On this episode of Mindful You, Alan Carroll interviews Herb Avritt. Herb explains how mindfulness is getting in touch with the machine that your spirit is riding around in. Avritt has practiced many different jobs and after suffering a traumatic brain injury he reinvented his life and became a psychedelic integration and life coach. We need to become the observer when doing tasks, when we can become the observer it changes everything that we are doing. Herb believes that when we appreciate and love what we see with our eyes we start to love ourselves and feel that love for ourselves as well. We are all a tiny piece of God and we are all one.
About The Guest:
Herbert has had a varied career ranging from business management, working in the semiconductor industry and being an entrepreneur for most of his life. His vast experience in a variety of areas makes for wisdom and knowledge that shines forth through his creative ideas and "outside-the-box" thinking.
When life threw him a curve ball in the form of traumatic brain injury, Herb did not let it stop him for long. He has worked the past 5 years to reinvent his life and recreate his reality by becoming a psychedelic integration and life coach, and is now helping others create clarity from the chaos in their hearts or minds.
About Alan:
Alan Carroll is an Educational Psychologist who specializes in Transpersonal Psychology. He founded Alan Carroll & Associates 30 years ago and before that, he was a Senior Sales Training Consultant for 10 years at Digital Equipment Corporation. He has dedicated his life in search of mindfulness tools that can be used by everyone (young and old) to transform their ability to speak at a professional level, as well as, to reduce the psychological suffering caused by the misidentification with our ego and reconnect to the vast transcendent dimension of consciousness that lies just on the other side of the thoughts we think and in between the words we speak.
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Our next guest on the mindful you podcast. I met a
Alan Carroll:while back at an event called embracing the woo woo meaning
Alan Carroll:that spiritual dimension of consciousness, that metaphysical
Alan Carroll:dimension of consciousness beyond the ego, identity. And
Alan Carroll:Herb was a spiritual coach, he described himself as a spiritual
Alan Carroll:coach and entrepreneur. He has faced traumatic brain injuries,
Alan Carroll:has gone through a healing and has journey down the mindfulness
Alan Carroll:path. And now has tapped into that mindfulness, dimension of
Alan Carroll:consciousness. And he also has gone down the path of
Alan Carroll:psychedelic integration using medicines in order to achieve
Alan Carroll:that stability. And that mental equilibrium and emotional,
Alan Carroll:emotional balance and calm. It is with great pleasure, then
Alan Carroll:that I introduce you to herb Hey, our vet, our next guest, on
Alan Carroll:the mindful you, podcast. Welcome, welcome, herb to the
Alan Carroll:mindful you podcast.
Herb Avritt:Thank you. It's a pleasure to be here. Thank you
Herb Avritt:for inviting me, I'm really excited to be out letting other
Herb Avritt:people know what's going on, and, and helping them get back
Herb Avritt:in contact with life.
Alan Carroll:Absolutely, absolutely. And we were talking
Alan Carroll:a little a little earlier about experiences of mindfulness. And
Alan Carroll:I like to have an understanding if we had to define from your
Alan Carroll:point of view of mindfulness, presence, emptiness, beingness,
Alan Carroll:whatever word you want to use to describe that, that space of the
Alan Carroll:headspace in from your experience, how would you define
Alan Carroll:mindfulness and presence?
Unknown:Well, it was, when you first went on your first read
Unknown:the like, the pre questions like, what is mindfulness is
Unknown:like, well, that's just being really present with yourself
Unknown:that is, and then and then I read the more questions like it
Unknown:was all of the terms that I use to define mindfulness, you have
Unknown:the question of what is that. And it's really weird, because a
Unknown:lot of those terms are part of what's called the woowoo. World,
Unknown:the, the the spiritual world, the world, that's not the
Unknown:reality that most people see the going to work the driving the
Unknown:taking care of the kids and taking care of the house. And
Unknown:that that kind of reality is what most people think of, of
Unknown:as, as what's real as what's reality is. And mindfulness is
Unknown:is more of figuring out you in that space. So instead of
Unknown:becoming part of that space, you you mindfully, go into your
Unknown:space while you're in those other space. So mindfulness is
Unknown:getting in touch with the machine that your spirit is
Unknown:riding around in, and paying attention to your vehicle. And,
Unknown:and being with your vehicle while you are also driving it
Unknown:around in life, in your day to day. So while you are taking
Unknown:care of your kids while you are doing your yard work, you can
Unknown:also be paying attention to you to your vehicle to how you're
Unknown:breathing to how you're moving to what your body is telling
Unknown:you. At the same time as you're doing all of these other things.
Unknown:And that brings, that brings you back into life in a different
Unknown:way. So instead of like life happening to you and around you,
Unknown:you become a part of it. And there is there is that spirit,
Unknown:it's not spirituality it is you just get more in touch with your
Unknown:spirit, you get more in touch with life, you start to
Unknown:understand that there is more than just what you're doing
Unknown:there is the being doing it as well.
Alan Carroll:Right, there's the there's the doing this and then
Alan Carroll:there's the the being behind the dewiness which is the intention,
Alan Carroll:what's the intention of the being and and and when you talk
Alan Carroll:about, you know, how do you get to that being quality not caught
Alan Carroll:into doing this, which is the manipulation of the things but
Alan Carroll:get into the being space in which you're sort of the all you
Alan Carroll:talked about pay attention. And boy that's left that's it. good
Alan Carroll:one to have a little conversation about. What does
Alan Carroll:pay attention for me means wake up. And wake up means observer
Alan Carroll:and witness, whatever is going on rather than, rather than you
Alan Carroll:are the movie you're watching while you're watching the movie.
Alan Carroll:So from my perspective, so that's why I worded that way,
Alan Carroll:how do you word it your way
Unknown:I understand the analogies you're using. Most
Unknown:people, when they start talking about mindfulness, they think
Unknown:they need to sit still to be quiet, to get rid of all of the
Unknown:distractions before they can get into that space. And as you in
Unknown:for most people, when they start getting into mindfulness, that
Unknown:is a lot easier. But there are like walking meditations, there
Unknown:are moving meditations. And as you start to grow into that,
Unknown:then that mindfulness and that meditation and that connection
Unknown:to life can start to be with you at all the time. Now, that that
Unknown:also takes paying attention is also a focus. It's like what
Unknown:you're focusing on. So sometimes you're focusing outside of your
Unknown:body on the task at hand. And if you can bring that observer in
Unknown:that you're talking about that that paying attention, then you
Unknown:can focus on you focusing on the task at hand. And that changes,
Unknown:that changes pretty much everything about what you're
Unknown:doing. And it can, again, we were talking about when we
Unknown:started about how I drive and how I started noticing that I
Unknown:was driving through postcards, and just seeing this amazing
Unknown:beauty all of the time. And that that happens more in a
Unknown:mindfulness state because you bring the observer along,
Unknown:there's a lot of times where when I actually see these
Unknown:beautiful things, I consciously go, Hey, God, this is really
Unknown:pretty, I know that you're always seeing everything all the
Unknown:time. But come check it out from this perspective, knowing that I
Unknown:see you, I consciously invite you in to share this beauty of
Unknown:you with you. And as I do that, you know that the observer
Unknown:becomes me, I become the observer, but I also become that
Unknown:which is being looked at as well. So it's one of the few
Unknown:times that that I can see myself as beautiful as I see everything
Unknown:else. Because that's one of the hard parts for me is because I
Unknown:know how flawed I am, I know how messed up I am, you know, I have
Unknown:brain damage, I hurt my head. And it kind of took my life
Unknown:apart. And so that made me feel bad about myself. And so it's
Unknown:hard for me to see the beautifulness of me that I can
Unknown:see everywhere else. So when I can get in that state of
Unknown:mindfulness and see the beauty and starting got inviting God
Unknown:into witness through me, that is that is when I can start feeling
Unknown:that beauty with inside me I can start feeling that worthiness
Unknown:inside me. And that is one of the things that sometimes brings
Unknown:tears to my eyes, because not only am I loving what I'm
Unknown:seeing, I am also feeling that love for myself as well. And so
Unknown:mindfulness is getting in that state where, where as you're
Unknown:looking out and seeing and doing, then you can also be in
Unknown:that same beautiful state. It's like when people go to a museum
Unknown:and they see amazing work of art for the first time and it brings
Unknown:them to tears. Well, mindfulness can can make that you can see
Unknown:that everywhere. It doesn't have to be something that somebody
Unknown:does, it can be what is here and what God created and what you
Unknown:see in just everyday moments,
Alan Carroll:hears of joy, tears of bliss is part of that.
Alan Carroll:That mindfulness, stillness, place of beingness in which you
Alan Carroll:begin to manage the thoughts better, because you can you can
Alan Carroll:observe the thoughts now. And the thoughts are painting the
Alan Carroll:narrative and if you can change the thoughts that you think you
Alan Carroll:put you change the narrative, and all of a sudden, what you
Alan Carroll:said is exactly the love and the end divinity in which we are is
Alan Carroll:then available to express it through us. And in one of the
Alan Carroll:Course of Miracles they talk about, God cannot do for us what
Alan Carroll:God cannot do through us and through us means you. You you
Alan Carroll:see the beauty all around all around you. And that leads into,
Alan Carroll:you know, if someone was interested in mindfulness, which
Alan Carroll:you and I are certainly, you know, what are some of the
Alan Carroll:benefits of mindfulness? And you you just listed a whole bunch of
Alan Carroll:them be like, All right.
Unknown:Yeah, that that joyful state, that sense of tears, that
Unknown:sense of love, that's, that's our normal state. That's, that's
Unknown:should be where we are. And all of the stuff that we have the
Unknown:society that's going on the, the halfing, to get a job, those are
Unknown:all distracting us from that. So mindfulness is a way to get
Unknown:underneath that distraction and get back to who we are that that
Unknown:what we are that sense of peace and joy. And if you can start to
Unknown:get there, then then the falseness of the or the
Unknown:falseness of the distraction can start to fall away. And you can
Unknown:start to touch that, that beautiful inner part of you. And
Unknown:so that, you know, it's not, it's not that you have to go
Unknown:find that it's like, you have to start peeling away the
Unknown:distractions, because that is what you are. Because once you
Unknown:find that, once it's like, holy cow, what was that, like? That
Unknown:was you, okay, that wasn't something that happened to you,
Unknown:that was you got rid of enough of the stuff around you to say,
Unknown:hey, that what was that, that's the inner you, that's there all
Unknown:of the time. And you just built this shell and you in society
Unknown:has all of these rules and things to basically distract us
Unknown:from that, so that we can interact with each other. But,
Unknown:but once you start peeling that away, and you can find that
Unknown:within, then if you get really good, you know, and it takes
Unknown:some people years, years and years, sometimes their whole
Unknown:life, to be able to really tap into that. And you know, I can
Unknown:do it, sometimes I can't hold on to that space. Because there are
Unknown:like said, there's a lot of distractions, and some of them
Unknown:seem really awesome. But when you can get rid of those
Unknown:distractions and drop into that space, it can be pretty, pretty
Unknown:incredible and overwhelming.
Alan Carroll:And when you drop into that space, her I would, I
Alan Carroll:would describe that space as a spiritual spiritual space, a
Alan Carroll:space beyond a metaphysical, spiritual, not non judgmental,
Alan Carroll:being, everything just is kind of space. And you'd also
Alan Carroll:describe yourself as a spiritual coach, is that meaning that you
Alan Carroll:take people into that space? When you coach them,
Unknown:I talk about it, I help them get there. But a lot of
Unknown:times, it's something that people have to find themselves.
Unknown:And there's a lot of ways there's a lot of entry points to
Unknown:start getting to it. There's there's breathwork there's
Unknown:there's different actual mindful tech techniques, like MBSR. And
Unknown:and I don't remember necessarily all of that what the acronyms
Unknown:mean. But I know it's it's mindful. There's lots of
Unknown:mindfulness practice practices. And so there's a lot of entry
Unknown:points to get to it. But the thing is, is a lot of people
Unknown:then start thinking the entry points are, are what that is. So
Unknown:people go oh, man, I was doing this breath work. And I felt
Unknown:this amazing thing. Instead of saying, Hey, I used breath work
Unknown:to do to get through the distractions to find myself,
Unknown:they say it's the breath work that did it. No, you are the
Unknown:medicine that is what you are. And the breath work is just a
Unknown:key that unlocks the door that might or cracks open that window
Unknown:to give you a brief glimpse of, of who you are inside of that.
Alan Carroll:So this is I want to make sure I got that one. So
Alan Carroll:the breath work, the conscious breathing, you're saying that.
Alan Carroll:So that's the outer manifestation of some inner
Alan Carroll:awareness behind it.
Unknown:Um, more it's, it's, um, it's like opening the window
Unknown:or opening the key. It's, it's a practice that you can do to
Unknown:navigate through through the distractions and bring yourself
Unknown:to a quiet place and catch a glimpse of who you are. So okay,
Unknown:the breath work isn't isn't the isn't the thing that's making
Unknown:you feel that way. Just like wow, that's a I haven't tried to
Unknown:put it this way before. So he's trying to come up with an
Unknown:analogy.
Alan Carroll:I love analogies to I understand the good analogy
Alan Carroll:is really
Unknown:pretty close to the experience the ocean, you get in
Unknown:a car, and the car, the car is how you get there. But you're
Unknown:driving the car, you're going there, the car isn't taking you
Unknown:there, you're taking the car there. And once you get there,
Unknown:you get to be the experience. So the breath work is like a car
Unknown:that you get into to go visit yourself. Or how does that does
Unknown:that sound? Perfect. That sounds like a great analogy.
Alan Carroll:I like the breath work is is what I noticed is
Alan Carroll:that I can't focus on the breathing and be thinking at the
Alan Carroll:same time. And it shifts the attention from a disembodied
Alan Carroll:from from from the disembodied state of those illusion of those
Alan Carroll:thoughts, those distractions, and it shifts it into my body.
Alan Carroll:And that becomes embodied, embodied. And that becomes
Alan Carroll:grounded and centered and anchored, and all the thoughts
Alan Carroll:begin to fade away. And you mentioned the word
Unknown:body, the mindfulness that because a lot of the
Unknown:breathing techniques is is like you feel in your body, can you
Unknown:feel your chest rising? Can you feel? Can you feel the moisture
Unknown:on your nose as you breathe out? And can you feel it slightly
Unknown:dry? As you breathe in? Can you feel the air twirling in your
Unknown:sinuses? Can you feel it going down your your esophagus and,
Unknown:and as you get into these sensations, and you really get
Unknown:into this, what that is, is first takes you into your body,
Unknown:and then as your mind clears, then that also fades away, and
Unknown:you become the breath. And then after you become the breath,
Unknown:then that also fades away. And then you're just kind of left
Unknown:there with yourself. And if you can stand that, if you can, if
Unknown:you can sit in that space, which the first couple times you do it
Unknown:is it's almost agonizing, it's almost painful. And you will do
Unknown:anything to get out of that space. Because it it just is
Unknown:you're not people aren't ready necessarily to be able to sit in
Unknown:that kind of beauty. Because it is because then when they come
Unknown:back, it's like what did I lose. So there was this time where,
Unknown:where I snowboard, I hurt my body a lot, I had problems with
Unknown:my feet. And there was this one time I got a foot massage, I was
Unknown:like my foot felt great. It was like finally it stopped hurting.
Unknown:And then when the massage was over, like for the next two
Unknown:weeks, it was so much more obvious how much my feet hurt,
Unknown:but I didn't go back and get another foot massage, because it
Unknown:was just so painful, that it was easier to get used to the pain,
Unknown:then to get out of it and then go back into it. So a lot of
Unknown:times when when pupils first start getting into this
Unknown:mindfulness, they find this amazing spot that's just so
Unknown:overwhelming. And then when they have to step back into their
Unknown:life, it's it's, it's more painful, it's more distracting,
Unknown:it's like, I want that. But I have to deal with this. So I
Unknown:don't want to see that again. Because coming back from that is
Unknown:so traumatic and uncomfortable. So and you know, when when you
Unknown:and I first got together, I'm also a psychedelic integration
Unknown:coach. And so psychedelics off, oftentimes will put people into
Unknown:that, like really, really deeply into that space. And so then
Unknown:when they come back out of it, and they have to go back to
Unknown:life, it's like, all of that as possible. All of that is there.
Unknown:Now I have to deal with all of this crap. Again, I want to go
Unknown:back there. And so there's this destabilization, which is why
Unknown:again, the integration is, so I'm important in the pre
Unknown:coaching so that, you know that that could possibly happen. But
Unknown:so that's why, you know, mindfulness, and a lot of these
Unknown:techniques, you actually start teaching them, if you're a good
Unknown:coach, you start teaching the people this before they go into
Unknown:that space. And there's a lot of times where people can get into
Unknown:that space without the psychedelics without the
Unknown:entheogens without the medicine, because you know, we are the
Unknown:medicine, that's just an accelerated and accelerated way
Unknown:to get there. And so, you know, if you can get there through the
Unknown:breathwork, through the yoga through the mindfulness
Unknown:practices, through getting into nature, and getting in touch
Unknown:with that kind of life and do it slowly, then you can build your
Unknown:tolerance for yourself for that joyfulness. And as you move into
Unknown:it slowly and back out and slowly and back out, then you
Unknown:can become that more often. You bet. Now, now with psychedelics,
Unknown:there's a lot of people who have been doing the breathwork and
Unknown:have been been doing this for a long time. And then the
Unknown:psychedelic is just like an extension of that and it helps
Unknown:them go deeper and understand more. But where I came out, it
Unknown:was through desperation with the head injury, my life was falling
Unknown:apart. Everything was like just crashing around me. And so I
Unknown:needed that reconnection with life. And so that acceleration,
Unknown:though, does come with a cost because you get thrown into it,
Unknown:and then you get taken out of it. But that does a reset, and
Unknown:hey, I know that's possible. Now I can feel again, I can be alive
Unknown:again, I can get in touch with with that which I am again,
Unknown:because all of this damage, all of this pain took me away from
Unknown:that. So getting back in touch with that then gives you the
Unknown:space to start working back towards there more naturally, by
Unknown:doing your own work. There is no getting away from the work you
Unknown:do. You just can't get away from the work a lot of people right
Unknown:now. You're smoking, you're cured, your depression, or your
Unknown:anxiety. And you know, that's that's not true, you have your
Unknown:you have as you get to see it, and you get a space that, Hey, I
Unknown:saw that. And now I can start working towards that and start
Unknown:moving towards that. So you know, some people can do this
Unknown:one time and have this amazing experience reconnection and then
Unknown:go for it. But a lot of people, you know, you still have to go
Unknown:back and and do the work, you still have to realize that you
Unknown:are that spirit inside, and then start trying to contact that
Unknown:intentionally, mindfully. Right? Exactly going forward in exactly
Unknown:actually make those changes in your life. Because if you're
Unknown:living a life, that that causes you to get into that state of
Unknown:anxiety and depression, and you you go do these experiences, but
Unknown:then you don't change anything, when you get back, well not,
Unknown:then that experience just becomes a memory and then it
Unknown:becomes a faint memory and everything that was going wrong
Unknown:is still going wrong. And those distractions pile up and cover
Unknown:you up again. So you have to do the work to get right to get
Unknown:through that to take that away so that you can then make the
Unknown:changes to get in contact with yourself more often.
Alan Carroll:And when you do you have do you have a practice
Alan Carroll:yourself? If you do on a daily basis?
Unknown:Um, daily basis? No, I have been trying for years to
Unknown:set myself up a daily practice. And I talked about this brain
Unknown:damage that I have quite a lot, it makes things really
Unknown:interesting for me, there is so much that I see there's so much
Unknown:where I'm in contact a lot with myself that how to say this,
Unknown:that that it's not necessary, for me quite the same way. But
Unknown:then when I start to get out of balance, I do have to step back
Unknown:into my practices. And yeah, so I have been challenged in very
Unknown:interesting ways. And unfortunately, I think I did
Unknown:that to myself. Because so I've been out a lot of these tools
Unknown:and techniques since I was a teenager. So 30 or 40 years. And
Unknown:And at one point when things were going really well. And I
Unknown:thought I had control of it. I basically challenged God is
Unknown:like, Hey, God, I'm ready. I think I'm ready for the next
Unknown:step. I want to start, you know, and God picked up Mount Hood,
Unknown:and hit me over the head with it, and shattered all of my
Unknown:practices. So I was I was doing so much things, right. I was
Unknown:doing the breathing, I was making my decisions based on
Unknown:love. It's like, okay, these are the decisions I have to make.
Unknown:What is the most loving decision, it's like, it might
Unknown:not necessarily be the most loving for me, but for the
Unknown:overall whatever is happening, what decision would be based in
Unknown:love. And I was doing the meditations and then I got hit
Unknown:in the head really hard. And my business fell apart. I stopped
Unknown:being able to do paperwork, I stopped being able to talk on
Unknown:the phone, meditation when I would go into a meditation I
Unknown:would come out of it in a rage instead of in a peaceful place.
Unknown:I would like get quiet and and just like freak out. And and so
Unknown:that that is my path now. So getting back from that I'm
Unknown:learning so much more how to talk to other people about it.
Unknown:So I challenged God to make me useful, and he smacked me upside
Unknown:of the head. It is like, Okay, you thought you got it from a
Unknown:place of ease. Well try it from this, this, this place where
Unknown:you're messed up, you feel like you're broken. And now Now go do
Unknown:that now figure out how to help people. And that's kind of where
Unknown:I am now. So there's a lot of stuff. There's a lot of these
Unknown:practices that I have to sneak up on now. Because if I hit them
Unknown:head on, if I was like, I'm going to go here, and I'm going
Unknown:to do this like I used to do. It doesn't work for me. But at the
Unknown:same time, I can also see where I was in other people's like,
Unknown:Hey, I was here at this point, and you can go around it this
Unknown:way, oh, hey, I was here at this point. And you can move this way
Unknown:and get through it. So it makes me a better coach. But at the
Unknown:same time, a lot of the practices that I had aren't as
Unknown:effective, so I have to sneak up on it. So that's, this is what
Unknown:I'm talking about driving. So when I'm out driving, and I
Unknown:start looking at the beauty in the postcards and I start
Unknown:putting myself in that space, I have to like, be distracted on
Unknown:the outside to be able to get focused on the inside. And a lot
Unknown:of people have to be cut all of those distractions out and get
Unknown:to the middle, I have to be distracted to kind of get into
Unknown:it now. So it's this weird place of, of Wow, how to say it's like
Unknown:the guru on the mountain. So they're like these, there's
Unknown:these comics, like the Wizard of it of the guy up on the
Unknown:mountain, and these people climb up to the mountain and ask him a
Unknown:question. And he gives them just like this really simple answer.
Unknown:And their mind is blown. And they go down and they live. And
Unknown:that guy is up on the mountain. Because he knows how messed up
Unknown:all of this stuff is down here and he doesn't fit in that down
Unknown:there anymore. And that and that's kind of me, you know,
Unknown:fitting into normal life doesn't mean so well anymore. So I'm
Unknown:like, I'm like Yoda in the swamp. Yoda got his butt kicked
Unknown:went to Degas. And Luke had to go drag him out of the swamp,
Unknown:Obi Wan got his butt kicked, went to live on a desert planet
Unknown:under a rock. And again, Luke Skywalker had to go find him and
Unknown:drag his brother, but and then they helped him, they help the
Unknown:warrior go fight that battle. So I'm not the warrior out front
Unknown:anymore. I'm not the guy who's leading the charge. I'm kind of
Unknown:sitting back. And it's like, the warriors come to me. And it's
Unknown:like, Hey, cool, he used the Force. Hey, cool, here's how you
Unknown:do this. But that guy out front, being able to be in that space
Unknown:leading the charge against the those forces, that's not
Unknown:necessarily me in them anymore. So I like can sit back and I can
Unknown:help guide people who are still in that fight, as I pretty much
Unknown:sit back and work on repairing the damage of getting my own
Unknown:butt kicked in that fight.
Alan Carroll:Yeah, based on your own experiences, you have
Alan Carroll:compassion for other people who are on that suffering path. And
Alan Carroll:if you can reduce the suffering of others, through your sharing
Alan Carroll:of your experiences, seems like a wonderful way to pass the
Alan Carroll:time.
Unknown:Yeah, somebody once asked me how I want to be
Unknown:remembered. And and it was, it's actually something that I had
Unknown:thought of before, not necessarily how I wanted to be
Unknown:remembered, but how I kind of go through life. And to me, I got
Unknown:to the point where everything is God. And so you are an
Unknown:individualized aspect of God, God had to you know, God is
Unknown:everything. How does God experience the universe? How
Unknown:does God see what he's done? Well, he separates himself lower
Unknown:and lower and lower until he can forget who he is. So I'm a
Unknown:little tiny piece of God who has forgotten he is God. But the
Unknown:amazing thing about humans and you know, it says it's in the
Unknown:Bible we are created in His image. We are little tiny
Unknown:fractals of God who have forgotten the the wholeness so
Unknown:that we can then experience His creation and show him himself so
Unknown:we know so for instance, I know I'm God but I'm not God. But
Unknown:knowing I'm god, I can look around and and experience that
Unknown:and then relay what he is back to him. And so that's also what
Unknown:you are. So in. So we are children of God. So I know that
Unknown:your God and that we are going to be sharing experiences in the
Unknown:ultimate at the end. So If we ever if there is an afterlife is
Unknown:there if there is this ultimate, then when we get together, I
Unknown:want to be known as I saw you as God. And I tried to make God's
Unknown:experience while interacting with me as positive and as
Unknown:healthy as possible. So when I see people, when I meet people,
Unknown:when I talk with people like this is a little being of God,
Unknown:how can I make God's experience here better at this time? Now,
Unknown:am I always successful with that? No, I still get mad, I
Unknown:still lose my temper. You know, sometimes when people don't know
Unknown:their God, they're inconsiderate, I get caught up
Unknown:in the reality of the moment. So you know, I am not perfect. And
Unknown:while I say I am God, I am not God. And I cannot. I cannot be
Unknown:that all of the time. And also we are here to experience we are
Unknown:here to get frustrated and angry and mad and all of that, because
Unknown:that's also part of this experience is not just the
Unknown:worship, it's not just the seeing how beautiful it is, it's
Unknown:also to have this life to have this experience to to be all of
Unknown:these things to get my head knocked into have all of these
Unknown:problems, and then to find a way to overcome it. But if in that
Unknown:when I can find these times where I can, I can be in this
Unknown:space, to recognize the divinity and others. And for those
Unknown:moments, try and make that person's journey just a little
Unknown:bit better, a little bit more comfortable to know that I see
Unknown:God in you. And as God is looking back at me to say, Hey,
Unknown:I see you I know you're there. And I love you, and I wish the
Unknown:best for you. And, you know, because that really is, to me,
Unknown:one of the one of the most kindest things that I can do is
Unknown:to try and make the experience not not for other humans, but
Unknown:for all of these other little beings of God. And that is that
Unknown:is what we all are.
Alan Carroll:What beautiful ways of saying it her very, very
Alan Carroll:nice. The you have that? The oneness, how do you you the idea
Alan Carroll:is if there's no judgment, it's all oneness. We're all God and,
Alan Carroll:and I liked the way you have worded it. It was very, very
Alan Carroll:nice. And now we're going to be
Unknown:gone years yearly to come up with that. And it
Unknown:actually kind of started as a joke. And the question that got
Unknown:me, that got me there is is there a place where nothing
Unknown:exists? Because we use that word a lot. And oh, what goes faster
Unknown:than the speed of light? Nothing what's greater than God?
Unknown:Nothing. So there's like, is, is there a place where nothing
Unknown:exists? And but I, I told you, my wife and I would drive a lot.
Unknown:And so as I'm driving, it's like I am driving, I can't, there's
Unknown:not a lot else I could do. So I would go into these thought
Unknown:processes. So I wouldn't be driving around thinking about
Unknown:this. And I got to the point where if nothing exists, there
Unknown:can only be one thing that does exist. And it doesn't matter how
Unknown:big it is, or how small it is, from the point of view of
Unknown:nothing, there's only one thing that exists, because if there's
Unknown:two things, if there's nothing between them, then they exist in
Unknown:the same space. But if there if there are two things, well, then
Unknown:nothing knows that their space, the distance and time that it
Unknown:takes to get between the two of them. And it'll draw a circle
Unknown:around it, make it one thing and then move away from it at the
Unknown:speed of light to make it a single point. And so there can
Unknown:only be and I don't know that this is true. This was just my
Unknown:this is just the way I was thinking. And so then the joke
Unknown:goes something like this. So if my wife and I are driving
Unknown:around, and I am contemplating nothing, and she asked me what
Unknown:I'm thinking about, and I say nothing. Am I telling her the
Unknown:truth?
Alan Carroll:And that's nothing,
Unknown:right? Right? Because I'm thinking about nothing. But
Unknown:but in the way I'm thinking about nothing, it's something
Unknown:and so, with the with the nothing and the one thing that
Unknown:exists, the one thing that exists has to come from nothing.
Unknown:And that so the way I describe it is that the one thing that
Unknown:exists is the body of God, the physicality of everything is the
Unknown:body of God, and the nothing from which it arose, is the
Unknown:Spirit of God. So what is greater than, than the universe
Unknown:or what is faster than what is faster than light? Nothing? Yes,
Unknown:it is. It moves away from everything faster, to keep
Unknown:everything at the single point what is greater than God?
Unknown:Nothing because God the physicality of God came from the
Unknown:The Grand spirit of nothing. So nothing is the Spirit of God
Unknown:it's eternal is the ocean upon which the first words I am were
Unknown:spoken, which created everything. And so the one thing
Unknown:that exists is everything. And that's part of what we are, we
Unknown:are part of that everything, we are part of that one thing that
Unknown:exists, we are an incredibly, incredibly tiny part of that
Unknown:floating on an incredibly tiny planet floating on a really
Unknown:small sun. If you think about the size of the suns in a
Unknown:relatively small galaxy, in this ginormous thing of nothing. So
Unknown:it took a long time for God to get away from himself enough to
Unknown:be able to then start experiencing the grandness of of
Unknown:the everything that he is.
Alan Carroll:I hear you, I hear you describe, describe sampling
Alan Carroll:that is nothing? And how do you describe nothing with something
Alan Carroll:and you can't describe nothing with something. But you can
Alan Carroll:start to create images. Right that what that one you created
Alan Carroll:with the hands in one hand here and one hand here, there's an
Alan Carroll:empty space there that you that you created. And so how do you
Alan Carroll:create those empty spaces consciously. And then the way
Alan Carroll:that a way of doing it is, is our mindfulness techniques,
Alan Carroll:which which he raised to some things, and when you can erase
Alan Carroll:to some things, then then you're left with nothing's, and like I
Alan Carroll:call that space you, which is the fifth element, the fifth
Alan Carroll:element is space. So you're in you're embedding the fifth
Alan Carroll:element in the physical world, by creating those gaps or pauses
Alan Carroll:between the somethings. And you become more spacious when you do
Alan Carroll:that.
Unknown:And nothing is also incredibly, incredibly small. So
Unknown:they, they tried to find a smallest particle of matter,
Unknown:right. So what they did is they took an electron, and if you
Unknown:look at a at a atom, it's a proton and an electron floating
Unknown:around it. And when they tried to look at it, it's mostly empty
Unknown:space. So then what they did is they took the smallest thing,
Unknown:they took the electron, and they broke it. And they found even
Unknown:tinier particles. And even within that, it was mostly empty
Unknown:space. And when they broke up, even this particles of that, it
Unknown:was still smaller particles with mostly nothing. And it was so
Unknown:more space. So even with all of the stuff that we actually see,
Unknown:or we think we see, it is mostly made up of nothing. Again, the
Unknown:particles that create it are so small, and the space between
Unknown:it's so big, like the distance between the neutron and the
Unknown:electron in an atom is greater than the distance between the
Unknown:Sun and the Earth and the outer planet. So it's like, there's
Unknown:there's so much space in everything. It's mostly made up
Unknown:of nothing. And it's just these weird viewpoints that we have
Unknown:that make it something. So how does God know the every thing
Unknown:because that nothingness between everything is also God, but at
Unknown:the same time, he's moving away from everything. And so there's
Unknown:only the one thing and it's just this really weird way my brain
Unknown:works that comes out that so this happened
Alan Carroll:after herb did this happen after your accident
Alan Carroll:that you had this breakthrough in consciousness? Are is, is you
Alan Carroll:know, medicines that do it? Um,
Unknown:that's a difficult question for me. So when I had
Unknown:my brain scan, it came back as a series of traumatic brain
Unknown:injuries. So the final accident was the straw that broke the
Unknown:camel's back. But if you think about that analogy, if you added
Unknown:one more straw to the candle that broke its back. That candle
Unknown:was way overweight and he was hurt and he was in pain. He was
Unknown:he was done. I had fallen out of trees. When before I was five. I
Unknown:remember my I remember this when I was running across a
Unknown:playground and I ran behind a swing set and got hit by
Unknown:somebody swinging went flying smacked. The head had to be
Unknown:taken to the hospital. I've fallen off Have I fallen off the
Unknown:old slides. You know, when when we were kids. We had these big
Unknown:huge tall metal slides. And I fell on out of slides. I got hit
Unknown:in the head with a baseball bat. I got hit in the head with a
Unknown:baseball and this was all before I was eight years old because I
Unknown:left California to Oregon when I was eight years old. In those
Unknown:those five or six I just listed there were all before I was
Unknown:eight. When I got into where I in the Oregon, it's like I
Unknown:played all sports. I played basketball, baseball, football.
Unknown:Again, bad hops got hit in the head with baseballs, footballs,
Unknown:I knocked myself out a couple of times. And then I got into
Unknown:college, and I started playing or I started snowboarding. And
Unknown:the first time I went snowboarding, I came home with a
Unknown:concussion and whiplash. And I was so messed up, I couldn't get
Unknown:out of bed for a week, I had to like pull myself to the edge and
Unknown:then like roll out because I couldn't sit up because of all
Unknown:and I was so hurt that I bought all of my gear, my snowboard, my
Unknown:boots, my bindings, everything before I went up again. And it
Unknown:was probably six or seven years before I bought a helmet. And
Unknown:then once I got a helmet, I still concussed myself like two
Unknown:or three times snowboarding. So it wasn't it wasn't a single
Unknown:incident. So I talked about how I was into a lot of this stuff
Unknown:since I was a teenager. So I was open to Reiki at 16. I started
Unknown:doing the Merkava meditation in my early 20s, I did healing
Unknown:touch, I did the bars, you know, I ran the gamut. Because I had,
Unknown:I had superpowers when I was when I was a kid. I had an
Unknown:ability to touch heal people, I, when I would start a
Unknown:conversation with somebody, and then something would click and I
Unknown:would start caring on both sides of the conversation. And I would
Unknown:start talking about stuff that happened to them while they were
Unknown:when they were children and, and how they could work through
Unknown:issues with their parents. And then when I was and I didn't do
Unknown:that intentionally, just kind of would take me over sometimes.
Unknown:And my wife who I was dating at the time, she was around me the
Unknown:most had happened to her the most. And it would make her cry
Unknown:sometimes of how accurate and thorough what I was talking
Unknown:about was, and it really kind of scared both of us. So I put that
Unknown:away. I still have it, I can still do it. But I've put so
Unknown:many locks on it. That is really difficult for me to bring that
Unknown:out intentionally. And sometimes it's painful now. And so I put
Unknown:that away. And then I started exploring, what what was that?
Unknown:What was I doing? And so I went, I would go look at this kind of
Unknown:modality and people and I would start learning about that and
Unknown:say, and that someone would say, oh, yeah, this is all you need
Unknown:this is it. And it's like, well, that doesn't explain what I did.
Unknown:And so if you're saying this is all there is, then then you
Unknown:can't be correct, because that doesn't explain what I did. And
Unknown:I would like walk away from that, and then move to the next
Unknown:thing. And then that same thing would happen is like, Oh, well,
Unknown:this is all that you need. This is all there is I was like, No,
Unknown:that doesn't explain me. So I would leave that and go to the
Unknown:next thing. And after doing that for about 20 years, I got into a
Unknown:conversation like this. And I realized this, like, you know
Unknown:what, I took the truth of that I took the truth of this, I took
Unknown:the truth of that. And I kind of made a grander narrative for
Unknown:myself that that kind of contains all of this. And I
Unknown:still in all of that never necessarily found out what it
Unknown:was that I did or what I was. And then as I did start to get
Unknown:close to that, then the straw that broke the camel's back. And
Unknown:it was a really, it was a really bad hit. I was going down the
Unknown:mountain as fast as I could. It was at the end of the day, I was
Unknown:tired. And I did what's called high side I was on my toe edge,
Unknown:I hit a bump, my heels rolled back, I caught the back edge.
Unknown:And then I'm flying through the air down a really steep hill,
Unknown:looking at the clouds. Actually, I actually have a story written
Unknown:about oh, looking at the clouds, watching them peacefully drifts
Unknown:through the sky. And thinking to myself, Wow, this is really
Unknown:going to hurt when I hit the ground who really, really long
Unknown:time to consider that. And it's like I also thought there's the
Unknown:stories about how drunk people are the only people who survive
Unknown:a crash and it's because they're all limp and they don't tense
Unknown:up. So it's like, okay, can I just relax. So when this when I
Unknown:do finally hit, I can come in. And I remember okay, just relax,
Unknown:breathe, relax, and then pain. I hurt my shoulder, I hurt my hip.
Unknown:I started seeing a chiropractor and an acupuncturist for that.
Unknown:And during that my business started falling apart. I stopped
Unknown:being able to do a lot of simple tasks. But I was more concerned
Unknown:with the body damage and I didn't really consider how badly
Unknown:I had hurt my head. And this was before all of the concussion
Unknown:protocols and all of the stuff that that people talk about now.
Unknown:So it wasn't The first time I hit my head, but it was
Unknown:definitely God telling me to slow down. And I'm still, I'm
Unknown:still recovering from that. But in that recovery, you know, I've
Unknown:had to start talking to people. And I talk this way, I've always
Unknown:been this way, you can go back to the people that I was with in
Unknown:high school, and they will tell you this strange stories of
Unknown:herb. When I worked at Intel, they call them herb isms,
Unknown:because I would, there would be conversations, and I would come
Unknown:in with these weird points of view. So I was always kind of
Unknown:like this. But that last hit, took me out, slowed me down,
Unknown:brought my life down to where I pretty much only have three or
Unknown:four had three or four people in my life that I talked to, which
Unknown:was my wife, and my children. And then, and then as I started
Unknown:to come back to life to come back out of this, then people
Unknown:started saying, hey, the stuff that you're talking about is
Unknown:different. And I need to hear more of that. Or, hey, you know,
Unknown:you're talking about this, and I tried to implement that. And
Unknown:wow, it did amazing stuff for me. So these baling wire, and
Unknown:string and duct tape that I have holding myself together, people
Unknown:see that and can take these little things that I'm doing and
Unknown:can like, apply them to their life, and they like, boom, take
Unknown:off, and it's like, wow, I didn't know this was possible.
Unknown:And it's like, sometimes that almost kind of makes me feel
Unknown:bad, because it's like, I wish I wish I could, these things that
Unknown:I was doing helped me that much. But it feels like they're just
Unknown:barely holding me together. But as people, you know, take these
Unknown:things, then they're if they're not as broken as I am,
Unknown:everybody's broken, but not everybody's as broken as I am,
Unknown:they're able to take these little strings and baling wire
Unknown:and tips that are holding me together and use it to
Unknown:accelerate their life. And so I'm I'm now trying to be more
Unknown:sharing of this, bring this out more, I'm doing these podcasts,
Unknown:I've become a coach. So I went through a coaching certification
Unknown:program called being true to you, I started to do that as
Unknown:part of my own healing after a psychedelic journey. And I fell
Unknown:in love with the community, it so many people more understand
Unknown:what I talk about. And they're looking for tools like this to
Unknown:help their clients. And so I tend to be more of a really good
Unknown:resource for these people. And I bring something to the table
Unknown:that I still don't necessarily know what it is because like I
Unknown:said, for me, it's duct tape and string and little bits holding
Unknown:me together. But for them, it's like tools that they may have
Unknown:forgotten or they don't remember, they don't know the
Unknown:full depth of how they work. And because I've gone through so
Unknown:many of these experiences that I'm able to somehow convey this
Unknown:to them, even though it feels to me like I'm barely holding it
Unknown:together, they see these things as like, Wow, that's amazing.
Unknown:Let's show that to people. And I'm able to help people that
Unknown:way. So it makes me kind of feel better about about, about how,
Unknown:how messed up I am. But not because, again, I get to help
Unknown:other people come more into their spirituality into their
Unknown:life and to see life as what it could be.
Alan Carroll:instead. Yeah, you talked about being God and you
Alan Carroll:know, God can't be messed up. So the ego can be messed up. But
Alan Carroll:the God God can't be messed up. You're where God so you have to
Alan Carroll:sort of laugh at the thoughts of ya messed up, right? That's
Alan Carroll:That's funny, right?
Unknown:That's actually one of the one of the funny things I
Unknown:say is like, the only thing that's not perfect in this
Unknown:entire universe is my understanding of perfection. God
Unknown:doesn't mean there isn't a single atom out of place in the
Unknown:entire universe. So how come I feel so out of place? So the
Unknown:only thing that's not perfect, is my understanding of what
Unknown:perfection is.
Alan Carroll:That's beautiful. That's very, very clear. That
Alan Carroll:that's a postcard. Herb, you want to put that when a post is
Alan Carroll:not done. When you take pictures of postcards. You can put words
Alan Carroll:in that postcard. Yeah, go ahead and say it one more time for the
Alan Carroll:audience. They say that one more time for the audience. And then
Alan Carroll:we're never going to complete.
Unknown:Okay, so, you know, everything in the universe is
Unknown:absolutely perfect. Everything is exactly where it's supposed
Unknown:to be. There is not an atom out of place. God doesn't make
Unknown:mistakes. So the only thing that isn't perfect in all of the
Unknown:universe, is my understanding of what perfection is.
Alan Carroll:And understanding is made up of the thoughts that
Alan Carroll:you that you think and if you can begin to erase the thoughts,
Alan Carroll:you return to that mindful space of nothingness. Well, Herb, it's
Alan Carroll:been a joy talking to work. Go ahead, finish it up.
Unknown:Okay. And even that flawed perfection that that,
Unknown:that the flawed perception of what perfection is, that's also
Unknown:intentional, because it then allows me to show up and bring
Unknown:these ideas to other people who think that stuff is broken. So,
Unknown:yep, yep. So you can,
Alan Carroll:you can make that connection and create that
Alan Carroll:common ground, which makes them more trusting and more open to
Alan Carroll:hear the the wisdom, the urbanism that you really are,
Alan Carroll:you are, you are sharing your you've, you've traveled
Alan Carroll:somewhere, you have experienced something, and you're not coming
Alan Carroll:back on the trail, looking at other people who are on the
Alan Carroll:trail. And you're saying, Hey, I've been up the trail aways, if
Alan Carroll:you do this, this and this, it will accelerate you up the
Alan Carroll:trail. And so that is a that is like a metaphysician that a
Alan Carroll:teacher, I want to I want to thank you for being on the
Alan Carroll:mindful you podcast. Also, if people want to connect with you,
Alan Carroll:we'll have all your social media in the notes, is there is there
Alan Carroll:something happening that you would like them to connect with
Alan Carroll:you or ways to connect to you what's the best way to connect
Alan Carroll:with you.
Unknown:Now, probably the best way right now would be on my
Unknown:Facebook page. And you know, I have the free gift, which is a
Unknown:call with me. So a half an hour or an hour usually ends up going
Unknown:a lot longer, because I have a weird sense of time. So unless
Unknown:something is after the end of it, I just keep talking or
Unknown:listening, whichever is more appropriate at the time. So you
Unknown:know, set up a call with me, or hook up with me on Facebook,
Unknown:follow me on Facebook. And and let me know you're there. And
Unknown:we'll we'll keep going.
Alan Carroll:Excellent, excellent. Herb, it's, it's, you
Alan Carroll:are a traveler on the path. I love those things that you
Alan Carroll:shared with with the audience. And also I liked it because I
Alan Carroll:have I understand the nothings into some things. And so I It's
Alan Carroll:nice to meet somebody who you can pass the football to, and
Alan Carroll:they'll be able to catch the football and pass it back again.
Alan Carroll:So I sense a real partnership and in our in our journey
Alan Carroll:together. And I just know that there's, there's more, there's
Alan Carroll:more for you to say. So I'd like to invite you back at some time
Alan Carroll:in the future just to continue our conversation, because it
Alan Carroll:really does make a difference.
Unknown:I'd love to be here. And while it is great to be able
Unknown:to play catch with someone who knows what they're doing. It's
Unknown:also really awesome to teach people to start playing catch so
Unknown:that you have more people to play with in the future. And so
Unknown:I'm absolutely good. Starting to is to help people learn how to
Unknown:start playing that game of catch.
Alan Carroll:Beautifully said I love it. Well let's let's
Alan Carroll:continue the game then. Thank you very much. Thank you again