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Jenny Emerson: Life Lessons Learned from Loss - The Great Conquest
Episode 9017th October 2021 • The Becoming the Big Me Podcast • Djemilah Birnie
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In today's episdoe of the Becoming the Big Me podcast your host, Djemilah Birnie sits down with Jenny Emerson to hear her story.

Jenny Emerson is a Transitions Life Coach. She helps individuals navigate change without sleepless nights and worry filled days. Prior to being a life coach and licensed psychotherapist for 12 years, Jenny served in corporate settings as a trainer of leadership and organizational development, sales representative, and as a marketing agent.

But Jenny's journey hasn’t always been easy- and there have been many obstacles she has had to navigate through to get where she is today. Jenny has navigated her own significant life changes including the death of a fiancé, moving halfway across the country alone, and an evolving career. She now resides in Nashville, Tennessee where she is a lover of live music and a pet enthusiast.

This is Jenny’s story.

Connect: emersoncoachingandconsulting.com

To get out her new book visit bit.ly/greatconquest

To Connect More with Djemilah Visit www.djemilah.com

>>Learn more about the Becoming the Big Me: The Great Conquest book visit www.thegreatconquest.com 

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Becoming the Big Me: The Great Conquest is a collection of empowering, motivating, and educational stories that will tug at your heart strings while empowering you to step into your own Big Me potential. From addiction, illness, lack of confidence, loss of loved ones, PTSD, and more the contributors of this book have walked through darkness and emerged victorious.

The Becoming the Big Me: The Great Conquest book has been brought to you by a collection of leaders paving the path of the future in their given fields. Within its pages you will find insight from Djemilah Birnie, Sharon Lechter, Nick Wingo, Dr. Frances Malone, Jenny Emerson, Russel Creed, Jennifer Aube, Valerie Fischer, Cory & JoJo Rankin, Peter Neilson, Kiki Rae, Tanya Milano-Snell, Dannah Macalinga-Pedrigal, and Kira Birnie.

This book was envisioned and brought together by Djemilah Birnie, the founder of Becoming the Big Me.

After overcoming many obstacles that could easily break a person, Djemilah has become passionate about helping others face their glass ceilings and break into the expansiveness of their potential.

Djemilah believes that we are all on a journey... There is never a point in which you have "Made It". Becoming the Big Me is about choosing to step into your greater potential each and every day. It is about learning and sometimes messing up but always getting back up.

This book has been compiled to showcase the journeys of overcoming. However, through this journey it becomes so much more. As each author told their story Djemilah noticed a common thread- something that made all of these amazing humans stand out even when faced with adversity.

Through the process of this book Djemilah discovered what she calls "the secret to overcoming obstacles and Becoming the Big Me." The greatest secret is the steps are simple and we have all heard them before.... the greatest secret is in the actual doing.

This book features; Djemilah Birnie the best selling author of Luna's Balloon: A Little Book About the Little Things, Sharon Lechter the author of Think and Grow Rich for Women, co author of Rich Dad Poor Dad, and an ambassador to the Napoleon Hill Foundation, Nick Wingo the founder behind building Grit, Dr. Frances Malone the founder of Malone Pediatrics and the Intuitive Parents Collective, Valerie Fischer the woman behind the trademark of Brain Science Selling, Peter Neilson the "Hybrid Guy", Jenny Emerson licensed therapist, Russell Creed the founder of Invictus Life, Tanya Milano-Snell who is on a mission to break generational trauma, Jennifer Aube best selling author of the book Naked Wealth, Kiki Rae the founder of Quantum Creatrix, Cory and JoJo Rankin founders of RFamilyStrong, Dannah Macolinga-Pedrigal VA and mother, and Kira Birnie the daughter of Djemilah Birnie and kid behind A Kid's Perspective.

To learn more about the book you can visit, www.thegreatconquest.com

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Hi! I am your host Djemilah Birnie the founder of Becoming the Big Me. I have been building businesses online since the age of 17. I am passionate about discovering the "secrets" of our world and what is the true difference maker. Why is it that some succeed and others do not? What is it that allows people to get back up and keep going even in the midst of hardships? What truly is the power of purpose? These are the questions that rattle my mind.

I love to write and have published some books, some of them have even hit some charts 😲 You can check them out here: http://bit.ly/djemilahbooks

Ready to start playing BIG and step into your Big Me potential by harnessing the power of your mind? Then make sure you join the free Rewire challenge to get all the tools you need! https://www.djemilah.com/rewirechallenge

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Don't forget to check out the little lady's podcast "A Kid's Perspective" where she answers your questions on all of life's most pressing issues, in her eyes, a kid! ‎https://akidsperspective.us/

In addition to my online offerings I am extremely passionate about giving back to the local community while cultivating community growth. I am the organizer and host of the Wimberley Women's Circle https://wimberleywomen.com/ , where we gather monthly to learn and heal from different community leaders.

I am also the visionary behind Wimberley Moonlight Farms, a small family owned farm and nursery located in Wimberley, Texas. This is a journey that will take many years as we continue to develop, follow along at https://wimberleymoonlightfarms.com/

My partner and I have also put together a local directory for our town in the Texas Hill Country in which I have been having so much joy going to all of the local hot spots to photograph! Learn more at https://www.wimberley.info/

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Hello divine souls Djemilah Birnie here with becoming the big me. I'm so excited for this special segment of the becoming the big me podcast. This section of the podcast is dedicated towards sharing the stories of conquest for some incredible individuals. They are also featured in my latest book, becoming the big, the great conquest.

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In this section of the podcast, we will dive deep into each of their stories and their journeys and their hardships from addiction, PTSD, loss of loved ones and children.

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This segment of the podcast is dedicated towards sharing their stories and in sharing their journeys not only of the hardships but sharing how they overcame.

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To learn more about the author's behind the stories that you're going to hear, go to the great conquest.com and if you would like to purchase a copy of the great conquest book, you can go to bit.li slash great conquest. And without further ado, let's dive into the amazing journeys.

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I wanted a baby at:

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And life did not give me that. I did not meet the love of my life until 39. And for all the women out there, you know that number 40 haunts us sometimes. And so during this time when I'm looking and searching and all this kind of stuff, I was like, Okay, this must not be what's going to happen for me. I had to focus on my career, what am I going to do? And so um, I was involved in the corporate world and moved up the career ladder really fast. I totally changed careers from being the corporate trainer was the last

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Kind of corporate type job that I held, I went from that to being a licensed massage therapist totally, you know, totally opposite.

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And two different worlds

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and moved, you know, numerous times all by myself doing it on my own. And then finally, when I was here in Nashville, reconnected with an old friend from high school, and through Facebook, the infamous Facebook, you know, and so we dated for a while, I knew he had some health problems, I knew there would be a heart transplant along the way, but I was young and committed and determined, and we were going to get through that transplant, there's a year of healing major healing the following year after that surgery, and then we were going to move forward. And life didn't work that way.

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within just a few months after the transplant, his body rejected the heart, and he passed away. So here I am, at this tender age of 39 is the way I like to describe it, and he's gone.

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And it was my love it was it was my dream. And and then it was also this just wonderful human being that I had known for so many years that I lost. And, you know, I had to face 40 coming around and face the fact there was a very strong chance I would never get to give birth, there goes for kids and all of a soccer tournament, it's you know, and, and I didn't know what would be about marriage, and maybe eventually down the road, I could, you know, fall in love again, but the kid thing was overwhelming. And so I'm, once again, I pour back into my career, like, Okay, if love isn't gonna happen, it's gonna be all about my career. And what is evolved in my now 10 years, August 23, actually 10 years, I'm, I'm at a point now where I can have a wonderful career and help others do likewise. And have a balance of love, and joy and family, and,

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you know, social life and all those kinds of things. And so that's kind of what I've used to help my clients today. So there's my backstory. Okay, so when, when you first met your fiance, you were you were in the corporate world at this moment. Um, when, when we first we had met in high school, met, but when, when we first started dating, at that point, I was a massage therapist, and I was getting my master's in marriage and family therapy.

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And so, yes, I've also been a licensed therapist as well. Um, and so and I was at the, you know, I was in grad school at that time. Okay. And, and y'all work together to to long before you embarked on this transplant journey together.

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Yes, it was very soon within our relationship. And we just went at it as a team.

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Yeah, and I know that that must have been extremely challenging to navigate. Going through that with someone that you loved. Can you could, uh, let us in on some of the emotions that you were feeling during this time?

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Um, when we first took it, you know, we were dating and when we got engaged, and when we're together, it was just this excitement, this pure joy, you know, this.

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There's some of this Oh, it's finally happened. And then it's, oh my gosh, I can't believe it's him. You know, we were friends in high school. Neither one of us thought it could ever be. And I'm like, Oh my gosh, it's really him. And we're doing this together. And, um,

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it was he was the sweetest, most tender man. And he his humor was very intelligent. I loved his sense of humor. And I would never tell him this there. Often times I'd have to go look up and research stuff after he says something so that I can fully get it because he was so sharp. He was an attorney. And, and so we we share all these laughs We share all this time together. We share the sense of you know, yes, we're getting married later in life, but we're gonna do this life thing together. And then his body just didn't cooperate.

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And I remember that night, coming back home, from the hospital. He wasn't with me.

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And I remember standing in the closet. And I was like, Oh my God, he's, he's not going to put these clothes back on

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it like, he's never going to turn around, I'm we're looking at the bed, I'm like, he's never going to be in this bed again. And I just walked through the, our home, just looking at all these things and was just like, it was this level of shock that, like, hit the pit of my stomach. And I just was like, I can't believe this has happened.

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I remember I remember leaving the hospital and we were heading home, my family was with me, and they were taking me home and driving by a gas station. And people were pumping gas. And I wanted to roll down the window and yell at them. What are you doing? Don't you know, the world is ended? How can you just be pumping gas. And you know, it's just their everyday life, they didn't know what was going on with me and you know, random car on the street, that just remember this, it was just so shocking. And just so

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it's like a gut punch. And I just couldn't believe everybody else's life was gonna go on in his was gone. And I felt like mine was ended, I may still physically be alive, but my life felt like it had ended.

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And then it can feel like that when you are experienced a loss. So how did you navigate that?

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Um,

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a lot of self work.

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Um, I'm a, of course, you know, being a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, I'm a big believer in therapy. I'm also I have had coaches, a

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spiritual director, I had a circle of friends that came together, and I call them my angels. And it's as if their angel wings all came together. And I got to land right there in the middle of them. And they nurtured me, they cared for me, they let me talk about the let me not talk about it.

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And that was, that was a huge aspect of it. But then my own work was the other huge aspect in that I had to go through the process of getting to a place of acceptance of this is really what was this was really my life story. And there was a lot of anger at God a lot of anger for a couple of years. And

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getting to a place where I could, I'm

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out, you know, I'll be honest, I'm just like, dude, get out with God, there were some ugly conversations, and it was intense. And in the whole time, I just felt like God's Spirit universe, whatever word you want to use, I'm not married to one word, but like that power greater than myself, just held me and was like, I can take it all I can take all this anger. And so just letting that happen. And not pushing it down, not shoving it, um, there's a degree to which any person grieving, live somewhat of a masked life, because everybody else has moved on a lot faster than the person that was, you know, intimately close with this person. And so you're always a little bit of keeping up a little bit of moving on, I'm fine to like a small percentage.

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But it takes a long time. And when you can allow that to happen, and not realize it's not going to be the entirety of your life. You just let it evolve.

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And then I also was bound and determined that this pain was not going to be wasted.

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I mean, I went through hell, to be honest, and I was like, this pain is not going to be wasted. So I turned in, I used it and for a long time, I was a grief therapist, you know, um, I didn't start that work till about two, three years after he passed because I wanted to make sure I was a clean vessel, doing that work, but, um, since then, I have used that experience and that,

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that time of having to really get present with myself. I had to get to know myself intimately. I had to be honest and real about what was happening in my

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Life, I had to make peace with certain dreams not happening. And then I had to say, okay, what's next, and keep putting my foot forward. And I was blessed with great life coach, I was blessed with a great therapist that helped me just kind of keep transitioning on into the next thing.

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But I think at the, at the core of everything, there was the determination that this was not going to be the end of my story. It just wasn't.

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And I have this belief that that life hands us the hardest obstacles to teach us the biggest lessons. Can it? Was there some large lessons that you learned through this journey? And can you share that some of those top lessons that you learned?

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Yeah, but um, I came away with kind of three big lessons.

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And the first one is grace.

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Everyone, including myself, is doing the very best they can with what they've got.

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And grace to allow,

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Wherever I am, in that moment, to be where I'm at, where I'm at, um, I have a history of being very shame driven, that I'm not enough or not, you know, I have achieved enough, haven't done enough, haven't become enough, all those things. And so for me coming out of this was grace. And then I'm doing the best I can, with what I've gotten, where I'm at is quite alright. Second big lesson I came away with was gratitude. And

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this really helped me look at and realize that, yes, we have these dark experiences in life. But there's also equal and opposite light in our lives. At the same time, a close friend of mine had had me start a gratitude practice. After he passed away, she had done that one, her husband passed. And she said, they they're good days, you don't want to do it. But do it anyway, come up with three things, she does not care if it's as simple as warm fuzzy socks, or as deep and profound as the love you had for him that you're grateful for that. But it works, gratitude works. And like I said, it really just helps bring in the light into so much darkness when you're going through these big obstacles. And the third lesson for me was growth, there's always room for more, there's always

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a next experience. And as long as I would allow myself to keep growing, I felt like I could keep thriving, and going forward. And I love that you have really exemplified the growth aspect, especially when it comes to navigating the different career changes that you have taken and also moving halfway across the country alone. Like those are big, big growth steps.

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I think our connections, something's happened. Oh, are we there? There, I can hear you now.

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I was just saying that you have exemplified growth up with the changes in your career and how you have allowed your career to grow with you, right? Like you, you transferred from grief coaching into transitional coaching. Now, how can you walk us through some of that growth with your career? And how that how that shifted over time?

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Yes, it's funny you asked that because just last night, I was I was counting up my careers that I've had at this point.

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And I was like, Jenny, I think you've had about five or six so far. And and I'm one of those is okay, I'm not a you know, I'm not a person that gets into something stays 2030 years and gets the Rolex at the end.

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And up don't think many are in our society at this point. But so I started out. Right after college, I worked in a nonprofit, and helped them with their national newsletter. And I realized nonprofit was very profitable. So I left that and went to sales and did sales for a while. And then I was in corporate training, which I loved and did a great job there worked

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for what is now part of horizon, it was air touch paging at the time, their paging division, they were merged and formed with others to form horizon. So I'd worked there and then I worked in corporate training for the United Methodist publishing house here in Nashville work with their national bookstore chain.

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Travel accounts across the country,

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teaching customer service and sales and leadership within their store chain. And then there came a day when I couldn't do corporate america anymore. And I went total opposite. So I became a licensed massage therapist. And, um, so I went from this past pace, you know, sales quotas, and I didn't have a sales quota, but you know, having others training others who are working with sales, quotas, and pressure of

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deadlines and mental that, to listen to zen music, you know, watching people, and you know, that kind of experiencing it that right there was, you know, life changing, because it got me really more present in my life, and really started to have a great relationship with myself and with others. And so,

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as a massage therapist, I'm working with folks, and I realize that I'm only getting half the story, I believe that our physical stuff and our emotional stuff and our mental self, our spiritual stuff, they're all intertwined. And I'm clients would come back with the same areas that were had tension and pain. And so I was like, something's in there something, I feel like

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emotional stress, whatever is in there. So I went and got my master's in counseling. It's an Marriage and Family Therapy. And I studied that route, because I believe whatever family we grew up in, whether it was one on the streets, or a blended family, or traditional looking unit, all those impact how we do life in the future. That's just where we learn. That's where we learn how to do money, that's how we learn how to do conflict, that's how we learn how to do affection, all those things. So um, so I combined this experience of working with people on the physical plane with working with them on their emotional and mental health. And at the same time, I was studying Reiki or a Keeling, qabalistic, healing, all this kind of stuff,

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to also work with folks in their spiritual

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plane. So not all that comes together at this point in my life. And now I serve as a transitions coach, helping people navigate big changes in their life. And I'm so excited that I've had all those past careers, because all that lays the foundation work for what I'm doing now, and I can work with folks, you know, from various different backgrounds or different experiences they're having. So, um, you know, it's just been a fun ride through all these different careers. I would say it gives you such a dynamic experience from both the traditional setting to the you know, more

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out there, that's not the right word, but the the healing modalities and those different practices. And it really, something that I love about that is because a lot of times it's either either one, and one or the other. And this gives such a holistic approach to transition. So I'm curious, Jenny, given, you know, all of the knowledge and everything that you've accumulated cumulated Now, if you were to be able to go back in time, and to give yourself some advice, like, right, when you were going home from the hospital, is there is there any advice that you would have told yourself from your perspective now,

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I would tell myself to not isolate during the pain,

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to healing happens in relationship.

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And so whether it's relationship with other people that are grieving relationship with family relationship with friends, a faith community, a spiritual community, whatever it might be, and many times I'm just like, Well, nobody wants to see this ugliness. Nobody wants to see this pain. And I would just hide out at home and would go to work and come straight home and you know, grocery shop way late at night when people aren't the store, things like that. And it did nothing, but keep me in my pain, where that was all I saw. And so I'd say to myself, get out and go be with people. It happens in relationship.

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Yeah, we can be our own biggest enemies sometimes just inside of our own mind.

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Oh, so true.

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So So what what's what's sort of the future for you What excites you now what motivates you what gets you going?

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Oh my goodness, life is just fun, life is great.

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Um, I love what I do for a living. I love seeing people come out of these hurt places, or stuck places or experiences of isolation that I've had, and help them get to this place of freedom in a place where they're thriving, and where they're experiencing all kinds of joy.

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Other things that motivate me are

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I have some great family members and precious niece and nephew, they're young, and older ones as well. But working with these, you know, be with my young ones, and watching them grow. And they're, you know, we joke into their kind of my adopted kids. And

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it

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I just, I just love every experience, I think what excites me is that

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it's okay, that life is not all one way.

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There's a place for everything. And for us to know what salt tastes, when for us to know what sugar tastes like, we got to know what salt tastes like, for us to know what life feels like, we got to know what dark feels like. And so I just get excited about this freedom that I have now that I don't take pain so seriously anymore. And I don't take fear or being stuck so seriously. And I can work through it and use it for good.

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I think what everyone wants to know, is have you are you happily embracing the single life with your career? Or where did your headspace go after that, because I know that you had a set vision and dream?

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Well, I, I didn't date much for quite a few years after Robin passed away.

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It was a little hard to match that he broke the mold kind of,

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um, you know, I started 2020 and I was like, I am getting back out there. I'm ready today, I've you know, good lord knows it's been long enough. And I'm just really ready for a high quality relationship. And then COVID happened

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to many places, um, but where I'm at now is like, I I'm still single, I am dating and having a fabulous time.

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Some men come into my life for a short period of time, maybe one or two days, some men come into my life for a longer period of time, a couple of months, whatever. And I believe that there is someone that's coming into my life, that will be long term. And that's just going to evolve when it evolves. And so that is exciting, that's going well and it has its place and then my work is going well in it has its place. It just no work no longer defines me. I use it as a definition to cover up the fact that I never get to get married and have kids. And so who cares.

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I didn't get to have kids I didn't get get married for Okay, it's not a big deal as I used to make it you know, I could definitely feel this lightness in your energy around that.

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And which is awesome because that's where we find happiness, right is what we just say if it comes it comes okay.

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When I just back up and let the universe evolve, as it does great things happen.

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It really does and and when you choose to live in your truth which you have done and you are doing, and I love that you're not afraid to change and shift your careers because that is something that we can get very caught at are stuck into the career mindset like I have to stay in this one thing for my whole life. And, and you have allowed yourself to be fluid with life with the changes. It hasn't been easy. Obviously, you have had to learn a lot of tools along the way, but I can definitely feel that ease coming from you. So Jenny, what if the audience were to just get three major points out of like, everything that you've talked about and everything that you've learned through your journey

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What are three takeaways that you would hope someone who maybe is experiencing grief or going through that takes away from this conversation?

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Number one, pain isn't here to stay.

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If you let it happen, it'll pass on through.

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Number two would be

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evolution is not a bad thing. And in other words, let something new happen. You don't have to be committed to one set path your entire life.

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And

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number three would be to find that gratitude to find that joy, regardless of what's going on, no matter how dark it is, because you have to remember there is light, even when you're in a moment, or light or an experience of darkness. There is light out there.

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That's beautiful. So I know that some of y'all are going to want to continue to connect with Jenny, if y'all are going through a transition in your life, Jenny is here to help you, you you heard about all of her experience and what she has gone through. So how can people continue to follow your journey, Jenny and connect with you? There's two ways. Number one, follow me on Facebook, my profile is public. I'm constantly putting content out there telling my story talking about transitions, work, and helpful tips. So there's one great way and then also I have a website, Emerson coaching and consulting Comm. So check that out as well. And there's ways to contact me straight through that, but love to see you either on my Facebook page or through the website. Awesome. So for all of my lazy listeners out there, you know, I always put all of the links in the description down below. So don't worry about typing that into your search bar. I've got you. Until next time, this is jameelah signing off.

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Thank you so much for tuning in to today's episode of The becoming the big money podcast.

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I know that you found value in hearing this story today. And I would love if you could show your support by going and grabbing a copy of our book. And you can do so by going to bit.li slash great conquest. You can also go to WWW dot the great conquest.com for more information about each of the individuals involved in this process. Thanks again for tuning in.

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