In this episode, Greg shares his story of having built his identity around achievement, excelling in every area of life yet still feeling “not enough.” Chasing outward success while ignoring his inner truth eventually led to a dramatic turning point when he was arrested, a moment that shattered the life he had constructed. 

Prison became an unexpected spiritual awakening, revealing how far he had strayed from his true self and showing him that his worth was never tied to achievement. Today, Greg teaches that our natural state is peace, love, and inner freedom, guiding others to release old wounds and remember that true healing is available to everyone. 

Greg’s offerings to our listeners: 

● Many options to choose from: Free sound sessions, discount codes to therapeutic experiences, and more. To chat about it, please email greg@lifecraft.me. 

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● Greg German - Email 

● Stay tuned - Social links to come in 2026 

Connect with Rev. DeeAnne:

• Rose Hope - Website
• Rose Hope - Facebook
• Rose Hope - Youtube

Join Rev. Rose for a free 7 day journey into the Akashic Records by registering here: https://rosehope.ca/7-days-of-creation/. 

About the Guest:

Greg German is the founder of LifeCraft, where he guides transformative, soul-healing experiences that awaken what is most alive and real within us. His work is rooted in one powerful truth: soul embodiment isn’t about rising above life, it’s about becoming fully, fiercely human. Through his guidance, we reclaim the parts of ourselves we’ve hidden, forgotten, or exiled, learning to walk with them in love, presence, and wholeness. 

About the Host:

Rev. DeeAnne ‘Rose Hope’ Riendeau B.Msc, HADM, PIDP, NLP is a thought leader in spiritual and business development whose mission is to elevate how we think and live. Experiencing a life of chronic illness, and 2 near death experiences, DeeAnne rebounded with 20 years of health education and a diverse health career. 

She is known as the modern day Willy Wonka for giving away her company Your Holistic Earth, which is the first holistic health care system of its kind. She is currently the owner of Rose Hope International, in which she helps those who are seeking more joy, love, freedom, and a deeper meaning in life using your souls library also known as the Akashic Records. 

She has spoken at Harvard University, appeared on Shaw TV, Global Television, and CTV and has been recognized as a visionary and business leader having been nominated for numerous awards including Alberta Business of Distinction. Along with being an entrepreneur, DeeAnne is a mom of 2 bright kids, publisher, popular speaker and international bestselling author who uses her heart and her head to guide others to create their best life. 

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WSC Intro/Outro: This is when Spirit calls and you on your journey, are in the right place. This show is about magic, miracles and meaning shared through stories, interviews and channeled messages. We have so much to share about who you are and your divine mission here on the earth, let's get to it when Spirit calls is right now.

Rev. Rose Hope: We've got another inspirational guest for you on today's show today, our guest is Greg German, and let me tell you, this guy has a story that's going to blow your mind. I don't think his bio quite gives him justice, but I hope that you stay tuned, because this is a story that you are going to want to hear. Greg is the founder of lifecraft. Through lifecraft, Greg leads soul healing experiences that awaken what is most real and alive within us. His work is rooted in a simple, radical truth. Soul. Embodiment is not about transcendence. It's about becoming deeply, fiercely human. It's about reclaiming the parts we've hidden, forgotten or exiled, and learning to walk with them in love. I hope you get so much out of today's episode. It's a powerful story of how we can come back to ourselves with love.

Hey everyone, it's another edition of When Spirit calls. I'm so happy to be with you, and I am extra excited about our guest today. I had the privilege of meeting this beautiful human about over a month ago now. And you know, this guy was just something else. He had a light about him that I hadn't seen in another human for a really long time. And I am so privileged and honored to have him as our guest today, because he has got a story to tell you and some wisdom, not just from that story, but from some of his past life experiences, which I will let him kind of dive in and share with you about. So Greg, hey, so happy you're here.

Thank you. Well, what a what a humbling introduction. I appreciate you.

Rev. Rose Hope: Oh, well, you know, I think you're such a gift to the world. And you know, you have, you have such a visionary mind. And I'll be honest, you know, you reminded me of parts of myself, you know, in some of those visionary pieces and this idea to help reshape how we live, how we show up in the world, how we human. And so I feel like it's such a privilege for me truly. So I'm gonna get you going on the story, because you have a really incredible story that I know just a little bit about. And I think, I think there's some real potency and some real medicine in your experience and in your story. So we're gonna start off with that, that opportunity when spirit was calling you, whether you knew it or not at the time, and, and I'm gonna invite you to kind of start back at the beginning for us, sure.

Yeah, thanks. D, so for anyone that's watching this, there's a sign behind me that says, Be fully human. And this, this story is really the story of how I came to understand what it means to be a full human being, and in our pursuit of pathways to guide others into this fully human life, which is the most fulfilling, abundant, meaningful, fully expressed human experience, and it's our birthright. It's available to us all. So the beginning of the story we we can go all the way back to when I was just a little kid, and from a very early age when, when we first begin to create our self identity without realizing that we're doing so, of course, we all do this. I i took on the identity of an achiever, I noticed that when I appeared smarter than or did things faster than, learned better than my peers, my siblings, my parents, my teachers, my coaches, all very happy, very proud, and without realizing it, I took on some deep beliefs about my enoughness, my lovability, my belonging, being contingent on what I produce, what I create, how I make others proud.

Oh, I feel that, yep, yeah.

And you know, Dean in our western material world that can drive us to excel, right? If you're going to take on an untrue, unconscious belief, it's not a bad one if you're trying to accumulate stuff, right? That's kind

Rev. Rose Hope: of how I felt about it for a long time. Yeah,

sure. And so this, this drove me to excel in my life. I was a very, very driven child, and what. Period. Outwardly, like, like, you know, I'm really succeeding at life. Inwardly, there was a desperation. And there was a it was never enough, no matter if I was the best person on the team, which I was always driving at, if I was the smartest in the class, which I was always driving at, if in, you know, fill in the blank, I still felt not enough. And and so that drove me through school and into university. And I always wanted to be a doctor from a young age. And in fact, all of my family and friends, everybody knew that was what I was going to do. That was my path, and it very much became a part of my identity, too. And so I went straight into a medical program on honors degree in faculty medicine at the U of A with plans of heading into psychiatry. And by the end of that first degree d, I had succeeded outwardly in a lot of ways. You know, I had, I hadn't become the president of the faculty for two years. I was a varsity sprinter at the U of A and then was recruited by Team Canada bobsleigh. And I had started several businesses. I was coaching teams. The businesses were going very well, so I was donating money and really trying to build my my resume as a pillar in the community, this notorious doctor, and at that time in my life, I had a lot of expensive stuff, shiny things. And if you would ask me if I was happy, I would have said, well, of course, I'm happy. Look at all my shiny things, look at my 8000 Facebook friends, and I can go and do anything I want to do, and I can buy this and have that. And I would have thought I was telling the truth. You know, I was so in denial that that the deeper truths of what my soul was calling me toward were not being heard, I couldn't even hold them. And so towards the end of that degree, I I started to experience a failure of my paradigm. My paradigm was, sure you don't feel enough yet, but

that's because you haven't reached your full potential. You just need more. You know, another million dollars, Another World Cup called metal, another blank. And, you know, do I think the reason that we see a lot of suicide among rock stars, movie stars, dentists is because they've actually achieved the things that they promised themselves to bring them happy, happiness, and it hasn't Yes, and sometimes you have, when you reach that place, you have nowhere to go, right, right? If all this stuff that society and everyone's been telling me is going to bring me happiness has not brought me happiness, and if I can no longer believe that the next record, the next movie, the next million dollars, it's going to bring me happiness. Where do you go from there? You really can only conclude that you're incapable of it.

Rev. Rose Hope: right? Yeah, I call that the I'll be happy when game, yeah, I'll be happy when I'll be happy when I finish the degree. I'll be happy when I get the award. I'll be happy when. Right? Exactly, right. Losing game, as you know, yeah, yeah.

And so I found myself there and and so my behavior started to become erratic, you know, I was throwing Hail Marys, buying things, buying big trips and and doing crazy stuff. Yeah, 50% of that was me throwing a Hail Mary, trying to try to pedestalize the next thing, and hoping that this next thing is somehow going to give me what all these other things have not Yeah. And 50% was a fuck it to the universe, right? I was

Rev. Rose Hope: all this, and I'm still not happy. Fuck it. Yeah.

You know, I was 2120 21 and I had a lot more money than I had character at this time. And so I, I was spending money erratically, kind of going, we'll do it. I'll do whatever I want. You know? I, I started to develop a petulance, and I started to feel like I was entitled somehow, like from the earliest ages, I was the hardest working person that I knew the most dedicated, never touched any drugs, never got into any anything that couldn't be reconciled with the life of optimal performance, right? And so I felt like I had given up so much to race ahead and create a life that I thought was gonna make me happy, and I felt like all that effort was for nothing, and I also felt very alone, because, as I started to realize how empty my life was, I had no one to connect with on that. You know, all my friends thought I was, I was doing all the things that we're all trying to do, and if I would have looked them. My friends and said, Hey guys, I kind of hate my life. They they would have looked at me like I was an alien, you know. And I knew that, and I was looking at myself as an alien a little bit too, like I I couldn't quite acknowledge where I was really at. And so I'll backtrack a little bit here to get the start of that degree. So four years before this, I was only 17, and so I got snuck into this bar for this birthday party, and some of the people that I knew on the track team, they had friends and relatives that were at this party. And some of these people were from really wealthy families in the area involved in a lot of businesses and and these guys were a few years older than me, 1819, 20. They were cousins, and they were starting to take over some of the family businesses. And they were also getting into some illegal stuff. They were they were buying drugs like cocaine in Mexico and the southern US, and bringing it up into Canada, and then wholesale selling it off. And they found out I was in pharmacology, which is like drug research, drug design,

that was the degree I was doing in medicine. And they asked me if I would chemically test their cocaine for purity. And I was shocked, like I had just met these guys, you know, I didn't even know anyone who sold wheat. And now these guys are telling me about this, what sounds like a pretty sizable operation. I don't know anything about it, but, you know, like my toes curled up in my shoes, and I'm going, oh my god, decide I kind of, oh, it's, you know, not really into that, you know, I wouldn't really be able to do that and nudging people, hopefully someone changed the subject here, you know? Yeah, I couldn't believe how Cavalier they were. Just just met him, and they're like, hey, well, why don't you test our kilograms of cocaine, you know? And, yeah, I thought I was gonna get shot in the parking lot that day. But of course, that didn't happen. And then over the course of that degree, as I was going through this progressive moral de evolution, as I was trying to answer an inward call outwardly, yeah, and losing touch with what's real, losing the experience of meaning in everything. And so becoming weaker, weaker, more lost, more rageful, but with a depressive rage I couldn't understand. All throughout those years, I would run into these guys randomly and here and there, not bump into my own campus or at a party or public places, and every time I did, they kept offering me more and more and more. So I could see their operation was growing, but it was always an instant automatic no for me, like it wouldn't they could have offered me a bajillion gajillion dollars. It wouldn't have mattered, because I just couldn't begin to reconcile how me and this identity that was keeping me safe as this achiever and this successful pillar in the community, how I could reconcile that with this activity just I couldn't go there, couldn't get there. So kept saying no, and now fast forward to the end of that degree. And now one of the companies I started was a little trucking

company. And we started out with just one truck, and then expanded to more, and then started bringing things in from the Port of Vancouver into Alberta and distributing and then we made a big move to the US, bringing things up the seaboard, in both directions, and then in to Alberta. Wow. So yeah. So I had to move to to LA for a few months to get some stuff set up. And these guys found out I was moving there, and so they came with a big offer. They said, Hey, if you can test this stuff for us down there, it's worth way more to us than testing it in Canada, because if we get it across the border into Canada and then discover that it's no good, you know, it's not, not easy to return it, I'm guessing. And so they offered me a large amount of money, but it wasn't really about the money. You know, I was already making a lot of money, I was already spending a lot of money. And realistically, I was, I was well beyond that income point where more money, it really doesn't change anything. Yeah, there's no, there's no material shift in, in how you feel. Not that spending money ever has to do with happiness, really, there. But, you know, I was on tilt, and I was kind of like this fucking attitude at that point in my life. I was feeling really weak and really destabilized, really disconnected, but in ways I couldn't understand at that age. And I remember vividly the for the first time, allowed myself to consider it. They propositioned, and I went, well, maybe I will, you know, fuck it. I'll do what I want. You know, I'm a man. I'm a man as this young boy. And as soon as I did that, I had this rush of emotion. I had become so numb in my life that my relationships had become sterile. I was so fixated on pursuing. Outward gain. And there was a connection, a truth inside of me trying to call me home, and I was misinterpreting that call as a call for another boat or more carbon stuff, more expensive this, you know. And so when I allowed myself to consider this, it was so

intense, it was so mysterious and dangerous and so out of character for me that that it pierced the fog that had formed around my heart, right? Wow. And I remember feeling a charge. I remember feeling an emotion, yeah. And, you know, so in a strange way this kind of made me feel like a human being

Rev. Rose Hope: again, yeah, like I feel like there's an aliveness that came in you, right? Yeah.

And so now I can feel my deep nervous system, whose only job is to keep me safe, orienting towards this. I can feel it leaning into this. And my conscious mind, my my ego brain is going, No, no, this is the worst idea you've ever had. Don't do this. And I remember not caring. I remember hearing that narrative so clearly in my head and going, fuck off. Yeah, it was like the primitive part of my human meat suit that is here to keep me safe. It somehow had determined wrongly, but had determined that what I'd been chasing all my life, this sense of peace enoughness, grounded meaning in my life, somehow it was here, right? This was the next pedestal. And so I agreed, and so they gave me this encrypted phone, and actually a couple more things I'll share. Dee, I've learned that you can talk yourself into anything if you really believe it's what you need. It's true. And experiencing that myself has given me so much compassion for the people that we help now. And I remember thinking to myself, Well, I've been watching these guys for four or five years, and I've been saying no all this time, and their operation has been growing, so I'm preventing nothing. They don't have anyone else who can do this. Nobody else has this esoteric knowledge and how to test these alkaloids. And so by me saying no, I'm preventing nothing. And if I say yes, now I can keep bad stuff out of Canada. You know, we didn't have fentanyl yet by this point, but there was other things they were cutting it with and buffing it with and and they're nuts. So now I'm thinking, I'm a public servant. You're welcome, right? This is how we can rationalize things. And you know, the people who are involved in this are not who I thought, I think, not who most people think. You know, I was. I was expecting it to be people with leather vests and teardrop tattoos. And it is not. It's some of the highest professionals and politicians in in our country, I think in all countries, who are involved

in this. And so it was easy for me to romance the idea that there's no victims here this. These are not street drugs. These are for wealthy people that want to party on the weekends. And and there's no victims, which is also probably not true. So they give me this phone and and I take it down there with me when I move down there, and just leave it plugged into the wall. And one day, the phone rings, and I go and I meet this guy outside of LA and he had six little pieces of cocaine. I did not look like that. I didn't know anything about it except the chemistry. And so I did. These are just little pieces size of a thumbnail, less than a gram each. And so I did these little chemical reactions and weighed the precipitates to get a purity number, and then I left heart pounding the whole time. And so now I'm driving back to my apartment in LA and I start to feel this panic come over me. It was like the dam of denial that I built. It in the truth of how quickly my life had taken a left hand turn, and the truth of what I'd just done, it just crushed me. And I remember feeling like there was a black hole crushing my chest, the palm trees getting blurry and and I was overcome with the most intense rage I've ever experienced, and it was like I knew I was powerful enough to do a lot of stuff in the 3d and yet, in the only way I cared about anymore, I felt completely neutered, and that was a lot for my E. Go. And it was a lot for my my critter brain, my Survivor Brain, because it felt out of power. It felt like safety was not available. And so I just wanted to quit everything. I was like, I feel like I've won the game of being a human being in level, and I fucking hate it. And what's the point of this? Like, why are we here? Why are we here trying to have more than the next person, sacrificing our health and our peace to buy stuff? Like, what's the point of all this? And yeah, like, I wanted to buy an island and never seen another human being again. That's where I was.

And so I I wanted to quit my participation in this stuff too. That was no exception. So I called the people I knew back in Canada, and I said, Hey guys, like, here are your pretty numbers and and I'm out. I'm not doing this anymore. And by then I knew, like, I had enough rapport with these guys. I knew I could just walk away. Yeah, so I did. So I I finished what had to do down there, and I came home, and I kind of tried to manufacture my own come to Jesus, rock bottom moment where I was I was hearing a whisper, just starting to hear a whisper in the back of my head that there's more to being a mat and there's more to being a human being than just achieving, winning, having more. And so I endeavored to figure out what that was. And so I tried meditation. Really got into meditation. I bought all the books, and the books I really wanted were the books that said the five steps to enlightenment. Because I'm thinking, well, I'll just do this faster than you guys. You know, enlightened next, right? Yeah. And, of course, that's not something that can be power steered, right? And so I abandoned that. And then I tried yoga for a while, and I just hated it. It it was so uncomfortable for me to try to move slowly and just be in this room for 45 minutes, moving slowly and breathing. I was like, I could have built a course by now, you know, like I just couldn't. I couldn't sit there easily, yeah, and so I kind of gave up Dion on trying to figure out what the point of it was, and I fell back into this raging, materialistic river that I had created my life to be, and on the service, it was not uncomfortable, like at a deep level, it was very uncomfortable. I couldn't be quiet, I couldn't be still. As long as I was running in 1000 miles an hour, buying fancy shit and doing fancy shit, I could keep overrunning the truth that was stalking me, and so that's what I did. And eight months later, I had one trip planned back to the US to glad hand some of our bigger

clients. And so the plane lands. I This is in Las Vegas. Plane lands there, and I turn on my phone, and my phone's going, bing, bing, bing, bing and and I vividly remember sitting in that plane thinking like, oh, yeah, I'm so important. Look at all the deals I'm doing. Look at all the money I'm moving. Look all the things. And after a few minutes, I noticed that people who had stood up to get their stuff out of the overhead bins are all sitting back down again. And I look out the window, and I can see Vegas like I can see the desert, but we're not at the air. We're not pull up to the terminal. But I think, wow, whatever. We must have a long taxi. Fine. I got stuff to do. So back. I'm here, and planes not moving, and then four police cars surround the plane on the runway there with their lights on, and I'm still not thinking anything. You know that this stuff that I had done, it was eight months ago, which at that age in my life, without fast I was moving, that was a lifetime ago, totally and I had totally cut my hands. Cut my like, wash my hands of it, cut all ties. I never I never spoke to those guys again. I never accepted any money. I just felt you're done. Yeah, I felt gross about it, so I just, like, walked away. I was like, Thank God I didn't get caught. And I'm just gonna walk away from that. And then I was actively denying it right to myself. I'm saying I never did that. I'm not a dirtbag. Yeah. So now police cars are surrounded the plane. I'm really not thinking anything for me. And I started making jokes, like I knew some people on the plane, and I'm like, Oh, who's a terrorist, you know? And then I'm back in my phone, and I feel the shadow come over me in the aisle, and it's this, like, seven foot tall, shaved head DEA vest. And he says, Are you Greg? German? And I'm still not thinking anything decent. I'm like, yeah, like, how can I help you? You know, what can I help you with? And he snatched me up, and my feet didn't touch the carpet, all

the way off the plane, hauled me off the plane, ran me down these rickety steps, tackled me down on this runway, and then handcuffed me behind my back. And then put me in the back of this black FBI car that was kind of parked under the wing now. So of course, now I know exactly what this is, right? This is the only illegal thing I've ever done in my life. And after what felt like an eternity, and this FBI agent gets in the back seat beside me, and he says, Do you know, this is about and I lie right? I'm going, What? No, like, the hell is this? What's going on here?

And he said, shut the fuck up. And he put his BlackBerry in front of my face, so I'm sitting there in this chair, in her in this seat in the back of this car, and he starts scrolling through pictures. So the person who I had met to chemically test this stuff for in Southern California, he had, just before that, been arrested crossing the border, and he had flipped, yeah. So I found out in my discovery that when I went back to Canada, I was under very high level surveillance. They had the rotating vans outside my house, 24/7 365, with two agents in it. I was being followed everywhere, to school, to work, to my businesses, and they found nothing right, no no money coming in, no contact with these people, so they just kept watching me. But the US is a little bit different. They want their pound of flesh. So, very, very different system down there, yeah, yeah. So they take me to the FBI headquarters in Las Vegas, wow. And, yeah, it's just like you see in movies, really, like I'm in.

Rev. Rose Hope: That's why I'm thinking, I'm like, I feel like I'm hearing a movie here, yeah.

So I'm in this little interrogation room, and they got the little wooden table with the ring in the middle, and my handcuffs are are through the ring, and it's two way glass. So they got agents on the other side, and this is a joint investigation between the RCMP in Canada, and then the DEA and the FBI in the US. And so these American agents are out on the phone with RCMP detectives, and then back in rotating agents, and they're bringing in pictures of people places. What do you know about this person? Who's this? Where's this? You know, this kind of thing. And the confidential informant I found out later had told them exactly what I knew. You know, I've been watching these guys for years, and we had a lot of common friends on and then when I, when I finally agreed to do this, I became a part of that world, and I became privy to where everything was and where it was going, and who was doing what and a lot. So I had to make some quick decisions. Well, yeah, you learn a lot about yourself in these situations. So they presented me with my indictments, and I was shocked. You know, a minute ago, I was saying how different it is than the Canadian system. In my head, I was thinking about the Canadian system. I'm thinking, Okay, I did a chemical reaction on a few little pieces of something, yeah, an amount where, if you got caught with it in your pocket, probably nothing would happen. And I wasn't buying it, selling it, transporting it in chemical reaction. So I'm thinking, Oh, there. I'm gonna get community service maybe, or something

Rev. Rose Hope: like your hand slapped. Yeah,

Right. Well, in the US, they have these Rico statutes. They're they're conspiracy laws that are designed to or allegedly designed to catch like high level mafia bosses who are many degrees of separation away from the actual crime. Yeah, and the way those work is, if they can connect you to someone, you become a part of the conspiracy, and then the sum total of the conspiracy is charged to everyone that's been connected. So I was being charged with 1800 kilograms of cocaine and a million ecstasy pills, 1000 pounds of weed, a bunch of guns. Whoa, yeah. And so my mandatory minimum was 10 years to maximum life. Whoa, and I'm finding out in real time that in the federal system, in the US life means your life, there's no parole. Whoa, and 10 years means 10 years there's no parole. Whoa. So now I'm going, what, like, I'm in my early 20s, and I'm in, you're telling me I'm going to spend all my 20s, best case scenario, right? And then they say, but hey, you don't have to go down for this. They said we had a confidential informant involved before you and after you. We know that you had only this one point of contact. We know you didn't accept any money for this. They said you don't have to go down for this. They said, here's what we're going to do. We're going to take away your passport. You go about your trip here in the US. They knew all about it, right? Their intelligence is ex. Extraordinary. Whoa. And they said when you fly back to Edmonton, there will be a handler somewhere on the plane. You won't know who it is. When you land in Edmonton, you will be assigned an RCMP handler, and you will continue to meet with the people you know and then liaise with this RCMP handler.

Rev. Rose Hope: Basically, fly,

yeah, yeah, wow. Well, yeah, they're like a confidential informant, basically, I guess, I guess, I don't think I was about to get anything. I was gonna get a handgun and a badge or anything

Rev. Rose Hope: Fair enough.

Yeah, and this is common, right? This is pretty much anybody in my situation is going to have this type of an offer because they're trying to expand their investigation. The truth is, they really don't give a fuck about me. I'm just some student athlete who who did something on an afternoon, right? They don't really care about me, but they want to use me to get to Yeah, yeah, yeah. So. So they said, if you can, if you do this, then no charges, nobody will ever know about this. And actually that for me, quite a bit of money, couple $100,000 because they're trying to flip you quickly. Once you get involved in things like this, you're always being watched. And if you fly somewhere and you disappear for 10 hours, 12 hours, now you're burnt, and now your life's in danger and and they're responsible for that, yeah, so they're trying to flip you really quickly, yeah, and yeah. So, like I said, I had to make some tough decisions, and at that time in my life, D I felt so empty, so hollow. I I felt like such a failure. I had this wicked imposter syndrome where I had achieved so much, but none of it was me, none of it. I couldn't connect to any of it, and I felt so alone and worthless, and the only thing keeping me safe was my identity, the ego everybody saw me as this guy. Yeah, that's that was my shield that I thought was keeping people from seeing the truth of how pathetic I was. And so in this situation, I would have thought that I would have done anything to keep people from finding out I'd done my one mistake, my biggest shame, yeah, and yet, sitting there in that in that interrogation room, I had this wash of grace come over me, and for the first time, I was ready to really acknowledge that I didn't have the tools to save my own life. I was ready to acknowledge that I knew I needed the rug pulled out from under me while I was still standing on it, and that I wouldn't step up. Then I wouldn't step off. Yeah, and I I had, after months and months

of trying to figure out what the point of it all is, I had come to the realization that I didn't have the strength or the character or the integrity or the tools to rescue myself from this raging river of materialism that was dragging me and you know, in my life, I didn't want to keep achieving. I didn't want to keep running. But as soon as I stopped, I felt this crushing existential dread, fear, not enoughness. So I had to keep achieving, achieving, achieving, and as I'm achieving, I can feel myself running out into the abyss. I can feel my connection to heart, although I wouldn't have been able to articulate that I can feel it dying, but I can't stop. And so in that moment of grace, it occurred to me that maybe the reset I had been begging for was this, wow. And so in that moment grace, I decided that I just couldn't remember anyone's name, and I just really didn't know much about anything at all. And they really don't like that, and they're not used to it, because they will, they will take your life away. And so almost everybody talks down there, right? So they were and they were like, wow, this kid's gonna sing, you know, he's got so much ahead of him. Nobody knows,

Rev. Rose Hope: like, hook, line and sinker, you know? Yeah, yeah, wow, yeah.

So I decided I can remember his name, and then all the good cops disappeared, and my coffee disappeared very quickly, and and before I know it, I'm leg chains, belly chains, all chained up in the back of this unmarked suburban inside a cage speeding off to jail. And now my moment of grace has passed, and now I'm going, Hey, I'll tell you guys anything like I was just kidding before. You know, but luckily for my soul, that window was closed. Those agents didn't even flinch. They got an earpiece in, sunglasses on head forward. They don't give a fuck about me at all. So off we go and so. I ended up being sentenced to 92 months, seven years, eight months, and the reason I got below the 10 year minimum is through some legal nuance that my lawyer worked out because I was non violent for some offender, and I had a bunch of letters of support from community members. So seven years, eight months was my sentence, and I started in the max, because when you're from Canada, they consider you flight risk. Whoa. And so a couple things I want to share about about this piece to kind of bring everything home. Yeah, those first two weeks in prison D were were massively existentially painful. The media was really hard on me, and they sensationalized things. So it was like, you know, pharmacist selling drugs. I was a volunteer on the addictions hotline and the suicide hotline. And so this headlines, this is true. They were saying, pharmacist, I was a pharmacology underground. Yeah, yeah. They said, pharmacist is selling drugs to addicts on the addictions hotline, and just kind of crazy stuff. For a while there, my name was Gary in the news. So by the time covid came around, I was very well acquainted with the fast and loose nature of media and how it's used as a tool by by the powers of being. It's not a reflection of what's really going on. But because I didn't tell I was positioned as the kingpin, because they had no one else, that's right. So I was

positioned as this, like $270 million jug bus.

Rev. Rose Hope: Look at what they got. Yeah. Oh my god, it's such a sham.

Oh, yeah. So I was that was really hard on me, because my identity was so important to me.

Rev. Rose Hope: Oh, the ego gets a complete death in that experience, you know, right?

It was an aggressive evacuation. And so, yeah, yeah. So every morning, I'd wake up and open my eyes and bars, and no, this isn't right, and close my eyes and open them again. And of course, it was. And for those two weeks, I was like floating around in prison. I was nothing. I was nobody, that the entire interface with which I used to communicate with the outside world was gone. And yeah, it was like I it was like I was a shell of pain. I felt like I didn't have a name. I felt like I was nothing. Wow, and and then after about two weeks of that, this incredible, beautiful wave of love, deep, grounded peace washed over me. And I remember thinking, What the hell is this? You know, I'm walking around in prison, and I I just feel this profound love for myself and for all the guys in there. Every moment is a sweet nectar. And I just feel so present in my body. I had this unshakable conviction that everything was going to be perfectly, perfect, even though I had no evidence that whatsoever hadn't been sentenced yet or any sentenced yet or anything. Wow, and I didn't want to be in that place without it, so I didn't want to ask any questions. So I was just kind of like letting it be. And so I cruised around for months in this jail, eating rotten potato stew and fighting violence constantly, crusty cum stains on my sheets, my clothes, because they don't do laundry there very well, and yet, just like so free, so in love, and then that feeling started to fade, and I tried to hold on to it, but I didn't know what I was trying to hold on to. And it seemed like the harder I squeezed, the faster it faded. And remarkably, in a very short period of time, days, I was back to feeling like a complete loser, and I hope, I hope my family forgets about me. I almost made them proud, but I fucked it all up and feeling very unsafe in there, very disempowered, very vulnerable. And it took me the next three, three and a half years in prison, D to figure out what that was.

And it was this, from that early age, when I developed that identity as an achiever, as a producer. I created an image of myself that I thought was lovable and enough, and that turned out to be this doctor who's this winner in every way, and every single thing I did in my life was for and through that self created identity. And when you live your life this way, a couple things happen. One is that you can drain your batteries, but you can never fill them. You can pour energy into creating and manifesting and doing stuff for this fictional identity. But I've come to understand that human beings, we experience meaning to the degree to which we are in loving service of our soulful truth.

Rev. Rose Hope: Ooh, wait, I want you to say that again, because it was profound.

Yeah. So I think that we. We we experience meaning and connection to the degree to which we are in loving service through our soulful gifts. And so when we achieve for an identity, it would be like if you and I swapped goalsless, you might achieve everything on my list, and then get to the end of that and go, you know, right? And that's because your beautiful, perfect, unique soul is here with an incredible constellation of gifts and skills and passions and experience in your life and past lives, and all of those things intersect at this place of beautiful balance and power, where you can move energy, completely undistorted through your system, in loving service, you can channel abundance and life force into the world. And the way that we are organized as as beings, that that fully human state is the most joyful, connected, abundant, fulfilling, meaningful experience of life, and it's calling us all the time, yeah, for it. And when you achieve for an identity, you preclude yourself of the beauty of expressing your truth, bravely expressing your truth in the world, and then experiencing the fully human life from that. And another thing that happens to you is that you you can't ever be in the moment right when we live through an identity, when an identity is our interface for everything and everyone. We can't be an authentic expression, authentic connection. We can't be in the moment with somebody. When someone says or does something, instead of us responding authentically, we have to pause and run it through the algorithm, what does my identity say and do? And think about this, yes, and then we formulate our response, and then we say, Hey, check this out. I need you to understand that this is how I choose to be perceived on this issue, right? And in doing so, we're never in the moment, which is the magic, that's the truth of the human experience and so, so I could see that at a young age, I had low batteries because I was

Drive, drive, drive, drive, to create things that meant nothing and deprive myself of the the simple bliss of being in the mode and in jail, that that ego, that identity, that had become so heavy, you know, it went from being something that I aspired to create and that I thought was going to keep me safe to over a period of years, it becomes this massively heavy thing that you have to affirm now and you

Rev. Rose Hope: have to maintain. Or, yeah, right.

And I very much felt that I was to a point where, if I wasn't the wealthiest, most successful, most loved person in the room, I felt like I was nothing, right? Wow. And so my arrest was a complete dissolution of that ego and that identity, and I was kicking and screaming. I would have given my right arm to keep people from finding out what I'd really done, of course, resisting the most beautiful gift that I had manifested for myself. And so that piece that I felt in jail was a piece of just being me. I didn't even know what the hell that was. What do you mean? Just me? Who's that

Rev. Rose Hope: stripping all the other stuff away, right?

Yeah, just being free present of the moment. And it was the most restful, beautiful, blissful experience of truth. It's our natural state. It's our innate, inherent place that we fall from when we allow ourselves to be programmed and take on traumas and self limiting beliefs all illusion, right? All illusion, but all illusion with a purpose that's meant to guide us home. And so I felt that peace, and that peace began to fade because I didn't realize, I couldn't conceptualize the gift I'd been given. And after a few months of being nothing and no one, I started to think, well, you know what? I'm going to rise from these ashes? Yeah, that's what I'm going to do. And I'm going to do, and I'm going to do this in my life. I'm going to be this guy, and I'm going to write this book and whatever, whatever, and I'm beginning to manufacture a new a new identity. And as soon as I started living through that identity, I experienced a loss of freedom and love, which is scary, and I hate it. And what do I do when I'm feeling afraid I grab on harder to an identity that I think I still haven't figured out right. What's going on here? Yeah, and so the harder I grabbed onto that, the more I'm walking around in jail like, hey, hey, brother, check this out. Know this about me. This is who I am, right? And trying to be safe in the 3d world. And meanwhile, stepping away from my heart again, from my soul. And so it took me years in prison to figure out how that went. And somehow, fast forward, by the time I came home, I felt so free. People tease me all the time that I went to prison to get free. And it's very true.

Rev. Rose Hope: I think it's actually brilliant, and I love the. I love the whole concept of the fact that that jail was your call back to your soul, that jail was what brought you back to yourself and to your truth. I find that so fascinating. You know, what we might perceive as being the worst thing ever, or one of the worst things was the most brilliant gift for you,

sure, yeah, yeah, yeah. So when I came home, you know, I was moving. I went from being worth five and a half million dollars to to moving into my parents basement at 29 I was I was just a couple weeks away, yeah, with nothing, everything was gone, and yet I was so free, you know, no ego at all, yeah, and it was just striking me how so many people in my life, I could see them on that hedonistic treadmill that we talked about before where they were, they were feeling a Call from inside, feeling their soul calling them home and misinterpreting that as a need for a better job. You know, bigger body parts, smaller body parts, whatever, whatever it is, yeah, and so my future as a physician was not a straight path from there, because now I have a narcotics felony, right? It sounds crazy when I feel like I'm talking about somebody else when I say, somebody

Rev. Rose Hope: else, when I say I know that, yeah,

yeah, but I still felt this profound call to heal. I felt like there was something in my codes that was going to allow me to guide people to true healing. I had no idea what that was or where to begin, but I I committed to surrender, and I've now been home for just over 10 years, and in those 10 years has manifested everything that we have at lifecraft and and the community that we're building, these these beautiful, unique forms of healthcare that are true, Soul level healing. And yeah, so I'm, I'm a grateful guy. I'm grateful anytime I get a chance to share. I know that's a long story.

Rev. Rose Hope: I loved it. I was I was invested fully the whole time. And I find it so fascinating. The the grace and the humility in which you speak about it is is something to witness in itself. So thank you for sharing with that level of connection. You shared a few golden nuggets that you've learned along the way and in some pretty profound messages. But if you could tell the world something that you just wish that we all knew, what would that something be?

What a beautiful question. Okay, I've got one. I've had the distinct pleasure of guiding 1000s of people into states and deep trends where we get to commune with their soul. I've had the pleasure of guiding about 450 people on big psychedelic journeys where we do much the same at a very high level. And so I in that work, I've seen over and over and over again the truth of the human soul, and what I would bet everything on is the truth that you are perfection, your natural state. And by you, I mean everyone who could ever listen to this, your natural state is profound and perfect, peace, bliss, love, unfuck with ability, freedom. That is the truth of who you are. And any experience other than that is a loving gift that your soul raised its hand for before you pumped into this body to illuminate where you have forgotten the beauty and fullness of who you are.

Rev. Rose Hope: Yes. Oh, brilliant, brilliant. I love it because I think we forget that the joy and the bliss and the love is innately given. It's innately given. It is us, and everything outside of that is the cloud, is the illusion, is the like you said, the raising of the hand to say, Hey, you're not free here, or you've forgotten who you are, the truth look who you are. Oh, okay, well, we could talk all day, but we are going to come to a close here, because I think that there is, there's enough, there's enough in that story for us to really sit with. And I invite our audience, our listeners today, to really think about their own identities and how hooked into their identities. Because as you were speaking, that I'm thinking like, oh, wait a second, maybe I am still hooked into some of my identity in a really big way. And how can I allow myself to be more free of that? And I know that I'm moving into a really big, massive phase of my true authenticity right now and moving through a lot of. Discomfort in that, in the letting go of and so it really spoke to me today in really thinking about how hooked in I am into my own identity, and how much that actually is holding me hostage right now, right and so again, back to the invitation of our listeners today is to think about your own identities, or identity, however you perceive that, and I feel like I have multiple identities that I've hooked into, right? And to to start peeling back the layers of that and recognizing that you're none of those things in the truth of it, right? You are a spiritual being that's having this human experience. And if we can allow ourselves to understand it from that perspective, it kind of starts to take away some of that egoic hook into identity and how we think everyone thinks we need to be and, you know, how we feel we need to be perceived in the world too, because that's ultimate freedom when we stop worrying about what everyone else thinks, right? Isn't that an

ultimate freedom? Okay? Well, we better wrap this up for today. Any final words before we direct people to where they can go to find you anything else that is on your heart, that you feel you need to say before we sure.

Just one thing. DeeAnne, it's that. A moment ago, I was talking about how love, bliss, freedom, is our natural state, and anything other than that is is directing us to where we've forgotten. And an important last sentence there is that the work that we do supports that process, right? We we guide people to a way to lovingly witness wounds, fear, triggers, all, all of that stuff, and in doing so, harvest the lesson and transmute deep, true release across timelines, across lineages, completing cycles for the whole is, is the work that we do through the traumas and the things that you're experiencing in your life. So, so the final part of that is and healing freedom is available to you, period, no matter what, no matter who.

Rev. Rose Hope: Yeah, it is available to all of us. Thank you. So you know very well, here's the thing. I know, you are an entrepreneur extraordinaire, and you have your hands in a lot of different parts in the work that you do. We talked about lifecraft A couple times, or you mentioned it a couple times, and so can you just share with the audience? You know, what lifecraft does beyond you know, it sounds like you take people on journeys, you do a bit of personal development and helping guide people through certain pathways of healing. Can you let us know what that might look like, and how do we reach out? What do you have in store for us? How can we sure?

Yeah, thank you. Dee, so I'll give a couple of really punchy things here, because I know we're running on time. All of the work that we do is about guiding people to this being fully human. Being, fully human is the fullest expression for us as human beings on this planet and this plane. And to be fully human, we have to be completely free in unity consciousness. We call it Trinity, which means that we are embodied in the unity of truth, the truth of unity in our system, and able to interface with people in a dualistic world. That's Trinity. In order for us to have that, we have to be embodied, we have to have welcomed our soul into our human vessel. In order for us to have that, we need to have true heart embodiment. We need to be free in the heart. In order for us to be free in the heart, we need to be free of the robot, as we call it, all the matrix programming, whether it's ours or lineage or intergenerational. We need to be free of self limitations, fears, phobias, traumas, all illusions meant to guide us to true freedom and heart. And so the process is freedom from the robot, freedom from any self limitations, freedom from ego, and then true embodiment and heart, and then full receipt of soul into body, true embodiment. And then Trinity consciousness, which allows us to be in clarity of and completely free in the expression of our soul gifts, which is being fully human. So all of the work that we do is guiding people towards being fully human, and we we've pioneered some really unique, what we call quantum Hypnose somatic work, where we guide people into deep states of trends, and then we can perform quantum upgrades, DNA upgrades. We can realign their nervous system and identify, reframe and release trauma. Do some sound therapy, we do therapeutic, psychedelic care. And along the way, do we? We became endeared to the truth that nutrition is very important. When our human body is in revolt, when it's in inflammation, it can be

difficult to embody. So there's many ways to get a hold of me, but you know, I think the simplest and the most universal is that nutrition piece. We were not all looking for a big psychedelic experience. We're not all looking to go deeply into our soul yet. But everybody eats food, right? Everybody can benefit from eating food. That is, that is of true, pure vibration. All of our food has been brought to the table without a neutralization or a distortion of the energy of the earth and animal, and we found profound healing implications for that. So that's really our thing with food, is that, is that we offer many different types of food, but all very, very pure, both chemically and vibrationally beautiful. Yes. So I think that's the best place to start, is to is to direct people to our food website. It's called Born, because everything that we eat is, everything that we that we produce, is born of the earth. And from there, people can reach me, and people can expand if they're curious.

Rev. Rose Hope: Amazing. And I had the privilege of actually having some of your delicious food, by the way. So my cat got into my pills and ate my bag, ah, your bison organs, yes, my bison bills. Oh, my God, that's a whole nother story and topic.

The healthiest cat in the galaxy.

Rev. Rose Hope: Yeah, I know she, she is now. I'm like, thank you for doing that for me.

Let me send you some more. I've got more.

Rev. Rose Hope: Well, I certainly will be coming back for more, because I'm due for another batch anyway. So, you know, I really want to encourage you listeners out there to lean in. Check out lifecraft, check out born B, O, R, N, and explore because there's some real potency here. And you know, Greg, I got to tell you, I really do believe that the work that you're doing and the businesses that you've created are changing the world and bringing us back to remembrance. That's one thing I want to share with you, is you know, in meeting you, in our brief interactions that we had about six weeks ago or so, I really felt a deep remembrance in you that invoked remembrance in me, and I think that, in itself, is medicine for the rest of us. So thank you for being medicine for us, and thank you for seeing that there's opportunity to help the rest of us remember, because that's what I'm after as well, is that deep remembrance of who we are. And so thank you for being a light worker and a champion for that, because we need more of that in this world, indeed, we do.

Wow, thank you. Dee, thank you so much, and it's very mutual.

Rev. Rose Hope: Thank you. I so appreciate that, and I receive that. And for all you listening, I hope you take so much out of today's story and Greg share today. Thank you so much for continuing to listen in to this episode and our entire series of podcasts on windspirit calls until next time. Be well. Bye, everyone.

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