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Bible School Graduate Turned Playboy Enthusiast
Episode 113th July 2022 • Breaking Free Authentically: The Sex Positive Relationship Podcast • Karine Bedard
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Episode 1: Bible School Graduate Turned Playboy Enthusiast

Welcome to the very first podcast of Breaking Free Authentically.  I’m so excited to finally be sharing with you all these things going on in my head.

I thought it would be good to start at the beginning of this whole journey for me as the past ten years have been so life-changing.  I want you to understand why the title Breaking Free Authentically is so important to me.

I always like to say that I’m a Bible School Graduate, Turned Playboy Enthusiast

Intro: Let’s start at the beginning

  • Childhood upbringing
  • Sexual child/ masturbation
  • Sexual shame at an early age
  • Church pianist by 13
  • Submission beautiful word
  • All my friends were guys growing up
  • Band, choir, musician, social group
  • Marriage was my biggest goal
  • Relationship books and psychology were my fun reading
  • Couldn’t wait to get married and finally have sex and be a good wife
  • Wanted a better relationship than my parents
  • Wanted to be a Stay at home mom
  • Chose Musician over being a Surgeon

The Bliss

  • Loved my life in the church
  • Was very involved
  • Went to Bible School for Church music
  • Knew I would never be paid because I was a woman
  • Was an accompanist for all the voice studios
  • Was in the Moody Symphonic Band (traveled to China)
  • Married a “Good” Christian man
  • The day a piece of me died
  • Became a mom
  • Taught moms groups and Bible studies
  • Never questioned my faith
  • Thought I was better than others

The Shock

  • My husband shared his deconversion
  • I had no idea this was coming
  • My biggest fear was, "What we would teach our daughters about sex now?"

The Devastation

  • Didn’t know where to turn
  • 3 legged table
  • Questioned everything I believed
  • Started researching
  • The worst of the worst - those SEX people
  • Had no morals
  • Couldn’t love without Christ
  • No joy
  • No self-respect
  • Had no hope…
  • Playboy Radio
  • Found my people
  • Loving
  • Honest
  • Authentic
  • Honoured themselves
  • Intelligent
  • Deep
  • Happy
  • Full of joy
  • Had deep connections with each other
  • Discovered Swing with Holli and Michael
  • Relationship Goals

The Transformation

  • Started learning about sex positivity
  • If everything I had been taught about sexuality was not right what else wasn’t
  • Podcasts, Playboy TV, porn
  • Critical Thinking

The Freedom to be Authentic

  • I started to see I was no different than anybody else and no better
  • Accabella’s story
  • Started feeling safe enough to share things I’d never felt I could share before
  • Started to fantasize
  • Started to embrace my sexuality and pleasure in a new way
  • Shed the guilt and shame
  • Started to feel Empowered
  • Discovered my worth in a new way
  • Transformed my thinking and beliefs
  • Shifted my perspective
  • Became Authentic 
  • Learned to set boundaries without needing to hurt others
  • Started honouring myself in a whole new way
  • Realized how strong I actually was
  • Decided to explore more things but that is for another day

The Passion to Help Others

  • I want to help others break free from the programming
  • No need to give a big F U to the world or to men
  • We can have balance and still be kind and free and authentic
  • Relationships are beautiful and I have always wanted to share how to have strong healthy relationships
  • Now I know how without losing who I am
  • I get to love to the fullest and honour who I am
  • Found my tribe/ me people
  • Want to spread awareness and empower people to live their fullest, richest life

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