Sheriff Michael Neal is a law enforcement officer, a combat veteran of one of the most dramatic police incidents in modern American history, and today the elected Sheriff of Lee County, Arkansas. In May 2010, he was a wildlife officer who drove over an hour, lights and sirens, to respond to a cop-killer ambush in West Memphis and ended it himself in a Walmart parking lot with dozens of rounds hitting his truck.

The first interview told the story of what he did. This one tells the story of what it cost him. Sixteen years of carrying a date - May 20th - that alternated between the worst day of his life and, eventually, his wedding anniversary. He got married on the anniversary of the shooting on purpose, to give the day something else to hold.

This conversation covers the year of fog that followed the shooting. It covers the 42 awards he received that he didn't want while the colleagues who died received nothing. It covers the National Law Enforcement Museum in Washington D.C., where his bullet-riddled wildlife truck is one of the two centerpiece displays, and how the first time he visited he kept his back to it and greeted visitors rather than look at what he called, without hesitation, "a casket." And it covers the conversation he wasn't ready to have for years: what it meant to take a life, why it's nothing like Hollywood, and what it actually takes to get right after you do.

The mental health piece lands differently coming from a sitting sheriff. Neal doesn't preach. He talks about the stigma in plain terms, the colleague who "went to see the quack" and got avoided, the broken analogy between a broken leg you can see and a brain injury you can't. And he talks about Dr. Gray, a retired injured officer who broke his back fighting a suspect and conducts his therapy sessions from a bed in his office. He was the one who finally helped.

Part 2 goes to the Walmart lot. What Neal saw when he got there. What he did. And what he brought home from it.