The mission of the Solidarity Apothecary is to materially support revolutionary struggles and communities with plant medicines to strengthen collective autonomy, self-defence and resilience to climate change, capitalism and state violence.
This episode is a review of the work towards this goal in 2024.
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Welcome to the Frontline Herbalism Podcast with your host, Nicole Rose from the
Nicole:Solidarity Apothecary.
Nicole:This is your place for all things plants and
Nicole:liberation.
Nicole:Let's get started.
Nicole:Hello. Welcome back to the Frontline Herbalism Podcast.
Nicole:I'm so sorry I haven't published any episodes in a fair while.
Nicole:Had a little bit of a break after the kind of launch in the Herbalism PTSD and traumatic
Nicole:stress course.
Nicole:And yeah, I'm just in like, just in hardcore
Nicole:babyland really.
Nicole:Lee is 8 months old now and super adorable, but just, yeah, I used to be able to kind of
Nicole:like sneak on my laptop during nap time and now it's just like impossible.
Nicole:He'll just kind of notice and wake up.
Nicole:So things have changed, but yeah, it's not,
Nicole:it's not forever.
Nicole:I know that I will have to go back to work
Nicole:properly at some point.
Nicole:But yeah, I'm loving being able to just kind of look after him full time and give him all
Nicole:the love and nurturance in the world because this kind of first three years of life are
Nicole:really when someone's nervous system is fully developing.
Nicole:So I just, yeah, want to make him laugh and make him feel as content as possible for as
Nicole:long as I can.
Nicole:So yeah, anyway, how are you doing?
Nicole:I have got lots of different kind of random bits and bobs to say, I guess different
Nicole:updates on different projects and solidarity apothecary offerings and all the things.
Nicole:So I will just dive in.
Nicole:And yeah, I do hope to return with some more like podcast series soon.
Nicole:I'm going to do a series on herbs for sustaining resistance, like how to kind of
Nicole:like support yourself, you know, as you're engaged in kind of organizing or struggle or
Nicole:just like surviving capitalism in general.
Nicole:I was also going to do a series all about nervines, like in the build up to the next
Nicole:herbalism, PTSD and traumatic stress course.
Nicole:So anyway, keep posted.
Nicole:I'm going to try and like move things to more herbal content.
Nicole:It's basically impossible to do interviews at the moment, like around Lee's nap time and
Nicole:yeah, like not having the sort of childcare infrastructure in place yet.
Nicole:It's like, it's just really difficult, difficult to schedule anything even just to do
Nicole:little calls.
Nicole:So I kind of have to seize these little opportunities to like self record while my mum
Nicole:has Lee.
Nicole:So anyway, I'm just gonna do a bit of a 2024
Nicole:review.
Nicole:If you didn't know.
Nicole:I kind of do this every year as part of my
Nicole:sort of like planning and design process.
Nicole:I think it's really important because different people kind of donate to the
Nicole:Apothecary.
Nicole:I like to share what I've done and like
Nicole:different impact the project has had.
Nicole:And obviously I know it's mostly me, but I
Nicole:just want to emphasize that like you know, I'm part of this huge ecosystem of people doing
Nicole:awesome stuff and you know, all of the pro like near enough.
Nicole:All of the projects are like super collaborative organizing with other people.
Nicole:You know, whether it's the clinic in Calais or people distributing the prisoners herbals
Nicole:around the world.
Nicole:Like yeah, nothing is like a solo effort.
Nicole:Okay, so here is my 2024 review.
Nicole:So the mission of the Solidarity Apothecary is to materially support revolutionary struggles
Nicole:and communities with plant medicines to strengthen collective autonomy, self defense
Nicole:and resilience to climate change, capitalism and state violence.
Nicole:Each year I review the work towards this goal and I'm going to be reading the blog post I've
Nicole:written and then just kind of like ad libbing here and there, but I'll put a link in the
Nicole:show notes for you.
Nicole:So I wrote One night during a 4am breastfeeding session, I came across the poem
Nicole:the Beautiful and the Hard by Jess Ehrlichs on Instagram.
Nicole:Sorry if I've mispronounced your name.
Nicole:The Beautiful and the hard describe 2024 perfectly to me for so many reasons.
Nicole:Behind the scenes, things went easy.
Nicole:My partner, after five years clean, had a
Nicole:major relapse that shook our lives to the core and created emotional and financial
Nicole:instability at a time when I desperately needed both in pregnancy and afterwards.
Nicole:My birth was traumatic cascade of medical interventions including preeclampsia, sepsis
Nicole:and an emergency cesarean, all after the worst hyperemesis.
Nicole:That meant I spent six months severely dehydrated and violently vomiting.
Nicole:Thank God it shifted a little in the last months of my pregnancy.
Nicole:The Hard, however, has been outweighed by The Beautiful, and 2024 closes.
Nicole:With my family still together, my partner still alive, our beautiful son making us laugh
Nicole:on a daily basis, and a sense of joy and hope amidst what feel like a collapsing world
Nicole:around us of multiple genocides, climate change, rising fascism and state violence,
Nicole:here are some of the things that went down in 2024.
Nicole:1. Bringing my son into the World In May, I gave birth to my son Lee.
Nicole:Every day since has been full of joy and delight as I witnessed the magic of him
Nicole:learning and growing and figuring out this whole human thing.
Nicole:I've never experienced a feeling like it, and I'm so grateful that Rob came into my life so
Nicole:that we could create this amazing human together.
Nicole:Alas, being what a full time, what feels like a full time anarchist housewife is also tough.
Nicole:I went from an extremely full life of relentless organizing multiple projects,
Nicole:clients and international travel to spending most days in our static caravan, breastfeeding
Nicole:and changing nappies.
Nicole:I wouldn't change it for the world, but it's a huge life change and identity shift that I'm
Nicole:riding out right now.
Nicole:Nurturingly, it's my priority and this period
Nicole:of time is such a brief moment in the context of my life that I'm trying to focus on
Nicole:cherishing it all without grieving everything I did before.
Nicole:Freedom will creep back slowly, I'm sure.
Nicole:From a herbal learning perspective.
Nicole:I've loved learning about postpartum herbal support, experimenting with blends for myself
Nicole:and various health needs that surface in pregnancy, birth and postpartum.
Nicole:And yeah, on the blog you'll see a cute little picture of me and Lee.
Nicole:Yeah, so I guess that's another reason why I had a kind of podcast pause is I kind of like
Nicole:finally got swept up in a bit of baby blues, I think.
Nicole:Yeah, it's just a lot like it's the best thing in the whole world and I'm so grateful to have
Nicole:Lee.
Nicole:And you know, I'm not like a mum living in
Nicole:Gaza, you know, like it's, it's amazing, like in the sense that I have loads of support and
Nicole:privilege and access to resources and all the things, but it's still just so hard and yeah,
Nicole:I feel.
Nicole:Yeah, it's just difficult.
Nicole:It's just difficult.
Nicole:Like I'm very isolated where I live in countryside, so anyone wants to visit, you're
Nicole:welcome.
Nicole:And yeah, most of my friends have their own
Nicole:stuff going on, whether that's chronic illness or family things or.
Nicole:Yeah, they don't live nearby so it's kind of.
Nicole:Yeah, it's kind of like tender and challenging
Nicole:and yeah, I feel a lot of like questioning of like who I am, what is this life like?
Nicole:Because, you know, the days can be a little bit.
Nicole:Not monotonous but just repetitive I guess.
Nicole:But you know, I'm also like incredibly happy
Nicole:and yeah, Lee is just like the, the best human and it's definitely the best thing I've ever
Nicole:done.
Nicole:It's just.
Nicole:Yeah, it's just so different to my life before
Nicole:and I think I've tried really hard to like meet other people who have kids and stuff and
Nicole:yeah, have some close friends where that's like really working and is amazing but it's
Nicole:just different.
Nicole:Like I don't go to a baby group.
Nicole:And I'm not like, hey, how does it feel to
Nicole:know that there's this like ongoing genocide and you can just barely do anything about it
Nicole:because you're just full time in babyland or, you know, I didn't see my friends in prison
Nicole:last year, for example.
Nicole:Like, that was really tough for me.
Nicole:Yeah, it's just.
Nicole:It's just different, but it's.
Nicole:Yeah, it is really wonderful.
Nicole:And yeah, I. I try and have like a long term
Nicole:perspective on things of just like this.
Nicole:Okay. I know I'm gonna be looking after him for a really long time, but in terms of this,
Nicole:like, really intense period of like really next to no time for myself, next to no time to
Nicole:work, it's really tiny in the context of my life, you know, it's like two, three, four
Nicole:years be.
Nicole:So, yeah, I'm just trying to ride it out and do the best I can.
Nicole:Working on my phone in the evenings and things and organizing in the ways I can and just
Nicole:trying to enjoy it.
Nicole:Because everyone I know that has kids is just like, oh, just enjoy it.
Nicole:You know, just like, you'll miss it, like.
Nicole:And I already miss how small he used to be,
Nicole:you know, and how he'd just constantly want to breastfeed and, you know, now he, like,
Nicole:doesn't need me for a couple of hours.
Nicole:Like if he's with someone else from like.
Nicole:Oh.
Nicole:So anyway.
Nicole:But yeah, it's been a. It's been a big, life
Nicole:changing year.
Nicole:Okay. Number two, publishing the Herbalism and State Violence book.
Nicole:In March, I finally published the Herbalism and State Violence book.
Nicole:It's an absolute beast at 444 pages and brings together contributions from around the world.
Nicole:The book focuses on state repression, police violence, prisons, the border regime,
Nicole:genocide, occupation and war, While recognizing there are millions more other
Nicole:forms of state violence shaping people's lives and bodies.
Nicole:From herbal care for handcuff injuries to healing from incarceration.
Nicole:The book looks at herbal solidarity in practice with examples from around the world.
Nicole:Tools are shared for herbal medic responses at demonstrations, protests and uprisings.
Nicole:To practicing herbalism in prison.
Nicole:To herbal support for nightmares, panic
Nicole:attacks and other expressions of distress and trauma.
Nicole:You can learn more here and I'll put the link, or I'll put the link to this page and yeah,
Nicole:you can find the book.
Nicole:I'm no longer posting physical copies myself,
Nicole:but I've included a link of where to order a physical copy.
Nicole:And you can get a copy of the ebook on my website as well.
Nicole:For six pounds and all the income from these books pays for like the Prisoner's Herbal
Nicole:Books and the other projects.
Nicole:I'm so grateful to my amazing friend Kez Otterleaf, who not only edited the book, but
Nicole:was the best fem dom you could ask for in terms of accountability.
Nicole:She's open to supporting other people with their book projects, so make sure you get in
Nicole:touch with her@otolief.com.
Nicole:so yeah, so Kez was just absolute dream.
Nicole:Yeah, I paid her to help me, yeah, feel like structure the book and seek, you know, like
Nicole:clarify things with contributors.
Nicole:And we did lots of like talking and recording
Nicole:and her editing the transcripts and kind of like not ghost writing but just doing a write
Nicole:up that I would then do loads of work on and then she'd edit it and yeah, it just was
Nicole:amazing.
Nicole:Like it just felt so good to work together and yeah, meant that a project that I started in
Nicole:2020 could like finally get kind of completed, which is what I wanted.
Nicole:So yeah, please let me know if you've been.
Nicole:Yeah. How the book is for you.
Nicole:Okay.
Nicole:Herbal Care packages is number three.
Nicole:So one of my goals for 2024 was to systematize
Nicole:my herbal care packages and make them more accessible for folks requesting herbal
Nicole:support.
Nicole:This autumn, I shared a Herbal Solidarity survey as a way of inviting feedback on what
Nicole:would improve this work.
Nicole:After loads of responses, I think like 60 people replied, which was really wicked.
Nicole:Like it was so great reading everyone's feedback, you know, like some critical
Nicole:feedback in there.
Nicole:And that was also like very invited and you
Nicole:know, I've been reflecting on that a lot and stuff.
Nicole:So yeah, I just really appreciate everyone that filled it in.
Nicole:So yeah, I've effectively redesigned the offerings to make them easier and simpler for
Nicole:people to request with more specific packages for groups of people that the Solidarity
Nicole:apothecary serves.
Nicole:So you can, you can find a link to all the herbal care packages available and their
Nicole:request forms.
Nicole:I'll talk about that more in another episode.
Nicole:But yeah, being pregnant and then on maternity leave, getting herbal support out to folks was
Nicole:an area of work that was paused for most of the year.
Nicole:However, I had an amazing comrade came to stay who just wants to be anonymous.
Nicole:I can't even tag them in post, but they've just been absolute legend.
Nicole:Like sorting out my herb shed, making loads of medicine, doing loads of bottling and
Nicole:labeling, just like just.
Nicole:Yeah. So it's really easy for me now to just collect the bottles, put them in a box, send
Nicole:them off.
Nicole:So yeah, that was amazing.
Nicole:But yeah, herbal care packages have been Distributed especially this side of the year.
Nicole:So yeah, to several individuals and groups.
Nicole:This includes people organizing for
Nicole:Palestinian liberation, some former prisoners and prisoner family members, a couple of folks
Nicole:stabbing the badger call and some other close comrades herbs recently.
Nicole:Also Kurdish Freedom movement organizers that have recently been arrested in like a wave of
Nicole:repression by the British state defendants received my anti oppression herbal care
Nicole:packages and the comrades on hunger strike received dried herbs for tea.
Nicole:So I sent them nettle, a nervous system blend and a gut healing blend for after the strike
Nicole:to help with recovery.
Nicole:Medicines were also donated to Sleek who I did a podcast interview with before who are
Nicole:amazing survivors of kind of sexual male violence that organize sort of mutual aid and
Nicole:support for.
Nicole:For survivors of sexual violence.
Nicole:They're just absolute babes.
Nicole:So yeah, we made 100 nervous system soother blends, immune tonics and lavender oils that
Nicole:they distributed in packs for people this kind of around Christmas time.
Nicole:And yeah, this October solidarity Pothcry also supported an amazing human called Elliot and a
Nicole:few volunteers in a collective who yeah transported and prepared and organized 3, 000
Nicole:bottles of tinctures and teas for nervous system support into Ukraine.
Nicole:And yeah, organization called Insight has been distributing them to kind of queer defenders
Nicole:and disabled elders living in different regions.
Nicole:And yeah, we're trying to like still raise some money for the endeavor.
Nicole:I, I put down like or I paid like £300 for a van for van hire to get the medicine in and
Nicole:then like paid £500 for the deposit which got lost like, like the.
Nicole:Something happened to the van.
Nicole:So like we lost that deposit.
Nicole:So that was, that was pretty br.
Nicole:And also yeah, it's a really long story about Ukraine herbal solarity but we're in a little
Nicole:bit of debt from kind of the previous iteration of the project.
Nicole:So yeah, if anyone wants to donate for that then if you can whack it in the donation page
Nicole:on the Solar Apothecary site, I would love you forever.
Nicole:And I could reimburse the person who's owed some money.
Nicole:I did launch a fundraiser earlier in the year with like ACAB T shirts and they just like
Nicole:completely flopped.
Nicole:Just like obviously I don't know if people
Nicole:don't hate the cops enough or they don't want wear like an explicitly anti cop T shirt like
Nicole:that.
Nicole:But yeah, I've just never known anything like it.
Nicole:It just did so badly.
Nicole:I made like £200 or something which you know
Nicole:isn't anything to sniff out but I was hoping to raise like a few grand to cover with
Nicole:medicine making costs of the care Packages.
Nicole:And yeah, we'll have to go back to the drawing board with that one, but okay, distributing
Nicole:the prisoners herbals is number four.
Nicole:So requests for Prisoners Herbal books
Nicole:continue to come in week on week.
Nicole:I'm so grateful to the legend that is Ellie.
Nicole:She' oh no, I'm gonna get it wrong.
Nicole:Is it Herbal Ellie?
Nicole:Anyway, I'll.
Nicole:I'll check what it is on Instagram and plug
Nicole:her another time.
Nicole:But yeah, she took on posting out books to
Nicole:prisoners during my maternity leave, which has been amazing.
Nicole:I've just been like forwarding her emails and she's just been getting them in the post, so
Nicole:that's really exciting.
Nicole:And also the book has now been published in
Nicole:Italian, so there's a blog post about that on my website by the awesome crew that are there.
Nicole:Yeah, and I've also put the.
Nicole:The ebook to the Spanish translation on the
Nicole:website, which is accessible.
Nicole:So yeah, please keep requesting books for
Nicole:prisoners.
Nicole:Okay. Number five is the Frontline Herbalism Podcast.
Nicole:So the podcast that you're listening to now went from strength to strength this year.
Nicole:But one of my regrets was not timetabling in more interviews before my baby was born.
Nicole:I have got a massive spreadsheet of people to interview, but no idea how to make them happen
Nicole:with life being totally determined by naps and breastfeeding and not tons of baby care
Nicole:support.
Nicole:So alas, it will be solo shows for the time being until Bubs is a little bit older.
Nicole:So yeah, if you're listening to this, you'll know where to get these episodes.
Nicole:But some of the whole bunch of episodes were published this year, including a whole series
Nicole:of PTSD and herbalism case studies.
Nicole:Let me know.
Nicole:Like, I haven't had much feedback on them, but
Nicole:let me know if they were useful for you to hear.
Nicole:I also did a series about herbalism, incarceration and abolition, which is
Nicole:available to watch on my website for free.
Nicole:There were also different episodes with articles from the Herbalism and State Violence
Nicole:book, such as Herbal Support for Prison Visits and Stressful Days, Herbal Allies for Grief
Nicole:Healing From Incarceration Police Raids and Herbal Allies for Shock and Herbal Support for
Nicole:Nightmares.
Nicole:And yeah, there were also some amazing interviews, including Sleek, who I've
Nicole:mentioned, where we talked about sexual violence and trauma, as well as a kind of
Nicole:second interview that they did with me.
Nicole:But you know, we're all talking together about how sexual violence intersects with state
Nicole:violence evidence.
Nicole:I also interviewed the amazing Jackie Sumo
Nicole:from the Solitary Gardens Project.
Nicole:Please check that out if you haven't.
Nicole:And the awesome Rocks from Movement in Time in Scotland about solidarity, medicine making and
Nicole:of course beloved Rashika about community herbalism and Layla about herbalism,
Nicole:resistance and remembrance.
Nicole:So yeah, just awesome interviews.
Nicole:Like I said, I've got a whole spreadsheet of people that I would love to interview on the
Nicole:show.
Nicole:I will try and sort it out so I can make it
Nicole:happen.
Nicole:But yeah, let me know if you've been listening to any of them and please, please, please
Nicole:leave a review if you can, if you have been listening to the podcast and enjoying it.
Nicole:All right, and number six was Herbal Solidarity and Border Violence.
Nicole:So yeah, unfortunately my pregnancy meant time off from the Mobile Herbal Clinic Calais.
Nicole:I'm working sort of directly in France as a herbalist medic.
Nicole:However, I've done my best to contribute to the behind the scenes efforts in the UK that
Nicole:help keep the project going.
Nicole:So in January we launched a merchandise fundraiser with the infamous Plants no no
Nicole:Borders T shirts that raised £10,000.
Nicole:We had like T shirts and hoodies and aprons.
Nicole:I did say then that it was the absolute last time we were using the design and the screen
Nicole:printers chucked the, the screens.
Nicole:But I get so many messages about them that I am tempted to maybe do it again just because
Nicole:the project is always in need of funds.
Nicole:But yeah, I'm not going to make any promises.
Nicole:My friend's also done an amazing, gorgeous illustration.
Nicole:Dandelion and birds coming out of it.
Nicole:So like we might maybe we'll do like a new and
Nicole:old design at the same time or something, I don't know.
Nicole:So yeah, anyway, I took a bunch of time off the clinic and the project and then I stepped
Nicole:back in this autumn.
Nicole:Haven't been very consistent at making meetings and things, but I have been doing my
Nicole:best to set up some fundraising infrastructure to allow for monthly donations.
Nicole:So please, please, please, please, please, please, please.
Nicole:I know I'm shooting myself in the foot because I also want people to donate to the solidary
Nicole:Apothecary.
Nicole:But like if you could become a monthly
Nicole:supporter of the Mobile Herbal Clinic, I would literally love you forever.
Nicole:Like that is what we need.
Nicole:We need some financial stability to make the
Nicole:projects happen, make the clinics happen very consistently because it's, yeah, it's been
Nicole:difficult, a lot of kind of stop start.
Nicole:So yeah, if you could just donate even a couple of quid a month, that would be amazing.
Nicole:I also pre recorded a workshop on Herbalism and Border Violence which was kind of in
Nicole:collaboration with the rail yard Apothecary again, which was a fundraiser which I will up
Nicole:upload on my website.
Nicole:Soon. So, yeah, thank you so much to everyone who signed up to that and donated and before
Nicole:giving birth, literally, like, like two weeks or so before I gave birth, like finally
Nicole:happened, we had to keep rescheduling for various reasons.
Nicole:But I was honored to work with solidarity detainee support, who used to be soas,
Nicole:detainee support to develop some training on like abolitionist responses to suicide and
Nicole:distress while working with folks in detention and prisons.
Nicole:So yeah, I do have plans to kind of do like another version of.
Nicole:Let me know if you'd be interested.
Nicole:Okay. Number seven was relaunching the Herbalism, PTSD and Traumatic stress course.
Nicole:So the doors opened once again to the course.
Nicole:It was really amazing to welcome more people
Nicole:in.
Nicole:I was just.
Nicole:I'm always blown away by the interest and the
Nicole:support and I'm really grateful to everyone who joined the course.
Nicole:Please, please, please join the waiting list if you can, if you're interested in it and
Nicole:I'll put a link in the show notes to the course.
Nicole:And also, yeah, I published a herbal support for panic attacks guide that, yeah, you can
Nicole:find on the website as well.
Nicole:Number eight was teaching medicine making.
Nicole:So yeah, another practical medicine making
Nicole:intensive took place in September and it was just such a joy.
Nicole:It was really hard for me.
Nicole:Like my partner was in rehab for six weeks.
Nicole:I was with the baby.
Nicole:Yeah, his mum came to look after Lee during the course but like every single break of the
Nicole:course I was like running back to the caravan to breastfeed, feed him and then, yeah, went
Nicole:to bed with him at 5:00 because we co sleep.
Nicole:So got him down at 6 and just like slept with him all night and just breastfeed, breastfed
Nicole:through the night and then woke up and like taught the course for like three days in a
Nicole:row.
Nicole:And like, yeah, I was so nervous about it, but it did go really well and like the people that
Nicole:came were just so awesome.
Nicole:Like it was just an absolute bunch of queer
Nicole:cuties and like everyone was so lush and like I honestly, I could cry thinking about it.
Nicole:Like, it was just so great.
Nicole:So yeah, they're going to take place again in May and June this year.
Nicole:So please join the newsletter and I'm going to announce when they're ready to book.
Nicole:I just want to kind of tweak some things in the welcome pack and stuff.
Nicole:Yeah, and on the course we took a deep dive into tincture making, glycerites, ointments,
Nicole:infused oils and loads of things.
Nicole:And finally, number nine is mutual aid against genocide and more.
Nicole:So we couldn't talk about 2024 without speaking about the ongoing horrors of the
Nicole:world.
Nicole:While my capacity has shrunk to using my phone during these naps, I've done my best to keep
Nicole:organizing the best I can.
Nicole:This includes various fundraisers such as for the Samir project, which I think raised like
Nicole:nearly $600 where I was selling my ebooks.
Nicole:I might try and do that again this year.
Nicole:And yeah, also you know, offering various of my digital offerings to different auctions and
Nicole:things.
Nicole:So yeah, and yeah, even though kind of prison visits haven't been possible, I've done my
Nicole:best to kind of ampl fight action alerts for various friends and comrades inside, including
Nicole:Pharah, who has stage three cancer while in prison.
Nicole:I'll put a link to that.
Nicole:But yeah, please don't be afraid to reach me
Nicole:on Instagram.
Nicole:Like I've spent years like building up this
Nicole:like platform right on building up my newsletter and everything else.
Nicole:And like just honestly like drop me a direct message if you want me to like repost
Nicole:something or share something in my stories.
Nicole:Like, you know, I just want to use that
Nicole:platform as much as possible for solidarity.
Nicole:Okay. And then the last part of the review is like I do a little kind of goal accountability
Nicole:check in.
Nicole:So each year I sort of publicly share my goals
Nicole:and yeah, it kind of like helps me stay accountable.
Nicole:So yeah, these were the ones that were achieved.
Nicole:So to finalize my herbal solidarity care packages and set them up on my website for
Nicole:easier access.
Nicole:So I'll talk about that in the next episode.
Nicole:Continue with this podcast to finish the Herbalism and State Violence book.
Nicole:Woohoo.
Nicole:To support folks, to wrap up as as many translated versions of my book as possible.
Nicole:Like obviously I can only do what I can.
Nicole:I just kind of have to let the collectives go
Nicole:at their own pace.
Nicole:To redecorate my herb shed and organize my storage.
Nicole:Ready to make it into an office too.
Nicole:So I've yeah, I've kind of built more
Nicole:shelving, moved all my like books and stuff down there.
Nicole:So I have done a bit of that.
Nicole:But it still needs a little bit of a kind of
Nicole:makeover to support the mobile herbal clinic to develop a monthly donation program.
Nicole:So I've done the tech, I just need the people sign up for it to relaunch the PTSD course
Nicole:which I did.
Nicole:Organize face to face medicine making sessions
Nicole:and receive help more.
Nicole:Yeah, so I've had that.
Nicole:In terms of like individual comrades coming to
Nicole:stay, I think I'm still a bit nervy about COVID If I'm honest, like, people that will
Nicole:follow me on Instagram saw that basically, like Lee was in hospital for a week with a
Nicole:fever, like, vomiting, wouldn't breastfeed.
Nicole:Like, it was literally one of the worst weeks of my whole life.
Nicole:Like, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Nicole:And yeah, he tested positive for Covid.
Nicole:And yeah, I just, I don't know, I'm just
Nicole:frightened.
Nicole:Like, I'm in a bit of a weird anxiety place
Nicole:with him.
Nicole:And yeah, anyway, that's a whole other
Nicole:podcast.
Nicole:But yeah, I'm just anxious of having a bunch of random people come to my house, especially
Nicole:people locally who don't believe that covet exists, which is a thing right near
Nicole:Glastonbury and stuff.
Nicole:So. Yeah, but I have been really grateful to have comrades come down and I think maybe
Nicole:that's like the way forward.
Nicole:And you know, I know I teach this medicine making course which is like a face to face
Nicole:offering, so maybe I'm a bit of a hypocrite, but like, I've never had anyone get Covid from
Nicole:one of my courses.
Nicole:Like, we've always encouraged people to test.
Nicole:I've always had like a really flexible refund
Nicole:policy of like, if you're sick in any way, just I'll give you a refund.
Nicole:Do you know what I mean?
Nicole:Like, I'd much rather lose 2, 300 quid than like risk everyone's health, including my
Nicole:babies.
Nicole:So anyway, to enroll in some kind of foot care
Nicole:training.
Nicole:So I've done that.
Nicole:I'm doing like the online version of it on my phone, but I'm enjoying that.
Nicole:I'm only like, literally one module in and then you have to go and do like two weeks face
Nicole:to face.
Nicole:So I have no idea how I'm gonna do that with the baby, but you know, it'll happen
Nicole:eventually.
Nicole:Other goals.
Nicole:So I'm going ongoing goals to continue to
Nicole:invest in my clinical education and learning.
Nicole:So I'm constantly listening to podcasts,
Nicole:watching webinars, doing all the things, things to continue self education about
Nicole:different areas of struggle.
Nicole:Yeah, just like again, podcast reading, talking to friends, all the things to continue
Nicole:to organize prisoner solidarity and stay involved in my various political collectives
Nicole:through pregnancy and maternity leave.
Nicole:The best I can definitely try my hardest with that one.
Nicole:Personal goals, once planning permission is confirmed, support Rob to decorate the static
Nicole:caravan and create the nicest rockabilly love, rockabilly love nest ever.
Nicole:So, yeah, have achieved that one.
Nicole:Living in a really beautiful mobile home now
Nicole:and it's got all the cute Rockabilly pictures, tattoo art, prints, framed checkerboard floor.
Nicole:Yeah, it's really gorgeous.
Nicole:I'm really, really happy in there to give
Nicole:birth to a healthy, beautiful, amazing human tick.
Nicole:Joking.
Nicole:To have a healthy rest of my pregnancy and
Nicole:empowering birth and a calm and enjoyable postpartum period.
Nicole:Well, definitely didn't have an empowering birth and I definitely didn't have a calm
Nicole:postpartum period.
Nicole:Jobs relapse.
Nicole:But hey, you know, he's doing amazing now with
Nicole:recovery and rehab and N A and all the things and I'm super, super proud of him to continue
Nicole:to build spiritual skills, to hang out with friends more and make more local friends with
Nicole:babies.
Nicole:Still trying, but I have got a couple of awesome local friends now.
Nicole:Not achieved, so didn't organize a recorded prisoner solidary training.
Nicole:Didn't finish.
Nicole:Or launch the do no harm course which is like
Nicole:an offering all about clinical safety for grassroots herbal tabless.
Nicole:It's in process but not finished.
Nicole:It's something I try and work on on my phone
Nicole:every single night.
Nicole:When Lee's asleep and I'm lying next to him, I
Nicole:just try and do like an hour and a half and then go to sleep.
Nicole:I literally go to sleep at like 8 o'clock.
Nicole:It just has to happen to offer one to one
Nicole:support via my online clinic.
Nicole:Yeah, just I don't know where I thought I'd
Nicole:have the ability to do that.
Nicole:To enroll in applying functional medicine and clinical practice training.
Nicole:It's like two grand.
Nicole:It's just not happened.
Nicole:But yeah, again it's on the wish list to save up for a trip to Australia and New Zealand to
Nicole:introduce our baby to our family living there.
Nicole:So my stepmom and my brother live in New Zealand.
Nicole:I mean, sorry, live in Australia, in Western Australia.
Nicole:So I was really hoping that we could maybe go there and everyone's like, oh, go with.
Nicole:The baby's young, you know, because it's like free.
Nicole:But it's like, wow, literally.
Nicole:Well, how did I think I would travel across
Nicole:the world? Like I'm insane.
Nicole:Like just.
Nicole:Yeah, it's ridiculous.
Nicole:Like I can barely go to a coffee shop in my local town.
Nicole:So it's just.
Nicole:Yeah, it's so silly to get surf practice.
Nicole:Practice.
Nicole:Yeah, that's failed.
Nicole:Don't live anywhere near the sea.
Nicole:I haven't gone on holiday anywhere near the
Nicole:sea.
Nicole:So yeah, okay.
Nicole:And goals I renegotiated was sorting out some sort of fulfillment center for my books,
Nicole:finishing my endobiogenic medicine diploma.
Nicole:So this is something I enrolled in a few years
Nicole:ago.
Nicole:And then I had to kind of just cancel it basically because of the pregnancy.
Nicole:But they're happy for me to redo it in the next kind of group and to explore the
Nicole:possibilities of organizing some sort of local her project.
Nicole:So, like, I'm really missing that kind of like direct mutual aid, face to face stuff, like,
Nicole:you know, like in Calais.
Nicole:Like, I'm really good at wound care and
Nicole:organizing and working with people directly.
Nicole:And I just.
Nicole:Yeah, I just hate having to just do everything
Nicole:mediated by like a phone or a laptop, you know.
Nicole:So that, you know, local project hasn't happened.
Nicole:But I also laugh at myself of like, how I thought I'd be able to do that.
Nicole:I have no idea.
Nicole:So anyway, it hasn't happened.
Nicole:But I would like to put a call out to the
Nicole:universe that if people are in like Somerset, for example, doing anything, you know, with
Nicole:like unhoused folks or, you know, like refugees or asylum seekers or, you know,
Nicole:people in recovery, things like this, like, I would be so happy to just kind of slot in as a
Nicole:herbalist and like support folks.
Nicole:I just.
Nicole:Yeah, haven't got the kind of energy to
Nicole:organize those stuff or initiate things.
Nicole:But I would just love to just kind of be able
Nicole:to like, turn up, off, offer support, offer medicine, hold space for people, you know,
Nicole:like in a kind of like low key way, like a few hours a month or something.
Nicole:So. Yeah. Anyway.
Nicole:Wow, this episode has got to half an hour, so
Nicole:I'm gonna stop there.
Nicole:That's my kind of like review of the year.
Nicole:Yeah. I'll put the link in the show notes to all the things and then I'm gonna record an
Nicole:episode with kind of like, yeah, some of the goals for 2025 and some of the solid
Nicole:apothecary offerings that I hope you can check out.
Nicole:Okay, thanks for listening.
Nicole:Yeah, take the care.
Nicole:Thanks so much for listening to the Frontline Herbalism podcast.
Nicole:You can find the transcript, the links, all the resources from the
Nicole:show@solidarityapothecary.org
Nicole:podcast.