Today’s episode is a full-on riff about self trust and intuition — because this is literally the foundation for everything I do. Obviously. The podcast is called The Intuition Vigilante Podcast. I’m calling myself the Intuition Rebirth Guide. That’s not for shits and giggles. It’s not because the word is trendy. Intuition is everything to me.

I break down what I believe intuition actually is — not just instincts, not just that inner voice that talks to you, but I believe intuition is the voice of God, the divine, Source, Creator, universe… whatever higher power you believe in.

Your inner knowing is how God communicates with you. It’s how He guides you through His plan for you. Your intuition is the force leading you toward your soul mission, your destiny, your soul contract.

From there, I talk about where most women in my world are right now when it comes to intuition. There are three places I see:

1️⃣ The blocked woman

She’s not trusting herself at all. She doesn’t even know how to access her intuition.

She can’t hear it — it feels cut off or blocked.

Most likely because of trauma, grief, or her identity shifting when she became a mom. Motherhood rocked her world and flipped everything on its head.

2️⃣ The woman who hears the whisper but can’t discern it

She hears the nudges, but she’s like:

“Is this my intuition?”

“Is this something I saw online?”

“Is this fear?”

“Is this a trend?”

She can’t tell what’s intuition and what’s subconscious programming, what’s a limiting belief, what’s fear trying to stop her, or what’s her intuition telling her to avoid something.

3️⃣ The woman who knows exactly what her intuition is saying — and ignores it, shoves it down & is afraid to act on it.

She hears it. She knows it’s talking to her. She can discern it.

And she is actively pushing it away because it would require her to do uncomfortable shit: set boundaries, lose friendships, make big changes, disappoint people, deal with fallout, disrupt her whole life.

So she avoids it — and that’s what keeps her unhappy, claustrophobic, and feeling like life is just happening to her.

And honestly, if you’re listening to this, you’re probably in category two or three. Maybe sometimes category one, but most of the time you hear the whisper — you’re just not trusting it or acting on it.

I give a big examples of this in the episode.

I break down the three stages we move through:

hearing the nudge → discerning the nudge → acting on the nudge.

And all three have their own challenges.

This is what I help women with inside my programs (coming soon).

Self trust is not always easy. Following your intuition is not always easy. Discerning it is not always easy. This is what I’m here for.

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I am going to riff on self trust on intuition, because this is the foundation for everything that I do.

Obviously.

This podcast is called the Intuition Vigilante Podcast.

I am calling myself the Intuition Rebirth Guide.

That's not for shits and giggles.

It's not, because the word is trendy.

Like, for me, intuition is everything.

And I'm gonna just start off with, like, my beliefs about what I believe intuition is.

Some people think that it's just that inner voice that talks to you, that guides you, that it's like instincts.

Some people believe maybe that it's, like, selfish or, you know, well, what if your intuition tells you to do something that you know, to go kill someone or to whatever.

I don't believe that that's possible because I believe that intuition is the voice of God, the voice of the divine source, universe, Creator.

Believe that your inner knowing, your inner voice, is God's way of communicating with you and guiding you through his plan for you.

If you believe that God's a he, whatever energetic higher power you believe in, I believe that that inner knowing is the force or the voice that is guiding you towards your destiny to fulfill your, like, soul's mission, to def.

To fulfill your soul contract.

I genuinely believe that.

I believe when we get these nudges, when we get these downloads, when we get these, like, this inner wisdom, that it is not coming from us like it is, but it isn't.

It's coming from a higher source.

It's coming from the divine.

It's coming from God, the universe.

Like, I. I genuinely believe that.

So with that as the foundation, I want to talk about where I know a lot of the women in my world and the women that need this podcast and need my broadcast channel and need my program where they're at.

So there's a couple different things I see or I notice.

They are either not trusting themselves at all.

Like, they don't even know how to access their intuition.

They don't even know when that voice is talking to them.

It feels blocked.

It feels cut off.

Most likely this is because of trauma.

This is because of grief.

This is because of, like, deep subconscious programming.

Or possibly this is because of, like, her identity completely shifting.

When she became a mom, like, motherhood rocked her world, and she used to trust herself, but now she's like, holy shit, my world is flipped on its head and I don't even know which way is up anymore.

So that's number one.

Like, she's either blocked from hearing her intuition at all, or she hears the whisper.

So there's Three paths here.

She doesn't know how to hear it at all.

Number two is she hears the whisper, she hears the nudges, but she struggles to discern what is my intuition.

Is that my intuition talking to me or is that just something that I read?

Is that just something that I heard?

Is that just me trying to get out of something uncomfortable, or is that me just trying to go for something that I think would be cool and I saw?

Or, you know, she.

She's struggling to discern when her intuition is actually talking to her.

What is my inner wisdom?

What is my inner knowing?

Or what is just a tre I'm following What is just something that I think would be cool because I saw it on Instagram, or my friend is doing it, or.

Or she's struggling to discern fear from intuition.

So is fear keeping me from doing the thing?

Is fear keeping me from doing the thing because I'm not actually supposed to do the thing and it's actually my intuition telling me to avoid the thing, or is my intuition telling me to do the thing and fear is trying to stop me and she can't tell the difference?

So I was talking to a friend and I gave this example.

Well, actually.

Okay, let me back up.

Let me give you the third.

The third path that I see when it comes to intuition is the third path is she hears it, she knows that it's talking to her.

She can discern.

She's like, okay, I see you, I hear you.

But she is actively trying to push it away or ignore it because she knows that it is going to require her to do some really uncomfortable shit.

It is going to require her to do things that will cause her to potentially lose friendships, potentially be ostracized, potentially disrupt her life, uproot her life, make big changes that are just not fucking comfortable.

And she wants to avoid that.

She's scared.

She's, you know, maybe a little bit of perfectionism, a little bit of people pleasing.

She knows that if she actually trusts this nudge, she's going to have to set boundaries.

She's going to have to people off, and she doesn't want to do that.

So she's actively ignoring it.

But what's happening is it's keeping her unhappy, it's keeping her claustrophobic in her own fucking life.

It's keeping her feeling like her life is happening to her and out of control and like she isn't actually in the driver's seat of her life.

She's not autonomous, she's not free, she's not in charge of her decisions.

She's letting this feeling, this fear of following her intuition actually dictate, like, what the fuck she does in her life.

And most likely one of either two or three is where you're at.

If you're listening to this podcast, I know that some of you are probably in number one.

You're probably like, I don't even know.

I don't even know when my intuition is talking to me.

Like, I don't even know how to hear her anymore.

And I know that some of you are there again because of trauma, because of grief, because of, like the.

Your old identity being stripped from you when you became a mom and motherhood rocking your world and being way different than what you expected.

But I think most of you have graduated out of that a little bit.

Maybe you were there.

Maybe sometimes you still are there in category one, but a lot of times you are actually in category two or three, where you hear the whisper and you either are struggling to discern.

Is that my intuition or is that my subconscious programming?

Is that my intuition or is that a limiting belief?

Is that my inner knowing, inner wisdom, or is that just a thought that's kind of trashy, that's actually not serving me.

You're struggling to discern or you are actively pushing it away because you are scared.

You have no.

Like, you don't want to feel the feelings that are going to be required to get you from where you are now to where your intuition is telling you to go.

Now, you do want the feelings of the outcome of where your intuition is telling you to go, but you know that you are going to be required to do go through some shit in order to get there.

So I want to give you an example.

This is the one that I was about to say earlier that I was telling to my friend.

And I don't know why this is the example that came up, but it just like, made sense in my brain and it seemed really tangible, like something you'll understand.

So imagine your intuition is telling you that you need to divorce your husband.

And if you're in.

If you're in category one, you probably don't even hear the whisper at all.

You probably just go through the motions.

You deal with the bullshit.

You deal with being unhappy.

You're think, you're thinking things like, well, this is just what life has to be like.

It is what it is.

This is just my life now.

It's fine, I'm fine, I'm grateful, blah, whatever the fuck number two is.

You hear the whisper, you hear that inner nudge.

And again, going back to, if it's your inner knowing, if it's your intuition, it's actually the voice of God nudging you towards your path, nudging you towards your purpose, nudging you towards fulfilling your soul contract.

So you hear this whisper that you need to divorce your husband, that you need to end this, you need to get out of this situation.

Maybe it's not even that fudgeing bad, but you just know that this is not what's meant for you.

This is not aligned.

And you're struggling to discern, like, if that feeling is even real or not, if that inner knowing if that nudge is even real or not.

Was I just around my friends too much and we were just having a bitch fest about our husbands?

And so now I'm feeling this way.

Am I just fudgeing luteal and are on my period?

Like, don't fucking divorce your husband when you're fudgeing ludal luteal or on your period.

I'm not saying this is like a decision you should make lightly.

And I'm not saying trusting your inner knowing is something you should be like, well, my intuition said it and I'm just gonna do it today.

Like, no, not always.

Okay.

I'm just using this as an example because I think I can divide out, like, the differences and help you kind of grasp what I'm talking about here.

Obviously these decisions are very, very nuanced and something that we, like, go really, really deep on inside my programs.

But let's say you're like, struggling to discern, you know, between, like, is fear telling me that I should divorce my hus.

Like, I'm just scared of commitment.

I'm self sabotaging, you know, what is it?

Is it subconscious programming?

Is it.

I saw somebody on TikTok talk about how her husband does X, Y, Z for her, and my husband doesn't do that, so fuck him.

Like what?

You know, like, we have to weed through these thoughts and learn how to discern what is our intuition and what isn't.

And I don't necessarily have that answer for you right now.

It would require, like, working in on a deeper level with you.

But I will say it really, really involves going in and checking in with your body.

And I'll probably do a whole nother episode on that.

But the.

The next, like silo three would be, oh, no, you know, girl, you know that whisper has turned into a scream.

You know, this is what you need to do and you are terrified of this.

Actually being true.

You are terrified to follow the nudge because actually divorcing your husband requ a lot of uncomfortability.

Uncomfortability?

Is that even a word?

Discomfort?

It's going to require mediation about the kids.

It's going to require moving and splitting all the stuff.

It's going to require being single again after however many years.

It's going to require you probably losing friends because you probably have mutual friends.

Oh, and your mother loves your husband, so she's going to be pissed at you.

And you love your mother in law, so now that's going to be awkward.

And you're going to have to deal with all the people at, you know, school pickup or church or your friend group that are going to be like, you're the only one that's divorced and why couldn't you just make it work?

And you're going to have to deal with all the negative comments and why thought, you know, marriage is a commitment for life.

And you're going to have to deal with all the hate and you're going to have to deal with the guilt that you feel for, you know.

Whatever struggle this might create for your children and all of this shit.

But you know, this is what you need to do.

You know, that in order for you to feel fulfilled in your life, that in order for you to be the best version of you, that in order for you to actually fulfill your soul contract, the purpose that is on your heart in your life, you have to get out of this marriage.

Like you cannot continue doing what you're doing, being an inactive participant in your own life, just going through the motions just because you want to avoid these hard feelings.

But your intuition is like, girl, you got to do this thing.

So those are kind of the three buckets.

And I hope that that example kind of makes sense.

And again, I don't know why like divorcing your husband is what came up for me.

Another example, and this is one that is true for me.

Is I'm gonna use the COVID vaccine as an example.

I don't care your stance on the COVID vaccine.

I don't need to know.

If you completely disagree with me on this, then you might just wanna unfollow because I am pretty opinionated.

But like, also I'm like very capable of disagreeing and having cordial conversations and friendships.

And I think these things are healthy and we don't have to agree on everything.

But I know this one's like a hot button topic, but when I started to get the nudge That I was not supposed to get this vaccine, which, by the way, I did not get it.

So just put that out there.

It was scary.

I didn't quite understand it because there was this element of, well, what's your research?

Why aren't you getting it?

I had people asking me this, right?

Like, I had people asking me, like, well, what.

What articles are you reading and what science are you looking at?

And don't you trust the science?

And.

But everything is saying that this is what we need to do and this for the greater good and blah, blah, blah.

And I was just like, I don't know.

I am reading things that are giving me red flags.

I feel like this is rushed.

I feel like conflicts of interest.

Like, I feel like there's a bigger motive here.

I feel like we're living in the motherfucking matrix, which I think we are.

I feel like powers that.

Powers that be have a bigger agenda here.

This doesn't make sense to me.

This isn't adding up to me.

There are red flags that I could point to, but at the same time, it was just this inner knowing, like, this just isn't right.

And I literally went on the CVS website two times, two different times to make this appointment because I was having conversations with people that told me I should get it.

I was having conversations with people that didn't get it or were like, absolutely not.

And I was having conversations with people in the middle that were like, yeah, I'm kind of feeling conflicted too, and I don't really know.

And I was having conversations with all these different people with all these different viewpoints, trying to figure out, like, where the fuck do I stand on this?

And due to pressures and due to, you know, the fear and due to my quote unquote selfishness or whatever, or people that I trusted that were kind of in the middle that were like, you know what?

I'm just gonna go ahead and get it.

And I was like, okay, okay.

And so I went on the website two different times to make this appointment, and I literally could not hit the button.

Like, I would go through all the motions.

I would type in my information and I would go to hit, like, make appointment, like, whatever that button was online to, like, do it.

I just couldn't fucking do it, you guys.

Like, I rem.

My mom sending me all these things that was like, oh, you can do this drive through thing.

They're opening up this thing.

You can go get it.

And this was kind of before she truly knew my stance on it.

She was sending me These things, you know, just trying to keep me informed and whatever.

And I was still on the fence and I was just.

Because at the time, like, I had just had babies and I was breastfeeding, so there was that element as well.

And once I started leaning towards the camp of like, yeah, I don't think this was for me, I was kind of leaning on that as like a crutch of like, oh, well, I'm breastfeeding and I'm still undecided.

When really I was decided.

I just maybe didn't even know I was decided.

My intuition fucking knew.

Anyways, I couldn't make the appointment, you guys.

Like, I. I would go on there to click the button and I just couldn't do it.

And I was like, ooh, this feeling is familiar.

And it feels like how I felt when I took my oldest son to get the MMR vaccine when he was three years old, which was way delayed.

We were delaying vaccines.

We were doing a delayed schedule.

And when I took him to go get that vaccine, I got a pit in my stomach that is your body telling you something is off.

I got a knot in my stomach.

He still got it, but that was the last vaccine he ever got.

And thankfully I don't feel like he was vaccine injured.

But I still regret that day in the sense that.

And this is what I'm talking about when I'm talking about, like, the only time I have regrets are when I actually don't follow my intuition.

And maybe I didn't say that in this, this podcast episode.

Maybe I was talking about that in a different conversation, actually.

But I don't regret things when I trust myself, even if the outcome is considered not ideal.

And that'll be a topic for another day.

But in this situation, I look back and I'm like, yeah, I wish that I just would have listened to myself and said, yeah, never mind.

Like, I have this pit in my stomach.

I don't know what it is about, like, we'll come back later.

But I didn't.

And he got it and he was okay.

But I believe that that could have been in.

Be delayed.

And maybe he does have certain things that he like, are quote unquote, vaccine injuries that people don't, you know, consider vaccine injuries like our, our medical system sure doesn't.

That he does deal with that maybe are.

I don't know.

And I will never know.

I mean, I suppose I could do a detox on him.

It's been four years at this point, almost five.

But my point is I recognize that feeling And I was like, nope, I'm not doing that again.

Because this was, was this around the same time?

I'm trying to think back now.

All I know is I, I now know when my body is telling me no.

And that is what it felt like.

And just like with the whole divorce situation, like when you are able to follow the nudge, like, because there's, there's hearing the nudge, then there's discerning the nudge, then there's acting on the nudge or hearing the voice, hearing the inner knowing.

Then there's that trusting it, discerning it and trusting it, and then there's the acting on it.

And all three stages have their own challenges.

And in my program, I help you with each stage and there might be certain topics where you're in one stage or the other.

Like maybe you actually do really trust yourself around certain things, like maybe around your career or the things that you feed your kids or whatever.

But then in other things you don't trust yourself.

You don't follow the nudges.

And I think that this is common where we kind of master one area of our life and feel stuck in other areas.

But the goal, my goal is that women that come into my world leave my world feeling radically autonomous about their life.

And radical autonomy requires self accountability.

It doesn't.

It requires radical self trust.

And that is not easy because of a lot of the things that I just mentioned in this episode.

Because a lot of times radical self accountability and radical self trust involve levels of discomfort along the way.

In order to get the outcome that we say we want, which is true autonomy, true freedom, true peace.

We have to be willing to deal with the discomfort that's required.

And I have another episode that talks about like what the intuition vigilante actually means.

But this ties into if you want to truly be autonomous and free in your life, you have to be willing to break the rules, you have to be willing to buck the systems.

Because the rules were created by human beings that don't necessarily understand your.

The plan, God's plan for you, that don't understand your divine mission, your soul's mission, your soul contract that you signed.

These man made rules, schools don't know that these systems, these narratives, this matrix that we live in, it doesn't have your best interests at heart, it doesn't have greater peace at heart.

It wants you compliant, it wants to control you.

You can't allow a system to control you while also having true autonomy.

Those things are mutually exclusive.

I believe they are.

And some might argue.

Well what if your autonomy and your intuition tells you to just like follow every single rule and blah blah.

Okay, well then you're probably not my people and you're probably not listening to this podcast or like ever gonna buy from me.

Okay, go away.

So self trust is not always easy.

Following your intuition is not always easy.

Listening to your intuition and discerning what your intuition is actually trying to tell you is not always easy.

That is what I'm here for.

Follow me on Instagram, send me a dm, join my program.

Like become the intuition vigilante of your own life.

Become the version of you, be reborn into the version of you that trusts herself more than anyone in any room always and who will do whatever it takes to follow those inner nudges because she knows that those inner nudges are coming from the divine.

Okay, I love you.

I will see you on the next episode.

Can't wait.