"Underneath all the people pleasing, underneath all the molding yourself to make other people feel comfortable, underneath all of that protective layer is your true essence, and people can see it."- Jenny Leckey
In this episode, Jenny recounts a transformative lesson during an improv class years ago. She shares how her improv teacher saw that she wasn’t taking up space on stage, instead worrying about everyone else (classic covery people pleasing). He encouraged her to do the opposite - that she was allowed to take up space. This eye-opening advice encouraged her to start changing this habit in other areas of her life.
Jenny reflects on how being open to feedback and receiving new perspectives from others can lead to significant self-discovery and change. She discusses how having a growth mindset is key as well as being open to feedback in order to grow and change.
00:00 Introduction: A Pivotal Improv Moment
01:57 The Lesson: Taking Up Space
03:51 Reflection: The Impact of Words
05:56 Conclusion: Embracing Growth
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As I was thinking about this topic, it reminded me of this.
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:Pivotal moment during
an improv class in:
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:This person probably doesn't even
realize that this conversation that
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:we had, it was my improv teacher in
Myrtle beach and we were learning, I
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:think how to do characters on stage.
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:Honestly, it doesn't even
matter what we were learning.
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:But he had been obviously watching us in
class week after week and you're on stage.
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:If you're not familiar with improv,
it's in the moment off the cuff.
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:On the fly comedy.
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:It's like the show whose line is it
anyway, that's short form improv.
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:You don't have a script.
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:You hop on stage and maybe
you get a suggestion.
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:Sometimes you don't even, you
just open your mouth and see
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:whatever the hell happens, right?
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:It's very freeing and I highly recommend
everyone taking an improv class.
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:it is therapy in motion.
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:What I've noticed over the years of
being involved with improv is that my
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:personal habits will play out on stage,
whether it's through a character or
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:how I present myself on stage, which
leads me to this people pleasing moment.
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:Which will live with me forever.
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:It was one of those moments that slammed
me into reality a holy crap moment.
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:So going back to that class day, I
don't know what we were doing on stage.
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:It doesn't matter.
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:All I know is we were applying these
skills, so my teacher was giving us
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:advice hey, why don't you try this?
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:It was great.
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:So we had class, and then at the end
of class, we're all packing up, and
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:we all become friendly, so I was chit
chatting with people, and then my
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:teacher called me over, and was like,
hey, can I talk to you for a second?
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:And I can't remember exactly, obviously,
word for word, what he said, but along
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:the lines of, And I remember afterwards
it made me cry as I reflected about it.
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:I remember getting in my car and crying.
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:It's going to make me cry now.
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:He told me, you are allowed
to take up space, Jenny.
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:And I looked at him, confused.
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:What are you talking about?
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:He said, you're allowed to take up space.
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:He said, I watch you.
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:I see you looking at everyone else
and you are calculating to make sure
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:everyone has equal representation.
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:Everyone gets some time in the spotlight.
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:And within that, I was
holding myself back.
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:He saw it.
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:I wasn't stepping forward.
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:I wasn't initiating scenes because
I wanted to be fair, and I wanted to
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:take care of everyone else, and I put
everyone else's needs before my own.
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:And therefore I wasn't initiating,
which in an improvising world
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:means I wasn't starting scenes.
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:I wasn't Following my intuition, I was
literally holding myself back physically,
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:and mentally, and spiritually on stage.
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:And all I was doing was
scanning and making sure
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:everyone else was taken care of.
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:And he said something along the lines
of, You're being the mother hen on stage.
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:oh my gosh, I had this flashback.
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:That's what my friends
in college called me.
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:Oh, Jenny is the mother hen.
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:When we would go out, I would always
be taking care of everyone for the most
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:part, making sure everyone was okay.
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:And I was the mother hen, the
quintessential people pleaser mother hen.
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:And for him to see that on stage,
playing out through my own character
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:Through my body language, by literally
observing me not following my feet, not
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:following my intuition, blew my mind.
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:And to have someone who's not
close to me say to me, you
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:are allowed to take up space.
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:And basically his task for me for the
next class was you are going to initiate.
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:You are going to take space.
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:I don't want you worrying
about anyone else.
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:I want you to worry about yourself.
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:I, that was such a mirror moment
for me to feel so seen by someone
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:and to be given permission and being
told that it's okay to focus on
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:yourself, Jenny, to trust yourself
and to not worry about other people.
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:Holy crap.
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:That was so powerful.
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:So powerful.
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:And this man doesn't even
remember this conversation.
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:I guarantee it.
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:Because it was not a big deal.
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:It was like a sidebar conversation
that took maybe 60 seconds, right?
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:You never know how someone is
going to be changed by your words.
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:If you are called To say something
from the heart like this, say it with
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:love because look at this moment.
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:I'm talking about it and
it's six years later.
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:That moment shifted something within me.
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:I will also say I was
open to receiving it.
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:That's also important.
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:I was already on my healing
journey at that point.
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:I was already doing the work, I was
meditating and all that great stuff.
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:I was already open to receiving
feedback from anyone and anything.
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:I already had a growth mindset.
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:So it's twofold.
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:If you want to receive from others, you
have to be willing to receive from others
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:and also look at things a blessing.
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:I could have looked at it from
the ego and been Defensive and
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:who does he think he is or denial?
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:I could have not been open to what he
had to say and think I knew best, but
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:this felt like he was a messenger from
my spirit team or from God spirit
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:was speaking through him to me.
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:I needed to hear that
in that place in time.
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:And the fact that he
used the term mother hen.
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:Got my attention even more so because
that was a label placed on me, which is
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:just another word for people pleaser.
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:It was a game changer for me.
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:So thank you, Kevin, my improv teacher,
for a comment that I'll never forget.
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:That changed who I am.
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:I'm sure everyone has moments like that.
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:You might have even had them
and didn't think about them.
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:And then they might arise in your
mind whenever you actually needed it.
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:Be open and curious.
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:And know that everyone is a mirror.
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:And the only way that this shift will
really start sticking is if you're open
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:to receiving that reflection from people
that And if you're willing to grow and
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:change, even if you don't fully know who
you are right now, knowing that you're
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:on that journey to finding who you are
underneath all the people pleasing,
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:underneath all the molding yourself
to make other people feel comfortable,
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:underneath all of that protective layer is
your true essence, and people can see it.
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:Listen to them when they tell you.
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:Be open to receiving it and
then see how things shift.
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:Thank you, Kevin, my improv teacher
for this beautiful mirror moment.
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:You gave me all those years ago.
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:I'll always be
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:grateful.