In this episode, we continue our exploration of the Manifestor, including the relational and energetic dynamics of what it means to be a Manifestor (i.e., Informing, anger, peace, and impact). As a Manifestor herself, Kelsey dives into the misconceptions of informing so you can see your Strategy not as a way to control you, but as a practical tool for reducing resistance and honoring the Manifestor’s inherent independence.

This episode also unpacks the emotional experience of anger and the true nature of peace, illuminating how resistance and control shape the Manifestor’s conditioning. This conversation invites Manifestors to stop trying to manage others’ perceptions inside your closed aura and relax into the freedom, rest, and creative impact that are your birthright.

What's Discussed in this Episode:

• The purpose and practice of informing
• Practical examples of informing in everyday life
• Anger as the natural response to resistance and interference
• Peace as the Manifestor’s true default state of rest and autonomy
• Understanding urges as the Manifestor’s internal cue for movement and initiation
• The Manifestor’s relationship to authority as the true driver of correct action
• Navigating impatience, rejection, and isolation through awareness of aura mechanics
• Healing the conditioning of control: childhood punishment, social pressure, and the expectation to explain
• The Manifestor’s energetic role in creation: the butterfly effect and initiating new trajectories of reality

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Neutral information truly feels wildly better for the Manifesto's mechanics than putting them in response or asking questions, because it gives them the opportunity to show up in relationship to you in ways that they may very much want to without requiring them to compromise their genetic imperative of initiating and not responding.

And so it feels really good to be informed of what could showing up in supportive you look like, but then not being necessarily held to that specific expectation because now I have the freedom to do so in a way that is mechanically correct for me. That literally doesn't hurt my body. That actually feels good and relaxed and supportive and autonomous in my own body.

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This episode is part two of my lecture on the Manifestor Type. Check out the previous episode for the first half.

Resistance is the root of anger and informing can alleviate resistance, thus informing as the manifester strategy. While not organic, it is still very practical. Here are some examples of informing I'm going upstairs to read.

When I first started practicing informing, I lived with my partner who I live with now and we also had a temporary roommate for a few months. They're both generators and remember Thinking it was so weird to have to narrate something like that.

But you could feel when a manifester leaves the room, you feel the absence. You feel it move. It pushes the energy on its way out.

And again, it can just kind of put people at ease to know where you're going, are they going to come back? When are they going to come back? Right?

So, again, offering the courtesy in if, if it feels correct for the manifestor, if it feels that it outweighs the benefits, outweigh the potential annoyance of having to do it, then just simply informing of your basic movement throughout the house, your basic movement throughout the room, going to the bathroom if you're with someone, if you're at a restaurant. Another example of manifestor informing, tomorrow I'm going to get out of the house for a bit.

There are two times that I did this in my recent past that I had to, like, kind of work myself up to, which is silly to think about, but I, like, really went through a whole process in working myself up to being able to say that. One was maybe close to a year ago now.

I was on a family vacation with my partner, my brother and his family, and I was in a town across the country from where I live. It was only a couple of hours from a really close friend of mine that I know from online.

And I wanted to go meet up with this friend in person because we had only ever hung out in person once. I was very close with them, and I just felt like I was going to. I, I.

My conditioning and my history with my mom was such that I was very worried about asking her if she would be okay with my leaving for almost a whole day because there was a drive associated both ways to go see this friend. And I was, as I was processing this with my partner, I was like, wait a minute. I'm not designed to ask for permission.

I'm designed to follow the urges of my body, to do what I want, and to inform people of what's happening.

So I told my partner, I'm gonna try just informing my mom that I'm going there in a couple of days, rather than asking if it's okay or kind of dancing around it. And it was so wild to see how informing just made everything go smoother.

I don't know that my mom liked it or not, but by informing, I didn't put myself in a position where I had to respond to whether or not she liked it. I remember she was like, changing the trash, changing the bag in the kitchen trash.

And I just said, hey, Mom, I have a friend that lives a couple hours away and on Saturday I'm going to leave for a while to go see them. And my mom was a little surprised and she was like, okay. And so just really interesting to me because my conditioning says that I can't do that.

I can't do things that will have impact on people that they don't like.

So I have to like, try to wiggle and force and distort my auric imperative, my genetic imperative, by trying to meet other people's needs, which is just so twisted and incorrect for the manifester.

And so a weird thing that I'm noticing is that even if it feels uncomfortable to me, even if my conditioning, my mind so says, like, this isn't okay, this is selfish. It literally puts everyone at ease when the manifester informed.

Another example of this was I was out of town helping a friend with some health stuff recently and they were very anxious about being left alone at the house. And I just knew I needed some freedom. I knew I needed to leave. I had other friends in that town that I wanted to visit.

And so when I could feel the anxiety coming up, when I could feel that they really did not, I had left once and I could feel and they had articulated that they did not want me to leave again, I said, okay, well, I'm gonna leave the house again tomorrow. I'm gonna need at least a little bit of free time. And so, you know, if you need someone else to come by, you can reach out to someone else.

And I, I didn't feel as scared this time as I did the time with my mom that I just cited. But I did feel there. My mental narrative around it was, this is rude of me, but it literally put everything at ease.

Cause this is just what's happening. And now that person has the opportunity to use their own autonomy in regards to if or how that affects their approach to something.

It's so funny talking about this stuff. I feel like I just sound so silly.

But perhaps it's useful for other manifestors because I'm a manifester nearly four years into my experiment, and in a lot of ways I'm just starting to get the hang of informing.

The conditioning around informing and doing what we want and really exercising our autonomy for the manifestor can be so thick, especially I think, for manifestors that were assigned female at birth and raised as women and girls. Another example of manifestor informing, I'm starting to feel depleted and will be taking some time to not respond.

I'm not going to answer my Emails for the next bit of time. I used to say like I'm not going to look at emails for the rest of the week.

Now I'm just like, I'm not looking at emails right now because I don't know when, when I'll have the urge to look again. I'm starting to get bored of X, Y, Z.

So if you have a certain like habit or routine with someone and you're starting to feel that like this isn't working for me anymore because once things get stagnant for manifestors, they don't feel good. We're here for initiating and then we retreat and then we initiate something new and then we retreat.

So just this one maybe is more of an emotional manifesto thing because splenic and ego manifestors tend to move quickly because those authority centers function moment to moment where the emotional authority center takes time to process. So this one is maybe a little more specific to emotional manifestors, but just letting people know like what are you in process with?

So that they have a heads up that like things might change soon, this manifester might change direction or pull away or blah blah blah soon. And similarly speaking I'm considering insert life or situation change.

For many manifestors this can seem selfish, uncomfortable, annoying, unnatural. Experiment with it and see what works for you. And we talked about in the generator lecture there was a little bit about like relating to generators.

And so I want to talk here about how do we talk to our manifestors? How do we talk with other manifestors if we are manifestor?

And so in addition to manifestors having this strategy of informing, I want to note this has been extremely useful for me in my close relationships. Manifestors like to be neutrally informed too.

Neutral information is offering information without having an expectation for if or how the manifesto will respond. And neutral information also means information being offered in a way that is not trying to control the manifesto or the outcome.

When we inform manifestors, we are again giving them the opportunity to relate to us in integrity with their auric function.

And integrity for the manifestor means moving into things on their own terms, conversing on their own terms, acting according to their own body's rest and initiation cycle. So offering neutral information gives the manifester an opportunity to initiate with the information in mind of whatever it is you want to tell them.

It can be feel like elementary to play with this adjustment of language. But I can tell you that as a manifester these subtle shifts feel extremely different in my body Example, can you pick up some eggs on your way home?

You see that Puts a manifesto immediately in response. Something that might feel better to a manifestor is, we ran out of eggs yesterday.

Just let them know if it's correct for the manifestor to go get some eggs. They will, right?

If you miss your manifestor friend, instead of, can you hang out this weekend, maybe just informing them, I've got some free time this weekend, instead of, can you help me unload the groceries? I'll be home in 15 minutes and there's a lot to unload. Right.

It feels silly, but I'm telling you, as a manifester, the energy of it hitting my body feels so different. Like I'm literally, like, relaxing as I read these second things. And it's. It's often said that manifesters don't like questions.

So rather than asking a question, just neutrally informing the manifestor. I've been wondering about X, Y, Z.

There was a while, there was a long while where I didn't feel like I related to the idea of manifestors not liking questions, partially because, like, I love talking, so I love talking about myself. I love talking about how I see the world. And questions often feel like opportunities for me to do that.

But the more I decondition and through having some conversations with other manifester friends, I have started to realize that there is a.

A little bit of an aversion to questions and that it does feel better to know the kinds of things that people want to hear about so that I can initiate talking about them on my own terms. And had a conversation in particular with my friend vaness Henry, who's a 6:2 ego manifester. And I was asking Vanessa, do you like questions?

And Vanessa was like, I think I said, do you like questions? I asked Vanessa question, and Vanessa said, I don't like questions.

And we talked about it a little bit, and the way that Vanessa articulated it made a lot of sense to me. And I've since kind of watched this be the case for myself as well.

Vanessa said that they like it when they don't mind it, when questions are just kind of posed to the universe. And I realized that that's kind of how I tend to just engage with questions in general.

So when people ask questions, I tend to approach them as like, oh, a question for the universe. I will answer it in how. What, however way feels good to me rather than in a direct response to how you're asking it.

And I have this little asterisk up here for manifestors like to be neutrally informed too, because generally speaking, the more that you can wait for a manifestor to initiate with you rather than you initiate with them, the smoother the mechanics of the interaction will be for everyone. So you'll notice that like a lot of this stuff is pretty neutral stuff.

You know, you're some, you're wondering about something, you could use some help getting groceries out of the car, somebody needs to go get eggs. You know, these aren't hefty things. These are mundane things that most manifestors have to deal with.

Because we live in a world with others, we have relationships which we want to have with others.

But when it comes to like big things, like going out on a date, starting a new relationship, starting a collaboration, generally speaking, allowing the manifesto to move towards you or towards that collaboration or towards that relationship is going to set the parameters up for a better connection for both parties. It's still something that I feel kind of weird talking about because it's so.

It so challenges my orientation towards socialization and how I've been socialized. And there's aspects of my not self that want to be invited, that want to feel safe, and that want other people to initiate with me.

So I know that I am wanted here. And in the same vein, I have noticed over time that it really does feel better to me when I initiate with people.

I do, however, though enjoy being informed of my impact, informed of how people relate to me, what they appreciate about me, because that does make me feel safe, safer to initiate.

So just an idea to play with these, this idea of neutral information for the manifestors and notice if you have manifestors in your life that are close to you, notice if you play with this, as you play with this, start to notice when you're delivering neutral information, where do you actually have an intent to control how that manifester responds?

Where do you actually have an expectation for that manifestor and realize that you simply having an expectation for that manifestor is energetically compromising their ability to show up in ways that are correct for both of you in the container of your relationship or in the container of that interaction.

In summation, neutral information truly feels wildly better for the manifesto's mechanics than putting them in response or asking questions, because it gives them the opportunity to show up in relationship to you in ways that they may very much want to, without requiring them to compromise their genetic imperative of initiating and not responding. So, for example, I love my partner. I love him and I want to do things for him. I want him to feel loved by me, I want him to feel supported by me.

I want us to feel like a team. So I appreciate Knowing what things he is perceiving need to be done.

I appreciate knowing how I could show up for him, using my partner as an example. This is my primary relationship. But I feel this way about all of my loved ones, all of my students, all of my clients, everyone I work with.

I want to show up in support of you, but I need to do it on my own terms.

And so it feels really good to be informed of what could showing up in support of you look like, but then not being necessarily held to that specific expectation, because now I have the freedom to do so in a way that is mechanically correct for me, that literally doesn't hurt my body, that actually feels good and relaxed and supportive and autonomous in my own body. For the Manifestor, authority takes the front seat because the manifester is the only type whose strategy is not mechanical.

The authority becomes the mechanical basis for how, when and with whom to utilize the strategy to inform or not, as well as to initiate or not. Manifestors move or not according to their authority, emotional, splenic or ego, and inform ahead of and or as those movements take place.

Again, informing is not demanding. It's simply saying this is what seems to be happening.

So as I notice my body doing certain things, moving away from things, towards things, initiating, not initiating, I just inform to whoever's around me or to whoever it is that I perceive will be impacted by my action or non action. This is what seems to be happening, because they cannot sense that from inside of my closed aura.

And yeah, RA talks a lot about how, because the strategy for manifestors is artificial on a mechanical basis, where for everyone else it's strategy and authority, strategy and authority, strategy at the front and then authority sort of helping you navigate that process. For the Manifester, it's authority. Our authority is what moves us and then we inform as needed. So what is peace?

Similarly to how I articulated earlier on that the open and enveloping aura for the generator is so simple to understand the why of it, because it's all based on the sacral mechanics. Satisfaction and frustration are also completely based on the sacral mechanics.

So as we get into the other three types and we ask ourselves these questions of what is the signature of peace for the manifestor and the not self of anger, it might not feel as like simple and clear mechanically as satisfaction and frustration do, but we'll still break it down a bit. And it's everything we've talked about up to this point is hopefully a foundation for this question.

So peace, the manifester body, left unbothered and free has its peace. Manifestors are designed to be in a default state of autonomous rest. We feel peaceful there.

And from this default state, manifestors receive these internal impulses from our motor centers, urges to move and to act on our own accord. When the manifester is able to rest autonomously, there is peace.

When the manifester is able to initiate freely without resistance, there is, there is peace. The body left unbothered and free, has its peace. However, when outside forces interfere with the manifestor, there will be anger.

And the manifester might externalize this anger at such interference and, or the mind will hijack the natural energetic flow of anger via again the narratives of the not self and the openness in the manifester.

And instead of allowing that anger to flow through the manifester, through the throat to be expressed, the anger will be repressed and the anger will be internalized.

So a lot of times for manifestors, again, I think potentially more often manifestors that are assigned female at birth and conditioned as women and girls, as well as non white manifestors, people of color, specifically black people of color, who are manifestors, specifically, specifically black women, that anger, because of the conditioning on our gender, on our race, can result in a lot more of repression of the anger as well. And so if that's the case, if a lot of the anger has been repressed, then manifesters might not even connect with the idea that we have anger.

It took me probably a year and a half, maybe two years of my deconditioning journey to like really feel what my anger was.

And then once I started feeling it, I never stopped feeling it, but it was always there, it was just very repressed and, and I misunderstood it myself self to the point that I mislabeled what I was feeling. I didn't understand that it was anger.

When a manifestor does externalize the anger, which is part of our genetic imperative, because the energy, anger is energy in the body. Just like frustration and satisfaction is from this sacral energy. Anger is this pent up energy meeting resistance.

And so it does need to be expelled, but it doesn't need to be expelled at people, right? Manifest or anger isn't really at people, it's not personal, it's at resistance.

So crying, venting, shouting, screaming, whatever it is, there's a necessity for the manifestors to externalize the anger in some physical, energetic way. At the root of anger is resistance.

So again, when outside forces interfere with the manifester body being left unbothered and free to rest and initiate, there will be anger. There's resistance there and resistance Creates anger. So some different examples of resistance.

Resistance can come from outside forces attempting to control or resist the manifestor, from outside forces and internal conditioning expecting a response from a manifestor.

I've spent so much time being angry at my email inbox in prior iterations of my life because I took on the expectation that I had to respond to all of those things. Now I just don't. Resistance can come from outside forces and internal conditioning, expecting completion from the manifester.

So initiation happens organically. But manifesters aren't here to complete what we initiate. But when our conditioning. We live in a generator world, right?

We are conditioned to believe that we should stick with the thing, follow through with the thing. That's not correct for the manifestor.

So when outside forces expect us to both offer our very powerful gifts of initiation and bring the thing to completion, and we, when we take on that expectation for ourselves, that's resistance to our rest. That's resistance to our natural function of initiating and then retreating to rest.

Resistance can come from outside forces and internal conditioning expecting anything from the manifestor.

Oftentimes I use the words energetic leash, Whether people are conscious of it or not, out of an attempt to control or resist manifestors, people will try to kind of.

They'll have, like, what I can feel at this point in my body as an energetic leash on me, where I can feel that they want me to do something or want me to not do something. And even without a person saying something, Although often people deliver things verbally with an energetic undertone of control, I can feel that.

And that feels like resistance to me because I can feel that the space I need in front of me, which is why I have my closed aura, is getting compromised by the energetic leash that someone has on me because they expect something specific from me.

Resistance can come from feeling a deep sense of connection with humanity, through a deep sense of connection with God or with source, which manifestors have inside of our closed aura. We are informed by source, the universe, God, however you want to think about it. That's where our urges come from.

And we feel a deep sense of connection to that.

We feel a sense of connection to that that is less diluted as manifestors than the other types, specifically generators and projectors, who are designed to engage with the interpersonal conditioning realm at deeper levels than us. So we feel this deep sense of connection to all as manifestors. And that's what we deliver. We are. We're conduits as manifestors.

So we feel this sense of connection, including a sense of connection with humanity.

But we have an aura that closes us off from the type of interpersonal connection that 90% of the population generators and projectors naturally experience with one another.

And the kind of thing that, like, really helped connect me with my anger and with resistance being at the root of my anger is this real basic, mundane stuff at the bottom here. Resistance can come from red lights, untied shoes, technological troubleshooting.

The times when I get the most angry, like, looking back at my life, when I get really angry, it's when I can't get technology to work and I have to troubleshoot.

Or like, weird example, but if I've been in a dressing room and I'm trying to get a shirt off or a dress off or something, and I've gotten stuck in it, I get just, like, so heated angry.

So that stuff, the Untied Shoes is an example of a manifesto friend I had who was like, telling a story about how there was just, like, all these obstacles in their way to getting where they were going one morning, and them having to stop and tie their shoes was like, the thing that sent them over the edge. I bring this stuff up because for me, this is how I connected to anger.

I identified that, like, impatience at these little obstacles in the way of me just trying to do the thing in urge mode and initiation mode, or trying to get through the things I have to do in the day because I live in a generator world. Even though I don't have energy to do it, I have negative energy. And I'm using the little bits that I have to try to meet the needs of the world.

And I also have to tie my shoes. Are you kidding me? Right? And I also have to sit in traffic.

What these little mundane things were, how I first really felt in an aware way, the frequency of my anger at resistance.

And then I was able to recognize it in bigger ways via relationship dynamics and this energetic leash and expectation and all of these other kind of larger things. And I mentioned impatience because, again, that was a huge part for me in feeling into my anger.

I believe it was my teacher Alok, who I first and maybe only, only person I've heard say the anger and patience are the same frequency. And when he said that, everything clicked for me.

And I think that's when I started to see, like, oh, troubleshooting technology and getting stuck in clothes in a dressing room. That's when I'm the most angry. Because those are, for whatever reason, the times that I didn't repress my anger.

All the other instances of resistance and anger that Feel like bigger deals on this slide were times that for most of my life, I repressed the anger around that. I tried to think it away. I tried to avoid or deny that I was feeling that. But with these mundane things, I allowed myself to feel it.

I allowed that energy to move through me. And so that was my connection.

That was my connection point to being able to feel into and explore and recognize my anger at these other, more existential issues. Manifestors get impatient and thus angry at having to deal with the outside world.

When we're designed to move from what's inside of our aura, only we experience impatience and thus anger in regards to all of the minor resistances of the day, all of the response needed throughout the day, customer service, calls, emails, texts, loved ones, cooking, cleaning. Manifestors were designed to lead.

We were the type people talk about manif, joke about manifesters being like dinosaurs right now because we are going extinct according to ra, which is a whole other thing. But we're not the leaders anymore. Manifestors used to dictate, essentially by saying, initiating, this is what's happening.

And then entire civilizations would move according to that manifesto's initiation. So back when leadership was about initiation, which it's not, we're evolving away from that, which we'll talk about when we get to projectors.

But back when, when manifestors were the leaders, because leadership was about initiating, manifestors used to have an abundance of support from the sacral beings of the world. This is the old setup. And manifestors today are living in the afterworld of our original auric purpose.

So it makes sense to me that manifestors feel angry at everything we have to do because we're not designed to have the energy to do it. And historically speaking, we have had other people doing those things for us.

It feels weird to talk about, but it also just feels so true to me at this point that I can't not talk about it. Manifestors experience impatience and less anger and having to explain ourselves when everyone else can feel each other.

This is something that I'm summarizing from something that I heard Alaq say in one of my classes.

Alakanon Diaz, an emotional manifestor, was sharing at one point that most of his anger at this point in his life comes from having to explain his feelings. And this is a quote from a class that I took with him where he said, do I really need to explain? Don't you feel me? Don't you want to feel me?

There's nothing we are more sensitive to as manifestors than resistance. They want you to Go crazy. They don't want to listen to you. They want you to explain, but they don't want to believe you. Very tiring, irritating.

When I'm trying to explain and you are trying not to understand, that's where peace ends. Sometimes the Not Self Generator or the Not Self projector or the Not Self reflector can get frustrated, bitter or disappointed.

The Not Self themes of those three types at their inability to control the manifestor.

And so they'll bump up into the closed aura and feel a frustration, a bitterness, a disappointment, a resentment in some way, a fear mixed in with that of this closed aura, and decide they make meaning out of it. Why can't I get through to you? Why won't you listen to me? Why can't I control you? Why can't I feel you? Why can't I predict you?

And they'll come up with a story, they'll come up with their own meaning or narrative around that thinking especially about the extent to which this happens to manifestors who have fifth lines and maybe even second lines, but especially fifth lines in their profile, where it's so easy to project a story onto that manifesto that is completely cut off from the truth of what's happening with that manifester and with your exchange with them.

So this happens a lot when the manifester is trying to offer the courtesy of informing, trying to explain, understanding that you can't feel what's happening in here.

And the other person is trying not to understand because they've already come up with a story about what the sensation of this closed aura means, because they don't get it, they don't understand. And how could they? The closed aura is a mechanical thing. It's not up to the manifestor.

We are not intentionally closing off, but we so often get blamed for that, for our closed offness and ostracized for it. So this just really, really struck me when I'm trying to explain and you are trying not to understand. That's where peace ends.

Manifestors can feel impatient and thus angry when the not self of the manifestor attaches to the initiation, seeking to sustain it and bring it to completion, when the body is actually ready to release it and rest. I mean, this is like the existential problem for the manifestor.

The existential suffering for the manifestor is around being the only creature, the only of the four aura types for whom nothing for them will come from the outside. Everything has to be initiated within.

And I think for the self manifester, we know that that's what brings us peace and yet along the way, and perhaps even once deconditioned, there is sort of a sadness, an impatience around and a loneliness around. I have to do everything myself, you know, and there's narratives around that that manifestors can get hooked into that are simply not true.

We can't do everything ourselves because we are non sacral beings. We need the other.

We and every person, regardless of their design, needs the other in a way, but on an auric level, like nothing that's correct for the manifester will ever come from outside, from another being. It will come from me initiating it. And there can be an anger and an impatience because of that.

Another quote from a manifestor named Martha Delafield on Manifestors threat control and anger. Manifestors are here to have an impact. You're here to do what you want to do. That kind of independent energy tends to freak people out.

As a kid, you are likely headstrong and impulsive and I'm going to do what I want to do kind of kid.

This often means that manifesto children experience more punishment than any other types, with parents and teachers more likely to want to control you. That independent energy, that closed aura, triggers others that feel like you are unpredictable and out of control.

And similarly, from RA, manifestors are controlled from the moment that they come into the world because there is suspicion about them that stems from this aura contact. And this control leads to the theme of anger. Manifestor children with this repelling aura might be tribal, emotional and collective.

These aren't things we've studied a whole lot yet emotional we have.

But those are some elements of many other elements as well, not listed here, that make the manifester want to feel included, want to feel like part of things, want to be in connection. So you can imagine how difficult that is.

So again, speaking to the kind of existential anger of having to do everything alone, having to initiate everything myself, even though there are parts of me that long to be in connection. They want to be able to integrate and they can't.

It's why there is all of this potential anger and tension that builds up in the life of the manifesto child, the conditioned manifester child. Manifestors.

I know myself, and I have heard many other manifestors articulate this in their own very impactful, moving ways, often experience anger at the boundary of the closed aura, as well as anger towards the resistance that this closed aura presents to living freely as themselves, which is a pure, genuine need for the manifestor and not an inherently harmful quality, the fundamental prerogative of the vehicle of the manifestor. At this point this is all review.

Manifestors are the butterfly and the butterfly effect, the stone toss that initiates all of the ripples in the pond of reality. In case you haven't heard of the butterfly effect, here's a.

A property of chaotic systems such as the atmosphere, by which small changes in initial conditions can lead to large scale and unpredictable variation in the future state of the system.

I really like thinking of manifestors as the butterfly and the butterfly effects, because while it isn't so simple and straightforward and linear as generators are only ever responding to manifestors who initiate and then in their response inviting projectors who are waiting for their invitations. It's not that linear. But all of the ripples through the Maya, all of the ripples in the pond of reality originate at manifestor initiation.

Because manifestors are the only ones who initiate from an internal cue that's not already out there. The initiation that manifesting generators do is happening in response to the ripples that are already out in the pond of reality.

Manifestors themselves are the initial stones that get tossed, or the tosser of the stones into the pond of reality. I heard of this law of 10%, which maybe is kind of a stretch, but I'm just playing with this idea right now.

The law of 10% in the energy pyramid is think of like the food chain.

Each source of food, only 10% of that energy from that source of nourishment makes it into the next level when that part of the food chain is eaten or consumed by the next part of the food chain. So kind of thinking of the 10% roughly of the, of the collective that is manifesters.

We are that 10% of energy initiating something new, bringing in the next mutation, the next stage of evolution into the reality. And then everybody responds to it, is invited into it, guides it in their own way. But it begins with manifestor impact.

With manifester initiation, the manifester pulls new shapes and trajectories of reality into the Maya from the void space.

Manifestors, you naturally pierce through the homogenized muck of the world and the hole in reality that is left in your wake, through that piercing is space for new possibility to fill. You are a conduit for this process, not a director of it. Manifestors initiate from a surrendered state.

We are not in control of what we initiate any more than a generator is in control of what they respond to. Manifestors, your closed aura and your acceptance of it protects this process.

As generators are the keepers of life force energy, you are the keepers of the portal for creation. Your body is the portal for this creation, this initiation.

Maybe this should have gone in earlier because I've talked about urges and rest a bit already. But let's just go over it because it's here. Rest and quote urges. What is an urge? Where does it come from?

Some people say God, life force, source, inner cues, all of the above.

Manifestors can explore this question to their head and Ajna centered delight in whatever ways their definition or conditioning brings that question in.

But essentially the important piece, I think, or the universalization underneath all of it is that there's an internal cue communicating to the manifestor when to initiate through this urge. And it has nothing to do with the ripples that are already out there. Rest is the default and urges are the exception. Manifestors are energy beings.

You will hear people classify projectors and reflector reflectors. You are non energy beings. Stop trying to do, you are not here to do. And that's extremely true.

And we will get deep into that in the reflector and projector lectures and manifestors.

Because you are an energy being and because your auric function has to do with what you do in your energetic urges, you will often be recognized for that energetic contribution because it is your contribution. Initiation is your contribution and it has to do with energy. And that is not your default state. And so it's.

I think it's just very important for manifestors in the deconditioning process to remember that you are non sacral, you are not consistently using energy. Default is your rest. And then you wait for the urge, the urge shows up.

And it's only in those urges which happen sparingly compared to your rest, that you are actually energized to use energy. I've heard in multiple places. I'm not sure exactly where it came from. I'm not sure if this comes from source material.

I don't think I've ever heard Ross say it, but I have heard from multiple other sources that rest is the default and that manifestors are resting about 80% of the time. And urges that are the exception and that we're in create mode organically about 20% of the time.

I don't know how I feel about that because it feels a little homogenizing. I think it can depend on many things, including phases of life. I kind of sort of understand for me urges to happen on like multiple levels.

I won't get too into that right now, but there's like macro urges and micro urges in my experience up to this point. Also manifestors have different kinds of motors and different amounts of motors. I have three motors in my body graph, some manifestors have one.

So we might be motorized in urges to different extents, at different times and different proportions.

So I wanted to share that with you all for those of you who are manifesters to consider that you are an energy being, but you are a non sacral energy being, which means rest and relaxation as your default urges do not happen in response. They come from the energy in the manifesto's non sacral motors.

So you'll notice if you are a manifestor, if you watch manifestors, that the nature of their urges is dependent on their motor center. If a manifester has a defined ego, there's will and heart, willpower and heart in their urges.

If a manifester has a defined root center, there is a feeling of like time to begin that impulse pressure with their urges. And if a manifesto has a defined solar plexus, their urges have an emotionalized energy to them, have an awareness to them.

Urges from the ego and the root do not have awareness to them if there isn't also a defined solar plexus.

The closed aura protects this process, protects us from forcing initiation incorrectly in response, and protects our ability to move in our urges as well as to stay in our rest.

I mentioned in the generator lecture that I do think there are overlapping qualities in the experience of the manifesting generator and the manifestor that are worth looking at. So hopefully you've received my additional contextualizing that you are absolutely a generator with an open and enveloping aura.

But within that umbrella. I do think it can be useful for manifesting generators and for all of us to acknowledge the shared experience of the motorized throat.

So let's discuss manifesting generators again in this context of a motorized throat reminder. Manifesting generators, you wait for response, not urges. Your throat impacts, but your aura envelops. You do not have a closed aura.

Your aura does not push. Does the motorized throat make the MG aura push a little? Maybe Verdict's still out on that for me. I'm not sure. Like when I think about what is.

How does an enveloping aura also impact. It feels like a strong hug, you know, maybe a little like, I don't know, suffocating I don't know if that's true. It's like a tight squeeze.

It doesn't push away because it envelops, but within that enveloping, that open and enveloping aura, which is the base octave of what an MG's energetic field does. All of our auras contain in smaller levels the definition of the gates and the channels and the centers in our aura.

And so the MG aura, while being open and enveloping, it does also have the frequency marker of a motorized throat. So does it push a little bit? I don't know that I feel pushed by MG auras, but I do feel a sort of like lifty nature to it.

And perhaps another time, since this lecture is already so long, I don't want to include it here. But perhaps another time I'll bring up. I'll tell the story of.

At an event I hosted called In Aura where There were about 20 human design experimenters, we did an aura experiment where each type sat with other types to feel just the pure interaction of those two type auras. I did notice a difference between the MG and the generator aura. So I'll just deliver that piece of the anecdote right now.

Is that the generator auras, the pure generators, non manifesting auras, they felt very buzzy but they felt low. They brought us like lower to the ground.

Whereas the MG auras, we felt the same buzz but it was like a faster buzz and it felt uplifting, like the energy was moving up.

So that it's like the way that that aura envelops you, it, the weight of what it moves in your body feels different but it's not pushing, it's still enveloping. So manifestors and MGs, what's the same, what's different? Same is less than what's different. The same as the motor to the throat.

The expression from these people have power because the throat center is motorized. There's consistent impact through that externalization and there's a level of independence.

Different aura type, strategy, signature are all different for mgs. For manifestors, open versus closed aura, inconsistent versus consistent energy expenditure.

Manifesting generators are going pew pew pew with their impact, but they're showing up consistently because the sacral power is motorizing it all versus manifestors are living in this void space behind a closed aura and then they come out with massive impact and then retreat back to the space. Satisfaction versus peace. Manifestors are not after satisfaction and manifesting generators are not after peace.

They need their satisfaction or their sacral won't be healthy. And I think of, you know, generators, I've noted multiple times, are the carriers of life force.

Sometimes I like to refer to manifesting generators as the curators because you're carrying around this power, this motor that sustains and carries life force energy with your defined sacral. But as a manifesting generator, you're also sort of. Your initiations are also sort of like trimming and curating that life force as you go. Right.

Versus manifestors. We're not carrying it. We come out and we create space for new iterations of life force. Big impact versus manifesting generator.

Impact is like upkeep throughout.

So mgs, as the curator of life force within their carrying of life force function versus manifestors are the conduit or the portal for the impulse for life force energy to move or shift or change. Coming back to this phrase, these key ideas and questions for the types, generators are here to know themselves. Their question is, who am I?

Projectors are here to know the other. Their question is, who are they? Manifestors are here to know their impact. The question is, what is my impact? How do I impact?

Reflectors are here to know their differentiation. Who is different? Ra says a manifestor has the ability to move its energy into action. It is an energy type.

The illusion that people have about manifestors is that they can do whatever they want. Well, they can't. It's just an illusion. Manifestors tend to operate on their own.

And in operating on their own, they tend to look to the outsider like they're taking their own action. In fact, like everybody else, we are all reactive. We are all reacting to the impulse. None of us are in control of the process.

However, it certainly looks like the manifestors are able to take the initiative.

So if you think about this in regards to the theme of manifestors so often being attempted to be controlled by the other, this is all connected to that.

Others, out of their own sense of lack of control, project onto the manifestor that the manifester is in control because the manifester is the only one that cannot be controlled. Designed to not be influenced.

But actually manifestors, in order to be in alignment, in order to reach their signature of peace, need to be as surrendered as any other type is surrendered to their process. It's just that the process, the mechanical strategy for the manifestor, is coming from internal cues.

So it can look like it's happening on its own accord. It's not. It's just as much a surrendering to the geometry, to the shape, to the dance of life. It just enters the manifesto's body differently.

We are all reactive. In other words, we are all helpless equally so we are all reacting to the impulse. Manifestors get the impulse inside the closed aura.

Everybody else gets it from the outside world. Here's my little empowerment in summation for the manifestors. Manifestors will deal with the theme of rejection throughout their life.

Manifestors will deal with ostracization throughout their life. It's simply the nature of the mechanics of the closed aura interacting with the not self.

World Awareness for the manifestor, is in understanding, watching and surrendering to the mechanics of the closed aura without attempting to interfere with those mechanics or assigning mental meaning to them.

When we try to make meaning out of our rejection as manifestors, when we try to take blame or place blame on others for the inevitable mechanics of our auras, we only perpetuate our suffering. People will be repelled. People will be threatened. People will not understand what's happening inside of our closed aura if we don't inform them.

And that is no one's fault. It's not your fault if you repel people. It's not their fault. It's just the mechanics. It's not personal, it's mechanics.

This is something that is said often in human design for everything. It's not personal, it's mechanics.

Manifestors, you have likely been conditioned to perform openness in attempts to feel that you belong and attempts to put others at ease in your presence so that you can belong when you're at peace. Your big impacting aura pushes peace out into the world it impacts peacefully.

Even then, some will feel discomfort at their sense that you will impact them and they cannot control or predict how, but that discomfort is their trip to tend to, not yours. Manifesters. Just as you wish for others to let go of attempts to control you, you must let go of your attempts to control others reactions to you.

Divest from this performance of openness and the futile attempts to manage your impact. Instead, invest in your peace and experiment with informing and relax into the spaciousness that that creates in your life.

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