In this episode, we continue our 2 part exploration of the Projector through diving into the experience of recognition, success, bitterness, and guidance. Projectors are designed to master the art of seeing and knowing the other, but this wisdom can only emerge through correct invitations, self-recognition, and deep deconditioning.

Kelsey explores the energetic challenges of being a non-energy type in a Generator world, the sacred responsibility of Projector's attention, and what it truly means to wait for the invitation and recognition. This conversation offers insight into how Projectors can release bitterness, reclaim their authority, and step into their natural role as outer authorities who guide through awareness, not effort.

What's Discussed in this Episode:

• The Projector’s signature of success and the not-self theme of bitterness
• Recognition as the key to authentic invitations and correct relationships
• The danger of seeking recognition through initiating or incorrect invitations
• How Projectors absorb and amplify conditioning, and why deconditioning is crucial for their auric function
• The seven-year deconditioning process and how it transforms awareness
• The role of attention as a Projector’s most valuable resource
• Importance of navigating projection, blame, and resentment through self-responsibility
• What it means for Projectors to be outer authorities
• Guidance through asking the right questions, not giving answers
• The energetic relationship between Generators and Projectors as the foundation for humanity’s evolution
• The necessity of correct relationships in a Projector’s life because who they plug into shapes everything

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Projector conditioning hits the deepest energetically, literally, because of the absorbing aura, because it goes inside of immerses itself into another being's experience and deeply absorbs the conditioning more deeply than any of the other three types.

And on top of having this very deep level of absorption taking place, there's also this fact that for the projector and the reflector as well, the deconditioning is significantly more imperative to the Auric role than for the other types of A generator can still build, create, do from a very conditioned place, can still be a generator, a manifester can still initiate and make impact and move the Maya with their motorized throat from a deeply conditioned place.

But for the projector, your Auric functionality of seeing and guiding, it's contingent on that no agenda, that neutrality and that neutrality, that lack of an agenda for the projector comes through a deconditioned awareness.

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This episode is part two of my lecture on the projector type. Check out the previous episode for the first half.

A bit more on what is success here.

So just like we've looked at it with the other types orienting towards the signature success and the not self theme of bitterness for projectors through mechanics. Right? So we know that when a projector is invited by those who recognize them, they will experience success.

Those who truly recognize a projector recognize them for their awareness, not for their ability to be manipulated energetically. And thus the invitation is an invitation to guide, not an invitation to do. This leads to success via projectors successfully living as themselves.

Ra has a quote that is success for a projector is when being a non energy type is no longer an issue for you, you've accepted this role of being rather than doing.

You've stopped trying to distort yourself or even just having the narrative as a default that you should be doing more, that you should be doing this correct invitation leads to success via the felt experience of guiding the transmutation of frustration into satisfaction. So everything we've talked about on the other slide, as well as success via an easy life where everything comes to you without you having to do.

However, when a projector seeks recognition through initiating and or accepts incorrect invitations where they're not truly recognized and or overstays those invitations beyond the potential outcome of success, beyond when that timeline needs to have been over and done with, where the success has been found and now it's on to the next. In all of these instances, a projector will experience bitterness.

And this happens when the mind, through the narratives of the not self and the openness of the projector's design, attempts to hijack the form. Remember, projectors take in conditioning very deeply so that they can guide efficiently and effectively.

That's projectors are designed to be deeply conditioned because it's a part of the Auric function for the projector is to take that in and absorb it. Order to offer what they see. But without awareness, without the awareness of oh, that's you, not me. This is your movie that I'm absorbing.

This is not my ultimate truth. The conditioning then disrupts the projector aura's natural inclination to wait, to be invited.

The depth of absorption happening in the projector reform results in taking in a lot of distortion. So projectors are feeding, feeding off of eating, digesting, absorbing the distortion of the not self world.

When they're in the presence of not self frequency in the other, wherever the projector is open, they're taking in distorted frequencies of the definition of others around them. And so this amplification of distortion inside the projector's form does not feel great.

If you listen to Ra's lecture, the the projector signature moving from success to Bitterness. He uses the metaphor of like the projector being this really nice car that isn't just going to take shitty fuel.

It's not just going to take any, any old diesel fuel into its system. It's going to be particular selective about what fuel it takes in and digests.

Now that doesn't mean that the projector is going to get, you know, obsessed with only helping people who don't experience distortion.

Because the whole point for the projector is to experience the success through checking in with where things are distorted and helping facilitate back on track the problem solvers. Essentially. Right.

But there has to be some level of intentionality on behalf of the other person to be willing to receive that awareness, to be willing to consider, to un grasp the hold that their mind has on the thing leading them to distortion. And it's when the person is in that place that they then are able to recognize and invite the projector in.

But meanwhile the projector is taking in these distorted frequencies really wherever the projector goes. And that amplification, as I already said inside the projector form doesn't feel great.

It's very loud distortion that the projector experiences in their deeply absorbing body.

And that is made all the more irritating when the projector is taking in this distortion and able to see the path to success without being invited to offer it and being kind of discarded or worse, asks to be a workhorse in this already distorted process where their awareness is not being registered as the thing they're there to offer.

And so a not self projector is going to identify with the amplification of frustration or anger or disappointment from a position of feeling discarded in this case. And this is what creates bitterness. Another quote on success here from Ra. See, success is something that is earned over time.

There's no such thing as overnight success, not for a projector. It's not possible. It will take any projector, when they enter into a path of correctness, at least seven years to master the Other.

That's what they're here for. What is so important about the nature of the potential of the projector is that in its perfection it is able to recognize the potential of the other.

That's the gift, to recognize the potential of the other and to be able to provide the other with guidance. The most important leader of any group theoretically, and ideally should be a projector. And yet projectors are not here to lead. Manifestors lead.

Projectors are a non energy type. They cannot lead. They can only guide. And they can only guide when they're invited.

So this is my setup to kind of talking about this idea of leadership versus guidance and manifestors being the old world leader and projectors being the new world leader, which is something you'll hear a lot in the human design space and is something that is true and we'll talk about that. But bitterness. Let's talk about bitterness a bit more. I forgot to put this one in quotes, I guess. But this is also a raw quote from the same lecture.

The dilemma that exists for the projector is that the projector child, who is deeply disadvantaged as a child, who comes into the world with parents that want them to be manifesters, that comes into a world that overloads them and turns them into hyperactive beings for the rest of their lives, drives them constantly to be something that they're not. A world that rewires their metabolism. I mean, projectors go through hell as children because they're not recognized.

So this bitterness again is this knowing that projectors have like deep in their bones that there's. This is not what they're meant for. They're not meant for this constant process of feeling manipulated by the.

The distortions of the not self world of energy beings.

They're meant to cut loose from that cycle of inefficiency and distortion and to simply be and be honored for their awareness and their attention that helps get things back on track. So yeah, just another raw quote here to kind of orient us to what bitterness is.

And the key to get from bitterness to success over and over again in the little ways and the big ways to ultimately recalibrate the entire body for the projector for success rather than for bitterness, is recognition. So this is a quote from the definitive book of human design.

Recognition is the projector's key to understanding the way their strategy connects them to their authority in the world. In some ways, recognition is to projectors what responding is to generators.

Their powers of strategic recognition provide them with their boundaries, which they maintain by being selective when accepting invitations.

Both the projector's ability to recognize what is available to them from others and the need for their own unique gifts to be properly recognized by others are part of the specific ways their auras are designed to connect. The projector aura is an I am open to invitation field that draws people in and out of their lives by provoking invitations from them.

Recognition, accompanied by a formal invitation is the way the other types honor and empower projectors. As with generators, weighting is the quality of the projector strategy.

However, the clarity of their answer is not as immediately accessible as a Sacral response. So we talked about that already, the mundane truth that generators have through that sacral response.

And then the book goes on to say, to further analyze these subtle differences, we've divided projectors into three basic categories based on the configurations.

And we'll cover that, but we'll cover it through authority, because that's essentially what this book, the definitive book of human design, goes on to do is.

It goes on to talk about the process of discerning invitations for projectors, whether they're energy projectors, non energy projectors, or mental projectors. And those are just ways of categorizing the potential authorities for projectors. So we'll talk about that in the authority section.

So I've mentioned a couple times this idea of like, it's like flipping a switch.

The not self projector is going to experience bitterness because they're chasing recognition rather than waiting for invitations that already carry recognition. It's from the definitive book of human Design.

That sort of show what I mean when I talk about, for a projector settling into strategy, surrendering to strategy really is like flipping this switch from bitterness as the default state to the potential for success.

So in this book it says, when not self projectors, eager for recognition of any kind, try to meet the expectations of others and thus are recognized instead for who they are not, they can get confused and attach themselves to anyone, even someone who is detrimental to them. Healthy projectors are those who avoid this trap by recognizing themselves and understanding their own limitations, as in, you're not an energy type.

When they are no longer dependent on external sources for affirmation of any kind, because they recognize themselves, the true projector gift of recognition is returned to its rightful and properly functioning place in their strategy. Nothing boosts the mood of projectors like being recognized or drops them faster into a state of bitterness when they are not.

When projectors try to get others to see them, they are perceived as needy and demanding. Other types feel this need for recognition and resist it.

By initiating and inviting themselves, projectors are giving their inherent power to the other person, which places them at a huge disadvantage. You know, I always picture projectors like on thrones. That's how I picture it.

And for some, I, for some reason I picture a football field and I picture like generators are running around the football field doing the plays, doing the thing.

And when they run up into problems, they might look out and see like, oh, there's a projector over there, like sitting elevated on their throne that can see things from outside. This like cloud of frustration that I'M in. Maybe if I ask nicely, they'll tell me what they see. Like maybe they'll.

Because they have an awareness that I am lacking in this moment of frustration. So maybe if I ask nicely, they'll show me what they see from up there on their throne. That's like the image I always get.

Ra sometimes uses the word hierarchical, and I think I might even have quotes where he says that included in this slide. So maybe it is hierarchical, but it's not hierarchical the way our minds want to see it. Where it's synergistic, you know, it's symbiotic.

That's the word I keep looking for. I think I said synergistic earlier when I went symbiotic. It's symbiotic. The projector wants to plug in to the generators out on the field.

It feels good. That's how projector feels successful. It's a necess. It's a need they have that's dependent on the other.

And the generator, when it's correct, sees the value in that attention and therefore is willing to pay up, whether that means money, recognition, praise, energetic resources in whatever form they come. A generator is willing to offer that when the exchange is symbiotic. But when projectors initiate and invite themselves when they're out on the.

The thrones on the edge of the football field, shouting and going, do this, do this, do this. The generators are like, hey, I don't need it right now.

Or the manifestors, the reflectors, the other projectors, whoever it is, is like, no, like that you're poking. That's not the. I don't want advice from somebody who's trying to force something. Because when a projector forces, it's coming from distortion.

And the other types feel that, or even other projectors feel that. We can feel that the awareness being offered is not actually neutral.

In order for a projector to really offer their awareness, there has to be this level of neutrality to it, where the projector doesn't have an agenda. And so long as the projector is seeking, like thirsty for craving this recognition, that's the agenda.

And that gets in the way of the projector actually honoring their supreme awareness, their supreme attention.

So projectors are giving their inherent power to the other person, which places them at a huge disadvantage when the projector initiates and invites themselves. This often happens in family relationships where they have not been seen as themselves from the beginning.

Because a projector kid is a very different thing from a generator kid is a very different thing from a Manifestor Kid for the projector, taking their power back is really difficult.

At first, it involves shifting their focus, standing securely grounded in awareness of their own gifts, and waiting until their own Auric message is clearly received.

This allows the people around them to recognize and invite their real gifts into the relationship and changes the basis of the relationship as a whole.

From something that likely feels vampiric and controlling and coercive, probably to some extent both ways, into that potentiality for a symbiotic exchange. So again, like flipping a switch here or just saying the same thing.

In other words, when projectors feel starved for energy, they will compromise and settle for an invitation to the wrong energy exchange. Accurate recognition and proper invitation is what sets a projector's gifts in motion and increases their value to others.

For example, when someone says to an emotionally defined projector, I love the way you process your decisions through your feelings, they know the person sees them.

This gives the projector access to clean energy and potentially a receptive ear for their insightful guidance and advice, which is key to success rather than bitterness. It's through understanding of others that projectors arrive at a clear understanding of themselves.

If their agenda for reaching out to people comes with the expectation that they will get attention or recognition, however, they will meet with resistance. Because, like I said on the other slides, the other types can feel that neediness.

The only way for the potential potentially correct symbiotic exchange to happen is when the other types realize that it's them petitioning the projectors for attention and not the projectors petition, not the other way around.

Essentially, others petition projectors for attention, but when a projector is petitioning for attention themselves, it literally disables the potentiality for that correct exchange to happen, because it has to happen through mechanically correct response or initiation or whatever it is for the other person. The other type. Like all types, projectors need to be aware of their underlying agenda and hidden expectations.

Projectors have a very strong intellect. They like to study and take in information.

Because of this, they tend to have a deeply conditioned mind that tries to control their lives and circumstances through the not self strategies of their open centers.

They tend to feel that they will not get the life they really want, and so they compromise in their relationships and jobs by settling for what they think they can get. And settling is a huge problem for the projector, especially when there are bills to pay.

I think Ra has a quote where he talks about like human beings in general, although you'll see this more dramatically in projectors, but human beings in general, we Tend to settle for second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth, ninth, to infinity choice, because we don't believe that we are worthy of that. We will have access to that. Surrendering to the flow of things will give us the life we want. And so we settle over and over and over.

And for projectors specifically, what this looks like is settling for incorrect relationships and incorrect invitations. Because there is this truth that the projector knows underneath everything, which is that they do need the other to be successful.

But their whole life they've been so deeply conditioned to distort who they are, to try to receive the attention, receive the recognition, that they end up in this hamster wheel of chasing recognition rather than getting off that wheel entirely, learning to recognize themselves, flipping the switch and watching how people will now petition for your energy. And the invitations come flowing. What is the fundamental prerogative of the vehicle? For projectors, Projectors are the guides.

The vehicle's fundamental prerogative is to plug in, to penetrate other beings, to plug in to outlets that are correct for them.

And through the Auric function, through that Auric process of plugging in and absorbing with awareness, projectors are able to facilitate a process within the other that unfolds into greater clarity. Projector auras are the yang to the generator. Yin manifestors and projectors have in common.

Yang auras versus reflectors and generators have yin auras that are more about receiving. Projectors have to penetrate in order to receive. The aura itself is penetrative.

I don't remember what moved me to search the definition of penetrated, but then once I did, I really liked that the first word in the definition of dictionary, online.com or whatever is succeed. To penetrate is to succeed in forcing a way into or through a thing.

So success for the projector is literally the aura simply being able to do the thing it does, the aura being able to penetrate without resistance. Projectors are the most relational type. Projectors are designed to be fixated on the other.

But projectors, the energy sources that are healthy for you to plug into, for you to fix your attention onto, they need and thus recognize you as much as, or maybe even more than you need and recognize them.

So if there isn't that sense of symbiotic plugging in, of I am needed and recognized here from the other, then it is not the healthy relationship and. Or it's just not the correct timing for you to plug in. Another raw quote here. The world that we live in is a world for generators and projectors.

This is the most important relationship that exists on the Planet.

In the generator lecture, I quoted, I think I quoted, or at least mentioned in passing the idea of, like, you have to wake up generators to wake up the world. And the type that is uniquely designed to facilitate awakening within the generator is the projector.

And so this is why this is the most important, the symbiotic relationship I keep talking about. I'm talking specifically about the relationship between generators and projectors.

And this brings me to, as I was saying earlier, projectors are like the new leaders. I don't understand mechanically how this is the case.

I have, I guess I haven't been in a position where I've been able to ask one of my teachers this specific question before. Maybe next time I meet up with them I will. And I'm sure there's a lecture on it somewhere.

So with the discovery of Uranus, with the mutation from 7 centered to 9 centered beings, we got a new type on the scene, and that is projectors. Very, very young as an aura type relative to all the other aura types. And Ra has said both. We have quotes from Ra saying both of these things.

One, projectors are the new leaders, and also projectors cannot lead. So I want to talk about this because it is true in my view, that projectors are the new leaders and also leadership.

Again, one of those words that the mind has a history with.

And I think it's really important for projectors to understand that the way that you are going to lead looks absolutely nothing like we as a society orient to leadership. Now, projectors will lead through awakening individuals to come into their own inner authority, to become their own authority.

Projectors will not lead through force or through being an outer authority that takes over the individual inner authority. So we're talking about leadership through guidance, not through any kind of leadership we've seen before.

Not leadership through actually moving energy, making impact, shifting the Maya, dictating directionality, which was the way of the manifestor. Motorized throat is able to do those things, is designed to do those things. For projectors, we're changing the world one aura at a time.

And projectors guide lead, facilitate with questions, not with answers, not with commands, not with energy, power, force, and not with blame. Another quote here from the definitive book of human design.

Specifically, the part here that I really like is this phrase taking leadership itself in a new direction. Because projectors Aren't necessarily becoming the leaders.

Projectors are facilitating this awakening happening across the entire consciousness through all of the aura types, where we understand that we are each meant to be led by our own inner authority. And projectors have a specific primary role in leading this awakening process.

Until the advent of the human design system, Projectors had no direct means by which to fully comprehend either their unique auric field for the particular role they are here to play as one of the four types. Up until the last century, manifestors and generators dominated positions of leadership and authority around the world.

In the future, however, it is the projector who will begin to move into positions of greater power, Taking leadership itself in a new direction. This will happen when the energy types recognize and empower the projector's natural potential by inviting the projector to guide them.

As manifestors are freed to initiate, processes and generators begin to realign with their own natural power as creative builders, Projectors will emerge as the administrators of the new order. Another raw quote from his projector lecture. The projector is not here to discuss them and Dane. They're here to ask the right questions.

And they're here to ask the right questions.

Because they have the gift of being able to absorb and focus on another in a way that as another themselves, they can truly grasp what's there there, and know what to ask that force in order to move them in a way that is correct for them, or at least to open up the opportunity for them to respond this way or that. It's these questions that we lack. You see, answers are not important, not when it comes to what the projector is good for.

There is no universal answer. There is only unique truth for each of us. And each being has the right to the correct question, Not a homogenized question.

It is a great gift of the projector to know precisely what question can be transforming in the other's life. And it is a question that carries with it no agenda.

This is the crucial part of this quote here, and why I wanted to include is not a question in which the projector prefers a certain answer. When the projector does have a certain agenda, that is the agenda of their not self. It is a question that arises out of awareness of the other.

This is the role of projectors. A projector does not guide by telling you what to do.

A projector does not lead by performing themselves, by doing themselves the way in which a Projector guides is that they simply ask the right question. That's all I want to talk about. This idea of projectors deeply absorbing here, there's kind of two pieces to this.

So one projector conditioning hits the deepest energetically, literally, because of the absorbing aura, because it goes inside of immerses itself.

The projector immerses their attention into another being's experience and deeply absorbs the conditioning more deeply than any of the other three types receive conditioning.

And on top of having this very deep level of absorption taking place inside the projector form, there's also this fact that for the projector and the reflector as well, the deconditioning is significantly more imperative to the Auric role than for the other types. And what I mean by that, that is a generator can still generate from the not self.

A generator can still build, create, do from a very conditioned place, can still be a generator, a manifestor can still initiate and make impact and move the Maya with their motorized throat from a deeply conditioned place, from a not self place. But for the projector and the reflector, but we're focusing on the projector here.

Your Auric functionality of seeing and guiding, it's contingent on that no agenda, that neutrality and that neutrality, that lack of an agenda for the projector, comes through a deconditioned awareness. And so again, this idea of like the flip being switched, that's just the image I keep getting for projectors.

Like, it's so the deconditioning process is so imperative, it's so important for the projector to actually be able to live as themselves, to actually be able to facilitate and guide from this successful neutral place, rather than from a place of bitterness.

And so we talk about the seven year deconditioning process in human design and what I've noticed and what I've heard from R.A. and from my teachers in from projectors that I, I'm an in observance with and that I'm friends with is the seven year deconditioning process is extremely crucial, especially for the projectors because the conditioning is so deep and because it so gets in the way of the actual Auric function, which for both the projector and the reflector requires a neutral awareness to be able to perform. And kind of along those lines, I liked this quote from, from the projector lecture.

With Ra, awakening begins not with the potential of projectors, but with the fact that projectors are so deeply, deeply conditioned, so lost in the Maya. And there's no blame in that. It's no fault of their Own.

So for projectors, you know, I think another quote I had earlier kind of carried the sentiment. Another raw quote carried the sentiment of like, it's not an instant gratification for projectors, which it can be for generators, right?

At this point, you've heard me talk about the potentiality of simplicity for the generator.

Like, even though there's all these complex layers of conditioning in the way of listening to the gut, yes or no, for the sacral being mechanically itself, it's simple.

It's not so mechanically simple for the projector because for the projector, all that little stuff that the generator is able to check in with in every moment of every day through their sacral response, all that little mundane stuff of life for the projector is based on whose movies they are immersing themselves in as an awareness, as an attention payer in any given moment.

And the trajectory that the projectors are on before finding human design in most cases is multiple steps away from the alignment of the movies of people who actually truly recognize them for themselves. Because I think for projectors it takes some time to really truly even recognize themselves for themselves.

And it's only through that personal recognition, that self recognition, that correct aligned invitations can come when the projectors stop chasing recognition through their conditioning. And so yeah, I just, I want to point that out.

I think maybe it might feel a little harrowing, but it's just something I've found to be true as I've watched and learned about the mechanics of aura types, is that there's a necessity for the projectors of like, it's kind of this weird contradiction. Again, it feels like a lot of contradiction in the projector experience to me.

There's contradiction for all of us, but it feels specific, very specific in the projector experience where there's this level of self worth and self validation and self recognition and sovereignty over oneself and understanding just how extremely highly valued your attention is as a projector. Again, this like putting you on your throne, assuming the position of your throne, where other people petition you for your attention.

Like this huge kind of regal element to the projector awakening. But in the same vein, there's this level of humility that has to come hand in hand with that, where the projector recognizes that yes to all of that.

And also it's going to be a process for me to decondition my mind because as mentioned previously, and I think I have another slide or two on this, like the projector mind is so projectors have sharp minds, projectors have really good minds. But because the Mind is so sharp, it really learns how to try to manipulate reality according to the non self strategies.

So it's just like the conditioning has its feet dug in a little bit deeper with projectors.

I definitely see for me like the difference between a projector that's deconditioning with some humility around the fact that like yes, I'm assuming this leadership role, I am the new leader and also I am affected by my not self mind.

There's such a huge difference in my experience in that version of the projector deconditioning than the version of the projector deconditioning who just the not self mind just kind of grasps onto these ideas of being the new leaders.

Because rightfully so, it is so bitter from not being recognized up to this point that the mind will just take this new narrative of I'm the leader, my attention is so valuable and just decorate it with all these old patterns and old bitternesses, old not self orientations towards trying to control and manipulate. That's just the same thing now dressed up in the language of human design. And you know, to be clear, we all do this. We all do this.

It's just the, the way the projector mind orients because it's such a good mind because it's designed to be an outer authority.

And the depth, the level of depth that the projector body takes the conditioning in at just makes for such a huge potential shift in either the conditioned or the deconditioned projector or the conditioned and the humbly deconditioning projector. Another raw quote here.

With their natural brilliance and openness to taking on the expectations and energies of others because that's what they're designed for. They have managed to effectively imitate both manifestors and generators, losing themselves in the process.

So again, kind of coming back to this idea here, I as a manifestor, I was still functioning as a manifestor even when I was doing it from a not self place. Generators auric function still is that of a generator even when they're doing it from a not self place.

But projectors completely lose themselves in the process of trying to conform to this world of energy beings. And you're able to imitate more effectively because you're designed to take on the energy of others. I also want to note this.

I had a friend, a fellow manifestor, who has been in his experiment much longer than me, like seven or eight years.

And we were talking at an in person human design event after we had done some like in aura experimentation where types were hanging out with their own auras, just manifesters, just projectors, just generators.

And then we did some experimentation where we came into contact with other aura types and we all just kind of discussed what it felt like, all of that in a side, I suppose. But this manifesto friend of mine voiced something in that discussion about like, don't projectors feel young to you?

And in the moment, I was like, no, not at all.

Because when I think about the projectors in my life, the projectors that have been in my life long term especially, but also the projectors that I've. I've come into contact with more recently, like, these are people that I've always esteemed as sort of like old souls.

At least the projectors that have been correct for me, right, Who I naturally felt inclined to petition for their attention because I valued what they saw, those projectors. To me, they feel wise as all hell, you know, like, I'm like, they see something, you know, I sense that.

But as I thought about it more and as I talked to this friend of mine more, I understood more what. What he meant. Like, projectors are the youngest aura type. So it's not a. It's not about, like, immaturity as an awareness or.

Yeah, it's not about an immaturity so much as it's just like we as a society are very early on, we as a species and collective are relatively in the very early stages of learning how to operate this aura type.

So those of you who have incarnated in this lifetime as projectors, like you, are doing this service of being among the first to operate this aura type.

Earlier in the manifestor lecture, I think it was maybe the generator and the manifestor lecture a little bit, I talked about how we all have this inherited trauma of the era in which manifestors were violent, and it's through violent force and violent initiation that manifestors led. Now, those of us incarnated as manifestors today, we deal with the repercussions of that.

Even when we are not being violent, we still carry these auras that incite fear, that threaten others.

The projector version of that is you are being of service to the collective by being among the first, in a linear time sense, to try to operate this pointy, focused aura, to be the people in the world that are here to guide and facilitate in this brand new way that we haven't as a collective yet evolved to really fully understand how to. How to use this energy type.

And I say both from inside of it and out of it, because those of you who are projectors you are learning how to do this from the inside of it, but those of us outside of it are learning too. And I think a lot of times about how sometimes that invitation can feel kind of clunky, right?

I think about that like we're just, we're learning how to honor projectors for their attention rather for any energy exertion. We're learning how to honor the depths to which projectors take on our stuff in order to do their role. And it can feel clunky because it's new.

On a collective evolutionary level, projectors in their being and watching, feel and look different than the energy types who are doing their thing. So when we notice the projector gaze, when we notice the pokiness of the aura, we notice that's something different, that's something new.

That's why projectors are naturally recognized their attractive field. As RA talks about it, everyone can feel their penetration, their gaze.

And we're in the process of evolving towards an interdependent reality that knows how to utilize that aura correctly. And there's a contradiction here, right?

There's the potential for this very wise sage type, but it's in its infancy stages from an evolutionary development perspective of the functionality of that wise sage type as a collective. So more contradiction here in the projector. We've already talked about this a bunch, but I just want to look at it a little bit directly here.

You know, so much of what we talk about with the projector is in self recognition in order to be selective about who gets your attention.

So like extremely basic boundaries work is so important for the projector, both on an awareness level, like just simply having the awareness that not everybody is ready for or deserving of your attention. And on an energetic boundaries, energetic hygiene, energetic boundaries level, because where air, your aura points, it focuses and absorbs.

And so there's a necessity for the projector on being selective about who you put your attention onto because you're taken in their world, beauty, distortion, all of it, the good, the bad and the ugly.

But also this necessity of like unplugging and recalibrating back to your body in order to trust your own authority as you move through this process of immersing yourself in the other. So the, the contradiction here is like everything's about the other.

But in order for me to show up in integrity for the other, I have to be focused on discernment and boundaries as a self and self recognition. So everything for the projector, their well being comes down to the other, right? These questions of who is the other. What other is for me?

How am I or who am I to this other? How do I recognize this other and does this other recognize me? Or how do I recognize this other? Here's Ross speaking on that.

It comes back to one thing and one thing only.

If you cannot master your world, if you cannot master your ability to grasp and understand and recognize the other, then there is something essential that always is going to be missing in your life and can destroy your life, that you do not have the discernment to recognize who belongs in your life. This is Ross speaking to projectors. When you're walking around as a not self projector with your plug in your hand, you plug into anything, anything.

And your not self mind will rationalize for you that it's okay, it's all right, here's what you'll get out of it, blah, blah, blah, all that stuff. And it's this mindless plugging into the other that is so destructive to the projector because you live off of their frequency.

Separate quote, but similarly in terms of its intent. It is the irony of being a projector. You can only focus on the other and the danger is getting lost in the other.

And the answer is that the other has to be correct. Nobody needs to be more rigid about who they bring into their life than a projector. Projectors pay a deep, deep price for not being aware.

So again, this sentiment of like, it's imperative, the awareness, the deconditioning is so imperative for a projector because of that deeply immersive quality to your existence into the other. Generators are designed to surrender. Projectors must accept until they know.

So I think what that piece is about is like generators surrender in the moment to this dance of availability of sacral yes and no projectors on a moment to moment basis. Again, this idea of like, it's not such an instant gratification. You have to accept where you're at and who you're with.

Because the nature of your aura is to focus, penetrate, absorb, and become immersed in that other. That's what you have available to you until your own inner authority guides you to a knowing that this is not correct. Right? So it's an acceptance.

I'm along for the ride until you know. So everything for the projector comes down to the other. And yet projectors still must know themselves and take responsibility for themselves.

But you cannot just master it in a moment because despite the fact that you don't care about yourself, just the natural inclination of the projector to want to plug into the other and be More focused and attentive to the other.

The fact that you're only focused on the outside does not mean that you can avoid being correct for yourself and that you don't have an authority to guide you.

So projectors, although everything for your well being comes down to the well being and the correctness of the others and the correctness of the symbiotic exchange with the others that you plug into, you still have to know yourself. You still have to take responsibility for yourself rather than blaming the other.

It's natural for the projector when things aren't going right, when the projector's trying to distort themselves, not feeling they're receiving adequate recognition, to feel into the bitterness and want to blame the other. Like that just makes sense. That's natural that that's what the not self projector would do.

Because you've been immersed in this other and things don't feel good, it must be the other. And there's a truth to that. But there's no agency or sovereignty in that.

So the personal responsibility, the shift away from that victimhood for the projector comes from getting out of that blame game and trusting your own body, being willing to unplug without knowing who or when or how you'll plug back into something unplugging because you can feel that it's not a healthy symbiotic connection. Right now. There's a level of faith, a level of trust, and a level of discipline that that requires.

But it is only through that that the projector can actually show up in integrity for the next invitation. And it's only through that that the projector has their own sense of agency and power and sovereignty over their experience.

So it's extremely crucial. The not self projector thrives in the blame game. Here's another raw quote here. Endless blame. And all as a way to try to answer their own bitterness.

You're to blame for messing up my life for this, for that. But this blame is a disease. The other is only going to bring you bitterness. That's what happens in these endless not self rounds of relationships.

So when the projector is running around like Ra said, with the plug in their hand, just desperate for a source of energy to put their attention into, it will always lead to bitterness. And you can see how having that agenda of I need to plug in, I need another that is going to be resisted by the people around you.

Because so long as you have that agenda, you are not in a position where you can observe with neutral awareness. And that neutral awareness is the prerequisite to your facilitation, your guidance.

So the not self projector thrives in the blame game until they take responsibility. And this taking the personal responsibility that happens for the projector that reorients them to their sovereignty and to their agency.

Their power happens as awareness forms through the process of surrendering to your strategy and authority. Over time, you're cellularly transformed. The bitterness is kept at bay.

And instead of blame, the projector is able to see where their natural agency lies. Ra says of projectors, this is what I hope for in the future.

More and more projectors who truly understand their nature, who are not victims, who are not full of blame, who have the right people in their lives and can begin to express this gift. And I've mentioned this a few times throughout, but I want to give it its own sort of segment here.

The projector role is an inherent outer authority for the other. The mind is sharp to support in this role because the part of us that is able to communicate with the other is the mind, right?

The mind is the antenna. It's how we connect to others through this process of sharing what we know. This is true for all types.

But because the projector functionality is to be the outer authority that facilitates awareness and alignment on the planet for the other, their mind has to be really good. It's a primary tool. So projectors are gifted.

These like very good minds that think systemically, that see things, and are able to very aptly orient in a mental capacity to what it is they see. Because they have to be able to do that, to communicate effectively, to perform their auric function of that energetic surgery.

But the sharp mind without awareness is still an agent of not self distortion. So Ra says, it's the curse of being a projector. You're given this kind of mind so that you can really probe things and recognize them.

But as not self, that mind becomes an absolute horror trip.

And then you go to all those places of openness where the conditioning comes in, the undefined centers, the undefined channels and gates, and the mind jumps on it. And you have these complex projector minds who twist and turn the conditioning.

And so again, that idea of like, for the projector, awareness doesn't begin with the potential of, oh, I'm here to guide, I'm here to lead.

It begins first with the awareness and acceptance of the extent to which the conditioning is so deep and has likely massively, if not entirely, taken over this very apt mind you have. The mind is so sharp that it is able to take anything and Systemically work with it in a way that furthers the agenda of the mind.

Through the strategies of the not self and the undefined centers. A projector's attention is their greatest asset.

But through this distortion process that, that I've pointed to multiple times now, the projector's attention can become this commodity that is acquired and controlled via manipulation and not self addiction. And I put a asterisk on distortion because distortion from the other is initially, you know, what distorts the projector.

But then it's the projector's old own enabling of that distortion, of that manipulation and abuse and control through accepting that type of coercive way of relating, codependent way of relating.

It's the projectors on not self distortion that enables the not self distortion and the continued taking in of it and acceptance of the not self distortion. The not self invitations the not self recognition that projectors receive.

So I just wanted to talk about this idea here of like attention as a commodity and the sort of dance of codependency and enabling that projectors and whoever they're immersed in in a not self distorted way are playing together. Another rock quote here. The hardest thing in the world for a not self person to do is to give up a projector's attention, right?

So projector attention can feel really good.

And it can either feel really good because there's a part of me, my true self, that would really benefit from having an attent, a loving, neutral attention on it to help me navigate my own awareness, release the blockages that are born of my mind and come back into flow and surrender with my natural state of being. Or it can feel and, or it can feel really good.

Because my not self mind, through the flavors of conditioning and whichever of my undefined centers I'm stuck on is telling me that I need attention. Undefined throat. I need attention. I need people to pay attention to me. Undefined G center. I need love and direction. So this person attention is.

This person's attention is giving me a sense of purpose and direction. Undefined ego. If this person pays attention to me, then I must be worthy for whatever Undefined spleen. I need attention from someone to feel safe.

Well, projectors have attention and can give attention and recognition in a way that no other type can. It's what they're designed for.

And so when someone is in a not self position, accepting that attention, feeding off that attention, trying to manipulate and keep and retain that attention, they're going to keep, you know, doing whatever it is they're driven by. The not self to do to keep that projector's attention in their life.

And the projector, not self, who thinks that holding attention, holding recognition and staying hooked into a person, regardless of whether the connection feels symbiotic and healthy or not, enables that process. So Ra goes on to say, we have mutual addictions in the not self.

The projector that is addicted to plugging in with the person to is who is addicted to having that attention. So this leads us to like the projector, sovereignty is really about being selective in regards to who gets your attention.

And once there's the willingness to surrender to waiting for the invitation, there's still a step there of acknowledging that there's a necessary selectivity in regards to accepting invitations. And that can be really tricky for the projector. It can be really tricky to say no. Ra says for a projector, this is something holy.

To stand in their own authority and be able to say no. Because you're no. Just like for a generator. The no is not about I don't like you, it's about I don't have sacral energy for that.

It's a non negotiable same with the projector.

Your own body, your own authority knows whether you are receiving the type of recognition that actually allows for you to facilitate your role successfully or not. So it's not about them. The no isn't personal, it's just what is. And it's a very necessary step towards your success.

From the definitive book of human design. When projectors understand the sanctity of their aura, they will nurture and protect it.

This begins with creating an essentially aura free space in their home that they can retreat to in order to properly relax and release the auric energies that they have absorbed during the day. So if you don't live alone as a projector, it's a necessity for you to have a time and a place in your regular everyday life where you can be alone.

Because so long as another aura is around, you are focusing on it and absorbing it, you're immersed in that movie.

And in order for you to even with even within the umbrella of invitations, such as a job, a friendship, a romantic relationship, a family, a living situation, even within those longer term invitations, in order for you to be checking in with whether those terms still work for you, whether it still feels successful or not, a projector has to unplug, orally, be in their own energy, and calibrate back to your own body in order to feel to check in with the terms. Sleeping alone is also important for a projector. Because 70% of the population is generating sacral motor energy.

In order to enter a deep, restful sleep, projectors must first take time to diffuse the extra energy they've taken in achieving a healthy balance between activity and rest in their life begins with learning to sense when enough is enough, when to let go of the residual auric energy of others, and when to be alone. So a lot of this is sacral deconditioning that we've talked about quite a bit. Generators are here to know themselves. Who am I? Is their question.

Projectors are here to know the other. And through knowing the other, they know themselves. So the question for projectors is who are they?

But in order for a projector to do that, comparing and contrasting. Because remember the.

One of the primary mechanics of the projector aura is that you're not a generator and you're not a manifestor, but you're also not a reflector. You don't have sacral, you don't have motor to throat, but you do have some definition. There is a you.

There is a consistent life force of you within your two or more defined centers. But you only can see your functionality, your auric functionality that is a part of you.

Your life force do its thing through penetration of the other. So you have to plug into the other, and you plug into this other, this other, these circumstances, this other.

And it's through that that you're able to see what is my movie, the other. What are all these different movies that I watch when I plug into the other through correct invitation and what's always the same, right?

So through all of that knowing the other, you learn to know who you are.

Who's the consistent projector, what's the consistent life force showing up in each of these experiences of immersion, Manifestors are here to know their impact. Reflectors are here to know who is different. And lastly, here's my little parting words for projectors.

Projectors, you live in an aura that carries inherent contradiction. You are here for the other.

And yet in order to be of authentic, undistorted service to the other and recognize for your your value in being, so you must establish yourself within your own awareness as a being who knows themself from the other.

It is only in that awareness that you will be able to know, honor, trust and surrender to the correct timing and circumstances for your involvement in their process. Projectors, you are the outer authority for the other.

In a world where inner authority must prevail, subjectivity and differentiation through inner authority is the only option. You and your life are not an exception to this.

Rather, your acceptance of this allows for the fullest potential of your service as an outer authority to come to life. The inherent contradiction for the projectors here. You're here to know the other, to plug into the other.

And yet your potential is to be a champion of individuality and inner authority. And in honoring your own, you're able to advocate for others.

Once this is the projector's way of being, after a necessary process of deconditioning, then you are able to experience and demonstrate true, interdependent, healthy, relating, foreign.

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