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The Roadmap to Emotional Healing: Core Wounds, Empowerment, and Personal Growth with JJ Flizanes
Episode 3310th December 2024 • Saddle Up Live Podcast • Lesa Koski
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In this engaging episode, JJ Flizanes returns to discuss her transformative course 'The Roadmap to Emotional Healing.' Lesa Koski shares personal insights and learnings from the course, highlighting exercises like Ho'oponopono prayer and the identification of core wounds. They delve into the intricacies of understanding and addressing emotions, the impact of beliefs on health, and strategies for managing feelings. The conversation also touches upon the empowering aspects of acknowledging both positive traits inherited from parents and new approaches to emotional wellbeing. Listeners are encouraged to explore the course to deepen their understanding of emotional healing and personal growth.

00:00 Introduction and Welcome Back

00:25 Discussing JJ's Courses

01:03 Understanding and Managing Emotions

02:32 Fear of Sickness and Death

03:54 Empowerment and Belief Systems

06:10 Personal Stories and Health Beliefs

07:43 The Role of Belief in Health

10:35 Navigating Medical Decisions

16:25 Overcoming People Pleasing and Finding Joy

20:00 The Power of Belief and Frequency

21:23 Next Steps in the Roadmap Course

21:52 Transformative Exercise and Personal Growth

22:48 Challenges and Refinements in Therapy

24:43 Understanding Core Wounds

26:26 Emotional Triggers and Responses

27:54 Navigating Relationship Conflicts

31:15 The Importance of Emotional Processing

35:26 Reflecting on Childhood Memories

39:41 Course Promotion and Final Thoughts

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Welcome listeners.

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This is a sweet surprise.

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We had JJ Flizzines on last week.

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And voila, she's back.

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And I'm so excited because I was so

intrigued and just kind of fell in love

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with, your spirit and your wanting to

learn, because that has always been in me.

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And so listeners.

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As you know, I've been talking

a little bit about what I've

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learned through your course.

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I took JJ's course and what I love

it's, is it called I Am Empowered?

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Is that what it's called?

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Or is that that worksheet that I have?

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No, that's just the worksheet.

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So the course is called the

Roadmap to Emotional Healing.

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Thank you.

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Sorry, I should have had that

down, and it is a roadmap and

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very, it's filled with information.

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there's another course that

goes through your, feelings

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and emotions and your needs.

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And I found that really helpful.

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And I actually did a podcast on that.

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So listeners go back and listen

to that or take the course because

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you get it in there as well.

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And so we're going to be talking about

JJ's course on core wounds a little bit

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today and I have questions, but before we

jump into that, JJ, I do have a question

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and my listeners, if they go back and

listen, they'll understand how you need

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to understand your feelings when you're

not having, when you're having an unwanted

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feeling, understand it, and then look at.

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What is the need that I'm not getting

and how can I fulfill that myself?

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And I love that.

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And I've been using that and I've been

using, okay, you have to tell me, is

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it whole pony pony or whole Pona Pona?

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Oh, Pona Pona.

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Neither.

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Oh, a Pono Pono.

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So I've said it right, but people know

I have ponies on my mind cause they're

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right over there in the barn next to me.

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so, but I've been doing that prayer.

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Along with the becoming

aware of the feeling.

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And I told my listeners last

week, I just did it last night.

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There was a worry that popped up and I

stopped and I went, okay, where is it?

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How do I, you know, I feel it.

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And then I know that I tend to

over mother and we'll kind of

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get into that a little bit later.

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But then I did the prayer, you

know, where I'm like, I'm sorry.

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Please forgive me.

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And I kind of go, I'm sorry,

God, please forgive me.

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I know you love me.

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I know you're taking care of this.

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You know, thank you.

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I love you.

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And it is.

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I get peace and like

I've never felt before.

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So I love that.

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But I do have a question for you on

one of the feelings that I deal with.

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I've always had this.

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And then, you know, I had that stage one

breast cancer and that really scared me,

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but JJ, I've always been really afraid

of sickness and death, like terrified.

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Like I go into the doctor and

my blood pressure is sky high.

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Like I'm just.

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and, you know, sick to my stomach.

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and so I looked at that and I sat

with it and I know that anxiety isn't

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a feeling it's repressing a feeling.

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So I kind of dig into that and I go,

okay, so I'm, I'm anxious and I'm scared.

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I'm scared, you know, and I kind

of feel out of control because

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there's only so much I can do.

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Right.

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I try really hard to be healthy

and follow the rules to be healthy.

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But when I looked at what is that

need that's not being met, what I came

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up with is physical safety is, and I

thought, because I'm thinking like,

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is my body behind my back being sick?

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I'm going to say that's what the

obvious and this framework of the

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feelings and needs list, you know,

I teach it at the beginning of every

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course, no matter what I'm doing.

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I think I'm trying to

remember no date, your body.

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We don't do this because it's in

the rewire program and it's in

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the roadmap to emotional healing.

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And I think I teach it at

every live event there.

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It's sort of like, it's the getting

the verbiage down because I first

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have to make sure that we start from

the position of empowerment of that.

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If you have a problem or

you're not feeling it.

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happy and you're in a negative feeling,

it's always because regardless of your

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core wounds, regardless of any other

framework you want to work with, it's

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because in that moment, there's a need

that's not being met for you though.

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I don't think you're in, you're

in, in that moment, you're feeling

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unsafe, but I don't think it's, it's

because you're You've kind of given

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up power or control or ownership of

your safety to testing to the medical

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world to, and I don't know that I think

that's the actual need underneath it.

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So this exercise, which I think I taught

last week, is very, very important.

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Simple, but it isn't easy.

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And it's not easy because no one

is taught to recognize their needs.

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And again, it always normally comes with

the, I need you to, I need them to, I need

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it to, there's always a blame of a loss of

power and control over to somebody else.

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What I actually think you are looking

for is peace and ease and trust.

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And I don't know if

there's a family history.

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And I don't know if I said this

last week, so let me say it now.

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There are only six genes.

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Six and I can read them too, if you

want me to six genes that Cannot be

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changed and if you're born with them,

that's sort of the end of the story

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Okay, but everything else people

think oh cancer is genetic cancer is

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not genetic There is no cancer gene

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I mean there are genes that can be

expressed as cancers But again, it's

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it's not Genetics may, there's a saying

in the medical world, in the functional

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medicine, naturopathic, that genes load

the gun, epigenetics pulls the trigger.

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So it doesn't matter if the gun

is loaded, you have your genes.

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Whether they express themselves

or not is completely based on your

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epigenetics, which is layered into

the environment you're in, the stress

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that you have, the food that you eat,

the, you know, all of the things that

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you have 100 percent control over.

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So, and it has to do with beliefs.

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So going back to sort of a law

of attraction principle, you're

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going to manifest whatever

you believe, not what you are.

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So if you have a fear, which people often

do, well, everyone in my family has had

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this, therefore I'm going to have it.

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And they actually believe that.

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So regardless of whatever

physical things that they're

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doing to try not to have that.

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The belief is they're going to get it.

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Because when you don't understand

that you get to change the expression

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of your genes, you get to decide.

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And I hate to say this because

it's not me inviting it in,

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but cancer doesn't scare me.

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It never has.

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If I get cancer, I know

exactly what I'm going to do.

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And I know what I won't do because

it's looking at the imbalance.

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In Chinese medicine, I don't

know if we talked about this last

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week, but Chinese medicine, they

don't recognize tumors or cancer.

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It's stagnant energy.

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It's energy that's been stuck.

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Well, there's a reason it's stuck.

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And depending on where it's

stuck, there is a meridian.

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There is a chakra.

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There is an energy system attached

to that area of your body that

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gives you information about

where your energy is stuck.

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So in acupuncture, Chinese medicine,

they're treating the entire person, not.

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A tumor that we're going to go in and

Radiate or whatever and think that

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that's going to kill it and get rid

of it Because anyone that's doing

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that because there's a lot of cancers,

especially breast cancer that reoccur.

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I've got a client right now She's on

her fourth time having and she did

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traditional stuff the first two times

and she did naturopathic stuff the second

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Or i'm, sorry the third and now She's

in a whole different, like, where, how

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she's handling or how she's being with

this, but it's because, and I love her

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if you're listening, it's because she

actually really hasn't gotten to the root.

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The one thing I keep harping on about

the emotional piece, and it's like,

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we've done all the, we've done all the

foods and the change in the different,

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treatment plans and the different

medications and the different supplements

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and the different, like, things.

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But there's, there's a, still a

through line of a belief system,

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like a current, your, your belief

system is a, is a frequency.

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It's a current.

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And if I, in the back of my mind, truly,

truly believe that because my mom, my

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grandmother, my great grandmother all

had this thing that I'm doomed to get it.

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No matter what I do, I'm going to

get it regardless of how I live,

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because that's what I believe.

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So it's B it's being able to

change your belief systems.

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Okay.

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Can I jump in and ask you something

that is so true with like the high

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blood pressure stuff, because I'm like.

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Oh my gosh, my grandpa died young.

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You know, I had watched two grandpas,

one like had the, had the first like

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open heart surgery in the country years.

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You know, I mean, I just, I've seen a

lot of that and maybe that was scary

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to me, but honest to God, JJ, I didn't

think I was going to get cancer.

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I didn't think I was going

to get breast cancer.

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it's not in my family.

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I don't have big, huge boobs.

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I was always like, I'm not getting this.

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I never, I truly, I feel like, down

to my toes, I never, I was shocked.

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I was like, what the hell is this?

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But the gift that cancer can bring, as

any diagnosis can, whether it's, and I'm

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just talking to people who assume certain

genetic pieces, like I have a friend who

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is in town and I heard he has cancer.

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I haven't talked to him, but I also

know his dad died young and so I have

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a feeling that he sort of in the back

of his mind, kind of figured he'd die

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young, regardless of how he was going to

die, for you and for most people, breast

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cancer is as we, I think we talked about

last week, but if not breast cancer is

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usually an out of balance of giving and

receiving, it's the nurturing of others.

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On top of yourself, it's depleting

of yourself at the expense

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of yourself for other people.

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And that's the gift that if you can

get that awareness and change that

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habit, yes, there's other factors.

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Potentially there's, the terrain,

10 of different factors at your

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body that creates the foundation

from which disease happens.

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Cause it doesn't happen overnight.

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It happens over time.

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So over time that gets compounded,

but you get to say, wow, how

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did I, how did I attract this?

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Oh, cause I'm constantly.

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Out of balance with giving to other

people at the expense of myself and.

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That goes that when you learn that, you

can say, great, I'd like to change that.

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I just saw a clip on social media, a

doctor on another podcast talking about

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autoimmune diseases and how women get

90 percent of the autoimmune diseases.

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And because, and the personality type that

gets auto immune diseases are over givers.

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I think I saw that.

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Yes.

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Yeah.

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And so it just, it, and there are

cancer personality types, right?

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For people that sort of don't like

thyroid, for instance, thyroid is

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about the throat and the throat chakra

and having a voice and speaking your

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truth and asking for what you want and.

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You know, just having a voice period.

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So people that have thyroid issues,

most of the time have been stuffing

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their beliefs, their desires, their

needs, because we're not taught.

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This is not something

that we ever get taught.

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You have to search it out.

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It's not taught in school.

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It's not taught in, you know, anywhere.

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And, uh, and so I think it's really

important, like I said, the beginning

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that this exercise from last week,

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It is simple, but it is not easy

because you do not have models for this.

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You do not have models for taking

responsibility for how you create

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your own energetic container that

either attracts or repels health.

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Yeah.

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And, yeah, cause there's a lot

of things we don't, I never

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thought I'd get divorced.

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Oh my God.

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You would have asked me.

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I would say I will never get divorced.

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Like it was not in the cards for me.

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I fought.

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But then at some point there's

a surrender that happens to

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say this is out of my hands.

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I have done this has led

me through an education.

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I couldn't have gotten otherwise.

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This has led me through

personal development that I

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wouldn't have gotten otherwise.

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This has led me to the life I have now.

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That I had no idea was in

store for me, but the road

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looked the way that it looked.

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I needed a reason.

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I needed a really good reason that I

was attached to, that I cared about

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deeply more than anything because I can

fix anything, but I can't make someone

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else want something they don't want.

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Right.

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so the lesson in that while it

was, you know, it's life, we come

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here to learn and you know, part of

life school is you have to have a

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challenge that you can learn something.

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And it doesn't mean you just suffer.

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That's the difference.

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If you take it with a

little bit of levity.

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of like, Oh, and especially at,

you know, stage one, Oh, okay.

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This is my body that I wasn't

apparently listening to before.

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I don't know what other symptoms you

might've had, but the body will continue

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to get louder and louder until you listen.

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And we have the opportunity

to learn how to stop and go.

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What's it saying to me?

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How do I check in?

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Like at my embodied healing intensive.

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I had everybody muscle test.

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I taught them how to muscle test and

I gave them all the chakras and we

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muscle tested every chakra and every

emotion within the chakra to see

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what was out of balance for people.

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So they would know where to start with

how, you know, what am I looking at for

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healing and connecting and reconnecting?

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I have the list.

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Let me just read quickly the, uh,

the six because I know someone's

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going to ask the six genes.

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It's cystic fibrosis, hemophilia,

Huntington disease, Ty Sachs

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disease, Marfan syndrome.

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and hereditary hemochromatosis.

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Those are the six genes that,

again, epigenetics, I'm sure

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will still play a role in the

intensity of someone's expression.

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Because again, if you think

about the container of your body

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and you're all stressed out,

the body can't heal in stress.

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Your adrenaline's going, your cortisol's

going, you're not in a receptive mode.

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when you're in a more relaxed, happy

state, you have oxytocin going,

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you're anti inflammatory, your body's

doing what it needs to do to heal.

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And sometimes when we get in a

diagnosis of any kind, We immediately,

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and I'm, again, it comes down to

that belief of, for me, I know I

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go, well, I know how to research.

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I trust my intuition.

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I had fibroids and I was, went

to many, many doctors who told

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me I needed to have surgery.

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It was too far gone.

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And I just, cried every

time I was in the office.

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I bawled my eyes out because

I wanted a different solution

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and nobody was giving me one.

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And it took me to the last

appointment when I was scheduling

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the surgery and crying hysterically.

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Then I was like, hello McFly.

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You do not believe this.

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You do not believe this because

if you did, you'd feel relief.

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If this solution was the right solution

for you, you would feel good about it.

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And I did not feel good about it.

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So I stopped, I canceled it.

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And two years went by and I did all

kinds of things in those two years.

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And I even got rid of one by myself,

wouldn't recommend it, lost a lot of

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blood, but, but I did it naturally.

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and then, my intuition said,

go, go look at the research.

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Cause there was a procedure

that I wanted to do.

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It was, uterine artery embolization.

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and it was at the time you, if you

wanted to get pregnant, they said, don't

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do this because it will, hurt that.

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This is not, this is not safe.

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So I was like, okay, so I didn't do it.

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Well, two years go by and

then my intuition says,

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Hey, go check it out again.

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So I go online.

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Two years later, it's

180 degree different.

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now it's the fertility preserver.

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I'm like, okay, great.

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So I got myself an appointment.

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I went in and needless to say, I,

there's a whole story to this, but I'll

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say, you know, everything was good.

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Even the fact with the doctor was saying

to me, two doctors, Looked at me and said,

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I'll do this, but I don't recommend this.

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And I said, of course, what do you, you

know, I'm just curious what you recommend.

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I didn't care not to be arrogant, but I

don't trust a lot of doctors because I

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don't, I think they have their five tools.

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And this is what the

five tools that I have.

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If you have as many tools as I understand,

and then we can have a conversation

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that's a little bit more inclusive, but

when you only have surgery and drugs

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and a hysterectomy is my only choices, I

tend to sort of doubt that you're, very

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well researched in other modalities.

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So she said, I think a hysterectomy

and I looked at her and the kind of

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laughed and I thought you're crazy.

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So then the other doctor looked at

me and said, you make me nervous.

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And I had to laugh.

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And I looked at her, I had to consult her.

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I said, okay, and I I'm coming

up with different ways in

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which this can all work out.

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And at the end of the day, I said,

look, I said, you know, what's got to

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say it's a 15 percent chance, right?

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That this is going to go bad and only a

15 percent chance because the other doctor

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thought I, in my age range, forget my

health level, that my age range indicated

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that it was more than 5 percent because

it would have normally been a 5 percent

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chance that something would go wrong.

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So I said to this gynecologist, that's

85 percent chance it's going to go right.

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So here's what's going to happen.

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You're going to do the procedure

and it's going to do exactly what's

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supposed to, it's going to shrink up,

it's going to break down, it's going

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to slowly over time leave my body.

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That's what's going to happen.

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So I had the, and there was

a whole fighting with the

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doctor during the procedure.

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Anyway, it happened exactly

the way that I said it was, it

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would, nothing bad happened.

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And the gynecologist, when

I went back in basically was

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like, okay, what do you want?

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I'll do whatever you say.

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You obviously are, you know, you're

listening to your body and it's working

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because I had to fight against two

doctors about a 15 percent chance

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that something was going to go bad.

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They wanted to take out my uterus.

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I'm like, no, right.

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But that's what we deal with.

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if we keep giving the power away to, so

there's, there's something for your need.

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I feel that's a little bit of a, I don't

know, is it before you got diagnosed?

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Were you nervous when you went to the

doctor or was it since having cancer?

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I have, I know I was always

nervous about my heart.

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Always nervous that I would, because

I have high blood pressure and always

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like afraid that I was going to have

a stroke because I watched my favorite

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guy in the world, my grandpa, go

through that and I, I don't know.

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And so that was what I was, but

I, not so much about cancer.

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I'd go in for mammograms,

never worried about them.

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Never was, I was just like piece of cake.

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You know, it didn't,

didn't make me nervous.

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but I am an over mother for sure.

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And JJ, I, because I was always people

pleasing and I'm still learning, there's

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been some really big things happening.

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I'm still learning how to overcome that.

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But I forgot how to have fun.

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Like I forgot.

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And now like.

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I'm such a different person.

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Like I'm painting the laundry room and my

son comes and he's like, I hate painting.

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I'm like, Everything seems fun to me now.

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You know, it's fun.

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Who cares?

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Like I don't have to hurry.

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And, so when I'm doing more fun things,

I'm, you know, working out with fun

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ladies, I'm riding my horses more

playing with my grandchildren, huge fun.

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for me.

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Um, but I do, I do over mother

and I'm noticing that and I

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want to really be careful.

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I also know because of that people

pleasing, I've, and that we're kind of

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getting into what I've learned in the

course, you know, the journey that I've

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taken through that, the roadmap course.

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and through the cancer diagnosis,

but I gotta say too, I gotta go back

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and say, I love what you're saying

about how you knew yourself with the

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doctors and my daughter is a physician.

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So she's very like,

mom, what are you doing?

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You know, but there was something really

special about when I went through this,

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it really was a gift and a lesson JJ,

because I found this physician who broke

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off from corporate medicine, darling

woman that I adored, and she said,

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I wouldn't get a double mastectomy.

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You know, she's like, it's going to work.

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I mean, I had a, this is

another interesting thing.

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The tumor was very small

and it kept getting smaller.

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Like the MRI showed it one

size and then they went in for

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surgery and it was even smaller.

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And I'm like, really, you got to do chemo.

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And they're like, yeah.

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And I, even though getting that chemo

was, it was kind of like, it's probably

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all gone, but because it was the type

that it was, it was a her too, they like

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to use chemo and the, the oncologist.

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was referred to me by the

surgeon who did amazing.

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I mean, she, you're going to, you

know, the things you don't think

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of, like you're going to, you

know, I don't want my nipple off.

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Like I didn't even think about that.

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That's hard for women.

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And she did, she took, took her time, made

sure she had the margins and saved it.

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And so like, I don't even look different.

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It was so amazing.

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So I feel like.

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God brought me those people.

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And then I let it go.

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I was like, okay, I trust you.

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And then she sent me to an

oncologist at a hospital.

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I never thought I would go to, never

thought I would go to this hospital.

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And I went there because they are

more, it's a teaching hospital and I

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always hated having those kids come in.

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But now that my daughter's, you know,

ending a residency, have a little

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more loving about it, but so it was

a teaching hospital, but they were

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more into fitting it to your needs.

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But this oncologist said.

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Cancer is probably all gone right now.

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We're doing this to make sure, right?

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This is a precaution.

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And she said, I think you're going

to tolerate chemo really well.

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And for some damn reason,

JJ, I believed her.

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I don't know how, but I did.

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And I hate it going in and getting it.

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It would make me shake because I

do everything to support my body

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and to like throw this poison in.

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I was just like, Oh, but I

just knew that it's okay.

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It's a reset for my body.

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I'm going to be okay and

I'm going to overcome it.

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And for some reason I was able to

follow it and I felt like it was right.

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You know, it's where frequency

and vibration supersede.

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It's quantum physics.

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It supersedes everything.

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You know, my, someone who.

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And let's just take, let's take,

vaccines and I won't go into any politics

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about, I'll just say that, for people

that have a lot of fear about stuff

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or, you know, are good obedient, do

what the government tells you to do.

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if they feel that this was helpful for

them, like remember I talked about relief,

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like when I was signed up for surgery,

never once did I feel good about it.

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I never, I never, Existed this whole

time my body was like kept telling me

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no, no, no, no, no No, and of course, I'm

defaulting on how many doctors have I met

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with and they all keep saying the same

thing But my body said no it was clear.

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I'm crying.

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Hello So I and I trust myself and more

than anybody else So when it comes

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to whatever you believe someone that

believes that it might help them No, I'm

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not saying someone who believes it might

help them also might not be affected

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by it but if they if they truly truly

truly believe That they're gonna be fine.

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This is gonna help them.

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That's probably what

they're gonna manifest Yeah.

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But somebody who doubts it will not.

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Someone who doubts will get

not, it'll be, it's almost like

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a self fulfilling prophecy.

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If you have doubt and you do it anyway,

that's almost kind of the worst thing you

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can do because you go against yourself.

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It's not, and then the body

goes, well, let me show you.

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Why you don't ever want to do

that again, because I'm going

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to manifest the exact thing.

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You're afraid of.

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I had a client years ago

who was afraid of cancer.

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She got cancer.

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She died because she was

afraid of it, but she didn't.

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:

So let's talk a little bit about what

would be next on your roadmap after, you

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know, you got the basic core wound stuff.

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It would be making an

appropriate proper map.

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So you could actually understand

the different parts of the core

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wound map and how it, and like how

you're responsible for keeping them

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alive, how you're going to change it.

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And that doesn't happen

because the roadmap course.

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It's a self study course.

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It's to get somebody familiar with

the idea of core wounds, to uncover

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what your core wounds are, to see the

patterns that play out in your life.

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:

There's a lot of, even if you just

do the exercise as it's given,

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:

which I actually had Harville and

Helen this week on my podcast.

473

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I got to confess to him that I've

made entire business around that.

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Exercise and developed

it into something deeper.

475

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Then he's very excited for me to share it

with him, which I'm very excited about.

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and for me to write a book about

it, which he's all about, because

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I've taken this one exercise that

was life changing for me, all I

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had to complete what they gave me.

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And that in itself was life

changing because of how I process

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emotions, how I could see patterns.

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And the minute that I saw the pattern,

I stopped it because my ex husband

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would tell me, and I would say to him.

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He's like, you know, that

thing you do, it doesn't work.

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I said, Oh, I know.

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Like, I was well aware.

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I'm like, it doesn't work.

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Why do I keep doing it?

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I don't know.

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I can't stop.

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I don't know why I can't stop.

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But then I did the exercise and I

stopped because I saw the pattern

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:

went back so far and I understood

how it was about me, not about him.

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Yes.

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So I took ownership of that and

I taught that that way for years.

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But over the years.

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it would be hit or miss.

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Not everybody would be life

changed by the exercise.

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And so as I got deeper into working

with people in this way, in smaller

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groups of people, I'd start to see how,

this needs to be fine tuned into this.

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And this is how, how we're looking

at ourselves and how I keep that

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core wound alive myself every day.

502

:

if we don't start to change our own

habits and patterns and behaviors.

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:

within ourselves, then we can't ask the

outside world to change necessarily.

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:

We have to be the ones that, we

have to be aware of what it is.

505

:

so the roadmap course is really about that

diagnostic process I talked to so many

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:

people who are even therapists and I'm,

and they would have, and even in that,

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:

episode with Harville and Helm this week.

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I said, I'm not a fan of traditional

talk therapy because you're

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literally talking about the same

things you're already aware of.

510

:

Like there's no new information.

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:

There's no new way of

looking at something.

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It's literally a recycling

of the belief system and the

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information you already have.

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That's a big, and there's no structure.

515

:

So when we look at, well, if I'm going

to go heal something like I've, I

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:

went for Reiki this week, one of my

Qigong teachers, she teaches, she does

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:

Reiki and she offered me a session.

518

:

and Reiki is a very powerful tool, but

if you don't know why you're using it

519

:

or what you need to expect from it, same

thing with hypnosis, same thing with

520

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Ho'oponopono, same thing with, I don't

care what the therapy is, tapping EMDR.

521

:

Why am I doing it?

522

:

What is the wound?

523

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That's causing the problem and what is the

behavior or the shift in how I interpret

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:

something that I'm waiting to see happen

so that I know it's getting better.

525

:

And that's where this whole idea

of talk therapy or just healing

526

:

in general is so, like, elusive.

527

:

Oh, healing.

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It's like exercise.

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Oh, just exercise.

530

:

What the hell does that mean?

531

:

As a practitioner, I'm

like, exercise more.

532

:

Doing what?

533

:

What is the goal?

534

:

Strength training?

535

:

Flexibility?

536

:

Do you want me to be a faster runner?

537

:

Endurance?

538

:

Do you want me to improve

my cardiovascular?

539

:

Like, exercise more is the dumbest bit

of advice anyone can give somebody.

540

:

So when you say, oh, I'm, I'm, you

know, I'm healing or I'm in therapy.

541

:

Okay, how?

542

:

What are you doing?

543

:

Are you, so let's, let's figure

out what the wounds are, at

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:

least the top three core wounds.

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:

Did you figure out what yours were?

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:

yeah, tell me again what letter that is.

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:

it would be one of the last two.

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:

So it's, The Deepest Fears, I

believe it's The Deepest Fears page.

549

:

Not the last page, because that's

when you put it all together for the

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Imago piece of relationship therapy.

551

:

But let's go one or two pages before that.

552

:

I'm sorry, this is taking a little while.

553

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I've got my frustrations.

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Deepest fears.

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What's the page after the frustrations?

556

:

Okay.

557

:

Got it.

558

:

Okay.

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Do you have any of the repeat?

560

:

You have your mom and your dad

and maybe other, are there any

561

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words that repeat on both sides?

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:

disapproved of.

563

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Great.

564

:

Okay.

565

:

So let's just work with that one.

566

:

So if you have, and I'll take you

through sort of the, the, the, what

567

:

the map And that's not what's in this

course, although you can start it.

568

:

And I do start it on the, I added a fifth

week, as a bonus to sort of do that.

569

:

Did you get to that?

570

:

Well, is that the question and answer one?

571

:

Okay.

572

:

I didn't do that one yet.

573

:

Yeah.

574

:

Do that one because I'll walk you through

how to, how to put, and it's not even.

575

:

Again, I've been working with

this now for so many years.

576

:

So it's even better now than it

was then, but that it starts you

577

:

on the, how do I make this map

from this data that I've collected?

578

:

So let's just look at disapproved up.

579

:

So you have a core

wound of disapproved up.

580

:

It's probably the first, most important

one, because if you have it with both

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:

parents, then it's probably the strongest.

582

:

So disapproved up.

583

:

So when you and your, and when

you get triggered in life, One

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:

of the top three core wounds is

what's going to be triggered.

585

:

And again, it's going to

be mostly subconscious.

586

:

You're not going to choose it.

587

:

You're just going to feel bad.

588

:

You're going to have a feeling because

your subconscious has interpreted you

589

:

being disapproved of and then you're

going to have whatever feeling, which you

590

:

can find that on the frustrations page.

591

:

And then you're going to have a response,

which is also on the frustrations page.

592

:

So you'll figure out the circuit.

593

:

I call it the circuit.

594

:

And it's what happens.

595

:

Immediately.

596

:

It's so it's, it's built in, it's

a reactive, pattern that you have.

597

:

and so while that pattern won't change

overnight, when you start to recognize it,

598

:

when you start to notice it and become an

observer of it, then when you get to the.

599

:

The action piece, the third part

of it, you can choose to act

600

:

differently, to respond differently.

601

:

And you can get through it faster

than what happens is people get

602

:

triggered because they feel devalued.

603

:

They feel abandoned.

604

:

They feel ignored.

605

:

They feel suppressed.

606

:

They feel smothered.

607

:

They feel disapproved of.

608

:

And then we create this whole story.

609

:

And we end up cycling and cycling and

cycling in this story that's not true

610

:

because you don't understand the mechanics

of the fact that this was a, this was

611

:

a triggered response and I could have

just let it do its thing and then be

612

:

done with it, but I took it because

it was a thing and I made it bigger.

613

:

I made it bigger by telling people, I

made it bigger by making it a bigger

614

:

deal than it needs to be, not recognizing

that this is a core wound that I have.

615

:

And the likelihood is I'm going to

respond in this way in some degree,

616

:

possibly for a long time until I.

617

:

expand my comfort zone and

do something different.

618

:

Okay.

619

:

I want to, I want to talk to

you about something happened.

620

:

My husband and I have not had

like a, like yelling fight, like a

621

:

real mad fight for quite a while.

622

:

And we were driving to the

airport to pick up my daughter.

623

:

And of course we started talking about

finances, which is not a good idea when

624

:

you're stuck in a car with someone.

625

:

In in our case we were talking about it

and kind of basically it is he wants me

626

:

to just take care of everything And I

don't want to I want to do it together

627

:

I want his insight and he doesn't want

he's like I make you know I make it you

628

:

figure out what to do with it and you tell

you know so he He could make me feel I

629

:

I don't know what the difference between

shamed shamed and disapproved of is to me.

630

:

It was real close You So

it was kind of like that.

631

:

No, that feels more like abandoned

because you, you want to do it together

632

:

and he just wants you to take care of it.

633

:

He doesn't want the burden of figuring

it out because he feels like he's

634

:

already tired doing what he's doing.

635

:

And he just wants you

to, and he trusts you.

636

:

he wants some peace.

637

:

He wants some ease and

you want connection.

638

:

Okay.

639

:

That sounds true.

640

:

So you probably, If you have abandoned

on there anywhere or ignored or devalued,

641

:

there's probably a little bit of him.

642

:

It's like a rejection.

643

:

You probably took it a

little bit like a rejection.

644

:

And again, rejection is not bullying.

645

:

It's an interpretation.

646

:

So if you're, if you're interpreting,

my husband doesn't love me because he

647

:

doesn't want to spend time with me on

how we're going to spend the money.

648

:

That's because that's coming, that's

being filtered through your wound.

649

:

When actuality, he's

literally saying, I'm tired.

650

:

I have enough to focus on.

651

:

I don't want to do this.

652

:

I trust you.

653

:

Just do it because it'll

make, it'll bring me peace.

654

:

It'll bring me ease.

655

:

To him, that's the collaboration.

656

:

I'm going to make it.

657

:

You spend it and manage it.

658

:

End of story.

659

:

We each have our roles.

660

:

And then we don't have to keep

talking about something that,

661

:

like, it's just too much.

662

:

Like, he wants some space.

663

:

I love this.

664

:

I love this because I was a little bit

concerned because, okay, I looked at that

665

:

and I knew, and I was really like working

on how, how is this making me feel?

666

:

What is this?

667

:

and then I was thinking, I

always want to just come and fix

668

:

it and make them feel better.

669

:

Is that wrong?

670

:

Is that over mothering?

671

:

It's you.

672

:

Cause I don't really want to do it.

673

:

I don't like dealing with money, but

then I thought back to, I started taking

674

:

care of my finances when I was 12 and

I didn't want to, I was terrified.

675

:

I didn't want to do it.

676

:

And you know, so now I'm like, okay,

well there might be other solutions

677

:

and maybe there's something to explore

that like having a money manager or

678

:

your financial planner or I don't

know, but having another solution.

679

:

that satisfies everyone's needs.

680

:

You have a need in this case, it feels

like you have a need for connection

681

:

and, and maybe because it stresses

you and maybe because it stresses

682

:

you out, you don't want to do it by

yourself because it stresses you out.

683

:

So you're trying to make it more fun and

more meaningful by having connection.

684

:

He wants space, but when you ask

me the question, is it wrong to

685

:

want to help somebody feel better?

686

:

It's not that it's wrong.

687

:

Let me give you, here's the reality.

688

:

When someone around you is upset and

you get triggered and you want to

689

:

make them feel better, it's because

you're uncomfortable being upset.

690

:

Because it triggers your wound of

not being able to be in that emotion.

691

:

So the real issue here is you don't

know how to hold the space for your

692

:

own emotions, so you don't have a whole

space for other people's emotions.

693

:

It's like, you know, it's too messy.

694

:

It's out of control.

695

:

You don't know how to let somebody.

696

:

It is.

697

:

And I don't know what to do.

698

:

Like I get, like, I want to

cry and then I get like, I want

699

:

to yell and then I like, okay.

700

:

But emotional processing is, is that.

701

:

It's about a process.

702

:

It's about allowing the process and

you want to repress the process.

703

:

So you want to talk about another reason

why you got cancer is because you repress.

704

:

Yeah.

705

:

So you're telling me, feel those.

706

:

Yes, there is a, and again, part

of this feelings and needs list

707

:

can help with the identification.

708

:

you have to start with being able to

allow yourself to have your emotions.

709

:

That doesn't mean other people

have to be involved necessarily,

710

:

or that they need to do something.

711

:

You know, it's why I really, I

used to yell at some of my male

712

:

clients as a personal trainer,

because there are women totally

713

:

would manipulate them all the time.

714

:

And, and, you know, and I'd say, look,

women manipulate men emotionally.

715

:

Because you allow them to, because

you don't, because the minute a woman

716

:

cries, a man loses his shit and he's

like, Oh my God, what do I got to do?

717

:

And then of course, then the

man will say, I don't feel free.

718

:

I feel, I feel trapped by your

emotions that make me do things I don't

719

:

want to do so that you'll be calm.

720

:

Okay, that's bullshit.

721

:

Because if a man could learn the

same thing women need to learn,

722

:

which is how to hold the space

for someone else's emotions,

723

:

which means allow them to have it.

724

:

Allow them to go through the emotion.

725

:

Don't suppress it.

726

:

I had a cat die a couple months ago.

727

:

And when Doug and I, when it happened,

thank God we, it was like, not thank

728

:

God, but Sunday night into Monday,

we both didn't really have any work.

729

:

We didn't have to cancel any

plans, but we both grieved all day.

730

:

And we literally just cried and cried

and we took a little bit of a drive and,

731

:

you know, but we, it was a grieving day.

732

:

And then the next day he

had to get on a plane.

733

:

On a plane to go back to Baltimore to

see his mom that was already planned.

734

:

And he was like, this is not

a good time for me to leave.

735

:

And I said, well, maybe it is.

736

:

So then for the next four days, I

literally laid on the couch, watch

737

:

television and did cancel plans.

738

:

I did cancel stuff and

I cried and I wailed.

739

:

I just cried.

740

:

And I, I apologized to her.

741

:

I was so, I had so much grief about it

and I was so feeling so badly about it.

742

:

And I'm, you know, in my house

yelling and screaming and crying.

743

:

And I did it as to, to, and I never,

I didn't have to hold it back.

744

:

I just let it out.

745

:

And it was almost a blessing that

he wasn't here because I know him.

746

:

And a lot of men would do this too.

747

:

There's a moment in time, maybe

48 hours in maybe less than that,

748

:

where he would have been like,

okay, I have to go to work now.

749

:

And he wouldn't have had

to, he would have chosen to.

750

:

Because feeling your

feelings is not comfortable.

751

:

And, most of the time it makes you

feel out of control, but I, like,

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:

I went through those four days.

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:

So I had five days of crying and

screaming and yelling in my house.

754

:

And, but ever since then I've been fine

and I've been able to process her death

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:

differently and, and be okay with it.

756

:

And I haven't cried once

about it since then.

757

:

And that's not saying that that

means I'm over it and, or whatever.

758

:

It just means that I.

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:

I squeezed it out when it happened.

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There was no repressing.

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And too often we do not let ourselves

feel because we have to function.

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:

We have to be a parent.

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:

We have to go to work.

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:

We have to do whatever is on the schedule.

765

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And we don't give ourselves

a space to say, no, I can't

766

:

attend to any of that right now.

767

:

I had a tragedy happen.

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:

I need to check out for a little while

and allow myself to feel sad and angry

769

:

and depressed and whatever the emotion is.

770

:

So this is why we don't have any

skills to do this because we get thrown

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:

back into life and then we repress,

repress, repress, and the repression

772

:

creates disease quite honestly.

773

:

So, and I have to say, as you're talking

about this, I can't help but think of

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these times when I found out about the

cancer and kind of when I didn't know,

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:

you know, you don't really know how

bad it is right until they really go

776

:

in and you know, there were tests to do

and, I would go sit on a bale of hay.

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and cry and scream.

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And it was something I

haven't done forever.

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So I mean, I think JJ, that's healing.

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Oh my God.

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:

Yeah.

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Yeah.

783

:

Okay.

784

:

So now I'm going way over time and I

know you have a, you have a cutoff soon.

785

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I have one other thing I want to ask

you about because I didn't address it.

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On this worksheet, but I thought it

was so interesting that I journaled

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:

all through this journey that I've

been through and I was writing about

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:

my childhood and I thought that my

core wound was going to be abandoned.

789

:

Because this is so weird, but it was

before I knew about anything, right?

790

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Before I knew how to get there.

791

:

My first two memories were when I

was about two years old, I was lost.

792

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And these, there was a graduation.

793

:

I remember it completely.

794

:

There was a graduation party for

my uncle Jimmy and these teenagers

795

:

took me to this other cabin.

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And then they just let me walk outside.

797

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And I stood outside and I

had no idea where I was.

798

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And I could see a lady mowing the lawn.

799

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I remember a group of people walking

down the road and my favorite aunt

800

:

came and found me and picked me up.

801

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And I remember my knee hurt

and it scratched on her wool.

802

:

So so I remember that.

803

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Right.

804

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And then my second memory is my mom

dropping me in water babies, like dropping

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:

into the pool and being like terrified.

806

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But that wasn't something that I don't

know why it didn't come up on this.

807

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I don't know if I don't have

big feelings about it anymore.

808

:

You know, again, it goes

to the interpretation.

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I had a client in the very first

beta group of the rewire and she.

810

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Didn't have a lot of memories about

her, her parents or her dad, especially

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:

cause he wasn't really around a lot.

812

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And what kept coming up for her

was what other people would say,

813

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Oh, your dad should be here.

814

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He's abandoning you.

815

:

And but she never felt like, like she

filled out the sheet from hearsay.

816

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It wasn't actually her own honest.

817

:

And what I said to her was, I don't

think your love language is quality time.

818

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And so she ended up doing

the worksheet again.

819

:

and it changed because.

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Yes, her dad wasn't around, but her

love language isn't quality time,

821

:

so it didn't matter, didn't hurt her

feelings for him not to be around, right?

822

:

So we can see something and say,

well, someone else might respond

823

:

to this in a really bad way,

but it didn't really bother me.

824

:

And that's okay.

825

:

There's nothing wrong with

you that didn't bother you.

826

:

You're interpreting it differently, right?

827

:

Yeah.

828

:

And maybe you trusted at

that moment, you'd be fine.

829

:

You were two.

830

:

You didn't have any reason not to trust.

831

:

Right.

832

:

Maybe now in retrospect,

you think that's horrible.

833

:

I'd never do that to my child.

834

:

cause you as a parent would feel

nervous for the child, but you as a

835

:

two year old self, who's connected

to source more than anybody is when

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they're older, was not at all afraid

because you were like, whatever,

837

:

I'm just observing and being around.

838

:

Oh, there's my aunt.

839

:

That's cool.

840

:

There's Alicia.

841

:

I think it was a little, I was a

little bit afraid because I was like.

842

:

Where am I?

843

:

I mean, it was a, a, you know, a time,

it was quite a time because everybody

844

:

from the party went out and searching.

845

:

but I, yeah, it's just interesting

that those are my memories, but

846

:

they don't, it wasn't something

that came out on the worksheet.

847

:

and the more that you, are with it

and kind of work with it more kind

848

:

of stuff like taking someone through,

I mean, six months, five months into

849

:

a six month program, people would go

after working with something, grow.

850

:

Oh, actually, I don't think

it's abandoned that my core,

851

:

like my strongest core wound.

852

:

I think it's like, when you look at how

we're judging it, how we're observing

853

:

it versus, as you start to sort of work

with it, which is the fun part because

854

:

it gives reason and it makes you feel

empowered to do something about it.

855

:

The end of the bottom line here

is that it's not just going

856

:

back and digging stuff up.

857

:

you're getting clarity on why you

react the way you act and then

858

:

you're being given tools to do

something about it and change it.

859

:

Yep.

860

:

And one other thing that I want to say

that I really liked about it, which

861

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I didn't expect, there's a section

where you talk about the good traits.

862

:

It's your parents.

863

:

gave me so much peace, till, and

I felt so good looking at that.

864

:

And so I was so grateful, for,

for what they did give me.

865

:

And so that was lovely.

866

:

And then the other thing, well, I'm

going to save that for my GiddyUp

867

:

segment that comes after this.

868

:

It's a, it's a, exercise that you

gave us to do in the evenings.

869

:

And I'm going to talk about that because

it was, It's been life changing for me.

870

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So you have been changing my life.

871

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And so I'm going to continue to work

through things and I want the audience

872

:

to know that we do have that affiliate

link and it's just JJ philzaines.

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:

com Backslash Lisa L E S a correct.

874

:

And that'll be in the show notes.

875

:

Anybody can purchase the anatomy of

emotion course So I'm happy to throw

876

:

that in for anybody who's listening.

877

:

you can get the course, there's a payment

plan or a pay in full plan, and it's

878

:

a do it at your own pace and you can,

repeat it as many times as you need to,

879

:

or want to, which I would definitely

recommend repeating it at least once

880

:

or twice over a couple of years.

881

:

a couple of year period if you're really

sort of working on yourself because you'll

882

:

get more comfortable, more things will

come up, more memories will come up,

883

:

more, deeper awareness, understanding.

884

:

So it's called the roadmap

to emotional healing and you

885

:

can get it, judges, lesans.

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com forward slash Lisa.

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:

Yay.

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Thanks so much for being here, for

coming back and for changing lives.

889

:

And it's fun.

890

:

I'm not, I mean, I'm not going to lie.

891

:

I feel like it's a gift.

892

:

It's fun.

893

:

I'm so thankful to have met

you and to have been here.

894

:

Been able to do this work and

I will continue to delve in.

895

:

So listeners, we'll keep talking about it.

896

:

So JJ, thank you.

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:

Thank you, Lisa.

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You take good care.

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