This episode dives into the chaotic yet fascinating world of AI and podcasting through my personal lens. I’ve recently found myself caught up in the whirlwind of software development with AI, grappling with its inconsistencies and the impact it's having on my life. I share some of my frustrations—like how my ambitious projects have imploded after months of work, leaving me questioning everything from my coding skills to the reliability of AI itself. But amidst the chaos, I also touch on the joy I find in podcasting and how I’m determined to rekindle that passion. Join me as I unpack these experiences, reflect on the challenges of navigating technology today, and explore the delicate balance between the digital and the analog in our lives. The episode opens with the speaker’s humorous acknowledgment of his chaotic podcasting schedule, revealing his intention to record three episodes in one day. This light-hearted introduction sets the tone for a candid exploration of his podcasting experiences, where he juggles multiple projects and reflects on the joys and challenges that come with them. With a mixture of self-reflection and humor, he navigates through the ups and downs of podcasting, revealing his desire to reconnect with his audience and share more personal insights. The speaker’s relaxed demeanor makes the discussion feel like a conversation between friends, where he openly discusses the motivations behind his various podcasts, including a new venture focused on AI agents. As the conversation deepens, the speaker shares his frustrations with AI technology and the complexities of software development. He candidly recounts his experiences over the past few months, where excitement turned into disappointment as his project faced unexpected obstacles. This narrative is infused with humor as he reflects on the often unreliable nature of AI, leading to a broader discussion about trust in technology and the emotional toll of creative endeavors. His journey through the intricacies of coding and design illustrates the struggle between ambition and reality, resonating with anyone who has faced similar hurdles in their creative pursuits. Towards the end, the speaker shifts gears to discuss the beauty of disconnecting from technology and embracing simpler joys in life. He draws a vivid parallel between his experiences with his new car and the freedom it brings, contrasting it with the chaos of public transport in a bustling city. This metaphor for personal freedom and the importance of enjoying life’s little moments encapsulates the episode’s core message. The speaker encourages listeners to reflect on their own experiences with technology, creativity, and the pursuit of happiness, making this episode a rich tapestry of humor, introspection, and relatable musings about the modern world.

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Takeaways:

• In this episode, I share my struggles with balancing podcasting and software development, emphasizing how challenging it can be to keep priorities straight amidst distractions.
• I talk about my journey into AI coding, highlighting my excitement and subsequent frustrations as my project faced unexpected difficulties and setbacks.
• There's a deep reflection on the current AI landscape, where I express my mixed feelings about its promise and reliability in our daily lives and job prospects.
• I discuss the importance of owning a car for personal freedom and the ease it brings to life, contrasting it with the frustrations of public transport in a crowded city.
• I reflect on the nostalgic feelings evoked by technology and how we often recreate old realities in new forms, like emulating nature with screensavers.
• The episode concludes with my commitment to podcasting regularly again, as it brings me joy and a sense of connection with my audience.

Companies mentioned in this episode:

• Unreal Engine
• Fitbit

Hello everybody.

I'm talking to you.

At the time where I really am supposed to be far away from anything like it, I set myself a goal to record three podcasts today.

I have actually two podcasts running at the moment.

They're a little bit forgotten.

So there's this one.

Gosh.

Actually I didn't know for which podcast I'm recording for right now.

So there is this one you're listening to, I believe it's called simoc X Radio.

And it's my podcast about whatever I want to talk about.

And it is kind of place where I can brag and complain and just run.

And that's what I'm going to do tonight.

And then there is my more positive podcast where I talk about how much I like to work with Unreal engine.

It's a 3D game engine software, very powerful, not just for games, but for cinematics.

I'm deep into it and I love to look at what's possible with it.

So that's where I rant about it.

And now I'm starting a new podcast about AI agents.

It's maybe most commercial oriented podcast.

I want to.

I want to work with agents, I want to make them for others.

Now this is not place where I want to plug that project.

I want to talk to you purely from that first podcast perspective.

I want to talk to you about what was keeping me away from for so long.

As it happens, it's usually all about priorities, right?

It's just so hard not to be busy, so hard not to be bored or to be bored.

You see, that's it.

It's so hard to imagine.

So hard to be bored.

Those days we are either very tired because something intense that happened before or we're depressed and we just generally have no energy or we have always something to do.

Now for me, this last option is exactly what was my game lately.

I want to talk to you about last couple of months.

Yeah, it's months at this point of software development with AI, maybe I won't do the whole podcast about this, but I guess I want to share with you my perspective on AI.

I think it's kind of all what people are talking about those days.

At least people I follow.

I don't talk about AI with people.

I feel like it's a very cringe topic and somehow online it's such a dominant topic again for me.

I don't know what your Internet is like those days, what your algorithm is feeding you.

My YouTube is filled with those daily updates about how AI is great and horrible and what does it do to our planet and to our economy and job prospects?

I'm still unemployed, by the way, and I honestly wonder what's going to happen to my employment in the future.

With AI, it's really hard to understand demand.

And on one day I feel like, yeah, it's all over because of AI.

On another day, I feel like someone needs to come in and clean this mess and we need to use AI for not very serious things at all.

We cannot trust it.

Another day, I feel like, yeah, it's doing job for us now.

Lately I'm more pessimistic.

I'm thinking AI is just not reliable at all.

And we need to kind of move it out of picture for a while until it comes back again.

Because AI was in this circulation for attention for a while.

It's not really first time.

It's amazing to people.

And I feel like it happened a few times and every time with this wave, it would just disappoint.

So I don't think this gives us confidence to be more positive.

Okay, my personal story.

Lately I'm really getting angry and disappointed because AI software development is just something that came to my opportunity field.

I started to be equipped with coding tools and I started to execute on those ideas that I always had on the back of my head.

And I always thought, well, I won't be able to do this because I'm not a coder.

I'm a product designer.

I'm a UX designer.

I'm a designer.

So I've been building this project, this product, and I've been really positive and optimistic that code is fine, everything is working.

I know what I'm doing.

And lately, after three months of development, things started to implode.

The product grew to the point where it's just really hard to maintain and fix.

It's just so interesting because I've been warned about this and I really thought I'm immune from things like that.

Yet, yeah, my project kind of collapsed.

I'm starting over with all the knowledge and experience and documentation I gathered around it.

But I'm a lot more disappointed now because what I realized is that AI is just always lying.

It's always wrong.

It's just deep underneath there is always a lie.

And we are not perfect.

We are forgetting, we are trusting.

We are trusting too much.

And the whole thing has to collapse because there is a lie in the foundation.

So I'm looking at the progress, I'm looking at how much energy and time I committed.

Not too much.

Three months.

It's Something I would be prepared to commit.

And now I'm kind of thinking, was it time wasted?

Will my project actually happen?

I'm now realizing that I need to look and prioritize other tasks, other things that I do and I want to do.

And I realized podcasting is one of those things.

I want to go back to podcasting regularly and I want to do it because I like it.

And I don't know if I like AI coding.

I don't know if I even enjoy anything digital at this point.

I feel like technology stopped being interesting long time ago.

Like, I don't know, a decade ago.

It just became commercialized way too much.

I mean, I guess it always was commercialized.

Maybe not, I don't know, maybe I need to think about it.

I just feel like there's always incentive for technology to grow and incentive comes from what competition?

So, yeah, I don't know.

I need to think about it.

Maybe you do too, and get back to me when you think about it.

But yeah, I'm right now sitting in front of a dark screen.

I've switched the computer off.

I'm recording on my secondary computer further in the distance.

I'm looking at a blank screen and I just feel so peaceful, so comfortable right now.

And I would like to imagine like life like this where computer is not in the equation.

I saw this footage, it's apparently the oldest footage from Poland, where I'm originally from.

And it's colored, it's like, you know, remastered, rejuvenated, looks kind of contemporary.

You know, it's all AI boosted type of thing.

And yeah, you see this live people that kind of look like us.

I mean, they may have modern faces because of AI, but you know, they look like us, but they just, they just are.

You know, they have beautiful clothes, beautiful outfits, and they do regular things, they celebrate, they have rituals, they socialize and they do useful things.

You know, they do better.

They, they are farmers, they, they're shepherds, they do fabric ornaments.

You know, this is just so far removed from modern reality.

You know, a computer that I'm recording on is, seems to be going to sleep.

I think it's just a screen going dark now.

I'm sitting in front of all computers, semi off, not working.

Behind me, I've got aquarium.

It's my little, I think, 40 liter aquarium with shrimp.

It's a beautiful ecosystem with.

It's an ecosystem that I don't need to maintain because it's created this biome situation where water is just being cleaned by plants and there's a lot of snails and shrimp.

They're all just working hard and keeping the whole thing clean.

And it's just a little bit like this scene, this analog scene of reality.

You know, the aquarium looks like a screen.

In fact, there used to be screensavers back in the day where you would have fish swimming in your computer display.

Yeah, it's funny how we can always do that circle, right?

We create something new, then we use that new thing to emulate old reality.

And we do it with devices, with features, with naming things.

Right.

With language.

We refer to email like as if these were letters.

We still write them like letters with Heather and your sincerely, kind regards signature.

I think it's just testament that we always kind of hold on to something that's our baseline.

It is a rant.

But I have so many things to talk to you about.

I'm just jumping through those topics because I really don't know who am I talking to at this point.

I'm really glad to see that downloads are kind of crazy, plateauing, but they are steady.

And even though I'm not publishing regularly, people do download still.

I always encourage people to write to me.

I kind of refuse to be on social media.

I know.

I think I created Instagram.

I don't use it.

I can't be bothered.

But you can email me and email is always in the podcast description.

So I would appreciate if you would.

This is a little bit different than most podcasts.

At least, you know, if you write to me, I will respond and I will have conversation with you.

I will have exchange.

Maybe if you want, you can be on a podcast with me.

So I encourage you to write to me.

You know, it can be very personal experience and you can share something, which I have to say.

You can be anonymous or you can be you.

You can plug something if you want and if I like it.

But anyway, last thing I want to talk about in this episode, maybe this will interest you.

And this might be the longest topic because I have a lot to say about this.

In fact, I have a lot of things to talk about this for very long time, for over a decade.

I'm talking about car ownership.

I had a couple of cars in my life and I just got a new one.

It's an old one, but it's a new one for me.

And it's probably.

It's not the worst car I ever had.

It might be one of the cheapest ones.

But hey, I'm not working.

And I like kind of idea of humble life, but I can feel the Comfort.

It's a really low comfort car, seems to be perfect for the city, but I do want to travel with it.

So go figure.

I need to accept some compromises.

Yeah, I got it.

Because, yeah, I want to travel, but also I had enough with public transport and being constantly in the crowd and in this situation of discomfort where, you know, there are strangers around me all the time, I wouldn't mind it, but amount of people in Berlin right now is just.

It's increasing all the time and infrastructure is not really growing with the same pace.

So I'm experiencing this greatly.

It's noise, it's traffic.

And now I'm in my little enclosure and I'm safe.

I'm feeling good.

I appreciate every kilometer I do in that little thing.

It costs.

It costs money, but it's essential.

It's an essential thing that I said to myself, I don't want there to be ever time in my life when I don't have a car.

I want to have some car always, forever.

Because the liberty I, you know, you forget that this is even within reach.

And then you take it for granted when you have a car that you can in fact drive anywhere into most places.

And what I love about having a car now is that I get to keep energy for useful things.

You know, I don't waste energy on commuting.

I don't waste time.

I walk less.

You know, I used to do like 10, 12,000 steps.

On days when I would want to avoid tram and the train, I would walk.

Now I do.

I wonder how many steps do I do right now?

It's a good question.

I do much less, I can tell you that.

What app am I using for sport tracking?

Fitbit.

Is it tracking, oh, 7,000?

Well, it's possible.

I was with my daughter today a lot and we did some walking steps.

Three.

Okay.

Well, yeah, I'm keeping steady.

Around five to 7,000 taps.

Not too bad, I think.

But yeah, I'm noticing how easy it is to lose perspective, you know, when you have a car, how easy it is to take things for granted.

That you can carry essentials with you wherever you go, that you can go to any store, any place just for fun.

On the second day, I took a car and we with my daughter went to a forest.

And that was impossible.

It was impossible to go in the middle of the day to the forest.

I wanted to plan in advance.

It would take over an hour to get there.

If I would have a whim to go to place like that in the middle of the day, it would Be a very short stay, I'll tell you that.

Now I can just go drive half an hour, spend an hour and go back and continue with my day and be charged with this innocence of nature, this beauty.

My gosh, the forest was incredible.

It's so beautiful.

So I love this freedom.

I love it.

In the next couple of weeks I'm planning some traveling with a car.

In fact, I'll be driving to Poland with my partner and we'll be doing a whole lot of scouting.

We'll be looking at places near German border.

I want to be still close, connected to Germany.

I want to be able to travel.

But I am getting more and more excited about Poland.

You know, like I said, I'm from there originally and I kind of feel like I want to connect, I want to live in environment that makes sense because Germany has less and less sense for me lately.

And yeah, I think I will get a lot of inspiration and sense of freedom.

I'll try to record from the road.

I'll try to record maybe with my girlfriend.

This podcast is kind of.

It's a bit of my secret.

I don't like people from my regular life to listen.

I want to keep this world separated from podcasting world from real world.

It has always been like that.

But I always knew that I will end that rule when it will need to be changed.

Maybe I'm getting into too personal space here, but my girlfriend is in a different country right now.

So I'm just podcasting and it can be my thing, my private thing.

Yeah, I've shared too much cash.

I didn't want to.

Maybe it's nothing, maybe it's irrelevant, irrelevant information.

But last thing I want to share with you about podcasting and lack thereof.

In recent weeks it has been very difficult to record because I wanted to record video also and I knew this all along, but I had to experience this again.

Recording video is just so much more exhausting.

As a content creator in this case, I'm a lot more self conscious.

I need to be aware of what's in the background.

I need to be aware how I look like, what the light is like.

And this complicates things quite a lot.

This situation that I'm in right now, everything is switched off.

I can completely forget about physical part of me, my existence and can just be a voice.

This is incredible.

It's just so precious.

I like the idea of having this video feed as well and I would like to, you know, it's kind of like a challenge, something I want to aspire to but recording audio is just so beautiful and magical.

For all those years of recording, I still find myself performing and doing an actual.

I don't know why can I not just press record on a video or audio record and just talk as I would as a real person, as a normal person in real world?

And this is actually, once again why I don't like to mix those two worlds.

I'm a different person when I record.

I'm performing, and when I'm in real life, I want to be.

I try to be very authentic.

So, yeah, wow.

My.

I already shared a lot on this episode and I'm using all those expressions like, oh, my, I don't know.

I don't know.

I feel a little bit out of character maybe making this recording, but I really felt I have to.

And it is a bit of a brain dump and maybe a teaser about what's coming and about what I've been doing.

And I hope that upcoming recordings, you know, it'd be just a lot easier to record.

So, yeah, I wanted to share this.

As always, I want to invite you to get in touch and comment using email and introduce yourself and I will try to record more.

And yeah, I would also like to invite you to my other podcast.

And yeah, let's, let's, let's get things organized.

Motivated, steady, regular.

I want to record regularly.

I want to record.

I like podcasting.

I love it.

I love it.

Thank you for listening, friends.

I'll talk to you soon.