So many addicts are hindered by their view of failure that it actually creates greater difficulty in overcoming their pornography use.

As a coach I teach my clients that thoughts are one of the biggest factors in how we feel and act, leading to the results we create.

When they view pornography, fall off plan, eat more than they thought they should, they view that as a failure and can often fall into a self-defeating spiral of feeling bad and buffering.

What people often miss is that if we can take a step back and observe our behavior without judgement and without shame, we find an opportunity to learn.

Mistakes are our greatest learning opportunities. Becoming a scientist of your behavior makes you an expert that can see patterns, pathways, and potential that you don’t see when you just feel bad.

I often ask, What does victory look like?

Having a winning record in sports means that you lose just under half of the time.

The greatest sluggers in baseball only hit the ball in a third of their at bats. If you took into account the number of actual swings during each at bat that percentage would go down.

Yet, when I hear that someone feels like a complete failure for looking at pornography for 15 minutes over the course of an entire week, I wonder, is that a losing record?

There are just over ten thousand minutes in a week. That means that 99.85% of the time the person who feels like they failed was not looking at pornography.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to justify a little sin by saying, “be good 99% of the time and that’s ok”.

What I am saying is, taking stock of where you actually are gives you a better chance of moving the dial to where you want it to be.

In this instance, as in so many that I see, a small, though measurable improvement, would make a huge difference in bringing a person out of their despair and into a place of confidence in their own capacity to choose what they want.

That 0.15% failure rate far outstrips the acceptable failure rate of electronics, which is between ten and fifteen percent.

But, what can be learned from it is invaluable.

You see, what you think makes a big difference. If you think, “I am a failure” then you very likely will be right.

If you think, “I can improve myself 0.15% and be 100% clear of pornography” then you are just as likely to be right.

Look at your failures with the right perspective and you will have a wealth of understanding to improve your record.

If you would like help, or know someone who does, have them sign up for a free mini session at zachspafford.com/workwithme. It will go a long way to changing the way they look at their struggle in overcoming pornography use.

Welcome to the Self Mastery Podcast with your host, Zach

Spafford, episode number two.

Welcome to the Self Mastery Podcast.

I'm your host, Zach Spafford.

Today we're gonna talk about failure is a good thing and here's why.

So many addicts are hindered by their view of failure that it

actually creates greater difficulty in overcoming their pornography use.

As a coach, I teach my clients that thoughts are one of the biggest factors

in how we feel and act, leading to the results that we create when they

view pornography, fall off plan, eat more than they thought they should.

Most addicts view that as a failure and can often.

Fall into a self-defeating spiral, spiral of feeling bad and buffering.

What people often miss is that if we can take a step back and observe our

behavior without judgment and without shame, we find an opportunity to learn.

Mistakes are our greatest learning opportunities.

Becoming a science scientist of your behavior makes you an expert that can see

patterns, pathways, and potential that you don't see when you just feel bad.

Right.

Think about a little baby.

Anytime a baby learns to walk, there's nobody out there

that's like, oh, you're a fail.

You're, you fell down.

No babies take every opportunity that they fail at walking and use it as a

way to improve their ability to walk.

. So I often ask, what does victory look like?

When a client comes to me and they say, I failed today.

I didn't do what I needed to do to stay away from pornography.

I'm a failure.

I say, well, what does fail?

What does victory look like?

So if you think about it from a sports perspective, . Having a

winning record in sports means that you lose just under half of the

time, 51% of the time you're winning.

So 49% of the time you're actually a loser, right?

You've lost whatever match, game set, whatever it is.

Having a winning record in sports is just winning 51% of the time.

The greatest sluggers in baseball.

Let's take it to a baseball analogy.

The best baseball players in the world, they're only hitting the ball.

They're only getting a hit, as they call it in baseball, 33% of the time.

That means that more than 60% of the time, they're not hitting the ball.

And then if you take that even further, When a person gets up to bat and they

strike out twice before they actually hit the ball, so first at bat, they get up

and they swing at the first pitch strike.

They swing at the second pitch strike.

They swing at the third pitch, and they hit it and they get on base.

Their percentage of actual hits to swings is even less than that, 33%

of the very, very best of baseball.

yet, when I hear that someone feels like a complete failure for looking

at pornography for 15 minutes over the course of an entire week, I,

it really makes me wonder, is that actually what you call a losing record?

I mean, are you a complete failure if for 15 minutes in a given

day over the course of an entire week, you look at pornography?

. Now, calm down mama.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to justify a little sin by saying be

good 99% of the time, and that's okay.

That's not what I'm saying.

What I am saying is taking stock of where you actually are gives you

a better chance of moving the dial to where you want to be, meaning.

If you look at that 15 minutes over the course of an entire week and you

say, I'm ashamed of my behavior and I'm a complete and utter failure,

I think you're looking at it wrong.

In this instance, as in so many that I see a small though, measurable improvement

would make a huge difference in bringing a person out of their despair and into

a place of confidence in their own capacity to choose what they want.

There are just over 10,000 minutes in a week.

That means that 99.85% of the time in this particular scenario, the

person who feels like they fail was not looking at pornography.

That 0.15% failure rate, 0.15% failure rate far outstrips the acceptable

failure rate of electronics, which by the way is between 10 and 15%.

If you go and you buy, well, I mean, when I was a kid, we'd buy stereos, right?

And between.

Five, 10 and 15% of the time, that device would actually fail in some way.

The tape deck would fail, the CD player would fail, one of

the speakers wouldn't work.

That's huge, right?

But what we can learn from that 0.15% failure rate is invaluable.

You see what you think makes a big difference.

And if you think I'm a failure, , then you're very likely to be right.

You're gonna continue to fail over and over and over again.

But if you think sweet 0.15%, 0.15%, I can, I can change that.

That's tiny, right?

If I improve myself by 0.15%, I can be a hundred percent clear of pornography.

Then you're also just as likely to be right.

If you think about this in terms of your failures and the perspective that you

need to bring to them, you'll actually start to gain a wealth of understanding

as you look to improve your record.

. So what does that look like?

What do you, what do I mean when I say look at your failures with the

right perspective and you'll start to gain a wealth of understanding?

Well, the first thing that I wanna say there is, so there's, there's

five things that I can think of off the top of my head, right?

The first thing I wanna say there is set aside the shame.

Anytime you.

look at a failure, and then you double down on that failure with shame.

So for instance, if I got up there to bat and I swung at that pitch, and then I

felt ashamed, well, I'm definitely never gonna hit the ball because I'm putting

shame this emotion on top of a miss.

So a miss doesn't feel good, but then I feel bad about.

, the feeling of feeling bad about missing.

You see what I mean?

You got two emotions there.

You only really need to look at one of 'em.

Shame is never useful when it comes to.

dealing with shame, you have to simply say, I'm not gonna feel bad about feeling

bad, because then you're taking away the opportunity for the double down, the

additional hurt and pain and difficulty that comes along with feeling bad already.

You're gonna feel bad about 50% of the time anyhow.

You might as well not feel bad about feeling bad.

The second thing, Is, be honest with yourself and be honest with others.

About, uh, 10 years ago we had moved to California and I still had this

extraordinarily difficult problem that I was dealing with in not being able

to remove myself from pornography use.

And my wife, she was beating herself up over this and she decided, you

know what, I'm just gonna start.

talking to people that I trust.

I'm not just gonna blab that Zach has a problem, but I'm gonna talk to

people that I trust and that I love, and I'm going to just tell them.

And guess what?

Every person she told, every single time she told someone, they

exhibited love, they exhibited.

uh, kindness.

They looked at us and said, Hey, how can we help you?

Never once did someone say, oh, , you're clearly a bad human.

You need to get out of my life.

No one ever said that to us.

No one ever treated us like that because we were honest with them.

And I find that when you're honest with other people, they will

one reciprocate with honesty.

And what I mean by that is that when I share my story, and when my wife

was sharing my story, people would come up to me and you know, now when I

share my story there, you know, I had a relief society president who came up

to me and she said, this is something my son is dealing with right now.

And I am so grateful to know that there's something available, there is freedom

available and that he can get past this.

But I also beforehand, before I, you know, I had a success story.

Every single time I would share my story, people would tell me, Hey, you know, I

know so-and-so in my family is dealing with this, and I'm grateful to know

that he's not alone and that there's somebody out there that he could have

a conversation with if he needed one.

It's an amazing thing to be vulnerable with people and to be honest with people.

And when you are, they will almost always reciprocate.

And two, they will step in to try and help as best they can in any way.

The other part of that is being honest with yourself.

You have to be willing to look at your behavior and see it for

what it is, not minimize it, not say, well, it's just this.

It's just that you have to say in a honest, but also measured tone.

This is what's happening.

This is the reality of the life that I'm currently living because

of the choices that I'm making.

And being honest with yourself is hard because as an addict,

we're super good at lying, right?

I'm super good at telling people what they want to hear.

I'm super good at, uh, showing people the face of my life, being AO K all the time.

And when you're good at that sort of thing, you start to do it not

just to others, but to yourself, and you start to minimize your.

Your activities, you start to look as though, yeah, I'll be fine.

And when reality hits after an episode or a particularly hard, um, confession

or, or conversation with your spouse or with yourself or with someone else,

and you're like, gosh, I'm, I'm beating myself up on this, you really need to

double down on honesty and just be like, I'm gonna just tell the truth all the

time, and this is what it looks like.

Number three.

Observe your own brain dispassionately.

And what I mean by this is when you look at your brain, you gotta see.

what's going on.

But you also have to choose to look at it as though you're the

narrator of a wildlife film.

You, you might have heard of, uh, David Attenborough.

Right.

And one of the films that he narrates that I saw, that I, I

was like, blown away this lizard.

Had to cross this tiny expanse and there's all these snakes there and the

lizard kind of crawls into the space and he's super, super, super quiet and

he's, he's not making a lot of movement cuz that way the snakes don't see him.

But eventually one of the snakes is like, oh.

There's a lizard there and it attacks him.

And this David Attenborough is narrating this.

The lizard is attacked by one snake, and then he gets away, and

then he's caught by another snake and then a whole ball of snakes.

And then he gets out of this ball of snakes and he starts

to jump from rock to rock.

And there's snakes jumping out of crevices.

I mean, it's extraordinary.

And David Attenborough is just like in that very British way of his, he

just says, A near miraculous escape.

Nothing else.

Your heart is in the, in your throat by the end of this.

And yet you're hearing David Attenborough talk about this as

though he's saying, I put a teaspoon of sugar in my tea, and that's it.

And when you think about your brain and you think about the way that

you observe what's happening in your brain, that's the same level of

excitement that you need to bring to it.

Just.

Observational.

You have to look at your brain and you go, okay, I feel like this,

and this is what's happening.

And I see this urge and that is creating a temptation.

And that temptation is creating this thought and this thought

is creating this feeling.

And when I usually have this feeling, this is what I choose to do.

And.

you all of a sudden will have a new picture of the issue

that you're dealing with.

You'll start to see the pieces not just as, uh, a whole wherein you

seem to fail at the end of your.

Every single temptation, but as an opportunity to interrupt that process at

a number of different inflection points.

And what I mean by that is all of a sudden you are seeing the problem, you're

seeing the temptation, the urge, it comes along and you see the urge, right?

And you're watching the urge, and you're observing the urge.

And you can say, okay, I can either fight this urge.

or I can simply observe it and see what happens if I just observe it.

And then as you observe it, you, you know, you can either take mental notes

or I would recommend that you take physical notes and write it down and

say, okay, this is what, this is the urge that came along when I had this urge.

the thought that came to mind first was, I shouldn't have these thoughts,

or I shouldn't have this urge, or I shouldn't have this temptation.

You know, I , you know, I'm married and so I shouldn't be tempted in this way.

Or, I'm a missionary and I shouldn't be tempted to look at pornography,

or I'm, I'm a good priesthood holder, so I shouldn't be tempted.

And the truth is that.

that thought begins to create these feelings of unworthiness or being

trapped or, you know, whatever it is that's creating, uh, your reality.

And then those feelings engender.

actions.

You know, either we fight the urge in in unhealthy ways, right?

We're fighting against that urge.

We're, as they call it in the 12 step programs, you are white knuckling it.

You're saying, I'm not gonna give in right?

Clenching your teeth and you're fighting against it, or you avoid it, right?

You're like, I'm just gonna go distract myself with something else.

When in reality, distracting yourself with something else just makes

it so that that temptation comes around and hits you, blindside.

And you're not prepared in that moment to fight it.

You've essentially said, I'm gonna avoid this until who knows

when, and now it's hitting me at a moment when I'm my weakest.

If you wanna be successful in this, you need to set aside the

shoulds and the shouldn't and just.

Observe it all as though you are watching a gazelle get eaten by a lion.

The lion has feelings about it.

The gazelle has feelings about it, but you, you don't have feelings about

it because you're David Attenborough.

You are a guy who's just narrating a wildlife film.

It's not a big deal, right?

Number four.

Get yourself a piece of paper and a pen and write it down.

Write your observations.

Make them real, because once they're on paper, they're real.

They have been created.

They exist.

They are now something that you are looking at, that you have codified

with this fancy thing we call writing, and you've turned it into, this

is what I'm really dealing with.

, which I think is part of that honesty question, but it's another step that

allows you to say, this is an absolute right and again, do it dispassionately.

I feel X.

When I feel X, I do Y.

When I do Y it takes me to, and you go on.

You just keep going until you've written out exactly what your brain is doing.

And you'll find that you are fascinated.

Just look at it as, as though it's this extraordinary curiosity.

What am I gonna do next?

And what you're doing with that is you're taking everything out of your

automatic feeling system, right?

Your automatic due system, which you could refer to it as habits.

Some of us refer to 'em as your lower brain.

Um, I've heard epigeneticists call it your automatic negative thoughts.

You're taking it out of that space.

The automatic space and you're moving it into the non-automatic space and

the non-automatic space is what I refer to as turn down the radio.

I can't see.

, right?

If you've ever gone somewhere and you're not familiar with

the area and you're like, okay, where is it and what do you do?

You turn down the radio as though turning down the radio is gonna make it so

you can see where you're going better.

But what you're really doing is you're taking your, your brain power and

you're removing it from this automatic space of I'm just driving to, okay,

I gotta figure out where I'm going.

Same thing's happening with your brain and you're taking.

All of that information out of that automatic space, and you're putting

it into a real understandable pathway that you can now say, okay,

should I turn left here instead?

And that way you begin to break this process of buffering with

pornography and breaking the process of using pornography is what you're.

I mean, this is what we're accomplish working to accomplish, right?

We're working to accomplish a self-mastery in a space where we've

created a pattern of behavior.

And in creating that pattern of behavior, you've relegated a lot of your

decision making to your lower brain.

We're just bringing it to the higher brain.

And in the higher brain, you have to make decisions.

You have to decide, am I going to turn left or right?

Am I going to let this feeling that I feel right now?

lead me to actions that are contrary to what my higher brain believes

and wants to believe in that.

Pornography is not something that I want to choose to do.

I don't want to choose to o overeat.

I don't want to choose to use video games incessantly so that you know

I'm still living in my mother's basement when I'm 35, right?

All of those decisions.

If we take them out of, you know, because for, you know, the reality is, is that in

the beginning you decided, hey, I'm gonna buffer with whatever it is, pornography,

video games, eating because it feels good.

And I currently don't want to process the emotion that underlies that.

I don't want to process my loneliness or tiredness or, uh, you know,

Sadness, whatever that is, right?

So you turn to a buffer and the first time it's a conscious decision, and

the second time it's a conscious decision, but eventually it

stops being a conscious decision.

So we take it out of that space where it has ceased to be a conscious decision,

and by observing it dispassionately, we move it into the realm of conscious

decision making, and we start to read.

design the pathway that we want rather than simply using the pathway.

That was the, you know, usually it's the path of least resistance.

Instead of using that pathway, we build the pathway that we want.

We build the highway that we want to travel rather than the highway

that we have been traveling.

Number five, and this is the last one we're gonna talk about today,

but number five is key to really.

overcoming the thing that is holding us back.

And this one is, I think, the hardest for most of us because we're not very

good at being gracious in this arena.

And so number five is seeking to see your failures as opportunities to learn.

And what I, what I mean by that is, You're going to fail in this process.

Every step that I've given you here, you know, the, the steps of observation,

whatever step it is that, that we've talked about, you're gonna fail at that

at some point along the way because you're, you haven't, you haven't

trained your brain to do it well.

Right?

In this process, you will fail.

That's okay.

As long as you take a moment, you write it down again and just.

. See how your failure can be learned from.

Observe your failure.

Observe your feelings about your failure.

Observe what actions you took because of your feelings.

Observe what results happened because of what actions you took.

And now you start to see a whole pattern that you can adjust

ever so slightly at each turn.

, and this one is my favorite because one of the reasons why we use pornography

is to avoid feelings like failure.

Once you begin to see that you.

Begin to start to understand exactly, okay, what's driving

all of this negative behavior?

This, this behavior that's a net negative in my life, like

pornography use or excessive gaming or overeating or whatever it is.

And part of that is not properly feeling your feelings when you choose to say, I'm

gonna, I'm gonna try and feel this feeling rather than, automatically buffer to

pornography or eating or whatever it is.

You're changing the pathway.

You're starting to change the pathway, but you're not gonna be

good at it, , unfortunately, for you, you're gonna be terrible at it.

You're gonna say, all right, I'm gonna feel lonely for a minute, and

you're gonna be like, ah, forget it.

I'm gonna go do the thing that I always do, and that's okay.

That's totally normal in the process.

Take a minute.

Fail at feeling your feelings and then try it again the next time.

I promise it's gonna be an extraordinary beginning to what you really want,

which is a long-term goal of freedom from whatever buffering behavior

you're dealing with, whether it's pornography or overeating, or gaming

or phone addiction, whatever it is.

This is the, this is the beginning of the path.

Failure is, Actually an extraordinarily good thing.

And if you can be good at failure, if you can say, I'm gonna just choose

to be good at failure, you're gonna actually start getting better at whatever

it is that you want to be better at.

And if that is getting away from pornography, you're gonna be great at it.

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