You don't have a motivation problem. You have an identity problem. The version of you that survived, hustled, and built this business with her bare hands was magnificent — and she is the exact thing standing between you and what comes next.

In this episode of QueenMode, Ana breaks down why identity is the strongest force running your business, how your old story quietly leaks out of your mouth and recreates the same results, and how to declare a new identity and let your behavior catch up — before you have a shred of proof.

What You'll Learn

• Why the traits that built your business are the same ones now keeping it small
• How to catch your old story in your language — the "just," the "only," the survival-mode qualifiers
• Why the 2am voice telling you to shrink isn't wisdom, it's an old identity fighting for its life
• How to make decisions as the woman you're becoming, before you feel like her

Key Quote

"You don't graduate by burning down the school that taught you. You graduate by saying thank you and walking out the door into something bigger."

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Queen, let's talk about motivation.

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Because we often think motivation is our problem.

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But you don't have a motivation problem.

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You have an identity problem.

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I know, I know.

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You came here today thinking you needed a better morning routine, a new planner, maybe a

little fire under you.

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And I'm telling you, the fire isn't the issue.

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The fire's been burning for years.

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That's how you got here.

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So let me ask you something, and I want you to actually sit with it.

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Who do you still think you are?

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Because here's what I've learned, Queen, the hard way, over and over again.

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The version of you that built this business, the scrappy one, the one who did everything

herself, the one who survived.

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She was magnificent.

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She was exactly who you needed.

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But she is also the single biggest thing standing between you and what comes next.

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Today we're talking about the most powerful, most invisible force running your entire

life.

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It's not your strategy.

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It's not your habits.

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It's the story you keep telling yourself about who you are.

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and until you're willing to let an old version of yourself die, you are going to keep

recreating the exact business she knew how to build, no matter how much you've outgrown

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it.

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So buckle up, this one's gonna get personal.

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What's up, Queen?

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I'm Dr.

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Anna Castilla, orthodontist, author, speaker, unapologetic dream chaser, and yes, I took

my business from flatlining to an eight-figure exit in just eight years.

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But spoiler alert, I didn't get there by playing it safe.

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I broke rules, I made bold moves, and I became the woman my younger self was waiting for.

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Queen Mode is your weekly dose of fierce strategy, unfiltered truth, and mindset shifts

that will have you leading, growing, and living like the powerhouse you are without

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burning out or selling out.

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So if you're done playing small and ready to rise, welcome home.

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Okay, let's get into it.

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I want to start with the truth that once you really understand it will change how you see

absolutely everything about yourself.

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Here it is identity.

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The way you see yourself, the story you tell about who you are is one of the strongest

forces in all of human nature.

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stronger than willpower, stronger than goals, stronger than that vision board you made in

January.

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Because here's the thing about human beings: we will do almost anything to stay consistent

with who we believe we are.

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We are loyal to our own story, to the death.

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You can want a different result all day long, but if that result requires you to be a

different person than the one you've decided you are, your own mind will quietly sabotage

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you to protect the identity every single time.

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That's why this is so hard.

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It's not that you're weak, it's not that you don't want it badly enough.

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It's that you are fighting the most powerful force in your own psychology.

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And you're trying to do it with a to-do list.

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A planner is not going to beat out your identity.

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Never.

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Absolutely not.

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Let me say something that I don't want you to miss because the rest of this episode is

going to push you, and I need you to hear the love in it first.

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The version of you that built this business was a warrior.

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She figured it out with no roadmap.

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She answered the phone, did the work, sent the invoices, cried in the car, and showed up

the next day anyway.

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She wore all 700 hats because there was no one else to wear them.

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She didn't wait to feel ready because ready was a luxury she could not afford.

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She built something real out of almost nothing.

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Ladies, you know what I am talking about.

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I will never let anyone, including you, talk badly about that woman.

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She is the reason you exist as an entrepreneur.

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at all.

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But here's what nobody tells you.

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The traits that get you up the mountain are not the same traits that let you live at the

top of it.

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The do-it-all, control everything.

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I'm the only one who can do it right.

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Energy that built the business is the exact energy that now keeps the business small.

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It keeps you as the bottleneck.

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It keeps you exhausted.

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It keeps you in the operator's chair when the throne is sitting empty right behind you.

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She climbed beautifully, but she does not know how to reign.

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Those are two different women, and you cannot become the second one while you're still

defending the first one.

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And let me tell you how this actually shows up because it's so sneaky, it shows up as

competence.

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It shows up as you being really, really good at the thing that's keeping you small.

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You're an incredible doer.

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You can put out any fire, answer any question, fix any problem, and you do it fast.

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and you do it well.

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So you get rewarded for it.

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People praised you for it.

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I don't know how you do it all, my accountant used to tell me.

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How are you still standing?

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And I took it as a compliment.

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And that praise is a trap.

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Because it keeps you addicted to being the one who does it all.

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The applause is for the climber.

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Nobody claps when you delegate.

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Nobody throws a party because you let someone else handle it and you went home at five.

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So the identity gets reinforced by the very people around you, and you keep doing the

thing that's quietly capping your whole life.

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I want you to really feel the difference between these two women because they're not just

different in their skills, they're different in their nervous systems.

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The climber runs on urgency.

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She's always a little braced, a little ready for the next problem, a little allergic to

stillness because stillness feels like danger to her.

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If she stops moving, something will fall.

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The reigning woman runs on calm.

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She can sit in a quiet moment and not panic.

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She can let a problem sit overnight without solving it at 2 a.m.

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She trusts that the thing she built will hold without her hand on every piece of it.

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That's not a skill you learn from a course.

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That's an identity you grow into.

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now here's the part that gets really practical.

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And I want you to take notes because this is the diagnostic tool I wish someone had handed

me 10 years ago.

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You want to know if you've actually let go of the old version of you?

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Don't check your goals.

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Check your language.

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Listen to how you talk about yourself and your story.

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Because as long as you keep repeating the old story to yourself in your own head and out

loud to other people, you will stay exactly where that story put you.

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Your words are not describing your life, your words are creating it.

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Every time you tell the old story, you reinforce the old identity, and the old identity

recreates the results.

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It's a closed loop.

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And the hard part, the really sneaky part, is that this is mostly subconscious.

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You're not standing there going, I think I'll sabotage myself today.

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No.

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It slips out.

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It's in the offhand comment.

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It's in the joke you make about yourself at the networking event.

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It's in the way you introduce yourself, the way you explain why you can't.

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The little throwaway lines like, well, that's just how I am, or I've always been the kind

of person who you have to catch yourself.

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And catching yourself is so hard because the old story doesn't feel like a story.

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It feels like the truth.

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It feels like just facts about you.

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That's how you know it's identity and not just a thought.

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So this week I want you to become a detective of your own language.

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When you talk about your business, your money, your past, what story keeps showing up?

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What's the line you've told a hundred times?

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Write it down, look at it on paper, because you cannot change a story you cannot even see.

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Let me give you some of the lines to listen for because they're so normal, you will miss

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I'm just not a numbers person.

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I've always been a worker bee.

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I'm not really a salesperson.

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I just love helping people.

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I come from nothing, so I know how to grind.

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Oh, that one hurts because I used to say that one all the time.

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I don't trust easily, so I just do it myself.

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Money's always been tight for me.

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Listen to how reasonable, all those sound.

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They sound like humility.

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They sound like self awareness.

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They are neither.

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They are bars on a cell, and you're the one who keeps polishing them and showing them off

to visitors like they're the core.

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And here's something I learned that I want to give you.

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The old story doesn't just live in the big dramatic statements.

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It lives in the tiny qualifiers, the quote unquote just, the quote unquote only, the quote

unquote I'm not really.

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Every time you say I'm just a small business, or I only do this little thing, or I'm not

really a CEO, you are casting a vote for the smaller version of yourself.

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And your subconscious is counting the votes.

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It doesn't care what your vision board says, it counts what you actually say all day in

the cracks of your sentences.

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So the cleanup starts there, in the qualifiers, in the throwaways, in the self-deprecating

jokes you've made so many times you don't even hear them anymore.

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I'll be honest, when I started doing this for myself, I was a little horrified because I

caught myself doing it constantly.

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I used to introduce myself with the struggle because I came from a humble home.

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I grew up in poverty in New York and that was always my story.

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I always led with that.

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I'm the hustler.

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I'm from New York.

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I grew up with nothing.

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know, I know how to work.

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I know how to hustle.

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You know, and I almost looked down on people that didn't say that they were hustlers.

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So please look at what you're saying because what you're saying is creating your life.

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For example, introducing yourself with the struggle, leading with how hard it has been,

wearing the grind like a badge.

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I used to do all of that, and once I heard it, I couldn't stop hearing it.

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And it became almost annoying in my mind.

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And I couldn't believe I just kept repeating that over and over.

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And that's exactly what you want.

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That's the awareness that lets you finally choose a different sentence.

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Here's the other reason this is so brutal.

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And I want to validate it because I lived it.

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It is hard to let the old identity go because she served you so well for so long.

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This isn't an enemy you're trying to defeat.

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This is an old friend.

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This is the part of you that protected you, that got you through, that kept you safe and

fed and standing.

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Letting her go doesn't feel like an upgrade.

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And that's what makes it so hard.

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It feels like betrayal.

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It feels like grief.

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There's a real mourning that happens, and almost nobody warns you about it.

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You're not just changing a habit.

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You're saying goodbye to a version of yourself that earned her place.

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And some part of you whispers, If I let her go, who am I?

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She's the one who knows how to survive.

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What if I need her again?

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That fear is the cage.

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Because as long as you keep her around, just in case, you keep one foot in survival mode.

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And you cannot reign with one foot in survival mode.

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You just can't.

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The body can't hold both at once.

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And I want to validate something else because this is the part that makes people feel

crazy.

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When you start to outgrow an identity, it doesn't go quietly, it gets louder, it fights

for its life.

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You'll make a decision from the new version of you.

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You'll delegate something or raise your price or say no to a client you would have bent

over backwards for last year.

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And then that night you'll lie.

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In bed and the old voice comes roaring back.

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Who do you think you are?

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Remember where you came from, don't get cocky.

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This is how you lose everything.

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That voice feels like wisdom.

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It feels like it's protecting you.

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But Queen, it is not.

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It's the old identity sensing that it's being replaced and doing what any living thing

does when it's threatened.

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It gets loud and it gets scared and it tries to pull you back to safety.

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So I need you to expect that.

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When you start changing and the fear spikes, that is not a sign you're making a mistake.

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That is the sign you're actually doing it.

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The old identity only screams when you're genuinely leaving it behind.

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If it were quiet, you wouldn't really be changing.

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So reframe the two AM voice when it shows up.

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It's not a warning, it's a receipt.

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I want to tell you about the moment it broke open for me.

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I've told pieces of this before, but I want to tell it again because I understand it

differently now.

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So as many of you know, I grew up in Brooklyn and I grew up in a very humble home.

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Poor, if we're being honest.

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I'll just say the word.

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And out of that I built a story about myself.

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And it was a good story.

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I was, I am the girl who survived poverty.

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I am the hustler.

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I clawed my way out.

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I made it against the odds.

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And listen, that story was beautiful in the beginning.

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It was rocket fuel.

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It got me through school, through the degrees, through opening my own practice.

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That story was earned.

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But here's what I didn't realize.

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That story had a side effect.

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It kept me focused on me, my survival, my hustle, my climb, my fee.

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And here's a truth I want to tattoo on your soul today.

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Nobody, and I mean nobody, finds real business success while they're focused on

themselves.

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Because business is a spiritual game, queen.

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Businesses don't exist to make you feel safe.

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Businesses exist to serve other people.

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That's the whole thing.

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That's the entire game.

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So let me take you into the moment I learned that.

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In my practice, early on, money was still tight, the practice was growing, not profitable

yet.

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And I had a consultation where I'm sitting with a mom and her daughter.

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And the girl is a surgical case.

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For my Orthodonic Queens, you what I'm talking about, she was class three open bite.

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That kind of case.

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The girl truly needs surgical orthodontics.

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She genuinely needs the surgery.

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This isn't me upselling air.

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But I'll be honest with you, because we keep it real on this show.

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I was also excited about that case.

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It was a big case.

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Then this is me when you know I was not profitable.

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I barely had patience, and this case walks in the door.

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I know exactly what I need to do.

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The fee on a surgical

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Case much higher than a regular orthodontic case.

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And in the back of my mind, I'm thinking this is the kind of case that helps me.

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These are the type of cases that get my practice over the hump.

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So I'm doing my thing, I'm presenting, and I get to the cost of the surgery and the cost

of the orthodontics, and the mom looks at me and very quietly, with so much dignity, she

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says, Doctor.

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We took the bus to get here.

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And Queen, my heart sank.

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because in that one second the whole thing flipped.

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I'm sitting there, already a doctor, with a wall full of degrees, with a small but growing

practice, and I realized I had survived a long time ago.

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The fight I was still fighting in my head was already won.

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That story I kept telling about surviving Brooklyn, about clawing out of poverty, it was

getting stale.

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It had expired and I had not noticed.

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I was wearing armor in a war that was already over.

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And in front of me was a mom on a bus and a girl who needed help.

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And there were tons of them.

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Tons.

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And what they needed wasn't a hustler obsessed with her own fee.

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They needed a doctor focused on them.

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That was the moment my old story of survival died, right there, and in its place a new

story was born that I am the woman who helps people get a smile they never believed they

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could have.

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That's the day the identity shifted.

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Not in a seminar, not on a vision board, in an exam room, because a woman told me she took

the bus to come see me and she needed another way because she could not afford surgical

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orthodontics.

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And I want to be really honest about what changed after that, because it wasn't some

instant fairy tale.

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It wasn't like I floated out of the room transformed, but something had cracked open that

couldn't close again.

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I started looking at every consultation differently.

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It stopped being how does this case help me and my practice?

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It became what does this person actually need?

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And how do I serve them so well that the business takes care of itself?

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And here's the wild part: the part that proves business is a spiritual game.

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The more I focused on serving them, the more the practice grew.

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The money I'd been chasing, while focused on myself, came rushing in once I stopped

chasing it and started serving.

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It was almost annoying how clearly it worked.

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I'd spent years gripping, hustling, focused on my survival, and the thing I wanted was

sitting on the other side of a door I refused to walk through.

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The door of getting over myself and making it about them.

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And that's the deeper lesson in the survival story that I want you to really catch.

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It's not just that old story was stale.

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It's that the old story was self-focused, and self-focus is a ceiling in business.

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You cannot build something big while the main character is your own struggle.

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At some point, you have to take the spotlight off your climb and put it on the people

you're here to serve.

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And that's not just nicer, it's the actual mechanism of growth.

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The woman on the bus didn't just retire my old story, she'd handed me the real game.

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So, how do you do this on purpose instead of waiting for a bust moment?

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You have to declare the new identity out loud before you have a shred of proof.

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This is the part that feels insane and it's the part that works.

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Most people get this backwards.

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They say, I'll start calling myself a CEO once I'm actually running things like a CEO.

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I'll see myself as a leader once I have the team.

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I'll believe I'm a visionary once the vision is paying off.

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No, Queen.

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That order doesn't work because the results come from the identity, not the other way

around.

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You act in alignment with who you believe you are.

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If you wait for the evidence to upgrade the identity, you'll wait forever because the old

identity will never produce the new evidence.

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You have to flip it.

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You decide who you are now.

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You say it out loud.

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You let it feel ridiculous and uncomfortable and unearned.

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And then this is key.

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You let your behavior catch up to the declaration instead of waiting for permission.

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It's going to feel like lying at first.

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and it's supposed to.

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The new identity always feels like a costume before it feels like your own skin.

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That gap, that awkward in between, that's not a sign you're faking.

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That's the sign you're actually changing.

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The discomfort is the receipt.

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And go back to your language, catch the old story, and gently, on purpose, start telling

the new one.

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Not the survival story, the service story.

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Not I had to claw my way up, try.

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I build things that help people and I'm just getting started.

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Watch what happens in your own chest when you say it.

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Watch how the decisions start to change.

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And let me give you the mechanism here because I don't want you to think this is just

positive thinking, because it's not.

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It's identity-based decision making, and it works like this.

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Instead of asking, what should I do?

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You ask, What would the woman I'm becoming do?

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You make the new identity the filter for every decision before you've earned the right to

feel like her.

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A client pushes on your price, what would the reigning version of you do?

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Someone asks you to take on work that isn't yours anymore?

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What would she do?

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You're scared to delegate the thing only you've ever done.

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What would she do?

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You let her make the call, even when the old you is kicking and screaming.

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And every time you act as her, you give your subconscious a new piece of evidence.

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Oh, I guess that's who we are now.

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Identity isn't changed by insight, it's changed by repetition of aligned action.

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You become her by doing what she do over and over until your nervous system stops

flinching and just accepts it as truth.

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That's the whole secret, honestly.

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You don't wait to feel like a new person and then act like her.

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You act like her on purpose, on faith, before the feeling shows up.

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And the feeling comes last, dragged into reality by the evidence you've been stacking.

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Most people quit in the gap, in the part where they're acting like her, but don't feel

like her yet, because they think the gap means it's fake.

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The gap is the work.

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The gap is the whole thing.

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So let me bring it home with the question I want bringing in your ears all week.

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Not what do you want to do?

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Not what's your goal?

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The real one.

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Who are you willing to become?

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And who are you willing to let go of to get there?

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Because the woman who can run the business you're dreaming about already has a different

relationship with control.

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She delegates without flinching.

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She charges without apologizing.

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She makes decisions from calm, not from fear.

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She is focused on who she serves, not on proving she belongs.

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She does not introduce herself with a survival story because.

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She's not surviving anymore.

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She's reigning.

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She's not someone you have to go find.

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She's someone you have to become by letting the old one rest with gratitude and stepping

into the new one before you feel ready.

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And I want to give you permission for something here because I think you need it.

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You're allowed to honor the old version of you.

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instead of resenting her.

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a lot of personal development talk treats your past self like an enemy you have to defeat.

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Kill the old you no no

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I don't love that because the old you wasn't your enemy.

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She was your champion.

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She fought for you when no one else would.

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So this isn't a war.

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It's a graduation.

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You don't graduate by burning down the school that taught you.

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You graduate by saying thank you and walking out the door into something bigger.

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So here's a little practice I want you to try, and I know it sounds woo, but do it anyway.

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Anyway, actually thank her out loud, in the car, in the shower, wherever.

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Honestly, a mirror is a good place.

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Say thank you for getting me here.

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Thank you for surviving.

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I've got it from here.

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Because the part of you that's scared to let go is scared that letting go means it didn't

matter.

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It mattered enormously.

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Honor it and it loosens its grip.

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Resent it and it digs in.

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Gratitude is how you release an identity without the war.

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And then turn and face the new one.

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Who is she on a Tuesday?

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Not in some far-off fantasy.

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This Tuesday.

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How does she answer the email?

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How does she walk into the meeting?

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How does she say no to before lunch?

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Get specific because vague visions don't change behavior.

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I want to be more confident, does nothing.

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She doesn't apologize before she states her price.

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That you can actually do at 10 a.m.

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Bring her out of the clouds and into your calendar.

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So here's where I want to leave you, Queen.

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You are not stuck.

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I know it feels like stuck, but stuck is when nothing is moving.

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What's actually happening to you is that you've outgrown a version of yourself and you

haven't fully stepped into the next one yet.

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That's not stuck.

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That's the in-between.

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That's the chrysalis.

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And yeah, the chrysalis is dark and it's tight and it feels like everything is falling

apart because it is.

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The old structure has to dissolve for the new one to form.

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That's not a malfunction.

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That's the design.

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So if it feels like a loss right now, you're not doing it wrong.

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You're doing it exactly right.

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You're allowed to grieve the woman who got you here.

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Thank her, honor her.

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She was incredible.

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And then let her rest.

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Because she's done her job.

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And the next chapter doesn't need a fighter.

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It needs a leader.

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You are not the girl on the climb anymore, Queen.

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You survived a long time ago.

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Catch your old story leaking out of your mouth this week.

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Set it down and start telling the truth about who you actually are now.

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You were never meant to keep proving you could make it.

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You already made it.

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Now go become the one who builds something that outlives the proving.

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Thanks for tuning in, Queen.

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I hope today's episode gave you the clarity, courage, or conviction you needed to stop

building your business by accident and start leading it by design.

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More women find this show and more queens rise.

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And when you're ready for the next step, head to dranacastilla.com.

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That's where you'll find my latest resources, ways to work with me, and information on

coaching and speaking.

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Until next time, keep showing up, keep leading boldly, and remember, you were born to

reign.