[18+] Step into a nostalgic synthwave daydream: At a large midwestern university a quiet fox and a restless heir bond over literature and something more, forming a tender first connection that shapes both their lives for decades to come.
Today’s story is the first of two parts of “Echo” by Shutaro Highwind, who recently returned to the craft of writing after a decade away from the keyboard and has other tales from the Greyhaven universe which will (hopefully) be appearing on FurAffinity and SoFurry in the very near future.
Read for you by Rob MacWolf — werewolf hitchhiker.
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Today's
Speaker:story
Speaker:concerns
Speaker:adult
Speaker:subject
Speaker:matter
Speaker:for
Speaker:mature
Speaker:listeners.
Speaker:If
Speaker:that's
Speaker:not
Speaker:your
Speaker:cup
Speaker:of
Speaker:tea,
Speaker:or
Speaker:there
Speaker:are
Speaker:youngsters
Speaker:listening,
Speaker:please
Speaker:skip
Speaker:this
Speaker:one
Speaker:and
Speaker:come
Speaker:back
Speaker:for
Speaker:another
Speaker:story
Speaker:another
Speaker:time.
You’re
listening
Speaker:to
Speaker:Pride
Speaker:Month
Speaker:on
Speaker:The
Speaker:Voice
Speaker:of
Speaker:Dog.
Speaker:This
Speaker:is
Speaker:Rob
Speaker:MacWolf,
Speaker:your
Speaker:fellow
Speaker:traveler, and
Speaker:Today’s
Speaker:story
Speaker:is
Speaker:the
Speaker:first of
Speaker:two
Speaker:parts
Speaker:of “Echo”
Speaker:by
Speaker:Shutaro
Speaker:Highwind, who
Speaker:recently
Speaker:returned
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:craft
Speaker:of
Speaker:writing
Speaker:after
Speaker:a
Speaker:decade
Speaker:away
Speaker:from
Speaker:the
Speaker:keyboard
Speaker:and
Speaker:has
Speaker:other tales
Speaker:from
Speaker:the
Speaker:Greyhaven
Speaker:universe
Speaker:which
Speaker:will (hopefully)
Speaker:be
Speaker:appearing
Speaker:on
Speaker:FurAffinity
Speaker:and
Speaker:SoFurry
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:very
Speaker:near
Speaker:future.
It
is
Speaker:common
Speaker:to
Speaker:focus,
Speaker:in
Speaker:stories
Speaker:of
Speaker:queer
Speaker:self
Speaker:discovery,
Speaker:on
Speaker:the
Speaker:moment
Speaker:of
Speaker:realization.
Speaker:It
Speaker:is
Speaker:common,
Speaker:after
Speaker:all,
Speaker:to
Speaker:focus
Speaker:on
Speaker:such
Speaker:moments
Speaker:in
Speaker:our
Speaker:own
Speaker:lives.
Speaker:But
Speaker:survival
Speaker:is
Speaker:not
Speaker:only
Speaker:precious
Speaker:in
Speaker:its
Speaker:own
Speaker:right,
Speaker:it
Speaker:brings
Speaker:the
Speaker:opportunity
Speaker:to
Speaker:look
Speaker:back
Speaker:on
Speaker:such
Speaker:moments,
Speaker:and
Speaker:the
Speaker:people
Speaker:in
Speaker:them,
Speaker:and
Speaker:see
Speaker:their
Speaker:importance
Speaker:not
Speaker:only
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:moment
Speaker:but
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:way
Speaker:they
Speaker:shaped
Speaker:who
Speaker:we
Speaker:became
Speaker:afterward.
Please
enjoy
“Echo”
by
Speaker:Shutaro
Speaker:Highwind, Part 1 of 2
Greyhaven
exhaled
Speaker:after
Speaker:the
Speaker:Summer
Speaker:Festival
Speaker:ended.
The
smoke
Speaker:cleared,
Speaker:the
Speaker:booths
Speaker:and
Speaker:the
Speaker:decorations
Speaker:were
Speaker:all
Speaker:packed
Speaker:away,
Speaker:and
Speaker:the
Speaker:tourists
Speaker:were
Speaker:all
Speaker:sent
Speaker:scurrying
Speaker:back
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:places
Speaker:they
Speaker:called
Speaker:home.
Speaker:The
Speaker:descent
Speaker:into
Speaker:autumn
Speaker:was a
Speaker:quiet
Speaker:kind
Speaker:of
Speaker:litany.
Speaker:Slow
Speaker:and
Speaker:contemplative.
Especially
this
Speaker:year.
Shutaro
notices
Speaker:it
Speaker:more
Speaker:than
Speaker:most.
Speaker:He’s
Speaker:always
Speaker:taken
Speaker:a
Speaker:quiet
Speaker:comfort
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:way
Speaker:the
Speaker:seasons
Speaker:bled
Speaker:into
Speaker:one
Speaker:another.
Speaker:The
Speaker:way
Speaker:the
Speaker:years
Speaker:breathed.
Summer.
Autumn.
In.
Out.
The
late
Speaker:afternoon
Speaker:light
Speaker:stretches
Speaker:long
Speaker:between
Speaker:the
Speaker:shelves
Speaker:as
Speaker:he
Speaker:works
Speaker:through
Speaker:a
Speaker:box
Speaker:of
Speaker:unsorted
Speaker:material
Speaker:behind
Speaker:the
Speaker:counter.
Speaker:Festival
Speaker:leftovers,
Speaker:things
Speaker:locals
Speaker:had
Speaker:sold
Speaker:or
Speaker:traded
Speaker:during
Speaker:the
fair:fair:
pamphlets,
fair:old
fair:school
fair:binders,
fair:a
fair:few
fair:water-stained
fair:textbooks
fair:that
fair:smelled
fair:faintly
fair:of
fair:something (chlorine?).
fair:At
fair:the
fair:bottom
fair:a
fair:few
fair:odds
fair:and
fair:ends
fair:that
fair:had
fair:been
fair:floating
fair:around
fair:in
fair:the
fair:back
fair:for
fair:years
fair:now.
fair:Decades.
fair:It’s
fair:a
fair:good
fair:time
fair:to
fair:tidy
fair:up.
fair:Plenty
fair:of
fair:peace
fair:and
fair:quiet.
The
papers
fair:whisper
fair:under
fair:his
fair:paws
fair:as
fair:he
fair:sorts
fair:them.
fair:He
fair:pulls
fair:out
fair:a
fair:thin
fair:yellow
fair:folder.
An
emblem
fair:stops
fair:him.
fair:Pine
fair:green
fair:and
fair:silver.
Northlake
University.
He
pauses,
fair:taking
fair:a
fair:seat.
fair:The
fair:chair
fair:creaks
fair:a little
fair:as
fair:he
fair:settles.
He
opens
fair:it.
fair:More
fair:yellow
fair:paper.
fair:Several
fair:typewritten
fair:pages.
A
“Metaphor
title:and
title:Memory”
He
tilts
title:his
title:head,
title:his
title:tails
title:flit
title:back
title:and
title:forth
title:as
title:he
title:remembers.
title:The
title:rabbit.
title:He
title:tasted
title:like
title:mint.
He
reads
title:the
title:names.
Shutaro
Highwind.
Ellis
Winston
title:Carter
title:III.
Strange
how
title:something
title:so
title:small
title:can
title:take
title:you
title:back.
title:He
title:flips
title:through
title:the
title:pages
title:pensively.
title:Corrections
title:in
title:red
title:pen
title:fill
title:the
title:margins,
title:Professor
title:Whitaker’s
title:long,
title:easy,
title:looping
title:script.
title:Beneath
title:them,
title:his
title:own
title:careful
title:handwriting,
title:small
title:and
title:neat.
title:Notes
title:and
title:suggestions.
title:Entire
title:sections
title:re-written
title:in
title:places.
title:Air
title:escapes
title:his
title:nostrils
title:thoughtfully (You’re
title:doing
title:it
title:again).
Deep
breath.
I
practically
title:wrote
title:half
title:the
title:thing.
Ellis
never
title:had
title:the
title:patience
title:for
title:this
title:sort
title:of
title:work.
title:It
title:was
title:too
title:careful,
title:too
title:delicate.
title:He
title:was
title:always
title:racing.
title:Never
title:stopping
title:to
title:slow
title:down
title:and…
The
fox
title:turns
title:the
title:page,
title:and
title:a
title:folded
title:rectangle
title:of
title:newsprint
title:slips
title:out
title:onto
title:the
title:floor.
He
blinks.
It
was
title:from
title:the
title:school
title:paper.
title:The
title:Northlake
title:Chronicle.
title:He
title:picks
title:it
title:up
title:gently,
title:unfolding
title:it.
title:A
title:black
title:and
title:white
title:photo
title:next
title:to
title:a
title:headline.
title:A
title:white
title:rabbit
title:in
title:mid-stride
title:on
title:a
title:wooded
title:trail.
title:His
title:ears
title:pinned
title:back,
title:muscles
title:tight
title:with
title:effort.
title:The
title:trees
title:and
title:the
title:lake
title:blur
title:in
title:the
title:background.
A
“ELLIS
caption:CARTER
caption:LEADS
caption:STARS
caption:TO
caption:REGIONAL
caption:WIN”.
The
short
caption:article
caption:below
caption:praises
caption:the
caption:team’s
caption:performance
caption:that
caption:week.
caption:He
caption:remembers
caption:the
caption:race.
Not
the
caption:details,
caption:just
caption:Ellis.
“How
do
caption:you
caption:breathe
caption:like
caption:that?”
Shutaro’s
ears
caption:twitch
caption:faintly.
The
young
caption:fox
caption:hadn’t
caption:known
caption:how
caption:to
caption:answer.
“It’s
just
caption:practice,”
caption:he
caption:remembers
caption:aloud.
He
doubts
caption:he
caption:could
caption:come
caption:up
caption:with
caption:a
caption:more
caption:satisfying
caption:answer,
caption:now.
He
studies
caption:the
caption:photograph
caption:again.
caption:The
caption:rabbit
caption:was
caption:focused
caption:in
caption:that
caption:quiet
caption:way
caption:distance
caption:runners
caption:often
caption:are
caption:when
caption:they
caption:go
caption:inside.
caption:Deep.
We
were
caption:so
caption:young.
He
was
caption:way
caption:out
caption:of
caption:my
caption:league.
Shutaro
turns
caption:the
caption:page.
caption:More
caption:notes,
caption:more
caption:memories.
The
late
caption:night
caption:study
caption:sessions.
Ellis
sitting
caption:on
caption:the
caption:fox’s
caption:bed
caption:like
caption:he
caption:owned
caption:the
caption:place.
Quiet
concentration.
The
kiss.
caption:Soft
caption:and
caption:quick.
caption:Just
caption:like
caption:him.
At
nineteen
caption:the
caption:moment
caption:felt
caption:enormous.
caption:Like
caption:it
caption:had
caption:gravity.
caption:At
caption:forty
caption:the pull
caption:is
caption:softer,
caption:still
caption:there
caption:but
caption:more
caption:gentle.
caption:He
caption:flicks
caption:his
caption:eyes
caption:to
caption:the
caption:grade at
caption:the
caption:top
caption:of
caption:the
caption:essay.
A-
“Still
think
caption:we were
caption:robbed,”
caption:he
caption:mutters.
caption:Whitaker
caption:had
caption:a
caption:strange
caption:sense
caption:of
caption:humor.
“Maybe…”
the
caption:fox’s
caption:thought
caption:trails
caption:off.
He
studies
caption:the
caption:photograph
caption:of
caption:Ellis
caption:one
caption:more
caption:time
caption:before
caption:he
caption:carefully
caption:returns
caption:it
caption:to
caption:its
caption:place
caption:in
caption:the
caption:folder.
caption:Shutaro
caption:considers
caption:the
caption:last
caption:time
caption:he
caption:saw
caption:him,
caption:and
caption:wonders
caption:where
caption:he
caption:is
caption:now. The
caption:fox
caption:puts
caption:the
caption:folder
caption:away
caption:somewhere
caption:safe,
caption:taking
caption:another
caption:moment
caption:to
caption:savor
caption:the
caption:texture
caption:of
caption:the
caption:memory.
Twenty
years.
He
wonders
caption:how
caption:it
caption:will
caption:feel
caption:after
caption:another
caption:twenty
caption:years.
-
He
hit
caption:the
caption:water
caption:like
caption:a
caption:knife.
Straight
as
caption:an
caption:arrow.
Well,
that’s
caption:what
caption:he
caption:told
caption:himself.
caption:The
caption:reality
caption:was a
caption:little
caption:messier.
caption:A
caption:little
caption:more
caption:splash
caption:than one
caption:would
caption:expect.
caption:Not
caption:the
caption:greatest
caption:form.
caption:Foxes
caption:are
caption:not
caption:natural
caption:swimmers,
caption:after
caption:all.
caption:But
caption:what
caption:he
caption:lacked
caption:in
caption:form
caption:he
caption:made
caption:up
caption:for
caption:in
caption:endurance.
He
glided
caption:beneath
caption:the
caption:surface,
caption:gangly
caption:grey
caption:and
caption:white
caption:body
caption:stretched
caption:long
caption:and
caption:arms
caption:extended,
caption:his
caption:tails
caption:streaming
caption:behind
caption:him
caption:like
caption:ribbons.
caption:The
caption:pressure
caption:of
caption:the
caption:water
caption:held
caption:him.
He
counted.
Five.
Ten.
Fifteen.
The
far
caption:wall
caption:approached
caption:slowly.
caption:He
caption:surfaced
caption:halfway
caption:down
caption:the
caption:lane
caption:with
caption:a
caption:soft
caption:exhale.
Now.
Kick (a
little
caption:too
caption:stiffly).
Stroke (long
arms
caption:reaching).
Breathe (let it
come).
The
rhythm
caption:of
caption:somebody
caption:whose
caption:limbs
caption:were
caption:just
caption:a
caption:little
caption:too
caption:long
caption:for
caption:their
caption:coordination.
caption:The
caption:body
caption:is
caption:grown
caption:but
caption:the
caption:mind
caption:hasn’t
caption:caught
caption:up
caption:with
caption:it
caption:yet.
The
rec
caption:center
caption:pool
caption:was
caption:a
caption:very
caption:different
caption:place
caption:from
caption:the
caption:community
caption:pool
caption:back
caption:in
caption:Greyhaven.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:crowded.
caption:Busy.
Maybe
it
caption:was
caption:the
caption:rhythm
caption:of
caption:it,
caption:the
caption:routine
caption:of
caption:laps
caption:and
caption:breathing,
caption:that
caption:grounded
caption:him.
caption:For
caption:the
caption:first
caption:time since
caption:arriving
caption:in
caption:Northlake
caption:a
caption:week
caption:ago,
caption:Shutaro
caption:felt
caption:something
caption:close
caption:to
caption:at
caption:home,
caption:even
caption:surrounded
caption:by
caption:strangers.
Northlake’s
campus
caption:sprawled
caption:along
caption:the
caption:shore
caption:of
caption:Lake
caption:Alder.
caption:Shutaro
caption:thought
caption:of
caption:it
caption:the
caption:way
caption:he
caption:thought
caption:of
caption:the
caption:sea.
caption:Expansive
caption:and
caption:full
caption:of
caption:possibility,
caption:but
caption:also
caption:deep
caption:and
caption:intimidating.
caption:It
caption:was founded in 1856 and bore the
caption:Gothic
caption:stone
caption:facade
caption:of
caption:serious
caption:Higher
caption:Learning;
caption:prestigious,
caption:if
caption:just
caption:barely
caption:accessible
caption:with
caption:the
caption:help
caption:of
caption:a
caption:few
caption:scholarships.
caption:Its
caption:literature
caption:and
caption:engineering
caption:departments
caption:were
caption:renowned,
caption:and
caption:its
caption:athletic
caption:programs
caption:dominated
caption:the
caption:region.
The
college
caption:town
caption:of
caption:Redfield
caption:orbited
caption:the
caption:campus
caption:like
caption:a
caption:satellite,
caption:supplying
caption:everything
caption:a
caption:restless
caption:student
caption:body
caption:could
caption:want.
caption:Beyond
caption:that,
caption:a
caption:train
caption:ride
caption:away,
caption:the
caption:skyscrapers
caption:of
caption:Ironbridge
caption:rose
caption:in
caption:the
caption:distance.
Shutaro
hauled
caption:himself
caption:from
caption:the
caption:pool
caption:when
caption:he
caption:finished
caption:his
caption:laps,
caption:seeming
caption:to
caption:hoist
caption:himself
caption:out
caption:by
caption:the
caption:scruff
caption:of
caption:his
caption:own
caption:neck.
He
was
caption:sopping
caption:wet.
The
moisture
caption:made
caption:his
caption:fur
caption:cling
caption:to
caption:him,
caption:accentuating
caption:a
caption:physique
caption:which
caption:had
caption:yet
caption:to
caption:fill
caption:out,
caption:skinny
caption:limbs,
caption:broad
caption:shoulders
caption:and
caption:chest.
Foxes
were
caption:not
caption:natural
caption:swimmers.
It
was
caption:a
caption:Saturday
caption:evening
caption:in
caption:late
caption:September.
caption:The
caption:lights
caption:on
caption:the
caption:quad
caption:flicked
caption:on
caption:one
caption:by
caption:one
caption:in
caption:the
caption:orange
caption:twilight.
Autumn
had
caption:arrived
caption:with
caption:an
caption:ambivalence
caption:he’d
caption:never
caption:seen
caption:in
caption:Greyhaven.
caption:The
caption:days
caption:were
caption:shorter
caption:now,
caption:but
caption:traces
caption:of
caption:summer
caption:warmth
caption:still
caption:clung
caption:stubbornly
caption:in
caption:the
caption:air.
caption:One
caption:day
caption:was
caption:pleasantly
caption:warm,
caption:the
caption:next
caption:blustery
caption:and
caption:cold.
Shutaro
crossed
caption:the
caption:quad
caption:to the
caption:squat
caption:modernist
caption:brick
caption:residence
caption:hall
caption:where
caption:he
caption:lived.
caption:He
caption:had
caption:spent
caption:the
caption:afternoon
caption:in
caption:the
caption:library.
caption:A
caption:book
caption:bag
caption:hung
caption:from
caption:one
caption:shoulder,
caption:a
caption:towel
caption:from
caption:the
caption:other,
caption:and
caption:an
caption:armful
caption:of
caption:books
caption:balanced
caption:on
caption:top
caption:of
caption:that.
I’m
a
caption:mess.
The
fox’s
caption:shoulder-length
caption:blue-green
caption:hair
caption:hung
caption:in
caption:a
caption:damp
caption:tangle
caption:that
caption:kept
caption:falling
caption:into
caption:his
caption:bright
caption:green
caption:eyes.
caption:Every
caption:few
caption:steps
caption:he
caption:had
caption:to
caption:stop,
caption:brush it
caption:aside,
caption:and
caption:juggle
caption:his
caption:books
caption:before
caption:moving
caption:on.
caption:The
caption:smell
caption:of
caption:chlorine
caption:still
caption:clung
caption:to
caption:his
caption:fur,
caption:despite
caption:a
caption:good
caption:rinsing-off.
He
barely
caption:noticed
caption:the
caption:white
caption:rabbit
caption:leaning
caption:against
caption:the
caption:wall
caption:a
caption:few
caption:doors
caption:down. It
caption:was
caption:the sound of
caption:his
caption:breathing
caption:that
caption:caught
caption:his
caption:attention.
caption:It
caption:wasn’t
caption:the
caption:casual
caption:breathlessness
caption:of
caption:someone
caption:climbing
caption:the
caption:stairs.
caption:This
caption:was
caption:deeper,
caption:deliberate.
caption:Lungs
caption:working
caption:hard
caption:to
caption:pull
caption:the
caption:air
caption:back
caption:in.
Shutaro
paused
caption:a
caption:step.
The
rabbit’s
caption:chest
caption:rose
caption:and
caption:fell
caption:quickly,
caption:shoulders
caption:lifting
caption:with
caption:every
caption:inhale.
Runner,
Shutaro
caption:thought.
caption:He’d
caption:seen
caption:the
caption:type.
caption:Pushing
caption:to
caption:the
caption:point
caption:that the
caption:body
caption:had
caption:to
caption:catch
caption:up
caption:afterwards.
caption:The rabbit inhaled
caption:again,
caption:a
caption:quick
caption:sharp
caption:sound
caption:that
caption:resolved
caption:a
caption:long
caption:rushing
caption:exhale.
Shutaro
paused,
caption:books
caption:shifting
caption:in
caption:his
caption:arms.
“H- Hey,”
he
caption:said
caption:quietly,
caption:with
caption:a
caption:sideways
caption:glance.
The
rabbit
caption:looked
caption:up.
He
looked
caption:younger
caption:than
caption:Shutaro
caption:expected.
caption:Handsome,
caption:though,
caption:heartthrob
caption:good
caption:looks.
caption:Like
caption:he
caption:stepped
caption:out
caption:of
caption:one
caption:of
caption:those
caption:magazines
caption:the
caption:girls
caption:back
caption:home
caption:used
caption:to
caption:read.
caption:Ever
caption:so
caption:slightly
caption:boyish,
caption:still,
caption:in
caption:his
caption:youth.
caption:It
caption:intimidated
caption:him
caption:more
caption:than a
caption:little.
caption:His
caption:year,
caption:probably.
caption:Compact leporine
caption:build,
caption:shorter
caption:than
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:by
caption:a
caption:good
caption:foot.
caption:Strong,
caption:but
caption:slight
caption:around
caption:the
caption:shoulders;
caption:legs that
caption:still
caption:trembled
caption:slightly
caption:with
caption:exertion.
caption:Out
caption:of
caption:his
caption:league,
caption:definitely.
Why
would
caption:that
caption:matter?
“Sorry,”
the
caption:rabbit
caption:said
caption:between
caption:breaths, “Just-… Just
caption:finishing
caption:a run.”
Shutaro
nodded,
caption:not
caption:making
caption:eye
caption:contact.
He
noticed
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:breathe.
caption:Too
caption:fast.
caption:He
caption:shifted
caption:his
caption:books
caption:against
caption:his
caption:chest
caption:and
caption:said,
caption:before
caption:he
caption:could
caption:stop
caption:himself, “Slow
caption:it
caption:down.”
The
rabbit
caption:blinked.
“What?”
“Your
breathing,”
caption:Shutaro
caption:said, “It’s…
caption:Too
caption:fast,”
caption:he
caption:finished,
caption:glancing up
caption:at
caption:the
caption:ceiling.
“You
a
caption:coach
caption:or
caption:something?”
“No,
I-,”
caption:he
caption:hesitated,
caption:looking
caption:down
caption:and away,
caption:then
caption:back
caption:to
caption:him, “Try
caption:this…”
caption:he
caption:said,
caption:lowering
caption:himself
caption:and
caption:finally
caption:making
caption:eye
caption:contact.
Big
hazel
caption:eyes.
Shutaro
took
caption:a
caption:slow
caption:breath
caption:through
caption:his
caption:nose.
In.
Out.
“Like
that,”
caption:he
caption:finished
caption:softly, “Don’t
caption:fight
caption:it.”
The
rabbit
caption:watched
caption:him,
caption:smiling
caption:a
caption:little.
He
tried
caption:it.
“Huh,” the
rabbit
caption:said
caption:after
caption:a
caption:moment.
caption:He
caption:pushed
caption:himself
caption:upright,
caption:back
caption:against
caption:the
caption:wall.
“Your
lungs
caption:were…
caption:Chasing
caption:your
caption:legs,”
caption:Shutaro
caption:said,
caption:he
caption:made
caption:a
caption:walking
caption:gesture
caption:with
caption:two
caption:fingers,
caption:breaking
caption:the
caption:eye contact, “They
caption:just
caption:needed
caption:a
caption:moment
caption:to…
caption:Catch
caption:up.”
The
rabbit
caption:studied
caption:him,
caption:amusement
caption:turning
caption:to
caption:curiosity.
“You
run?”
Shutaro’s
ear
caption:twitched.
caption:He
caption:shook
caption:his
caption:head,
caption:straightening
caption:and
caption:not
caption:making
caption:eye
caption:contact.
“No,
swim.”
“Ah.
That
caption:explains
caption:it,”
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:grinned.
He
stuck
caption:out
caption:a
caption:paw, “Ellis.”
Shutaro
juggled
caption:the
caption:books
caption:for
caption:a
caption:moment,
caption:extending
caption:a
caption:damp
caption:paw.
I
look
caption:absolutely
caption:ridiculous.
“Shutaro.”
Ellis
glanced at
caption:the
caption:stack
caption:of
caption:books, “Gonna
caption:read
caption:all
caption:those
caption:tonight?”
“Uhh… E-…
Extra
caption:reading,”
caption:he
caption:gestured
caption:with
caption:an awkward
caption:shrug,
caption:as
caption:if
caption:the
caption:ungainly
caption:motion
caption:somehow
caption:explained
caption:it
caption:all.
“Reading,
huh?”
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:replied, “Lectures
caption:don’t
caption:even
caption:start
caption:until
caption:tomorrow.
caption:You
caption:planning
caption:to
caption:finish
caption:the
caption:semester
caption:before
caption:the
caption:rest
caption:of
caption:us
caption:even
caption:see
caption:the
caption:syllabus?”
He
grinned
caption:a
caption:cheeky
caption:buck-toothed
caption:grin.
caption:Not
caption:mocking.
caption:Friendly.
Shutaro
blinked,
caption:on
caption:the
caption:back
caption:foot.
caption:He
caption:didn’t
caption:know
caption:how
caption:to
caption:answer
caption:that,
caption:other
caption:than
caption:with
caption:honesty.
“I,
um…
caption:Kind
caption:of
caption:like
caption:it.”
“Swimming
and
caption:studying
caption:already,”
caption:Ellis
caption:murmured,
caption:teasing
caption:gently, ”And
caption:I
caption:thought
caption:I
caption:had
caption:a
caption:busy
caption:day.”
Again,
the
caption:fox
caption:didn’t
caption:know
caption:how
caption:to
caption:respond.
caption:Silence
caption:stretched
caption:a
caption:moment
caption:longer
caption:than
caption:was
caption:comfortable
caption:for
caption:him.
caption:Tails
caption:swished
caption:behind
caption:him
caption:awkwardly,
caption:as
caption:if
caption:they
caption:had
caption:a
caption:mind
caption:of
caption:their
caption:own.
“Well, I
need
caption:to,
caption:uh…”
caption:Shutaro
caption:bobbed
caption:his
caption:head
caption:in
caption:something
caption:resembling
caption:a nod.
caption:The
caption:gesture
caption:made
caption:him
caption:look
caption:like
caption:a
caption:large
caption:bird.
Undoubtedly
there
caption:was
caption:more
caption:to
caption:say,
caption:but
caption:Shutaro
caption:couldn’t
caption:manage
caption:it.
“By
all
caption:means,”
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:said,
caption:but
caption:stopped
caption:him
caption:before
caption:he
caption:had
caption:a
caption:chance
caption:to
caption:turn
caption:to
caption:leave, "Oh!
caption:We
caption:should
caption:get
caption:breakfast
caption:tomorrow.
caption:I’m…
caption:curious
caption:about
caption:this
caption:extra
caption:reading
caption:you’re
caption:doing.”
“Uh,
yeah…
caption:Sure,” the
caption:fox
caption:grinned
caption:awkwardly.
What
if…?
Books
shifted,
caption:and
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:continued
caption:to
caption:his
caption:room.
Behind
him he
caption:could hear
caption:Ellis.
In.
Out.
Steady.
-
Shutaro
couldn’t
caption:say
caption:what
caption:Ellis saw in
caption:him,
caption:but
caption:he
caption:was
caption:grateful
caption:for
caption:the
caption:friend.
“Why
Northlake?”
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:asked
caption:the
caption:next
caption:morning,
caption:in
caption:the
caption:dining
caption:hall,
caption:over
caption:breakfast.
“I
thought
caption:it’d
caption:be
caption:good
caption:to
caption:get
caption:away,”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:said, “Start
caption:fresh.”
caption:He
caption:was
caption:always
caption:so
caption:intense.
caption:He
caption:speared
caption:a
caption:few
caption:chunks
caption:of
caption:sausage
caption:with
caption:his
caption:fork
caption:absently, “It
caption:sounded
caption:exciting,”
caption:he
caption:admitted
caption:finally.
“And
where
caption:are
caption:you
caption:trying
caption:to
caption:escape
caption:from?”
caption:Ellis
caption:phrased it
caption:as
caption:if
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:couldn’t
caption:possibly
caption:have any problems of his own.
“Greyhaven,” Shutaro replied, around a
muzzleful
caption:of
caption:sausage.
“Never
heard
caption:of
caption:it.”
“It’s,
uh,
caption:north
caption:of
caption:Newport.
caption:On
caption:the
caption:coast.
caption:It
caption:has…”
caption:he
caption:paused,
caption:swallowing, “…fish.”
Ellis
chuckled, “Your
caption:family
caption:owns
caption:boats?”
“No,
bookstore.
caption:Been
caption:in
caption:the
caption:family
caption:since
caption:my
caption:grandfather,”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:said
caption:without
caption:thinking.
“Sounds
quiet.”
“It’s…
small,”
caption:he
caption:said, “Everyone
caption:knows
caption:everyone
caption:and
caption:has
caption:for
caption:a
caption:while.
caption:There’s
caption:no…”
caption:he
caption:gestured.
“Room
to
caption:breathe,”
caption:Ellis
caption:finished.
Shutaro
paused.
What?
“Yeah,”
he
caption:continued,
caption:the
caption:fox’s
caption:mind
caption:wandering
caption:off
caption:ahead
caption:of
caption:his
caption:mouth, “I
caption:doubt
caption:there’s
caption:anyone
caption:here
caption:who
caption:could
caption:find
caption:it
caption:on
caption:a
caption:map.
caption:Thought
caption:it’d
caption:be
caption:liberating,
caption:but…”
caption:he
caption:trailed
caption:off.
Ellis
nodded.
Shutaro
felt
caption:like
caption:he
caption:understood.
“What
about
caption:you?”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:asked,
caption:scooping
caption:up
caption:a
caption:forkful
caption:of
caption:egg.
“Hartmere.”
“Big
city.”
caption:Shutaro
caption:got
caption:out
caption:around
caption:the
caption:forkful, “Old
caption:money?”
caption:he
caption:asked without
caption:thinking,
caption:distracted
caption:by
caption:his
caption:toast
caption:now, “Not
caption:far
caption:from
caption:Newport.”
Ellis
flinched
caption:slightly
caption:out
caption:of
caption:the
caption:corner
caption:of
caption:his
caption:eye, “Yeah.”
Shutaro
hadn’t
caption:caught
caption:the
caption:gesture,
caption:or
caption:the
caption:change
caption:in
caption:tone.
A
long
caption:pause.
The
din
caption:of
caption:conversation
caption:and
caption:soft
caption:clank
caption:of
caption:utensils
caption:and
caption:dishes
caption:filled
caption:the
caption:void
caption:for
caption:a
caption:moment.
“What’s
it
caption:like?”
caption:Ellis asked,
caption:munching
caption:on
caption:a
caption:slice
caption:of
caption:too-dark
caption:toast, “I’ve
caption:never
caption:really
caption:lived
caption:near
caption:the
caption:ocean
caption:like
caption:that.
caption:It’s
caption:always
caption:been…
caption:Tall
caption:buildings
caption:and
caption:noise.”
The
fox
caption:considered
caption:the
caption:question
caption:while he
caption:chewed
caption:and
caption:swallowed.
caption:His
caption:eyes
caption:flicked
caption:up
caption:to
caption:another
caption:interesting
caption:spot
caption:on
caption:the
caption:ceiling
caption:before
caption:returning
caption:to
caption:the
caption:tray
caption:in
caption:front
caption:of
caption:him, “Salty,”
caption:he
caption:said
caption:finally, “Like
caption:these
caption:eggs,”
caption:he
caption:finished
caption:matter-of-factly.
Ellis
let
caption:out
caption:a
caption:short
caption:laugh, “Our
caption:family
caption:used
caption:to
caption:visit
caption:the
caption:coast
caption:when
caption:I
caption:was
caption:small.
caption:Further
caption:south
caption:than you,
caption:though.
caption:Warmer
caption:water.
caption:Father
caption:loves
caption:to
caption:sail.”
caption:He
caption:lengthened
caption:the ‘A’s
caption:as
caption:if
caption:it
caption:was
caption:some
caption:kind
caption:of
caption:private
caption:joke.
“Sounds
fun.”
Ellis
shrugged,
caption:scooping
caption:up
caption:a
caption:spoonful
caption:of
caption:oatmeal, “Sometimes
caption:it’s
caption:nice
caption:to
caption:get
caption:away.”
Shutaro
downed
caption:the
caption:last
caption:few
caption:bites
caption:of
caption:eggs
caption:and
caption:the
caption:rest
caption:of
caption:his
caption:coffee.
Ellis
watched in
caption:amusement, “Geez, you
caption:really
caption:inhaled
caption:that.”
“Got
class,”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:gulped,
caption:his
caption:mind
caption:already
caption:on
caption:the
caption:lecture, “Whitaker.”
“English?”
“Poetry.”
The
rabbit
caption:chuckled, “Me
caption:too.
caption:They
caption:made us
caption:study
caption:that
caption:stuff at The
caption:Acaaademy,”
caption:he
caption:said,
caption:deliberately
caption:lengthening
caption:the
caption:A
caption:this
caption:time.
caption:Shutaro
caption:realized
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:was
caption:doing
caption:his
caption:best
caption:imitation
caption:of a
caption:posh
caption:old-money
caption:accent.
“I
never
caption:got
caption:it,”
caption:Ellis
caption:finished
caption:with a
caption:soft
caption:exhale.
The
comment
caption:sailed
caption:right
caption:over
caption:Shutaro’s
caption:pointy
caption:grey ears.
He
glanced
caption:up
caption:from
caption:his
caption:things
caption:as
caption:he
caption:collected
caption:them, “You’re
caption:going
caption:to
caption:need
caption:to,”
caption:Shutaro
caption:replied,
caption:slipping
caption:into
caption:another
caption:moment
caption:of
caption:intense
caption:earnestness, “It’s
caption:a
caption:required
caption:course.”
“Well,
maybe
caption:you
caption:can
caption:tutor
caption:me.”
“Sure,”
he
caption:replied,
caption:taking
caption:the
caption:statement
caption:at
caption:face
caption:value,
caption:still
caption:not
caption:picking
caption:up
caption:on
caption:the
caption:joke.
Ellis
laughed.
“I
like
caption:you.
caption:Later?”
“Yeah,”
the
caption:fox
caption:waved,
caption:an
caption:informal
caption:gesture
caption:of
caption:parting.
Shutaro
grabbed
caption:his
caption:book
caption:bag
caption:and
caption:headed
caption:off
caption:to
caption:class.
-
Shutaro’s
first
caption:lecture
caption:was
caption:an
caption:eye-opening
caption:one.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:mid-morning
caption:and
caption:the
caption:students
caption:in
caption:the
caption:lecture
caption:hall
caption:were
caption:settling
caption:in.
caption:Squeaks
caption:and
caption:scrapes
caption:and
caption:the
caption:gentle
caption:thud
caption:of
caption:textbooks
caption:and
caption:whisper
caption:of
caption:papers.
The
door
caption:opened
caption:without
caption:ceremony.
The
conversation didn’t
caption:stop
caption:so
caption:much
caption:as
caption:it
caption:softened.
caption:Not
caption:a
caption:quieting, a
caption:change
caption:of
caption:focus
caption:and
caption:tone.
The
animal
caption:entered
caption:the
caption:room
caption:like
caption:he had
caption:been
caption:blown
caption:there
caption:by
caption:a
caption:stiff
caption:prairie
caption:wind.
Shutaro
looked
caption:up
caption:from
caption:the
caption:notebook
caption:just
caption:in
caption:time
caption:to
caption:see
caption:him.
The
coyote
caption:who rambled toward the lectern wore a faded denim
caption:jacket
caption:and
caption:a
caption:broad-brimmed
caption:Stetson.
caption:He
caption:had
caption:no
caption:business
caption:strolling
caption:the
caption:halls
caption:of
caption:Higher
caption:Education,
caption:let
caption:alone
caption:tumbling
caption:into
caption:a
caption:lecture
caption:at
caption:a
caption:place
caption:like
caption:Northlake.
“Whitaker,”
somebody
caption:near
caption:Shutaro
caption:whispered.
He
carried
caption:a stack
caption:of
caption:books
caption:under
caption:one
caption:arm,
caption:which he
caption:immediately
caption:deposited
caption:on
caption:the
caption:lectern
caption:with
caption:a
caption:soft
caption:thump.
caption:He
caption:turned,
caption:leaned
caption:against it
caption:on
caption:one
caption:arm,
caption:and
caption:looked
caption:around
caption:the
caption:room.
caption:He
caption:was
caption:corralling
caption:the
caption:attention
caption:of his
caption:students,
caption:rather
caption:than
caption:demanding
caption:it.
caption:A
caption:moment
caption:longer
caption:and
caption:it
caption:was
caption:silent.
“Alright,”
he
caption:said,
caption:with
caption:impeccable
caption:timing.
caption:His
caption:voice
caption:carried
caption:an
caption:easy
caption:Bramblewood drawl, “I
caption:realize
caption:I
caption:look
caption:like
caption:I
caption:wandered
caption:in
caption:here
caption:by
caption:accident…”
caption:was
caption:how
caption:he
caption:began
caption:the
caption:first
caption:lecture.
It
landed,
caption:drawing
caption:a
caption:laugh
caption:from
caption:the
caption:class.
He
was
caption:about
caption:as
caption:far
caption:away
caption:from
caption:Greyhaven
caption:as
caption:one
caption:could
caption:get.
Whitaker
scanned
caption:the
caption:room
caption:again,
caption:lazily,
caption:as
caption:if
caption:trying
caption:to
caption:decide
caption:where
caption:to
caption:begin.
“Y’
can
caption:breathe,
caption:son,”
caption:he
caption:said
caption:offhandedly,
caption:as
caption:his
caption:gaze
caption:slid
caption:past
caption:Shutaro.
Shutaro
started,
caption:the
caption:class
caption:laughed,
caption:and
caption:the
caption:professor
caption:began, “Who
caption:here
caption:thinks
caption:poetry is
caption:borin’?”
One
or two paws
caption:went
caption:up.
caption:Ellis,
caption:of
caption:course.
“Good,” the coyote
continued, “Honesty’s
caption:a
caption:good
caption:startin’
caption:point,”
caption:he
caption:said
caption:as
caption:he
caption:began
caption:his
caption:lecture.
Something
about
caption:the
caption:man
caption:fascinated
caption:Shutaro.
caption:The
caption:young
caption:fox
caption:approached
caption:him
caption:after
caption:class.
“You
got
caption:a
caption:question,
caption:son,
caption:or y’just
caption:like
caption:the
caption:sounda
caption:my
caption:voice?”
Both,
he
caption:thought
caption:to
caption:himself.
What?
“No,
I-…
caption:Uh,”
caption:he
caption:hesitated,
caption:hand
caption:on
caption:neck, “Had
caption:a
caption:question.
caption:About
caption:the
caption:piece
caption:from
caption:your
caption:lecture.
caption:The
caption:ocean
caption:metaphor…”,
caption:he
caption:thought
caption:he
caption:got
caption:it,
caption:but
caption:he
caption:was
caption:always
caption:worried
caption:he
caption:was
caption:missing
caption:something.
caption:Just a
caption:step
caption:behind.
Whitaker had
to
caption:tilt
caption:his
caption:hat
caption:back
caption:slightly
caption:to
caption:make
caption:eye
caption:contact
caption:with the
caption:fox, “Well,
caption:that’s
caption:a
caption:doozy
caption:of
caption:a
caption:question.”
Shutaro’s
speech
caption:was
caption:almost
caption:stream-of-consciousness, “I’m
caption:trying
caption:to
caption:understand
caption:why…
caption:I
caption:grew
caption:up
caption:with
caption:the
caption:sea,
caption:and
caption:I’ve never
caption:thought
caption:there
caption:was
caption:anything…
caption:Motherly
caption:about
caption:it.
caption:I’m
caption:wondering…
caption:There’s
caption:something
caption:I’m
caption:missing?”
The
coyote
caption:paused
caption:a
caption:moment
caption:to
caption:think.
“When
I’m
caption:strugglin’
caption:with
caption:somethin’
caption:I…
caption:Can’t
caption:quite
caption:get
caption:a
caption:handle
caption:on,”
caption:he
caption:paused
caption:thoughtfully, “Sometimes…
caption:Y’need
caption:t’
caption:remember
caption:that it
caption:ain’t
caption:about
caption:what
caption:they’re
caption:sayin’, ’s
caption:about
caption:what
caption:they’re
caption:not
caption:sayin’.
caption:Get
caption:me?”
Shutaro
looked
caption:puzzled.
Whitaker
tore
caption:a
caption:page
caption:from
caption:his
caption:notebook
caption:and
caption:scribbled
caption:a
caption:few
caption:names
caption:and
caption:titles
caption:onto
caption:it.
“Here,”
he
caption:folded
caption:it in
caption:half,
caption:handing
caption:it
caption:to
caption:Shutaro, ”Call
caption:it…
caption:Extra
caption:credit.
caption:Have
caption:a
caption:read ‘n
caption:if
caption:you
caption:still
caption:have
caption:questions,
caption:office
caption:hours are
caption:Thursday.”
And
with
caption:that,
caption:he
caption:rambled
caption:out
caption:of
caption:the
caption:lecture
caption:hall.
-
The
rec
caption:center
caption:pool
caption:was
caption:empty
caption:by
caption:the
caption:time
caption:Shutaro
caption:finished
caption:his
caption:laps.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:quiet,
caption:the
caption:soft
caption:echo
caption:of
caption:water
caption:against
caption:tile.
caption:He
caption:pulled
caption:himself
caption:out
caption:of
caption:the
caption:pool
caption:and
caption:sat
caption:there
caption:at
caption:the
caption:edge
caption:for
caption:a
caption:moment,
caption:tails
caption:splayed
caption:behind
caption:him,
caption:letting
caption:his
caption:breath
caption:settle.
Calm.
Footsteps
echoed.
“Thought
that
caption:might
caption:be
caption:you,
caption:Fox,”
caption:a
caption:familiar
caption:voice.
Shutaro
turned.
Ellis
stood in the
caption:doorway,
caption:gym
caption:bag
caption:over
caption:one
caption:shoulder.
caption:His
caption:running
caption:clothes damp with
caption:sweat.
“Figured
you’d
caption:be
caption:on
caption:the
caption:other
caption:side
caption:of
caption:campus
caption:with
caption:the other
caption:swimmers,”
caption:the rabbit continued.
Shutaro stared into
the
caption:water, “Not
caption:competitive
caption:like
caption:that,”
caption:he
caption:said, “For
caption:me
caption:it’s
caption:just…”
Just
what?
caption:The
caption:fox
caption:thought.
“Exercise,”
the
caption:fox
caption:finished.
“Hm,” Ellis
grunted
caption:softly, “You
caption:come
caption:here
caption:every
caption:night?”
Yes.
The
caption:fox
caption:thought.
“Only
when
caption:I
caption:need
caption:to
caption:think,”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:said, ”It
caption:helps.”
Ellis
stepped
caption:closer,
caption:looking
caption:across
caption:the
caption:water, “You’ve
caption:been
caption:in
caption:here
caption:for
caption:a
caption:while."
"I
like
caption:it
caption:here.”
The
rabbit
caption:dropped
caption:his
caption:bag
caption:on
caption:a
caption:bench
caption:and
caption:then
caption:sat
caption:beside
caption:him,
caption:dangling
caption:one
caption:footpaw
caption:out
caption:over
caption:the
caption:water
caption:but
caption:not
caption:touching
caption:the
caption:surface.
caption:Ellis’s
caption:breathing
caption:was
caption:still
caption:a
caption:little
caption:ragged
caption:from
caption:his
caption:run.
“Slow,”
Shutaro
caption:said
caption:automatically,
caption:without
caption:thinking.
caption:His
caption:ears
caption:felt
caption:warm.
Why?
The
caption:fox
caption:thought.
Ellis
laughed, “Again?”
“It
works,”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:replied,
caption:a
caption:little
caption:defensively.
Ellis
followed
caption:the
caption:advice
caption:anyway,
caption:and
caption:after
caption:a
caption:few
caption:moments
caption:his
caption:shoulders
caption:loosened.
caption:He
caption:glanced
caption:sideways
caption:at
caption:Shutaro.
“You
ever
caption:run
caption:out
caption:of
caption:air
caption:doing
caption:that?”
“In
the
caption:pool?”
“Yeah.”
“No.”
Ellis
studied
caption:him.
Shutaro
noticed,
caption:hesitated,
caption:and
caption:added, “Y-…
caption:You
caption:learn
caption:where
caption:your
caption:limits
caption:are.”
“How
long
caption:can
caption:you
caption:actually
caption:hold
caption:it?”
The
hesitation
caption:again,
caption:he
caption:didn’t
caption:know
caption:how
caption:to
caption:respond.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:a
caption:weird
caption:question,
caption:but
caption:he
caption:was a
caption:weird
caption:guy,
caption:so
caption:the
caption:answer
caption:didn’t
caption:quite
caption:come.
caption:The
caption:gears
caption:turned
caption:a
caption:moment
caption:longer
caption:than
caption:was
caption:natural.
“That
long,
caption:huh?”
“No,
I-“
caption:he
caption:stammered,
caption:rubbing
caption:the
caption:back
caption:of
caption:his
caption:neck,
caption:then sighed
caption:finally, “I-
caption:I
caption:told
caption:you
caption:it’s
caption:not
caption:like
caption:that.”
“Isn’t
it?”
The
fox’s
caption:eyes
caption:were
caption:drawn
caption:to
caption:the
caption:ceiling,
caption:again.
caption:Avoid
caption:eye
caption:contact.
Three
or
caption:four
caption:minutes,
caption:maybe.
caption:The
caption:fox
caption:thought.
Ellis
leaned
caption:back
caption:on
caption:his
caption:hands, “Well,
caption:now
caption:I’m
caption:curious.”
Shutaro
looked
caption:at
caption:the
caption:surface
caption:of
caption:the
caption:pool,
caption:then
caption:back
caption:at
caption:Ellis.
“I-… It’s
weird…”
Ellis
watched
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:the
caption:way
caption:some
caption:runners
caption:paced a
caption:race;
caption:focused
caption:and
caption:genuine.
caption:Not
caption:mocking,
caption:just
caption:curious.
caption:The
caption:interest
caption:seemed
caption:almost
caption:academic.
“C’mooon,
Fox…”
caption:he
caption:prodded.
caption:He
caption:had
caption:a
caption:way
caption:about
caption:him
caption:that
caption:Shutaro
caption:couldn’t
caption:quite
caption:place.
Shutaro
slid
caption:back
caption:into
caption:the
caption:water
caption:with
caption:a
caption:resigned
caption:sigh, “Fine.”
He
looked
caption:slightly
caption:embarrassed.
caption:With a
caption:gangly
caption:motion
caption:he
caption:floated
caption:on
caption:his
caption:back,
caption:taking
caption:a
caption:moment
caption:to
caption:relax,
caption:to
caption:let
caption:his
caption:breathing
caption:slow.
In.
Out.
Calm
yourself.
He
took
caption:one
caption:deep
caption:breath
caption:and
caption:settled
caption:beneath
caption:the
caption:surface. The
caption:water
caption:closed
caption:over
caption:him
caption:and
caption:the
caption:ripples
caption:settled. It
caption:was
caption:quiet
caption:and
caption:heavy
caption:and
caption:ever
caption:so
caption:slightly
caption:warm.
caption:The
caption:only
caption:sound
caption:was
caption:his
caption:heartbeat
caption:in
caption:his
caption:ears.
caption:He
caption:didn’t
caption:bother to count.
caption:He
caption:stayed
caption:there
caption:until
caption:he
caption:reached
caption:that
caption:bright
caption:line
caption:between
caption:fullness
caption:and
caption:need.
caption:Then
caption:he
caption:stepped
caption:over
caption:it.
He
didn’t
caption:move.
He
knew
caption:his
caption:limit and at
caption:the
caption:first
caption:spasm
caption:of
caption:desperation
caption:he
caption:kicked
caption:off
caption:the
caption:bottom,
caption:stopping
caption:short
caption:of
caption:the
caption:edge
caption:that he
caption:knew
caption:all
caption:too
caption:well.
caption:No
caption:need
caption:to
caption:overdo
caption:it.
That
would
caption:definitely
caption:be
caption:weird,
caption:he
caption:thought.
When
he
caption:surfaced
caption:his
caption:first
caption:breath
caption:came
caption:to
caption:him
caption:calm
caption:and
caption:controlled.
caption:There
caption:was
caption:no
caption:panic.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:automatic
caption:and
caption:methodical.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:a
caption:particular
caption:sort
caption:of
caption:muscle
caption:memory.
caption:Learned
caption:from
caption:experience.
He
stood there
caption:for a moment
caption:in
caption:darkness,
caption:eyes
caption:closed
caption:and
caption:sputtering
caption:slightly
caption:as
caption:the
caption:water
caption:fell
caption:away
caption:from
caption:him.
I’m
a
caption:mess.
He
pushed
caption:the
caption:wet
caption:hair
caption:back
caption:from
caption:his
caption:eyes.
Ellis
stared,
caption:a
caption:mix
caption:of
caption:awe
caption:and
caption:excitement
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:thought.
Silence.
Shutaro
caption:broke
caption:it.
“H-ow…
How
caption:long?”
caption:he
caption:asked,
caption:bashfully.
“I,
um…
caption:Lost
caption:count.”
A
small,
caption:crooked
caption:smile
caption:crept
caption:across
caption:Shutaro’s
caption:face.
Steady.
“Man,
you
caption:weren’t
caption:kidding…
caption:How
caption:do
caption:you
caption:breathe
caption:like
caption:that?”
Shutaro
ducked
caption:his
caption:head
caption:slightly,
caption:embarrassed,
caption:as
caption:he
caption:hauled
caption:himself
caption:back
caption:to
caption:the
caption:edge.
“It’s
just
caption:practice.”
Ellis
leaned
caption:back,
caption:studying
caption:him
caption:more
caption:intently
caption:now.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:as
caption:if
caption:something
caption:inside
caption:him
caption:had
caption:clicked.
“Yeah,”
he said
caption:quietly, “But
caption:not
caption:everyone
caption:can
caption:do
caption:that.”
I
told
caption:you
caption:it’s
caption:not
caption:like
caption:that,
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:thought.
For
a
caption:moment,
caption:neither
caption:of
caption:them
caption:spoke.
caption:Ellis
caption:finally
caption:stood
caption:and
caption:grabbed
caption:his
caption:bag, “Next
caption:time
caption:I
caption:bring
caption:a
caption:stopwatch,”
caption:he
caption:said
caption:with
caption:a
caption:smirk.
“Please
don’t,”
caption:Shutaro
caption:deflected with
caption:a
caption:nervous
caption:laugh.
Ellis
slung
caption:the
caption:bag
caption:over
caption:his
caption:shoulder, “No
caption:promises.”
The
rabbit
caption:paused at
caption:the
caption:door
caption:and
caption:looked
caption:back
caption:once
caption:more, “Coming
caption:to
caption:Whitaker’s
caption:lecture
caption:tomorrow?”
Shutaro
nodded.
Ellis
grinned,
caption:popping
caption:a
caption:stick
caption:of
caption:mint
caption:chewing
caption:gum
caption:into
caption:his
caption:mouth.
caption:He
caption:was
caption:always
caption:chewing
caption:it.
“Good,”
he
caption:said
caption:between
caption:chews, ”I
caption:need
caption:help
caption:with
caption:that
caption:poem.”
Then
he
caption:disappeared
caption:out
caption:the
caption:door
caption:and
caption:down
caption:the
caption:hallway.
The
rec
caption:center
caption:pool
caption:was
caption:quiet
caption:and
caption:empty
caption:again.
-
A
lamp
caption:somewhere
caption:throws
caption:a
caption:warm
caption:pool
caption:of
caption:light
caption:across
caption:a
caption:floor
caption:scattered
caption:with
caption:books
caption:and
caption:papers.
A
Rabbit
caption:is
caption:sitting
caption:on
caption:the
caption:floor, with
caption:his
caption:back
caption:against
caption:a
caption:bed.
A
Fox
caption:is
caption:beside
caption:him;
caption:their
caption:shoulders
caption:are
caption:touching
caption:as
caption:they
caption:consider
caption:the
caption:pages
caption:spread
caption:out
caption:before
caption:them.
caption:There
caption:are words
caption:there,
caption:but
caption:they
caption:keep
caption:moving.
caption:Every time the
caption:Fox
caption:looks
caption:away,
caption:they
caption:seem
caption:to
caption:rearrange
caption:themselves
caption:in
caption:different
caption:orders
caption:and
caption:combinations.
caption:It’s
caption:impossible
caption:to
caption:make
caption:sense
caption:of.
But
still,
caption:it
caption:feels
caption:normal.
The
Rabbit
caption:taps
caption:a
caption:page
caption:with a
caption:pencil.
“You’re
overthinking
caption:this
caption:line,”
caption:he
caption:says.
“I’m
not
caption:overthinking
caption:it,”
caption:the
caption:Fox
caption:frowns.
“You
are.
caption:Here,
caption:look-…”
The
Rabbit
caption:leans
caption:closer,
caption:pointing
caption:at a
caption:passage.
caption:His
caption:shoulder
caption:presses
caption:more
caption:firmly
caption:into
caption:the
caption:Fox’s
caption:side.
caption:He
caption:can
caption:feel
caption:the
caption:warmth
caption:there
caption:beside
caption:him.
caption:His
caption:ear
caption:twitches.
caption:The
caption:Rabbit
caption:smells
caption:of
caption:soap
caption:and
caption:cold
caption:night
caption:air
caption:and
caption:mint
caption:gum.
The
Fox
caption:tries
caption:to
caption:focus
caption:on
caption:the
caption:page.
“What
the
caption:author
caption:means,” the Rabbit
caption:continues, “Is that
caption:the
caption:main
caption:character
caption:doesn’t
caption:understand
caption:himself
caption:yet.
caption:He’s
caption:trying
caption:to
caption:explain
caption:something
caption:he
caption:doesn’t
caption:have
caption:words
caption:for.”
“Hm,”
the
caption:Fox
caption:grunts, “Words.”
The
Fox
caption:glances
caption:sideways.
The Rabbit
notices
caption:and
caption:smiles.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“You’re
doing
caption:it
caption:again.”
“It?”
“C’mooon,
fox...”
The
Fox’s
caption:ears
caption:dip.
“The
essay,”
caption:he
caption:says
caption:by
caption:way
caption:of
caption:explanation.
The
Rabbit
caption:bumps
caption:his
caption:shoulder
caption:lightly.
“Liar.”
They
both
caption:laugh.
The
Rabbit
caption:stretches,
caption:raising
caption:his
caption:arms
caption:over
caption:head
caption:and
caption:then
caption:letting
caption:them
caption:fall
caption:loosely
caption:across
caption:his
caption:knees.
“Hey,”
he
caption:says
caption:after
caption:another
caption:moment
caption:of
caption:silence.
“Yeah?”
The
Rabbit
caption:tilts
caption:his
caption:head
caption:slightly.
“Can
I
caption:try
caption:something?”
The
Fox
caption:blinks, “What?”
The
Rabbit
caption:leans
caption:forward,
caption:paws on
caption:the
caption:papers,
caption:moving
caption:closer.
caption:Soon
caption:they are
caption:face
caption:to
caption:face
caption:and
caption:the
caption:space
caption:feels
caption:strangely
caption:small.
caption:The Fox
caption:becomes
caption:aware
caption:of
caption:his
caption:own
caption:breathing.
caption:He
caption:feels
caption:a paw on
caption:his
caption:chest.
caption:It
caption:feels
caption:strangely
caption:heavy.
caption:The
caption:Rabbit’s
caption:expression
caption:softens;
caption:there’s
caption:sympathy
caption:in
caption:those
caption:eyes.
caption:A
caption:kindness
caption:the Fox hasn’t noticed before this moment.
“I can
feel
caption:it,”
caption:the
caption:Rabbit
caption:says
caption:softly.
“Feel
what?”
“Your
breathing.”
The
Fox
caption:feels
caption:his
caption:heart
caption:beat
caption:faster
caption:beneath
caption:the
caption:Rabbit’s
caption:paw.
caption:The
caption:Rabbit
caption:feels
caption:it
caption:too.
caption:Neither
caption:one
caption:of
caption:them
caption:move
caption:away.
caption:The Fox’s
caption:thoughts
caption:echo
caption:and
caption:tangle
caption:together.
“This
is
caption:fine.”
“This
is
caption:weird.”
“This
is
caption:right.”
“This
is
caption:not
caption:normal.”
“This
is
caption:real.”
In.
Out.
The
kiss
caption:is
caption:long
caption:and
caption:brief
caption:at
caption:the
caption:same
caption:time.
caption:Warm
caption:and
caption:minty.
caption:In
caption:that
caption:moment
caption:something
caption:clicks.
caption:It’s
caption:so
caption:real.
caption:The
caption:Fox
caption:can
caption:feel
caption:the
caption:Rabbit’s soft
caption:breath
caption:on
caption:his
caption:whiskers,
caption:feel
caption:his
caption:fingers
caption:run
caption:through
caption:the
caption:white
caption:fur
caption:on
caption:his
caption:chest,
caption:and
caption:suddenly
caption:it’s
caption:so
caption:hot (too
caption:hot)
caption:and
caption:he
caption:can’t
caption:think (too
caption:much),
caption:and
caption:it
caption:feels
caption:like
caption:that
caption:dizzy
caption:moment
caption:on
caption:a
caption:roller
caption:coaster
caption:when
caption:you’re
caption:about
caption:to
caption:drop
caption:and…
Bright
green
caption:eyes
caption:snap
caption:open
caption:in
caption:a
caption:rush.
The
dorm
caption:room
caption:was
caption:dark.
Somewhere
the
caption:ticking
caption:of
caption:an
caption:alarm
caption:clock.
The
sheets
caption:were
caption:cool
caption:and
caption:there
caption:was
caption:something
caption:there
caption:about
caption:halfway
caption:down.
caption:His
caption:half-asleep
caption:brain
caption:tried
caption:to
caption:process
caption:it.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:cool
caption:and
caption:wet
caption:and
caption:vaguely
caption:slimy.
caption:He
caption:realized
caption:he’s as
caption:hard
caption:as
caption:a
caption:rock
caption:beneath
caption:his
caption:briefs.
It
felt
caption:so
caption:real.
He
knew.
“Fuck,”
he
caption:said
caption:softly
caption:to
caption:the
caption:dark
caption:room.
-
Breakfast
the
caption:following
caption:morning
caption:was
caption:warm.
caption:Shutaro
caption:could
caption:feel
caption:it
caption:in
caption:his
caption:ears,
caption:every
caption:time
caption:his
caption:mind
caption:brought
caption:the
caption:dream
caption:back
caption:to
caption:him.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:as
caption:vivid
caption:as
caption:it
caption:was
caption:strange
caption:to
caption:him.
caption:He
caption:liked
caption:Ellis, but
caption:certainly he
caption:didn’t
caption:feel
caption:that
caption:way
caption:about
caption:him.
Did
he?
Shutaro
hadn’t
caption:touched
caption:his
caption:breakfast,
caption:aside
caption:from
caption:a
caption:few
caption:anxious
caption:prods
caption:at
caption:his
caption:eggs.
caption:Ellis,
caption:by
caption:comparison,
caption:was
caption:halfway
caption:through
caption:a
caption:mountain
caption:of
caption:food.
caption:He
caption:was
caption:like
caption:a
caption:tiny
caption:furnace.
Hot.
Shutaro
blushed.
It
was
caption:Ellis’
caption:turn
caption:not
caption:to
caption:notice.
“You
look
caption:like
caption:you
caption:slept
caption:for
caption:about
caption:five
caption:minutes
caption:last
caption:night,”
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:said
caption:around
caption:a
caption:muzzleful.
Shutaro
blinked.
“Huh?”
“Fox,
you’ve
caption:been
caption:poking
caption:at
caption:that
caption:egg
caption:for,
caption:like,
caption:a
caption:minute,”
caption:there
caption:was
caption:a
caption:subtle ‘are
caption:you
caption:gonna
caption:eat
caption:that?’
caption:hanging
caption:in
caption:the
caption:air.
“Oh,”
he
caption:looked
caption:down
caption:at the
caption:plate,
caption:startled,
caption:as
caption:if
caption:the
caption:food
caption:had
caption:suddenly
caption:appeared
caption:in
caption:front
caption:of
caption:him.
Ellis
watched
caption:him.
“Bad
dream?”
Yes
and
caption:no,
caption:he
caption:thought.
Shutaro’s
ears
caption:twitched.
“No,”
the
caption:fox
caption:finally
caption:lied, “Assignment.
caption:Whitaker
caption:gave
caption:me
caption:extra
caption:reading
caption:again…
caption:I
caption:was
caption:working
caption:through
caption:it.”
“Must’ve
been
caption:pretty
caption:sticky.”
Did
he
caption:just
caption:say
caption:that?
Shutaro
blinked,
caption:his
caption:tails
caption:stirring
caption:behind
caption:him
caption:once
caption:again
caption:of
caption:their
caption:own
caption:accord, “Yeah.”
“Well,
I
caption:don’t
caption:blame
caption:you,”
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:continued,
caption:around
caption:another
caption:muzzleful
caption:of
caption:food, “I
caption:think
caption:that
caption:cowboy
caption:professor
caption:of
caption:yours
caption:likes
caption:hiding
caption:things.”
“It’s
not
caption:about
caption:what’s
caption:on
caption:the
caption:page,”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:said
caption:absently,
caption:taking
caption:a
caption:bite
caption:of
caption:his
caption:egg, “It’s
caption:what’s
caption:not.”
“See,
that,”
caption:the
caption:rabbit
caption:swallowed, “Is
caption:what
caption:I’m
caption:talking
caption:about.
caption:You’re
caption:turning
caption:into
caption:him,
caption:Fox,”
caption:he
caption:said
caption:with
caption:a
caption:note
caption:of
caption:playful
caption:accusation in
caption:his
caption:voice.
“Well,
if
caption:you
caption:need
caption:help
caption:I’m
caption:right
caption:down
caption:the
caption:hall,”
caption:Shutaro
caption:offered.
Did
I
caption:just
caption:say
caption:that?!?
“I
need
caption:to
caption:pass
caption:this
caption:class.
caption:I’ll
caption:take
caption:all
caption:the
caption:help
caption:I
caption:can
caption:get.”
“Whitaker
has
caption:a
caption:strange
caption:sense
caption:of
caption:humor.
caption:He
caption:doesn’t
caption:grade
caption:like
caption:the
caption:other
caption:profs,”
caption:Shutaro
caption:replied
caption:absently,
caption:trying
caption:to
caption:offer
caption:some
caption:kind
caption:of
caption:advice.
“How
does
caption:he
caption:grade?”
Shutaro
shrugged, “Depends
caption:on
caption:how
caption:honest
caption:he
caption:thinks
caption:you
caption:are.”
Ellis
rolled
caption:his
caption:eyes.
caption:He
caption:rambled
caption:on
caption:about
caption:the
caption:professor’s
caption:literary
caption:tastes
caption:for
caption:several
caption:more
caption:minutes
caption:before
caption:his
caption:attention
caption:drifted
caption:back
caption:to
caption:Shutaro.
“You’re
doing
caption:it
caption:again,”
caption:Ellis
caption:said,
caption:suddenly.
What?
Shutaro
looked
caption:up
caption:from
caption:his
caption:tray, “What?”
Ellis
pointed
caption:with
caption:a
caption:fork, “That.”
Shutaro
frowned.
“Your
breathing,
caption:fox.”
“I
am.”
“You’re
not.”
Shutaro
froze.
Ellis
grinned
caption:that
caption:cheeky
caption:grin
caption:of
caption:his.
“You
keep
caption:holding
caption:it,”
caption:he
caption:said,
caption:taking
caption:another
caption:bite
caption:of
caption:food.
The
fox
caption:felt
caption:the
caption:heat
caption:creep
caption:from
caption:his
caption:ears
caption:down
caption:to
caption:his
caption:muzzle.
“I-… I
don’t…-“
caption:he
caption:protested.
“You
do,
caption:fox,”
caption:he
caption:leaned
caption:forward
caption:on
caption:his
caption:elbows, “You
caption:go
caption:all
caption:quiet
caption:and
caption:then…”
caption:he
caption:inhaled
caption:deeply
caption:in
caption:demonstration, “…biiiig
caption:reset
caption:breath.”
Shutaro
opened
caption:his
caption:mouth
caption:in
caption:protest
caption:and
caption:then
caption:stopped.
caption:It
caption:was
caption:no
caption:use
caption:arguing.
caption:Ellis
caption:was
caption:right.
caption:He had
caption:been
caption:doing
caption:it
caption:without
caption:even
caption:noticing.
“…habit,”
Shutaro
caption:muttered,
caption:before
caption:turning
caption:his
caption:attention
caption:to
caption:the
caption:toast
caption:on
caption:the
caption:plate.
Ellis
didn’t
caption:let
caption:it
caption:go.
“You
do it
caption:when
caption:you’re
caption:thinking.”
The
fox
caption:took
caption:a
caption:bite
caption:of
caption:toast
caption:to
caption:avoid
caption:answering.
Ellis
watched
caption:him
caption:chew.
“You
swim
caption:last
caption:night?”
Yes,
he
caption:thought.
Shutaro
shook
caption:his
caption:head
caption:no.
“Hmm,”
Ellis
caption:tilted
caption:his
caption:head, “Your, uh…
caption:Chest
caption:looks
caption:tight.”
Shutaro
almost
caption:choked
caption:on
caption:his
caption:toast.
Ellis
burst
caption:out
caption:laughing.
“Like
when
caption:I
caption:come
caption:back
caption:from
caption:a
caption:run and
caption:haven’t
caption:cooled
caption:down
caption:yet,”
caption:Ellis
caption:continued, “Like
caption:that.”
Shutaro’s
ears
caption:flicked
caption:sharply.
caption:He
caption:stared
caption:at
caption:his
caption:plate
caption:intently,
caption:mercilessly
caption:spearing
caption:the
caption:remaining
caption:egg.
“You
get
caption:a
caption:chance to do another-…”
“No,” Shutaro
cut him off quickly, “I
caption:told
caption:you,
caption:it’s
caption:not
caption:like
caption:that.”
Ellis
leaned
caption:back,
caption:laughing
caption:softly.
“You’re
such
caption:a
caption:weird
caption:guy.”
Shutaro
didn’t
caption:argue
caption:the
caption:point.
caption:In
caption:his
caption:mind,
caption:that
caption:was
caption:the
caption:truth,
caption:and
caption:the
caption:words
caption:weren’t
caption:unkind.
caption:They
caption:were
caption:affectionate.
Shutaro
looked
caption:up
caption:from
caption:his
caption:lonely,
caption:mutilated
caption:egg.
caption:Ellis
caption:wiped
caption:the
caption:syrup
caption:from
caption:his
caption:hands
caption:with a napkin.
“You
know
caption:what,
caption:though?”
“What?”
“I
like
caption:weird.”
Oh
no.
Ellis
picked
caption:up
caption:his
caption:coffee, “But
caption:seriously,
caption:Fox,” he added, “If
caption:that
caption:assignment
caption:is
caption:bothering
caption:you…”
caption:he
caption:tapped
caption:the
caption:table
caption:lightly, “…you
caption:should
caption:probably
caption:remember
caption:to
caption:breathe.”
Shutaro
blinked.
“You’re
doing
caption:it
caption:again.”
The fox
realized
caption:it,
caption:with
caption:a
caption:rush
caption:of
caption:embarrassment.
caption:He
caption:let
caption:it
caption:out
caption:slowly.
caption:Ellis
caption:watched the
caption:long
caption:exhale
caption:with a
caption:quiet
caption:fascination.
“…see?”
the
caption:rabbit
caption:said
caption:quietly, “That’s
caption:what
caption:I
caption:mean.”
He
flashed
caption:his
caption:bucktoothed
caption:grin, “Study
caption:session,
caption:tonight?”
“Yeah,
sure,”
caption:the
caption:fox
caption:said,
caption:still
caption:rosy
caption:cheeked, “Just
caption:drop
caption:by
caption:whenever
caption:you’re
caption:ready.”
Ellis
would
caption:be
caption:the
caption:first
caption:to
caption:show
caption:up
caption:at
caption:his
caption:door,
caption:but
caption:he
caption:wouldn’t
caption:be
caption:the
caption:last.
This
was
caption:the
caption:first
caption:of
caption:two
caption:parts
caption:of “Echo”
caption:by
caption:Shutaro
caption:Highwind, read for you by READER, with CALLSIGN. Tune in next time to
caption:find
caption:out
caption:who
caption:else
caption:shows
caption:up
caption:at
caption:Shutaro’s
caption:dorm
caption:room
caption:door.
As
always,
caption:you
caption:can
caption:find
caption:more
caption:stories
caption:on
caption:the
caption:web
caption:at thevoice.dog, or find
caption:the
caption:show
caption:wherever
caption:you
caption:get
caption:your
caption:podcasts.
caption:Happy
caption:Pride,
caption:and
caption:Thank
caption:you
caption:for
caption:listening
caption:to
caption:The
caption:Voice
caption:of
caption:Dog.