In this episode I'm opening up about the brutal early days of my sobriety. It wasn’t the instant euphoria you might expect and was hoping for.

I began with Dry January, thinking it was just a month. New Year's Day marked my last intentional drink. The initial expectation of feeling phenomenal didn't match reality.

The first weeks were rough – exhaustion, body aches, and an overwhelming desire to nap. And I couldn’t manage day to day normal life.

Phrases like "don't question the decision" and "what would the new T do?" became my mantras. Sharing with my husband was tough; he initially didn't believe the extent of my struggle and wanted me to drink again.

I kept my journey private, fearing judgement and sharing with people I could never go back! The struggle persisted for months. Sleep was elusive, and relearning it without alcohol was a challenge.

My father's cancer diagnosis in April brought a startling revelation – my immediate thought was drinking at his funeral. It exposed the deep connection between emotional turmoil and the desire to escape through alcohol.

Throughout, therapy provided support, but the fight took a toll on my business earning less than I ever have. By October-November, a gradual shift occurred. The relentless fight waned, paving the way for self-love and pride.

Getting sober isn't a magical transformation; it's a gritty, relentless battle against ingrained habits. In the next episode, I'll share strategies for navigating the "firsts" – birthdays, trips, and dinners. 

Remember, you're not alone. Sending love your way. You've got this. 💙