My friends would visit and bring me coffee, just seeing their faces and being with me brought me so much hope and life. My bestie visiting for a week and making me laugh was hope. Sitting outside in the sunshine and letting in soak in was hope. Watching others from afar have babies that lived…was hope. Watching the world move on, even when it seemed to do so without me… was hope. Watching the seasons change brought me hope… nothing stayed still, it was always moving. So would I… one day. There were days a dragonfly would land on me and not just for a second or two. But I mean minutes passed where these dragonflies would just stay with me and I knew it was Evelyn visiting me and checking in on her family.

Even when your at your worst and you feel that you could just die from the pain, you won’t. That pain is there because there is LOVE attached to it. If we didn’t love or care so much, would it hurt that much?

Even if you don’t believe in god, having hope and faith in something out there will get you through. Evenif that is having faith in yourself in making it through your bad days. Hope in your family, your dogs, your job, your friends, your hobby, your dreams. You just have to hold on to the glimmers.