In this soul-level conversation, Bill Pautler joins Leticia to redefine survival mode as conforming to the world instead of being attuned to yourself. Bill shares multiple spiritual awakenings — including a life-changing moment in 1988 that cracked him open emotionally, and a later awakening that made him feel love for strangers like a spiritual electric shock.

But awakening came with a cost: community rejection, shame, isolation, and rebuilding from the floor of his office while being misunderstood and judged. Together, they unpack self-love, self-forgiveness, fear as restriction, surrender, and why silence is the most underrated healing tool on the planet.

Highlights include:

1. 🧠 Survival mode as masks + false beliefs
2. 🔥 Awakening as identity collapse + liberation
3. 💛 Self-forgiveness as giving yourself room to live
4. 🌊 Surrender as “stop fighting the current”
5. 🤫 Silence as the path back to your inner manual

🎙️ What We Talk About:

1. Survival mode as conformity, masks, and unchallenged belief systems
2. Spiritual awakenings and emotional purging (“the gift of tears”)
3. What happens when you outgrow your tribe, religion, or community
4. Shame, guilt, and being labeled the problem for evolving
5. Self-love and self-forgiveness as foundational liberation
6. Fear as restriction and resistance to life’s flow
7. Awareness as a lighthouse: seeing triggers and choosing differently
8. How surrender restores power (instead of control addiction)
9. Why silence is the gateway to truth, peace, and purpose

🔑 Key Takeaways:

“Survival mode is conforming to the world instead of being attuned to yourself.”

“Liberation is what happens when you move out of survival.”

“Fear is restriction — it’s fighting the current.”

“Silence will tell you who you are, if you stop long enough to listen.”

🙌 Why This Episode Matters:

Because so many high-achieving women are exhausted not from life — but from performing it.

This episode names the real prison: conformity, masks, and living by borrowed beliefs.

Bill’s story is a reminder that healing isn’t always therapy language and tidy transformation… sometimes it’s spiritual awakening, identity loss, and choosing truth even when it costs you community.

If you’re ready to stop surviving as a version of yourself that keeps everyone else comfortable, this conversation is your permission slip.

💬 Connect with Bill:

1. Website: AwakeningToOurselves.com
2. Book: Awakening to Ourselves: The Practical Art of Building a Spiritually Aware Life (Amazon)
3. Brand: Sage Life with Bill (Spiritual Awareness, Growth & Enlightenment)
4. Newsletter: Weekly spiritual stories + healing insights via his website