Now that the eclipse gate has passed and we’re just past Mother’s Day, I wanted to share with you some amazing healing moments, loving moments, affirming moments, growth moments, elevated moments that happened during a visit with my mom in hopes that it inspires and blesses you as it did for me.

If you do have a challenging relationship with your mother or just wish that your relationship was different, or even if it is the way that you want it to be, I invite you to take your time, breathe through and honor what is, what can be and what may never be. This visit was such a reflection of the work I’ve done to become the pattern breaker. 

Remember that the mother wound, the mother conditioning, is not just about your direct mother or about you. It’s a result of the entire system of experiences that we have inherited down the generations.

Come with me as I explore:

• The major differences I noticed in these recent interactions with my mom
• The truth of who we are
• Allowing the space to receive and give without overextending oneself

The Elevating Woman Retreat: https://www.ashleyjohns.com/elevate-retreat

Healing the Mother Wound Guided Journey is inside my INTERMEDIATE BUNDLE Healing Your Ancestral Lineage: Becoming A Generational Pattern Breaker

Bethany Webster book Discovering the Inner Mother: https://www.amazon.com/Discovering-Inner-Mother-Claiming-Personal/dp/0062884441

Share with me what inspired you in this episode! Tag or DM me via IG @ashinspires, or visit my website at ashleyjohns.com

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May you walk your path with courage and compassion!

with love, trust and devotion to my path,

Ash x

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Happening podcast has a little bit of noise, pollution, and distraction in it.

It is not recorded in the same quality of audio as I usually do because I was

not in my usual, recording location.

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I'm asking you to look beyond and through these slight audio

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Peacocking and enjoy, this message and this session.

Thank you for your grace and enjoy the show.

All right everyone, welcome back to It's Still Happening podcast.

this is actually my first time ever creating any content like today's episode.

I'm not really one to create content based on holidays or

trends or like current events.

Or even about what everyone's talking about online.

Even in my personal life, I tend to, wait until years after the most popular movie

that everyone's ranting and raving about.

I will wait until the series is over.

The movie is like, no one's talking about anymore.

It's dead and gone, quote unquote.

something new has come out and then I will watch it or then I will talk about it.

But because of the experience that I just had this past week.

And even coming into this second week.

Right.

And to give you context, those of you who are listening from the future, which

technically all of you are, we've just come out of the 2023 Eclipse Skate.

It is, fresh energy coming through.

A lot of us are reorienting ourselves and like wrapping up the bow of

huge change in transformation we've been feeling for a long time.

I know that I definitely have been.

And so because of that, I had such a beautiful experience with my mother.

Well, not because of that, but in conjunction or at, you know,

happening at the same time.

My mom came down to visit and it's so interesting because her visit was

originally to see both my youngest brother and I, but because he was

out of town, I actually was able to enjoy all of my mom's time myself.

So why am I talking about this and what do I mean around trends and making content

based on, what's happening in the world is that we're coming up on Mother's Day.

And it was not, it didn't even dawn on me when she booked her travels

that we were gonna be spending time so close to Mother's Day.

And so, even before I get into today's topic, I wanna preface and say that

if you are someone such as I have been in the past, Who has had a challenging

relationship with your mother, um, who don't have a relationship with your mom,

never had a relationship with your mom, or really struggling with your relationship

with your mom, any of those things.

And even if you have a fantastic relationship with your mom, I, invite

you to breathe and take your time as I reflect over, our visit and kind of

share some amazing moments, healing moments loving moments, affirming

moments, growth moments, elevated moments with my mom in hopes that it inspires

and blesses you as it did for me.

So again, if you do have a challenging relationship or just wish that your

relationship was different, or even if it is the way that you want it to be, I

want you to like take your time, breathe through honor what is, what can be and

what may never be, you know, because.

I would have like a whole entire show if I were to document my

in relationship with my mother.

And, that's not what we're doing.

but I do wanna celebrate how far we've come and how this recent visit

was such a reflection of the work that I have done in me to be the

catalyst to be the, pattern breaker.

To be, a new standard, a shining light, a receptive vessel to facilitate a

relationship that I've always wanted and that I needed, and also to,

yeah, just shift the dynamics that compared to what we've had in the past.

What an intro, right?

Like what an intro.

And by the time this episode comes out, we will already have past Mother's Day.

And so depending on how your Mother's Day went, you get to,

use this episode to support you.

And you know what?

And let me also say something else.

I feel like there has been this trying to Fix or like we're so

fixated on the relationship with our direct mother or mother figure,

or lack thereof that we forget our mothers and even our, existence.

As women and and feminine people, that it's not just about the actual mother as

a person or mother figure as a person or lack of the mother figure as a person.

Whatever we are experiencing with our mothers and in our lives and who we are

as women is a reflection of a lot of things that's happened to a lot of people

all the way down our maternal lineages, whether that is our mother's mother's

line or our father's mother's line.

And to expand that even more.

For those of you who are not as familiar with my work, it is also

reflected in the people and the energies from our mother's father's

line and our father's father's line.

Because the mother wound, the mother conditioning, the mother

patterning the maternal instincts.

All of that is weaving in and out regardless of your sex or your gender,

or which side of the lineage you're on.

All of us came from a mother.

All of us came from the land of this earth.

All of us came from someone who carried us in whatever way that they

did, she did, for us to be here.

And so I want to, as I talk about my own mother, I'm gonna be opening the aperture.

And kind of weaving through or illuminating some of the patterns

that have really, it's not about my mom, it's not about just me.

It is about the entire system of people and system of experiences

that we have inherited and that has been programmed in our psyche and

ourselves and our energy field, right?

And our beliefs, all of those things.

And then obviously in our bodies, but I'm just talking about from

like the smallest, energetic level.

So I just feel like every time we talk about, or people talk about it, this

is my first time doing it, mother's Day or you know, honoring the mother.

We're always looking at it from the context of our immediate maternal figure.

And there's so much more.

There's the people who have motherless.

There is Mother Earth.

There is the whole lineage of mothers who birthed the person who birthed the person

who birthed, the person who birthed you.

People you don't even know, right.

but I know from our human minds it's easy for us to just focus on our

direct umbilical cord connection.

But I want you for a moment to think about all of the wounds and all of the

umbilical cords that pass down information to love, exist, survive, be, hold,

endure, sacrifice, expand, nourish.

and all of those things can be seen in a positive way, in a loving, maternal

way, in the way that we want to, and also nourishment and expansion and things

in ways that didn't feel good, right?

So we assign positive and negativity to these experiences that we've

inherited and that we experience with our own, mothers in maternity.

Maternity.

That's an interesting way to use that.

But, I just want to give grace.

Our minds love to just fixate on the person in the position closest to us.

But the truth is, if we, again, open the aperture, if we zoom out, this

is a system, this is a movement.

This is an epidemic, if you will.

Cuz I know there's such a movement right now of people talking

about how their mothers were narcissists or even their partners.

But that's another episode for another time.

And for me, I'll be honest with you, and this is not to discredit

or dilute or you know, talk.

Badly about anyone's experience and what they're doing in therapy

to heal what they need to heal and move how they need to move.

And this movement of just calling everyone a narcissist is just, it never sat right

with me because I think of what created the experience of quote unquote, D V

S M book, medical Book of diagnosing narcissism, like all these disorders.

That we're running around this world and internet using and sitting in these

chairs and talking to doctors using within the context of just our personal

life is a reflection, is a symptom, is a survival pattern of many years, many

generations, centuries of conditioning.

And so I've, I've learned in my own life and also with my clients, that every

time we, allow ourselves to zoom out and look at the system of our lineages

and how it's manifesting in our lives, and the system of our family dynamics,

and the system of our relationship to the maternal, to our mothers, to the

energy of mothering and nurturing, we get more information and we can

understand, but also change our behaviors.

Transmute the energy, transmute the meaning.

Alchemize it.

Evolve, grow, heal, and be an example of what's possible as opposed to,

making sense of it in a way that labels and blames, and don't get me

wrong, we've all been hurt by people.

You know, I'm not gonna ever name a mother as a narcissist or any other

label, but there is ways in which she has mother that has harmed me.

And there's ways in which I have daughter that has harmed her.

Let's be honest.

Right?

Over the years, I've had clients who had done years of therapy with, their

relationship with their mothers and their fathers and looking at their

mother wounds and maternal wounds.

when we did whole lineage healing or when they embarked on the

whole ancestral healing journey, which by the way is never about.

The lineage as a whole, it's really about your freedom and who you are

becoming so you can step into your role and your power and so on and so forth.

But there's many podcast episodes and YouTube videos for you to explore,

and emails and all the things from me that you can explore on that.

But when they did this work, they were like, oh my God, I have so much.

And again, I get teary.

I hear like compassion.

Compassion for the person who held the mother pole.

Or the maternal energy, or the nurturing energy.

There's so much compassion in understanding the circumstances

and seeing what it was before and what it can be through you, right?

It's like, coming out of the weeds on the ground and getting in a helicopter

and being able to actually see where you're at and what you're working

with and being like, oh my God.

On the ground, it seemed like it was the most catastrophic flood and it was.

It was, I mean, I live in South Florida, so like it was a huge flood, but as

soon as you come up, you're like, oh, okay, I see how this was caused.

And like we just need to set up the levies differently and drain this and like

do this and move this and level up the land and, look at the weather patterns.

And I now can evolve, like the cycle of flooding is not gonna

necessarily end in my lifetime.

Mother wounds won't end in my lifetime, however, The growth and the healing that

I do will transform this phenomenon.

Will the strategies that I've put in place, the healing that I do,

me looking at the whole big picture here, I can respond to it differently.

I can lean my life differently so that over the years we don't have these

issues as strongly when they come up.

Right?

Such an interesting analogy, but I think it fits the bill.

So let's come into the storytelling, cuz as y'all know, if you're familiar

with me and if you're not, hi.

I, always love to share personal stories because I, I feel that it

truly illuminates experiences that helps you see yourself in someone.

And you might get something from my story that I didn't even expect you

to, but it helps you on your path.

So I'm never sharing personal stories just for the sake of being vulnerable

in a person, talking on the internet.

Like it's because I know it's a gift.

I know it helps people.

I know I've taught in many different ways and people always come back to you, oh

my God, thank you for telling that story.

It really brought to life what you were saying.

It illuminated and changed things in me beyond just my mental understanding.

It dropped into my heart.

It dropped into my energy field and it, it changed me.

So shout out to those of us who share our stories and teach by, as I say,

my saying is, I teach by living.

I teach by living.

So let me give you some context.

My mom is like, The sweetest lady, and I know we all say these things when we like,

have a good relationship with our moms.

We're like, oh, it's good.

And it's true.

She is a very simple lady, and by simple I don't mean like homely.

But just like she's easy to please, like she just really rolls with things

and, observes people and, and just likes to create comfort for folks.

Like she's really, really good at that.

In fact, anytime that I have moved, anytime I'm going to travel, I

love if I can to have my mom come into town and like pack for me,

clean for me, organize for me.

Cuz if it's up to me, I pack at the last minute.

If it's up to me, I unpack.

Like two months later, it's a whole thing and she's really, really

good at it and she wastes no time.

However, when she comes to visit me, it's always an experience of like, she gets

here and she will do the housekeeping and the nurturing and like all the cool

stuff and like cook or like, let's buy the food or this is where we're gonna eat.

But like I plan things like I am the, this is where we're gonna go.

How do you feel about this?

We can do this.

This is what's happening.

You know, I always drive.

And so I definitely step more into my doing and my masculine energy and she's

in like the maternal mothering energy and then we do this little dance, right?

But I have definitely been going through a life transformation, becoming a fiance.

coming off of my six month, sabbatical with business and traveling

the world for six months and.

Changing where I live and I'm soon to change where I live again,

like there's been a lot of change.

And so she didn't tell me this until after she left, but she's like, I

just had the mothering, like nurturing nudge that I needed to come and love

on you, that I needed to be there and to allow you to be in a different space

for a moment and remember who you are.

And me in my, like, I'm a big girl and I'm here.

I like.

I do so much for my family.

I've done so much for my mom.

Like I'm the person that no one has to worry about.

I was just kind of like, yeah, yeah, yeah, mom.

Thanks.

You always say that, but I'll tell you in the experience I had to whew open

and receive my mother's mothering in a way that I have never done before

in a level of appreciation that I truly feel I have never done before.

It was like we were in a sink.

Like I was in such a state of transformation that I was used to

living with myself, like being in my body, experiencing myself daily.

That the change of moving to, you know, an Airbnb, beautiful Airbnb

that she picked out because she loves, I have a certain style of Airbnb.

So she picked something that's totally my style, which I loved.

And she said that, you know, she's like, I knew this would be your thing.

Like you would love this.

and.

To go into a new space with her, and it's just me, her, and Ziggy, who right now

is getting like attacked by mosquitoes.

and to allow myself to relax and allow myself to be around her, not to experience

my mother and show her around town and go places and do things together, but simply

to be there in her presence and allow her loving mother energy to pour upon me.

I have mothered myself very well for a long time.

As I said, my teenage years were horrific.

Like horrific.

I was a completely different person.

I definitely could have been dead by now or like, I'm not

even joking, like seriously.

and so I don't remember why I brought that up, but like to go from that to

now, this where I can just be around her and feel her energy and receive

it and like, Allow her to mother me as a grown 36 year old woman.

Was a moment.

It was a moment.

It was a moment that I will never forget and always cherish because

there's something that I realized.

My mom has said stuff over the years.

I've also like mothered my brothers and mothered other people obviously.

But My mom has always said our style of dealing with my brothers in

particular is very different because she is an actual birth mother.

She birthed them and so she tends to get really soft with them.

And I'm a little bit more like, I will give you inspiration and softness,

but then I will also hold like a very strong fiery like boundary.

Like you must man up, you know?

And so there's times where, I'll be honest with y'all, I have criticized

her mothering and been like, the way that you are going about doing this with

them or with me, I don't agree with.

And you know, I, I actually attended a, mother webinar by the coach,

therapist, writer author Bethany Webster recently, and I've had her book and

I've known about her work for years.

And I just attended it just because I was like, I've known

this woman and I've heard of her.

And our work is supportive to each other.

I should check out.

You like, just go to this.

And so I was listening and it was really beautiful.

Like, shout out to her, check out her work.

check out her book.

but as the women were sharing in the chat, there were so many things people

were talking about that I realized I didn't, resonate with, I didn't experience

feeling like I'm in competition with my mother, or there's not enough space for

me and her to exist together, or that I couldn't speak up and say my, my truth.

I have always.

Has been like, and this is just me being a, a feisty, like first house

Aries kind of person where I was like, listen, I'm gonna say what I have to

say, even if you punch me in the lips, which my mom has totally done before.

But that's no judgment to her.

That's just the generation she was raised in.

We can talk about all this stuff later, but I bring that up to say

I definitely, communicated with my mother things that I didn't agree with

her the way that she mothered and.

It was hard for her to receive that and sometimes she didn't receive it at all.

But on this trip it was beautiful to see this dance of my maternal energy

meeting her and giving her feedback and, and talking with her in ways that was

supportive to her, while also being able to receive her mothering and maternal

energy in the way that I deeply and desperately, I would even say need it.

It was such a dance of womanhood of.

Nurturing of seeing each other, of sensing what each other needs and

wants, and being able to do it in a way that did not deplete either one of us.

It was like such a celebration and such a glorious moment.

Like it was just so beautiful to the point that it was so hard to leave.

I was just like, let's extend, like let's stay together longer.

And I don't think I've ever had a moment, sorry mom to say this,

where I was like, oh my God, I don't want her to leave, you know?

I knew I needed to like get even more in my own space to integrate some of

the loving and nurturing that she gave me so I could implement it in my life.

I do that in all areas.

It's not just spirituality, it's not just a retreat or a workshop.

Like I'm always integrating and taking the lessons and putting

it into like fully into my body.

Not just my physical body, but like my existence body.

But still at this end, of this visit, I was just like, wow, I didn't know

I needed the medicine of mother.

I didn't, and I didn't know I could appreciate it at the level that I did.

So I wanna highlight a couple things that I did and she did that was new for us.

And monumental.

Like monumental.

The first thing is my mother was a very giving mother, right?

I've been blessed with that.

She will give you the shirt off your back, even if you're not her child.

And if you're her child, she's like ready to pour her like slight of

service and pour blood into your mouth, like if you need to give

you her own blood transfusion.

and so because of that sometimes I've been like, no, stop giving.

You've done enough.

I'm independent.

I'm good.

I'm a grown woman.

Let me give to you mom.

But this time I actually allowed myself to receive, and that's

a representative of my growth.

And it allowed her to experience being a mom and doing in a way

that is just built, like my mom was built to be a mom, you know?

And I saw how good it made her feel to give.

And was also amazing, she didn't give to depletion.

So in that I allowed myself to receive in ways that I've never received before.

Like my mom was like, please, I actually want to cover the Airbnb.

I want to get another Airbnb.

And you go on another little staycation.

Cause I'm really in like a staycation moment right now.

and like going different places still in the area, but just

to have a different vibe.

And I was like, no.

And then I was like, actually, yes, I will receive your gifts.

I will receive your gifts.

You are pouring into me in ways that I need to receive it.

And we will see the fruit of you doing so and of me receiving it and allowing my

seeds to be tended to very soon, you know, this is huge growth, in my opinion of my

mother, is that she knew when to stop.

Sometimes my mom love has love so much, and you guys know if you have a mother

this way that loves so much that she would just keep giving and keep giving.

At the end of the day, she's like exhausted.

And all of my mother girlfriends talk about this too.

They're just like, as a mom, you just want to do it.

But then there's, I forgot about myself and I saw my mom not do that

for the first time on this trip where she was like, okay, goodnight.

Like, okay, deal with that later.

And there's a lot of reasons why that is happening.

The wisdom of her age.

if you follow me on Instagram, you know, my mother is a newlywed.

She recently got married for the second time, and that was like a huge phenomenon.

We had done some personal work together to support that happening, and also

it was just God's plan, like truly.

and to see my mom give, allow me to receive and then for her to still

be filled up was just such a gift.

I don't know if you've ever experienced.

Seeing your mom do good in a way that takes away from her, and how

that, that made me feel very sad.

I, it made me want to, and, and again, therapists and people who specialize

in this work will talk about and label this as codependency and da, da, da,

and all these things, and that's fine and dandy, but at the end of the day,

the personal experience of me wanting to save or to give to my mom or to

take care of her or to alleviate her survival patterns, It's not just a

me a thing that needs to be labeled.

It is a relationship that's been passed down in our lineage.

So for me to not do that, for her, to not get herself to that place was massive.

Like, massive change, massive growth, massive evolution, massive restoration of

the existence and the expression of our.

Woman and of our maternal instincts.

And I love it because this, one of the reasons in my twenties I chose not

to become a mother was because what I witnessed and what I saw both in my family

and in the culture and in the culture of just women and mothers, was that we

are, we're willing to give up everything and our freedom for our children.

And I was like, that is a no for me.

Me, I will never be a narcissist mother, but I also am not going

to forget my identity as all my hyphens, all my commas, just because

I add mother to it at the beginning.

Like I, I just refuse to do that.

And I still stand by that.

And I, I just feel that there's such, and all the mommy blogs and all of the videos,

everyone's like, this is how it happens.

This is how it goes.

You give everything to your children to the point that you have nothing

and like you have to lose yourself.

And then you have to learn Self-love and self-growth, and I

was just like, I'm a no for that.

I will never do that.

I will follow up about that in another episode, in another teaching, because as

much as I said, I will not do it, I did it in a different way when it came to

my business, and I will talk about that.

But um, yeah, this, this experience was huge for me and I was just,

digesting it and watching it and being like, that was amazing.

There's evidence of change and evidence of growth.

In so many ways, just in one interaction or one visit with my mom.

The second one I wanna talk about, cuz that one was full of like, it was like

four different things I just talked about.

But the second one is actually a little bit cleaner.

and like straight to the point, all my life I have been a very creative person.

I'm the only girl and I would go into my bedroom and I would, Close the

door and paint and draw and move the furniture and make my own clothes.

And so, you know, again, we could talk about attachment styles,

but at the end of the day, I am a person who thrives in isolation.

We could also talk about the fact that I'm a projector.

I like to be around people and then disappear and do my own thing and

rejuvenate and get clarity, and then I bring it back out into the world.

So if you follow me on social media, you know, that's my, my steelo, but like, As a

girl, I would go in the room and close the door and create, and then I would come out

and share with my mom, or I would invite my brothers into my bedroom and I'd have

all these creation stations and I would teach them things and we'd make bookmarks,

or I would read to them and she was like, you've always been a person who loved

people, but also loved your alone term.

And somewhere in our life journey, we often forget who we truly are, who

we've always been, what our lifestyle has always looked like, even if it was,

Through the context of just a bedroom.

And now the context is like my whole life, I'm always wanting to travel

into my and create these experiences, micro experiences that I get to contain

myself in, and then I make stuff.

And so what I've been looking at is like somewhere in life

we sometimes forget that.

Like through our evolutions, through our changes, through the ways we

have impact, how our businesses grow, how our visibility changes.

How we get recognized, who we work with, what relationships, like all these

different changes that we go through sometimes, oftentimes, all the time

we disconnect from the roots of our person or, and we're in this journey

of constantly healing and seeing what is truly us and what was like harmful

conditioning or coping, conditioning, that we abandoned the truth of who we are.

Yeah, and my mom so beautifully illustrated this or brought

this to life for me.

Illuminated it for me actually, is what I will say.

Because she turned to me as we were in the first Airbnb and she said,

you've always been this way, Ash.

This has always been you.

You've always been adventurous.

You've always been curious.

You would never settle for what you don't like.

You always outspoken.

You always can speak right to the heart of the true thing that's

going on with someone, not just.

Like the surface level or the bandaid or the mask, you've always gone off

into your own world and created and then come out and shared it with people.

You did this your whole life.

Remember since you were a little girl, remember?

And I was like, I got teary eyed.

And I was like, you're right.

And the reason being is I was feeling guilt and was having some tension around

needing this space with my mother, but.

Subsequently needing space from everyone, like from my fiance, from

my home, and just wanting to be with me and my dog in a beautiful space.

So I can create.

And I just wonder, and I don't even have to wonder cuz if I go and sit

down, I've just been enjoying my space.

But if I go and sit down and talk to my ancestors about this, I know that

there is a bigger story, a bigger system around this, of women abandoning who

they are and what they really need to thrive and to have their cup overflowing.

Because of the pressure of their, of their business or their partner, or

their rules, or the culture or the legislation or whatever it might, or

the money or whatever it might be.

And when she pointed this out, I was like, thank you.

Even me, I needed to be reminded that this is rightful for me to be here with

you and then for me to extend my stay, to have the space that allows Ash to thrive.

And when Ash thrives, everyone around her thrives.

That's how us women, that's how we women, and that's definitely how I work.

And I was like, you know what?

I know this about myself.

And yet I was not honoring it.

I was making the truth of who I am wrong.

It was a mother's love that brought me back to myself in that moment.

So, I hope that this episode of is still happening, gives you permission to receive

the nourishment, the mothering, the care, the love, the rest, the being held that

you need from wherever you get mothered, even if that mothering is from yourself.

Allow yourself to mother you and to receive the mothering you need.

And if you do have a mother in your life, if you do have a maternal

figure in your life, and if you don't, then let's do ancestral healing.

So you can loving energy of all of the women down your

maternal lineages around you.

And with you, I've done that myself, especially in my paternal and father line.

To feel the mothers and the men, and this the case that I'm giving,

the men give me the fathering that I did not receive from my father's.

It's possible, but even if you're not doing ancestral healing work, I want

you to open up to receive the mothering that you need, wherever it's coming

from, and that you remember who you've always been and how your mothering

figure, whoever they were, saw you.

In your best, in their best moments and the clarity of their

eyes and love when they had it.

Whether it was every day or just once a month or once a year, right?

Like we have a lot of complexities in our relationships.

But in that one moment that you can remember that there was some love or some

reverence or care, look through their eyes at who you truly are and allow their care

to remind you to live and operate from.

The seat of your identity, the seat of how you operate best, how you express

yourself best, and how you want to move forward in your life and in this world.

I think that feels complete.

There's a lot that I can say, but I don't wanna ramble and I just wanna honor.

All of us who are mothering in our own ways, all of us who come from mothers.

So I'm gonna honor all of our mothers, and I wanna honor all of our maternal

lineages who lived, loved mom, nurtured, sacrificed, encouraged,

right, nourished, protected all of us in the ways that they could.

As best they could under the circumstances, under the unhealed,

inherited, ancestral and personal trauma as best as they could.

All right.

So I'd love to hear your feedback and thoughts about this.

I think I'll be writing a lot more about this experience because I don't know,

I feel like I grew as a woman because of spending this time with my mom and

being mothered, which, is surprising.

As you can see, I'm a little like.

Still integrating and digesting and in awe, in awe.

So I hope you had a beautiful Mother's Day.

I hope that you honor yourself as mother because all of us are

nurturing something in our lives.

even if it's only ourselves, and that you go forth with having the best day that

you possibly can, knowing that you are here for a reason and have a role to play.

In this world, in your community, and in your lineage.

Thank you for being here with me.

Shout out to my mom.

I love you.