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My Breast Cancer Journey: From Diagnosis to Hope | Early Detection & Healing Through Faith
Episode 5 • 7th October 2024 • Saddle Up Live Podcast • Lesa Koski
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Breast Cancer Awareness Month reminds us: early detection saves lives. 💗 In this heartfelt episode, Lesa Koski shares her personal breast cancer story—from the moment she got the call, through surgery and chemo, to finding faith, purpose, and healing.

Lesa opens up about fear, family, and faith during her diagnosis and how her journey led to a deeper calling—Doing Life Different. You’ll hear the raw truth of those first moments, the life-changing impact of early detection, and the hope that comes from trusting God’s plan.

Her message is clear: you are not alone, and there is so much hope.


Whether you’re walking through your own diagnosis or supporting someone who is, this episode will lift your spirit and remind you that healing is possible.

đź’– Main keywords: breast cancer awareness, early detection, breast cancer survivor, breast cancer journey, hope and healing, faith-based healing


Timestamps:

(00:00) Welcome to Breast Cancer Awareness Month


(02:15) Why Lesa celebrates her healing journey


(05:42) The mammogram that changed everything


(09:31) The call: “You have breast cancer”


(12:58) Leaning on faith through fear and uncertainty


(17:24) Sharing the diagnosis with family and finding strength


(22:50) Early detection and a 98% positive outcome


(26:15) Meeting Dr. Elizabeth O’Leary—an angel in a white coat


(31:05) Surgery, recovery, and lessons in surrender


(36:40) Chemo, courage, and learning to live with joy again


(41:12) Doing Life Different—how cancer became a calling


(45:20) Closing reflections and message of hope

Key Takeaways:



  • Early detection saves lives. Get your mammogram—it can make all the difference.



  • Faith transforms fear. Trusting God through uncertainty brings peace and purpose.



  • You’re not alone. Community, prayer, and connection are powerful parts of healing.



  • Your story has purpose. Even the hard chapters can be used to help others.



  • Life after diagnosis can be beautiful. Healing is possible—body, mind, and soul.


Guest Bio:

Dr. Elizabeth O’Leary, breast surgeon and founder of Lady Slipper Breast Center in St. Louis Park, MN, is a renowned physician who blends medical expertise with compassionate, faith-based care. A former Johns Hopkins-trained surgeon, she has helped countless women through diagnosis, treatment, and healing with empathy and excellence.


Resource Links:


  • 🌸 Learn more about Lesa Koski: https://lesakoski.com



  • đź’Ś Contact Lesa: lesa.koski@gmail.com

  • đź“… Schedule your mammogram reminder today


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breast cancer awareness, breast cancer journey, breast cancer survivor, early detection, mammogram reminder, hope and healing, cancer diagnosis, faith and healing, Lesa Koski, Lady Slipper Breast Center, Dr. Elizabeth O’Leary, women’s health, midlife wellness, cancer support, doing life different, Saddle Up Live, Christian inspiration, overcoming fear, cancer recovery stories

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Hey friends.

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I am so excited to be here

today and this entire week.

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I know it's hard to imagine that

this lady is excited because it's

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Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

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Who gets excited about breast cancer?

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I do because I want to share with you

how well I've done through it, and

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like I said, this is a special week.

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I have Monday's episode is.

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I think one of my first Saddle Up

live episodes that I did right after I

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had surgery over a year ago, and yet,

I'm not gonna lie, it's coming up.

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It's good, it's heartfelt, it's

a little sad, it's a little

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hard for me to listen to.

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Um, but here's the good news.

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There is always hope.

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And when there is early detection,

there is a 98% positive.

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Outcome.

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I am called cured.

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Yes, I did have to go through things.

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And I think the most important thing is

that I have, um, connected with God more,

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found new purpose in life, which has led

me to this Doing Life different podcast.

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So today's episode is going

to be a throwback with the

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beginning of my journey.

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And then I want you to tune in because.

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Tuesday is the most exciting episode

ever where my Darlene surgeon from

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Johns Hopkins is here live with me,

talking all things breast cancer.

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And it's so positive, you guys.

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It's, it's a curable disease

and women are doing amazing.

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Um, with this.

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Things are changing, but you need to

tune in to learn what to look for.

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What to do and some things to stay away

from so that you don't ever get it.

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That's Tuesday's episode On Wednesday,

I'm gonna come back in with an episode

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that was in the middle of my chemo, and

I'm gonna tell you, I chemo went very

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well for me, and I'm gonna give you the

tips and tricks on what made it go well.

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So even if you're not

going through cancer.

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How I went after that is how I've

kind of been living my life since

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then and it feels real good.

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So I think it's kind of a lesson.

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So that's what's coming up this week.

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And then of course, we always have

that saddle up segment on Thursday.

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This episode is going to

air on doing life different.

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Which used to be doing divorce different,

and I'm gonna air it on saddle up live.

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Here's the thing.

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Saddle up Live was a beautiful gift

that gave me the opportunity to expand

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and talk about things that really,

that I really care about, about women

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and living better and feeling better.

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Well, now I've wrapped that

into doing life difference.

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So if you are listening, mean

to this on Saddle Up Live.

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Thank you for being here.

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But for the future, please go

to doing Divorce Different.

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I'm sorry.

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Don't go to doing divorce differing, go

to doing life different and subscribe

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and follow it so that you get those.

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Because I have so many amazing episodes

about a lot of different things.

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It's not just about cancer.

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It's all positive, but

we're gonna focus on it.

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Breast cancer this week.

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Thank you so much for being here.

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Hello, hello.

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Welcome to Saddle Up Live.

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And if you're watching this on YouTube,

you might be like, Hey, wait a minute,

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isn't this that kind of professional

lady who does divorce different?

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And you're right here, I sit in a

trucker hat that says Sisu on it,

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and a flannel shirt in my barn.

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And the reason I'm doing this, um.

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Episode and video is because I

just wanna explain how my life has.

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Taking a little well detour.

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Not really a detour, just

a change, a big change.

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And I wanna explain why.

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So yes, this YouTube channel used to be

for doing divorce different, so that's

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why you're gonna see videos on that.

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And there's still lots of amazing

information if you are going through

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divorce on how to do it a better way.

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And I do believe in that.

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But interestingly

enough, my story changed.

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When I had, um, a breast cancer diagnosis

and I wanna share my story with you,

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and I think what's really kind of.

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Fun and interesting is, um, if

you've been listening to the podcast,

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you've heard like four episodes

where I interviewed my coach about

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a planner and about productivity and

your mindset and all really helpful

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stuff, and I did that from Arizona.

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I was there for a month in February

and when I was there, started

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thinking about what I was doing.

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In my life.

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Life and I thought, you know, I

was ready to kind of hand over

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the divorce mediation business.

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I was gonna keep doing the podcast and I

was ready to launch a new podcast because

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part of doing divorce different included

a saddle up segment where I talked about

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things that interested me as a woman, as

a person, and I, and it was doing so well.

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That segment was doing so well that

I talked to my producer and I'm like.

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Let's just do a new podcast on that.

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So I was gonna be kind of

overlooking the divorce business,

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continuing to do the podcast

because I think that brings me joy.

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It's been so fun to meet so many

people and then adding Saddle Up live.

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Well, if you've listened to

these in the past, you know that.

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On my way to Arizona.

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The two days before I left for Arizona,

I went in and got my mammogram and I

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probably was maybe three months late in

getting it and I was like on a whim, just

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kinda went, you know what I'm just gonna

do, I'm just gonna do that before I go.

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We drove to Arizona 'cause we were

gonna stay there long 'cause my, my baby

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goes to college there and we were gonna

work from Arizona and I got a call.

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That said, your mammogram has changed.

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There's something different.

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We need to get you back in.

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Oh, scary.

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And if you know me as a person.

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I am so controlling, um, about my

health and scared, terrified, um, I'm

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afraid to get my blood pressure taken.

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I want, I fast, I do everything

to be super healthy because I'm so

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afraid of, of health issues, and I

just hold on really tight to 'em.

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So getting that call late at night

when we stopped at our first,

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first hotel was really scary.

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So then I, I prayed and I said.

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God, if this is something,

you know that can wait, let me

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know that from this phone call.

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And so I called the nurse.

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And I'm not gonna say where this

was 'cause it, it's not really

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a good story, but I called the

nurse and I said, Hey, I got this.

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We're going to Arizona.

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There's like a Mayo Clinic there.

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Should I go there?

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You know, do I need to get right in?

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And she said, oh, you've never

been called back in before.

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It's no big deal.

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A lot of women, you know, don't even.

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Don't even come back.

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They get called back all the time.

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I wouldn't worry about it if

we can just make an appointment

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so you know, when you get back.

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So I set it up for the Monday

that we got back, which was March,

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11th day, I'll never forget.

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And, um, what about my business?

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And thinking, oh, it's nothing.

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And I've got a, a daughter who's

a medical doctor and you know.

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She, um, is really good about just

letting me take the reins and she's

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like, okay, you know, feel comfortable

if, if they feel comfortable.

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So I still thought about it while I

was in Arizona and if you listen to

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those first four episodes, I talk about

having a little anxiety about it just

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because that's who I am, you know, I

have anxiety even if there's nothing.

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So, um.

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It had a great time in

Arizona, by the way.

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All our kids, grand

babies were able to come.

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It was super duper fun and I know

that my prayers were answered because

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I know there's a reason, um, that I

came back and went through what I did.

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I do believe that because that's

one thing that I never really talked

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about on doing divorce different.

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I'm a really strong Christian and

this has grown my walk, and I can't.

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Talk to you about how I have gone

through this without talking about

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my having Jesus right next to me.

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So that's gonna, that's gonna come up.

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Um, so I got back home, went in on

that Monday, and I feel like I'd

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like to send this video to the breast

center that I went to because it was.

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An awful, horrifying experience and I

don't know that it could ever be a great

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experience, but it was so unexpected.

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I thought I was going in for

another mammogram and I think

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that that can happen a lot.

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And so I don't wanna scare you

if you're going back in Most of

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the time it's nothing know that.

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Like there's things that

are nothing all the time.

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So I went in, I got my mammogram

and I knew that I might need an

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ultrasound, and she goes, and the.

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Lady who did my mammogram

looked at me like scared.

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And she said, um, oh no, you have

a mass, you need an ultrasound

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and, and probably a biopsy.

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And I was like, uh, I got cold.

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I was shaking, I was scared.

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I had to run out.

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And like I had the runs in the

bathroom and I was all by myself

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and I was texting friends to pray.

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And she's like, you, you

got the wrong information.

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You, you know, kind of like, you

should have gotten back in here.

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And I'm like, well.

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You're the ones who told me I

didn't have to come back in.

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Super scary.

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And then went in for the ultrasound

and I had a gal do the ultrasound.

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Then she called the lady in and

I'm just shaking on the bed.

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The radiologist, um, you know, I

didn't know if it was just radiologist,

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but I've had one since then.

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That's very caring and nice.

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And, um, this one wasn't mean.

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Gave me no hopeful information.

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She said, um, oh yeah, uh,

there, there's something there.

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It's stents.

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Um, never.

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And she's like, here it is.

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It looked huge.

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Never told me.

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We blow this way up.

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Um, you know, this ultrasound shows

it as bigger, so just know that

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gals, if you're going in, it's not

as big as it looks on the ultrasound.

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And I hope that after I do this

and let them know that maybe

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they could tell women that.

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Another thing I learned this days later.

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Early detection, it was very, very small.

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98% good outcome in these

instances no matter what.

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So go get your mammogram.

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When I heard that that day, I was laying

shaken on the table, cold and scared.

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I think I would've felt a little

comfort, but I didn't hear that.

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I just heard mass.

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I looked, it was huge.

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She's like, I'm gonna biopsy it.

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She said, I'm intermediate

worried about it.

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You know, I'm not, not worried about it.

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And um, but I'm intermediate

worried about it.

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What me like who's healthy

and works out and eats right.

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I'm like, and I don't

have this in my family.

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I was like, holy crap, Ola.

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So, um, I said, I don't

handle health issues well.

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So I came home and I was

terrified and I can't remember

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if I went to my friend Mindy's.

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I think I went the next

day when I found out.

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So then.

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The next morning I got a call

and they said it is cancer.

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And I think the girl on the phone gave

me a little more information about

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it was small, which was such a relief

because I thought, holy, I mean this

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thing's gone crazy and wild and um, and

they had some pathology information.

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I was terrified and I didn't

know anything about my treatment.

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Nobody did because they didn't,

although they knew it was cancer,

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they have to know what's feeding it.

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And there are three, um,

kind of normal things.

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Two of them are hormones and

one of them's called her.

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Um, all of them kind of

are easy to deal with.

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They know how to deal with them.

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Um.

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The one needs chemo, the other two don't.

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But the other two need like, uh,

like I think five years of hormone

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suppression, which is really hard too.

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So, you know, none, none of them

looked, looked like a great option.

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And for sure I was going into

surgery, which I was terrified

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about, but I was so terrified.

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And yet, um, I kept praying.

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I kept, and I think I was so scared.

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I don't know.

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I don't know if I really felt Jesus,

but I went and I prayed with two really

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good friends, their sisters, Mindy

and Missy, and we prayed and I told

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them a story about months before where

I found a medal, oddly on my floor,

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and it had like a string around it.

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It was no one's.

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It was none.

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It was in my daughter's old bedroom

who, she's the doctor who's married.

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And, um, I asked all my, my

young daughter's friends.

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I asked everyone I knew.

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And, um, it was like something

that my, my grandma, who I adored,

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my grandma Rose, would have worn.

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And it said, Jesus, I will trust in you.

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And so when I was praying with my

friends, I told them about that

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and they're like, that's beautiful.

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Um.

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And, and that has helped me.

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It's helped my aunts,

it's helped my friends.

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And I also, one of my good friends,

Shannon gave me an app called The

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Pulse App, and that has helped me too.

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Now, none of these things have been, um,

I don't know if I've handled this well.

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I, I don't wanna talk about this journey,

you guys, but I'm talking about this

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just in case there's anyone that I can.

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Through this and me, I didn't

wanna look at any YouTubes.

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I didn't wanna look at Facebook,

I didn't wanna look at anything.

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I didn't want any details.

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So I don't know.

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But maybe if you're a family member

that has someone going through

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this, maybe this will will help you.

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But the deal is, and this

is what my doctor daughter

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said, she gave me permission.

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I didn't know any information

and she was begging me, mom,

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what do you know like about it?

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And I said, um, nothing.

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I don't have a report

and I don't wanna know.

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And I said, I, I don't know

what I'm supposed to do

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with this and this and this.

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And she said, mom, it doesn't matter.

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You handle this how you

need to handle this.

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This is your thing.

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And it was why she's

always been wise, you guys.

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And.

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I'm so proud.

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I know she's a great doctor.

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And so that helped me.

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So that did help me.

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And it was probably the first time in

my life that I went, what do I need?

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And it's like if people say things like,

oh my gosh, I'm gonna start doing YouTube

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shorts on what not to say to people.

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Don't talk about people who

have died from breast cancer.

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I mean, I've, I've, and it's so amazing.

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Like I, I will say to the person.

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That I love dearly.

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I don't wanna hear about this,

I don't wanna talk about this.

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And they keep talking about it.

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Also, like, here's another thing.

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When you're laid up after surgery and you

got a friend complaining about like doing

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work around the house, shut up friend.

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I don't need to hear that.

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At least you get to do that.

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And I actually would say that,

well, at least you get to do that.

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And funny people still kind

of don't really catch on.

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It's just so interesting.

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But then there are things too where

I'm like, you kinda can't respond.

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Correctly because my best

friend saw me in the bra store.

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We had to go pick out bras for after

surgery and she started bawling.

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My friend Debbie and I

like was like, stop it.

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I am not gonna die.

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Because I did hear some

good information after that.

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And so you get mad because stop it.

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I'm gonna be okay.

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And then my husband would be like,

oh, everything's gonna be fine.

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'cause we got such good information.

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And then I'd be mad like,

wow, it's still hard.

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So.

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I mean, you gotta just give us grace

because there's so many emotions.

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And I think that I was trying not

to talk about it, trying not to have

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those emotions, but really work through

some things in those beginning days.

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Because I have three kids.

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I talked about my doctor, daughter,

I got my golden boy, um, Jack.

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Jackie, he, um, he is the most

amazing enterprise sales rep

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because he cares about people.

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I mean, he has always

had this heart of gold.

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He's got a beautiful wife who's

a nurse, a little baby, and

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then another one on the way.

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And then I've got my baby Sophia,

who's in a freshman in college,

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and this was hard for her to have

to leave back, go back to college.

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While I'm going through all this,

but I just wanna say it was so

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interesting because I was always.

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The mama that mama bear, and I wanted

to make everything perfect and I

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wanted them to never be in pain.

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And suddenly I was like.

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I let that go.

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Um, and that was a gift, and my poor

son was on the phone with him and I

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didn't know what was gonna happen.

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I'm like, I mean, I was talking to him

saying, I don't know, like, I don't know

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if I have to have a double mastectomy.

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I don't know if I'm gonna

like, have no nipples.

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And I'm telling this to my son, who

I've always protected and I'm telling

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how, how scared I am and how real it is.

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I mean, I hope he did okay through

it, but it really felt good to me.

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And I've got my baby girl, uh, Sophia,

and she's, I mean, someday I'm gonna

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tell this story about her adoption story.

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It's so amazing.

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But so she's so, she's

so cute and so good.

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'cause she's like a realist and

like, I'm like, I don't wanna go.

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Through chemo.

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And she's like, well, I mean,

you gotta, or you're gonna die.

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You know?

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And so in a way I kind of needed

that bluntness and she's so darling,

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and you know, like try, you know,

she's like putting together this big

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scrapbook with people, um, you know,

putting their well wishes in it.

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And I'm like.

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I saw that and I'm like, this

looks like a funeral book.

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I don't want this.

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And then I feel so bad because

she's doing something nice to

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show me that I have support.

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Um, so it's just hard.

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And some people really jump to Facebook

groups and support groups and I,

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if that is what you need and that

makes you feel good, please do it.

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It's not what I needed.

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I don't know why, but it's not.

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Talking about it.

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Like in this video, I don't wanna

do this, but I did a podcast last

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night and Miguel said, you know,

why don't you wanna talk about it?

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because I always wanna be someone

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that people aspire to be, which

is kind of icky, to be honest.

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Like who?

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That's naughty like you.

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You don't wanna be that.

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You wanna be real and loving.

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no one wants to be this right now.

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So, um, I'm doing it though.

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I'm doing it.

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I'm talking about it.

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I'm gonna talk through this because,

so the bottom line is, um, we found

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out what feeds mine, which is really

good because sometimes it's hard.

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There's some that they don't know

for sure what's feeding the cancer.

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I have really good news and

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I'm gonna share that with you.

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Bye.

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At the same time, if you have different

news, I don't want you to lose hope, like

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if yours wasn't detected early or if it's

a different kind that they don't know.

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You cannot believe what they are

doing with breast cancer and people

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are surviving so much more than

they used to, even if it is a

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trickier one to deal with or so.

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I don't want this to make you feel bad

if you didn't have the good information

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that I got, so I got that information.

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And then I went in for an MRI, which

scared the hell outta me again, and

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I had to wait almost a week to get

the results and the results said, um.

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That it had not gone to my lymph nodes

and it looked like it was just contained.

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So that was good news.

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But still, you know, my surgeon

was very, I gotta talk about

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my surgeon too, very positive.

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But she said, we don't really

know until we do pathology.

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So they knew that what was

feeding it would need chemo.

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So I had to face that.

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But the good news was I met with a

couple oncologists and they said.

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That they thought I would really

tolerate chemo well with how

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things were looking because they

could do a less aggressive resume.

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And they thought that I would keep,

um, you know, my hair like it went

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thin and not look the same, but

they thought that I would keep it.

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So that all that, like you, you go

through these rollercoasters of, oh yay,

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and then you go, oh, you don't wanna,

you know, you still don't wanna do it.

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It's still scary.

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That was all really good news for me.

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Um, when I went, I was so

scared to go in for the surgery.

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You guys, and I have an angel of the

surgeon, if you are in the Twin Cities

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area or near, she left corporate medicine.

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She came from dc.

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From a breast center there and she

knows how to do things and she cares.

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And she's a Christian.

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And I came in and she didn't even work

with my insurance and we still figured

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it out so I could work with her.

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She, um, has carried me along

this journey and still is.

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She did a beautiful job on my lumpectomy.

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She, um, was so careful.

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Did the pathology during it, was

so excited after the surgery 'cause

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it, she said it just went perfect.

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Then I went in for my post-op and we.

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Jumped up and down and danced because

she found out that it had not spread,

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which, here's another thing I know, I'm

excited it didn't spread to my lymph

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nodes, but I, what I do want you to know,

she explained to me, even if it does go

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to your lymph nodes, you still have that

98% good outcome in those early detection

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cases, because I don't know why, but

breast cancer is different that way.

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So please don't let me scare you

if I'm giving you information

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that's different than yours.

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But it was.

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Contained and it was even

smaller than they thought.

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So thank you Jesus.

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Like all prayers answered, I was so

happy to be done with the surgery.

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Kind of felt ecstatic and now as I I'm, I

have to heal up before I go in for chemo.

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So chemo's gonna start on April 29th.

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I just wanna get started.

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And, um, this time waiting for

that has been very difficult for

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me, um, because I'm scared of it.

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Here's the deal.

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Like I said, I don't wanna talk about it.

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I feel like a misfit.

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I feel like, who am I?

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Like, and that's, like I said, that's icky

and here's what I'm kind of embarrassed

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about me and I'm just gonna be real.

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And it's something that

has slapped me in the face.

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I think that, I mean, sometimes

I could even be deceitful about.

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How good things things were for me or

about, um, myself so that I, people

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would hold me in high esteem because

I think I equalize that to like love.

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Like being thought highly of as love.

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And so I think that's why this could

be really hard for me to talk about.

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Um, so what a great lesson for me to

learn and, um, a great sin for me to

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be forgiven of and to realize I don't

wanna be deceitful, I wanna be real.

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And, um, so I'm gonna do my best to

do these cute little podcasts through

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and YouTube videos, through chemo.

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Um, I'm really excited because.

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I'm gonna try this workout program

that's supposed to help you do really

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well through it, and I'm gonna be

honest, and what I want is I want to

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share this with you so that if you have

people you love or you're going through

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it yourself, I can give you tools that

are going to help you through this.

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That's all I want to do because

this is not defining who I am.

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This is part of my story and if

my story can help you, and that

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this is what it is right now.

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And this whole podcast is not always gonna

be about this, but it's part of my story.

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Um, this.

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YouTube and podcast is gonna be

about being in your forties and your

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fifties and your sixties and beyond.

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And it's gonna talk about,

um, building businesses.

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I built my business when I was 50 and

I, and the things that I've learned

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and I got to do with doing divorce

different were amazing and fun.

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And then, um, having grand babies and

watching your baby go off to college.

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And I wanna talk about the adoption stuff.

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And, um, I wanna talk

about a lot of things.

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So that's what this whole

platform's gonna be about.

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It's gonna start about talking

about cancer, and I'm open

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for you, you send me a note.

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I'm here if you have

questions or need support.

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I wanna help you.

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But, um, that surgeon that I was

talking to you about, that's so amazing.

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That I'll never forget, held my hand

in the, in the operating room and was

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rubbing my arm 'cause I was so terrified.

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Um, and she was there

with me and she still is.

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Her name is Dr.

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Elizabeth O'Leary.

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She's in St.

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Louis Park.

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It's called Lady Slipper Breast Center.

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And I want to help her in any way that I

can because she just took off on herself

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and she will carry you through this.

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She is.

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She was sifted through God's hands

to me, and, and that's why, you

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know, I know I ended up with her.

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So if you're needing someone.

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She's amazing and, and awesome and

still like she texts me and, you know,

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we talk about things throughout this.

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I also have an amazing oncologist.

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Um, you know, that now I'm gonna be

getting started with the chemo and

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because I did a lumpectomy after chemo,

I have to do radiation, which I don't

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think scares me so much, but I still

don't really wanna do that either.

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Right.

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And, um.

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And then I have immune therapy that will

is just either a shot or a little infusion

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every three weeks for a full year.

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And then, and then I think I'll be done.

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And I think the thing that I'm

really looking forward to is that

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last chemo, I only have 12 sessions

and I should be done July 15th.

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So I'm looking forward to that and um,

I'm looking forward to doing these and

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being here for you in a different way,

in a new and different way through

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this journey we call life, right?

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We're riding along.

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I'm still at my barn.

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I've still got my horses.

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All that has stayed the same.

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And I have so many blessings,

so many things I'm grateful for.

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And I'm a person and I'm real and I

got things I'm a little bit scared of.

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So I'll take your prayers.

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If you wanna send them

my way, I will take them.

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And if you want me to pray for you,

if you have ideas, if you wanna jump

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on this podcast, send me a note.

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Lisa koski.com.

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Um, you can just.

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Uh, I think if you leave me a note

on YouTube, otherwise you can just

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do, uh, lisa dot koski@gmail.com

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and send me a note and I wanna

support you the best way that I can.

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So I am so thankful that I am here,

that I have a bright future that I have.

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Everything sifting through God's hands and

I'm thankful for all of you and I will be

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back to share the journey with you more.

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Thank you so much.

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