On this episode of The Karen Kenney Show, I talk about what it means to live with the consequences of being yourself… the good, the bad, and the kinda’ messy in-between.
I share how so much of my work with others and my life was/is about learning how to own our brilliance and our bullshit.
So, we take a look at how our past conditioning, familiar patterns, and played out stories often shape how we show up in the world - sometimes for the better and sometime for the so not soothing worse.
I also get into why a Daily Spiritual Practice (DSP) can be the difference between going out into the world inspired - versus - going out and inflicting yourself on other people.
Through real-life examples, I invite you to take an honest look at the wake you’re leaving behind you each day and ask, “Am I making a contribution to society right now, or am I being a bit of a menace?”
And if you don’t dig the answer, maybe this is your friendly invitation to start getting curious, be honest, and choose again.❤️
KAREN KENNEY BIO:
Karen Kenney is a writer, podcaster, certified spiritual mentor, and coach.
She’s known for her dynamic storytelling, her sense of humor, her Boston accent, and her no-bullshit approach to spirituality, self-development, and transformational work.
She’s been a yoga teacher since 1999, and a Thai Yoga Massage practitioner since 2008.
She's also a speaker, a certified Gateless Writing Instructor, and host of The Karen Kenney Show podcast.
She works with clients individually in her 1:1 program THE QUEST and in her HEART-TO-HEART DAYS via Voxer. She also leads a group coaching program and community called THE NEST.
Her down-to-earth approach brings together practical tools, resources, and stories that encourage curiosity, invite self-awareness, shifts perceptions, and deepens self-knowledge.
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It's the Karen Kenney show. Hey you guys, welcome to
Unknown:the Karen Kenney show. I'm so happy to be here with you for a
Unknown:bunch of different reasons, but the first one being is, I'm just
Unknown:sitting here. I can't believe it's March. March 7 is just a
Unknown:couple of days away, and March 7 will be the seven year
Unknown:anniversary of the Karen Kenney Show podcast, which is just
Unknown:crazy to me. This is episode 356
Unknown:so that's a lot, that's a lot of years, that's a lot of shows,
Unknown:that's a lot of me talking, running my big mouth, that's a
Unknown:lot of you guys tuning in. So just thank you so much to all of
Unknown:my loyal listeners. And if you're new here, welcome. I'm so
Unknown:happy to have you. I just can't believe so much time has passed.
Unknown:And you know I mean, God willing, I'll be able to keep
Unknown:doing another seven you know what I mean. Okay, so just
Unknown:wanted to say that thank you so much for being here. And this
Unknown:episode, I'm going to try to keep my thoughts straight, man,
Unknown:but I have so many things on my hat and on my mind these days,
Unknown:and I wrote down a few notes for myself, and I'm just going to do
Unknown:my best. But one of the things I want to, I think I want to kind
Unknown:of dive into this episode, saying this so much of the work
Unknown:that I do with people, and I work with people in a lot of
Unknown:different ways. You guys know that, right? I've been a yoga
Unknown:teacher forever. I do Thai Yoga, massage, Thai Yoga, body work,
Unknown:spiritual mentor, coach, hypnotism, right? I do gateless
Unknown:writing. I'm a writer. Really. What I am more than anything is
Unknown:a writer and a storyteller.
Unknown:You know, guest teacher, fucking retreat leader, whatever. I do a
Unknown:lot of shit, but so much of the work that I do is an extension
Unknown:of the work that I do and have done with myself, right towards
Unknown:myself, all of the tools, all the skill sets, all the
Unknown:different things that I have gathered were for me first,
Unknown:because I had to go first, because I had some stuff I was
Unknown:navigating right. I'm like, Hello, have you met me right? My
Unknown:childhood, my life, whatever. And so one of the things that I
Unknown:became aware of back in the day when I started really, do we
Unknown:want to call it a journey? I don't know. Man, I was just
Unknown:living my life and trying to be the best person I could be and
Unknown:learn about myself. And so that's my point. So much of my
Unknown:work is built around this. This like self awareness, having more
Unknown:self awareness, having more self knowledge, really understanding
Unknown:yourself better, starting to know why you think, what you
Unknown:think, and say what you say, and believe what you believe, and
Unknown:hold the prejudices you hold, and and understand the systems
Unknown:that you're existing in, whether that's your family or your
Unknown:culture or just the greater, the systems of racism, the systems
Unknown:of patriarchy, the systems of whatever right just
Unknown:understanding who you are, where you are in the world, and how
Unknown:you got to be and behave and believe the way that you do. And
Unknown:so when I'm working with others, this is gonna just stay with me,
Unknown:because this is gonna tie into today's episode. I'm just trying
Unknown:to make a point so much of this, and I used to say, and I still
Unknown:say to all of my clients, right? So much of this is about owning
Unknown:both your brilliance like knowing who you really are,
Unknown:knowing your skill sets, knowing your talents, knowing how loved
Unknown:you are, how how much you matter. Notice, notice the
Unknown:positive impact you have the on the world, right? Owning your
Unknown:brilliance. But then you also have to own your bullshit. You
Unknown:have to own the places where you get triggered. You have to own
Unknown:the places where you tend to drop the ball. You have to own
Unknown:the places where you act like a dick, right? You know what I
Unknown:mean, where you lose your where you're like impatient, or you're
Unknown:unkind or whatever, or you don't keep your word to yourself and
Unknown:others. Whatever we have to, we don't have to. But I would
Unknown:encourage you to understand yourself, to know yourself, and
Unknown:the more that you can do, that you can make better choices that
Unknown:actually represent who you are and who you really want to be.
Unknown:Which brings us to today. You know, I might call this episode
Unknown:the consequences of being yourself, and I want to talk
Unknown:about that word consequences, but I'm also going to tell you
Unknown:where the heartbeat of this came from. So many of you may know
Unknown:that I am a Kripalu Yoga teacher. I have been a Kripalu
Unknown:Yoga teacher. I started teaching yoga in 1999 before I was ever
Unknown:certified. But I became certified in 2001
Unknown:and I lived at the Kripalu center for yoga and health out
Unknown:in the Berkshires in Massachusetts, Western
Unknown:Massachusetts. I lived there for a month, did my ytt, my yoga
Unknown:teacher training there, etc, etc. And every day I would walk
Unknown:by this picture of Swami Kripalu, who we called Bapuji.
Unknown:And the word Kripalu simply means compassion. And I would
Unknown:see this, this picture of this beautiful like, you know, the
Unknown:grandfaire. I call him one of my spiritual grandfathers, because
Unknown:I'm a part of his lineage, the Kripalu lineage, right? And so I
Unknown:would see his beautiful, smiling face throughout the building in
Unknown:different pictures, him and his.
Unknown:Saffron robes, you know. And there was this one quote that
Unknown:said, and people can argue about this, I don't really care
Unknown:whether it's true or real or not, whether it was in the
Unknown:Bhagavad Gita, whether, you know, one of the Kripalu
Unknown:teachers said it, or Swami Kripalu said it. I'm going to
Unknown:say there was a picture of his face. And then there was this
Unknown:quote that said, yoga is tolerating the consequences of
Unknown:being yourself. And you know how we often say, Oh, I saw this
Unknown:thing and it stopped me in my tracks. I mean, when I tell you
Unknown:this quote, literally stopped me dead in my tracks. I'll never
Unknown:forget the first time I saw it. I was coming down the stairs and
Unknown:it like was like, I'm coming down the landing, and boom, it's
Unknown:right there in front of my face. And I literally, kind of
Unknown:stopped, you know, stopped, you know, but like, when a dog, he
Unknown:has a funny sound, and he tilts his head. I kind of tilted my
Unknown:head, and I thought tolerating the consequences of being
Unknown:myself. What is that about? Right? Like, what are the
Unknown:consequences of being myself? And I started to think about
Unknown:this. Now,
Unknown:when I tell people, when I talk to people about this, right,
Unknown:there are consequences for you being the way that you are now,
Unknown:who you truly are underneath all your conditioning and your
Unknown:patterns and your behaviors and your history and your bullshit,
Unknown:underneath your personality and your ego and all that I believe
Unknown:there is the true you, the true blue, real deal, Holyfield, you,
Unknown:right? That, to me, is love. It is compassion, it's kindness,
Unknown:it's eternal. It never dies. When your body falls away, that
Unknown:energy that is you, that loving source of you, it continues,
Unknown:right? You don't have to believe the same thing as me. I just
Unknown:believe this. Okay, this is what I think. This is what I think I
Unknown:could be wrong, and maybe one day I'll find out, right. But
Unknown:for now, I think underneath it all that there is a divine spark
Unknown:that animates all of us, that this is who we are, okay, having
Unknown:said that, okay, I'm like, underneath, underneath that is
Unknown:this. But on top of that beautiful, divine spark of love
Unknown:and goodness and compassion and kindness and mercy and all those
Unknown:things, there is your personality. Your personality is
Unknown:often what I'm talking about, or what I believe this quote is
Unknown:talking about the consequence of being yourself. Now here's the
Unknown:thing about this word, consequence. Consequences. This
Unknown:word has a negative connotation. In our society, we often think
Unknown:of consequences as being something bad, right? Like, oh
Unknown:my god. But here's the thing, there can also be positive
Unknown:consequences. In fact, the word consequences is actually
Unknown:neutral. So as I often like to do, you guys know, I'm a little
Unknown:bit of a word nerd.
Unknown:So here's the definition. I'm going to read it to you. I'm
Unknown:just holding up the paper consequence noun. This is what
Unknown:it means a result or effect of an action or condition. Here's
Unknown:it. Here it is in a sentence, right? Many have been laid off
Unknown:from work as a consequence of the administration's policies.
Unknown:So it doesn't say that consequences are negative. There
Unknown:can also be positive consequences, and you can just
Unknown:switch out the word result or outcome, right? Sometimes there
Unknown:are positive outcomes, sometimes there are negative outcomes,
Unknown:sometimes there are negative results, and sometimes there are
Unknown:positive results. So the word consequence, and I thought this
Unknown:was important in this context, because the consequences of
Unknown:being yourself can have both positive impact on yourself and
Unknown:others, the world around you, the animals, whoever you're
Unknown:interacting with, it can also have negative consequences,
Unknown:right? So I wanted to get that clear as we move forward that
Unknown:consequences aren't just negative. They can be both, so
Unknown:a lot of times. And the reason why I'm talking about this is I
Unknown:don't think we spend enough time thinking about the consequences
Unknown:of us being ourselves in the way that we are in the world, the
Unknown:way that we talk, the way that we think, the way that we speak,
Unknown:the way that we believe, the way that we vote, the way we spend
Unknown:our money, how we do things. So many of us are on autopilot. So
Unknown:many people at thinking about things. They just are in their
Unknown:little world, on their, you know, when you when we were
Unknown:kids, we were because I was, you know, I always wanted, like,
Unknown:Tomboy, like, I guess you could just call them toys, but toys
Unknown:that, back in the day lean towards, like, being a quote,
Unknown:unquote tomboy or whatever, right? So I like GI Joe dolls. I
Unknown:didn't like dolls and stuff like, I wanted, like Tonka
Unknown:Trucks, and I wanted, like, race car tracks and like, I wanted
Unknown:all that stuff. Right back in the day you would have these
Unknown:little race contracts, and they would have like, little grooves
Unknown:in them. And so your cars would like zip around on the tracks,
Unknown:but they would stay, like, every once in a while we go, they
Unknown:would like go flying. And if you've ever had one, you know
Unknown:exactly what I'm talking about, it would go flying off the
Unknown:track. You know what I mean. And so Wait, how did I get on this?
Unknown:On talking about it? Oh, my God.
Unknown:I'm gonna have to pause because I gotta think about this for a
Unknown:second, Jesus.
Unknown:And I'm back, I just remember what the guy was talking about.
Unknown:Okay, so sometimes we just kind of get into this track, this
Unknown:groove, and we don't question anything. We don't look around.
Unknown:We're just like, oh, that's just how I am, that's just how they
Unknown:are. That's just how he is or she is. And we don't think about
Unknown:right? We don't question things. We just kind of do the same shit
Unknown:over and over and over again, but not realizing I think of it
Unknown:like when you're when there's a boat, and you're driving on a
Unknown:boat, and a boat always leaves a wake behind it in the water,
Unknown:right? Even if you're paddling, if you ever like, if you canoe,
Unknown:even if you don't have a moda, right? And you paddle that
Unknown:canoe, when you look back that little paddle being in the water
Unknown:and that stroke, it causes a little like swirl, a little Eddy
Unknown:in the water, right? It's like, whoo. So who and how we're
Unknown:being. It has consequences, both positively and negatively, and
Unknown:we have to be aware of this. And so I'm going to give you a few
Unknown:stories and a few examples of why this has kind of been on my
Unknown:mind. You know, I talk about, like, when I'm talking with
Unknown:people about creating a daily spiritual practice, right? I
Unknown:don't get too hung up on exactly what they're doing. I'm like,
Unknown:Hey, we created DSP. We create a daily spiritual practice.
Unknown:Because when you do a daily spiritual practice, when you
Unknown:start your day being more aware and being more conscious and
Unknown:having a conscious connection to something greater than you,
Unknown:however you might define that, your higher power, your highest
Unknown:self, Mother Nature, the universe, God source, the divine
Unknown:intelligence, the loving intelligence. I don't care what
Unknown:people call it. When you start your day in your awareness of
Unknown:relationship to that, you spend time in meditation or
Unknown:contemplation or prayer or just quiet time, right? You're doing
Unknown:things to like again, people's DSP can look 1000 different
Unknown:ways, but you're spending time in the morning doing, you know,
Unknown:morning pages you're writing out longhand. You're starting to
Unknown:kind of get your mind right. You're starting to get on board
Unknown:with the kind of day you would like to create and what you're
Unknown:going to get done and who you might come across right? That's
Unknown:why, you know, I say that that prayer every day. Have me go
Unknown:where you would have me go. Have me do what you would have me do.
Unknown:Have me say what you would have me say, and to whom please use
Unknown:me try to put yourself in service to something higher than
Unknown:you, to be used by a greater force, like a force of love, to
Unknown:be in service to love. Okay? Because doing that first thing
Unknown:in the morning, before you get on your phone, before you turn
Unknown:on the news, before you read the newspaper, before you start to
Unknown:become bombarded by the horrors and the tragedies that are going
Unknown:on out there, right? And yes, of course, there are some good,
Unknown:beautiful and holy things and people and stuff happening, but
Unknown:those don't sell papers. Those don't get clicks. So a lot of
Unknown:our news that we're being bombarded with is negative and
Unknown:scary because, oh, and your nervous system gets hijacked and
Unknown:you're just exhausted before you even go out the door. So having
Unknown:a daily spiritual practice at DSP, right? And when I talk to
Unknown:my clients about this, it helps to set you up for success. It
Unknown:helps to point you in the right direction, get you on the right
Unknown:track. You declare, this is the kind of day I'm going to have,
Unknown:and I'm going to get my rhyme right, and I'm going to, you
Unknown:know, do my best to do that again, not always successful,
Unknown:but you're way better off than having not done it right. When
Unknown:you start your day with a little gratitude and a little insight
Unknown:and a little like, you know, awareness beyond just you and
Unknown:your own world, right? Like, hello, we're all connected to
Unknown:each other. This is how we get through this thing together.
Unknown:Okay, you start your day like that. It's the difference I
Unknown:often say about going out into the world in an inspired way,
Unknown:versus going out and inflicting yourself on other people. I'm
Unknown:going to say that again, it's the difference between going out
Unknown:into the world in a more inspired way, right, versus
Unknown:going out and inflicting yourself on other people.
Unknown:Because if you're not aware of who you are and how you are, if
Unknown:you've got some sort of an attitude problem, if you're
Unknown:always angry or always complaining, are always
Unknown:miserable, or always just like, you know, whatever, if you're
Unknown:always greedy, if you're always in a place of expectation or
Unknown:privilege, or what's the word I'm looking for? You? What's the
Unknown:word I'm looking for? Entitled? Oh, my fucking god, people who
Unknown:move through the world in such an entitled way, you know what
Unknown:I'm saying? Oh, my God. You don't realize there are
Unknown:consequences to you being you and the way that you are each
Unknown:day, when you go out into the world, and even if you stay at
Unknown:home and work online, right you there are consequences to let's
Unknown:say you're somebody who
Unknown:doesn't I'm not judging people who don't clean. Everybody is
Unknown:different. Everybody has different levels of comfort and
Unknown:neatness around things like that. But, you know, there are
Unknown:consequences to not cleaning up. This is how you start to get
Unknown:bugs or cockroaches sometimes, or like, you know, if you never
Unknown:like cleaned up after your dog or your cat, you'll end up with
Unknown:shit and.
Unknown:Kiss everywhere in your house. You know what I'm saying. So
Unknown:there are consequences to the choices that we make and who we
Unknown:are and how we are. We're constantly teaching people. We
Unknown:are constantly demonstrating what we believe by what we do
Unknown:and don't do, by what we say and don't say by our actions, right?
Unknown:Okay, now I saw this really funny. Now I often do episodes,
Unknown:because something will keep coming to me in different forms,
Unknown:whether it's from the universe, universal signs. Kismet, you
Unknown:know, what do they call it? Coincidence, whatever people
Unknown:want to call it again. I don't get hung up on it, but I saw
Unknown:this really funny meme, and on it, just imagine there's a light
Unknown:switch on the wall and there's a finger going towards the wall,
Unknown:and the light switch right now is in the on position. It's up
Unknown:and on the up position. Other words, this contribute to
Unknown:society. And in the off position, it says menace to
Unknown:society. I thought this was so freaking funny, right? And it's
Unknown:like, yeah, we're gonna choose. Like, you know when people say,
Unknown:Oh, he woke up today and he chose violence, right? Well, so
Unknown:in each moment, right? Each day, we are deciding, how am I going
Unknown:to be again? Am I going to go out into the world, right and
Unknown:own my brilliance and move in an inspired way, or am I going to
Unknown:go out into the world in my bullshit, in my patterns, in my
Unknown:trauma, in my stuff, right, in my wounds? It's okay if you have
Unknown:wounds, but if you're not aware that you have a wound that you
Unknown:is bleeding out, it will have a consequence ultimately, right?
Unknown:But sometimes your blood is getting all over everybody else.
Unknown:Okay? So it's like, am I going to go out into the world in that
Unknown:more inspired way, or am I going to go out and be a menace to
Unknown:society? Am I going to inflict myself on people? And it's not
Unknown:always in these grandiose ways, right? You ever hear that phrase
Unknown:death by 1000 paper cuts? Right? If you're living with somebody
Unknown:who is in their own insecurity, so they're jealous, or they're
Unknown:whatever, so they'll just take these little pot shots at you,
Unknown:or they'll start to do weird shit, like looking through your
Unknown:phone or like, Now, look, I get sometimes that's necessity,
Unknown:because you understand that somebody's doing something
Unknown:dangerous or whatever. I'm not again, I'm not here to judge
Unknown:people's actions. I'm just saying there are times when we
Unknown:know that, like something is up and it's like, right? But
Unknown:people's insecurity also has consequences. I got a story
Unknown:about that for another time, right? But if you don't check
Unknown:yourself, you're not only going to wreck yourself, you're going
Unknown:to wreck other people that are around you. And this is why I
Unknown:often say to like parents, especially if I'm working with a
Unknown:parent, I'm like one of the greatest gifts you can give your
Unknown:kids is to get your shit together, is to know yourself,
Unknown:to know your history, to know your your your trauma that has
Unknown:been passed down from generation to generation, your happiness,
Unknown:your sense of self, your sense of safety, your sense of knowing
Unknown:who you are, your sense of feeling a connection to your
Unknown:history and your people and your ancestors in your past. Right to
Unknown:be grounded in even if your your origin, your family of origin,
Unknown:was a shit show. You can get out of that once you're an adult,
Unknown:most of the time. Not everybody can. I understand that, but most
Unknown:people can, and they can start to live differently and choose
Unknown:differently and behave differently, right? And so that
Unknown:meme was making me think about this, right? Am I going to be a
Unknown:contribution? Am I going to contribute to society, or am I
Unknown:going to be a fucking menace to society? And I got to tell you,
Unknown:there's a lot of people out in the world right now who are
Unknown:being a menace to society, and whether or not like I'm just
Unknown:thinking about right our current, this current
Unknown:administration, and thinking about Trump, I got to say this,
Unknown:whatever you feel about that. I know strongly how I feel. And
Unknown:this to me, just from not even a political point of view, just
Unknown:from a personal human like in the work that I do observing
Unknown:human behavior. This is a person who has been inflicting himself
Unknown:on others for a really long time. This is a person who does
Unknown:not seem self aware at all,
Unknown:or the story they tell themselves about who they think
Unknown:they are is not as cognitive dissonance there. But I'll tell
Unknown:you this, when a person like that makes a decision to go to
Unknown:war without not even going to the correct channel, just
Unknown:illegally starting a war for his own means, whatever, and then
Unknown:you bomb a girls school and you kill over 150 people, mostly
Unknown:children, mostly little girls. This is a person who is
Unknown:inflicting themselves on the world. This is a person who is
Unknown:there are consequences to that person being who and how they
Unknown:are. And I don't know about you, but I don't want to be that kind
Unknown:of person. I want to be able to own my shit. I want to I want to
Unknown:become more aware of my blind spots and know what pushes,
Unknown:quote, unquote, my buttons and what gets me scared or anxious
Unknown:or worked up or whatever, and not not showing up from a place
Unknown:of love. I want to understand the ways that I go into fear or
Unknown:lack or scarcity or whatever, what my pattern.
Unknown:Have been now, sometimes we need help, right, figuring that stuff
Unknown:out. That's why there are counselors and coaches and
Unknown:mentors and therapists and whatever. This is why we have
Unknown:support groups like Al Anon and AA and over eat is anonymous and
Unknown:this, that and the other thing, that's why there are communities
Unknown:like the nest, like I run, right? Sometimes we need help
Unknown:kind of navigating this whole being human experience, because
Unknown:it's fucking hard. It's hard, but we can only there's only so
Unknown:many excuses you can make. Right? Like I said to a client
Unknown:the other day, trauma explains a lot of things, right? Our
Unknown:trauma, our stories, what happened. It explains how we got
Unknown:here, why we might kind of be the way that we are, but it does
Unknown:not excuse once we understand and once we know what we do
Unknown:going forward, we can't just keep blaming it on our poor
Unknown:childhood and the thing that happened to us at some point.
Unknown:And I understand we're all existing also within systems.
Unknown:I'm not saying that all everybody's starting at the same
Unknown:place, or has the same resources, but I am saying that
Unknown:when we start to get little glimpses of, Oh, when I do this,
Unknown:that happens when I say that, that happens when I say to do
Unknown:this or not do that, or whatever, me being myself, it
Unknown:has consequences both positive and negative. If you think about
Unknown:somebody who's an alcoholic, especially if they're a parent
Unknown:or in a marriage or a relationship or a family, or
Unknown:they just have friends who care about them, right? And they're
Unknown:starting to drink too much, and it starts to get out of control,
Unknown:and now they're driving drunk, and they're doing things right,
Unknown:they're not only having consequences on their own mental
Unknown:well being, sometimes their jobs, sometimes their families,
Unknown:sometimes their relationships. They lose those and there are
Unknown:consequences that they personally pay, but there's also
Unknown:other consequences. I remember when I was a bartender, and I
Unknown:would see people come in and day after day after day just
Unknown:drinking themselves slowly to death and the like I'm not
Unknown:saying like, Oh, poor me, because I was, you know, had to
Unknown:see that. But I will say, as a sensitive person, it weighed
Unknown:heavy on my hat. It's why I stopped bartending. It was one
Unknown:of the reasons I'm like, I don't want to come here every day and
Unknown:watch people slowly kill themselves, watch people get
Unknown:sloppy, watch people get belligerent and mean, watch
Unknown:people, you know, sitting at the bar, coming there every day
Unknown:because they're deathly lonely, but they don't talk to anybody
Unknown:about it, whatever, whatever, whatever. And again, I'm not
Unknown:judging people who drink. These are just examples of how I kind
Unknown:of see it. And one of the most powerful things that I saw this
Unknown:week that kind of points to this consequence of being yourself.
Unknown:Now this video might be months old, a year old. I don't even
Unknown:know. I just saw the video, and it just was like getting punched
Unknown:in the face. And it's a video of this guy, and I tried to find
Unknown:the real story, or the back story. I see different people
Unknown:saying different things about it, but I will say this, there's
Unknown:apparently a woman. She might be a woman of color. She's standing
Unknown:on her porch as she's in her yard, and apparently this guy
Unknown:has done this before. So there's a guy, a white guy, driving down
Unknown:the street in a pickup truck. She's just in her yard,
Unknown:whatever. Now he obviously has a problem with her. Some stories
Unknown:said it was because of her bumper stickers. Some stories
Unknown:said it was because she was black. Some stories said it was
Unknown:because he was a neighbor, and they don't get whatever. I don't
Unknown:really know the reason, and it doesn't on some level, on some
Unknown:level, it doesn't matter to the point that I'm trying to make.
Unknown:So he's driving down this quiet, little residential street in his
Unknown:truck. She's in her yard or on her porch, you don't know,
Unknown:because the vantage point is from her camera. She's filming,
Unknown:and she's filming this guy as he's driving down the street,
Unknown:and as he gets close to her house and he sees her, he
Unknown:basically turns his head to look at her, and he flips her the
Unknown:bird, right? He does the fuck you with his finger. Okay?
Unknown:Because he's distracted, because he's caught up in being himself,
Unknown:which is, I'm going to be this guy that flips off this woman
Unknown:who's in her yacht or whatever, he ends up swerving his car. He
Unknown:hit his truck, he scrapes up a packed car, bounces up onto the
Unknown:sidewalk and then slams into a concrete wall.
Unknown:And I'm watching this, and the whole time I'm just cringing.
Unknown:I'm cringing from everything, from the fact that this woman
Unknown:was filming him, which tells me this has probably happened
Unknown:before. She's been harassed, or he's mean or out of control, and
Unknown:whatever, she's documenting it for a reason that was like, Oh
Unknown:man, that hurt my hat. Then I see what he does, and I'm like,
Unknown:Oh my god. Can you imagine being this woman and having to deal
Unknown:with this shit? Now, again. I don't know that. I don't know
Unknown:the real story of what's going on, but I'm just, you know, from
Unknown:what I saw. Then I watch him wreck another person's car
Unknown:that's just packed on the street. Then he could have, he
Unknown:could have hit somebody, if anybody had been walking on that
Unknown:sidewalk, thank God there wasn't. And then he slams his
Unknown:own truck into the car and.
Unknown:Know what he says
Unknown:first of all, and I don't, I don't usually say this word, but
Unknown:I'm going to say it just so you get the this is not a word for
Unknown:whatever. I swear. I swear like a sailor, but this is just isn't
Unknown:something that you know what I tend to say, but this is what he
Unknown:says. He puts it in pack, he swings open his door, and he
Unknown:screams, god damn it.
Unknown:And the second thing he screams in her direction is, I fucking
Unknown:hate you.
Unknown:And then he says again, God damn it. And now he's having a
Unknown:tantrum like a toddler. He's like stomping his feet. And she
Unknown:just very calmly says, are you okay? And he yells, no. And now
Unknown:he's walking in the street looking at the car he just hit,
Unknown:and she says, are you hurt? And he says, Yes. And she says,
Unknown:physically. And he walks away. And what I hear is, I give up.
Unknown:Somebody else said somewhere that they interpreted it as I
Unknown:need help, but I heard I give up. And then he just kind of
Unknown:like, says, I'm gonna fucking die. And I'm
Unknown:just like, Oh, my God, this right here encapsulates the
Unknown:consequences of being yourself. Because he had no self control.
Unknown:He felt the need to flip this person off. And some people are
Unknown:like, Oh, it's instant comma, whatever. I found no joy in this
Unknown:video at all. The whole thing just made me sad. It was just
Unknown:like such a shit show of dysregulation, and this is what
Unknown:I'm talking about. If you have no self knowledge, if you have
Unknown:no self awareness, if you don't understand the workings of your
Unknown:own mind, like, seriously, we are I'm hitting my body right
Unknown:now. We are operating heavy machinery. You should understand
Unknown:how your brain works. You should get a book at the library, and
Unknown:if you can't read, listen to it on tape or something like that,
Unknown:but start to understand how your body and your brain and your
Unknown:nervous system works. Learn a little bit about trauma, learn a
Unknown:little bit about our history. Learn a little bit about, like,
Unknown:just all of it, right. Like, learn about how we find
Unknown:ourselves, where we are at this particular point in time. But
Unknown:start on the micro start with yourself. Start with yourself.
Unknown:Because whether we like it or not, there are consequences of
Unknown:us being ourselves, and we don't just inflict it on us. Animals
Unknown:pay the price all the time for people being themselves. Animals
Unknown:pay the negative consequences of people deciding that they don't
Unknown:have value, that their products that we wear and that we eat and
Unknown:that we murder and that we use for entertainment, right? There
Unknown:are consequences to us just being here, alive on the planet
Unknown:and what we're doing to the planet, in the environment and
Unknown:Mother Nature. Our choices matter, our self knowledge
Unknown:matters, our self awareness matters.
Unknown:I can literally go on and on and on about this, right? But it's
Unknown:so important you guys, am I going to contribute to society,
Unknown:or am I going to be a menace to society? And when you don't know
Unknown:yourself, when you don't understand the consequences of
Unknown:you being you, right? There are positive consequences, your
Unknown:brilliance, own that that's beautiful, but do not turn a
Unknown:blind eye to the negative consequences, right? Going out
Unknown:and inflicting yourself on others, you're also inflicting
Unknown:yourself, sometimes on yourself. Now, I can't make people want to
Unknown:do that kind of work. I just say I'm here when people are ready
Unknown:to do that work. You know, I'm easy to find. Karen kenney.com
Unknown:you know, this is the work that I continue to do on myself,
Unknown:because I got to keep an eye on my own nonsense and my own
Unknown:bullshit. You know what I mean? If I have a blind spot, I expect
Unknown:my friends, my sweetie, my best friends, right to go like, hey,
Unknown:hey, like, compassionately, right? And, like, do it kindly,
Unknown:or I'm not interested. But you can say anything to me. It's
Unknown:about the way that you say it to me, right? If I know that you're
Unknown:on my team, if I know you're on my side and you're trying to be
Unknown:helpful, I can hear just about anything. So here's the thing,
Unknown:you guys, that's where I'm gonna leave it with. I gotta run. I
Unknown:gotta go. I have a client. Actually, I gotta go. I gotta go
Unknown:give a Thai Yoga massage. So just thank you for tuning in.
Unknown:Thank you for being a part of my podcast. Family. Yay. For seven
Unknown:years, I'm so excited. I hope something that I shared from my
Unknown:heart today also lands in yours. If it was helpful in some way,
Unknown:share it with somebody else. Or send up a flare, let me know,
Unknown:because I got to tell you, sometimes having a podcast or a
Unknown:newsletter or whatever, you're just kind of sending it out into
Unknown:the ethers and you don't know, like you, yeah, I could look at
Unknown:my stats and be like, Oh, this many people listen, but I don't
Unknown:know how long they're listening. I mean, I guess I could really
Unknown:do the deep dive, but it's so nice to feel like there's a
Unknown:connection in a community. So if I share something and it
Unknown:resonates with you, or it makes you think, or you go, Oh, or
Unknown:even if you disagree a little bit, whatever, right? It's nice.
Unknown:Send up a flare. Let me know. Reach out and.
Unknown:Talk to me and let me know I bump into people out in public.
Unknown:Sometimes I have no idea, no idea that they listen to the
Unknown:show, and then all of a sudden they'll say, Oh, I listened to
Unknown:the show. Like, hearing that. It's like, it's nice. It's like
Unknown:getting a little warm hug, right? It's sweet. It's like,
Unknown:oh, maybe this is, like, is landing for people, or making a
Unknown:difference, or whatever. And we all want to know that, don't we?
Unknown:We all want to know that it's something that we're doing or
Unknown:how we're trying, you know, it's it matters.
Unknown:It's not why we do it. You know, I'm not doing it for the likes,
Unknown:the clicks, the follows, the whatever, but it is nice to know
Unknown:that it is landing in people's hats. So I appreciate you so
Unknown:much. Thank you for being here. Thank you for listening wherever
Unknown:you go. May you leave yourself in the animals and the
Unknown:environment and the other people that you come into contact with
Unknown:better than how you found them wherever you go? May you and
Unknown:your energy and your love and your presence? May it be a
Unknown:positive consequence? May it be a blessing? Bye.
Unknown:Hey. Thanks so much for listening to the show. I really
Unknown:love spending some time together. Now, if you dig the
Unknown:show or know someone that could benefit from this episode,
Unknown:please share it with them and help me to spread the good word
Unknown:and the love. And if you want to be in the know about all of my
Unknown:upcoming shenanigans, head on over to Karen kenney.com/sign
Unknown:up and join my list. It'll be wicked fun to stay in touch.
Unknown:Bye. You.