have just a simple thought and let it go, and then all of a sudden happened.

Life is like that.

But all this other stuff you're doing, all the questioning, all the fear you're creating is putting this big barrier of.

Not being able to bring forth with ease the things you say you desire.

Does that make sense now?

Yeah.

Yeah.

A little doubt there.

No, it makes sense.

Okay.

Okay.

So get out of your head, okay?

Just stop thinking about things because it's.

Going to work out.

Now, if you are tight, I see typing.

I gotta put this proposal.

Gotta do this next video, whatever it is, right?

I understand being in the moment and concentrating in that, but once you step away, you don't have to concentrate in that anymore.

Right?

You've already put the energy of success in it.

But if you're already questioning, doubting, you're putting the energy of fear in will be seen and felt through any video, any email, any phone calls if you're already doing that energy.

Right.

It's a big thing.

So it's a change how, what type of energy you are putting in things.

That's why I tell people, if you're writing an email, don't write it with anger, don't write it with despair or frustration.

Because what will happen is people will read and say, damn, what's going on with her?

Right?

And you're just saying, you know, I'm hoping that things work out.

And they're like, why?

You know, and they're picking it on up.

So go into something, especially when you're throwing energy into it, emails, phone calls.

Videos, that you're doing it with the highest purpose of giving of the excitement of doing it and wanting it most.

Interesting thing is I was super excited about this all day long.

Like, this is going to be amazing.

And sometimes I'm not that excited about being a guest on certain podcasts.

It depends on the person.

But I cocoon my energy.

I'm like, no, there's going to be that best thing ever.

And then knowing that I'm doing that will fill the room with positivity, will show that whoever's watching the video is going to be receiving this in the best possible light.

Makes sense.

Yes.

Yes.

So for shoulders, it's a perception of burden.

Perception of burden.

Left side, mom.

Right side dad.

Left side, feminine.

Right side, masculine.

So I'm feeling there's something right here.

Like you were just like, oh, hanging onto it.

It's a seat about that big, so about the size of a quarter.

Right.

Right where my thumb is on your shoulder.

And so a perception of burden, and this is dead.

Can be where you needed him at a certain time and he forgot or he got distracted or work ended up taking him away from his promise to not accept.

And I said, as a child, we all end up just accepting because within the four walls, this is what our caregivers told us.

And we know nothing else.

They could be lying to us, like, I don't know what, or making false promises.

And then we keep getting set up for failure because that's what they're doing.

Set a.

Setting the child up for failure.

Right.

Instead of telling the truth or holding off when they're making a promise, following through with the promise.

Right.

And so now you've experienced things that you were.

Because I keep seeing this pumping with your hand, like, did you find.

When you were little, did you move your hands around a lot?

I'm pretty sure that's what I'm.

That's my.

Yeah, it's an interest tick.

I mean, I think I still do it.

Okay.

So.

Yes.

Okay, perfect.

Because I can see you're, you know, you're trying to, like, okay, am I going to do this?

I feel excitement, but building up with.

And then you just let it go.

Like, I could feel the build up.

And then I just let it go.

Meaning you already know he's not going to be there, you said.

Right, right.

But the hope of desire.

Because kids will see their parents at certain events.

You might have a couple of girlfriends, and the dad is always showing up, and you're like, inside, man, I wish mine was here.

But you don't say it.

You don't have that exact sentence in your head.

It's a feeling of disappointment, of longing.

Right.

Belonging to.

Have you had longing.

I could feel that as soon as I said that.

The longing of being able to fill that void of feeling like you had.

And they could have had a father that was there for the baby girl, like to hold the hand or to be there and clap while you're on the stage with, you know, whatever it is.

The school play.

Were you ever in a school play?

I just saw.

I was in, like.

I think so.

Yeah.

I just saw the stage and you're on a school play.

And I saw the kids.

They were fairly small, so probably more like 8.

9.

8, 8, 8.

That would have been second grade.

Little play, you know, where they come in with the, you know, we are long.

Oh, wait, which grade?

Okay, that's actually really funny.

No, My cousin, when she was in high school, she was doing a school.

Play, and they asked me, since I.

Was like, little, if I'd be like a munchkin or something.

There you go.

I picked it up.

Yeah.

That's interesting.

So, yeah, I saw you.

I saw the stage.

I saw you, though, so.

But, you know, to have that parent, any parent, for that matter, but to have the dad going, yeah, that's my girl up there.

And then for him not to be present, that we can say you accepted unacceptable behavior.

Meaning he's not here to love me.

He's not here to see how I want to feel important and be seen.

And any kid wants to feel that.

Right?

Yeah.

And you just got to the point where you just accepted unacceptable behavior.

He's not going.

He's not there.

Well, you know, I'll Just do it for myself, mom, the other kids.

I'm gonna have fun.

I'm gonna force myself to have fun.

I feel like he.

You emotionally.

This.

I know I'm on this one.

Emotionally disconnected from him, so you would stop being hurt.

But having that longing is a space of unfulfilled dreams.

Do you understand what I'm saying?

Okay.

I know it's in you, and I know you're holding it back as I can see it in your eyes.

I don't know, I think that there's.

Just so much, like, hate that I can't remember a time, like, where I would have been.

Like, oh, yeah, I wish I would have been there.

Like, now.

It's.

Yeah.

Well, again, I'm working in the subconscious, and I had to remind you of the munchkin moment, even though I saw it, right?

Yeah, but your subconscious is telling me the things that I'm picking up.

Hate is such a strong emotion that.

That can also hold you back from being able to succeed when masculine energy is present.

And masculine energy can also be in a female body, a woman who's very dominant.

Leadership role, stage presence, that kind of thing.

That's that dominant masculine coming through a female body.

Right.

But when you have hate toward.

But the.

And I'll just say, because little children, that's my prince.

That's my king.

That's my God, you know that.

Because that's like, he's there and then over time, being disappointed and disappointed and disappointed.

I can feel like every time I say it, I get a stab in my back.

So you are stabbed in your back every time that you were hoping or, you know, can he do it?

Will he do it?

And then just being more in that stab, it's more angry.

More angry.

More angry to the point.

And so that builds up is like, I can't see anything else but the anger that I have.

Okay, that makes sense now.

Okay.

When I first work with people, what can happen is they're looking in their brain for a specific moment in time that says, that's why I hate him.

And it's not like that for you.

It was gradual because you.

To use 8 is a buildup of such despair, you know?

And I can use that word because I'm talking to your child.

I'm not talking to your adult person right here, Samantha.

I'm talking to that person, the little girl who really desired and wanted to have a dad.

More present, more caring, more showing caring, showing love, showing attention, you know?

And attention could simply just be looking at you in your Eyes and saying, how was your day, baby?

You know, come over here, give me a hug.

Or I'm going to come to you and give you a hug.

You see?

And when you don't have that interaction.

And you're feeling like, man, he's constantly setting me up for failure.

Meaning it's the fear feeling.

Because I want you to think about what a child would be thinking, not what you are thinking now as an adult because you're an overthinker.

You know, you are so going back and saying, yeah, when I could think about that childhood, there were so many episodes that I just stopped thinking about them all together.

I just like, off with his head.

You see how that.

You know what I'm saying about now?

Okay, okay.

Now you.

Now you get it.

Okay.

I just want to make sure you're on the same page with me.

Okay.

Your hip is a little out of whack.

Do you have.

Do you feel like every once in a while you get a.

Like a.

Sometimes I get stuck.

Yeah, there it goes there.

I can see the way you're laying on the bed.

And it's always how anybody can lay on the bed.

You could wear shoes that are not.

The laces aren't tied.

And it's telling me you don't like to be tied down.

You.

But look at how you're literally lopsided.

Oh, interesting.

Your whole hip is up.

And it just shows me every time somebody lays.

And you're really out of alignment.

But that's a physical alignment as well, right?

But also not being supported.

The dad's side hips represent support, so that's why you get tweaked every once in a while.

On this hip, the body responds to what your family or your life history is and was and even going forward.

So if you're an overthinker, you might end up getting pains in your lower back, because that's.

Life is a pain in the butt.

So that's why we have to get you out of your head.

But then you have this fear if I don't sink it through, I have to have control.

I have to.

Then.

Then what you're doing is you're slowing down the flow of what you want the end result to be.

Do you understand that?

Okay, relax.

So that is a control mechanism.

So when I picked up your arm, some people would just let me do whatever I want, but you were already holding it.

I see that with a lot of people.

And so that instantly tells me you do have a very strong control mechanism.

You've got to get things done.

You want it to be the right way.

You want to dance, you know, and that can be also your career, where you have deadlines and want to be.

You have to do all these things, but you have to trust more.

And when you had a parent you couldn't trust, then that's where you turned up the volume to control what you want to create and project.

Does that now make sense?

Yeah.

All right.

You know, part of your body is telling me, when I first started, started putting my thumb here on your hand, I could see a boxing glove.

That's.

That's funny, actually.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Because I had an image of like a, like punching.

There you go.

So same connection there.

Yeah.

But when I asked you to relax, your arms started relaxing and I could feel very tired.

So you're tired of holding on to some of this anger and frustration and guys to fight through things.

No one has to fight to get things.

They just trust and love and be connected to source energy, God, whatever you want to label it, I'll just call it God or higher self, whatever.

But it causes a person to hold on the control mechanism.

Right.

So look at it as like put down false.

You have a string that's flying.

So if you're going to control.

So let's say the stream is flowing of energy and you control a log comes down into the stream, you're trying to stop the flow of that energy.

That's with you controlling.

I don't want it to be that way.

Boom, long comes down, the energy is still going to flow, but now it's going to flow around the log.

Then it could go to the right direction.

Right, Meaning.

Yeah, it could go in the direction you want it to be, or it could go in another direction and take you a whole much longer, like a whole hell of a long time to get to your end result.

And then you get even more frustrated.

Why does this take so long?

Why can't I get to my end result quicker?

There's where you're starting to question why, why, why, why, why, why?

And that why is a disconnect from source energy.

Look at as you pull in your.

Your energy into a cocoon.

I have to control this.

I have to do it my way.

I have to get this done.

Nobody was, you know, I.

I know.

I can do it faster.

I'm better.

I just got to do it right.

Instead of saying, I know I'm fully connected.

I know that source has got my.

Back at all times.

I know that I can focus, get it done.

And voila, everything that I want is happening for me.

But if you're not living in the space of saying I know the in k n o w things are happening for me, then you're always going to cocoon and it's going to take a whole lot longer.

You're going to be frustrated on why it's taking so long and you're going to get disillusioned if you're going in the right direction.

Is this for me?

Should I keep doing it?

And then that's where the doubt creeps in.

It's bio.

Yeah, yeah.

Relax.

And the first thing you're gonna tell me, I'm trying to relax.

It's so hard.

It's not hard.

You just have to trust to let go.

It's a lifestyle.

Yeah.

Trusting is the number one thing.

Someone who has a massive control mechanism.

I used to.

And it's, it's practice.

I mean it could take you three to six months.

Closer to six months for you.

But you have to say, I am.

Going to trust no matter what.

I know there's so many things that you want to accomplish, things you haven't even thought of yet, but they're going to start coming at you.

And the more you control the, the.

More you stay in the space that you've created with this control, you're going to be questioning a lot of things.

Why did I do it?

You know, what, what?

And when I heard why.

You can get very self destructive in resume.

Oh yeah, yeah.

That whole recent conversation.

Interesting.

Biggest thing for you, Samantha, is I could tell you stories about you all day long.

But unless you can recall it and go, oh yeah, that's why I was.

Angry or oh, that's why I was happy or oh, you're going to continue to live in the space you're living in and I would hate to see that happen for you.

You're very productive young woman who really has passion and the passion to help, the passion to succeed, the passion to.

To be trailblazer.

Let's use that word.

Right.

However, if you're not going to begin to trust and there's such emotion, if you're not going to begin to trust beyond what your body is feeling is knowing you have to trust source you have to trust.

But when you have that hate towards that caregiver, then the doubt of why God?

There's a lot of crying in that one.

Why God did I have to deal with him?

Why did I, was I given him?

Why can't he see that I'm a good girl?

Why, why, why?

And Here you are as an adult.

The why, the why, the why.

Why.

Why can't I have this?

Why can't I do that?

Why can't it?

You have to eliminate why out of your vocabulary.

Because if you ask me, terry, why is the sky blue?

And I'll say, the angels touch the clouds, it's an opinion.

That's why.

You'll never get the answer of why from God.

You will get an answer of how, what, when, where, who.

So eliminate why, because that can give you a thousand different answers, and it's only going to increase your frustration in life.

Yeah.

I'll put my hand on your head here.

Actually going to move your legs over.

Just turn on the finger.

And there I want you to.

There.

That's what I was trying to do.

Can I even you out?

You're still lopsided.

That's okay.

That's all right.

Broken.

No.

So you just told me something that you have to be really careful for.

Is that when you're speaking the I am, you're stating, that's what you are.

You're owning it.

So even though you might have responded just by meaning around and may have been a joke or whatever, but you're putting it out there.

And so now you just threw it here.

And it's going to sit here.

And somebody's gone, oh, she's broken.

So we can take advantage of her thing.

And so everything you say should be very positive toward yourself.

Right?

I'm in the process of healing.

That sound better than what you said?

Yes.

Yeah.

I'm in.

Always in the process of better and better every day.

Physical, emotional, and spiritual.

Never again.

Yeah.

It's time for you to love you.

And then it's like it just comes out to everyone around you.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

There you go.

It just went down, down, down.

And I felt this.

Like it hit a pillow.

Yeah.

Can be so subtle.

You have heard so much from so many people that you're overwhelmed with hearing anything else from other people.

Meaning this ear chakra is so full, it's like.

Like massive with the energy that it's like, I don't know if I want to hear one more thing.

And I don't feel like you've closed the ear chakra because it is still open, but you're overwhelmed or too much of what you have heard from others can be conflicting to what you want or desire or think things through.

Would you resonate with that?

Yes.

Okay.

And so that can also cause a lot of doubt.

Am I going in the right direction?

Am I making the right decisions.

Because someone who's already in their head is already doubting.

Someone who already has a parent who, you know, they're like, oh, shut that door and seal it with cement.

That, you know, there's a lot of doubt with God, which makes you say, I have to do more things for myself.

And there's such emotion around that.

Like, I'm tired.

Why can't this be easy?

Resonate with you?

Please.

Yeah, she had tonsilitis before.

So much.

Yeah, I can pick it up right in here.

It's a lot of bacteria feeling right now.

No, no, no, no.

Everything I.

No, not gallery.

So everything I'm picking up is energy.

So it can be passed.

I can pick up, you know, broken bones.

I can pick up, you know, like, I picked up the braces, the jaw area.

I picked up the tonsils.

And, like, I can feel it.

And it was like.

And it was big.

So it was telling me it was pretty bad.

Yeah, I had it a lot when I was little.

Okay, so.

And.

And that's the remnants of what I'm picking up.

That's all.

So I'm not saying you have it now.

You have some old patterns in your third eye.

The third eye is intuition, trusting.

I could feel this creakiness that tells me it's just old patterns.

So, you know, being able to trust is not questioning or doubting.

So we're shifting you to trust more.

What do you want to call it?

Source.

Yeah.

God, what do you want to call it?

You know what?

God, that makes me cringe.

Yeah, I already figured that out.

I don't know.

I guess I haven't put thought to it.

Interesting.

So everything I've been saying is so smile.

And it's crazy because in what you are living, you are just existing by God.

Okay, we don't want you to exist.

We want you to where I want it to live.

Live more deeply, live more boldly, and you'll get in the car.

I do.

I am patient.

Is, you're not.

Based on what I'm already picking up in your energy and your responses.

Okay, you're not broken.

It's just what you experienced in your four walls and what you chose, that's still in that subconscious.

The subconscious is ruling your life, even though you're saying, well, I had that, Bob.

I took a minute reaction on it.

But as I was stating before we even started, that you can have an interaction with a girlfriend, and all of a sudden you're like, I don't like what she's saying.

And then she Triggered you by something she said even.

It could be the word or how it was coming out.

It's the feeling that bubbled up.

Right.

But because you have such a control mechanism, you're not trusting beyond what you say you're creating on your own.

So.

Not when I use the, the word God.

It's nothing about religious or the Bible.

It's nothing.

It's.

It's the universe where we come through from.

It's.

It's that all encompassing energy.

But when you set up like you have been in your childhood, then it's that anchor that we have that can be generated and created toward that all encompassing energy.

And that's why the why creeps in.

Is that.

Does that make sense now?

Yeah.

It doesn't make you weak, sweetie.

You're actually a very dominant, strong individual.

And by being able to let go of the control, which is going to be a lot of practice, and you're going to find that life really is worth thriving.

Copa that.

Yeah.

I see you driving.

That's telling me you feel like you're in the driver's seat.

I've got your, my left hand on your crown and the right, right there at the occipital bone.

Right.

So.

So the crown is your full connection to source, higher self, light, love.

Right.

But if you're in the driver's seat, your connection is going to be really weak.

Want me to go into detail about that or do you understand what I just said?

I understand.

Okay.

So.

Well, I want to give you a tip.

When you get out of bed, don't get out of bed until you become more aware of how your body is feeling.

And instead of saying, when you wake up, I'm tired, I want you to say, I am fully rested.

And then when you flip your legs out of the bed, one foot hits the floor first.

And then is that the pattern of always the right foot?

Right.

And then when you're walking to the bathroom, how does your feet feel on the floor?

Are you going from heel to toe?

Toe to heel?

Do you feel like the right side of your right foot has more pressure than the left?

If you truly practice what I just told you, you will immediately become more aware.

You'll become more aware about your body's feeling of what is going on around you.

It is a very simple process, but you have to do it.

If you really want to make some changes in your life, you have to do it.

And it can be as simple as becoming more aware.

And that little process is massive.

And it's not occasionally it's every single time.

You are very impatient.

I can see your fingers doing that.

Yeah, you can run, girl, but you can't hide from me.

I'm scared.

So I see a brick wall in front of your heart, but I see that like an interaction with someone could knock one of the like flick of brick out of it.

And it doesn't have to be on the end, it could be in the center or you know.

And I saw someone flick one of the bricks off of your heart.

So it's telling me that you've built up a protection of saying, I'm not going to be hurt again, dad.

Energy.

Right.

I'm not going to be hurt, I'm not going to be disappointed, I'm not going to be blah, blah, blah.

Right.

But you're in life, living life, saying, I'm protected in my heart, but I could have an interaction with my girlfriend and she just flipped one of those bricks off.

Yes.

Right.

Yeah.

But that brick wall is still solid.

Even though one brick was flipped off, another interaction will happen and it put the brick back in.

And so what a lot of people do is that they'll get hurt somewhere in life.

Usually it's childhood, usually it's a caregiver and they'll over protect their heart.

And so what they're saying is I'm going to protect myself from being hurt again.

But they're also keeping out what it is they want in, which is love.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Makes sense.

Yeah.

You drink a lot of a dark fluid.

A dark fluid.

Yeah, it's.

It's either or.

You're selling.

Yeah, I just saw that.

Don't do it.

That's.

Oh, I know.

Yes.

Not good for you.

You have enough pain in the center of your back, spine wise.

Yeah.

In between the shoulder blades.

Yeah.

You like to talk.

Yes.

I feel a lot of this energy in your throat moving around a lot.

So it's telling me you like to talk.

That's good.

Take a deep breath into your nose and up your mouth.

You've learned to silence yourself.

Meaning if you're upset, you'll silence that emotion.

Those words don't show them your weakness.

Meaning if you're upset or like by you are, you've learned to silence yourself.

Does that resonate?

Yeah.

Yes.

Yes, yes.

Yes.

Do you have any final questions for you, sweetie?

From you.

How you feeling?

Relaxed.

Yeah.

Definitely cold.

Your emotions, that's for sure.

How am I supposed to feel?

How you're supposed to feel.

Exactly how you're supposed to feel.

It's not about me having you feel a certain way.

So how your body is feeling?

Right.

I'm not.

Okay.

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