In a candid conversation with a sister coach, Amie Wade, we discuss the power of living life as a conscious spiritual journey. She shares her experiences moving through a traumatic childhood, difficult relationships, struggling with suicidal ideation, and finding the way forward. We talk about nudges from spirit, and the power of love within, forgiveness of self, and the magic that comes from identifying your spiritual support system. When you create awareness around energy, you invite love and create space for surrender, forgiveness, and compassion. Spreading the love to create peace!

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Hi friend, I'm Tanya Gill, Welcome to Lighten Up and unstuck your What the fuck. Together, we explore the ways through life's stickiness moments, and how to live with more peace, joy, love and gratitude. We're going to talk honestly about what isn't easy so you can discover the light within you that will carry you forward. My friend, this podcast is about you in real life, your body, mind and soul, and the opportunity to not only live your best, but shine doing it.

Amie, I am so glad to share space with you. Thank you. I really am. I really am the first time I heard you speak I was captivated. You spoke to my heart my friend. And and I think I'm one of your fan girls. And one of those ways you know when I'm saying. So I am so glad that you are here. Amy, from my understanding you are in Arizona. Yes. And you consider yourself at a emotional resiliency coach? Yes. But you also have a lot of other qualifications experiences. And what I was really interested in is that you do EFT and card readings as well. So would you consider yourself an intuitive?

Absolutely, absolutely. That's the basis of all of it. It was a learning to tap into that intuition coming from a space of I had no idea what that even meant. Like most people have heard, you know, that gut feeling or mother's intuition, but not correlating spiritual intuition. And the way I start tapping into that is through I started seeing a psychic medium at like 31 years old. And she's telling me, I'm sitting in front of her, I'm a mess. I feel broken. I feel lost on piste, like, all of it. And she's like, Oh, you're a healer and a teacher. And I was like, fuck you.

I do you know fucking see me right now. I'm actually very, very broken. And I'm actually falling apart. What the fuck are you saying?

That's right. I was just like, I just look up I'm sure look on my face and my jaw dropped. Bam, just like I have a background just so you know, I have a background of being introverted. Okay, so introverted, shy, timid, intimidated, you know, and I, I don't want any kind of focus on me. I don't want responsibility for anybody else's shit. I was like, No, I am not. And I never will be right, that word that gets us in trouble all the time. I will never be a teacher or step into any like a healing a healer. Seriously? No. So you're talking to the wrong girl.

So that sounds like a pretty actually, that sounds like a What the f moment right? It's kind of like, whoa, like, I'm kind of and you described yourself as broken, which is? Oh, yeah, it's a that's a really, really gritty word to describe a place of being. I know that I have also had had times in my life when I felt broken. And whenever I hear that someone else was in a place of feeling broken. I just think that is just so close to just saying, fuck it. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to go.

Like Mine was more of a fucking I don't want to be here. I thought about that. Since for about 14 years old, I didn't want to be on the planet. And I thought almost every day on how to exit out.

And you know, I think that's actually it's interesting because that's where I was going because really, I've been there too. I too have been to the point where I had a plan and and being in that broken space is really really scary. So if you had a message for somebody who felt like that, what would you say about

that when we reached that point that mine was based around shame and shame is like the bottom of the barrel because that's when we lose all hope. It's it what saved me and I know some people may struggle with this because they may not have somebody in their life to focus on but was what actually kept me going Even though I was contemplating suicide almost daily, I was, I mean, in my head, I was figuring shit out, I was like, Well, you know what, I could take pills. But probably, you know, what I would happen is, I probably wouldn't take enough.

I totally had that thought I'm like, if I take all these pills, and I don't have enough, and then I cause brain damage, or, like, it's amazing where our mind can go, and we can laugh about it, but it's pretty serious shit is like,

this is serious. And so what actually kept me going was I thought my grandmother, my grandparents, pretty much raised me, my mom was doing the best she could in providing for us. So and she too, you know, a seeking outside of herself for love and the relationships and work and all that. So my grandparents basically raised me and I really had a close relationship to my grandmother. And that was the thought was, I could never do that, even though I thought about it every day, I could never do that to my grandmother. So I had to find I found something greater than myself for a reason to be here. And then at 25, even, I mean, I contemplate this into my 30s, I'm 51. Now almost 52. But at 25 is when my son when I gave birth to my son, and then he became the reason, right. And in our journey together at a very young age. I and through my healing process, I strongly feel and know in my heart that he was placed with me to save me.

He was an angel, he absolutely

was. And the biggest piece of that, and that that really made that a realization for me was, you know, he was born when I was 25, at 28 was when I what I call my spiritual, conscious spiritual journey. As somebody hand him, somebody recommended, or gave me the book by Sylvia Browne, which opened me up to the world of what we call metaphysical or spiritual past lives. Being a spirit embody, you know, just all this terminology and no concept of, but it resonates resonated with me at such a deep core. And I was fascinated. And so then I couldn't read enough of these books. Well, as I'm reading, and my son's getting older, at like six years old, we find out he can see auras, and he can see spirit. I'm just learning about this. He's six, and I did it, put a fuel a fueled my fire to learn as much as I could, as fast as I could. So I could explain to him what was going on. And through that, is where it really enhanced my spiritual connection, and returning back to myself in my self love. And that's why I say he, he saved me. Amazing. And in that time, so from from after he was born a couple of years after he was born, like I started drinking, because what I found out was when I was when I was intoxicated, I had a really good time, but when I was sober, I was very angry. And my head was spinning with the shame and the guilt and the depression and all the stories. And I you know, is that that it's just spirit in me was so strong. And even though I wanted to give up that it was I knew my body couldn't sustain that type of abuse. So interesting enough in the in the story, you know, now I look back and like I was abandoned by my biological father, so I've never met him. He loved him when my mom got pregnant. And then my mom married a guy who was emotionally mentally abusive. And then I had a second stepdad who was mentally and emotionally abusive, like neither one of them were physical, but I mean still same damage. And

it can be argued worse, actually. Oh, yeah,

absolutely. Yeah. So when I looked back on my life, I was like, I was doing to myself, that which I didn't want, I abandoned myself and I was abusing myself. But I was doing what I knew how to do to survive.

And and I think it's really important that people recognize that exactly that exact thing because what happens is, is we can beat the shit out of ourselves and be like, Oh my God, this these are all the things that I'm doing. to abuse myself to abandon myself to hate on myself, and, and instead of giving space and grace to that and saying, and this is what I can do differently right now in baby steps, 1% changes to show up for myself. Right? And, and it's so easy to get into that cycle of beating the shit out of yourself in and instead of saying that has happened for a reason. Right? And that's that what the fuck? What's this for? Right that has happened for a reason. Like you, your son came into your life for a reason you had those experiences of, of childhood as traumatic as they were and I do honor that, that you're sharing that you did have a traumatic childhood. And, and, you know, I it's important that we not dismiss the trauma of our past. And yet at the exact same time, there is a possibility to find the silver linings and the What's this for? Because it sounded like a lot of this was that spark in your spiritual path. And now you're a healer.

Now, I'm a speaker, and a teacher and a healer. Just laugh about it all the time like she was right.

Okay, I have to share, I have to share this story with you. I, I have seen many psychics and many mediums over the years and I had some really beautiful experiences. And one of the things that has been a common theme. Whenever I have spoken with a psychic or had my cards read or whatever, I always get the same message that I should either stare at a candle or I need to meditate more, I need to spend time and stillness. And I'll be the first to admit I don't like spending time and stillness. And so this last time, we were in New Orleans, and there was I was just drawn to this woman on the street who was doing readings and she was just awesome. She had the coolest vibe ever. And I sat down and she's this large, larger than life. Black woman and her fingers were covered in rings. And she just had this glorious energy about her like I was drawn to her. And, and she gave me a reading. And the only thing I remember from that reading was at the very end, she looked at me and she said, You need to start staring at a candle. And I flew the fucking handle. Peter was right there. And he was laughing at me. And I'm like, I'm so sick of the universe telling me this I am so done with this. I don't need fucking candles, I don't need to meditate. I need to get shit done. So since then I have, you know, had a hard crash. And I meditate at least once a day, always have candles happening. So maybe I finally surrendered a little to what the universe

did never say never telling you

never say never. Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. Okay, so I had another question for you. Okay, um, you on your website, I was looking at your website. And one of the things that you talked about is the nudges from spirit. And so I know what nudges from Spirit are. But I think often a lot of people don't even know when they're getting nudges from spirit. And there's a lot of power in and, and growth that comes from those nudges and from spirits. So we share with me how you describe that experience.

Okay. Most of the time, I I use examples or stories to explain things. I'm a storyteller, I'm like you, you have two hours not just nudges from Spirit are those moments when you know something, or you know, you should be doing something or do something different or move in a different direction Take Take a right when you go to the work instead of a left like you normally do. It's just those little subtle messages. And you get the like for example traffic. So typically when you go to work, you turn left at a certain intersection. And today as you know you did something says turn right and you don't when you go ahead and turn left and now you're caught in an accident or you get in an accident or something happens and you're like Gosh, should I listen to that? I knew I should have turned right i I've done that countless times in my life, countless, right? That's this those nudges, those spiritual nudges that it's a knowingness that we don't for the most part people don't know how to explain that they know these things. But if we learn to understand that spirit is energy so we're energy everything around us is energy so when we transition from this physical body we're returning back into an energy form that we can't see but we can definitely feel and we can still communicate with and so I call it my universal team universe include my universal team includes all of Spirit God angels, ascended masters spirit guides, archangels ancestors deceased loved ones like all the whole meal right? And

Free World Man it is man already world. I got the big disco ball in the sky. Hey, yeah, yeah, it is. It's the party world. I love it. Yeah.

And and so it's, it's, I call it also spiritual GPS system. So when we're in tune with our spiritual GPS system, then it actually helps us navigate life. That's our support system. Like I could depend on you for support but what happens when you're no longer around? Now what the spiritual GPS system is for life, it's until we take our last breath. It can't be taken away. And so learning to that that was a huge piece of this journey was learning about spirit learning about connecting with spirit the intuition so your clairvoyance Claire cognizance, Claire, Claire, sentient Claire fragrant Claire audience, like all the Claire's all our sisters. Learning to tap into those and everybody has those has those abilities. Typically you have one that is the strongest, and when you nurture that, so mine is clear sentient, which means I'm a feeler, I feel energy. And I feel stuff in my body, that the more I tapped into that listen to it was in tune with it, the rest of them opened up. And it's and it's just, it's so now I find it, it's like so much fun, because I'm listening more and I'm not, you know, bumping my head all the time. But what helped me do that, in my journey was after three years of seeing this psychic medium, and her telling me for three years that you're a healer and a teacher and me telling her no, there's one time she just shoot like she chewed me out. She gave me a wad for up one side down the other. And like we're arguing about it. And then finally I said, Fine, I'll do it. Right. So mad. She goes, just start practicing with your friends and family. Fine. So I gave into it. But what I recognized was that I was it really made me be present because I was tuning in to somebody else's energy and their space. And then that unfolded into me experiencing when I'm when I'm doing energy work with somebody experiencing their physical discomfort in my body. So then that became a tool that that I use that as guidance doesn't mean I take on their pain or their discomfort, it just means this is a guidance tool that I can utilize to help me navigate their body and their energy. Once I acknowledge it, I'm like, okay, my right shoulder is hurting. I know this isn't mine, you can take it out of me now. And it's it's like gone within seconds. So it this is when like, the whole world of energy opened up to me. It was so fascinating. And I just love it to this day. I just love I love how our brain works. I love the energy I love I love spirit, but it's just so fun now,

isn't it so incredible? Like you talking about spirit and I know that I may have listeners who are religious or are spiritual or none of the above. And I have always leaned very hard against I will say or resisted traditional Western religion and always felt a spiritual knowing I've always been intuitive and as I step more authentically into myself and trust myself more I'm getting more downloads and more information and more clarity, which is amazing and also super scary. But you know what you're like as you're talking about it about energy, like There are so many realms, if you will, that we just, we try so hard to stay so concrete in this world. And, and you know, like, We know, for example of the five senses, which I always find really funny because we stopped at five, we just gave up, it was like, That's it. That's all, we got five senses. And yet, we know intuitively that we have more senses than that we just haven't been able to label them because we can't concretely identify what they are, like science would prefer.

Right? That's what it sounds like. It's because they can't explain it.

Right? Absolutely. And so for example, you know, like, animals, we know, for example, that dogs clearly have a communication realm that we don't understand. But they clearly clearly exist, they have their own communication plane. And, and I have a friend who's a dog whisperer, and I find her incredibly fascinating. And, you know, and I just think to myself, energy is, energy can't be created or destroyed, we are all energy, everything is energy, we come from energy, we return, we return to energy when we die. And, and I just describe that as just love and light at the end of the day, which is love and light. And I kind of like to think of the world as a giant experimental playground, if

you will, you know, the ghetto of the universe. Like the aliens are, like, just keep going, don't stop there. Right?

Right, that we draw. And my thing is, is they dropped us into the playground and said, Okay, you know, what, we're gonna mix this shit up and see what you're gonna do when you create messes for yourself. Yeah, right. And I really believe that at the end of the day, that that, and I hate to sound cliche, but world peace, if you will really come through connection, I do believe that it comes through connection. So,

well, I heard Wayne Dyer, this is where it made a lot of sense to me about being a spirit and body. And then when we get done with the body, then we transition back to spirit, he's like, if you take it, if you take an orange and cut it, and have a slice of orange is still a slice of orange. So it's still the same as what its source was as the whole. So it really got me to think and it was like, Yeah, and so he, you know, he goes on to explain that we come from source, we're energy we come from source, and source is love, then then our spirits coming into a physical body, we are still a source of love. And so that love already resides within us. So when we're, I know, in my life, you know, I was seeking outside of myself for everybody to love me. So I felt loved and accepted. Instead of knowing that love was already a part of me, I needed to tap into it for myself. So it doesn't entering that

space of then being able to love yourself. Right?

Yeah. And so my spirit is already love. And so I'm already loved. And, and, you know, when it comes to you, I interchange God, the Divine Source universe. And you know what, you can just use the word love. So that totally, because it's all the same energy and and that's, you know, to me, is love. And then people you know, I know people ask, Well, what about those, those mean are dark energies? Well, there are mean and dark people. They just haven't, they're just disconnected from their source of love that's already in them as well. So, Wayne Dyer explained, he's like, the ego, if you're the acronym for ego is edging God out or edging goodness out. It's just when we get more into our ego, we're getting a more distant disconnection from our source of love. So when we start to close that gap, then that's when we start to cultivate the love that we have for ourselves or our spirit.

And, and I think that for people, for example, who are uncomfortable with the concept of God to just lean into the idea of love is such a powerful thing and you know, as you were saying, you know, evil spirits or evil energies or negative spirits or negative energies, I do believe that that But that exists. But I do think that we are all born of love and then return to love and, and even for myself part of my healing process and part of my forgiveness path, in forgiving my father, for sexual trauma that I experienced as a child has been about reminding myself that he was born of love. And he chose the experiences in the life that he had. And that these were the lessons and these were the, this was the path. That was his and it was hard, and it was gritty, and oh, my God, I would not want to walk in his shoes for any part of his life, including in utero. And, and including his death. And as, as all of this has transpired as he passed, and as I was trying to come to this place of forgiveness, which I didn't believe I would ever be able to forgive. It was like one day, I literally was like, oh, it's actually not that hard to forgive, because he was of love. He had his worldly experience. And he returns to love. So actually, I'm able to have a better relationship with him now than I did in his worldly form. Right?

Yep, absolutely. 100%.

And, and I actually do feel that I truly do feel like I now trust that my dad has my back. Yeah.

Yep. And it's the same with the person who molested me, he's in spirit as well. But, you know, they still had even in in their own mess, they still had some amazing qualities. Mine was very strong, he was very intuitive. He was very confident, like, all the tools that I need, right to get through this life. But I also want to, you know, the process is that we have to understand that they had a life before we were born, they had a childhood where they had experiences that we may not ever even know about. And so example of my first stepdad, he was mentally and emotionally abusive. But I know from the stories that my mom told me is that he came from a very intense, abusive family. So in his mind, with me, first of all, not even being his own child that he was felt within himself that what he was doing was the best he could do. And he probably saw it as being better than what his childhood was, but then I'm still affected by it from that experience of abuse, right? So it's just knowing that their childhood has affected them. And they're growing up into adulthood now they have no children. And freakin nobody has a manual, nobody knows. And you take I witnessed this is just so freakin amazing. But now I get it. But there's, I watched like my mom's oldest of six kids, and how intensely different all of them are raised under the same roof, same parents. And they're all completely different. And that, you know, just being around that, and through my journey of healing and stuff. Like my mind starts going, Wow, this is so freakin fascinating how we operate it really is.

And also, I think, too, as you're talking about that trauma, I mean, absolutely. I know that my dad also had a traumatic past and, and, and intergenerational trauma exists. So who knows how many generations by that trauma existed? And, you know, we are in a position of changing that narrative for the generations forward. Right. That's the beautiful piece, right? I know that my children have been raised with so much love and yeah, you know what, I've given them shit because I'm still their mama. But, but you know, like, I know that they have been raised with as much love and kindness and consideration and compassion and and presence as I've been able to provide them and, and, and who and I've always said though, I save plenty of money to put money away for their therapy when they're out I'm pretty sure they're gonna have mama issues because I'm certainly not perfect and I'm probably fucked up and it'll come up. Right? But we do your right, we do our best. We do our best.

And when we start when we start, you know, you go back to forgiveness and compassion. You Those go hand in hand when you have forgiveness, you learn compassion. It's automatic. And when you are going through your own journey of forgiveness, put your name at the top of the list,

right? Yes. Fucking men sister.

Yeah. Because when you do your own forgiveness for yourself, most of all the other names are just going to drop off the list you you don't need to go to them. And here's, here's an interesting so I'm just gonna put this out for thought because I think about this a lot and actually pissed me off when I thought about

I love people off

makes you think, okay, so I, you know, I, okay, we're spirit of narrative. You gotta understand I'm putting these this together as I'm reading all these books, and and listening to spiritual teachers, right? This is in my 30s. And that's why it made me mad. So we're spirit and body who come from source where love would come into the physical body. So we have an Earth life. Yeah. Okay. So then it's like, put your name at the top of the forgiveness list? Well, what am I forgiving myself for? forgiving myself for making the choices and decisions for fill in the blank, and you just go back as far as you can. And then it's like, I chose to come here. Right. I chose I chose my parents to put me in this predicament that's going to help me grow and expand spiritually. So that's why I was pissed because I was like, I, I chose this

AMI AMI, the night that my husband died in the morning, he drowned. And we were on a vacation in Mexico. And that night, I was sitting on the beach bawling losing my fucking mind. I knew I had to tell my four year old who I hadn't seen since it happened. And I was like losing my mind. And as I was having this experience, I was I and I, I prayed sort of I had a conversation with the universe. And I said, I just need to be able to move forward with grace and gratitude and joy. And I don't know how the fuck to do it. But I know I have to. And I'm, I'm sitting there and I'm like, trying to just breathe basically. And then I have this moment of feeling that this is for a higher purpose. And then exactly, I was so fucking mad. Because I was like, this is not the life I chose this is I would not come to this life to choose to lose my soulmate to become a widow at 33 to have a four year old and an eight month old to raise on my own. What the fuck there's no way I would choose this.

I wouldn't choose the molestation right or the abuse. Like No way.

Right? Why would I choose these things? And you know and then I'm reminded okay, maybe these things happen so that we can show ourselves how we can show up for ourselves how we can spread love and light in those WHAT THE FUCK moments in the craziness in all of the unpredictable shit and glorious juiciness that is life

and that's you know, and I was molested at 14 I was that was that's the question that went that that I had was what what the fuck is this life really because I I experience all this stuff. The abuse, the abandonment, the molestation and then you add the rape and the murders and the the all the other stuff. People are unhappy and so you know having these in the in the parallel of thinking about suicide asking God why are we here? Why am I experiencing all this pain? And then I'm gonna take my last breath and die really? Are you serious? Right? Are you kidding me? Is this a joke? I don't get it right. And then we start asking what's the purpose? That's usually a number one question anybody has when they get a reading but a medium or psychic is what is my purpose? And that was it is like why am I in this physical body? Why am I on this planet? And it would it can't what it comes down to to me and in this is I learned this from Sylvia Browns book was that we come for life lessons. And this is like getting a doctorate a PhD. When you come to Earth. You're getting schooled. Yeah Earth school. You Yeah, is the hardest school is the hardest planet is the hardest life to have. And, and I know that it came down to my life lesson top number one lesson, what I'm graduating with is self love. Because I was taught to seek love outside of myself, and, and so I had lots of boyfriends. And when they got what they needed, and they no longer talk to you, you know, teenage adolescence and all that, then what do we do? What did I do wrong? How can we doesn't like me anymore, when I start blaming myself and then back into the depression and back into the suicidal thoughts and, and it's recognizing that I have to have the love for myself, because anything outside of me can be taken away at any second.

And it is it's tricky, because when we seek outside approval, we then also reinforce for ourselves that the outside approval is where our worth is defined. So it's how we show up in service to others. It's how we help others. It's how we never say no to others. And, and then we ring ourselves dry. And I and I really believe that for a lot of us, especially I'm going to be honest women in our age group were like, I'm 47, you said you're 5151 I think there are a lot of women in our age group, who are all of a sudden going, I have given so much service to everyone else. And I don't even feel like I know who I am. I don't know what my purpose in life is moving forward. I feel like and I don't want to say it's a midlife crisis. But I think it's almost an awakening of I got to figure this out. Because tic tock, we actually don't know how much time we have. And we want to make it the best. Right? And it does. Amy, you're so right. It's so powerful. When you move into that place of loving yourself, truly. And people think that self love is selfish.

Yeah, no, it's got it. Well, it's got to be selfish, it has to be that you have to put yourself first because if your cup is empty, you have nothing to pour from. And if I don't have the self love for myself, so just think about you know, a child, that you're looking in the mirror. And you gotta keep in mind, our thoughts, our words, and our emotions are all energy, always. So if I'm standing and looking in front of a mirror, and putting myself down, you're overweight, you got all that cellulite, you're you got these lumps and bumps everywhere you have wrinkles around your eyes, whatever the story is, right? And your daughter or your other your child is standing there. Even though you're not saying this out loud. You are you're expressing all this negative energy to yourself. And then you turn to your child and you're loving on them. That energy is is it. It's an it's a confusing message. And even though you're not saying it out loud, a child is very receptive to energy. They can read us like a book, man. They know the truth. But we because we don't we trying to protect them? Or we're in denial ourself. Great lie to them. Yeah, right. We cover up what we're actually going through to protect them. We try to

filter it thinking somehow we're protecting them. Yeah.

So we're sending these conflicting messages to the children. And then your child grows up and she's got issues with her body. And you're like, I don't understand. I loved her so much. And I poured into her and and what's wrong? What did I do wrong? Right? And it's like, yeah, well, what thoughts were you having in those moments when you're looking in the mirror? Right? Exactly. Except people forget about that. They think it's only it only counts if I express it outwardly. And you don't, it's it's your thoughts, your words, and your emotions, all of it is emanating out

all the time. And we and nobody can deny it, because anybody who says that they are denying it has to walk in has not had the experience of walking into either a party or a funeral. Or even a room where you can talk you can cut the air with a knife because of the tension. But nobody's saying or doing anything. Right. Right. All very, very different energies. Right, but, but that energy certainly exists. Yeah, and come on. My kids know I call it tight trace when I have my unparent because I don't have a uterus, but I still have the hormones. When I have my NP period, everybody knows. And we call it we call it tight face. And, and tight faces just when my energy is just heavy and off and, and quite honestly, it feels like my tight if my face is tight, so we call it tight face. So now I'm allowed to say that I have tight face, but nobody else is allowed to say that. Right? So but it is it's an energy feel it absolutely. And it's the experience of of knowing that you experience all it's, it's the acceptance that all of those experiences of thoughts and feelings. And the energy that you feel is allowed to be what it is to.

Yeah. And so when I go back to what you were talking about, you brought up world peace, world peace, to me, yeah, can only exist if every person on the planet in the same moment has peace within themselves.

Oh, my God. I had a conversation almost identical to this with my husband. And that's what I said, because, of course, we know the world is in a crazy place, and with what has happened in Ukraine, and Afghanistan and Sudan, and we can go all through history and the different ways that different races and cultures are being treated and and just the the climate of the globe right now both by way of temperature as well as social climate. You're right, it is it comes down to that having the peace within ourselves.

So what we think is that country needs to be peaceful in that country needs to be and these people need to settle down. No, it starts here. I have to be responsible for my space of peace. And you have to be responsible for yours. We can't make each other peaceful.

And that's how and that's how I call that spreading the love to write because when I love myself, I am more comfortable, more confident and also more open to loving you. Yeah, and, and that invites an opportunity for you to love yourself. And that I think is that beautiful ripple effect that we can create. Because it does when we love ourselves, it changes the interactions with everything around us.

And then yeah, and you have love, but you also stack that with compassion. So now manatee. Yeah, now now that person who has cut you off in traffic and flipped you off. You know what, you can just dip down and go, Wow, that person is having a rough day. I don't know their story. But you know what, I'm just gonna send them some love. The alternate is you get angry, then you get to your destination and you tell your story, how this part right and the anger and then the energy of the anger or the frustration amplifies the energy of war, of drug abuse of sexual abuse of its energy. And this is why it's so fascinating to me that when you're in a space of, of typeface, you know, the environment is is doesn't feel good. And everybody can feel that, right. I witnessed that with my family. I would come home, I'd be happy. I'd be joyful, so good. Everything's great. Everybody was in a good mood. I come home from work being pissed off. Everybody's pissed. We're nitpicking and nagging and getting it right. So I was like, This is real. I didn't even have to say anything. It was just the energy I brought into the house and I could I use like, I am doing this. So I would go in the bathroom note no joke. Once I realized how amazing energy is I would go in the bathroom. I just get myself talking to him. Like, look, you're being a real bitch right now. And you need to straighten your Shut up and get it together and put a smile on your face and be happy because you're affecting this household, right? And then I'd start laughing and get myself out and switch my energy up and then go out. Everybody was happy. never said a word to them never said anything about what I did. But now all of a sudden everybody's in a good mood. So this is when it comes to taking responsibility for our own energy, our the space that we this the container we're in.

And you know what like, I call it you Raising your vibe, right? It's and it's so funny, right? Because I whenever I see the stickers or the signs or the post good vibes only I think, well all vibes need to exist, but good vibes are really nice. Yeah, right and so but um, but it is it's like what can you do like what you did in your bathroom? That is that is you talking to yourself and raising your vibe so that that energy, the vibration, if we're going to be scientific, but what vibe is vibration, so that energy vibration, raising your vibe, and then going back out, I used to do something similar when I worked in, in child protection, I would go through a process that was different, except I had a spot I had the same route. I always drove home. And I had a red light that I knew that I would almost always hit. And I as I if I if it didn't turn into red light, I still went through the mental process of literally unzipping and stripping, imagining stripping off a suit of trauma, if you will. Yeah. And you know, and I went through that process. Interestingly enough, I stopped that process when I started working from home, which is a little aha moment for me, because it really wasn't that much longer after that, that I was diagnosed with work related PTSD. So maybe part of that was that I had had not, I think that we really do need to be mindful in in trying to cleanse ourselves of some of those things too, right?

Yeah. Yeah, absolutely. And if you if you follow, you know, Esther Hicks or Abraham, they just tell you, like, go take a nap. Like, okay, I went out because I'm being a crank. Yes, right now.

Well, and I and I, as soon as I hear go taken out, I'm like, Ah, I'm like, I'm not a Napper. Don't make me taken out. But that is a way for a reset that there are so many other ways, like one of mine is walking. I love walking. I also journal I also meditate What do you do? You nap what else?

You know, I don't typically I don't nap a lot. Just when I'm not feeling when I'm listening to my body and my body's feeling low and energy, then I'll I'll close my eyes for a little bit. Yeah, I meditate every day, I call in my angels, my universal team to be with me. I go to the gym, like five at least five days a week. I do some journaling. So, yeah, I'll do I love the moon. So I totally resonating with the moon. So I'll go out and stand out in the moon, I love the sun. So I'll just let the the warmth of the sun on my body. Like, just whatever I feel like in the moment. I dance, you know, put music on uplifting music with uplifting words. So typically, that's music that you would find on like the Christian radio station. But I mean, they're I'm shocked. I'm actually shocked based on what I knew as a child for Christian radio and what today. I really love Christian music that is uplifting and upbeat. Because it's so positive and so loving. And so there's many songs that I can put on and just move my body and raise my vibration in that moment.

Absolutely, absolutely. And, you know, I think that mainstream music is also there are quite a few songs in mainstream music that for that really do talk about spirituality in a different way. And like, for example, there's this amazing dance song called I think it's called higher power by Tiesto maybe. And it's one of my favorite ones to dance students, like you've got a higher power is what you know, kind of part of the chorus and moving and dancing and music totally changes the vibe of a space in such a magical way. Yeah, a little secret. I actually have a three minute and 33 three minute and 33 second dance party with myself every day. The song that I love love is it's actually the song that closes my podcast, shine. And I literally I turn on my phone, I turn it on to video. I very rarely do anything with the video, but it's my way of assuring myself that I'm going to dance the whole time. And I literally dance for the three minutes and 33 seconds and if I'm I people like concrete so people like number. So if I'm for example vibing at a two. It's so easy in that three minute At 30 seconds to bump it to like a seven or an eight, just like that. Yeah. It's incredible.

And that's awesome. I just want to say it's awesome that you say three minutes and 33 seconds because three is very significant to me and my life. So, there's a reason why we're together. I'm the same

driftwood, there's a little driftwood as, as Abraham Hicks would say there's a little driftwood for you, Amy but

confirmation

confirmation from the universe. I love him. Amy Wade, I am so, so grateful to share space with you. Do you have any closing messages you would like to send to our audience? If they are feeling stuck? Or if they are wondering what a next step to do? In their lives might be what what tip would you give people?

You know, I, it's all mindset doesn't matter who you talk to, in, in business or in spirituality, it starts with the mindset. So you have to shift. And I'm not a person who very often will tell you, you have to do anything or you must do something. But I'm telling you, you have to tell yourself different stories in what you're telling yourself if you're in those low vibrational emotions. Telling yourself stories of defeat, of being wrong of being unloved and unaccepted. That it's, it's not a true story. It's a story. It's a it's a story that you developed at a very young age. And the truth is that you're very powerful. You're very determined, and you have persistence and strength and courage and bravery to be here still on this planet. To really start with the mindset and start shifting your stories and and tell yourself how amazing and incredible you really

are. Because we all are amazing and inquire. Absolutely. That is so beautiful. Thank you so so much. Amy, thank you so much for being here.

If people want to find you, where do they find you?

Amy Wade calms my website. I'm on Facebook. So Amy way dash emotional resiliency coach, and on Instagram. It's Amy. Wait, coach.

I love it. Amazing. Amazing. Amy, thank you so much for this really beautiful conversation. Oh, seriously, listeners, I know that you have enjoyed this conversation because I know I have. Amy is an amazing soul. And I am so grateful to be able to share her with you. If you want to reach out to her. It's again, Amy wade.com. If you have any thoughts, comments, questions, or anything else about the podcast that you would like to let me know, please feel free to reach me on my website. And again, I know you can listen to anything, anytime, anywhere because that's where we live right now. And that's the way of the world so thank you for listening to this. I wish you well and I love you