Angie Rash shares her incredible journey of faith, resilience, and transformation, highlighting that even in the depths of despair, we can find hope and redemption.

She opens up about her struggles, from growing up in a challenging environment to facing personal crises that nearly led her to lose everything. Throughout our conversation, we reflect on the idea that sometimes, we may feel like God has forsaken us, but in reality, He might be waiting for us to take that first step back towards Him.

Angie emphasizes the importance of surrendering to God’s will, noting that true peace comes from recognizing our worth through His eyes.

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I've walked through fire with shadows on my heels Scars turn to stories that taught me to feel lost in the silence found in the flame now wear my battle cry without shame this isn't the end it's where I begin A soul that remembers the fire we dead.

Welcome back to another episode of A Warrior Spirit, brought to you by Praxis33.

I'm your host, Darrel Snow.

Let's dive in.

A warrior spirit was created for those who have been forged in the fire and have survived the trials and tribulations that their life has given them.

My guest today, Angie Rasch, is no different.

She's a Christian woman who has lived her own trials and tribulations and by God's grace and mercy, is on the other side of it and living her best life.

So, Angie, I appreciate you joining me and thank you to welcome to the show.

Thank you for having me.

It's an honor to be here.

You and I met almost a year ago now.

Not quite.

Just a little.

Just a little under.

And we were both in a crypto program.

But our lives didn't start in crypto.

Our lives started much sooner than that.

Where did you.

Where did you grow up?

I actually grew up in California, born and raised there, and moved to Arizona about six years ago.

So what brought you to the hotness of the desert?

Well, we actually used to come and visit my husband's father, and then we were thinking about getting A.

A board in care for seniors and purchase one passed away.

And I guess God had other plans for us.

It just, it turned out that the facility that we were looking at just wasn't a good fit.

And so we just decided to stay here and do other things.

And we, we really like it here, so.

Well, I appreciate that we met in our past.

I know in the opening I mentioned that you've, you know, lived a hard life and had some trials.

What was it like growing up in California?

Well, I was born in the heart of east la, so if that doesn't tell you right off the bat, it was, you know, I was the oldest of three daughters.

My mother was a single mother trying to raise three.

Three girls.

And through that process of my teenage lives, I would say, you know, she had gotten married and divorced about six different times looking for Mr.

Right.

So, yeah.

So you had a revolving door of father figures or men coming through your life.

What, what age were you when you first had that start to happen?

Well, you know, I was going to.

I've done a lot of praying today and just trying to decide how I wanted to share my story.

And, you know, one of the things that really stands out as I think back about my life is that because there have been so many trials and tribulations and it's only been through the grace of God that I've gotten through them all.

And, you know, I think about this world and what a spiritual warfare we really are in.

And I really want people to understand that because I think that a lot of times our lives, people might think that they're predestined and that, you know, we.

But we have choices and sometimes we make bad choices and sometimes we have circumstances that are beyond our control.

But ultimately, I believe that when we give God the grace, then we can accept his plan in spite of all of the trials that happen in between that where I think that there's a lot of attacks by Satan, if that makes sense.

Oh, absolutely.

I fully understand that.

We're, I mean, if you look at the world around us today, and my wife and I talk about this all the time, there's always been tribulation in the world.

There's always been trials in the world.

I mean, you can go clear back to Adam and Eve and once they were, you know, expelled from the garden.

Life has never been easy for any of us.

We've all had to walk through our own fires, and every civilization has looked and said, oh, this is the end of times and how bad life is.

But I think more people are stepping into their spirituality and into the grace of God and into this awakening of all this other stuff around us.

And so it makes it feel stronger.

It makes it feel like, you know, man, because we're aware now and we're living the awareness.

So, in that path that you've had to take, what did that look like on your journey?

What were some of your early trials that you had to go through?

Well, you know, being raised by my mom, I think there was a lot of dysfunction, as you said, open doors, you know, abandonment issues.

And a lot of these things we don't realize until, you know, we get older and we've made bad choices and learned from them.

I think there was a time that I used to feel that there was always something missing.

I was always looking for something, and I always felt like I was never good enough.

Being the oldest daughter, I was raised to take on a lot of responsibility at an early age.

And I know that my mom tried to do the best that she could with me, but a lot of it was very, very dysfunct.

And so I just did the best I could to just get through what I consider to be, you know, verbal abuse, even physical abuse.

And I got married at 19 to get out of the house, basically.

And, you know, I just figured that I knew it all at that age and I was going to live happily ever after.

And, boy, was I in for a rude awakening.

You know, I married somebody that I felt was so much better than me, you know, being Hispanic.

He was the all American white boy that, you know, went to college, was educated, and he was, you know, about three years older than me at the time.

I had just graduated, and I.

And I used to put him on a pedestal.

And I feel like now looking back at that, I identified who I was as being his wife or the children to, you know, the mother to our children.

And, you know, we had four children together, and we were married for 23 years.

He was a police officer.

But however, in that time in that relationship, there was a lot of dysfunction within itself.

And I think because I was broken and I didn't know it, you know, I.

Early years, I believe that I was an amazing mother.

I sewed all their clothes, you know, their.

Their bedspread, their pillow shams, their curtains, went to all of the PTA meetings and the.

The soccer and the T ball and, you know, helped them with their Homework and spelling bees, and you name it, I was there and I did that.

And I.

And I loved every bit of it.

But in that process, I think because of the relationship that I had with my.

My first husband, not realizing how dysfunctional it was, I gave up a lot of my power.

And it was almost as if I was more of a daughter than I was a wife in that relationship because I fell into the same pattern that I did with my mom.

And that was like, I was never good enough.

And everything I did, it was constantly pointed out that I needed to do it differently.

And I think in between the time of being married for those 24 years, at some point, I finally grew up and became the woman that I think I was meant to be all of those years.

But I went through a very, very difficult time.

And I actually had started my own business at the.

My fourth child.

She was 10 months old at the time.

It was a home health business, did extremely well, $4 million company.

Unfortunately, I went through a lawsuit.

And at that time, I think it was probably a turning point in my life.

I ended up getting divorced because I just felt like I wasn't able to meet those standards anymore of he wanted me to be.

I had built a very successful business and.

And then I got remarried three years after being divorced and went totally opposite of what I was married to the first time.

Very conservative police officer.

Then I went and married somebody who was, you know, riding motorcycles, covered in tattoos, sailor mouth, you know, every other word was profanity.

And I think it was because I. I felt like it's now my time to do what I want to do because, you know, do you think you.

Were rebelling like, I know you were rebelling with your first marriage because you said you did it to get out of your house, which is ironic that you then fell back into your house only on a married version, you know.

Right.

Were you.

Were you pregnant when you got married, or did you get pregnant after you got married?

No, I got pregnant afterwards.

All of our children were planned.

And I mean, you know, from the.

From looking out, we were the all American family.

And.

But inside I felt like I was a trophy wife, you know, and my kids were everything.

But as far as how I felt about myself or my marriage, I felt like I was living a lie.

And then again, I went, you know, and got remarried and.

And lived a totally, you know, different life.

And I'm going to ask you, in between those two marriages, how much time between your divorce and finding the new guy and then marrying him, how Much time passed.

Three years from the time you met or the time you got remarried?

The time from the time we got remarried.

Well, we had dated for about a year, so I guess two years.

So you had two years of trying to figure out who Angie was, but you were still a mom with younger children and still trying to figure all that out.

How does someone who lived in the chaos that you lived in build a business that's worth $4 million?

You know, that in itself is its own story.

But I, I just did a lot of research.

I got an attorney, you know, he did a lot of my, my handbooks, my workbooks.

It was a home health company.

I just, I connected with a lot of people in the community and I just believe it was God's plan, honestly, because I didn't even know what I was doing because had I known I probably would have never done it had I known how expensive workers comp was.

I had over 100 employees during that time.

I had the business for 17 years.

And you know, it's almost in hindsight you just kind of do what you think you learn as you go and you know, it was a very successful business.

But going through that lawsuit, just to explain briefly, it was something that I had no idea because I used to do like non medical home care and there was a wage order 15 meaning that the caregivers could, could do like a live in position where they would stay at the home with the clients and care for them 24 7.

They were paid on a 24 hour a flat fee.

All of the companies in the co ops, we were all charging the same amount and I thought that we were in compliance.

And it turned out that I had an employee that had come from another company that had sued another company a year prior to coming to me and knew that the wage that I was paying was like A$80, A$80 something is short.

And I had no idea.

And so she contacted an attorney and it turned into a class action suit.

And because I had the business for 17 years, I had to go back and you know, there was fees and it was a nightmare.

So that took several years to go through that lawsuit and it finally got to the point where I had to just claim bankruptcy.

And what's funny is that I used to treat these caregivers like they were family.

I mean if somebody needed tires to get to work, I'd buy, buy them tires if, if they needed money for their electric bill, you know, I, I mean I helped them out like they were family.

But then when it came to having thinking that they were going to get all this money from this lawsuit.

It.

It shut me down.

I had.

There was no way that I could pay back all of that restitution from that many years of.

Of fees.

And.

And in that process, I made some really bad decisions because I think I was just under so much stress.

And then being married to my second husband, which wasn't a very good influence to begin with, but.

And then I.

And I realized at that time I was looking.

I would go to palm readers and I would go to psychics, and I was just wanting somebody to give me an answer that things were going to get better.

Because this lawsuit, I had my.

My house repoed.

You know, the bank took my house, my cars were repoed in front of my business, in front of my employees.

It was devastating.

I lost everything.

And I thought, how could God just bless me and take it all away?

Well, he did, because I wasn't walking with him anymore.

And I truly believe that I was a Christian and baptized even before that.

And I believe that I was a child of God and he had always protected me.

But I think that I opened the doors and we talk about that spiritual warfare.

And I believe that I may have had some kind of, I don't know, entity attached to me or something, because I was not the same person that I had always known that I.

Who I am now.

And, you know, I had gotten into drugs and promiscuity and spending all the money that I was making.

And.

And again, you know, God gives and take it away.

And I lost everything.

And it brought me to my knees and to the point where I just.

I literally wanted to die.

And I had attempted suicide.

And I was going.

This was about 20 years ago, and I'll be 64 now, so mid-40s.

Yeah, yeah.

You obviously weren't being the steward that God wanted, so God said, okay, well, we'll start over.

So I am going to take a quick break here real quick.

We're going to come back and we're going to talk about that restart, because I think it's very important to understand that even when everything is taken away, when we return to our faith, everything can return to us.

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Hey, welcome back to the show.

We're talking with Angie Rasch.

And when we left, we were talking about the lack of stewardship you were giving to what God had given you and how that had driven you towards suicide.

And thankfully you were not here.

What do you think saved you from going through with that?

I believe that God had a hold on me and he said to Satan, this child is mine.

You can have her.

And I'm, I'm very, very grateful for that because I shouldn't be here.

I took a whole bottle of Soma.

I was in a coma for five days.

I woke up to having my four children around the hospital bed.

And I realized I created a lot of damage.

And you know, they were very angry and rightfully so.

I think it was, in looking back, it was a very selfish decision.

But when you're in that deep, dark hole, you, you don't, you don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

And all you know is you just don't want to feel the pain anymore.

And you know, I had had a. I think what kind of led to it was I had an altercation with my, my first husband.

And this is what actually has, I think also led to no contact with my two children.

I have four children, but it's been almost 20 years, it's 18 years now that I basically haven't had contact with them.

And so I don't blame my first husband and I believe that he, he meant to protect my children and what he felt he was doing was the right thing from me because I wasn't in the right mind.

But I think now looking back, it went to the extreme.

So basically I had lost my home and my cars and everything.

And I had asked one of my daughters if I could at least borrow some money for some groceries.

And I went to my ex husband's home is where she was living because we had 50, 50 custody.

And I didn't realize that he was at the house.

And so when he got to the door, he was not happy to see me and said that I needed to leave because nobody had invited me there.

And so I tried to explain that I was just there to get some money from my daughter and it'll only take a minute.

And he pushed me.

And once he pushed me, I just went red and I said, okay, I will leave.

And as I was getting ready to leave, I was parked, my car was parked behind, behind his truck.

And I went into a rage and I backed up my car and I rammed it into his truck and I backed It.

And I did that three times because I just thought, you will never put your hand on me again.

And I just should not have done that, obviously.

But I was in a rage.

And I know that there's a lot of families out there that are in domestic disputes and just family dysfunction, and we make bad choices.

And so I left and I received a call from the police.

And they basically said to me that they needed me to come to the police station and give my testimony.

And so I told them, I admit what I did and I'm sorry, and I shouldn't have done that.

I will make sure that I pay for all of the damages.

I've already contacted my insurance and they said, well, we still need you to come to the station.

And so I did.

And after I told the story, they basically arrested me and for, you know, vandalism.

And then they claimed that I was trying to run my daughter over, which was an absolute lie.

But that was something that my ex had my daughter write a letter to the judge saying that I was trying to run her over.

And that got dropped because my daughter didn't say to the judge what had happened.

Long story short, about a month later, during all of this, I ended up going to counseling.

And during the counseling session, as I was arriving, I noticed that there was two ambulance drivers at the.

In the waiting room.

And the counselor had asked me if I had attempted to hurt myself or hurt somebody else.

And.

And I said, well, that was a month ago.

And they said, well, we received a fax from your ex husband and we need to have you evaluated.

And so you need to go with these ambulance, these two gentlemen here from the ambulance.

And they took me against my will to Ventura, a whole nother city.

Took my phone away from me, and I wasn't able to contact anybody.

And.

And I said, how's that even possible?

I've been coming to counseling, I've been.

I've been doing what I've needed to do.

I haven't hurt anybody.

That, that was such a long time.

You know, for me, it felt like a long time, but nevertheless, I lived in a very small town and everybody knew everybody there.

And so when they received that fax from my ex husband, being a police officer, they felt that they needed to pursue that.

Well, turned out that they shouldn't have done that because that was a HIPAA violation.

And.

And because it was a month ago, I had not attempted suicide currently, so there was no reason for them to sit to Send me.

I found that out only after I came back because they didn't want me to sue them.

But anyways, what ended up happening was during that time, I was going through the lawsuit.

I lost my business, my cars, my home.

I was going through divorce from my second husband.

And I just.

A lot went on during that time.

And I realized that I, you know, I did.

I did a lot of damage.

And I have for.

For many years now.

Like I said, we're almost going on 20 years.

For many years there.

There wasn't a day that would go by that I wasn't in tears and I felt like I wanted to die again because I didn't have a relationship anymore with my two oldest children.

The judge had given my husband custody of our children at that time and said that I would be able to see my youngest daughter because everybody else was already 18 and over my youngest daughter if he allowed me and gave me permission.

And for six months, every time I called to try to go and see her, he would tell me that she was either sleeping or had homework or she was grounded or she was doing chores or she wasn't home.

And he would not allow me to talk to her.

And there was a restraining order against me and I couldn't see any of them.

And it was the hardest, hardest time ever.

Six months went by and I ran into her at the mall with him there.

And it was like an instant, like we were magnet.

We just ran towards each other and held each other.

And she said, mom, why haven't you called me?

And I said, I have been calling you.

Every time I call you, there's.

I can't get through to you.

Your dad won't let me talk to you.

And so I just said, I just want you to know that I love you and I'm going to try to get this reversed so that I can get custody.

50, 50 Custody again.

And we went our separate ways.

And a week later, I received a letter from the district attorney claiming that I violated my restraining order because I did not have his permission to see her.

And he had filed a complaint and I had to go to court.

And I just thought, this is ludicrous.

I didn't realize that I needed to ask permission because I just happened to run into her at a ball.

And so I went to court and got sent to jail for violating my probation or my restraining order.

And I was in there for about two weeks, came out, my mother and my ex husband at that time had picked me up.

I had all of my belongings.

I went Straight to my mom's house.

She made me dinner.

And then we were going to my house with my second husband.

And my mother calls me and says, the police are on their way to your house.

They're looking for you.

And I said, why?

I just got out of jail.

What could I have possibly done?

What do they want?

She said, I don't know, but they're on their way.

So they call.

They showed up at my house, and the police officer said, you realize that you have a restraining order against you and you're not supposed to contact any of your family members.

And I, you know, your.

Your children or your ex husband.

And I said, I haven't.

I just.

I just got picked up and I've just been at my mom's.

And he said, well, we need to see your phone, because apparently you have attempted to call your daughter.

And I said, no, I haven't.

I said, you could ask, you know, my, My.

He was still my husband at that time.

You could ask him, and even my mother.

And so they said, well, we need to see your phone.

And so I gave them my phone because I didn't think I had anything to worry about because I knew I didn't make a call, but apparently there was a call on my phone.

And the only thing that I can think of is that it was an automatic redial when I picked up my belongings.

And so he said, because it shows that I had tempted to call, There's a call on my phone.

They sent me back to jail, and I had to do 90 days.

So you were out for a few hours and then had to go back to jail?

Yes.

Wow.

And after that, now you have told this amazing hardship, and going through all that, I can only imagine that it's very easy to rail against God.

Why have you forsaken me?

Where are you?

How long did it take you to get reconnected with God?

Because I know you as a very strong woman of faith now.

I know you're very connected with God.

I know you feel very blessed to still be here and through his grace, still alive.

So I know that side of you.

But when we're in the middle of our shit, we're not sitting there going, oh, thank you, God, for lessons that are going to help me.

20 Years from now, we're like, get me out of here.

And when we don't get out of here, it is natural human nature to become very angry that we feel forsaken.

So how long did it take you to reconnect and get back to the faith that you're currently living in today.

And you know, he, we've never done drugs together.

He's just, you know, an amazing man.

Very patient, loving, kind.

And I just knew that I wanted to be with somebody that was going to be a good person.

And I was very grateful to have him in my life.

And, you know, it just, I think over the last few years, I've basically have reconnected.

How do I want to say it?

Recommitted my life to Christ.

Because when I was going through all of that turmoil, I believed the lie.

They had diagnosed me as bipolar because of my, my manic episodes.

And, and I look back at it and I believed it.

And I was on medication for a while and I haven't been on medication for years.

Once I basically recommitted my life to Christ because I believe that he can heal anything.

And I'm not suggesting that anybody get off of any medication if, you know, it's helping you.

But I, I, I, I feel that I, I was misdiagnosed because I think anybody in their, in their right mind is going to go crazy.

Going through a divorce, going through a lawsuit, losing their home, losing their cars, losing their children, and having to fight a judicial system that was against you because they all knew, you know, your ex.

I don't even know how I managed to get through all of that.

I felt like my life should have been on Lifetime tv, honestly.

You know, when my oldest daughter got married, she called me and said that I was not allowed to come to the wedding because her father did not want me there.

And I said, nobody's going to keep me from, if I have to stand.

It was at the Hilton.

If I have to stand in the parking lot to see you walk down the aisle, then I will be a bystander.

And one of his buddies called me and said, if you show up, you will be arrested because it's a private party and you're not invited.

And he had such an impact on my children.

And I just believe that anybody that is going through a no contact.

You can't possibly forget all of the good things that a parent has done unless you have somebody feeding you about how horrible that person must be.

And even if they made mistakes, it doesn't make me who I am.

I'm not that person.

And even after many years, you know, even just a few years after that whole thing, I took responsibility and I, and I tried to reach out to them and Apologize to them.

And I wrote them letters and I said I was sorry.

And I.

And I just.

I finally got to the point where I got tired of crying every day.

I get tired of.

Of begging to be their mother and to let me back in.

And so two out of my four children I've had a relationship with this whole time.

And the difference, I believe, is that what I see in my children, they all claim to be Christians.

I mean, they all say that they are, but it's the two that I have relationships with that when I see the way they live their life with their own family and the people in the way they treat the way they live their life, they bear fruit.

I see that in them.

And my other two children, as much as I love them, I have to love them from a distance.

And I know that they're borrowed.

They're not mine, they're God's.

And I just pray for them.

And I'm happy for all of the accomplishments that they've had.

And one of my daughters, my oldest daughter, she is.

She's a millionaire.

She's very successful.

She's, you know, in real estate.

My youngest daughter, you know, has four children.

She's a wonderful mother.

And.

And I want nothing but the best for them.

And I love them from a distance, and I.

And I miss them so, so, so bad.

But very easy.

I'm going to give you a second, because I know it's hard.

It's very easy to.

I mean, divorce is acrimonious at best on a good day.

And when it's tumultuous, like yours was, it's very easy for the remaining parent to sit there and go, look, she got arrested.

She went bankrupt.

She got in this lawsuit.

She deceived people.

She harmed herself by taking these pills.

She got involved with a drug user and is sexually permissive.

It's very easy to throw these labels around to show young, impressionable minds you're not worth their time.

She abandoned you.

Look, she never calls, she never writes.

She never wants to be a part of your life.

It's very easy to shield the truth and make the other person a villain.

Now, some of it correct, sure, but very easy to put those barriers up.

What is kind of hard to understand is that as adults and as you've changed your life and as you've.

Asked.

For your forgiveness and as you've repented your sins, how there's still no grace in their life if they don't want a relationship with you because they're harmed and they've had A bad experience.

Okay, I understand that.

I get it.

But to have no grace at all, to say you've changed and you've come back through it and you're different now, that part's a little challenging to understand.

So my heart goes out to you that you live this with your children.

Obviously, you talk to the two that you have a relationship with.

Have you ever.

I'm sure this is a dumb question, but when you've asked them, why can't they find any grace to at least just be civil?

We'll never be mom and child, but why can't they find the grace to just wish me well and say hi?

What do the two that have contact with you, how do they explain it?

You know, I don't blame their dad for wanting to protect them at that time from me because of the choices that I had made.

But again, like you just said, you know, there's been a lot of time that has passed since then.

However, their father does live close to them now within probably blocks.

And I just believe that a lot of it is fed through.

Through that, through his feeling towards me.

Because if he can't even be with.

In the same room with me, if we have an event with one of our grandchildren, I will always be there for my.

My children, my grandchildren, if.

If they obviously.

And.

But he will not show up if he knows that I'm there.

So.

So it's coming from, I believe, that source, because if he were to say, you know what, let's just go ahead and let bygones be bygones.

And I see that, you know, you've changed your different person.

You know, I mean, anybody that knows me today knows that I am a Christian and I give the glory to God in everything I do.

You know, I help people with crypto in helping them learn how to earn passive income.

And I get a lot of validation from it because I love helping people.

And it almost fills that void for me because I don't have, you know, obviously I do with my two children, but the other ones.

And so when somebody says to me, angie, thank you so much, you know, you're so amazing, and you give so much of yourself, and I can always call you and you're always there.

And in one way, I feel like I do almost minister to people through.

Through my.

Of helping them, you know, you and I have had many conversations, spiritual conversations, and I know anybody that knows me has.

Has seen that side of me as well.

And I just wonder, why can't they see that side of me, you know, And I.

And I pray and I pray and I pray.

And I just thought, well, maybe.

Maybe I was supposed to just go through this so that I can do this broadcast just for the sake of helping somebody else.

To know that you're not alone.

And you know that God gives the best, the grace that nobody could ever match.

And he's so loving, and you can accomplish anything.

And do not believe the lies.

Satan is a liar.

And if.

Thank God, I truly thank him for saving me, because I should not be here.

And otherwise, you know, Satan had a plan, and he put those pills in my hand and along with all of the other bad choices.

And I just made some really bad choices because I wasn't walking with God.

So let's build this bridge to your hell, to your heaven.

Let's build this bridge.

Because lots of people live in, you know, the darkness.

So you got out of jail.

All these terrible things happened to you.

You got out of jail, your phone, whatever it happened.

You had to go back to jail.

90 Days.

When did you get out and start experiencing the joy and happiness of having a relationship with God again?

How long did it take you to build that bridge?

And what actually helped you reconnect with Christ?

Well, my daughter.

My.

My.

The daughter that I speak to now that I've always had a relationship, my middle child, Jerry.

And she had invited me to a woman's retreat, and her.

And I went.

And at that.

At that time, I was a TikTok influencer doing TikTok shop.

And I was so frustrated, and I was just thinking, God, why have you forsaken me?

I mean, I'm trying to make money here, and I'm making, like, you know, $50 or $100 a month, and I'm spending so many hours.

And I just.

When I told my daughter, I said, I. I just feel like I'm.

I've been trying and trying, and I'm always praying that God's going to bless me.

And I just feel like he's forsaken me.

And she said to me, mom, I'm going to say something to you, and I want you to hear what I'm saying, because I'm speaking from the heart.

And she said, I'm not.

I'm not judging you, but I want you to realize that it's good that you're praying every day.

But, you know, it's almost like you're praying for what you want rather than praying for God's will.

She said, when is the last time that you actually read the Bible and got into God's word and went to church, not just on Easter or on Christmas, but truly, you know, gave your life and surrendered back, you know, to God and literally brought me to my niece and I felt like I, like she slapped me.

And I just, I woke up and I thought, oh my goodness, I sound like a spoiled child just saying, give me, give me, give me.

Why aren't you giving me?

And I said, lord, I have forsaken you.

And I decided from that point on to totally surrender, give my life over again to, to Jesus Christ.

And all of my content that I created was just Christian content.

Jewelries, Bibles, journals, hats, anything that was Christian, I was selling it on talk.

And my views went from 200 views to 80,000 views.

And it was through the glory of God.

I'll tell you two things.

First off, many of us are guilty of praying like God's our atm, you know, gimme, gimme, gimme.

You know, I had a preacher once tell me, many of us ask God of all these things and then we sit and wait on God.

We wait on God, but what if God is waiting on us?

And when we start to go through the perspective of maybe he's waiting on us to get our shit together and to do our part, then maybe he'll do his part.

And I love this quote that you have posted.

I told God my dreams and he said, nah, go bigger.

And since you have given your life back over to God and since you have started redoing things, God in many ways have told you, eh, let's go bigger.

How's it gotten infinitely bigger in your life?

He has blessed me just beyond belief.

And you know, I have such an amazing relationship with my son and my daughter and we have real spiritual talks and I'm doing, you know, Bible study with my daughter and I just, I love my son.

He's my world.

I'm very blessed with my two children, but he has blessed me also financially.

And you know, I moved from the TikTok influencer to crypto and I have been extremely blessed in this last year and, and I, and I, and I want to pass that on to others.

And I get it.

A lot of people are very leery and you know, they don't know who to trust.

And you know, you see things on social media but, but you know, I'm not going to throw any numbers out here, but I will tell you that I have been both myself and my husband.

I retired him last year and we get to do what we want to do now.

And we are extremely blessed but you didn't.

You didn't, you know, make all your money in crypto and then just sit in crypto.

You were smart enough to diversify your activities, maybe not necessarily just your investments, but in what you do.

And many people, you know, they get that one stream of income and then they just stick with that one stream.

And if and when that faucet ever shuts off, then they go, well, crap, now my well's dry.

But if you are pouring in from other streams, this is why I don't care if you're a factory worker, a plumber, a real estate agent, a business, I don't care.

You should have multiple streams of income so that you're not beholden to that one stream.

Do you know how many people I've encountered in my entire life who are still at the same job they've been in for 10 or 15 years and still bitching about never getting ahead and still bitching that, you know, their life is, you know, one paycheck from disaster, but they're not willing to go do anything else that makes it a possibility to get themselves out there.

We've been so conditioned that we have to work a 9 to 5 only.

And the 9 to 5, you know, the, the day of the Golden Rolex and 50 years at your job, those are long gone.

And if you're not doing multiple things to help your life, you know, it's not going to be an easy life.

And you know, one may be bringing in more than the other, but at some point, if that's your only one, it can also get shut off.

And you've lived a $4 million business, you've lived a, you know, high income on different things you've been a part of.

But when you're not the steward that God is trusting you with, he will shut it off.

And here's the other part that people don't really understand.

They think that wealth is measured in high volume dollars.

It's not.

It's measured in how you are responsible for what God is blessing you with and how you turn around and help others through that.

It doesn't matter if it's a dollar or $5 million.

My wife and I are by far not doing financially exalted.

But I can promise you that we give back any chance we get because we know that it's not ours.

Any penny we have has been gifted us by God.

And any penny we are told to give back to somebody else, even if it looks like an enormous amount or a crazy amount or not the right time for whatever reasons, we never question that.

We just give it because it's not ours.

And we fully believe that if we can be a good steward with the little that we have, eventually he'll make us a steward with the big amount too.

Because we're not looking to be wealthy for ourselves and hoard it all in our own bank.

We're looking at to use it as a hand of God to bless those around us.

And it doesn't always have to be money.

Sometimes it can be time, sometimes it can be energy.

Sometimes it can be just doing a charitable act of kindness.

And you know what the difference for me today is when I do business and I build relationships with people is I always, again, I put God first because it's, it's him to open the doors for me.

And I ask him, you know, because I'm nobody.

I mean, I feel like I'm a steward, right, like you said.

And it's, it's, it's God being channeled through me.

So when I ask him to open the doors and what his will may be if he wants me to bless this person and build this relationship, sometimes it's, it's.

Maybe it's a relationship that I'm supposed to learn something from them.

Maybe it might not even necessarily be financial.

Other times it's been very obvious that when I've had people in tears and say, angie, I can't even thank you enough for, for how that you've taught me, you know, to, to earn this passive income.

And I teach people to diversify and start small and, and with one project, and then once you make enough there, then you start putting it into another and another and another.

I get more satisfaction by knowing that I'm helping people because, you know, I, I could just teach people and, and, and not really be there to, to help them, so to speak.

Or I should say what I've seen is sometimes people will make money off of people in recruiting and not necessarily helping them to learn to do the same thing.

And that's not what I want.

I want them to have the same success that I have and truly, truly, truly bless their lives.

And that's what gives me the most satisfaction when I see that happen.

So I love what I do today and who I am.

And the, the only thing that is missing is my two children.

And I just have to believe that that will be rectified in time.

I keep praying that over time their hearts soften and you're able to reconnect.

But I know one thing that you've mentioned a couple times that you did reconnect with.

And that was a man in your life who is a blessing because of the man he is.

And, you know, you guys are sharing this walk together.

This is Ewan James, you know, and I know that he brings the joy to your heart and, you know, helps you walk this blessing together.

I also know that James recently was rebaptized.

Is that correct?

Yes.

Yes, he was.

He was actually baptized for the first.

Time, so he dedicated his life to Christ as well, which is only going to help your guys walk, be even stronger.

So that's a great gift and a great blessing in and of itself.

I want to ask you a couple questions, though, as we're kind of coming to the end of this journey.

And I know that your relationship with God is strong now, and luckily, your daughter helped you reconnect and build that bridge.

But what do you want your legacy to be?

Because you've had a really tough life, and you've lived the highs and you've lived the lows, and you're going to continue to roll into whatever it looks like.

But when people look back, what do you want Angie Rash's legacy to look like?

I think that I will be remembered most of just being a giving person and helping others.

I've helped so many people in different situations, both, you know, spiritually and financially.

And so, you know, I was thinking about just all the little things that I've done to help people in one way or another, and I just want to know that I made an impact in their life.

And maybe they, you know, they.

They had a better.

They had a better day because they knew me.

I don't know.

That's a good legacy.

That's a good life to live, if that's what we're known for.

So you had a relationship with God, you strayed away from your relationship with God, and now you're back to a relationship with God.

How is the Angie who's connected to God today different than the Angie that was connected to him years ago?

Oh, my goodness.

I feel like I'm much more at peace.

I don't have to fill the void with, you know, things that are.

Of no worth.

I mean, really, I don't.

I was chasing.

I was just chasing and chasing something to make me feel better.

And I know I'm loved.

I know that I am right where I'm supposed to be.

I am who God created me to be.

I am strong.

I am loving.

I am courageous.

And I can say all of these things not in a conceited way, but in a way that I can feel proud of who I am because it's who God created me.

And I don't have to believe the lies that Satan, you know, wanted me to believe.

And I don't believe that I was bipolar, like I said.

I mean, it's like if that was the case, I would still be as crazy as they made me out to sound then.

Right.

And I'm not.

So, you know, I just.

I just think that also a lot of times I believe that mental health sometimes is also misdiagnosed people.

And I.

And I. I don't know if this makes sense or not, but when I see people that really seem to be crazy and they have mental illness, I think there's a possession there, if that makes sense.

Right again.

A spiritual warfare.

Yeah, it's definitely possible.

I'm going to ask you two final things.

What do you want your message to be to whoever's listening to your story today?

I want people to know that God is so good and he is so loving.

And even when you feel like you're alone, all you have to do is just talk to him like you would a friend.

And he hears you.

You know, and sometimes I see stories, hears these stories of people that say, you know, God, if you're really there, then, you know, show yourself to me.

And he does.

But you have to.

You have to be looking.

You have to be aware of what it is that he's trying to tell you.

Right.

Because sometimes we're looking in the wrong direction.

So I would just say, you know, just keep the faith, reach out, talk to him and just.

Just get reconnected.

It's never too late.

It's never too late.

God is so, so loving and so forgiving.

And so what does a warrior spirit, or having a warrior spirit mean to a warrior like you?

It means that I. I wear my armor of God.

It means that I am proud to be who I am today and that I help others through his will, through his love.

And I think that when you truly walk with Christ, people see that in you.

Absolutely.

And I appreciate you coming on to share your journey and your story.

And I just hope that you continue to shine brightly as you continue to wear God's armor and walk through this world.

Thank you.

Thank you so much.

It's been an honor.

And I'm so blessed to have.

For us to have met.

I mean, besides being on here, I mean, we are truly friends.

And I love you.

Absolutely.

And if you'd like to connect with Angie, you sure can do so on her social media accounts, Facebook, TikTok and LinkedIn.

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As always, the journey is sacred.

The warrior is you.

So remember to be inspired, be empowered, and embrace the spirit of the warrior within.

Sam.