Bethan Galliers had given up on finding 'the one', but she still wanted to be a mum. In her 40s, Bethan went through the adoption process - single.  But it wasn't as easy as 'boy meets mum, mum meets boy'.  Along the way she was scrutinised - financially, physically and emotionally. And when a photo of two brothers she was unable to help continuously seemed to haunt her, it was inevitable that she would breakdown - a moment which even now leaves her still tearful wondering what ever became of them?  Now mother to two siblings, celebrating five years together, Bethan reflects over the moment she decided to start her own family - and the ups and downs she faced along the journey.  Presented and produced by The Fuck It Moments Podcast host Clare Freeman. Brought to you by ASFB Productions. Music by Thomas Ragsdale.