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Rooted in Faith: Navigating Life's Complexities
Episode 5019th March 2024 • What's the Story? • CROWD Church
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In this deeply moving episode of our podcast, we sit down with Emma Fast for an intimate conversation about her life's journey, marked by multicultural experiences, profound loss, and an unwavering faith. Emma's story offers unique insights into the complexities of identity, belonging, and the healing power of faith through the most challenging times.

Key Takeaways:

  1. The vital role of faith in providing solace and direction through life's ups and downs.
  2. The enriching impact of a multicultural upbringing on one's identity and perspective.
  3. Understanding grief and loss through the lens of faith and community support.
  4. The significance of small acts of faith and kindness in making a profound difference.

Join us as we explore these themes with Emma, whose resilience and deep faith provide a compelling narrative of hope, understanding, and the power of belief in the face of life's complexities.

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Whether you're navigating your own journey of faith, identity, or loss, Emma's story resonates with universal truths about the human experience and the anchoring force of faith. Don't miss this insightful conversation that not only sheds light on the struggles many of us face but also celebrates the strength and beauty found in diversity and faith.

Remember to subscribe to our podcast for more inspiring stories like Emma's, and if Emma's story touched you, reach out to us with your thoughts and experiences. Let's continue the conversation.

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our very special guest for today.

Sadaf Beynon:

Hi, this is Sadaf Beynon, and I'm here with Emma Fast,

Sadaf Beynon:

who is a longtime friend of mine.

Sadaf Beynon:

We've known each other for years, since we were in grade

Sadaf Beynon:

school, so I'm gonna Over 30.

Sadaf Beynon:

Is that right?

Sadaf Beynon:

That's scary, that's really scary, yes, of course that's right yeah, so Emma's

Sadaf Beynon:

here and I'm really excited for you guys to hear her story and to get to know her.

Sadaf Beynon:

So Emma, tell us about your growing up and tell us about how you became a Christian.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Thanks for having me Sadaf.

Emma Fast:

It's really my ulterior motive here was so I could have a nice chat with you, really.

Emma Fast:

So it's really nice to see you.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, so Sadaf, I grew up in Pakistan.

Emma Fast:

I'm not originally from Pakistan, as you can maybe tell.

Emma Fast:

So my mom is Finnish.

Emma Fast:

My father is from the UK, so he hails from Bristol, the West country.

Emma Fast:

And in 1986, they decided to move to Pakistan and work in Northwest

Emma Fast:

Pakistan, what used to be the NWFP, but is now Khyber Pakhtunkhwa.

Emma Fast:

And they worked in medical work with a Christian Finnish Christian organization.

Emma Fast:

And the way things were done in those days, in the late 80s kids

Emma Fast:

were sent off to the boarding school.

Emma Fast:

That was in the foothills of the Himalayas and there were

Emma Fast:

what, about maybe 150 of us?

Sadaf Beynon:

I want to say 150, yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, from kindergarten to grade 12, from lots of nationalities.

Emma Fast:

So in our graduating class, I think there were people from, there were 18

Emma Fast:

people from 14 different nationalities.

Emma Fast:

Now of course, some of us work on a half, quite a few of those.

Emma Fast:

So then you get to two nationalities for one.

Emma Fast:

But yeah, so that's where I grew up in that boarding school.

Emma Fast:

So from the age of six sadaf was in the year above me, so we went through

Emma Fast:

boarding together, so we went Some of the information that I hold on

Emma Fast:

Sadaf, I will not be airing publicly.

Sadaf Beynon:

Thank you.

Emma Fast:

Because it goes both ways.

Emma Fast:

So it was a very kind of weird childhood in many ways, quite

Emma Fast:

unusual, such a mix in a melting pot.

Emma Fast:

Not everything about it was beautiful or lovely.

Emma Fast:

I know some people had a real struggle with being in boarding.

Emma Fast:

I overall had quite a positive experience.

Emma Fast:

Lots of time to just play with friends.

Emma Fast:

Quite a tight knit group.

Emma Fast:

I'm still friends with a lot of people from those days.

Emma Fast:

Some of them are still my closest friends.

Emma Fast:

Also really benefited from a lot of really amazing people.

Emma Fast:

I sometimes feel growing up on the mission field, as we say, you see the good and

Emma Fast:

the bad and the ugly of Christianity.

Emma Fast:

It's like that whole thing that C.

Emma Fast:

S.

Emma Fast:

Lewis says about some of the best adverts for Christianity being its adherents and

Emma Fast:

some of the worst adverts sometimes too.

Emma Fast:

We're human, right?

Emma Fast:

Everyone is and people have anyway, different issues they bring to the table.

Emma Fast:

So I feel like I had the privilege of meeting some really amazing people.

Emma Fast:

Who really spoken to my life, and that's my story of faith is that, I can name

Emma Fast:

one moment when I prayed, Jesus, please come into my heart.

Emma Fast:

But as I've grown older, I've started thinking maybe that one moment isn't quite

Emma Fast:

as significant as I always thought it was.

Emma Fast:

It was much more of a process, just lots of people speaking into my life,

Emma Fast:

modeling their faith teaching me, I feel like I got really good education

Emma Fast:

in the Bible, what it teaches.

Emma Fast:

And how people have lived out their faith from a variety of different

Emma Fast:

cultures, lots of different denominations, a quirky childhood, but

Sadaf Beynon:

yeah, no, you're absolutely right.

Sadaf Beynon:

It was a very enriching experience for me too, but, and I understand not

Sadaf Beynon:

everyone felt that way, but yeah, I'm thankful for that blessing for sure.

Sadaf Beynon:

Emma, tell me how did you're growing up in this, your parents

Sadaf Beynon:

are from two separate countries.

Sadaf Beynon:

You're now in a third country rubbing shoulders with kids

Sadaf Beynon:

from all over the world.

Sadaf Beynon:

How did this impact or shape your identity and your sense of belonging?

Emma Fast:

Very good question.

Emma Fast:

So I feel really privileged not only to have grown up in that kind

Emma Fast:

of that what we call the TCK, third culture kid kind of environment, but

Emma Fast:

also the Pakistan side of things.

Emma Fast:

I sometimes felt like I had a few different lives.

Emma Fast:

You can relate to that, I know.

Emma Fast:

So then I had my Pakistani friends also where my parents lived and then I spoke

Emma Fast:

in Urdu and had, much more contact with a variety of Pakistani cultures.

Emma Fast:

And how enriching was that?

Emma Fast:

I've just feel so privileged to have had that opportunity to see such a part of

Emma Fast:

the world that my parents weren't from.

Emma Fast:

I sometimes feel like these

Emma Fast:

extremes, finish, very liberal and the cradle of nudity and sauna.

Emma Fast:

And just, quiet, lots of trees and peace and quiet.

Emma Fast:

And then to Pakistan very conservative.

Emma Fast:

Very busy, very loud.

Emma Fast:

But yeah I just, I consider a lot of my Pakistani friends,

Emma Fast:

still some of my best friends.

Emma Fast:

I'm very thankful to have had that experience.

Emma Fast:

In terms of kind of identity and belonging, well.

Emma Fast:

I once did a training because I was going to teach in Kabul one year and

Emma Fast:

I was working with TCKs and they gave us like this checklist, like these are

Emma Fast:

the typical features of what a third culture kid is like and I looked down

Emma Fast:

that list, I was like, yeah tick.

Emma Fast:

I fit the profile, basically read that and then you know who I am.

Emma Fast:

It's annoying to fit into a box so neatly, but yeah, I

Emma Fast:

think a couple things about it.

Emma Fast:

One, I think I adapt quite a lot to who I'm talking to.

Emma Fast:

Sometimes I feel like a bit of a chameleon that has maybe

Emma Fast:

strengths, maybe weaknesses.

Emma Fast:

It can be stressful sometimes, like feeling like I'm the translator, did

Emma Fast:

a master's in Finland some years ago and it was an international master's.

Emma Fast:

And so I had people from lots of different countries again, and I

Emma Fast:

had this Aussie coursemate and I had this Ghanaian coursemate, both

Emma Fast:

English is their first language, but the Aussie guy would always like use

Emma Fast:

loads of idioms like, Oh, the traffic was completely chocka this morning.

Emma Fast:

And yeah.

Emma Fast:

I could just see that my Ghanaian friend had no idea what he's talking about.

Emma Fast:

And I, I always feel like I've got to translate.

Emma Fast:

I've got to help them to understand.

Emma Fast:

Anyway, stuff like that.

Emma Fast:

I think I also always see that almost every issue has two sides.

Emma Fast:

There's this way of looking at it and there's this way of looking at it.

Emma Fast:

Oh, and there's this way of looking at it too.

Emma Fast:

And so I probably sometimes dither a bit and don't have one strong view.

Emma Fast:

I can always see multiple sides of looking at the same thing.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Then I think a sense of restlessness also, I always want to move.

Emma Fast:

If I can't move country, then I want to move house or I want to move job.

Emma Fast:

If I can't do any of that, then I want to move the furniture.

Emma Fast:

That's the only way

Sadaf Beynon:

it reminds me actually, every time I do that,

Sadaf Beynon:

cause I'm exactly the same.

Sadaf Beynon:

I just end up moving things around in the house.

Sadaf Beynon:

It reminds me of all the times in boarding school when we used to rejig

Sadaf Beynon:

our bedrooms and make bunk beds back into low beds and then do triple

Sadaf Beynon:

beds and then move things around.

Emma Fast:

Oh my word.

Emma Fast:

Do you know that, I learned something from boarding school.

Emma Fast:

Remember Aunt Hills?

Emma Fast:

Where you had the high bed, then the middle size bed.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Then the normal bed.

Emma Fast:

And then the single bed.

Emma Fast:

Yes.

Emma Fast:

And you can put them.

Emma Fast:

So now, because I have four children, we live in a very small house in London.

Emma Fast:

They have an Aunt Hill in their bedroom.

Sadaf Beynon:

Oh, no way.

Sadaf Beynon:

I didn't know that's what we called it.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, that's cool.

Sadaf Beynon:

Life.

Sadaf Beynon:

Life lessons that have come handy.

Sadaf Beynon:

Life lessons.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Okay.

Sadaf Beynon:

I wanna move on to your kids as well, but before I get there,

Sadaf Beynon:

I wanna ask you, how has your.

Sadaf Beynon:

How does faith help you navigate the complexities of, living in different

Sadaf Beynon:

cultures and your identity in that?

Emma Fast:

Yeah, great question.

Emma Fast:

It's a hard question to answer.

Emma Fast:

There's so many different ways of looking at it.

Emma Fast:

But one very tangible example is I suppose, I've always had

Emma Fast:

a sense that God is with me and God sees what I'm going through.

Emma Fast:

So I've had many times when I felt quite misunderstood.

Emma Fast:

Maybe none more so than when I first moved from Pakistan.

Emma Fast:

So I was 17 when I graduated from our high school there in Murree and

Emma Fast:

came to the UK and I came by myself.

Emma Fast:

Was really quite alone.

Emma Fast:

And there was also quite a lot of stuff happening in my family.

Emma Fast:

So it was quite a troubled and turbulent time in many ways.

Emma Fast:

But I was incredibly isolated.

Emma Fast:

I'm here living with this bunch of white British girls who I, some of them are

Emma Fast:

still my friends now great friends.

Emma Fast:

But I really felt like an alien from Mars.

Emma Fast:

And, everyone's talking about what they watched on TV as kids,

Emma Fast:

and everyone's got this sense of humor that I just don't like.

Emma Fast:

It takes a while to adapt to a new culture's way of laughing at things.

Emma Fast:

And now these days, I feel quite British and I have to watch myself like, try not

Emma Fast:

to be exclusive in your humor, right?

Emma Fast:

Bear in mind that not everyone finds the same things funny, but I've always had a

Emma Fast:

strong sense that whatever is going on, however isolated I feel, God is there.

Emma Fast:

He knows.

Emma Fast:

I've been privileged to talk to the creator of the universe,

Emma Fast:

try and seek his perspective.

Emma Fast:

I might not always have the answer.

Emma Fast:

It's often a big process to figure out.

Emma Fast:

I don't know why something happened.

Emma Fast:

Maybe I don't know, we'll never get some answers, but just, I know

Emma Fast:

he's there and I can talk to him.

Emma Fast:

Amazing.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, absolutely.

Emma Fast:

And that's ultimately my identity is that, that I am his.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

And also belong to a community that's helped a lot over the years.

Emma Fast:

So that wasn't easy at the beginning.

Emma Fast:

It took a long time.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, I can imagine.

Sadaf Beynon:

I know also from experience of moving from country to country and cultures,

Sadaf Beynon:

you you become a foreigner, don't you?

Sadaf Beynon:

And in every sense of the word, you move to a new country and you're a

Sadaf Beynon:

foreigner and you become, as you say, you're feeling quite British now, but

Sadaf Beynon:

then you feel too much of a foreigner to go back to where you came from.

Sadaf Beynon:

So you're just in this middle ground that doesn't really resonate with anybody.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, it's not an easy, it's not an easy place to be, but I really liked what you

Sadaf Beynon:

said there, that having the Lord in it with you, who sees you through it all and

Sadaf Beynon:

understands you it's it's such a blessing, and I think it's what pulls you closer

Sadaf Beynon:

to Him, isn't it having that space, yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

And to a degree, as a Christian, we are told we are foreigners and exiles.

Emma Fast:

We are sojourners in the world.

Emma Fast:

And I think having a little bit of that restlessness is not a bad thing because,

Emma Fast:

we, the world is not the way it's meant to be and we are on a journey and, one day

Emma Fast:

the world will be the way it is and we are meant to long for that new day and, yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

No, I totally agree.

Sadaf Beynon:

So Emma, you're here now in the UK, as you said what does life look like?

Emma Fast:

So it wasn't that I came from Pakistan and then just stayed in the UK.

Emma Fast:

I've had a few other meanderings.

Emma Fast:

I alluded to working in Afghanistan for a year and then I was in Finland

Emma Fast:

doing my master's for a while.

Emma Fast:

And then I married this Canadian guy and who was living in Canada for a while.

Emma Fast:

Yes.

Emma Fast:

It's also a fellow, yes, see I fit that TCK just, I'm a living stereotype.

Emma Fast:

What was the question, what does life look like now, yeah.

Emma Fast:

So we find ourselves living in Sutton which is really like the most

Emma Fast:

average place in the UK to live, like we have average levels of ethnic

Emma Fast:

minority versus white British people, average demographics in every way.

Emma Fast:

I don't know why we're in Sutton in some way.

Emma Fast:

It's probably not the place on earth I would have chosen.

Emma Fast:

But at the same time, we've been here now almost 12 years.

Emma Fast:

So I was pregnant with our first when we moved here.

Emma Fast:

And now I have this wonderful community here.

Emma Fast:

I can't go outside without bumping into somebody that I know.

Emma Fast:

And I really like that.

Emma Fast:

I work locally in a secondary school.

Emma Fast:

Our kids go to school here locally.

Emma Fast:

We're involved in a local church who've been a really wonderful community for us.

Emma Fast:

And so life looks like, yeah, dropping kids to school, picking

Emma Fast:

kids up from school, going to work, teaching secondary school kids.

Emma Fast:

Now my kids are starting to get into that age, so I'm going to just

Emma Fast:

have a lot of teenagers in my life.

Emma Fast:

Jordan, my husband works as an engineer in international development.

Emma Fast:

So he travels sometimes, just quite a normal life.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

I, it probably from the outside looking in, it probably looks

Sadaf Beynon:

quite normal, but what's it like raising now multicultural kids?

Sadaf Beynon:

Cause they're repeating that pattern, aren't they?

Emma Fast:

Interesting.

Emma Fast:

Interesting.

Emma Fast:

Thanks.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, on one hand, they, the kids have three nationalities.

Emma Fast:

They can have three passports.

Emma Fast:

On the other hand, they're growing up in Sutton and that sometimes is scary to me.

Emma Fast:

I think, oh quick, we've got to I don't know, move to Nairobi or

Emma Fast:

something so they can experience.

Emma Fast:

Some life experience, yeah.

Emma Fast:

It's been a journey for 12 years.

Emma Fast:

So I don't know if I've said yet, but yeah, we have four children.

Emma Fast:

Our third pregnancy I have to be a bit careful how I say this, but it

Emma Fast:

included a few surprising elements one being that when I went for my scan, I

Emma Fast:

I thought maybe I was about 10 weeks pregnant, however it turned out I was

Emma Fast:

about 18 weeks pregnant and it turned out there were two heartbeats and so

Emma Fast:

I was halfway through a pregnancy with twins before I kind of Twigged, really.

Emma Fast:

So that wasn't a good lesson in human biology for me.

Emma Fast:

And I'm the model for all my friends of, yeah, be careful.

Emma Fast:

But of course, now we have them, we're not going to send them back.

Emma Fast:

So we had a one child, then three year gap, second child, and then

Emma Fast:

20 months gap, and then twins.

Emma Fast:

So I had three under the age of two, so that means three in nappies.

Emma Fast:

It means I have perfected some wicked juggling skills, like answering the

Emma Fast:

door while breastfeeding to while using the other leg to stop a toddler

Emma Fast:

from escaping, things like that.

Emma Fast:

Lots of memories of things like that.

Emma Fast:

Sorry, I can't remember what the question was.

Emma Fast:

Am I going into what I've learned about that?

Emma Fast:

Sorry.

Sadaf Beynon:

No, that's fine.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Tell us what you've learned.

Emma Fast:

Let's be honest.

Emma Fast:

A lot of parenting is drudgery.

Emma Fast:

It is, it's just hard work and it's not glorious.

Emma Fast:

So shout out to everyone who's in those years.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

They're coming out of that a little bit now.

Emma Fast:

Life is, it's still hard and busy.

Emma Fast:

Having three, the same kind of age just means that we're loud.

Emma Fast:

Wherever we go, we're loud.

Emma Fast:

We have lots of fights.

Emma Fast:

I spend a lot of time refereeing.

Emma Fast:

Identical twin girls and their fights are something to behold.

Emma Fast:

So even this morning, okay, you think you've reached the limit of how many

Emma Fast:

things that humans can fight about but this morning, so my eldest two

Emma Fast:

have read the Harry Potter series.

Emma Fast:

We're quite big readers in my family, which makes me happy as an English

Emma Fast:

teacher but the twins are now reading the second Harry Potter book, and they're

Emma Fast:

fighting about who's ahead of the other.

Emma Fast:

This was this morning's conversation, like how do you sort that

Sadaf Beynon:

out?

Sadaf Beynon:

One of them wants to take the book to school, but then the other one gets angry

Sadaf Beynon:

because then she'll be like a chapter ahead of her later when we get home.

Sadaf Beynon:

One of them wants to do it on audio book, one of them wants dad to read to them, one

Sadaf Beynon:

of them wants to read it by themselves.

Sadaf Beynon:

How do you navigate that?

Sadaf Beynon:

And then how do you try and bring it to let's look at our hearts here,

Sadaf Beynon:

how do we learn life skills about listening and expressing what you want?

Sadaf Beynon:

And you're allowed to have opinions and feelings, but we have to do

Sadaf Beynon:

that respectfully and yeah, that's just, that's before 7am, right?

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, so I guess I've learned, I've made so many mistakes and I'm

Sadaf Beynon:

very much learning about parenting.

Sadaf Beynon:

I, it's hard.

Sadaf Beynon:

It's wonderful.

Sadaf Beynon:

I've got four healthy children.

Sadaf Beynon:

Those are an absolute gift of God and they make me laugh and smile

Sadaf Beynon:

and keep me busy and never bored.

Sadaf Beynon:

But my goodness, do I see how much I like control?

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Comfort.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Okay.

Sadaf Beynon:

Let me go back a bit to your family unit growing up and your elder

Sadaf Beynon:

brother Mikael was in my class when we were in school together.

Sadaf Beynon:

Why don't you tell our listeners a bit about him?

Emma Fast:

Yes.

Emma Fast:

So as you well know, my brother was a brilliant person, possibly a genius.

Emma Fast:

I always feel like the black sheep of the family intellectually.

Emma Fast:

So there's three of us.

Emma Fast:

So it was me and my brother quite close in age, 18 months apart.

Emma Fast:

He's my big brother.

Emma Fast:

And then eight years later, my sister, like eight years

Emma Fast:

after me, my sister was born.

Emma Fast:

And she's wonderful.

Emma Fast:

and also very intelligent.

Emma Fast:

She's gone into being a doctor.

Emma Fast:

And my brother was always a big reader, big thinker.

Emma Fast:

What do you say you grow up with someone like that 18 months apart.

Emma Fast:

We were, sometimes it was like we were the same person, like all my memories of

Emma Fast:

childhood, obviously, are include him, and

Emma Fast:

he started he had some troubles over the years, starting

Emma Fast:

from his teenage years struggled with quite a few different things.

Emma Fast:

But he started having struggles with addictions in his

Emma Fast:

sort of late teenage years.

Emma Fast:

And he had that struggle for over 20 years.

Emma Fast:

And he died actually the anniversary of his death was on the two

Emma Fast:

years this Sunday just gone.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, it's very much, on my mind, very, still quite recent.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

So he died following a long struggle with addictions of various types of

Emma Fast:

different substances, which has had a huge impact on me and our whole family.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

So what, if you're happy to talk about this, how did it impact you?

Sadaf Beynon:

Because you said you're quite close in age, you almost felt like you

Sadaf Beynon:

were the same person oftentimes.

Sadaf Beynon:

How did this impact you?

Emma Fast:

It was just a big sorrow in my life.

Emma Fast:

I just felt like I carried around worry.

Emma Fast:

In the middle of the night, I'd wake up one o'clock, two o'clock, three o'clock,

Emma Fast:

and I just automatically pray for my God.

Emma Fast:

It's weird not to have that anymore.

Emma Fast:

He traveled a lot.

Emma Fast:

So there were times that we weren't massively in touch, but I'm so thankful

Emma Fast:

that we stayed in touch and had in many ways, quite a close relationship

Emma Fast:

all through those years of course.

Emma Fast:

It impacted so many things.

Emma Fast:

It meant that visits were often quite chaotic.

Emma Fast:

It usually took me a few days to in some ways, recover from seeing him because

Emma Fast:

as much fun as we had together, and I tried very much to to keep it fun,

Emma Fast:

and he tried really hard to keep it, that it wasn't always really heavy,

Emma Fast:

that we were just having fun together, that kind of, we're two human beings

Emma Fast:

and that's not hard to do that with your brother obviously, I was still

Emma Fast:

fighting when we played Scrabble, about who would win, and, we'd still send the

Emma Fast:

board flying late into our 20s and 30s,

Emma Fast:

We, had a lot of fun together, but there was a very hard element to all the

Emma Fast:

visits, because there was just a huge worry for him, there was a huge sorrow.

Emma Fast:

It meant there was lots of sides of his life that I know

Emma Fast:

I didn't know about fully.

Emma Fast:

He probably tried to protect us quite a lot.

Emma Fast:

One way I cook was often by reading a lot and, I like to know about a topic.

Emma Fast:

I think quite a few of us in our family probably did the same, like

Emma Fast:

a lot of research into heroin.

Emma Fast:

And to understand him.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

And best approaches to support someone with those issues and but at the

Emma Fast:

same time, there's a huge sense of powerlessness, helplessness, sometimes

Emma Fast:

guilt, am I doing the right thing?

Emma Fast:

Am I am I in any way enabling that behaviour?

Emma Fast:

Am I doing everything I can to let him know that if he wants to

Emma Fast:

get help, that I'm there for him?

Emma Fast:

It was, it's a constant churning and turmoil around that, of course.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

And then, even then when I had kids, just a sadness that he wasn't in their

Emma Fast:

life as much as he would have been if he hadn't had some of those struggles.

Emma Fast:

He, it was hard for him to really be present with them.

Emma Fast:

So I really cherish the memories and some of the videos I have of him

Emma Fast:

with my kids when they were young.

Emma Fast:

But like my youngest, they never really knew him.

Emma Fast:

And that's really sad for me.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Um, his struggles with his addictions grew from

Sadaf Beynon:

when he was in his late teens.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

And it never really left him.

Sadaf Beynon:

It didn't, was it always just something that just got worse and worse over time?

Emma Fast:

Ultimately, yes, there were breaks, and he tried

Emma Fast:

various different treatments.

Emma Fast:

A few times I was involved in helping him with some of those but he never really

Emma Fast:

was able to in the long term to overcome, if he stopped one addiction and sometimes

Emma Fast:

something else would take its place.

Emma Fast:

So it was pretty chronic.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

No, it's, it is.

Sadaf Beynon:

It's very sad.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I'm so sorry for your loss.

Sadaf Beynon:

And he was brilliant.

Sadaf Beynon:

He was absolutely brilliant.

Sadaf Beynon:

Such he made us laugh so much in class.

Sadaf Beynon:

I remember that.

Sadaf Beynon:

Oh my word.

Sadaf Beynon:

Such a naughty sense of humor.

Sadaf Beynon:

But I have to say too, yeah, that's true.

Sadaf Beynon:

But I have to say as well that as, when he left school and we went different

Sadaf Beynon:

ways, different directions, I lost touch with him for quite a while.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I know talking to you I got a better sense of what that time was like for him.

Sadaf Beynon:

But tell our listeners about his brilliance.

Emma Fast:

He could have done anything.

Emma Fast:

We always said, in terms of career, he chose to go into journalism,

Emma Fast:

and he was an amazing writer.

Emma Fast:

Honestly, some of the funniest things that he ever wrote were

Emma Fast:

about procrastinating about writing.

Emma Fast:

I'm a procrastinator myself.

Emma Fast:

It just, There's nothing funnier than like someone writing a

Emma Fast:

page about procrastinating.

Emma Fast:

I don't know, just, yeah, he made me laugh.

Emma Fast:

His humor was often quite dark.

Emma Fast:

He'd even make jokes about some of his addictions and things.

Emma Fast:

And, you feel like I really shouldn't be laughing about this,

Emma Fast:

but he could always make us laugh.

Emma Fast:

He did some really cool things.

Emma Fast:

He did some really interesting research into some kind of groups I don't know

Emma Fast:

how much to go into this really, but just some he was interested in the part of

Emma Fast:

the world that we grew up in, let's say.

Emma Fast:

And he researched some sort of political groups and did some

Emma Fast:

really amazing work on that.

Emma Fast:

He wrote court reports for asylum seekers.

Emma Fast:

And so say there was an asylum seeker from say Balochistan in Pakistan, where

Emma Fast:

there's so much awful stuff happening.

Emma Fast:

He wrote a kind of a situation report, which then aided their asylum claims.

Emma Fast:

So I just have this sense that, maybe there's people in the UK now.

Emma Fast:

We're Granted Asylum, partly because of him having written those.

Sadaf Beynon:

They've benefited from his work.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

And he was a lovely person.

Emma Fast:

That's what everyone said about him, even when we visited India, which is

Emma Fast:

where he died talking to his landlords, his friends, his drinking buddies.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

He was helping, always helping people, had a strong sense of

Emma Fast:

justice, right and wrong, kind person.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Charming as anything, could talk his way through any kind of situation.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, he was a good guy.

Sadaf Beynon:

So tell me then, how does his loss, your grief, how does that

Sadaf Beynon:

how does that affect your faith?

Emma Fast:

Yeah, I have spent some time thinking about that.

Emma Fast:

My faith, I wouldn't say it insulates me in any way from the sadness of it.

Emma Fast:

I don't hover above because of some kind of Zen state that I

Emma Fast:

can achieve because of faith.

Emma Fast:

That's not what faith is about, right?

Emma Fast:

It's not, my faith isn't actually about me.

Emma Fast:

My faith is about what my faith is in, right?

Emma Fast:

It's about the fact that I have something quite firm that I hold on to and I believe

Emma Fast:

holds on to me.

Emma Fast:

Think maybe it's less about how my faith impacts my grief, but more about how my

Emma Fast:

grief also impacts my faith too, right?

Emma Fast:

So, when my brother died we saw, we had to go and identify his body at the

Emma Fast:

morgue, one of the worst days of my life.

Emma Fast:

And this was in India, you said?

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

I traveled with my mum and my sister after he died.

Emma Fast:

And, just the kind of deathness of death, the finality of death, it, obviously

Emma Fast:

it had never struck me in the same way as in that moment when I saw his body

Emma Fast:

and then as I went into Easter, and now again, we're now coming up to the

Emma Fast:

third Easter after that, I just think somehow the reality of what Jesus went

Emma Fast:

through, the fact that the God of the universe, that's what we believe, right?

Emma Fast:

That he came, he incarnated came and took on a body and then that body was killed.

Emma Fast:

And that's absolutely central to our faith, isn't it?

Emma Fast:

That's what he did for us.

Emma Fast:

And in dying, he took on all the sin and the sorrow and

Emma Fast:

the brokenness of the world.

Emma Fast:

That's really hit home for me in a very different way.

Emma Fast:

And even, though I still have so many questions about.

Emma Fast:

Why did my brother have to go through the things that he did?

Emma Fast:

I believe that Jesus having taken all that on himself is huge.

Emma Fast:

And the fact that we have a God who in the Bible, he's not the God who

Emma Fast:

created the planet and then stayed distant, but he's a God who came close.

Emma Fast:

And, so many verses have spoken to me, even though I walk through the

Emma Fast:

valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me.

Emma Fast:

That Jesus came and walked through that valley and took on that valley

Emma Fast:

and took on all that darkness and that brokenness for us.

Emma Fast:

There's something very powerful in that.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

That I hold on to.

Emma Fast:

And then of course there's the hope side of it.

Emma Fast:

The third day after good Friday.

Emma Fast:

Is that he broke the power of sin and darkness and death.

Emma Fast:

And He is making things new and will one day make things all things new and then

Emma Fast:

things will somehow make sense, yeah.

Emma Fast:

I just taught job actually this I teach at Sunday School.

Emma Fast:

Okay.

Emma Fast:

And we did a series on job for our kids age.

Emma Fast:

Six to 11.

Emma Fast:

So you really gotta think what do I believe I'm teaching these kids . Yeah.

Emma Fast:

And there's a job isn't necessarily the easiest book to teach.

Emma Fast:

To that age.

Emma Fast:

But I was just so encouraged again that the Bible is such a realistic book.

Emma Fast:

Like you look at Job and in some ways the book of Job doesn't

Emma Fast:

give a final answer to suffering.

Emma Fast:

That in some ways we don't have a final answer to how.

Emma Fast:

What's it for, and it would be wrong to give a really simple try

Emma Fast:

answer, wouldn't it, to what happens.

Emma Fast:

But to some degree, we're humans and we don't know anything.

Emma Fast:

But the fact that God spoke to Job at the end of the book, through the storm,

Emma Fast:

this absolute majesty that he would speak to job because Job mattered,

Emma Fast:

and just said, where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Do you understand everything?

Emma Fast:

And yet, he was good to Job and cared about him.

Emma Fast:

And yeah, I believe God is there.

Sadaf Beynon:

You're so right.

Sadaf Beynon:

He is, isn't he?

Sadaf Beynon:

And the hope that we profess, it's just it's just incredible.

Sadaf Beynon:

I know that your journey hasn't been an easy one and you've shared some of

Sadaf Beynon:

the things on here today, but I know there's been a lot of turbulence and it

Sadaf Beynon:

hasn't been smooth sailing at all, but I love that, that you're able to hold on.

Sadaf Beynon:

to that hope that you profess and you know that God is there and you're,

Sadaf Beynon:

you have faith in him if you could go back, back to our childhood days,

Sadaf Beynon:

even, and having gone through all this, I'm sorry, I should have said having

Sadaf Beynon:

gone through all of this and you can go back, what would you tell yourself?

Sadaf Beynon:

How would you approach life?

Sadaf Beynon:

Would it be any different from how you've already done it?

Sadaf Beynon:

Or would you approach it differently?

Emma Fast:

That is just a fantastic question.

Emma Fast:

Um, I suppose the thing I would say to myself is just be

Emma Fast:

still and know that I'm God.

Emma Fast:

Relax.

Emma Fast:

I'm here.

Emma Fast:

I do a lot of trying to figure it out and trying to control everything.

Emma Fast:

So that's probably still a still something I need to tell my 43 year old self, daily.

Emma Fast:

I'm sure I would have done some things differently.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, I I.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, but maybe you have to go through those things.

Emma Fast:

No, but yeah, be still.

Emma Fast:

I'm here.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

I think I'm a bit like that too, the whole like trying to

Sadaf Beynon:

control things and then just let it go, be patient and let God do his thing.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Absolutely.

Sadaf Beynon:

Emma, is there anything that you would, else you would like

Sadaf Beynon:

to add to, maybe I haven't asked the question, but you think would be good

Sadaf Beynon:

for our listeners to, to know or to hear?

Emma Fast:

Just a little shout out to my wonderful husband, long suffering.

Emma Fast:

When we got together I realized this afterwards, we only had

Emma Fast:

three things in common, really.

Emma Fast:

One was our childhood.

Emma Fast:

So like I say, we feel like we come from the same culture, even though

Emma Fast:

he's obviously he's from Canada.

Emma Fast:

But we have quite a similar childhood experience because of living in Pakistan.

Emma Fast:

And that's pretty big, actually, it just means there's a lot of

Emma Fast:

things you don't have to explain.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Then we also had Eric clapton in common.

Emma Fast:

So we had These are separate music collections and the only CD we

Emma Fast:

had in common was Eric Clapton and now I'm really annoyed because

Emma Fast:

of Eric Clapton's politics.

Emma Fast:

I can't go to a concert with Eric Clapton because I feel, so it feels

Emma Fast:

like that's been a bit marred actually.

Emma Fast:

But Jordan's a big musician and honestly he wondered whether he could

Emma Fast:

marry me because I don't like jazz.

Emma Fast:

It was a really big deal for him, but he's somehow still holding on 15 years

Emma Fast:

later, but the other really big thing that we have in common is our faith.

Emma Fast:

And I just think that has held us through thick and thin, that we're both

Emma Fast:

absolutely committed to each other.

Emma Fast:

And I think that a lot of that comes from our kind of faith that

Emma Fast:

there's an unconditional commitment.

Emma Fast:

I say that unconditional.

Emma Fast:

Of course, there are cases where we're not talking about cases of abuse, etc.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

We're not giving up on each other, however hard things get.

Emma Fast:

And we have had some really hard times, through my brother's death,

Emma Fast:

but also I had long COVID, I've had, various illnesses and it's been hard.

Emma Fast:

And also parenting and marriage together at the same time, you think, could I

Emma Fast:

just get marriage sorted out first?

Emma Fast:

And then it's so much easier to parent, but it happens all at the same time.

Emma Fast:

And it's just so much to try and figure out.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

But I'm just, yeah, I'm very grateful to God.

Emma Fast:

Someone said about Jordan once, a friend of ours from church, if you

Emma Fast:

cut him open, you just find gold.

Emma Fast:

And I thought, that's just him.

Emma Fast:

Both in terms of the fact that he's just so solid and kind, but

Emma Fast:

also he's strong, because, I'm.

Emma Fast:

I'm much more the extrovert and I don't know if you know the Enneagram, I'm very

Emma Fast:

much an enneagram type 2 and Jordan's a type 5, like there's a lot of tension that

Emma Fast:

comes from that, we're quite different.

Emma Fast:

And I worry, I worry that I'm the dominant one or whatever, but he's strong.

Emma Fast:

And that's been really good for me.

Emma Fast:

So I'll finish with a little romantic note there.

Sadaf Beynon:

No, thanks for sharing that.

Sadaf Beynon:

And Jordan is all that for sure.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Emma, tell us, what's your one message?

Emma Fast:

I think something I've been learning recently is

Emma Fast:

that little things are okay.

Emma Fast:

And what I mean by that is I think sometimes as Christians and people who've

Emma Fast:

grown up with a lot of very amazing Christian people around us, you, we know

Emma Fast:

we're not saved by our works, right?

Emma Fast:

It's a gift of God.

Emma Fast:

It's grace.

Emma Fast:

We don't save ourselves.

Emma Fast:

But we can put this other pressure on ourselves that you have to live

Emma Fast:

like a really radical life and do something really big and amazing.

Emma Fast:

And I think that does put quite a lot of pressure on.

Emma Fast:

And of course, it's true, right?

Emma Fast:

We want our lives to make a difference and to use the gifts that God has given

Emma Fast:

us to bless the world and to do good.

Emma Fast:

But I think I have been learning that little things are also okay.

Emma Fast:

Like just kindness to someone else.

Emma Fast:

It's at the school gate that not many other people talk to, and I don't

Emma Fast:

have to sort that person's whole life

Emma Fast:

out, in fact I can't.

Emma Fast:

Just being a friend, that is actually a little thing, but it's so important,

Emma Fast:

And I can be quite, as we talked about with this whole sense of restlessness.

Emma Fast:

Oh, I need to move somewhere.

Emma Fast:

Maybe I need to be living in Pakistan, maybe I need to be

Emma Fast:

doing more things than I'm doing.

Emma Fast:

Actually

Sadaf Beynon:

God has put me where I am and he's given me these

Sadaf Beynon:

four kids that I really need to.

Sadaf Beynon:

Focus on what he's put in front of me and like even

Emma Fast:

sometimes I think very often about changing career.

Emma Fast:

There's my 21st year since I qualified as a teacher.

Emma Fast:

I haven't been doing it linearly.

Emma Fast:

I've done lots of different things in between, but sometimes I start

Emma Fast:

thinking, oh, 20 more years of teaching, I can retire is that

Emma Fast:

really what I'm going to do?

Emma Fast:

I don't know.

Emma Fast:

Who knows?

Emma Fast:

It might not be.

Emma Fast:

But.

Emma Fast:

The way that I teach my students.

Emma Fast:

They come into my classroom and there's 25 to 30 kids in there.

Emma Fast:

I know

Emma Fast:

sometimes very little about their lives.

Emma Fast:

Sometimes you hear and you hear the challenges that kids are facing.

Emma Fast:

And I just think, oh, I can be there and I can do as good a job

Emma Fast:

for this one hour that they're in

Emma Fast:

my life as I can.

Emma Fast:

I can pray, I can try to build them up.

Emma Fast:

I can teach them because education is a blessing.

Emma Fast:

And I just feel let me do those

Emma Fast:

little things.

Emma Fast:

That God has given me.

Emma Fast:

So I don't know, just relaxed.

Emma Fast:

Am I?

Emma Fast:

It's okay.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, I know.

Sadaf Beynon:

I get what you're saying.

Sadaf Beynon:

That's it's so true.

Sadaf Beynon:

Like being present.

Sadaf Beynon:

In the space that God has placed us in.

Sadaf Beynon:

It's not always easy to do, but it's so important because

Sadaf Beynon:

he's got us there for a reason.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I think you're right.

Sadaf Beynon:

Like we often think of what can we do that's out there and that's big and that's

Sadaf Beynon:

gonna, make a huge impact on someone.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I think what you're doing maybe because you're in the thick of it, you

Sadaf Beynon:

don't see it, but you're making a big impact even by doing those small things.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

And so my question actually, do you find that takes a lot of effort to

Sadaf Beynon:

think about what those small things are or does it just come quite

Sadaf Beynon:

naturally if you just let yourself.

Sadaf Beynon:

Relax, as you said.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, no, I think it doesn't take an effort.

Emma Fast:

I think, of course, it takes cultivating an attitude of waiting on God and

Emma Fast:

praying for his perspective on things.

Emma Fast:

Yeah, I think it, but it's a slow growth like most things in life, slow process

Emma Fast:

of learning that, but actually it's a much more liberating way to live.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Emma Fast:

To not constantly have to be proving myself but just a trust and a

Emma Fast:

waiting, waiting sort of attitude.

Emma Fast:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Oh, that's great.

Sadaf Beynon:

Emma, thank you so much for sharing some of your story with us.

Sadaf Beynon:

I know that it's going to resonate with so many of us who's just, life is

Sadaf Beynon:

complicated, life is hard and how do we navigate it with our eyes on the Lord.

Sadaf Beynon:

So no, thank you for bringing that out.

Sadaf Beynon:

Emma, is there anything that you would say has been helpful to you in this journey?

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, a number of things, actually.

Sadaf Beynon:

A memorial for my brother.

Sadaf Beynon:

As actually, you were there a year ago.

Sadaf Beynon:

That was very helpful to have a community of people really supporting us.

Sadaf Beynon:

I loved it that you were there and other people who knew Mikael from

Sadaf Beynon:

childhood, that was just so important.

Sadaf Beynon:

It really was a time of celebrating his life without, sweeping under the carpet

Sadaf Beynon:

all the sadness that came from both his life and struggles and his death, but it

Sadaf Beynon:

really was celebrating him as a person.

Sadaf Beynon:

And it was.

Sadaf Beynon:

I'm really thankful for just good friends.

Sadaf Beynon:

We also did a, like a memorial with some of his other friends, some of

Sadaf Beynon:

his London friends in a pub soon after he died, and that was a real

Sadaf Beynon:

eclectic mix of people, and a lot of people there, people that I wouldn't

Sadaf Beynon:

normally mix with people a little bit.

Sadaf Beynon:

Alternate with much more alternative lifestyles than my very straight

Sadaf Beynon:

laced lifestyle, let's say.

Sadaf Beynon:

And people who've, a lot of them have had issues with addictions in their

Sadaf Beynon:

own life and they know that story.

Sadaf Beynon:

I found that such a powerful event in that pub because they

Sadaf Beynon:

all wanted to know how he died.

Sadaf Beynon:

They wanted to know details of, what substances he was using.

Sadaf Beynon:

But it was done in such an.

Sadaf Beynon:

Like they all knew what it's like They there was no judgment whatsoever in their

Sadaf Beynon:

talk and I actually had this moment where I was like, wow, as a church, we could

Sadaf Beynon:

learn so much from these people, about not at all being judgmental, about being

Sadaf Beynon:

loyal friends through thick and thin.

Sadaf Beynon:

So I actually found that, that event and those connections

Sadaf Beynon:

really meaningful for me.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I think probably vice versa, for them to meet the family as well.

Sadaf Beynon:

So I'm really thankful for that.

Sadaf Beynon:

Sometimes in church, we do like to just focus on the good stories and the happy

Sadaf Beynon:

stories and struggle a little bit more with just sitting in the sorrow and in

Sadaf Beynon:

the tension of unanswered questions.

Sadaf Beynon:

But I have to say, I've had some really really good Christian friends as well.

Sadaf Beynon:

And like when my pastor visited after my brother died.

Sadaf Beynon:

The verse that he quoted was, the day that I was dreading has come upon me.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I just thought, spot on.

Sadaf Beynon:

And thank you, God, that the Bible has verses like that in it, because

Sadaf Beynon:

that was my experience, for over 20 years, I was always waiting for bad

Sadaf Beynon:

news about my brother in many ways.

Sadaf Beynon:

And yet when that phone call came that he had it, it took the floor out from

Sadaf Beynon:

under our feet and that is exactly, it just summed up how I was feeling.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I just really appreciated that kind of verse and just coming and just sitting

Sadaf Beynon:

in the sadness with me at that time.

Sadaf Beynon:

I have a book also that I really recommend about grief and it's American author.

Sadaf Beynon:

She's called Tish Harrison Warren.

Sadaf Beynon:

And it's called Prayer in the Night.

Sadaf Beynon:

And it is full of very rich theology around grief and being human.

Sadaf Beynon:

Really, I find her absolutely excellent.

Sadaf Beynon:

She's written another book that I've just read recently

Sadaf Beynon:

called Liturgy of the Ordinary.

Sadaf Beynon:

Okay.

Sadaf Beynon:

And it's very much about kind of meeting God in our very ordinary lives.

Sadaf Beynon:

Really recommend those strongly.

Sadaf Beynon:

Oh, thank you for that.

Sadaf Beynon:

We'll add those to the show notes as well so people can have access to them.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Great.

Sadaf Beynon:

Emma, so much for sharing that.

Sadaf Beynon:

That's really helpful.

Sadaf Beynon:

Really helpful.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I think our listeners might want to reach out to you.

Sadaf Beynon:

So if they did want to do that, what would be a good way for them?

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, I'm happy for my email address to go in the show notes.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah, it's actually my maiden name still, the name that you accidentally called me

Sadaf Beynon:

when you introduced me at the beginning.

Sadaf Beynon:

Yeah.

Sadaf Beynon:

Sorry about that.

Sadaf Beynon:

Okay.

Sadaf Beynon:

And I'm conscious of time, so I think we'll wrap it up.

Sadaf Beynon:

Emma, thanks again.

Sadaf Beynon:

Really appreciate you being on here.

Sadaf Beynon:

Oh, thank you.

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So nice to chat with you Sadaf.

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And you too.

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And just like that, we have reached the end of

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