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Beyond the Stroke: Being Grateful in the Crisis
Episode 4330th January 2024 • What's the Story? • CROWD Church
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In this powerful episode of "What's The Story," we sit down with Rob Brown, a man who faced one of life's most daunting challenges - a stroke - and emerged with invaluable insights on gratitude, faith, and the power of resilience. Join us as we unravel Rob's journey from the onset of mysterious migraines to a life-changing diagnosis and his subsequent path to recovery and discovery.

Show Notes:

  • The Onset of the Crisis:

1. Rob details the initial signs of his health scare - a series of intense migraines that hinted at something far more serious.

2. The moment of clarity and relief when receiving his diagnosis, shifting from uncertainty to a path of action.

  • Role of Faith in Adversity:

1. Rob reflects on how his faith provided solace and strength during his most vulnerable moments.

2. Insight into how faith can be a guiding light in times of darkness and uncertainty.

  • The Power of Gratitude:

1. How Rob's perspective shifted from what he lost to what he still had.

2. The transformative power of focusing on blessings rather than losses.

  • Life Lessons and Inspirational Takeaways:

1. Rob shares universal truths that resonate with all listeners, regardless of their personal battles.

2. The importance of being thankful for life's gifts, even in the midst of trials and tribulations.

  • Navigating Life Post-Stroke:

1. Rob's journey of recovery and adaptation, embracing new limitations with a positive outlook.

2. The ongoing role of faith and gratitude in his life after the stroke.

Key Discussion Points:

  1. Understanding and coping with unexpected health crises.
  2. The role of faith in personal resilience and recovery.
  3. Embracing gratitude as a tool for transformation in challenging times.
  4. The journey of self-discovery and growth through adversity.

Tune in to be inspired and perhaps discover a new perspective that could change your life.

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Connect with Rob Brown:

https://www.linkedin.com/in/therobbrown/

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And now, let's meet your host and our special guest for today.

Matt Edmundson:

Welcome to What's The Story, beside me on

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the screen if you're watching

Matt Edmundson:

this is a very old friend of mine, Mr.

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Rob Brown, all the way from Nottingham, the land of Robin Hood.

Matt Edmundson:

If you're listening to this on audio, you can't see him, but trust me,

Matt Edmundson:

he's just next to me on the screen.

Matt Edmundson:

It's great to have Rob here.

Matt Edmundson:

We're going to get into Rob's story.

Matt Edmundson:

A whole bunch of stuff with Rob about his Christian journey challenges he's

Matt Edmundson:

had to face and all that sort of stuff but yeah, Rob lives in Nottingham,

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he's doing TED Talks apparently he interviews people for a living.

Matt Edmundson:

He's written a book, so I feel slightly nervous.

Matt Edmundson:

In fact, he's interviewed a thousand people or more on

Matt Edmundson:

what makes good people great.

Matt Edmundson:

Thousands of people.

Matt Edmundson:

He is a stroke survivor, he's got epilepsy, he's a committed Christian,

Matt Edmundson:

he has a black belt in kickboxing, so I just need to watch my P's and Q's

Matt Edmundson:

apparently he played chess and backgammon as well, Rob, in your quiet time.

Matt Edmundson:

Which I think is quite fascinating.

Matt Edmundson:

You love, I love this.

Matt Edmundson:

You love orange chocolate.

Matt Edmundson:

Is that Terry's chocolate orange or is there a

Rob Brown:

That is my go to, Matt, definitely.

Rob Brown:

I can devour a whole one in one go.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, I'm with you, bro.

Matt Edmundson:

There's something that is so addictive about that Terry's chocolate.

Matt Edmundson:

And do you do the Terry's chocolate orange, which is

Matt Edmundson:

literally the orange in the box?

Matt Edmundson:

Or do you do the individual segments, that come in all the different flavors

Matt Edmundson:

or are you disappointed with those?

Rob Brown:

I'm very versatile, but it's got to be milk chocolate.

Rob Brown:

Terry's Chocolate Orange are diversifying their product offerings, so you

Rob Brown:

can get it in all kinds of ways.

Rob Brown:

But, yeah, my go to is the original.

Rob Brown:

I don't know if overseas listeners of this will get this, but it's a It's chocolate

Rob Brown:

wrapped up like an orange with little segments in it, in an orange wrapper.

Rob Brown:

You would know it well, Matt.

Rob Brown:

Yeah, that is my kryptonite, really.

Rob Brown:

That is about a thousand calories, I think, in one of those.

Matt Edmundson:

I've never actually checked, I was in the States a couple

Matt Edmundson:

jeez, it's flown by, I was in the States six, seven months ago, and my gift to take

Matt Edmundson:

to them was a whole bag, I just filled my suitcase with Terry's Chocolate Oranges,

Rob Brown:

Wow.

Rob Brown:

Did they get it?

Rob Brown:

Did it go down well?

Matt Edmundson:

oh yeah, loved it.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, that and Cadbury's Dairy Milk Celebrations, I don't know if you've tried

Matt Edmundson:

that one, that's the one with popping

Rob Brown:

and I've got to say that the chocolate in the UK is better

Rob Brown:

than the chocolate in the USA.

Rob Brown:

Let's put that out there right now.

Matt Edmundson:

Let's get controversial straight away.

Rob Brown:

As is the coffee.

Rob Brown:

My wife Amanda says the Americans can't do a decent cup of coffee, but let's not

Rob Brown:

start an international incident here.

Matt Edmundson:

All the Americans throwing their pens down.

Matt Edmundson:

That's so wrong.

Matt Edmundson:

That's so wrong.

Matt Edmundson:

Listen, Rob, it's great to have you on this podcast.

Matt Edmundson:

You are a podcaster yourself.

Matt Edmundson:

Like we said, you've interviewed thousands of people.

Matt Edmundson:

And so I'm, I've been looking forward to this comment just cause it's always nice

Matt Edmundson:

to chat to you if I'm honest with you.

Matt Edmundson:

It's going to be fun.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

No.

Rob Brown:

because I'm usually the one doing the questions, but as you and I

Rob Brown:

know, it's more of a fireside chat and a conversation like that, isn't it?

Rob Brown:

Because I'm sure I might fire a couple of things at you and get your take on things.

Rob Brown:

But yeah, lovely to talk about life.

Rob Brown:

Men don't talk about life much, actually, do they?

Rob Brown:

Men don't have best friends, we don't confide, we don't share, we

Rob Brown:

don't make ourselves vulnerable, so it's good that we're doing something

Rob Brown:

like this and putting it out there.

Matt Edmundson:

Absolutely.

Matt Edmundson:

Absolutely.

Matt Edmundson:

Let's get started.

Matt Edmundson:

Let's start not obviously right back at the beginning in terms of childbirth, but

Matt Edmundson:

let's talk about your Christian faith.

Matt Edmundson:

Always like to start off the show just by asking people, how, what was it

Matt Edmundson:

that caused you to become a Christian?

Matt Edmundson:

Were you born a Christian?

Matt Edmundson:

Were you, was there something quite significant along the way?

Rob Brown:

I'll tell you what didn't make me come a Christian, was going

Rob Brown:

to Catholic schools my whole life.

Rob Brown:

I grew up

Matt Edmundson:

I'm sure you're not the only one in that boat to be fair.

Rob Brown:

yeah, I grew up in Hull, went to a Catholic Primary school,

Rob Brown:

a Catholic middle school, and I was even head boy of my Catholic senior

Rob Brown:

school in the sixth form there.

Rob Brown:

Small school, there was a few priests doing lessons, but I never

Rob Brown:

grasped the whole faith thing.

Rob Brown:

I did it by rote, and in many ways it turned me off God, because there's a

Rob Brown:

lot of man made stuff, particularly in the Catholic Church, and the

Rob Brown:

sacraments, and the confession.

Rob Brown:

Confession booth and the rosary beads and the penance and all of those things.

Rob Brown:

So I couldn't see God in that.

Rob Brown:

So I went on my merry way after school, having no faith at all, meandering around

Rob Brown:

the world, looking for loads of things.

Rob Brown:

And it wasn't until I was probably Early thirties, I wound

Rob Brown:

up in Charlotte, North Carolina.

Rob Brown:

So I'd lived in Hong Kong.

Rob Brown:

I'd done loads of traveling and a good friend of mine that I met in Hong Kong was

Rob Brown:

from Charlotte, North Carolina in the USA

Matt Edmundson:

Yep.

Rob Brown:

I'd got to a crossroads in my life where I thought what am I gonna do?

Rob Brown:

I'm nearly 30 I've tried a few different things.

Rob Brown:

I've been a teacher.

Rob Brown:

I've left that behind.

Rob Brown:

I've done some coaching and ask yourself the question, is

Rob Brown:

this all life has to offer?

Rob Brown:

Am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing?

Rob Brown:

So I moved to the US, was as good as anywhere, and It hit that wall

Rob Brown:

where you say, if I don't make a decision now, I'm going to be

Rob Brown:

lost for the next 10, 20 years.

Rob Brown:

Because you look at a CV, a resume, if you like, and if it says you've been all over

Rob Brown:

the place, you're basically unemployable.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

He's a drifter, he's a wanderer, he's tried a bit of everything.

Rob Brown:

We can't tie this guy down.

Rob Brown:

So I was asking myself the question, what am I meant to be doing with my life?

Rob Brown:

Now, most people become a Christian.

Rob Brown:

If they're not born a Christian and born into that life, and I really wasn't,

Rob Brown:

most people become a Christian because they hit a rock bottom, they hit a

Rob Brown:

dilemma, a tragedy, a loss, a betrayal, a diagnosis, a situation, something,

Rob Brown:

and they don't know where to turn.

Rob Brown:

I actually was the opposite in that I had too many options.

Matt Edmundson:

Okay.

Rob Brown:

I was a qualified teacher.

Rob Brown:

I could have lived anywhere.

Rob Brown:

I could have married anyone.

Rob Brown:

Basically, I had, I wanted to settle down.

Rob Brown:

I wanted to be that guy.

Rob Brown:

My brother was married with children and I envied that.

Rob Brown:

I took so many things I could do and so many options and I was free to choose

Rob Brown:

the more, but it's bewildering, isn't it?

Rob Brown:

The paradox of choice, they call it.

Rob Brown:

The more choices you have, the more you feel unsatisfied with

Rob Brown:

the choice you actually make.

Rob Brown:

I had a lovely story about Do you remember a few years ago, you could go into a

Rob Brown:

clothing shop and buy a pair of jeans and you'd have maybe a couple of sizes

Rob Brown:

to choose from, and you'd have to wear them for a couple of months and wash them

Rob Brown:

in, but eventually they'd fit nicely.

Rob Brown:

These days, you go into a shop to buy a pair of jeans and you've got 50

Rob Brown:

different cuts, 50 different colors, 50 different styles, and you eventually make

Rob Brown:

a decision, but you come out thinking did I really choose the right one there?

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

there.

Rob Brown:

I didn't articulate it in that point, but that was the fork in the

Rob Brown:

road that I came to, and I felt in English terms, I was at a roundabout.

Rob Brown:

Which road do I take from here?

Rob Brown:

And I had that sense that if I took that road there, doing that job with that

Rob Brown:

person, or I stayed here, or I went there, I'd be looking back towards the roundabout

Rob Brown:

thinking did I take the right road?

Rob Brown:

Should I have taken that other road, that other exit?

Rob Brown:

Which means you'd have to go back to the roundabout.

Rob Brown:

And start again.

Rob Brown:

So it became really critical that I chose the right path.

Rob Brown:

And I was bewildered by the choice and the responsibility of that choice.

Rob Brown:

And that was when I started to, my roommate back then, Eric, was a Christian.

Rob Brown:

He was going to a church in Charlotte.

Rob Brown:

And this is Billy Graham's hometown, Matt.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

Charlotte, North Carolina.

Rob Brown:

We know Billy Graham, one of the greatest evangelists of modern times.

Rob Brown:

I went to a Billy Graham crusade and he filled a football stadium with 80, 000

Rob Brown:

people and there were 8, 000 in the choir.

Matt Edmundson:

Wow.

Matt Edmundson:

Wow.

Matt Edmundson:

That's a

Rob Brown:

And I went on my own.

Rob Brown:

I was right up there in the rafters, just curious.

Rob Brown:

I hadn't gone to a church.

Rob Brown:

I didn't want to go back that way, but I did have some questions.

Rob Brown:

Ultimately, the question was, God, if you're out there, you're the

Rob Brown:

one person that's likely to have the answer to the question, what

Rob Brown:

am I meant to be doing with my

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

I wasn't praying for a miracle.

Rob Brown:

I wasn't praying for redemption.

Rob Brown:

I wasn't praying to be saved from anything.

Rob Brown:

I wasn't at rock bottom.

Rob Brown:

Like I said, I just wanted a simple answer to the question,

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

And given the enormity of that decision and all the weight on it, it

Rob Brown:

was something that I had to get right.

Rob Brown:

So you go to the ultimate source.

Rob Brown:

And I really wanted God to be real.

Rob Brown:

And give me that flash of light.

Rob Brown:

So that was the first bit of the journey.

Rob Brown:

And I didn't get an answer then, but I did go down to the

Rob Brown:

front, they do the altar call.

Rob Brown:

If this message has affected you and you want to make a change.

Rob Brown:

And I prayed a simple prayer, but nothing happened.

Rob Brown:

What did happen is a few weeks later, I'd obviously got something and I felt

Rob Brown:

maybe God might be staring, but I didn't believe he was real at that point.

Rob Brown:

And I'm early thirties here.

Rob Brown:

So I went to church where Eric went.

Rob Brown:

I don't think I went with him actually that day, and they did a

Rob Brown:

funny thing where, this is a big church, Matt, so you're probably

Rob Brown:

looking at five, six hundred people,

Matt Edmundson:

yep.

Rob Brown:

big auditorium, very well done, Baptist Church

Matt Edmundson:

Oh,

Rob Brown:

in the south of the US, and they're very fervent,

Rob Brown:

but very professional, and they asked the question, if you're

Rob Brown:

new here, just stay in your seat.

Rob Brown:

and wait for 30 seconds.

Rob Brown:

And at that point, everyone that wasn't new in the church stood up.

Rob Brown:

So the only people that sat down are the newcomers.

Rob Brown:

So immediately, everybody knew who you were.

Rob Brown:

And That was the news, wasn't it?

Rob Brown:

Because they didn't say, if you stand up, because you'd feel really

Rob Brown:

conspicuous, I'll put your hand up if you've not been here before.

Rob Brown:

No, it was stay, stay as you are.

Rob Brown:

And everyone else stood up.

Rob Brown:

And as soon as they saw somebody sat down, I had a ton of handshakes and

Rob Brown:

welcomes and great to have you here.

Rob Brown:

And they gave you this little card that said, if you'd like anyone to chat

Rob Brown:

to any questions you've got, let us know and we'll send somebody around.

Rob Brown:

Now, I had a ton of questions.

Rob Brown:

So I filled in this form and a few days later, it was Tuesday, 10th of October,

Rob Brown:

1996, three people knocked on my door at this apartment in North Carolina.

Rob Brown:

We're from Hickory Grove Baptist Church.

Matt Edmundson:

Wow.

Rob Brown:

You filled in the card.

Rob Brown:

We'd love to come in and have a coffee with you and answer any of your

Rob Brown:

questions and share some things with you.

Rob Brown:

And it was very subtly done.

Rob Brown:

It wasn't a hard sell.

Rob Brown:

But they did sell it wrong insofar as they started talking about Jesus and

Rob Brown:

God, and I'm saying why should I believe?

Rob Brown:

They said you get eternal life.

Rob Brown:

And I said, look, I don't, I'm not interested in eternal life.

Rob Brown:

I want something right now.

Rob Brown:

I want an answer now.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

And I did the usual gambit of Listen, I believe in this God of yours.

Rob Brown:

If I see this flash of lightning, I see this miracle.

Rob Brown:

I see something, I see a sign.

Rob Brown:

And the biggest thing they did to get me over the line was they said, and it was

Rob Brown:

actually a guy called Lawrence Beatty.

Rob Brown:

He was an old guy.

Rob Brown:

He'd come to the Lord at age 57.

Rob Brown:

He'd been hospitalized many times through alcoholization

Rob Brown:

He got to that end of the road where there's nothing else but God now.

Rob Brown:

And he had a wonderful testimony, but he said to me this, he said,

Rob Brown:

faith doesn't tend to work that way.

Rob Brown:

You've got to believe in God first and then he'll show you the signs.

Rob Brown:

It's a blind step of faith.

Rob Brown:

It really works with people.

Rob Brown:

We can think of Paul on the road to Damascus where he gets the

Rob Brown:

sign first and then he believes.

Rob Brown:

For most of us mortals.

Rob Brown:

You've got to take that step of faith first, and

Rob Brown:

God will show himself.

Rob Brown:

So I said, okay, I'll do that.

Rob Brown:

I entered into the game, if you like.

Rob Brown:

But I did pray with an open, fervent heart.

Rob Brown:

And they stood with me right then, and we prayed the prayer,

Rob Brown:

Lord, I bring you into my life.

Rob Brown:

I've messed things up.

Rob Brown:

I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing.

Rob Brown:

I know that I've got stuff wrong.

Rob Brown:

If anyone can help me issue, please come into my life and

Rob Brown:

guide me and be my savior.

Rob Brown:

And many people listening might recognize some kind of believers prayer like that.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

But it was that blind step of faith, Matt.

Rob Brown:

And whilst I'd love to tell you that there was lightning bolts and stars

Rob Brown:

and angels singing and everything else.

Rob Brown:

It wasn't that, but it was a sense of peace around me that

Rob Brown:

I've done something good there.

Rob Brown:

That's a step in the journey that I want to go down now.

Rob Brown:

And I can tell you with all honesty that in the next few days, a real

Rob Brown:

peace came about me that I'd done the right thing, that God was in my life.

Rob Brown:

And I started to see God everywhere, even in the trees and the sky and

Rob Brown:

the, my mind, and it became that there was something bigger than me.

Rob Brown:

And that was such a relief.

Rob Brown:

It was such a peace that I didn't have to make this decision on my own.

Rob Brown:

So it didn't all fall on me if I got it wrong.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

And I can look back on it now and think do you remember Moses when God

Rob Brown:

called Moses to release the Israelites and go to Pharaoh with a staff and Moses felt

Rob Brown:

completely inadequate to handle that task.

Rob Brown:

But God said, you won't be doing it on your own, I'll even give you Aaron,

Rob Brown:

but I'll be there with you as well.

Rob Brown:

And I'll give you these miracles and I'll give you these signs and

Rob Brown:

I'll give you the words to say.

Rob Brown:

So I felt like I wasn't on my own.

Rob Brown:

And pretty soon after that, I'll stop talking in a moment.

Rob Brown:

I'm sure you've got a few questions, but God told me to go back to the UK, go back

Rob Brown:

to where I came from, go back to the start and be a teacher, which was my craft.

Rob Brown:

So I'm already getting answers of what to do and where to do it.

Rob Brown:

And that was a great start.

Rob Brown:

He didn't show me all the answers then, but he gave me.

Rob Brown:

A couple of pieces of the jigsaw

Matt Edmundson:

It's

Rob Brown:

and that.

Rob Brown:

There was peace in that.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, no, fantastic.

Matt Edmundson:

Fantastic.

Matt Edmundson:

That's amazing.

Matt Edmundson:

And the reason I'm smiling a lot is because as you're talking I'm

Matt Edmundson:

realizing we have probably more in common than I initially thought.

Matt Edmundson:

Because, yeah, I wasn't in my mid 30s.

Matt Edmundson:

But I did go live in North Carolina.

Rob Brown:

Wow, okay, I

Matt Edmundson:

I did become a Christian in North Carolina.

Rob Brown:

Goodness

Matt Edmundson:

Because I went to a Baptist Church in North Carolina.

Matt Edmundson:

Now it wasn't

Rob Brown:

How have we not known this, known each

Matt Edmundson:

it's

Rob Brown:

so long, how have we not put these pieces together?

Matt Edmundson:

yeah, it's funny.

Matt Edmundson:

I took a year out from university, before going to university, and

Matt Edmundson:

ended up working in a children's home

Rob Brown:

In England.

Matt Edmundson:

No, in North Carolina.

Rob Brown:

Did you get out there?

Matt Edmundson:

Originally, I wanted to take a year out.

Matt Edmundson:

We, at my school, we had I remember we did this assembly and a guy came around

Matt Edmundson:

and talked about the virtue of taking a year out before going to university.

Matt Edmundson:

And I thought that sounds really good.

Matt Edmundson:

And so I actually wanted to go to China to teach English because I

Matt Edmundson:

wanted to go study Kung Fu because I was really into martial arts.

Matt Edmundson:

We, and that all fell through and the organization that I was doing it all

Matt Edmundson:

with said, listen, we can't get you into China, but we can get you into

Matt Edmundson:

this children's home in North Carolina.

Matt Edmundson:

I'd been to America once and I said, sure, why not?

Matt Edmundson:

At least they speak English,

Rob Brown:

and they've got Chuck Norris, I think, which is the nearest

Rob Brown:

you get to come through, probably.

Rob Brown:

It's not quite China, but it's it's something, isn't

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, Chuck Norris, you know what, I love all the Chuck Norris

Matt Edmundson:

memes that go around on Instagram, they're hysterical but yeah that's how I ended

Matt Edmundson:

up over there and I was working in this children's home, wasn't really looking

Matt Edmundson:

for a Christian faith, I have to be honest with you, if I, if you'd have asked me

Matt Edmundson:

if I had a Christian I'd have said yes, I had some kind of belief in God, but that

Matt Edmundson:

was about it, and I went to the children's home, I had to take them to church

Matt Edmundson:

every Sunday, that was part of my duty.

Matt Edmundson:

And so you got to hear the gospel every week, and it just had a profound impact

Matt Edmundson:

on me over about 3 or 4 months, so yeah.

Rob Brown:

you were more of a slow burn then, weren't you?

Rob Brown:

But God got you where he wanted you to be to hear that message.

Matt Edmundson:

It's funny how God does that, yeah, funny how that

Rob Brown:

funny how he does that.

Rob Brown:

But yeah, it's certainly threads of our life in common.

Rob Brown:

And you got God in your life when you weren't particularly looking.

Rob Brown:

He does that as well, doesn't he, to some people.

Matt Edmundson:

yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, absolutely, when is good and ready?

Matt Edmundson:

There's a lady in our office, she's lovely, bless her, she's She

Matt Edmundson:

wouldn't call herself a Christian.

Matt Edmundson:

In fact, she'd probably call herself the opposite, but she always knows

Matt Edmundson:

in as Rob, when you run a company, things are up and things are down.

Matt Edmundson:

And when things go down she always comes to me and says, you just need to pray.

Matt Edmundson:

Because that's what we need.

Matt Edmundson:

We pray, prayer seems to work.

Matt Edmundson:

And so when you pray, God seems to answer and things happen.

Matt Edmundson:

And I'm like why don't you pray?

Matt Edmundson:

And she's I'm not going to.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm like, Shell, listen, you may as well stop running.

Matt Edmundson:

Cause at some point he's going to catch her and it would just be much better for

Matt Edmundson:

you if it's sooner rather than later.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm just pointing that out.

Matt Edmundson:

Don't wait till the last minute.

Matt Edmundson:

You can, but why would you, it's so much fun.

Matt Edmundson:

In the meantime, I'm curious though.

Rob Brown:

a point there that there are people in my life that

Rob Brown:

would make really good Christians.

Rob Brown:

My business partner, Martin, he's very philanthropic.

Rob Brown:

He works in the food banks and things when he's not running his business.

Rob Brown:

He does a lot in buying up debt and setting people free and he would be a

Rob Brown:

huge asset to the kingdom of God, but he doesn't believe, he's very open to it.

Rob Brown:

My brother who's passed on now, but he was another one that would have made

Rob Brown:

such a great ambassador for the Lord, but there didn't seem to be an itch.

Rob Brown:

In his life that God could scratch at least anything I was bringing to him.

Rob Brown:

He wasn't interested in eternal life and he had all the things he wanted.

Rob Brown:

He was fairly comfortable.

Rob Brown:

He had a wife, two great kids and, but would have made such

Rob Brown:

a wonderful evangelist or

Rob Brown:

Eventually God would have got him over the line.

Rob Brown:

I'm sure he had a Christian wife.

Rob Brown:

who went to church and took the kids, but yeah, things in common, for sure,

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Fascinating.

Matt Edmundson:

Fascinating.

Matt Edmundson:

And actually you don't live that too far away from my mum.

Matt Edmundson:

'cause you're in Nottingham.

Matt Edmundson:

She lives in a sort of small village between Derby and Nottingham

Rob Brown:

I am.

Rob Brown:

Now I never saw you in any Kung Fu movies, so was that the end

Rob Brown:

of your martial arts career?

Rob Brown:

I think it was.

Rob Brown:

I heard that,

Matt Edmundson:

brilliant.

Matt Edmundson:

In phase It is interesting actually for the, when I became a Christian,

Matt Edmundson:

I still carried on doing martial arts and there was some very

Matt Edmundson:

lovely, well-meaning, but very.

Matt Edmundson:

Unhelpful Christians around you at that time when you're already

Matt Edmundson:

in Christian faith telling you that, you can't do martial arts

Matt Edmundson:

and be a Christian kind of thing.

Matt Edmundson:

And I listened to him, but I didn't.

Matt Edmundson:

I carried on.

Matt Edmundson:

And I remember for me one point I was walking down the street.

Matt Edmundson:

There was three of us, two guys and a girl, and we were walking.

Matt Edmundson:

I can't remember where we were walking from, but we were walking back somewhere

Matt Edmundson:

and this group of, this gang of, Kids, let's just say they were kids.

Matt Edmundson:

I don't know how old they were, but gang of teenagers swarmed around us and

Matt Edmundson:

started pushing us around and I managed to get the other guy and the girl away.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm like, go and take her, get her away.

Matt Edmundson:

And I'll stay here just to keep this group entertained a little bit.

Matt Edmundson:

While you get it, cause it was a bit frightening for a blesser.

Matt Edmundson:

And I remember I remember it really clearly, Rob.

Matt Edmundson:

I remember.

Matt Edmundson:

I was standing around these people, and as I turned around to make sure they were

Matt Edmundson:

gone, one of them punched me in the face.

Matt Edmundson:

Now, I turned round, and I don't know if you've ever been in a situation like this,

Matt Edmundson:

but in that situation, I looked at them.

Matt Edmundson:

My whole body changed in an instant.

Matt Edmundson:

I went into a stance, and I could see myself in my head in an instant.

Matt Edmundson:

I knew what I was going to do to the first five people around me.

Matt Edmundson:

I knew the moves.

Matt Edmundson:

I could see, I'd trained for so long, I could see those moves happening.

Matt Edmundson:

And I remember Very clearly in that instance, the Holy Spirit

Matt Edmundson:

saying to me, I've got this.

Matt Edmundson:

And so my whole body then instant relaxed.

Matt Edmundson:

And the person in front of me could see it cause they thought, Oh man,

Matt Edmundson:

I'm going to get a good eye in now.

Matt Edmundson:

This guy's really hacked off.

Matt Edmundson:

And I said, I just, I remember pointing at him and I said,

Matt Edmundson:

listen, I'm going to start praying.

Matt Edmundson:

That's what I'm going to do.

Rob Brown:

You

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

I said, I don't know if you believe in God or if you don't, but let me tell

Matt Edmundson:

you, you need to thank him because he has just stopped me from absolutely

Matt Edmundson:

going for hell for leather on you because he was the one that hit me and

Matt Edmundson:

I was going to take them out first.

Matt Edmundson:

I was so angry.

Matt Edmundson:

And I'm like, you really need to thank him.

Matt Edmundson:

And I think in that instance I then stopped doing the martial art.

Matt Edmundson:

I don't, it wasn't intentional.

Matt Edmundson:

It just happened from that point on until maybe my kids were, I don't

Matt Edmundson:

know, two young boys and I thought actually it'd be really good for them

Matt Edmundson:

to start to learn some of these things.

Matt Edmundson:

And so we went and we did martial arts every week and we really enjoyed it.

Matt Edmundson:

My middle my middle child, my youngest son, Zach, particularly enjoyed trying to.

Matt Edmundson:

Hit me every week.

Matt Edmundson:

It was like cathartic.

Matt Edmundson:

It was like therapy.

Matt Edmundson:

So yeah, that's my story.

Rob Brown:

That's straight out of a, you can make a movie out of that.

Rob Brown:

We see these scenes in movies, whether it's Bruce Lee or Jack Reacher or, insert

Rob Brown:

your own superhero there, where they're surrounded by a group of ill meaning

Rob Brown:

ruffians and evil villains, and They all put the guns down and fight nicely and

Rob Brown:

come at you one at a time, such is the way the movie is, but I've never seen

Rob Brown:

or heard of that response to a potential fight, and how obedient and courageous

Rob Brown:

of you to actually handle it like that.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

Okay.

Matt Edmundson:

totally diffused the situation.

Matt Edmundson:

And you know what?

Matt Edmundson:

And just to finish the story off, a week later, I saw that person, that

Matt Edmundson:

same person walking down the street.

Matt Edmundson:

And do you know what I had in my hand?

Matt Edmundson:

My Bible.

Matt Edmundson:

So here I am thinking, because part of me is going back and going okay,

Matt Edmundson:

God, I could see what you're doing there, but I really wanted to hit him.

Matt Edmundson:

And

Rob Brown:

completely

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, completely normal sort of thinking.

Matt Edmundson:

And I remember walking away thinking, Oh, I don't know if I did the right thing.

Matt Edmundson:

And then I saw them a week later.

Matt Edmundson:

And I had my Bible and they recognised me and I just said to them, I really

Matt Edmundson:

hope you have been praying and I really hope you have started thanking God.

Matt Edmundson:

But if I'd have, if I'd have got into a fight and then he'd have saw me with the

Matt Edmundson:

Bible, I'm not quite sure what that would have said, but yeah, it was fascinating.

Matt Edmundson:

Fascinating.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

But you got into kickboxing, black belt in kickboxing.

Rob Brown:

I was late to the party.

Rob Brown:

My, one of my daughters, Georgia, my eldest, played in a football

Rob Brown:

team and one of her teammates went to a kickboxing class with her dad.

Rob Brown:

I said to Georgia, why don't we go along and join them as a daughter

Rob Brown:

dad type thing, and we went to a local kickboxing class in a

Rob Brown:

sports centre, and we enjoyed it.

Rob Brown:

We bought the pads and the kit, and Started playing with it, and

Rob Brown:

this daughter and dad fell away, but Georgia and I kept going.

Rob Brown:

And at this, I was probably 46, 47,

Matt Edmundson:

Wow.

Rob Brown:

And I'd had my daughters got married quite late.

Rob Brown:

After I came back to the UK, it was within a year, no, probably a few

Rob Brown:

years, that I met my wife in Hull.

Rob Brown:

So that's my hometown.

Rob Brown:

So God brought me back for that reason.

Rob Brown:

So we did this kickboxing stuff.

Rob Brown:

This other pair fell away.

Rob Brown:

Georgia and I kept it going.

Rob Brown:

She stopped at her blue belt she got, but I'm now maybe 48 and I'm

Rob Brown:

thinking, why don't I just keep going?

Rob Brown:

Could I get my black belt before I'm 50?

Rob Brown:

And it took me three or four years, but I did, I kept it going.

Rob Brown:

And even after George had fell away and it became a real goal for me,

Rob Brown:

not so much that I wanted to be a fighter or anything else, but I thought

Rob Brown:

this is a great thing to attain.

Rob Brown:

And if you're a father of two daughters, the old cliche of

Rob Brown:

they bring a boyfriend round.

Matt Edmundson:

Oh yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yep.

Rob Brown:

And you show them your knife collection or your gun

Rob Brown:

collection, which is in the US.

Rob Brown:

I wanted my daughters, with me as the ultimate protector, to say,

Rob Brown:

this is my dad, and by the way, he's a black belt in kickboxing.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Totally.

Rob Brown:

but for myself as well, but which led to another

Rob Brown:

thing I'm sure we'll come on to.

Rob Brown:

But yeah we need goals as we progress throughout life and

Rob Brown:

I wasn't young like you were.

Rob Brown:

And there was.

Rob Brown:

Kids doing kickboxing that was in their 20s and they could throw fast

Rob Brown:

punches and run rings around me But I could hold my own to a point and

Rob Brown:

it's the caters and things, isn't it?

Rob Brown:

You'll know that word when you go through the routines and that it's

Rob Brown:

not so much It's what it makes of you

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

as a person, that journey, that

Matt Edmundson:

I think it's good discipline.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

That's the word, isn't it?

Matt Edmundson:

It's discipline and that's why I was key.

Matt Edmundson:

The kids did it, especially the boys.

Matt Edmundson:

I was, Zoe did it, my daughter as well, and she got.

Matt Edmundson:

Into the whole marginalized thing.

Matt Edmundson:

To the point where if, when she does bring a boy home, if she's a, if he's

Matt Edmundson:

actually got far enough to come home, I'm kinda like, he's probably okay

Matt Edmundson:

because he's , she's got two older brothers that he's gotta get through.

Matt Edmundson:

And then there's, I remember one time, I dunno if I should tell this story,

Matt Edmundson:

but we were, I was back home in Derby.

Matt Edmundson:

And my cousin who's not really my, was it my cousin?

Matt Edmundson:

I can't remember if it was my cousin or somebody, like someone close to

Matt Edmundson:

the family, her boyfriend was coming round to our house, to my mum's house.

Matt Edmundson:

And this was a few years ago and there was three of us stood outside.

Matt Edmundson:

There was me, my brother, who is ex military, right?

Matt Edmundson:

He wasn't at the time, he was in the army at the time.

Matt Edmundson:

And my brother's best mate.

Matt Edmundson:

And so this guy came round and we're like, We're going to meet him.

Matt Edmundson:

We are going to wait outside and we are going to meet him.

Matt Edmundson:

Because I know what I was like when I was a teenager and none of my

Matt Edmundson:

girlfriend's dads at the time took me aside and said, I'm not being

Matt Edmundson:

funny, Matt, you do anything crazy.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm going to break your legs.

Matt Edmundson:

Not that I advocate that level of violence, obviously, but I think

Matt Edmundson:

that's probably what I needed.

Matt Edmundson:

And so I took this, we took this guy turned up and Stu, the guy that was with

Matt Edmundson:

us, said to him, okay, this is Matt.

Matt Edmundson:

He's trained to save you because he always calls me the vicar

Matt Edmundson:

and this is his brother John.

Matt Edmundson:

He's trained to kill you.

Matt Edmundson:

was just a very funny converse and this kid is like, what do I do?

Matt Edmundson:

And I just said to him, I said, you behave yourself.

Matt Edmundson:

That's what you do.

Matt Edmundson:

Because you don't want to get caught not and no, I get it, very protective

Matt Edmundson:

of your daughter, a very protective of my daughter, rightly or wrongly.

Rob Brown:

and I wish more dads would have those kind of conversations with

Rob Brown:

young boys because there's a lot of cockiness and arrogance of youth that

Rob Brown:

probably you and I felt back in the day where at 20 you feel you know everything,

Rob Brown:

But looking back you realize you

Matt Edmundson:

No, nothing.

Matt Edmundson:

That's actually

Rob Brown:

nothing, you know nothing.

Rob Brown:

You are lovely.

Rob Brown:

Yeah, a bit of humility at that age is the dad's job to instill in

Rob Brown:

the young men that get around our

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, absolutely.

Matt Edmundson:

And listen you have a great time, but if you step out of line in any

Matt Edmundson:

way, there are consequences and I think that's an important thing.

Rob Brown:

The line I used once was, don't touch my daughter

Rob Brown:

anywhere that I wouldn't.

Matt Edmundson:

Yep.

Rob Brown:

That just sums it up, doesn't

Matt Edmundson:

It totally sums it up.

Matt Edmundson:

It's exactly right.

Matt Edmundson:

And I think these conversations should be had.

Matt Edmundson:

I remember a pastor friend of mine, he his daughter.

Matt Edmundson:

was going on a date and this is in the States and they were going to

Matt Edmundson:

senior prom and this was the first time she'd gone on a date and the guy

Matt Edmundson:

had come round to pick her up and the dad knocks on the door he knocks on

Matt Edmundson:

the door and the dad answers it Eddie.

Matt Edmundson:

And so Eddie's come on in dude.

Matt Edmundson:

And he's all dressed up, black tied and he's she's just

Matt Edmundson:

going to finish getting ready.

Matt Edmundson:

But let me show you something, while we're waiting.

Matt Edmundson:

So he leads him to the garage and shows him this brand new car, a big

Matt Edmundson:

shiny car that they had had the license plate Glory 1, I think from memory

Matt Edmundson:

the bizarre detail of the story.

Matt Edmundson:

Anyway, big shiny car.

Matt Edmundson:

And he said, Would you like to borrow the car this evening?

Matt Edmundson:

I can I can give you the keys to my brand new they were talking about the car.

Matt Edmundson:

Would you like it?

Matt Edmundson:

Do you like my new car?

Matt Edmundson:

Love the car and all that sort of stuff.

Matt Edmundson:

And then he ends the conversation by going, would you like to borrow it?

Matt Edmundson:

Would you like the keys?

Matt Edmundson:

And the young man quite rightly said, Oh no, I wouldn't take your car out.

Matt Edmundson:

And Eddie's like, why do you not want to take my car?

Matt Edmundson:

And he says it's a new car.

Matt Edmundson:

It's brand new.

Matt Edmundson:

He says, it's really, it's expensive.

Matt Edmundson:

It's worth a lot of money.

Matt Edmundson:

And Eddie said, I just turned around to him and said, you are

Matt Edmundson:

taking my daughter out tonight.

Matt Edmundson:

She is worth war to me then this car is worth.

Rob Brown:

That was really clever.

Matt Edmundson:

thought it was very clever.

Matt Edmundson:

So you've got a black belt in kickboxing.

Matt Edmundson:

And I said in the intro, one of the things I do want to talk

Matt Edmundson:

about is the stroke that you had.

Matt Edmundson:

Cause you are a stroke survivor.

Matt Edmundson:

That's what we said in the introduction there.

Matt Edmundson:

And when we were doing the preacher, I asked you, what's one of the biggest

Matt Edmundson:

challenges that you've faced in life?

Matt Edmundson:

God's helped you overcoming.

Matt Edmundson:

You immediately talked about the stroke.

Matt Edmundson:

Just run through that.

Rob Brown:

Any near death experience brushed with mortality

Rob Brown:

has got to be up there, hasn't it?

Rob Brown:

So I was, a little bit of context, I trained as a PE teacher, a

Rob Brown:

physical education teacher, and I did maths as a second subject.

Rob Brown:

So you're not teaching hockey on the cold, plain fields of England in your 50s.

Rob Brown:

That was the thing.

Rob Brown:

So I trained there, and I've always looked after myself.

Rob Brown:

Rugby player and cyclist and did triathlons and things like that.

Rob Brown:

Never drank.

Rob Brown:

My dad was a drinker and it pushed me away from drink.

Rob Brown:

Never smoked and eat well, look after yourself.

Rob Brown:

That was my upbringing.

Rob Brown:

in my mid forties, late forties, I'd got my black belt in kickboxing

Rob Brown:

and I was doing boot camps as well.

Rob Brown:

The outdoor exercise thing in the park with a few people and you swing

Rob Brown:

in some kettlebells and I'm doing all of this and feeling good for my age.

Rob Brown:

And that's a vanity thing about men as well, isn't it?

Rob Brown:

You don't want to be an old man with a beer gut and out of shape.

Matt Edmundson:

Yep,

Rob Brown:

So a bit of vanity helps with that.

Rob Brown:

So I got my black belt and I laid that down, actually, I don't know how far

Rob Brown:

you got, but once I was presented with the black belt, I didn't really go back.

Rob Brown:

Do you go on to your second Dan and your third Dan and how far do you go with this?

Rob Brown:

And some people did, but for me, it was that attainment.

Rob Brown:

got that.

Rob Brown:

So I laid it down and I looked for some other things, did a bit of

Rob Brown:

jogging and rowing machine I've got.

Rob Brown:

But probably I did some damage because I started to get some migraines.

Rob Brown:

This is maybe about 18 months after I quit kickboxing and I'd hit my 50th birthday.

Rob Brown:

And I got, I would get migraines as a child, Matt, maybe one a year.

Rob Brown:

My mum got them too.

Rob Brown:

But I went through a period, Easter 2016, where I got 28 migraines in 30 days.

Rob Brown:

And these were not just migraines.

Rob Brown:

If you were to put a pain scale up where 10 is you, your head's exploding

Rob Brown:

And you're rolling around on the floor and one is just a mild headache.

Rob Brown:

I was up in the eights and nines.

Rob Brown:

I was on the floor.

Rob Brown:

Now I'm a Christian at this point, so you can pray as much as you

Rob Brown:

like, but the pain is still there.

Rob Brown:

And we knew something was wrong.

Rob Brown:

So I went for some tests and they offered me a The scans, but they

Rob Brown:

said, we can have a look, but these scans are like a thousand

Rob Brown:

times more powerful than an X-ray.

Rob Brown:

Do you want to be doing that to your brain?

Rob Brown:

So they talked me out of it.

Rob Brown:

So I went down a journey with my wife of changing my diet.

Rob Brown:

Am I stressed?

Rob Brown:

Am I looking at screens too much?

Rob Brown:

What's going on here now?

Rob Brown:

We didn't know it, but I had.

Rob Brown:

I was having some mini bleeds in my brain.

Rob Brown:

So without getting too medical, there's a network of capillaries around your

Rob Brown:

brain, arteries and veins, and an artery had shunted into a vein and opened

Rob Brown:

up what they call a communication.

Rob Brown:

Now they're not supposed to be joined arteries and veins.

Rob Brown:

So this was starting to pump high pressure blood into a low pressure vein.

Rob Brown:

And this vein couldn't cope and it started to leak a little

Rob Brown:

bit and that was the migraines.

Rob Brown:

We didn't know this at the time.

Rob Brown:

So for months, I'm changing what I'm doing and got some slight relief,

Rob Brown:

but I was still getting migraines.

Rob Brown:

And I said to my wife, look, I'm just going to, let's just go away on holiday.

Rob Brown:

I'll come off screens.

Rob Brown:

And we went to a place in Mallorca and got a lovely hotel and I just had a swim one

Rob Brown:

morning and I got out of the pool and laid on the sunbed and I had another migraine.

Rob Brown:

And I could not get up.

Rob Brown:

And this was the last two or three days of the holiday.

Rob Brown:

So we're thinking this is serious.

Rob Brown:

Now, I didn't know it, but I'd had a brain hemorrhage.

Rob Brown:

I'd had a bleed on the brain at that point, because this

Rob Brown:

vein had just gone boom.

Rob Brown:

It couldn't take it anymore.

Rob Brown:

So that was happening inside my brain.

Rob Brown:

So I'm Riding on this bed, a doctor came to see me and we need to get me

Rob Brown:

home, and I wasn't fit enough to fly.

Rob Brown:

But he gave me an injection, I managed to get on the plane, I was

Rob Brown:

looking, I was in really bad shape.

Rob Brown:

I'm shuffling around, I've got shades on, I'm dehydrated because I was

Rob Brown:

vomiting, I couldn't keep anything down.

Rob Brown:

But I got on the plane and when I'm checking in, the steward there's

Rob Brown:

saying, is this guy alright?

Rob Brown:

And my wife said, oh, he's just scared of flying, but it wasn't true.

Rob Brown:

was in a bad way.

Rob Brown:

So the journey and the elevation, the height, the rarefied air.

Rob Brown:

I took ill on plane.

Rob Brown:

So it was oxygen masks.

Rob Brown:

Thankfully we were sat at the front.

Rob Brown:

It didn't cause too much of a ruckus, but I was given oxygen on the plane.

Rob Brown:

And at the end of the journey back to Nottingham,

Rob Brown:

paramedics came onto the plane.

Rob Brown:

The hospital sent an ambulance and I'd vomited on the plane too.

Matt Edmundson:

right?

Rob Brown:

There was no way I was coming off that plane without

Rob Brown:

being in an ambulance because something is majorly wrong.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

So they, I bypassed passport security.

Rob Brown:

I got into the country without showing my passport and I went

Rob Brown:

straight to hospital and it was bank holiday, August bank holiday, Matt.

Rob Brown:

If you're in the UK, you know that.

Rob Brown:

Everyone's on holiday there.

Rob Brown:

So I got to a hospital at one o'clock in the morning and they put

Rob Brown:

an IV in me and got some saline in me because I'm not drank for a few

Rob Brown:

days and I'm totally dehydrated.

Rob Brown:

They had nobody there to assess me.

Rob Brown:

So I came home in a taxi at three in the morning.

Rob Brown:

Still with a pounding headache and Amanda called our doctor the next

Rob Brown:

day and said, look, we've got him home, but he's still in bad shape.

Rob Brown:

And the doctor came to see me at my home and he said, you need to

Rob Brown:

get him to a hospital right now.

Rob Brown:

So we went back to hospital and I collapsed at the hospital waiting by

Rob Brown:

an elevator to go and see somebody.

Rob Brown:

And a nurse came up to me and my wife and our pastor was there

Rob Brown:

actually, Kate with us too.

Rob Brown:

And they said, are you okay?

Rob Brown:

My wife said, and she pressed the button in the lift and a crash team.

Rob Brown:

came to me, these emergency teams

Matt Edmundson:

Yep.

Rob Brown:

and now I'm in the system.

Rob Brown:

So they scanned me straight away.

Rob Brown:

I'm basically unconscious.

Rob Brown:

And they found this massive bleed on the brain.

Rob Brown:

The blood was rushing around my skull and they put dye in you as well.

Rob Brown:

So they know exactly where it is.

Rob Brown:

And they operated pretty quickly on me.

Rob Brown:

A neurosurgeon knew what was going on.

Rob Brown:

And any kind of bleed or blockage in the brain is deemed a stroke.

Rob Brown:

That's the generic term.

Matt Edmundson:

Yep.

Rob Brown:

We often think of people getting paralyzed down one side or

Rob Brown:

their mouth or the side of the face.

Rob Brown:

So I didn't get any of that, actually.

Rob Brown:

But it does come under that umbrella.

Rob Brown:

So I was operated on.

Rob Brown:

They blocked the communication, as it's called.

Rob Brown:

They blocked this artery vein communication with glue.

Rob Brown:

It's called

Matt Edmundson:

Wow.

Rob Brown:

They fire it in through your groin, but they had, so they didn't go

Rob Brown:

through my school, but they had some brain surgeons and with laser guns and drills

Rob Brown:

standing by just in case it required that.

Rob Brown:

And there were 16 people in the operating theatre at the time

Rob Brown:

of my procedure, just in case.

Rob Brown:

And I was under for four or five hours, and then in

Rob Brown:

intensive care for a few weeks.

Rob Brown:

And to bring it to the end of the story, I did come out.

Rob Brown:

I was healed, but I found out later I had some scarring in the brain and the

Rob Brown:

bleed had damaged some nerve cells.

Rob Brown:

So I lost some vision.

Rob Brown:

I was a bit blurry eyed for the next few days, but as it all calmed

Rob Brown:

down, I realized that I couldn't see a quarter of the world.

Rob Brown:

It's called Quadrantinopia.

Rob Brown:

If you think of your vision as four quadrants, my eyes were fine, but the

Rob Brown:

quadrant that transmits the nerves that transmit what through the nerve endings

Rob Brown:

into the brain, they were damaged.

Matt Edmundson:

Right.

Rob Brown:

So I'd lost vision in my top left quadrant because the bleed

Rob Brown:

was in the back right hand side of my brain and your optic nerve crossover.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

So once this was diagnosed, there's a quarter that I can't

Rob Brown:

see and I wasn't allowed to drive.

Rob Brown:

So I had to have that surrendering of my driving license

Rob Brown:

And then we'll come to it.

Rob Brown:

I'm sure, but at COVID a few years later, five years later, I was diagnosed.

Rob Brown:

I had a major epileptic seizure where the scarring in the brain had

Rob Brown:

caused some electrical imbalances.

Rob Brown:

I So I fell unconscious with a major seizure, was taken to hospital

Rob Brown:

by an ambulance and woke up there and they said you've got epilepsy.

Rob Brown:

What caused it?

Rob Brown:

And the scans they showed had come up in this area of my brain,

Rob Brown:

these electrical imbalances.

Rob Brown:

So they said to me, you won't be able to drive now.

Rob Brown:

And I said actually I've not been able to drive since 2016

Rob Brown:

because of the vision problem.

Rob Brown:

So I was used to that.

Rob Brown:

We can talk through that.

Rob Brown:

But that is the journey.

Rob Brown:

That was the major episode.

Rob Brown:

That was the moment, if you like, not a moment, but a near death experience.

Matt Edmundson:

Wow.

Rob Brown:

We can talk about that, what that means for me now

Rob Brown:

and what I've learned from that.

Rob Brown:

But it gives you a different perspective on life, Matt,

Rob Brown:

ultimately, as you can imagine.

Matt Edmundson:

Oh, I'm sure it does.

Matt Edmundson:

There's no doubt.

Matt Edmundson:

And I'm curious, one of the things, as you're talking, I'm listening to

Matt Edmundson:

you talk, thinking, I remember doing an interview with Mark Mitchell,

Matt Edmundson:

the guy that owns Mitchell Mazda

Rob Brown:

Okay.

Rob Brown:

I don't know him, but

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, Mark Mitchell at Chester Way.

Matt Edmundson:

Similar story.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, but did he have a, had something wrong in his brain?

Matt Edmundson:

I don't remember if it was a bleed or whether it was something

Matt Edmundson:

else, but his story, very similar.

Matt Edmundson:

Things went very wrong.

Matt Edmundson:

Is it life has changed as a result.

Matt Edmundson:

Now I'm curious with you though, Rob.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, cause you're quite a capable guy, right?

Matt Edmundson:

In a lot of ways, you're.

Matt Edmundson:

You are the kind of guy that will just get up and go, I know I'm gonna

Matt Edmundson:

get my black belt in kickboxing because that's just what I want to do.

Matt Edmundson:

I've got this goal is what I want to reach.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm gonna grow this.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm gonna do this.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm gonna do that.

Matt Edmundson:

And it strikes me that in that instance, that feels like

Matt Edmundson:

it could have that ability.

Matt Edmundson:

See, did you still have that?

Matt Edmundson:

Was that taken away from you?

Matt Edmundson:

And I'm curious how you viewed God in this whole scenario.

Matt Edmundson:

Because I think I've seen people either press into God from a

Matt Edmundson:

very Christian term, isn't it?

Matt Edmundson:

Either, lean into God more or withdraw a little bit because God, why have you

Matt Edmundson:

allowed this to happen to me a thing?

Rob Brown:

When I'm going through this, you do pray.

Rob Brown:

I prayed a lot.

Rob Brown:

My wife prayed with me.

Rob Brown:

My pastors at the time, Alistair and Kate came round and put oil

Rob Brown:

on my head and we did all of that.

Rob Brown:

When you're praying, God, take it away.

Rob Brown:

I can't handle this.

Rob Brown:

And the verse that came out for me was, uh2 Corinthians 10, which is when

Rob Brown:

Paul had an ailment, it might've been a vision thing, but he prayed three

Rob Brown:

times for God to take it away from him.

Rob Brown:

Do you

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

And that verse starts with, and the Lord said, no, for

Rob Brown:

my grace is sufficient for you,

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

My power is made perfect in weakness.

Rob Brown:

And then Paul said, that's why I will boast on the more gladly.

Rob Brown:

about my weaknesses, for when I am weak, then I am strong.

Rob Brown:

So I got this real sense that when I'm weak, and this is me on the floor with

Rob Brown:

another migraine, or as I'm recovering, when I'm weak, then I'm strong.

Rob Brown:

So God was Picking up the slack, if you like.

Rob Brown:

Now I prayed that my vision would be restored.

Rob Brown:

I prayed that I would have no more migraines.

Rob Brown:

I prayed that I'd have a long life.

Rob Brown:

Like many men, you want to feel in control of your

Rob Brown:

You want to live a long life.

Rob Brown:

You want to be strong towards the end.

Rob Brown:

You want to run a good race.

Rob Brown:

But that's taken away from you in a way.

Rob Brown:

You're no longer in control.

Rob Brown:

You're no longer fighting the fight on your own.

Rob Brown:

It becomes in God's hands.

Rob Brown:

Now, I was very blessed to come out of a stroke with all that I still had.

Rob Brown:

And That was my lesson, actually, we'll come on to, but I was very

Rob Brown:

grateful to still be in the game.

Rob Brown:

Because you hear of people having heart attacks and strokes and

Rob Brown:

cancer and everything else, and that, that's a terminal diagnosis.

Rob Brown:

That's it.

Rob Brown:

Or they come out with major impairments in a wheelchair, they can't walk properly,

Rob Brown:

they can't think properly, they can't, they lose motor function, and there's

Rob Brown:

all kinds of outcomes, and bless the people that have those, it's tough.

Rob Brown:

The fact that I could still see something, and I could still function Almost

Rob Brown:

like I used to, but with the throttle turned down, I was still in the game.

Rob Brown:

I could still work.

Rob Brown:

And so thankful for that.

Rob Brown:

And I became grateful for a lot of things that this is a lesson

Rob Brown:

really, if we're free to move on to it, that you become so thankful.

Rob Brown:

And instead of asking why me, you say I've had a great life.

Rob Brown:

Why not me?

Rob Brown:

There's a one of my good friends, Richard Holmes, he's been diagnosed

Rob Brown:

recently with motor neuron disease, last couple of years.

Rob Brown:

And he did an event just recently in Sheffield, interviewed by Dan Walker

Rob Brown:

from the BBC, who used to do focus, who goes to that church in Sheffield and

Rob Brown:

talking about his journey with motor neuron disease, because it's a brutal

Rob Brown:

illness and Richard's life is disappearing before his eyes and for his wife and

Rob Brown:

kids as well, it's really difficult.

Rob Brown:

So he was asked the question, are you angry?

Rob Brown:

He said, no, I'm not angry.

Rob Brown:

You would expect me to be angry and think why me, but if it's

Rob Brown:

not me, it would be somebody else and why should it be on them?

Rob Brown:

He's a man of faith.

Rob Brown:

And he said, I've led a good life.

Rob Brown:

I'm thankful for so many things that have already happened and

Rob Brown:

God's going to do a new thing here.

Rob Brown:

And he's told me it will be brutal, but there will be beauty

Rob Brown:

and there will be things to appreciate throughout this journey.

Rob Brown:

And I could resonate with that because it does knock you back.

Rob Brown:

It does.

Rob Brown:

Take a sheen of arrogance off your life because you're relying on God.

Rob Brown:

There's a lot of humility and gratitude and appreciation for the smaller things

Rob Brown:

and the ordinary mundane things in life.

Rob Brown:

And that's the point where I got to, that God was showing me something

Rob Brown:

and stripping layers off me and snipping things off like the vines.

Rob Brown:

They're right.

Rob Brown:

It's just about God now.

Rob Brown:

Walk that walk.

Rob Brown:

That's where I got to.

Matt Edmundson:

So the, because this was the, like I said, I'd like to ask

Matt Edmundson:

everybody, what's the one thing that you've learned over the years in all

Matt Edmundson:

of this and you've quite eloquently said, I was just became more grateful.

Matt Edmundson:

So in terms of that journey, you first get the, you having the migraines, you,

Matt Edmundson:

you have all this drama on the plane.

Matt Edmundson:

At what point do you switch from?

Matt Edmundson:

anxiety from fear into gratitude, or those two things going

Matt Edmundson:

side by side the whole time.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm curious to know what happened to you in that.

Rob Brown:

That's a great question.

Rob Brown:

I'll tell you a moment that was a massive relief for me.

Rob Brown:

When we are in the hospital, I'm semi conscious and the consultant there

Rob Brown:

had looked at my scans and he said I know what's been happening to you

Rob Brown:

and my wife's there and Pastor Kate is there as well and he said you've

Rob Brown:

had a bleed on the brain, you've had a hemorrhage and I started laughing

Matt Edmundson:

Okay, good response, probably.

Rob Brown:

and my wife next to me was obviously horror stricken because you're

Rob Brown:

looking at brain surgery and is he going to survive and all of those things but

Rob Brown:

I was so relieved Matt that finally I knew what this was that I've been going

Rob Brown:

through for the last three four months.

Rob Brown:

I'd had a diagnosis, I had an answer and once you've got an

Rob Brown:

answer you can deal with it.

Rob Brown:

Once you know your enemy, once you know what you're up against, if it was a

Rob Brown:

stroke or a cancer diagnosis or whatever it was, I would have been happy that

Rob Brown:

at least I could deal with it and I knew what had been going on in my head.

Rob Brown:

So I laughed and such relief.

Rob Brown:

So that's when God started to come into it, that there was no anxiety.

Rob Brown:

Amanda, it's hard for your partner, isn't it, sometimes, because

Rob Brown:

I'm in the eye of the storm.

Rob Brown:

Barely holding it together, just trying to focus on me and I went

Rob Brown:

into my own little world and Amanda's on the outside running my life.

Rob Brown:

Picking up all the pieces, dealing with relatives, dealing with the diagnosis,

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

very young daughters who are saying, Is daddy going to die?

Rob Brown:

Taking care of all of that stuff.

Rob Brown:

And I'm just focused on the procedure that will allow me to get through this.

Rob Brown:

Going into surgery, signing a disclaimer, all of that, with a very shaky signature,

Rob Brown:

and then being prepped for brain surgery.

Rob Brown:

There was a calm about me.

Rob Brown:

I think that I knew finally where I was, I knew what I was dealing

Rob Brown:

with, I didn't know what life would look like on the other side, but the

Rob Brown:

surgeon said we can stop this bleed.

Rob Brown:

So after that I'm in intensive care and then I'm in rehab and there's

Rob Brown:

blood still in my brain and it takes six months to dissipate back into the

Rob Brown:

body because it doesn't go anywhere unless you release it from the skull.

Rob Brown:

I was in a season where I couldn't get my pulse above 100.

Matt Edmundson:

wow,

Rob Brown:

the body's under huge stress, so

Rob Brown:

I'm actually putting on weight then, but I'm staying very calm thankful

Rob Brown:

that I've got through this, that there was life on the other side

Rob Brown:

of this, and I was fairly normal.

Rob Brown:

I knew then that I'd lost vision and I'm coming to terms with that, but

Rob Brown:

through it all, there was a certain relationship with God, a bit like

Rob Brown:

your Holy Spirit moment with that fight, with God saying, I've got this.

Matt Edmundson:

yeah,

Rob Brown:

I am with you, we'll get through it together, and in your weakness

Rob Brown:

and my strength, we've got a team.

Rob Brown:

I remember this story from, this is going back a little bit, but John

Rob Brown:

McEnroe, do you remember the tennis

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah,

Rob Brown:

was a fantastic doubles player, and he played

Rob Brown:

with a guy called Peter Fleming.

Rob Brown:

Fleming and McEnroe, that was the dream team, they won lots of titles.

Rob Brown:

It's back in the 70s, early 80s, and Peter Fleming was once asked, who's the best

Rob Brown:

Doubles pairing of all life, of all time.

Rob Brown:

And he said, John McEnroe and anyone,

Matt Edmundson:

ha, that's a great answer, yeah,

Rob Brown:

he said, as long as you've got John McEnroe and a

Rob Brown:

doubles pairing, you'll do fine.

Rob Brown:

And I re relay that story to God, God plus anyone is the dream team,

Matt Edmundson:

It's the

Rob Brown:

God plus you,

Matt Edmundson:

it

Rob Brown:

God plus me.

Rob Brown:

It will defeat all comers.

Rob Brown:

It is the majority.

Rob Brown:

And I felt like that, that God was with me and he would help and he has.

Rob Brown:

Help me get through that.

Rob Brown:

And I've been so grateful so appreciative of that, that I've

Rob Brown:

never taken things for granted.

Rob Brown:

And here's another thought.

Rob Brown:

And Richard Holmes brought this to me.

Rob Brown:

He said, I've seen my life in thirds.

Rob Brown:

And I always thought I would live till 90, like a footballer.

Rob Brown:

You'd get 90 good minutes on the pitch

Matt Edmundson:

yeah,

Rob Brown:

in the soccer game.

Rob Brown:

So the third, the last third of my life would be 60 to 90 years.

Rob Brown:

He said, here I am at 58, 59, and I'm now in the last third, and the last

Rob Brown:

third might be the 40 to 60 range, if I get past 60, it's a bonus.

Rob Brown:

And he said, I just want my last third to count,

Matt Edmundson:

yeah,

Rob Brown:

wherever that ends.

Rob Brown:

Whether it be 90 or 60, I want it to count.

Rob Brown:

That was his legacy now, that he wanted to shine a light on God and do something

Rob Brown:

that matters by being a witness to God through what he's going through.

Rob Brown:

I've not articulated it like Richard, but having thought I would live till

Rob Brown:

90, 100, it might be a lot less now.

Rob Brown:

Who knows what's going on in my brain.

Rob Brown:

But for those, that last third, the season that we're in, for that

Rob Brown:

to count, however God wants it to count, that's where I'm at now.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, that's actually quite a liberating way to think about

Matt Edmundson:

it as well, I would have thought.

Matt Edmundson:

It's quite it's quite powerful, isn't it?

Matt Edmundson:

Just to go, no, and I want this to count.

Matt Edmundson:

And I think it's interesting because when you, certainly the older I

Matt Edmundson:

get, the more the questions in my head change from what can I do to be

Matt Edmundson:

successful to how can I make an impact?

Matt Edmundson:

God, how can I build your kingdom, right?

Matt Edmundson:

Whatever that looks like and whatever mechanism that is, how do I glorify you?

Matt Edmundson:

How do I build your kingdom?

Matt Edmundson:

And

Rob Brown:

Because it's less about you, doesn't it, Matt?

Rob Brown:

Our egos fade away when you feel more mortal,

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

And I imagine this whole event has made that even more so for you.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah,

Rob Brown:

brought to their knees, sobbing on the floor with a diagnosis, with a

Rob Brown:

phone call, with a piece of bad news, with an accident, an illness, we like

Rob Brown:

to think we're invincible, particularly as men, that's our whole identity, isn't

Matt Edmundson:

it is true.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

We're in control,

Rob Brown:

We've got the power, but really we're all contending with

Rob Brown:

something we can all be brought on.

Rob Brown:

If you look at the, isn't suicide the biggest killer of men under 40?

Matt Edmundson:

Yes, it is.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

And we've got that thing going on with men that we don't

Rob Brown:

share stuff and mental health.

Rob Brown:

starts to be a premium currency for men.

Rob Brown:

We don't talk things through.

Rob Brown:

None of us are mortal.

Rob Brown:

Our bodies get older and you, like I have, must become a lot more humble

Rob Brown:

to say I can't do this on my own now.

Rob Brown:

I need people around me.

Rob Brown:

I need God in my life.

Rob Brown:

I'm not as strong as I used to be.

Rob Brown:

I'm not as fit.

Rob Brown:

I'm not as fast.

Rob Brown:

I don't think like I used to.

Rob Brown:

I'm not 20 anymore.

Rob Brown:

And it's that mortality where you start to look for some more

Rob Brown:

meaning and it's less about the ego.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah, very true.

Matt Edmundson:

Rob, just in closing I'm, I don't want to treat this like a church service because

Matt Edmundson:

I don't think it is, but I do wonder if someone's listening to the podcast

Matt Edmundson:

they're listening to your story, and they're going through something right now.

Matt Edmundson:

And that is, it's, horrific for them.

Matt Edmundson:

What would your advice be?

Matt Edmundson:

What would you Maybe another way to phrase that question is, what would you

Matt Edmundson:

go back and tell yourself as you're just about to start this migraine season?

Rob Brown:

God plus one is a majority.

Rob Brown:

When Richard was on stage, they did a Q& A at the end, and I was really

Rob Brown:

keen to put my hand up and say, how would you have dealt with this,

Rob Brown:

Richard, without God in your life?

Rob Brown:

Because he spoke a lot about how God had held his hand throughout

Rob Brown:

it all, and he continues to do and even with my stroke, I wonder how

Rob Brown:

I'd have dealt with it without God.

Rob Brown:

It's a certain peace that comes from knowing that God is in your corner, and

Rob Brown:

the battle is the Lord's, the Bible says, and in your weakness there is strength.

Rob Brown:

I would talk back to myself, if I was talking back to a Christian,

Rob Brown:

you would say, stay close to God.

Rob Brown:

Because where else can you go?

Rob Brown:

Do you remember in John 6 where people were falling away from Jesus?

Rob Brown:

He'd fed the 5, 000.

Rob Brown:

He was giving them bread and fish.

Rob Brown:

But when he started to talk about I am the way, the truth, the life, anyone

Rob Brown:

that drinks my blood eats my flesh.

Rob Brown:

That was really tough

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

people fell away and he said to his close 12, will you also

Rob Brown:

Following and leave me and Peter said to him where else should we go?

Rob Brown:

Where else what's, what else is left?

Rob Brown:

You'll learn half the words of eternal life.

Rob Brown:

So speaking back to anybody as a Christian, I would give them that

Rob Brown:

message, but speaking to non-Christians.

Rob Brown:

I would say that we can't do this on our own.

Rob Brown:

Nobody escapes trials and challenges and bad news, and nobody can say with any

Rob Brown:

certainty how their life is going to go.

Rob Brown:

You plan things out, but trials are going to come to us all.

Rob Brown:

So who are you going to fight those with?

Rob Brown:

Because you can't stand on your own two feet and keep swinging.

Rob Brown:

So there's that sense of who's going to go with you for the journey?

Rob Brown:

And God must be as good a choice as any.

Rob Brown:

Where else are you going to go?

Rob Brown:

What is left?

Rob Brown:

It's a privilege to grow old, isn't it?

Rob Brown:

Not everybody gets to grow old.

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah.

Rob Brown:

And you get grateful in thinking the job I'm bitching

Rob Brown:

and moaning about right now might be somebody's dream job.

Rob Brown:

Or me, still being in the game and not being able to drive might

Rob Brown:

be fantastic for somebody that is in a wheelchair that hasn't got

Rob Brown:

through that part of the stroke.

Rob Brown:

So as much as I might.

Rob Brown:

Complain about what I haven't got.

Rob Brown:

There is so much to be thankful for that I have got.

Rob Brown:

So my ultimate message would be wherever you're at in your life and whatever you're

Rob Brown:

contending with and going through, there are so many things to be thankful for.

Rob Brown:

If you just look for them, if you're open to them, count your blessings.

Rob Brown:

And be grateful for what you do have left and what's still going for you.

Rob Brown:

If you start to look at that instead of the size of the problem, and you

Rob Brown:

start to look at the size of your God instead of the size of the problem,

Rob Brown:

that's the ultimate takeaway for me.

Rob Brown:

And that makes every day count in the end.

Rob Brown:

I keep a little journal of blessings now.

Rob Brown:

Just things that happen to me and around me.

Rob Brown:

It's not quite that was a great sunset, but I had that lovely walk and that was

Rob Brown:

great with my daughter and we got through that and I did that preach at church and

Rob Brown:

that went well and little things like that might seem quite mundane to people but

Rob Brown:

if you start to count those up you feel that God is for you and not against you

Rob Brown:

and that's a wonderful feeling of peace.

Matt Edmundson:

Absolutely.

Matt Edmundson:

Oh, mate, powerful stuff.

Matt Edmundson:

Powerful stuff.

Matt Edmundson:

If people want to connect with you, if they want to reach out to you,

Matt Edmundson:

what's the best way to do that?

Rob Brown:

I am most active on LinkedIn.

Matt Edmundson:

Ah,

Rob Brown:

not an Insta or Twitter or anything else.

Rob Brown:

I quite like TikTok, but you wouldn't really find me on there.

Rob Brown:

It's for the younger generation, but I'm still in the game business

Rob Brown:

wise and will be for a few years.

Rob Brown:

So LinkedIn, if people want to have a conversation, that's a good reach out.

Rob Brown:

But I'm not the robbrown.

Rob Brown:

com, go there and see all my talks and buy my books and everything else.

Rob Brown:

That's a season long past.

Rob Brown:

I'm quite happy to be in the background and hear other people's stories.

Rob Brown:

What have you taken from this, Matt?

Matt Edmundson:

Oh, mate loads.

Matt Edmundson:

I just love your whole attitude to the whole thing.

Matt Edmundson:

I've not had a stroke.

Matt Edmundson:

We've gone through some horrific stuff in life and like you, I think that the, you

Matt Edmundson:

come away from it going I have the option to get really angry towards God, here,

Matt Edmundson:

because he's not come through how I feel.

Matt Edmundson:

Thought he was gonna come through.

Rob Brown:

How dare you not play your

Matt Edmundson:

Exactly.

Matt Edmundson:

Don't you know who I am?

Matt Edmundson:

God.

Matt Edmundson:

And it's that kind of thing, isn't it?

Matt Edmundson:

But then you realize actually no God's God.

Matt Edmundson:

And he's, and I think sometimes with time really helps when you can look back

Matt Edmundson:

when you're not in that instant pain.

Matt Edmundson:

And, but when you can look back three or four years later, you go,

Matt Edmundson:

actually no God, you were right.

Matt Edmundson:

And I see the plan, and I see the purpose in this and forgive my arrogance, because,

Matt Edmundson:

and I think you're right, with God you're in the majority, and I don't get it right,

Matt Edmundson:

I don't always hear him or understand him in the instant, but if I look back I

Matt Edmundson:

see his hand on my life, and I, and like you I'm just super grateful for that,

Matt Edmundson:

super grateful, and I think the older I've got the more grateful I've got.

Rob Brown:

And we only hold a couple of pieces of the jigsaw, don't we?

Rob Brown:

It would overwhelm us to see the big picture

Matt Edmundson:

Yeah,

Rob Brown:

so much going on there, that would be frightening.

Matt Edmundson:

I think it would just be one of those things where

Matt Edmundson:

you just go, that's it, I'm out.

Matt Edmundson:

I'm

Rob Brown:

I'm out.

Rob Brown:

Give me a couple of pieces that can just about hang on to that, Lord.

Rob Brown:

good.

Rob Brown:

But as much as we want to know what's going on and why, we

Rob Brown:

want to know the why, don't we?

Rob Brown:

We feel we've got a right to know the why, but we don't have a right, like Job.

Rob Brown:

He wanted to know the why, but he didn't have the right, and he

Rob Brown:

acknowledged to God in the end.

Rob Brown:

I was speaking about things I had no idea about,

Matt Edmundson:

yeah,

Rob Brown:

so we will not know the why until we get up there.

Rob Brown:

Maybe the why won't matter, but it's in the journey that God is doing the

Rob Brown:

molding and the shaping and the snipping and the clipping, turning us into a

Rob Brown:

good work, and we're thankful for that.

Matt Edmundson:

amen.

Matt Edmundson:

Rob, listen, thanks, man.

Matt Edmundson:

You're a legend.

Matt Edmundson:

Absolute legend.

Matt Edmundson:

Love talking to you.

Matt Edmundson:

I really appreciate you coming on and sharing your story and

Matt Edmundson:

just being so candid with us.

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