Are you bled dry by an energy vampire?
Raven shares the lyrics of Vampire by Olivia Rodrigo
In this deeply insightful episode, we dive into the profound journey of healing and self-discovery with our guest, Shannon Jenkins, an empath who has triumphed over toxic relationships. Shannon shares her personal experience of being bled dry by energy vampires and narcissists, shedding light on the emotional toll it takes on empaths.
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Join us as we unravel the layers of healing and growth in the aftermath of toxic relationships, and learn how to shine brighter than ever as an empath. If you've ever felt drained or depleted by toxic people, this episode is a beacon of hope and empowerment.
Tune in and embark on your own journey to feeling whole again.
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welcome to the Empath Rising podcast, where we are healing
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:from narcissistic abuse, with
human design, taro, and astrology.
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:I'm your host, Raven, Scott.
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:Today, we were talking about
how to feel whole after toxic
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:relationships, AKA with the narcissist.
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:How do you start over?
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:How do you feel whole.
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:And our recorded guest that has
shared us with some inspiring messages
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:that will be here in the podcast.
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:Today is Shannon Jenkins.
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:She's the host of starting
over with Shannon.
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:Podcast.
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:She's inspiring you to do the work.
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:And live a conscious,
meaningful and joyful life.
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:She helps through her coaching.
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:You heal and grow after
toxic relationships.
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:If you are a perfectionist, if you're an
empath and you will love to listen to her.
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:Message that she has for us
today on how to feel whole.
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:Because so many times we all have
experienced this, where we feel like.
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:A piece of our body has gone.
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:There's been such a trauma bond.
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:Everything is so intertwined.
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:And on top of that, they pretty much
are a vampire and they suck us dry.
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:They strip us from
everything that we know.
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:And, , before we dive into this.
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:, episode, I just want to resonate with you
the lyrics from Olivia Rodrigo's vampire.
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:I I've heard it before.
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:And then I heard it yesterday
and I was like, this is so it.
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:So if you resonate with being in a
relationship like this, Then you are
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:going to benefit from the episode.
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:, From Shannon's message today.
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:So here are the lyrics to vampire.
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:By Olivia Rodrigo.
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:I
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:hate to give the satisfaction,
asking how you're doing now.
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:How's the castle builds off people.
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:You pretend to care about.
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:Just what you wanted.
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:I look at you.
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:Cool guy.
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:You got it.
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:I see the parties and the diamonds.
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:Sometimes when I close my eyes,
six months of torture, you sold
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:as some forbidden paradise.
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:I loved you truly got a
laugh at the stupidity.
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:Because I've made some real big mistakes.
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:But you make the worst one look fine.
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:I should have known it was strange.
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:You only come out at night.
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:I used to think I was smart.
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:But you made me look so naive.
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:The way you sold me for parts,
as you sunk your teeth into me.
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:Oh, blood soccer.
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:Same fucker bleeding me
dry, like a goddamn vampire.
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:And every girl I ever talked to
told me you were bad, bad news.
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:You called them crazy.
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:God, I hate the way I called them.
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:Crazy too.
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:You're so convincing.
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:How do you lie without flinching?
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:How do you lie?
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:How do you lie?
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:How do you lie?
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:Ooh, what a mesmerizing paralyzing
fucked up little thrill.
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:Can't figure out just how you did it.
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:And God knows I never will.
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:Went for me and not her
cause girls your age.
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:No better.
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:I've made some real big mistakes,
but you make the worst one look fine.
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:I should have known.
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:It was strange.
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:You only come out at night.
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:I used to think I was smart, but
you've made me look so naive.
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:The way you sold me for parts,
as you sunk your teeth into me.
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:A little blood sucker.
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:Fame fucker bleeding me
dry, like a goddamn vampire.
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:You said it was true love,
but wouldn't that be hard?
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:You can't love anyone.
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:Cause that would mean you had a heart.
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:. I tried to help you out.
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:Now I know that I can't.
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:Because how you think the kind
of thing I'll never understand.
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:I've made some real big mistakes,
but you make the worst one look fine.
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:I shouldn't should have.
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:No.
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:And it was strange.
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:You only come out at night.
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:I used to think I was smart,
but you made me look so naive
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:the way you sold me for parts.
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:As you sunk your teeth into me.
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:Oh, blood sucker.
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:Fame fucker lead in me dry,
like a goddamn vampire.
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:So this episode is going to help
you regain your blood back, regain
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:your energy back, and to understand
how to become whole again.
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:So let's dive in./
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:Shannon: Leonard Cohen famously
said, There's a crack in everything.
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:That's how the light gets in.
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:This quote...
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:It honestly changed my life and it
is a true reflection of the healing
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:journey that I've personally gone on
after healing from narcissistic abuse.
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:And you know, what I once thought was
the most broken, bruised, insecure,
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:fragile, and ultimately unlovable part
of myself was actually the very place
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:that would lead me to the wholeness
that I was searching for all along.
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:For those of you who don't know me.
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:My name is Shannon Jenkins, and I am
a self love and mindfulness coach,
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:and I'm also the host of a top self
development and spirituality podcast
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:called Starting Over with Shannon Jenkins.
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:It's been running for the past
two or so years, and every week
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:I have different interviews and
solo episodes just like this one.
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:In which I share about how our
rock bottom moments can often
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:be a blessing in disguise.
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:How they can, in fact, not only be
the breakdown, but the break open.
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:That we never even knew that we needed.
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:And this was certainly my experience.
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:The most challenging time of my
life, while unforgettably difficult.
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:It also woke me up to my true self and
all of the various masks that I'd been
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:wearing over the years to avoid or cover
deep seated pain, fear, guilt, and shame.
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:And this is the message that
I want to share with you.
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:Today, how you can restore the wholeness
that is within you all along after
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:notwithstanding what is a really, really
difficult experience, because ultimately.
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:I want you, like me, to learn
how to trust more deeply,
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:both for yourself and of life.
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:Trust that even if you don't have
all the answers right now, one day
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:in your future you are going to have
that ah ha moment where you go, ugh.
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:I get it.
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:It makes me think of one of my
favorite quotes by Steve Jobs.
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:And he said, you can't connect
the dots looking forward.
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:You can only connect
them looking backwards.
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:So you have to trust that the dots
will somehow connect in your future.
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:I literally had this stuck on
my window during a university
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:exchange year in Paris years ago.
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:Incidentally, the place where I
fell pregnant and started to see the
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:toxicity in my romantic relationship.
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:I didn't get it then.
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:Not at all.
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:But boy, do I get it now.
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:So I'm going to share with you on
this episode a little bit about my
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:story in narcissistic abuse and how
I found my freedom, but also four
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:key steps towards healing and filling
whole after toxic relationships.
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:This forms.
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:A bulk of what I do in my coaching and
for any of you who would like to have
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:my free guide, which gives a recap of
all of this info as well as journal
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:prompts and a lot of aesthetically
pleasing photos and colors, which
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:I know us empaths absolutely love.
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:So you can get a copy of that by messaging
me the word guide over on Instagram,
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:where I am there at shannonjenkins.
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:co.
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:So let me tell you a
little bit about my story.
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:You might be able to tell from the accent,
I'm not sure, but I am Australian and
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:British, and I now live in Switzerland.
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:I'm 30 now, but back when I was 22,
I found myself in a relationship
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:with a man that I later learned
to be a narcissistic sociopath.
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:So I was definitely unsure of him at
first, and I had absolutely an inner
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:knowing that arose out of my body.
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:That said, there's something off here.
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:There's a darkness.
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:There's something not quite right,
but perhaps like many of you, I let my
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:mind talk me out of believing what I
knew deep down, because this man, he
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:was charming, charismatic, confident.
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:And over time that Coupled with his
attentiveness, his special interest in me,
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:his loyalty, I was completely drawn in.
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:And I didn't understand at the time that
he wanted to move so quickly, and wanted
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:me to get vulnerable and open up to him
so that he could later manipulate me.
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:But that was the reality.
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:A lot of his early behaviours
made me give over my trust and
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:love quicker than I expected.
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:And I still recall how in the early
phases of dating, he did things
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:that genuinely touched my heart.
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:And they touched my heart because of
pre existing vulnerabilities that I had.
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:And this is one of the key themes
for me in terms of doing the work,
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:bringing yourself to self awareness,
understanding your patterns, your fears.
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:So key.
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:And this was really the
opening up to that for me.
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:But...
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:I started investigating a
little bit deeper what made me
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:fall for somebody like this.
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:So a bit of my background.
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:I grew up in a somewhat
unstable household.
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:We moved around a lot.
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:I went to over 10 different
schools and we even moved over
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:to the other side of the world.
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:So from Australia to
England when I was about 12.
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:I didn't know my father.
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:I didn't have any relationship with him.
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:In fact, he didn't even know I
was born until I was about 19.
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:And I only had females around me.
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:In addition to that, also, my mother
never really repartnered, so I didn't
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:have any model for healthy, cooperative
love and connection, but I realized
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:that all of this led to, obviously,
the way that I showed up in the world
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:and the needs and the fears that I
had, and I, for a long time, didn't
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:admit to myself that I had these fears.
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:I didn't see them.
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:And I wanted to be strong, capable,
independent, never really knowing that, in
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:fact, that was part of a trauma response.
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:So I think with this in mind, what
became clear was that my ex knew how to
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:soothe my vulnerabilities, let's say.
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:So in this early love bombing stage, he
started giving big demonstrations of love
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:that made me feel safe and protected.
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:And, you know, I remember one memorable
gift he gave me was a portable
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:phone charger after a night out.
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:I was in London, I was on a night
bus, I was drunk, my phone ran out
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:of battery and I couldn't get home.
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:And The following day he said, I never
want you to get into that situation again.
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:I want to help you.
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:Please feel like you can call
me if you, for whatever reason,
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:don't have enough phone battery.
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:Here is a portable phone charger.
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:I remembered this because it got me
right to one of my deep needs and a
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:core fear, that of being unprotected.
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:And all these things added up to me
believing that I had found my soulmate.
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:I share this with you because I You
know, I want you to have that moment,
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:that pause, that reflection where you go
or you think back to the relationship.
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:Has there been a time where
something has really touched your
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:heart that you remember and why?
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:Why?
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:What was the deeper need or the
deeper fear that was being allayed?
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:This is honestly so key to finding
the freedom that you're looking for.
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:So for me, after a year, after all
of this initial love bombing and
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:things started changing, he started
becoming more controlling, more grumpy.
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:more critical.
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:And I could not make sense of that.
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:How could somebody be so loving,
so generous, so seemingly empathic,
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:to then suddenly criticizing
me, my abilities regularly.
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:I learned at a later date that
this is cognitive dissonance,
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:as it's called in psychology.
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:It left me making excuses for
his behavior because I didn't.
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:I didn't know how to
reconcile this, right?
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:It was like, well, I think this is
the real him, but maybe it's just the
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:stress, or maybe it's because it wasn't.
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:It was the de masking of his true self.
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:And in essence, what has happened,
to give you the full circle, I
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:left when our baby was very young.
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:And we ended up having a two year
long legal battle that was full
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:of dirty, malicious tactics worthy
of a Netflix dark TV series.
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:I don't know, I couldn't even watch
these shows like you or others because
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:it made me feel so anxious and it was
frighteningly similar to my experience.
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:But in the end of that, I was granted full
permission by the Family Court of Western
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:Australia to relocate to Switzerland,
which is no easy feat, I've got to say.
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:Uh, international relocation cases are
very, very complicated and difficult.
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:So if any of you are going through that,
boy, do I feel you feel free to reach
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:out for any help as well if you need to.
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:And I fell in love and I fell in
love with somebody who was kind and
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:gentle and honest and it's just the
most fulfilling love I ever had.
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:And I should also add that I got sole
parental responsibility for our son,
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:which was also pretty significant.
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:I think a reflection of quite
how difficult it was as well.
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:But I know that this love that
I now have would not have been
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:possible without doing this work.
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:Because quite honestly, there was
a part of me that felt like I was
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:not deserving of this kind of love.
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:I was afraid of abandonment.
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:I was afraid of not...
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:Being the kind of person
he wanted me to be.
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:And then there was also a part of me, old,
hyper vigilant, survival mode me, that
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:saw him as being soft and somewhat boring.
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:But I know that that old
me did not feel whole.
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:I know that that because of some of the
traumas that I'd faced in my childhood and
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:the fact that I was just running around
in eternal busyness and thrill seeking and
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:pursuit of achievement to mask all of this
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:but step by step I've learned how to
soothe that part of me has a lot of
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:deep mistrust that part of me also that
feels like I'm unworthy and undeserving.
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:I know how to soothe that part.
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:And I know how to step forward
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and I can honestly sit here and say.
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:Um, perhaps four, five years
later, I'm so, so proud of the
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:work that I've done to heal.
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:And I cannot, I honestly cannot
believe the life and the love that
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:I have now, but I know that this
is a reward for doing that work.
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:So I want you to know that
even if you can't see it yet.
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:Like one day this is all going to make
sense and you might well be able to
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:look back with a smile and lightness
in your heart, grateful for the
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:wisdom and confident in your ability
to actually change on a deep level.
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:This might be a bit of
a controversial point.
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:I see a lot of people focusing on
getting their life back after toxic
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:relationships, like feeling like
themselves again, but my perspective,
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:my truth is that that old self in a
way that you knew is not actually me.
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:what you want.
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:It's just the only reference point
you have because you can't see
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:the next version of yourself yet.
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:The version of yourself that is
stronger, wiser, more kind, more
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:loving, more peaceful, present
and happy than ever before.
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:But that is the goal, or
that should be the goal.
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:It's not restoring what was, it's
accepting what is, and it's equipping you
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:to step into your next level of expansion.
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:And this for me is where
spirituality has been a really
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:helpful force in my life, let's say.
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:Because it helped me to learn how to
get more comfortable in uncertainty.
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:I started learning how to trust the
process in the unfolding of my life
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:instead of being more operating
from a place of fear and tension.
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:Because the thing that I know is that
There will be opportunities, random or
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:seemingly random encounters and wonderful
people that will come into your life
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:that you can't even possibly imagine yet.
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:You don't have foresight on
that, but it doesn't mean it's
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:not going to happen for you.
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:You know, there were so many
moments during my own separation
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:and my own abusive legal battle, I
should say, where my trust wavered.
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:I mean, I was overwhelmed
by heavy emotions.
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:I was struggling to get quiet
and listen to the whispers that
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:said just keep moving forward.
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:But what I found was that in those moments
of immense resistance and fear, There
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:would be unexpected little boosts that
helped me keep moving forward so much so
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:that my mantra ended up becoming trust
the weight, embrace the uncertainty,
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:enjoy the beauty of becoming when
nothing is certain, anything is possible.
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:It's a quote by Mandy Hale and.
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:I had one of these moments, I'm not sure
whether you've ever had that before,
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:where I was in the car, driving, having
all of these self doubting, overwhelming,
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:negative thoughts, I started saying, I
can't do this anymore, I just want to
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:give up, was it right to separate, should
I just give up resisting and keep the
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:peace, should I allow him back into my
life like he wants, then lo and behold, a
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:song by Destiny's Child came on the radio.
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:You've got to know it.
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:Everyone knows this song survivor.
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:I'm not going to sing it cause
I'm absolutely terrible, but it's
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:like, you know, I'm a survivor.
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:, I'm not going to give up.
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:I'm going to work harder.
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:I'm going to make it,
et cetera, et cetera.
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:And this song, I blasted it on the radio
with my windows down, my hair blowing.
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:I was driving to the beach.
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:My son was so young in
the back at that stage.
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:And I just said to myself, okay, this
is a sign to keep moving forward.
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:You're on the right track,
even though that this is hard.
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:And I had a few more moments like that
where , it just felt unexplainable,
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:you know, I ended up meeting my
husband completely unexpectedly.
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:He was in a position to help me.
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:I also left my relationship with
no money, but it turns out I was
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:in entitled to an unexpected family
provision after the birth of our son.
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:And then several grand came into my
bank account at the exact, I mean,
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:exact moment I needed to put up a
rental advance on my own place to
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:be able to start over independently.
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:And then the day that I moved in,
this almost brings tears to my eyes.
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:The day that I moved into my small place
with my eight month old son, there was
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:a full rainbow over the top of my house.
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:And tears just sprung to my
eyes and I held him and I
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:said, we're going to be okay.
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:And I soaked up that feeling, that
trust that I'm being helped, that
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:I'm being guided, keep walking
forward, help will come to you.
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:I think what I didn't know, but I'm
so convinced of now, and this is
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:what I share far and wide is that.
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:By doing this inner work on yourself,
this is what is going to bring
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:you the long term transformation
that you're looking for.
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:That transformation that brings you
your peace, your joy, your sparkle
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:back and makes you feel whole again.
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:And it's all about getting better.
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:Not getting bitter.
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:So with that in mind, here
are some four key steps.
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:The first one is identify
your protective self.
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:This is such a big part
of healing everyone.
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:Honestly, it's like realizing
that you have your true self under
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:there somewhere, but that true
self that was there got hurt.
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:at some point, usually in childhood, and
you built a protective shield, you put
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:on a defensive armor around that wound.
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:And the thing is that protective
self has probably been running the
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:show in your life for quite a while
without even being aware of it.
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:This was certainly my experience.
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:I did not know that I had such a
strong perfectionistic protective self.
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:Like, I...
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:I did not realize that me constantly
striving, being busy, regularly
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:overwhelmed was just because I was
avoiding feeling the shame that I
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:had stored deep, deep, deep within.
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:So I think, and there are many,
many types of protective selves.
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:I've just described the perfectionistic
one, which is what I found myself in,
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:but also another is like codependency.
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:You know, this is somebody who has
buried deep within an inner sense of
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:worthlessness and not enoughness with a.
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:A fear of rejection and abandonment and
the protective mechanism around that is
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:to prove the opposite by always caring
for others or by being very compassionate
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:and helpful by being a peacemaker.
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:These are all types of protective
selves, but you know what?
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:You don't have to hate it.
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:In fact, you shouldn't at all
because it has served you for
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:probably a long period of your life.
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:You have been rewarded for that.
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:It has met your needs, and that's why
it can also be so hard to let go of.
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:But, there is a purpose
to letting go of it.
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:So we're going to come on to that.
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:That is the second part of this,
is really learning how to let
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:go of that protective self.
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:Or, at the very least, not
be caught in its trance 24 7.
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:Am I still perfectionistic?
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:Yes.
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:For sure, I have those tendencies.
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:But rather than letting it control my
life and lead me to constant overwhelm and
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:burnout, I have a toolkit to soothe that
little Shannon who just wants to be loved,
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:and enough, and feels like praise and
accomplishments will bring that to her.
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:Can you see the power in this?
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:Naturally, letting go of this protective
self or this defense mechanism
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:that you've had for quite a while,
I'll be honest with you, it sucks.
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:It really does.
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:At first, it's hard because
you're finally faced with the
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:things that you've been avoiding.
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:And this is literally why I have such high
respect and admiration for anyone who does
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:this work, because I know it's not easy.
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:It does demand courage, but I
also know how life changing it is.
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:You know, I've had so many memories
of working with others, of opening
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:up, sharing these painful memories,
experiencing them in our bodies during
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:a retreat, and people just having this.
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:It's childlike joy and vibrancy and
aliveness in their face afterwards.
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:Honestly, it's so beautiful to see that
you can really visually see the weight
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:lifting off of people, which is the
exact opposite to what your defense
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:mechanism would have you believe, which
is, oh my goodness, if you finally
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:reveal your true self, you're going
to get found out and it's going to
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:be a disaster and you are going to be
rejected or abandoned or unloved, right?
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:So, forewarning.
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:Expect that there will be
resistance to this, excuses, escape
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:routes, avoidance mechanisms.
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:You may experience numbness or
other physical sensations like
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:feeling blocked or tight or empty.
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:Or maybe this is one that came
up for me feeling like I found
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:it so hard to get a handle of my
emotions, feeling so overwhelmed.
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:But then I could suddenly just
cut it off too, especially
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:in relationships with others.
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:And I recognize that was just
a dissociative mechanism.
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:Funnily enough, what actually
helped was really staying open and
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layers, these protective mechanisms,
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our core wounds, our shame, our
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to share is about resolving that.
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more simple than a lot of us
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lies in just staying with it.
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yourself out of it, not analyzing,
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feeling not enough, allowing yourself to
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space around it and crucially showing
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we're often like, Oh my goodness,
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but like pull yourself together.
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:Et cetera, et cetera, all of this comes
out, but don't just allow it to be there.
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:You know, the most transformative healing
events or experiences I've had in my
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myself to feel, to sob, to tremble in
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:That, and it will still occur, you
know, I will still have those core
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grip me as much as they used to, and
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I try to teach people, like it's that
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:the triggers, they aren't so alarming
anymore, but there is such, such power
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spending your life running away from it.
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:So what if you did just dare to sit,
to lean in, to allow, to accept?
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:What I know for sure is that your life
is going to change for the better.
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placed to take the practical
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:Such as, let's say, setting
boundaries with a toxic ex partner.
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:Or even in my instance, for me, it's
come up with starting my own business.
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:It showed up in a different way.
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:Like now I have the same thing with
the perfectionism coming out with
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:It's just being mindful of that
witnessing, allowing, seeing
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:what is going on deep within and
then making a different choice.
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to go down to the roots, to treat
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:And this brings me on to my final point,
which is about feeling whole again.
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:What is this healing work for, really?
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:Like, it's not so that you spend
your life in eternal misery
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:or sadness or grief, anxiety.
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:It is so that you feel light,
free, peaceful, more loving,
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:You know, I frequently ask my
podcast guests a question at the
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what is something that you used to
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had relate to this sense of being
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:unworthy, of being not enough, of being
broken, but that they've woken up to
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:the truth, the truth that is their
inherent worth, their natural wholeness.
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:There's a wake up call, and often
it can be in a moment, it can often
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call dark night of the soul, or
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:these existential crises where
everything seems to be breaking down.
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said back at the beginning, it is the
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:breakthrough, the break open that you
need, because you realize that, Wow,
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:you don't need to be stuck in the
trance of this pattern anymore, always
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:trying to prove your worth externally
through validation from others, through
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:success or achievements, through being
of use or a positive contribution.
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:Sure, you can go ahead and do those
things, but you're not doing it with the
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:same fear based energy as you once were.
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of feeling whole again?
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:It is this.
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:It is not something that
you have to accomplish.
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:It is something that you realize.
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:It's like believing that the
sun doesn't exist because it was
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:Like no, remove the clouds
and the sunshine will pour in.
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:It is there.
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:It was always there.
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:One of my favorite quotes is from a
poet called Rumi, who said, Your task
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:is not to seek for love, but merely to
seek and remove all the barriers within
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:You are not broken or unlovable.
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:You just have a false belief that you are.
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:And that is something that
you have the power to change.
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:That unconditionally loving
and loved soul that you truly
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:are is always there within you.
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:Thank you so much for
listening to this episode.
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:I do hope that it has inspired you
or touched your heart or given you
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:the courage to continue doing this
inner work and please know that
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:You know, even just listening to
this podcast and many others like
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of the human experience, right?
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:Like, and we can find community
and connection through it.
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:You know, there is not a need to be
independent and asking for help is not
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you and let's support each other.
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