We all have a story to tell- a past that makes us who we are. In this inaugural episode of the Becoming the Big Me podcast I share with you mine. From drug addiction and teen motherhood to building a business and my spiritual awakening. I have walked through the depths of hell and made it to the other side. This episode will give you a sneak peek into my journey and what brought me to be the woman, mom, and business owner I am today.

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I was not going to be another statistic. My daughter was not

going to be another statistic. I knew that I had to do everything

in my power to create something larger to create something

better to make a life worth living for the both of us.

Hello, fellow Earthlings. Welcome to the becoming the big

me podcast. I'm your host,

Djemilah, Birnie. And together, we will be stepping

into our highest potential, exploring all things mind,

body, and soul. With justice, major business,

you're a spiritual badass solopreneur and a warrior for

change, you're ready to expand your impact and leave your old

self behind in order to raise your vibration so that you can

positively influence your business, your community, and

ultimately,

the world.

Without further ado, let's dive right into it.

Hello, Hello,

I am so excited to have you here joining me today for the first

episode. Yes. Now, this has been a long time coming. And it has

been something that has been on my heart for a year now and

my

head, my mind my limiting beliefs. I allowed them to hold

me back from starting, but no longer you were going where I'm

diving in. And I'm so excited to be on this journey. And I am so

excited to bring you along with me on this journey. Now, this

podcast is going to be a combination of interviews with

lots of amazing, amazing beautiful solopreneurs

entrepreneurs and spiritual minded individuals and a

collection of monologues that I will be sharing with you just

about all encompassing mind, body, soul, and just a little

bit of business. I am an entrepreneur, I am a business

owner, a solopreneur, a creative a visionary, and a multi

passionate being. And I can't wait to dive in to all of these

topics. to really help you grow and develop into your highest

self and step into the human being a you are meant to be the

person that you were put on this planet to be. Now as I start

this podcast, I find it fitting for this first episode, to be a

place where I can share my story. We all have a story, a

pass that makes us

who we are. And this this is mine. I grew up in a broken

home,

as many of us do these days, bouncing back from Parent to

Parent,

never really having a sense of home or making really strong

bonds with friends

and connections.

And

as a child, I never really realized how it affected me.

But it did

it it affected me greatly. So much so that by the age of 13 I

found myself

drinking

every single day in class in my coffee cup.

Not to be cool not

to share with others. In fact, nobody even knew it was just my

way of dealing with my pain of being able to feel okay. By the

age of 14 I was doing lines of ketamine in the bathroom off my

math book. And before I knew it, my drug problem just continued

to escalate.

I find myself I found myself

doing anything really, that I could get my hands on. At the

age of 18 I mean, by the age of 16, I was 18, barely. By the

time that my daughter was born, I found myself homeless, living

in a tent, and a full blown heroin addict. That is also when

I found out I was pregnant with my daughter, my now six year

old. That is when everything hit me. I didn't know what I was

going to do. I didn't know how I was going to move forward. All I

knew was that where I was, was not okay.

The man that I was with was not okay. Now, at this point, I had

absolutely no self worth. I had been beaten down in an abusive

relationship with a man who is also an addict. When I found out

I was pregnant, I knew that this child, this being this innocent

soul, did not deserve the life that I was living. She needed

more. She didn't do anything. wasn't her fault that her mom

was a stupid, pathetic loser. So I needed to change. And I needed

to change real quick cuz baby was coming soon. It was not

hard. It was not hard to leave that man. It was not hard to get

out of that situation. But I had to find the strength inside me

to do it. If I was going to keep that trial. Nobody thought I

should. And I can see how from the outside looking in. wasn't

necessarily, you know, the ideal situation wasn't something any

child should be brought into.

But you see, what happened

was that child, she's sparked a fire inside my heart. A fire

that has kept burning and burning. Since that moment. I

knew that she had the odds stacked against her. I mean,

heck, her mom was a freakin drug addict, teen mom.

I knew

that if I wanted this kid to have any chance, I was going to

have to do everything in my power to be there for her in the

best way possible. I was not going to be another statistic.

My daughter was not going to be another statistic. I knew that I

had to do everything in my power to create something larger to

create something better to make a life worth living for the both

of us.

I wanted to give her

the best start possible. She already had the odds stacked

against her.

So I had to

create something and I had no clue what but I just knew that I

had to create something that would allow me to stay home with

her for at least that first year. Everything I had been

reading was talking all about the importance of breastfeeding

and the importance of that first year. And I wanted to make that

happen for her. So paddling, mostly because of the guilt that

I had inside.

You see, I didn't even know, I was pregnant until the

end of my third trimester. I mean, the end of my first

trimester, not my third.

The thing is, when you've been using drugs for so long, your

body changes. And I hadn't had a period in a very long time.

The only reason

that I even knew or questioned

anything at all, was because every time I would try to smoke

a cigarette, I would throw up. One of my friends said to me,

You ever thought that you might be pregnant? I was like, no, not

possible.

I didn't think

that I could get pregnant. Because I wasn't having a

period.

Silly me.

I was wrong. Um, but my friend, she insisted. She's like, just

get a test. Just see. And so she actually bought me a test and I

ended up taking it and Yep,

sure enough, I was pregnant.

But because I had been using, I was using heroin. That whole

beginning of my pregnancy, I knew that I might have a long

road ahead. And I had to do what I needed to do. To create a

better life for this child. I was not going to let people the

naysayers the haters be right. I wasn't going to let the people

who told me I should get rid of her be right. So I decided,

screw you guys. I'm going to create fucking magical last

life. My daughter and I were gonna have an amazing life. I

took the little money I had. And YouTube. And I started my first

business. What was it you might ask? custom organic cloth

diapers. The funny thing is, when I first decided on my

product, I had no idea how to sell. Thankfully, in this 21st

century, we have the blessing of the internet. And I had all the

information I needed right at my fingertips. So I taught myself

how to sew on YouTube, started creating drafting patterns and

gifting them to the other teen moms at my teen moms school and

the moms in my support groups to have them,

test them out and give

me their opinions and get reviews. I ended up finding a

product that I was happy with. And I was off to the

races.

And it was wonderful. It was hard. It was fucking hard. But

how was he able to create a business off of $50 and my

phone. I built my business completely online, on Facebook.

And I was selling all across the United States Do you like all

over US, Canada and Australia. After two years, I had grown so

large that I could no longer keep up with demand. And I had

no clue how to sail, how to scale. I also had an active two

year old running around getting everything I found myself having

to stay up all night and so because I could no longer doing

it doing it during the day. That's when I ended up closing

my doors. That business served its personal purpose and it was

time for me to move on. And up we're entering the corporate

world of sales in the wireless industry. In less than a year, I

was promoted from a mere sales rep to having my own store.

After only a couple of months, I had improved the profit of that

location by over 300%. That's when I realized I knew how to

build businesses. And I knew how to utilize

the internet. So I ended up leaving

that corporate life, once again, for my daughter, I loved my job.

But I have a full time nanny, and never got to see my kid. I

was working six days a week commuting in Seattle. And on the

day, I didn't come in, I was on the phone all day with my

employees. So once again, it was time for a shift.

And I shifted. After that,

I got into a multi level marketing company. And that's

where I got my

introduction

to the personal development world. Now, I still had a very,

very, very long ways to go. But the seed was being planted. I

didn't stay with that company for too long. It served its

purpose. It did what it needed. But I realized that my passion

was in helping other people's businesses grow. So that's what

I started to do. I started freelancing, doing all sorts of

different digital marketing tasks. That's what leads me into

where I am today. Really, it was the precursor. At this point. I

was not low whoo, whoo, quantum manifesting goddess. spiritual

being that I am today. In fact, high was no, were near it. Those

people drove me insane. My best friend growing up mom was this

Dario? Typical, whoo, whoo, out there, hippie dippie. lady who

would wear cowboy boots for a week straight saying, I have to

wear them. 24 seven, until money comes in. We thought she was

insane. But the funny thing is, every time she pulled out her

boots, money came. So I actually had my spiritual awakening, my

accidental spiritual awakening, about a year and a half ago.

And it came

in the form of a near death experience. I mean, it wasn't. I

don't know if I can say near death, but

I'll just tell you the story. So I was taking a shower, it was

late at night, my daughter was asleep in her bed. And as I was

in the shower,

the my sound

went out, my hearing, my sound went out. My hearing faded out,

and I could no longer hear the water from my shower, hitting

the floor. And then my vision started creeping in. It was at

this moment that I knew I was going down. I was about to pass

out. My whole life started flashing before my eyes. what

was going to happen? Was my daughter gonna wake up to me

dead in the shower with no one here. No one to know.

alone.

I desperately started to try and get out of the shower. I just

had to get out of the house. If I could get out of the house.

Someone would find me and someone would know that she was

there. Those were the only thoughts going through my head.

I didn't make it out of the house. I barely made it out of

the bathroom. When I finally went down for the count

No,

I was not I'm still not sure why I passed out. I can only you

know, give credit to the divine universe for that. Really. I

know I wasn't passed out for Very long, because when I woke

up my shower water was still warm.

But when I woke up, I was not on any,

in any dimension

that I had ever experienced before. I could say there was

rainbows everywhere I could see sounds and hear people's

thoughts. In short, I felt like I had woken up in a mushroom

trip. I was freaked out. So much so that I went into the doctor,

the doctor said I was fine. And I was like, really, because

there's rainbows all around your head. But I just went along my

merry way. And continued, I was like, you know what's kind of

cool. I'm having this ability to influence thoughts and

conversations with my mind. Weird, never been able to do

that before I can understand people completely. For the first

time in my life, my mind was quiet. And I just felt a sense

of bliss. It was overwhelming, however, because I wasn't sure

what I was dealing with. Was I crazy, was I insane? Did I need

to check myself into a mental Institute, I wasn't quite sure.

I no longer knew what was real and what wasn't had I actually

died was I in a different place? rehab what was going on. So I

started begging, I started praying to the universe as a

crease, make it stop, I can't handle it anymore. So after

about a month of living in that state,

it stopped.

But I was forever changed. I started diving deep into

spirituality, and the quantum field, I realize that that

experience happened to me for a reason. I needed to have a

belief in the energy and the power that we have. That's when

I started consciously manifesting things in my life.

And I was able to do it in an instant. Why? Because my belief

was already there. I had experienced it, I had felt it.

And it was crazy. Ever since then, I have dedicated myself

into diving into all things quantum

spirituality, subconscious programming, and

raising the vibration and the consciousness of this planet.

I discovered

neuro linguistic programming and hypnosis. So I decided, heck,

let's get trained on this ish. I want to learn how to tap into my

subconscious program and I want to learn how to help other

people tap into their subconscious programming, and

rewire the limiting beliefs that have been holding us back for so

long.

We all have infinite

potential inside of us. We have the power to create anything our

hearts desires. We are spiritual beings living in a physical

reality.

Thank you for tuning in to today's episode of The becoming

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