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Oh, wow,.

Brother.

Man.

Three years.

Three years.

Wow.

Three years.

Whoa.

23.

23.

Yeah, the very first.

The very first episode.

April.

I did like a hundred.

Yeah, this is episode 104, bro.

So you said you did 103.

Yeah, 103 episodes.

Within, like, within a span of.

That was two years.

Wow.

Yeah.

And then the last episode was Amin and myself, and I think it was the Kingdom is here.

Yeah, no, no, the last.

Yeah, the last.

Right.

So.

Wow.

Yeah, you were knocking them.

Yeah, we were.

So that was a solid two year.

Yeah, yeah.

Two year period of us getting episodes and we've been busy, busy.

Now we're busy building in the Kingdom and here we are.

So, man, per tradition, we're going to open up in prayer.

So why don't you handle the Arabic and I'll handle the English translation and we'll get it cracking.

This time.

I'm actually going to give the prayer in a different way.

Okay.

Yes, sir.

Let's knock it out.

I'm going to pray for all the people of the world to find peace and return to home.

From the source of all creation we come.

Into the source of all creation we go.

Allah, Yahweh, God, Jah, any name we may have, we are all one and praying for the oneness to continue.

And that Oneness, may it lead us to it and protect us from what takes us away from the Oneness and Ami.

Rahmanir rahim, rabi alamin, arohmanirrahim.

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

All praise is due to Allah, the Lord of the Worlds, the Beneficent, the most Merciful and Master of the Day of Judgment.

The alone do we serve.

The alone do we beseech for divine aid.

Guide us on the right path, the path upon whom Thou has bestowed favors, not upon whom Thy wrath has been brought.

Down, nor upon those who go astray.

O Allah, guide this conversation, guide our prose, guide our mission, guide our journey as we usher in thy kingdom and build on this new level you have ushered us into.

We love and serve you alone.

I mean, there we go.

It's coming back.

Hey.

So this is the Ascension podcast.

This is Brother Adam X here with.

Hamoon Hamun, the human in the house.

That's right.

And after a sabbatical of some odd years, three years, we're back in rotation, and we're living in a different world, man.

Same world, different stage.

Yeah, maybe same stage.

Let's go with same stage, different act.

Yeah, different act.

We're in a whole different.

Whole different.

Well, to be honest, the last act we were in was like, getting out of COVID act.

Wow.

That was really what it was.

Yeah.

This podcast was started during the heights of COVID during the pandemic, and it was really like, that was the incubator of the plans in which we're now living now.

Yeah.

And then we were in practice.

We were in action, you know, we were, you know, doing what we were talking about doing, literally.

Yeah.

What we were taught, what we have been talking about.

And then now we're living and breathing the reality we created that came from the incubation of that Covid period.

And now we're in the.

The building the pillars of the foundation of the Kingdom of Heaven, period of.

Of the time of Allah.

The days and times of Allah, I would call them end times, judgment times, whatever you want to call them.

People always say that it's been the time, but now I see, you know, it's.

It's here.

And I see.

I see a world where Allah is really going to force us.

He's forcing.

It's.

It's his time.

And all are going to have to submit.

And that's not a bad thing.

It's just we're all going to have to submit to righteousness, and it's that time.

Mm.

Yeah, yeah.

We don't have to let go.

Let go of so much control.

Release.

Yeah.

Submit.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Let go of Satan's world and specifically the world of materialism, the world of money before integrity, the world of lust before righteousness.

Right.

Mm.

Yeah.

Yep, yep, yep.

The world of trampling on the little guy and the world of, you know, the people who have been trampled on actually getting power and ushering in a kingdom of freedom, justice, and equality, you know?

Yeah.

And I view us, you know, the team, what we've built and what we have Done, namely, you know, build a food system in the state of California.

You know, it's just the beginning.

Because if we're not, like, if we're not feeding anybody, if we're not actually having a plan for the future, if we're just talking about burning everything down and we have nothing to replace what was feeding us, even if it was wicked, then what are we really doing?

That is.

It's the foundation of what.

Of what is to come.

And it's just the beginning.

But we had to do it to just lock down the basics.

Right.

The foundation, like you said, have some.

Something tangible to let us know that we.

Yeah, we're doing what we're supposed to.

Exactly.

You know, we're seeing the fruits of our labor.

Yeah, right.

You know, literally working with the fruits.

Right.

You know, working with the food, working with the soil.

The land.

The soil.

Yeah, yeah.

Just getting in there, get our hands dirty.

Yeah.

And we had a pretty good conversation before the podcast started about just what, quote, unquote, the geopolitical global sphere.

But the conclusion is, what's going to happen has been sanctioned by Allah.

Everything that has happened has a signature on it.

So we have to accept what has happened and realize that he's, for lack of a better term, taking out the trash so we could actually build a kingdom based on his principles, so we can argue and fight about how things ought to be, whether who's the good guys, who the bad guys, but really have to just submit to the.

The thinking that nothing happens without Allah's active or passive permission.

Right.

Yep, yep.

It's period of deep purge.

Deep purging, deep, deep purge.

Physically, spiritually.

Like spring cleaning, how you just, like,.

Spread, you know, you're literally sprinting right now.

I have not used this for, you know, months.

I need to get rid of it.

Yeah.

You know, things that aren't working, things that we don't need.

The earth, you know, the universe, all the energies, they're all like Persian.

Whatever is not serving.

That's right.

No, it hasn't been serving for a while.

And, yeah, a lot of.

A lot of what needed has been needing to purge has been holding on.

That's right, holding on.

You know, it's like that.

That.

That grime, that, like that deep, like, so rut, you know, that you really gotta, like, just get in and scrape and, like, clean.

It's yeah.

Yeah.

Feeling like that.

It's exactly what it feels like.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And it's a hard process, but being clean feels good.

It feels amazing.

House feels.

And is it beautiful?

Like, it's beautiful how this year panned out.

This.

I'm just.

Nowruz was last week, I believe, start of spring.

Nowruz on the first day of spring.

The end of Ramadan was on the first, like, end of Ramadan was on.

The exact same day in la, same.

Hour in the same hour in la,.

In the same hour.

Yeah.

It's really like now.

Rouge.

The new year, start of spring, end of Ramadan was literally on the last day of winter.

And now we're in the beginning of the new year.

We're in Aries season.

Aries is war with the new year.

It's like, right.

It's right here.

We got sun, we got Easter, which is the resurrection coming.

Oh, yeah.

This Sunday.

Sunday.

So it's like.

And then this year was the first year where we had Lent and Ramadan during the same period.

So it's.

Oh, wow.

Literally all of God's players, the religions, everything is aligned for oneness and renewal.

And in God's time, there is no.

There's no religion.

There's just Allah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Y. Y.

And that's.

And that's what I feel.

And this is like all of Allah's people, which are people who are, I would say, rooted in prayer.

You don't got to be a Muslim to pray.

Everyone who has a connection with Allah, with.

Connection with the source of the Creator, with God, we're all on the same team.

And that's what I really.

I see.

That alignment and that purge you were talking about, it's real.

Because what we are seeing on a global sphere is we could call it bad guys taking out bad guys.

Yeah, yeah.

And so if that's.

If that's what's happening, then whose side are we on?

Allah.

Allah.

Yeah.

There's your answer.

There's no.

Yeah, there's no.

It can be no other.

Why in these times, why would you latch on?

Why would you try to pick a team?

Yeah.

Your team needs to be Allah.

A team that's withering, that, you know, you're.

You're choosing man, right?

That's right.

You're choosing a man over the oneness or the source over the source, over the source.

The man, the being, the divine, the supreme beingness of Allah.

That's the winning team.

And it encompasses all things.

So, you know, take refuge in Allah.

That's That's.

That's the solution in this hour and message.

And that's the message, luckily I got during Ramadan.

Also during Ramadan, we had Savior's Day, which is the annual gathering of the Nation of Islam.

So we had.

The first time I've ever had a savior.

Savior's Day during Ramadan.

Yeah.

And that was the very, like, before or something.

Oh, wow.

Yeah.

So much.

So much.

It's a lot of so much.

And also we had the start.

The restarting of global war in Ramadan.

In Ramadan, right?

Yeah.

Like mid Ramadan.

Mid Ramadan, which is insane.

Like, when I saw that, I was like, oh, man, we're.

Yeah, that's gonna happen during Ramadan.

Yeah.

There's like.

So that shows you Satan has no protocol, no courtesy.

You feel me?

Right.

He has no decorum.

Wickedness has no decorum.

It has no leps.

The depths of its insanity.

But in a converse, Allah is the greatest.

So no matter what Satan does or what Satan plans, Allah plans and outmaneuvers.

Right, Right.

Just as, you know, Satan's like, oh, I'm getting stronger, but I'm the creator, Allah.

I got some for that.

Yeah.

Oh, okay.

You want to make a move during Ram.

Okay, I got some for that.

Yeah, we got something for that.

And that's interesting because, you know, you know, Shaytan Zane is locked up during Ramadan, right.

Yet doesn't mean his.

The.

The.

The.

The strings are already attached.

That's right.

The.

The.

The, like, you know, got whole year besides Ramadan to work and create habits for wicked people.

That's right.

So that, you know, during Ramadan, it doesn't matter if you're already wicked.

You're.

That.

That's just you.

That's.

That's showing that, like, Satan Shaitan can just, like, step back and be like, I already did what I needed to do.

That's right.

Yeah.

And it.

It's just.

It.

It's a blessing for Shaytan to show you who he is during the holy month, because it shows you there.

Like I said, there's no depth to his craziness.

And if after that point, you still want to rock with that, then may Allah blood.

May he help.

He's not.

Allah's not going to help you at that point, because once Satan reveals of and you still choose Satan, you're going.

You're going down with Satan, you know?

Yeah.

And personally speaking, I'm gonna let you speak personally about, like, what you learned during this Ramadan.

It was like, every Ramadan, it's A time of deep reflection and, like, going in with war with your shadows to see who you really are.

And a lot showed me, like, hey, bro, like, I know you've been doing a lot, but, you know, who are you really, you know?

And he forced me to look at pieces of myself that I've never confronted and really had to, like, look at.

And it was nasty, man.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's not pretty.

It's not cleaning.

Spring cleaning.

Yeah, it was like.

It was like I was in the dungeons of winter and then spring cleaning.

I was like, okay.

At the end of spring, I really saw, like, oh.

Oh, man.

These are my skeletons.

Oh, boy.

Yeah.

You can't.

You can't hide who you've been and what you've done by doing stuff in present.

Like, by dupe, by trying to do stuff in present time.

Getting a new girlfriend, getting a new relationship, doing.

Just running around doing stuff, you know, you can't run away from yourself.

And.

Yeah, Allah's cool, bro.

It's on the last day of Ramadan.

Former Ramadan Eid.

Eat.

It was no last day.

Ramadan day before.

Yeah.

Last fasting day before Eid.

Last fasting day.

I was running, taking my children to school.

We were running late, you know, because I was doing too much in the morning, really running late.

Let my two children out the car.

They were running to school.

Let my baby daughter out the car to go to school.

But she was taking her time.

And I decided to, you know what?

I'll actually park the car and walk you to school.

But I didn't walk her to school.

I picked her up and ran with her to school downhill, right?

Oh, wow.

In cowboy boots and like, inch high, like three fourths of an inch high.

Cowboy boots, like, very heel.

Something you should not be running with a child with.

Oh, wow.

Wow.

So I'm running, running, running, running downhill.

I cross the.

I cross.

Like, there's a crossing guard, right?

And there's a. I cross where the crossing guard that.

The crosswalk.

Then as I'm running past the crossing guard, crossing guards like, oh, wow, it's Superman.

And I was.

I was feeling myself too.

Like, yeah, I'm running.

Got a daughter.

I'm the man.

I'm the man.

As soon as I had that thought that I'm the man, I roll my ankle on a rock.

Oh, wow.

And I Holding my daughter and I land.

It's running downhill.

So it's a downhill slope on seam on the street.

At the end of the crosswalk, roll my ankle on a rock and slam My side of the body against the pavement.

And luckily for my daughter, I tucked and rolled so she didn't hit the pavement.

So she landed on me.

Yeah, luckily.

So I, I. I saved her.

She had.

She had one scrape on her knee, whereas I had.

I. I sprained my ankle.

And then the whole right side of my body was banged up.

Bloody knee banged my.

Yeah, blank.

Banged my elbow.

Wow.

I was.

I was.

It was.

I was out, bro.

And then I hit the ground, and I was just, like, split on the ground.

My daughter was, like, next to me crying.

Like, all the parents from the school were surrounding me.

Yeah.

And.

But peep.

This.

This.

Wow.

The first person that came and, like, asked and, like, got to my aid was an.

An orthopedic surgeon in uniform.

Yeah.

So it's like, just the person you would want to see if you, like, hurt a limb.

Like, it.

Wow.

Is this the hospital?

Is this.

Wow.

So that tells me, as soon as I saw him, I was like, wait, bro, he's like a Middle Eastern dude.

Probably maybe put him in Muslim.

Oh, wow.

Yeah.

Okay.

But as soon as I saw him, I was like, okay, this is Allah.

This is a law.

Because as soon as I saw the doctor, I was like, not in denial.

I was like, okay, no, this is bigger than me.

Okay.

The first person that came and tended to me was someone who was professionally trained to make sure I was okay.

So once I saw that, I kind of just, like, I stopped trying to, like, hide and, like, trying to, like, act like everything was cool.

I, like, sat down and be like, okay, I'm actually hurt.

Let me just chill.

Everyone came around to talk to me, but it was.

It was.

They called the ambulance, too.

Yeah, there was, like, a.

There's an ambulance that came and, like, had to take me back to my car to make sure nothing was, like, hadn't hit my head.

But long story short, I view that experience as Allah having to, like, actually take.

Sit me down.

And the lesson I got from that is like, all right, Adam, you've been doing all this running around for years, but what do you.

Who are you and what are you really doing?

You know, how are you.

How are you going to build anything if you haven't taken the time to build and fix and heal yourself and your family?

You feel me?

And I view, you know, personally like, that what I.

What I was doing running down that hill with my daughter is like, you know, me running, trying to do everything all by myself and taking the hits.

Right?

Yeah.

Yeah.

And that's what we do as Men, I guess we do.

And like, you know, it just so happened to be physical that time, but I'm realizing I.

What I did is, what I've been doing is running, doing scrambling, doing all this stuff and taking all the emotional hills, not taking the time to stop and be like, yo, bro, you actually have to heal.

You gotta heal.

Yeah, you have to.

And the message I got was, I have.

We have to stabilize ourselves, establish ourselves as men, so that way we could establish our families, establish.

Establish our wives and children.

We can't do that if we're out scrambling.

We have to be stabilized.

So stabilize.

You can establish yourself, establish your family, establish your team, your tribe, so you could establish your nation, so you could build the Kingdom of Heaven.

That's the message I got from that.

Yeah.

And it was.

It was painful, but the last day, 10 days of Ramadan, freedom from the fires of hell.

That's what it is.

And it was the first.

I always get, like, sick at the last day, but this is the first time I actually got hurt, physically hurt.

Wow, interesting.

Every time.

Every time.

Every year.

Every year I get sick during.

Every year.

Gets you around.

I was always, like a spirit of purge, like, always get sick, but this time was like, when a lot really had to show me is like, hey, bro, no, you actually.

If you want to be a leader, you have to show people how it's done.

Like, do you really want other men running around and scrambling with.

With semi broken families?

No, you want men with a.

With stability that are able to establish strong, strong families upon which a nation and kingdom can be built.

Right.

You feel me?

Right?

It's not just.

It's not just that llc.

No, no, no.

Not just the.

Yeah, yeah.

So it was a humbling, humbling message, but I got it.

Yeah.

And it's crazy, like, when you're like, you can't.

The thing is, you could fake having your feelings hurt, you know, I mean, you could, like, put on a smile and fake it till you make it right.

You can't fake a broken bone.

You know, you can't fake a broken ankle.

You can't fake.

You can't fake a sprained ankle.

It hurts.

You can't walk.

Yeah.

Like, you can't hide.

Yeah.

You got to get crutches.

You got to.

You got to sit down.

So.

And that.

It was like two days where I couldn't walk.

I had to actually, like, use crud.

It was hurt.

Yeah.

Crutches for Eid.

Yeah, man.

Wow.

I was on.

I was.

I could not even prostrate make crazy crutches for Eid, bro.

Wow.

Crutches for Eid.

Sounds like a rap.

Crutches for you.

Yeah, man.

Yeah, crutches.

Crutches on Eid.

And a lot's big.

Yeah, man, that's.

But what it taught me is because while I'm still sit down, hurt, incapacitated, my mind is so running and my mind is operating on like, the thinking goes, I gotta do this.

Oh, I gotta do this.

I gotta do this.

I gotta like, like a motor, like a, like a circuit that this is.

Keep running.

But when you're sit, when you, when you get sat down like that, you get to be hospitalized.

It's like you literally can't do all that stuff.

Yeah.

So you literally have to let that motor run and run and run.

It's just like, oh, till it died.

Till it runs out.

It runs out.

Yeah.

And I'm telling you, like, that it was painful.

That.

Okay, I had the physical pain, but I also had like the, I don't even know how to call it, like the spiritual, emotional pain to just allowing those circuits to, to spark and run off.

And I slept for like days.

I, I all I could do was sleep.

That's it.

Yeah.

That was the only solution.

It was just the mental energy of those recurring circuits of go do this, go to this.

Like, and I think just living in a big city, you're gonna have like, you always.

Yeah.

It's like your mind's moving faster.

You gotta just feel like you always got to do something.

Yeah.

You know, like, I gotta, I, I gotta, I gotta, I gotta, gotta.

But having those run out and then now after that, after Eid, and it's been so good.

I'm still fast.

I'm still doing Ramadan fasting up until maybe I'll stop on Easter, but I'm still doing the fast because I've done, I'm riding like the lessons from that.

So I could just continue.

Yeah, to continue to, to wow.

Like, like really manifest that lesson.

So I evolve into this new year, a new being.

Wow.

And I think like, the solution is instead of thinking, what do I need to do?

Is waking up every day and how can I do less?

What is like the, the most simple way to do my day?

You feel me?

Simplify.

Yeah, like really simplify it.

Like before it was like, oh, I'm gonna do, I'm gonna try to squeeze as much as possible in my day.

Have like as long as list as possible.

And like, the game I set up with myself was like, I'm Gonna do as much.

Yeah.

That's some Elon Musk, Bill Gates type, type of.

Type of activity.

No, exactly.

To be fair, there is.

That comes with results.

But at what cost?

At what cost?

Right.

Where are their families?

Where are their families?

Bill Gates divorce looks terrible.

Elon Musk looks.

He just did.

I don't want to be.

Not have a together family, that's for sure.

He got a lot going on.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I. Yeah.

So we don't even have to.

Yeah, I thought about it.

I could go in.

I could go in, but I'm just.

I guess I'm not in that spirit of like, slack talking, but we see it.

I only got to say it.

Like, just me talking about us.

Exactly.

Yeah, exactly.

But my point is, is, you know, they're held as paradigms of success, right.

That type of thinking.

And I'll say it.

White men, you know, and I will say, like, white men have a way of thinking where it's like, killer, get killed, you know, like, just gotta get it done.

Yeah.

And it, like I said, with all due respect, it gets.

There's results.

Apple, Microsoft, Tesla, SpaceX.

Success.

You can't argue that those are successful entities, you know?

Right.

Powerful sexual entities.

But I'm asked what I'm asking ourselves, a society, ourselves, this man is.

Are in this new age, are we willing to sacrifice spirit, the spirit for material gain?

Right.

Right.

You feel me?

And, you know, to give Musk and Steve Jobs credit is like, I, the four and this old me, I would like, take.

I would get gain from them.

I was like, oh, I got to push hard like them.

I really got to do it like them.

Like, I wouldn't say like, I like them personally, but I was definitely like, okay, now if they could do it, I could do it better.

Yeah.

You feel me?

Yeah.

So I found myself, like.

What's the word?

Like, biting their.

How they move.

Like mimicking how they move.

Right.

And still keeping that spirit.

That spirit.

And I'll call it.

Call it.

It's a devilish spirit.

Yeah.

Because it's.

It's a spirit that doesn't care about the consequences.

Like just a robotic, you know.

Yeah.

No good, no bad.

Just, you know, stoic.

Stoic.

There's something to learn from every man, right?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Even the wicked ones.

Because sometimes the wicked ones are the ones who are able to reach the masses better a lot of times.

A lot of times.

Yeah.

Right.

And, you know, we want to do good and we want to honestly at least just reach the people who we love.

Right.

So how do we.

You know, sometimes we have to be a little.

Little stoic to be able to.

You say stoic?

Stoic.

Yeah, stoic, like, you know, like a little emotionless as far as.

Like the.

The.

The nitty gritty, you know, the word goes, right?

Yeah.

Yet if we.

If that's all we do, then, like you said, your.

Your gears are gonna just burn out.

They're gonna burn.

They're gonna burn out, you know, but then, you know, you still want to be present for your family.

You want to be present for yourself, you know, and like that, you know, for some men, that's a sacrifice worth taking, but for us, if we want to be pillars for, you know, for this village.

Exactly.

So that, you know, that's not.

You know, the women never asked us to be the sacrifice.

Right.

That's right.

They didn't.

You know.

They didn't.

Right.

They're like, this isn't the time anymore, you know?

No, sir.

Our battle is, you know, in the.

In the dirt and planting and, you know, the food chain and, you know, making sure the village is fed.

Make sure.

Providing and making sure the village is fed.

Yep, yep.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

And I think the folly of.

The folly of men, but I'll say the folly of this man, brother Adam X, is what.

What that whole experience of falling downhill, running my daughter to school like a maniac, man, what that taught me is, okay, what program am I operating on?

You feel me?

Like, why did I feel the need to run down?

Why do I feel the need to run around and scramble and try to do everything?

And I'm realizing that somewhere in my journey, I just.

That I made the agreement with the universe.

Like, I've got to do everything myself.

You feel me?

Like, I made that agreement.

Yeah, yeah, I got.

It's.

It's all on me.

It's all on me.

You feel me?

And it's like, I think I adapted that in.

In moments, in periods of life, of hurt, when I felt abandoned, whether it was parents, girls, leave me, abandoning me, feelings of hurt to where I realized, okay, well, I can't trust men.

I can't trust women.

It's all on me.

I've got to do it myself.

And I think in those moments of paint, hurt, and chaos, we make those agreements with ourselves and with the universe.

And then that is like the soil upon which those circuits that I was talking about remember me.

Like, I got to do this.

I got to do that.

I got to do this.

I got to do that.

That's the fodder upon which those circuits operate.

You know?

So I will say that Eid Ramadan, it allowed me to go to the root and be like, what a grimace agreements did you make upon which these circuits that no longer serve you in present time run that circuit.

What.

Or that agreement was.

I've got to do it all myself.

Yeah, yeah.

Hamun, can.

I'm gonna ask you.

Can a man build a nation by himself?

I have never heard of it.

No.

Nope.

Can a man build a kingdom by himself?

Nope.

Exactly.

And I'm looking.

Even though some get credit that's right for it.

But.

Yeah.

No.

Never one man.

Never one man.

And then I look at, you know, I look at Elon, I look at Steve Jobs, I look at what's Bezos.

All these dudes.

Yeah, yeah.

Had the successful companies, but then at no part of any of their journeys can you point and be like, there was a woman by his side.

You feel me?

I'm not saying there were women there.

I'm sure there was women involved in like, their success.

But we don't see the other half.

Like, we don't see the other half.

And what I'm learning is where we are in this kingdom.

You don't think the woman who builds in birds nation from her womb is not gonna have anything to do with it?

Yeah, it's absurd, right?

It's absurd.

Yep.

And one other, like, fruit, like a dream vision I had during Ramadan was.

Okay, let's.

You know, when we usually think about la, we think of Allah, you know, as a.

As a.

As a man, as a masculine figure.

But then Allah showed me is like, no, no, just get that whole concept out of your head and just view the body of Allah.

Right now is all the women that have been trampled on by this society.

Yeah.

It's terror.

From.

Wow.

From a man's point of view, it's terrifying because, like, we're all complicit in the condition of women across the planet.

No, we can't say that things are sweet.

They're not sweet.

They haven't been sweet.

And they've been saying it.

But now Allah really showed me is like, okay, now, now I want you, Adam X, to move as if that's the case.

And that's what's going to happen.

All the women that been black women, women of color, Muslim women, like, all of them, like, Mel, I'm giving them the reins and this world's not going to be built until they're right.

How does that change how you move and navigate through time?

And space and present time.

That's the message I got.

Oh, yeah.

Whirlwind.

Yeah.

Yep.

Spring cleaning.

And then I looked.

I looked at my reservoir of what I've got, my assets.

I've got two rock solid daughters, and I'm like, okay, well, regardless of whatever I'm going through, I. I feel like I've set a pretty good example of harder work for my daughters to go in and to lead and help them build this kingdom.

So I'm not saying I'm a failure, but it's like my mindset on leadership and my mindset on what needs to get done, it's definitely more inclusive of women.

And not give myself credit, I was never a.

Especially recently, I was never like a soup.

I was down to massages.

Not a hater.

Yeah.

But I would just say blind spot.

You feel me?

Okay.

Especially with the podcast.

Let me have.

I've had some sisters on the podcast, but mostly it's been.

It's bro.

It's a bro hour.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Bro hours.

Bro down.

It's like, what, 11, you know, it's the bro down.

But now it's like, now that I've got.

I've got two daughters as a single father, I'm like, okay, Allah's really setting me.

It's like, all right, Adam, you know how much you really going to do without that rock solid woman, you know?

And that's where I'm at now is like, okay, well, let's build and stabilize myself, establish myself so that that missing piece comes to me, and then I can actually walk into the plan that Allah has for us.

You feel me, bro?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Because right.

You know, you're.

The kids are like, always watching.

Always, always.

They're like, yeah.

Literally, like sponges.

Your purest reflection.

You know, it's like they.

They.

Yeah.

Again, like, you don't even have to be misogynistic, but it's honoring the.

The feminine.

The slowness.

Right.

Too.

Of not always is like the nurturing.

Right.

Right.

We gotta nurture, like, in pain.

Yeah.

Right.

Like, take time.

You don't really feel it.

Right.

Absolutely.

And then.

And.

And.

And then also, like, there's so much truth in the masculine.

It's like.

Yeah.

In times of turmoil, like, you.

Yeah.

You have to be like, all right, what's next?

Yeah.

What do I do next?

You know, I can't just sit here in the middle of the street, you know, letting me and my daughter just, like, you know, bleed.

Bleed out the street.

Yeah.

I'm going to get up, you know.

You know, one step at a time.

Like, I had a friend, I was going to get spring water, and she, like, dropped, like, the.

The water jug of the spring water.

Yeah.

Next to the.

The.

The spring water spot, and it broke, and it literally, like, cut her finger.

Yeah.

And we were, like, 40 minutes from, like, civilization.

Wow.

Like 30 minutes, maybe.

Right.

And she ended up getting stitches.

But in that moment, I had to, like, really be in the masculine of, like, you know, or I had to be in both.

I had to be like, calm down.

Yeah, it's okay.

You know, it's okay.

We're gonna focus on what we can control.

Let's watch the wound.

Let's, you know, let me wrap it up for you.

Right.

You know, I didn't have a med kit.

You know, I don't know where my first aid kid went.

Yeah.

I have to put it back in the car, but, yeah, I just had some paper towels.

I was like, okay, we washed it.

We're going to wrap it and just stay in the car.

And, you know, we just drove down and I was just like, I.

Calm down, you know, it's okay.

It's okay.

Don't think.

Don't let, you know, just be present.

Breathe.

And, you know, we have to be like, all right, get to the er.

Tell them what's going on.

Get those stitches.

Like that masculine is super important.

Absolutely.

You know, and it works with the feminine of, like, it's okay.

Like, you're not stupid for doing that.

You're not.

Like, it's okay.

Yeah.

Like, it's not that serious.

Like, we gotta, you know, just take space and be like.

That's right.

Sometimes Allah wants us to learn lessons in those.

That's right.

And, yeah, sometimes, you know, we're supposed to feel.

Actually, I mean, a lot of times we're supposed to feel pain in all the different ways.

So we're not stuck in the loop of the world.

Right.

The Dunya.

As Dunya with.

That's worldly.

Like, that's, like, worldly, you know, which is a beautiful, beautifully created.

Yeah.

Beautifully created world.

Yet we can't be so stuck in its loops, you know, because that means we're just so attached.

And, like, we started the episode like it's got.

People got to let go if you want to purge.

And you haven't worn the sweater for, like, three years, you know, like, why are you keeping the sweater?

Let go.

Let go.

Why is there still dust in a spider web in the corner of your house?

It's been there for like a year.

Yeah, bro.

Yeah.

Spider webs all up in here, yo.

Gone.

The spider is not here.

You know, we respect the spider if it's there, right?

You know, but maybe not even the spider is there.

Why do you got cot?

Why do you got cobwebs?

Clean it up, you know?

Yeah, yeah.

Our insides are deeply like that because we're just so stuck in, like, the.

The flow of the world.

Yeah.

So stuck with, like, it could be anything, you know, Right now, a lot of people are just stuck in the loop of, you know, social media, the media, the.

Yeah, the loop of work.

The loop of just the struggle.

Right.

And the materialistic struggle for survival, where.

You gotta work for some fiat to buy some stu.

To go to sleep, to go work for some more fiat.

And when you're not working, you're on the media.

That's right.

Yep.

Arguing or scrolling?

Scrolling.

It's a loop.

Scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll.

And then you're not scrolling and you're just, like, trying to sleep.

You're still in that.

In that?

Yeah, Like.

Yeah.

And then you wake up and you go to work and you're like, well,.

Damn, you wake up and you scroll.

You wake up and you scroll some more and get back in the loop.

It's literally a treadmill, man.

These are all just different levels of the treadmill and a little.

Little piece of, like, carrot dangling in front of you.

And the thing about social media, man, it's just.

It's always that carrot.

Just like the little, like.

What's next?

What's next?

What's next?

It's.

It's very toxic and dangerous.

Yeah, it's very.

And I'm, you know, I'm in it too.

Like, I have to.

Me too, man.

I mean, we're all in it.

We're all in.

We have to.

We to.

To survive.

To communicate.

To communicate.

I don't know.

We don't.

We don't have to, but we do it because it makes life easier.

It does.

There's been times that I.

My phone didn't work and I.

My life was better.

Right.

So we don't.

I'm not going to make that.

I'm not going to make that agreement and say that we have to.

We just do it because we make the calculation that it makes our lives easier.

We build relationships, you know, we build connections.

So.

But if we kept it to just that, it'd be so much.

So much, so much better.

So much easier.

Right.

Calling it out for what it is makes it easier to confront the problem.

You could just see it and then just change the trajectory and do something else.

Yeah.

No.

So I'm now reading the Quran on my phone.

I don't scroll.

My default is reading the Quran that's on my phone.

You feel me?

That's good.

Yeah.

So I'm just adapting habits to replace.

Yeah, replacing habits to replace.

Adapting habits to replace those loops and those cycles of action that no longer service.

Replace those.

That circuitry.

May Allah make it easy for us to do that.

Yeah.

So manifest in the same.

Um.

Yeah.

I really am grateful for Ramadan.

Yeah.

Because it's like, would you get.

Huh?

What'd you get from it?

So much.

Yeah, so much.

You know, that's.

The Ramadan is the one.

It's like the month that, like, puts everything on pause.

Like, you know, things are still going.

Right.

The loop is still going.

But if you're really experienced Ramadan to its fullness and you've made it into another Ramadan, you're like, wow.

Like Alhamdulillah.

Like, wow.

Yeah.

I'm so blessed to make it to another Ramadan.

Let me slow down.

Okay.

Let me pray.

Let me read the Quran.

Let me just pray.

Like, actually pray.

Actually pray.

We, like, you know, pray.

Right.

A lot of people have, like, their practices, yet when you really, really, really feel it and ask for even simple things, like, my brain is going crazy, like, just give me some clarity, you know?

Yeah.

Make it easier for my family to have clarity.

Make it easy for my grandma to not be caught up in the news and, you know, like, even little things, it's like, it was really nice to be able to slow down.

Yeah.

And like, like, pray.

Yeah.

Right.

And as Ramadan, I was.

I ended up going to the mosque the most I ever had because I just.

There's nowhere else that I rather been.

Where would you rather.

It's wrong.

That's what I love about Ramadan.

Yeah, right.

Going to the mosque, bro.

It's like, I would go to your.

To this event, but Ramadan is only once a year.

Once a year, those events, it just.

Makes it so simple.

It's like, I'm going to the mosque tonight.

Like, period.

It's very clear.

And the beautiful thing with having children is, like, if you raise your children, the faith, it's like, that's what they force you.

Like, no, daddy, we're going to the mosque.

All of our friends are there.

It's Ramadan.

They got food.

They got.

If I wouldn't have taken my children to the mosque, they would have.

They would have.

They would have ran away, bro.

Like, my.

The one thing I could say, like, throughout the turmoil, my family, like, my children are Muslims.

And then that's because I've had them in the mosque.

Like, we've done.

Yeah.

It's like a safe space for them.

Safe space.

They've all.

They've.

Every year.

My daughter was born when I was a Muslim.

My son was like, I became a Muslim right after he was born.

Oh, cool.

Yeah.

So more or less, all three, they've been raising the nation.

They've been raised in the mosque.

Like, mosque is what we do.

You feel me?

So regardless of what's happening with the family situation, like, they know God is always in the foundation.

And coincidentally enough, Islam and Ramadan have been their foundation.

So, like, that's what.

That's who they are.

That's what they want to do.

You feel me?

So that just goes, like.

This just confirms what you were saying.

It's like, you know, during Ramadan, Allah and prayer is like, the stable datum, like, the stable point.

It's like, you just know that's gonna happen, you know?

Yeah.

The pillars.

The pillars.

That's why it's literally.

That just came to me, like, wow.

That's why they're the pillars.

You remember the fasting, the zakat, you know, the prayer?

Like, and it's like, okay, Ramadan.

The women.

Right, The.

That's right.

But what about the women?

So I think it's like, I. I got to recheck what the pillars of Islam is.

Okay.

But it's definitely, you know, the prayer.

There's aat and the fasting, you know, like Ramadan.

And I think it's like the Nikah as well.

Like, something.

Something with the women.

Excuse me.

I'm not a imam.

I'm doing my best.

The Quran, dude.

Definitely the Quran.

Do your best.

Definitely the Quran.

Because they really hold you down.

And then during a Ramadan, you're experiencing it.

It's like.

Like, for the Quran.

Like, I. I, like, made it, like, a goal to finish it for the first time.

Okay, so you read the whole Quran during Ramadan?

Solid, bro.

But.

But in Arabic.

Right.

So you know I didn't.

Right.

I don't understand everything.

Okay.

But I read.

Okay, Read it.

Right?

And.

And that's just like, you know, an hour, like a day.

Damn.

You know, that's.

It's like, wow.

Good job.

Dedication.

Yeah, dedication.

I do the.

I read.

I read it in English to understand, but, yeah.

That's amazing.

I mean, both important.

Both important.

I honestly would love to do that as well.

Because, you know, it's important, it's really important to understand.

Understand what you read.

And so many people who are not converts end up not doing that as much.

Yeah.

You know, because you're like caught up in like the loop, so.

Yeah, well, the loop just.

It's ritual.

It's ritual.

It's ritual.

And I didn't, I didn't.

Yeah, it is nice.

It is nice.

But I, I didn't know that.

And I'll be quick with this.

I didn't know because I came in Islam study, I read the Quran and understood it.

That's why, that's why I joined the nation.

That's why I came to Islam, because I understood, oh, this is the truth.

But then it took me a while to realize that a lot of people who are born in the faith are just born in the culture of Islam.

Yeah.

That they just, they just memorize the Arabic and that's the culture and just.

I liken it to, you know, growing up Catholic, you do the cross, you whatever, you know, growing up Christian, going up in Protestant like me, you just.

There's certain things, you go to church, you kind of like, you sing songs, you do this thing, but you don't really go to the root and get the understanding who was Jesus.

What does this Quran mean?

What was going.

Even there's the actual translation of the Quran of like what was revealed to the Prophet through the angel Gabriel.

Right.

The actual Arabic, which is.

Yeah.

The beautiful thing about that is like, that's constant between all sects of Islam is like, no, there's one source, which is beautiful.

Yeah.

But then there's also the context of what was going on during the time of the Prophet's life through which these revelations were revealed, which is another thing.

Yeah.

I'm not sure if you study that story.

Yeah.

His story is awesome.

You have to, you have to.

Yeah, yeah.

You have to really, like, sit with it.

It's not just like reading like translation.

Okay.

And this happened, that and this, this, that.

It's like, okay, now what, what, what do you think that means?

Yeah.

Right.

Let's sit with that.

Let's discuss it.

Right.

It's like it's a lifetime journey.

Absolutely.

Lifetime journey.

Yeah.

You know.

Do you know the age of the Prophet?

The Prophet Muhammad?

Praise and blessing be upon his name.

How old he was when he got the first revelation?

I think he was 50, 40 something.

40 Something.

He was older than us for sure.

Yeah, for sure.

Yeah.

So that just lets us know.

It's like the real journey hasn't even begun yet.

You feel me?

Because he didn't get the minister.

Farrakhan didn't even start rebuilding the nation until he was post 40.

I'm 38.

How old are you?

30 Yet?

28.

Yeah.

You're young.

You're 10 years.

Yeah.

So it's like you're building the foundation for the real work to start both of us.

Yeah.

Because that's real, like, for sure.

He.

The real work.

Allah didn't see the messenger, the Prophet, fit for the revelation until he reached a certain level of trials to prove himself worthy of the message.

Wow, man.

It was like, oh, you thought your life at this point was tough.

Now I got some work.

Now I'm going to send people to kill you.

Yep.

And one thing I learned about his story, the story of him and his.

And it's a beautiful story.

It's like they were just trying to kill righteous people.

He was just preaching the truth.

They were haters.

They didn't like what you had to saying.

They called it.

They said he was cap, let's go kill him.

Yeah, everything.

Kill, Berate.

Yep.

Try to embarrass all of it, bro.

Savages and then some.

What.

What.

What I love about the story is, like, they could fight.

You feel me?

And they threw down when they had to.

They were never being aggressive when they had to.

But when it was on, it was on, bro.

Yeah, when it was on, it was on.

And I see that.

And, like, you know, I'm still a fighter at the end of the day, bro.

And I see that in, like, Muslim fighters as, like, like, you don't want to fight a Muslim, bro.

They're the best fighters.

We're the best fighters.

USC is literally dominating all dag standing.

White Muslim, like, Muslims, bro,.

Man, all the.

All the champions, like, Muslims, Muslims.

You don't want to fight them.

And not only.

Not only they toughest.

They fight in a way that's efficient.

They wrestle and it's like, it's a beautiful thing.

So.

Yeah, and it's that they have the pillars.

The pillars.

You know, it's like you're physically seeing that they have the pillars.

It's not just like, oh, you know, like, McGregor was such a good example.

It was like, you know, he was like the best striker and the best person to.

To get in your head and.

Yeah.

You know, talk and, you know, who's the best promoter, Right?

Yeah.

And next thing you know, Khabib, like, shut him down.

He was like, like, you didn't.

Like, I saw that match.

And I was like.

Because back then I was.

I didn't know about Khabib as much.

Oh, okay.

And, you know, I'm like, you know, Connor's a guy that, like, everyone talks about.

I know.

I know Khabib is Muslim, but, you know, Connor's the entertaining one, and I was very fun.

Wow.

That wasn't even close.

Nah, bro, that wasn't even close.

They were like, connor's the best.

And to be fair, Conor was good.

He was mad good.

Really good.

He was really good.

But that just shows you.

But it was like.

But he was not.

He.

He was.

He didn't have the spiritual.