The common childhood psychosis of feeling less than. John's approach was to project himself onto a superior identity… or so he thought! Fantasy and the bondage of self, culminated in a relationship with Satan that led him to the summit of radio notoriety. A dream come true or a nightmare? John still could find no true joy and was never satisfied. He was a prisoner to greed and envy although he didn't know it at the time. Join Toby and John on an interesting journey into what it feels like to have a million and a half listeners per show and still feel as though the most important listener is missing... Himself!