Guest: Priscilla Quezada, Founder of Powerful Authentic Queen (PAC)

Content Warning: This episode discusses domestic violence, sexual abuse, and trauma. Listen at your own pace.

In this episode, Priscilla and Robrenna discuss:

1. Recognizing generational trauma patterns in families and relationships
2. Understanding that domestic violence includes emotional, financial, verbal, and sexual abuse—not just physical
3. Breaking cycles through self-awareness and healing work
4. The body's role in storing trauma
5. Resources and practices for healing

Takeaway: Love should not hurt. Healing takes time and consistency. Be compassionate with yourself; it does get better.

Support Resources:

My Grandmother's Hands Racialized Trauma and the Pathway to Mending Our Hearts and Bodies by Resmaa Menakem MSW Licsw

Break the Cycle, A Guide to Healing Intergenerational Trauma by Dr. Mariel Buqué

What Happened to You? Conversations on Trauma, Resilience, and Healing

Oprah Winfrey and Bruce D. Perry

The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.

TheHotline.org 800.799.SAFE (7233) (Domestic Violence Hotline)

RAINN.org Call 800.656.HOPE (4673)

Love is Respect (Teen Dating Violence) 1.866.331.9474 Text LOVEIS to 22522

Connect with Priscilla:

PowerfulAuthenticQueen.com

Powerful Authentic Queen Facebook: Facebook

PowerfulAuthentic Queen Instagram:Instagram

PowerfulAuthentic Queen YouTube

PowerfulAuthentic Queen Spotify Playlist

Connect with Robrenna:

Connect with Robrenna:

hello@reclaimingherresilience.com

Facebook: Reclaiming HER Resilience

Instagram: Reclaiming_HER_Resilience

Reclaiming HER Resilience is executive produced and edited by Robrenna Parker.

This podcast is published by RHR Media Co. Where voice is honored, and the story unfolds.

RHR Media Co. is the publishing and media arm of Reclaiming HER Resilience, LLC, creating story-centered media that honors voice, restores agency, and invites women back into authorship of their own lives.

For those of you hanging with me

on my pivot, I wanna say thank you.

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I'm trudging through,

but I'm making it happen.

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Thank you for your patience

and for your support.

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Before we begin, a gentle note.

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This episode includes discussions on

domestic and sexual abuse, which may be

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activating or tender for some listeners.

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Please listen at your own pace.

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You are always welcome to pause,

step away and come back when your

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a substitute for professional care.

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If at any point you need immediate

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person or a local support resource, and

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Welcome back, reclaiming Women.

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I am your story coach and host Parker.

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February is Teen Dating Awareness,

teen Dating Violence Awareness Month.

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This episode was recorded in October, and

these conversations, as we know, don't

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expire, so we are naming the importance.

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Of disrupting early, abuse

and harmful patterns, and it

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is a necessary conversation.

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My guest, Priscilla Ada of powerful,

authentic queen, and yes she is.

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Well, today we're talking about

breaking generational cycles of abuse,

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including domestic and sexual abuse.

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And, uh, these are patterns that

often move quietly through families.

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And communities shaping how we relate,

survive, and make meaning of our stories.

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We discuss recognizing how abuse lives

in our bodies and our stories, and

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we're telling the truth about how our

bodies adapt to survive abuse due to

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the failure of people and systems.

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Priscilla is breaking the silence

around generational harm and imagining

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what healing and interruption.

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It can look like for ourselves,

and for those who come after us.

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Take what resonates.

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Leave the rest.

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Let's dive in.

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Robrenna: Thank you so much for

joining us today, Priscilla.

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We really appreciate you taking the

time to sit down with us and tell

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us a little bit about your story.

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Priscilla: Thank you.

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Thank you for having me.

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Robrenna: why don't you tell

us a little bit about yourself.

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Priscilla: Yeah, my name is Priscilla,

Priscilla, ADA, and I am founder of, I

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like to abbreviate things, so I always

say pac, but it stands for Powerful

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Authentic Queen, and it's a brand

empowering woman that have been sexually

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abused and gone to domestic violence

to reclaim their power after trauma.

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Mm-hmm.

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Um, and oftentimes, like the

number one question I get is why,

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you know, that specific niche.

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Um, and unfortunately due to

personal experience, Which I'm

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sure we'll probably get into

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Robrenna: Yep.

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Our

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Priscilla: conversation.

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But that's just a, um, a little bit about

me and as we, you know, get further into

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the conversation, I can elaborate more on

why I started powerful, authentic queen.

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Robrenna: Yep.

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That sounds great.

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Now I, um, yeah, I appreciate

you sitting down and talk to me.

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'cause one of the things that we do,

so I'm, I'm just gonna let my listeners

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know if they, if I hadn't mentioned it

before, that I like to do preliminary.

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Conversations with my guests.

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Um, I do it to make sure that we

are in alignment, um, and that we

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are both a good fit for each other.

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And when I, when we first sat down

and had our conversation, I was just

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really impacted by your generational

story and how your generational story.

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Um, also led you into your very personal

story and what you have been through.

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So I kind of wanted to start

with that, with, uh, what I

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like to call the origin story.

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So can you share a little bit about

your early experiences and your growing

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up and how your family shaped the

way you understood the relationships?

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Priscilla: Yeah, absolutely.

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Um.

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And it's, it's interesting.

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I, I believe in alignment a lot, right?

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And I, um, because October is

domestic violence awareness month,

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I was invited to do a talk, um,

like on stage here in Nashville.

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I'm located in Nashville, Tennessee.

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Um, and I shared that, and I'm like, one

of my very first memories as a child is

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seeing my mom in danger, seeing my mom in.

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A domestic, you know, like

violence, uh, relationship.

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But it wasn't romantic.

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It was with a family member.

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Robrenna: Mm.

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Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: And I was three years old

and I remember when I shared this

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with my mom, she's like, oh my God, I

can't believe that you remember that.

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'cause you were so little.

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Mm-hmm.

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Um, in the Dominican Republic.

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Mm-hmm.

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And yeah, that's, so that's like

one of my very first like traumatic

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memories of seeing my mom, you

know, being in danger and me just

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feeling like frantic and scared.

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'cause I sensed that my mom was in

danger, although I was so little.

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Mm-hmm.

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So like very first memory that

I have at such a young age.

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And then I was sexually abused, um, around

the age of like five, six years old.

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Um, so that was another moment

in my life where very young,

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another traumatic experience.

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Um, and then that caused for my three

brothers and myself to be placed in the,

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uh, New York City care foster system.

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Hmm.

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Um, and I always say, luckily for

us, we didn't last long because

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we had family members that stepped

in to become legal guardians.

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Um, so, but still that

I, I still remember it.

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I don't know if my two younger

brothers remember it as much.

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Um, but I remember going from like a

family's house to a family's house.

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And then after that, you know, um, my

grandmother became my legal guardian.

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But growing up I saw, um.

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Just very toxic, abusive

relationships on both sides.

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So on my mom's side, anytime that I

was visiting my mom, um, and then I was

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raised by my grandmother and my father.

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So I saw abusive, like toxic

relationships on that end as well.

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So I felt like any place that I

was in it is just, I, I saw that.

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So I saw that growing up and you know,

once you start seeing those things like

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that growing up, when you, when I started

dating, when I was of age, I started

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repeating those same patterns, right?

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Because that's.

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I kind of all I knew and it was for

me, it was like, oh, that's kind of

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the way somebody shows you that they

love you by being like controlling.

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'cause if you're just not like being

controlling and wanting to know like

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what I'm doing and you know who I'm with

and all this other stuff, then like, you

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don't love me, you don't care about me.

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Um, so I, it was, yeah.

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Robrenna: So you saw jealousy.

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Someone jealousy, po.

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Jealous, possessive controlling

was actually meant that

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that person cared about you.

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Yes.

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And if they weren't that way,

they didn't care about you.

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Priscilla: Yes.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: Wow.

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Yeah.

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It was like, do you not care about me?

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Like, do you not?

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You know, and it was, and obviously now

after doing the intensive work that I've

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been doing and I'm like, whoa, what are,

that was like one of my red flags, right?

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Like thinking that that was love.

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But again, that's what I grew up.

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Um.

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And I'm not trying to say that like,

you know, maybe my mom and, and my

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grandmother and other women in my life

didn't tell me, Hey, that's not love.

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But it's hard to like believe

it when somebody's telling you

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one thing, but their actions

are showing you something else.

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Right.

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Because it's like, mm-hmm they're

telling me this, but yet you're in a

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relationship that is abusive and toxic.

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Mm-hmm.

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Like

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Robrenna: mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: Made them make sense.

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'cause it's not making sense.

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Robrenna: Right.

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They were actually modeling what you

thought relationships should look like.

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And then also your very first memory

you said you, you remember about

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your mother was her in danger.

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That right there was already, uh,

an imprint on your nervous system.

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On your cognitive belief systems.

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You are already thinking your

first memory's already danger.

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Priscilla: Mm-hmm.

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Robrenna: And harm and hurt.

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Uh, and so that trauma, you

just carried it with you.

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Um, one of the things you said too,

'cause you were talking about how the

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impact of generational trauma, how it

influenced, um, your later relationships,

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but one of the things that we really

talked about too is you had mentioned

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that not just romantic relationships,

but within your family there was

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a lot of violence with each other.

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So tell me about a little bit

about that and then how you came

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to the point where you were like.

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Um, I, I, I want something different

like this does, this isn't right.

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So first tell me a little bit about what

was going on in the family, the, the

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violence and the generational trauma

and how, how far back, if you know,

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how far back do you think that went?

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Priscilla: Well, the generational trauma,

I mean, the more I do my work and I'm

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able to have, you know, maybe those like

tough conversations with my mother, um.

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I also read a, um, a book that I'm like

drawing a blank on, on the name of it

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I can share with you after the podcast.

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And maybe you can include it like

in the captions or something.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: Um, it talks about

how generational trauma even

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starts before like you're born.

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And for women it's embedded in

like our, you know, the eggs.

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So my mom experienced trauma in her

adolescent years and you know, when she

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was in relationships, she also experienced

trauma while she was pregnant with me.

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Mm-hmm.

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And I know.

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She mentioned that, um, she was, you

know, like hit and, and, and kind of

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abused when she was pregnant with me.

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So it's like I was already

experiencing all that trauma

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before I was even, you know, born.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: So, yeah, I come from a lot

of that generational trauma and I've

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been trying, like, my heart is to, to

heal, to be the, the generational healer.

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Um mm-hmm.

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And it's a lot

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Robrenna: of cycle breaker.

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Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: Yes.

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Robrenna: Do you wanna be the cycle

breaker of the generational, I'm sorry?

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You wanna be the cycle breaker

of the generational trauma?

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Priscilla: Yes.

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I, I'm trying so hard.

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Um, and it's a lot of work.

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It's a lot of unlearning to, to

relearn, um, and know what healthy,

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uh, love looks like in relationships

and even in family relationships.

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Um, but to answer your question,

I just saw a lot of, I come from a

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family that they don't know how to

use their words, and it's just like

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when they don't know how to use their

words, they, they express themselves by

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like, oh, you're not understanding me.

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I'm going to physically

like make you understand.

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Robrenna: Mm.

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Mm-hmm.

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Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: Yeah.

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And then like I said, it took me

a really long time to understand

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like, okay, that's not okay.

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Like I don't care that you're losing

your cool, like you need to have

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the self-awareness to be like, okay,

I'm about to lose my cool, where

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I'm going to like physically, like

maybe like, you know, harm you.

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Mm-hmm.

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Let me take a break.

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Let me walk away and then we

can have this conversation when

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I'm like more like levelheaded.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: But if I'm being completely

honest with you, uh, it's still tough

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because some of them are just like,

no, this is the way I am and I'm just

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going to, you know, react the way I

react and you have to deal with it.

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I'm like, no, I don't.

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Robrenna: Yeah, I know that, um, you

and I, we have a similar story about,

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uh, like my mother also had a lot of

trauma in her life, um, through her

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whole growing up, and she also was

harmed while she was pregnant with me.

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So I, you and I share that, like

the, it was already, the trauma was

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already there and like you said.

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Uh, it's epigenetics.

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Were at least seven generations.

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It can be passed down and like you

said, it's within the woman's eggs.

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I would it, which is crazy, but

I know one of the books that I

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read was my grandmother's hands.

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Um, uh, Rema Menkin, I think

is how you say his name.

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But he basically kind of talks about

that too, uh, how generational trauma

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is passed down, passed down, passed

down, and it's already, uh, within us.

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but what was a moment where you

said, 'cause you said that you are

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now trying to break that cycle.

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Okay.

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First I wanna go back to when you were

in some of those romantic relationships.

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you said that you had a

series of relationships that

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were basically the same.

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You, they, they were basically abusive.

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So like same guy,

different face basically.

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Um, so what kind of made you realize.

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Okay, I don't want this anymore.

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Or even realize, hey, these

relationships are the same, and

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how do I get outta this pattern?

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Priscilla: Um, to answer how

that, I don't want this anymore.

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I've never wanted it.

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I remember being a little girl and even

in those moments, I'd be scared, right?

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And, um, I would tell myself, I'd be

like, in my room or maybe like, if I

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wasn't in my home and it was in another

place, I'd be like in a corner or scared.

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And I'm like, this is never gonna be me.

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This is never gonna be me.

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Mm.

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I'm never gonna be in a

relationship with Amanda.

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That doesn't value me.

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And.

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And like, care about me.

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Mm.

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Um, and then when I'm in these

relationships, it was kind of like

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Priscilla, like you, you told little

Priscilla that this will never

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be you, and then here you are.

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Robrenna: Mm.

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Same.

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Yes.

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Priscilla: Yeah.

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It was, it was tough.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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And I misspoke.

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I didn't, when I said, uh, that you

decided I don't want this anymore.

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I misspoke.

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I don't think any woman.

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Wants to be in an abusive relationship.

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And I, but I do think that we get

to a point in a relationship where

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we're like, I can't do this anymore.

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I can't be in this relationship.

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And so it's kind of interesting that

you're like, I like that you said

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I never wanted it, that I remember

when I was little and I was afraid

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and now I'm an adult and I'm feeling

the same way I did when I was little.

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And um, I spoke about that

before, that recognition piece.

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Within your body that says,

Hey, wait, this is familiar.

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This doesn't feel safe.

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It feels like I did at x, Y, Z

point, and I shouldn't be here.

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And I really appreciate that.

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You've said you told yourself when you

were little, I'm not ever gonna do this.

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Um, same with me and I, there's so many

aspects of my mother's story that I

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have relived, um, that I didn't realize

until when I was outta my marriage.

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And I was like, oh my goodness.

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Like she went through these

exact same things, including

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when she left the homelessness.

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I went through the same thing.

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And so it is interesting

how it's not an intent.

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We don't intend to get into those

situations, but they have been.

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Uh, modeled or we see it happening

and it is familiar and unfortunately,

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a lot of times we go to what's

familiar, even if it's painful.

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Yeah.

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And we don't want to be there.

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Um, so I really appreciate you, uh,

correcting that and saying that.

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So what was the moment for you,

um, where you said, uh, these

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relationships are painful and abusive.

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And violent, my family.

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Um, some of my family members are

abusive and violent and I just

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think there's something different.

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There's a different way to be.

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What, what was the point

that got you to that?

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I.

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Priscilla: Um, my family I've struggled

with, uh, because I've been raised,

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you know, like family is everything.

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Uh, blood is, uh, thicker than water.

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So that one has taken me a little longer

to be like, okay, I, I love you, but I

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gotta love you from afar because I want

different and we just aren't in alignment.

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What do you think it's right

and acceptable in your life?

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I don't.

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So again, I have to love you from

afar, but relationship wise, it was.

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Until, I wanna say like my

third abusive relationship.

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And I also wanna say that domestic

violence is not just physical.

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Like domestic violence can be

emotional, mental, spiritual,

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financially, um, verbally, you know?

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'cause sometimes we

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Robrenna: sexually

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Priscilla: Sexually as well.

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Thank you.

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Um, because I, and also by me sharing

my story, I talk to women sometimes.

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They're like, oh, I didn't realize

that I was in a, in a domestic violence

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relationship 'cause he never hit me.

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But it's just like everything else.

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Like he controlled my finances,

he didn't let me work.

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Um, I, he took the car away

from me, like just that control.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: So I always like to say

that because sometimes people are like,

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oh no, I, you know, I didn't get hit.

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And I'm like, that's not the

only way domestic violence shows.

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Um, but for me, in my relationships

was it wasn't until like the third one.

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And I was just like, okay, this again,

I felt like I was on a hamster wheel and

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repeating these patterns and I'm like,

like I had to check myself at that point.

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And I'm like, what is it about me?

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: That I like me maybe

being attracted to these men, right?

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Like, avoid it.

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And, um, the conversations we were

having before, like starting this,

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uh, podcast recording and like that,

that love addiction and then like,

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being drawn to like men that aren't

emotionally available, um mm-hmm.

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So it wasn't until like I had that like

reality check with myself and then I was

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just like, I need to just not date and

work on myself so that way I can attract

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better and just have the confidence

in myself that I can pick up these red

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flags a lot easier and set the boundaries

and not negotiables to be able to like.

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Cultivate just healthy

relationships all around me.

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Whether it's family, friends,

romantic, like all around me.

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Robrenna: Mm.

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I don't love that

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Priscilla: like, last relationship

that I was like, okay girl,

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this is, this is too much.

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Robrenna: Mm.

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Mm-hmm.

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I love that.

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I love that because that's part

of the breaking the cycles.

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Um, like when people feel trapped, uh,

and you're repeating those patterns.

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I really like that you said I

had to look within myself and

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say, what is happening here?

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what is happening here that I am

drawing into this and sometimes.

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Um, people can deceive us into believing

that they're different than they actually

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are, and then we're in the relationship

and then all of a sudden they change.

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And so there are those times where

that occur too, but it's also

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good to look within ourselves

and say, what's going on here?

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and do I want something different?

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And if I want something different,

what can I do differently?

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And what areas inside of me do

I need to heal so that I won't

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continuously abandon myself?

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And self abandonment happens in those,

um, domestic violence, uh, relationships.

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And I appreci I appreciate

you, uh, confirming that.

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Not everyone's journey looks the same

in domestic violence relationships.

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It's not always in your face.

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Sometimes it's very subtle and builds

over time and doesn't always have

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to have a, a physical aspect to it.

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but what people don't understand

your physical in your.

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Your emotional pain, your

body feels it the same.

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And so pain is, pain is pain.

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And if you're in a relationship that's

bringing you a lot of pain, it's, it's

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a time for a reevaluation 'cause, and

this is a good thing to say, 'cause Yes.

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You said like right now while we're

recording it, it's um, domestic violence

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awareness month and love should not hurt.

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That's primary.

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Priscilla: Great.

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Robrenna: So you talked about how

you said, I wanna kind of get to

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know me 'cause I'm kind of where you

are, where you were right now too

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with the no dating, and we kind of

talked about that a little bit too.

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How I wanted to get to know me and what

is it that I want, what is it that I need?

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And the only way I could do that for

a period of time was to heal some of

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my wounds and to search within myself.

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Of like, how, how do I do my best

not to attract this type of person?

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Or, um, how do I just not abandon myself

and listen to myself in relationships?

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Like I pay attention to certain things and

don't try to talk myself out something.

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Uh, 'cause I've, I've

personally, I've done that.

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Uh, to myself also,

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And not saying that every, like, you're

a magnet, you know, that type of thing.

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But there is an imprint of trauma that

we are accustomed to, as we spoke about

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earlier, that's familiar and sometimes

draws us into those relationships.

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Other times, like we said,

it's someone who is decept.

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Deceptive in the initial getting to

know you, and then they all of, all

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of a sudden flip and they change into

a different person and you're kind

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of in the relationship and, um, and

they create that trauma bomb where

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you're always trying to get back to

the nice person that you were with.

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Before.

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And so you're staying in it 'cause

you, oh, well I know there's good

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in him 'cause he was like this.

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And so you're still always trying

to get back to that person.

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Priscilla: Younger generation's doing now.

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Robrenna: Yeah.

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Priscilla: Like yes girl, that

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Robrenna: Yes.

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But that person that you know

right now, that's that person.

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And so.

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You don't have to try to get back to

him, if anything, get back to you.

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And so I'm curious of what you did

as far as healing practices, like

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what practices, support, resources,

um, that have been most meaningful

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to you in your healing journey.

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And also, I don't think we

mentioned, we mentioned that you

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also, you currently working, uh, at

a domestic violence organization.

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Is that correct?

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Yes,

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Priscilla: yes.

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Uh, I'm a little bit of a workaholic,

so I, I do a lot of things, but yeah.

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One of them is I do work at a

domestic violence shelter, um,

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for the Middle Tennessee area.

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Um, and then I'm also a case manager

where I work with, um, a lot of,

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uh, families from Latin America that

are coming to the United States.

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And I help them like, you know, with

resources and, um, but a lot of them

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come from, from trauma as well, whether

it's sexual abuse, domestic violence,

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um, or other like sorts of, uh, trauma.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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And that's very important work

too, because sometimes they don't

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know where to go to get the help.

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And it could, it could have

other consequences if they

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start looking for help.

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what resources were helpful for you

as you were kind of moving out of this

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and, and trying to make the decision

of how can I help myself more and

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think about myself and not abandon

myself in these types of relationships?

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Priscilla: Yeah, so therapy,

uh, talk therapy has always

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been, uh, something for me.

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Um, I've been in talk therapy since

my early, younger years, um, after

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experiencing child sexual abuse.

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Um, but with that therapy

was always like on and off.

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Like I would start it, then I would stop.

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Um.

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I did also have a therapist in,

in moments of my life where I

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felt like it wasn't working.

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'cause I know I've heard that a lot

of people are like, I go to therapy

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and it's just like, it's not working,

it doesn't do anything for me.

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Mm.

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Um, so I definitely recommend to

like search, search for somebody

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that you feel comfortable with.

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Some, somebody that you feel like,

okay, this person does have the

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resources to help me overcome whatever

it is that I'm trying to work on.

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and for me, that was when I moved

to Florida and I went to, uh.

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UCF, the U, university of Central

Florida, and they had mm-hmm.

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A therapist, well, a lot of

different therapists on campus.

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It was like part of your tuition.

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So I was like, let me

take advantage of this.

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Um, and that's when I found my therapist

that like changed everything for me.

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Um, and she helped me and she

introduced me to like EMDR and tapping.

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Um, and she, you know, suggested

like meditation and breath work.

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And I share all that

because it has worked.

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But I also like to say like,

keep trying, like, don't give up.

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Because I remember the first time

I did breath work, I was like.

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This didn't do anything for me.

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I'm like, what is this?

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I just couldn't, like, I'm very anxious

and my mind is just always going,

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so I couldn't like quiet my mind.

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Mm-hmm.

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So it's like, don't give up.

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Don't, you know, like

lose faith, like keep, uh.

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Keep at it and keep trying or like

try different, you know, breath

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work, uh, mentors and guides.

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Mm-hmm.

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But those are some of the

things that help for me.

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Um, I also like a lot of like self-help.

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So reading books, I mean, my therapist and

other professionals that I've met along

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the way have recommended resources to me.

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Mm-hmm.

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Mm-hmm.

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Um, two books that I swear

by if people want to like,

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um, start reading, um mm-hmm.

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Is the Body Keeps the Score.

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Robrenna: There we

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Priscilla: go.

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Yeah.

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And then the other one

is what happened to you?

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Robrenna: Mm.

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That was good too.

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Mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: That one's a great book.

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Mm-hmm.

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So those two books, like literally

I was like, and like I just felt

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like, oh my God, it makes sense.

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Like everything that I'm experiencing

and even how you mentioned how trauma

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stored in the body and it's just

like, yeah, I'm talking about it.

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I'm going to therapy, but why am.

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Feeling anxious.

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Why am I still kind of

feeling depressed sometimes?

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Why do I feel like this knot in my

stomach or my chest feels heavy?

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Um, so all those things, and it's just

like understanding how trauma is stored

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in your body and it shows up for you.

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Mm-hmm.

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Um, so those are definitely like

resources that have helped me.

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Robrenna: Yes, I will put those

resources in the show notes.

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And, um, I am a body, uh,

somatic practitioner also.

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I've had training through the Embody

Lab and almost all of my sessions I do

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some sort of body work with my clients.

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Usually I start with the grounding, uh,

to get them just in their present moment,

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you know, leave everything else behind

you while we're in this space together.

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But a lot of breath work.

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Uh, visual meditation, like all

of those things because you are

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retraining your nervous system.

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Every time you, you are calming, you're

doing that breath work, you're slowing

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down your system, slowing down your

amygdala, which is your fight, fight

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system, and so it's giving your body

a chance to absorb something new.

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It's giving your mind a chance

to slow down, to be able to

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understand or to think more clearly.

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And so I am encouraged to hear that you've

had people that directed you to the body.

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'cause as you said, it's

all, it's stored in the body.

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It's stored in the body, and we can

talk about it and think about it.

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All we want.

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And those are very good because

I've also, myself personally, been

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through cognitive behavioral therapy,

which was a game changer for me.

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But also I did tapping then I,

when I went through the Embody

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lab for training, I went.

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Because I needed it, like

I needed it for my body.

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And so, yeah, it is so helpful.

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I'm really glad that, uh, you

mentioned that, that that was

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like game changer for you.

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where do you feel or where do you find

resilience to keep moving forward?

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Um, even when it felt overwhelming.

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Priscilla: Oh, that's a good question.

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Um, I found resilience,

honestly, in wanting better,

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but also just having faith.

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Having faith that it was going to

get better because I'm relentless

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and I'm not giving up even on the

days that I feel like giving up.

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Even on the days that I woke up and

I'm just like, ugh, like I feel heavy.

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I, you know, I'm depressed.

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I don't have the

motivation to do anything.

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I just wanna like lay in bed all

day and not talk to anybody like.

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And it was just like, I'm not

helping myself by, by doing that.

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And I also like to say like,

show yourself grace, because you

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are gonna have those moments.

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You are gonna have a moment where you're

just like, listen, it's been a week.

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I don't wanna talk to anybody.

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I don't wanna like, you

know, get outta bed.

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Like you're maybe just in your PJ's all

day and you're like in your like, show

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yourself and give yourself that grace.

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But also have like, you know.

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The will and the power to

be like, I want better.

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What can I do?

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Like, let me move forward

and just take it day by day.

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Um, and that's how I started in my faith.

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I'd be like, okay, this is how I feel.

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I'm having the self-awareness of my

emotions, but you know, I'm a, I'm

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a believer in, in God and in faith.

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And I'd be like, God, please give me

the strength to get through today.

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Mm-hmm.

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Gimme that, gimme the

strength to get through today.

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And like little by little it

starts getting better and actually

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like implementing the things

that I'm learning and using the

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resources that are available to.

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Available to me.

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And with time it, it gets better.

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Um, if you're anything like me

where you're very impatient and you

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wanna see results like yesterday

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Robrenna: mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: I stress that

like, it takes time.

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It takes time.

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Healing is not like, you know,

you fe reach a final destination.

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It's a rollercoaster ride.

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You have your low days, your

high days, your inbetweens.

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Um, but I promise.

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I promise, I promise.

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If you do the work and you stay

consistent, it does get better.

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Robrenna: Mm-hmm.

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Love it.

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So we did talk a lot about generational

trauma, uh, today, and I'm wondering

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as you think about the next generation,

whether it's in your family or

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within community, uh, or women

listening, uh, what, what is it that

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you hope this story offers them?

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Priscilla: Oh, another great question.

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What do I honestly, I, I hope

that it, it inspires hope in

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them that it does get better.

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That it can get better.

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That, um, my and my hope and my desire

is that anytime I share my story, I

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can impact even if it's just one woman.

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Right.

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I know we've mentioned that at

the beginning of this podcast.

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Mm-hmm.

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Or maybe prior to

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Robrenna: it.

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Yeah.

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That was our intention.

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We set an intention before we started

recording, and it was that one woman.

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Would be impacted at least one woman.

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Priscilla: Yeah.

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I mean, and that has

always been my mission.

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Even when I started sharing my story

and I started, um, and I funded,

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uh, PAC powerful, authentic queen,

and that's still my, my mission.

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I'm like, even if it's just one woman that

is like, oh my God, she shared her story.

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She comes from, you know, all this

trauma, but look at where she's at

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now, and if she can do it, I can do it.

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If it can get better for her,

it can get better for me.

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And it can, and I, I don't like to lie.

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I am very transparent.

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I'm not gonna say it's.

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Easy 'cause it's not right.

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But I promise you, if you stay

consistent and you have that faith and

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you remain to that faith that it is

getting better because you are doing

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the work, like it does get better.

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So

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Robrenna: mm-hmm.

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Priscilla: Hope, I hope that

they are left with that.

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Robrenna: That's wonderful.

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So what part of your life, um, are

you reclaiming or have you reclaimed?

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Priscilla: You are hitting me

with all these amazing questions.

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Um, what I'm reclaiming, uh, I guess a

little bit of what we had talked about

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in the beginning, just that generational

healing and generational wealth.

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I'm also very ambitious.

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I want generational wealth for

not only myself, but for my

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family, my nieces and my nephews.

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Because I don't ever want

money to be an issue.

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I don't ever.

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Mm-hmm.

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And also coming from seeing my

mom in experiences where she's,

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it's like she couldn't really

necessarily leave because of that.

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Right.

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Because it's like she didn't have

the money to go somewhere else.

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She, yeah.

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She's like, where I gonna go?

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Um, and that, like, anytime I think

about that, like, it like just pisses

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me off and I'm just like, mm-hmm.

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I don't ever want.

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That to be an issue.

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So like I'm very determined to

build this generational wealth.

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Mm-hmm.

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Um, so yeah, I'm reclaiming that recla,

uh, reclaiming our power, um, and

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Robrenna: love it.

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Power, um, generational wealth

and, uh, intergenerational healing.

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Love it.

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Well, to end, um, I'd like to guide

you through a breath and affirmation.

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Um, if you are willing to do that with me.

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Priscilla: Yes, of course.

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Robrenna: Okay.

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so let's just, gently take a

moment here and, we're just

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gonna do an inhale together.

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exhale, and then we'll follow

it with, an affirmation.

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And then I'd ask you to have a

grounding word that you would

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like to leave the listeners with.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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So we're gonna take a deep breath.

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We're gonna breathe in.

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we'll do a six count through our nose.

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We'll hold for three seconds, and then

we'll do a eight count through our mouth.

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Okay?

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Yep.

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So let's do a breathe in.

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6, 5, 4.

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3, 2, 1, hold, two, one.

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Exhale.

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6, 5, 4, 3, 2.

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One.

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Okay.

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And we're gonna just breathe a

little in, but take a deep breaths.

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We just breathe in a little bit.

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We'll give our affirmation.

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And for this one, uh, we're gonna, uh,

talk about that we are worthy of love.

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So we're gonna breathe in.

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I am worthy of love.

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And again, I am worthy of love.

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And Priscilla, what word would you like

to leave our listeners to carry forward?

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Priscilla: Courage.

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Robrenna: Mm.

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Priscilla: Courage to take that

first step to a life that they're

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happy to wake up to every day.

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Robrenna: Hmm.

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Mm.

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I love it.

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Amen.

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Thank you so much, Priscilla.

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Um, I also would like to, if you want

to share how, uh, interval listeners

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can contact you or connect with you.

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Priscilla: Yes, uh, I am active,

uh, I wanna say on all social

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media platforms, but there's so

many different apps nowadays.

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So on LinkedIn, Facebook, Instagram,

TikTok, YouTube, um, my personal

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pages on those, you can find

me by my name, Priscilla Ada.

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Um, if you're interested in learning

more about PAC and just following

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the mission with that, and like those

stories and like the talks that I

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do, it's powerful, authentic, queen.

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And I also have a website,

powerful authentic queen.com.

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where it has all my social

media links on there as well.

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Robrenna: All right.

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I will put all the

links in the show notes.

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Thanks for joining us, Priscilla.

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Remember, take courage with you today.

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Priscilla: Thank you.

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Robrenna: You can find information

about today's guest in the show notes.

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stirred recognition or softened

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something within you, allow yourself

a moment to pause and breathe.

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