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Allison shares her powerful story of awakening — one that weaves together trauma, mental health, and divine reconnection. She opens up about her diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder, her near-death experience, and how a message from the Divine guided her to choose life and healing.

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hi friends welcome to today's episode

I am really happy to invite on my dear friend

Allison Batty-Capps and today

we're going to be talking about her spiritual journey

and awakening and her wonderful new book

welcome to the podcast Allison

thank you so much Amy

it's such an honor and a privilege to be here

and I'm just so grateful for this opportunity

oh likewise

I am just feeling all the energy come in of spirit

since hitting record and starting our call

I can feel all this loving energy around

and I'm just inviting our listeners to take a moment

to pause and be with themselves

to feel this connection to the divine Within

which is the title of Alison's book

and know that you are supported

guided and loved

and Alison as we get started

can you share with everybody

your definition of the divine

well I think the divine is deeply personal

and

I think it means different things for different people

and so one of the things that I explore in my book

is the idea of finding language that resonates for you

but that the divine is essentially

you know you're connected with it

when you feel a sense of being loved and loving

you feel calm and open and expansive in your body

when there's a sense of grounding and safety

and security and there's a sense of peace and um

you know

the divine within has many different names uh

across cultures

and one of the things that I explore in my book is

it reveals itself uniquely to each individual

depending on the the needs of that soul's evolution

and so I love that you started with just

acknowledging what you felt

and encouraging listeners to feel that for themselves

because that really is my goal with this book

is to help others feel their unique connection to um

the divine within love

essentially is what the divine within is

yes and I feel that

and I feel like you have a wonderful calming

thank you

I immediately feel peace come through

and so I just want to thank you for

for sharing that energy with me and our listeners today

as we go throughout our conversation

and so that leads me to your book

where you were sharing about your experiences

and those moments that weren't necessarily so peaceful

and so I would love if you could share with us

how some of these significant moments shaped your life

and the work that came through in your book

and you can go back as far as you you would like

where do you feel this all starts for you

well it really started in childhood

I was deeply connected to the spirit world as a child

and in fact I was raised Catholic

and I wanted to be a priest when I was a little girl

and of course in the Catholic Church

women are not allowed to be direct conduits to god

and that always felt off to me

something about that just didn't feel right

but yet being such an impressionable little girl

um

it LED me to disconnect to my own connection to spirit

and so as a young child I had imaginary friends

there were beings of light

that used to surround me and guide me

I used to be able to see auras and um

I remember asking my parents uh

these are the things that I'm experiencing

can you help me understand what this is

and they told me it's your imagination

it's not real

and I remember being so afraid that I shut those down

um you know and

and I think many of us are deeply connected

to the spirit world when we are children

and I think that is our innate um

that's our innate born instinct

but because of the way society is structured

we begin to disconnect from that one by one

and step by step and I kind of explore that in my book

how these are the natural traits that we're born with

innately but we begin to separate from them

based on the experiences

that we have with the external world

so in 2,008 um

my life was kind of in chaos

I had been married to my high school sweetheart

we were in the process of separating

I had recognized some patterns within myself

that were unhealthy that I wanted to break

and I decided to go

I had been a professional actor for 20 years

and I decided to go to a psychic school

to learn how to do energy healing

and this to me

felt like a reconnection with my true self

and in my first meditation class

I had this profound experience where I was meditating

and I just felt filled with something so peaceful

and so loving and I remember being

I'm gonna cry as I recall this

I remember being so held and

and so loved and that they gave me a glimpse

of seeing the world through their eyes

and so I began to see how loved

how much I loved everything in creation

based on being able to experience my essence

through this essence and then immediately

the teacher told us to ground

and they told us to connect to the earth

and I remember being filled with fear

because to me in my Catholic upbringing

the earth represented hell

it represented a place of suffering

it represented a place of fear

it represented a place that our innate instinct

is sinful and this was the first experience

where I had this dichotomy

of the beauty of the divine

and also the shadow aspect

of what we have created here in this plane

to help us grow and um

I began to have all of these mystical experiences uh

where the ascended Masters essentially

were sharing with me their teachings

and their life journeys through merging with me

and blending their energy with me

and then I would see visions of their life

and it would feel like I had lived that life

it was really profound but then

I also had my childhood trauma coming to the surface

and I could see and sense the energies

that exist in this plane that are unhealed

and I didn't have the tools at the time

to have that discernment or to ground myself

or to clear energy or to protect my essence

and so it just kind of became a state of chaos

that I had to eventually learn how to unpack

wow that sounds like a lot to experience

without a framework or a friend or a mentor that could

haha you know

I'm hearing in my head diagnosed

Ja Ja

but to accurately potentially

yeah

yeah

and with the experiences and understand them deeply

yeah

you know

yeah

and of course

I'm speaking to the next phases of what happens in

yeah

yeah

to another significant moment

well diagnose is the perfect word right

I think so often um

there's a belief system in western society

that spirituality is somehow not real

and that when we're having these mystical experiences

they are hallucinations or they are delusions

and from a perspective of my lived experience

I do have a diagnosis of schizo effective disorder

which is a combination of a mood disorder

and schizophrenia

and I do have a diagnosis of complex PTSD

because I do have a complex trauma history

so

the experiences that I had certainly did meet criteria

and I do talk about this in my book that um

I was disorganized

I was struggling to communicate what I was experiencing

and so from that framework yeah

I met criteria for a diagnosis

in the western medical lens

however there was a mystical nature to this

and there was a trauma nature to this

that I was being told wasn't real

that it wasn't true that I had a trauma history

that that was part of my delusions

and that it isn't true

that people can have psychic or mystical experiences

so I began to fear my own experiences

and

that LED me to enter a really dark night of the soul

where um

I kept being retraumatized because of these experiences

and I was hospitalized and

I actually had an experience where I wanted to give up

where I thought I can't live this way anymore

this this isn't sustainable

I can't work I can't function

and there isn't meaning no one's teaching me tools

how to manage this experience

the medication works sometimes

and it doesn't work other times

and so I decided I was going to end my life

and I took all of the medicine in my medicine cabinet

and I went to sleep and before I went to sleep

I set the intention and I was raised Catholic

so suicide is a sin in the Catholic Church

however I have a

a deep connection to what I call god

and so I said I'm really sorry for what I'm about to do

but I cannot handle being here on earth anymore

I need to come home and that night

I had a dream

I had a dream that I stood before god and the angels

and they said to me um

it is not your time

there is something really important

that you came to earth to do

and we know that you're struggling

but we have been guiding you to remember how to heal

so that you can help others

and if you go back

we will continue to guide you towards healing

and integration and wholeness

so that you can remember the divine within

and they gave me the choice

they said you can come home tonight

or you can go back and I apparently chose to come back

because I woke up in the morning and um

decided I needed to change my life

that I needed to stop pretending

that there wasn't meaning in these experiences

and instead I needed to seek the meaning

so I started studying shamanism and reiki

and Buddhism and Hinduism and um

energy healing and

and I started to develop belief systems and frameworks

that made my experiences make sense

and then I became a licensed therapist

and studied depth psychology

and understood the impact of trauma

and what I began to recognize is

I was having post traumatic stress flashbacks

where the young parts of myself

my inner children

that had experienced the trauma were merging with

with me and I was experiencing the world

through those neural pathways

and at the same time

I was connecting to mystical experiences

where my mediumship abilities

my psychic abilities and my um

deep connection to the spirit world

were being revealed to me

so that I could remember the truth of what we all are

but they were intermixed

and so that's why I was disoriented

it was because my trauma

and my mystical experiences were merging

and I didn't have the ability at the time to discern

but as I studied shamanism

as I studied Reiki as I studied psychology

as I studied Buddhism

and mindfulness and meditation and yoga

I develop the tools

and all of a sudden

these experiences that had been scary and overwhelming

and began to no longer have that effect on me

and instead I was able to always recognize

oh my god

that's my inner child or

that's my inner critic or

that's my guide Yeshua

or that's my guide Mary

and I was able to kind of begin to take a deep

separation and I call that the inner compass

it's the aspect of us that is whole and complete

and divine and can never be harmed

and is pure consciousness

it doesn't have an identity

it doesn't have an ego it just exists as peace and love

and it is the natural caretaker of our humanness

of these parts of ourselves that have our gifts

and our talents and our belief systems and our wounds

and the job of the inner compass

is to listen to all of those other parts of ourselves

and navigate how to show up as a divine human being

honoring the diverse ways that we express ourselves

right that there isn't

that it's better to be divine than it is to be human

it's that we're meant to be both

that we're we're meant to embody um

that uniqueness

because that is the beauty of the divine

is it takes many forms it

it is all of existence and um

we come here specifically to forget that truth

you know

where we feel so much love and it's like

oh my gosh what

what is this happening you know

it was hard to to even put into words

we often do forget about the physical body

the physical reality those parts of ourselves

the importance of being here

I I feel like saying playing the game

like being in the role you know

yeah

yeah

we're playing a part we're playing a role

and it can be very disorganizing

if we don't recognize all aspects of our truth

our reality and how to merge and integrate um

with the body and with spirituality

that's right

yeah yeah

your healing your embodiment

how have those moments assisted you

well it's really interesting

that you bring up the idea of different paths

I mean that's one of the things I explore in my book

is everybody has their own need of what path to follow

some might need a strictly spiritual path

some might need a strictly scientific path

some might need a strictly psychological path

that we're all at different places

on our healing journey

but eventually they all lead home

which is the integration of

of all of them

it is the ability to have a deeply personal

spiritual practice which I

I promise in my book

begins with the practice of mindfulness

the ability to go inward and listen and be still

with the ability to reparent ourselves right

that's the psychological piece

like how do we

how do we love the parts of ourselves

that cause us harm right

that that engage in the world through protective means

that not

they're not always helpful

right and

and from a biological perspective

the body is its own entity

that requires these other tools

to be fully functioning

that the brain and the nervous system

will not learn to be in that state of peace

or that state of compassion

if we are not practicing mindfulness and self love

so eventually

I think all paths lead to an integrative path where

we're pulling these different traditions

whether it be a science tradition

or a spiritual tradition or psychological perspective

to um

return to that wholeness

and I call this process the hero's journey right

that we're all heroes on this journey of remembering

and the process of facing

the shadow aspects of ourselves

the darkness within us and accepting

oh wow

I am capable of causing harm

and I didn't realize that this people pleasing

and this caretaking actually takes away the agency

of the other person I'm engaging with

and that means I'm causing them harm

even though it comes from a place of love

and Protection where I wanna keep them safe

I'm actually harming them

because I'm making them feel like they're not capable

right

yeah

Ja Ja ja

yeah wow

throughout the process of receiving the diagnosis

and then going on your hero's journey

you've explained a little bit

about the importance of following our inner compass

can you talk about some of these discoveries and like

a overall view of this new way of thinking

or proceeding

how you're integrating all these different traditions

with your therapeutic background

if you could just share a little I'm very fascinated

well the first thing I'm hearing is

spirit wants me to acknowledge that um

I have stepped into a role

with my direct connection to source

so I'm I have set the intention

that I want to embody source in the human experience

and that I want to be as Yeshua was

that I I

I want to be a pure vessel of that love and and

and so I have a regular practice

where I work with myself on a daily basis

to embody that truth

and to work with the parts of myself that um

could be confused by the potential power

that could come from that type of connection

to really stay in that humility

right and

and so I am very intentional when I sit with others

to channel

source and and to be that vessel

to help them feel that within themselves

so that is the first intention

that I set with every client

regardless of their belief system

is I'm just going to hold that presence

and be that love

that they may never have experienced in their life

or that they may have forgotten

that they were connected to

yeah

or their higher self to guide me in guiding them

so I listen for questions

or interventions that would be helpful

and so I hear

I hear like

it doesn't really feel like hearing

it feels like I just am speaking from their oversoul

that their oversoul merges with me

and all of a sudden I'm asking them questions

and they're starting to have experiences and

yeah ha ha ha

right yes

at some point is

they start feeling their direct connection

to their oversoul and their team

and so they start seeing their inner child

they start seeing their inner critic

they start seeing their higher self

or feeling that love and connection

they start seeing the spirit team that's there

and rather than me telling them what I see

which is a perfectly valid way of being a channel

and I think it's needed for some people

on their journey

I have made the decision that I don't want to be

I don't want them to become reliant on me

uh huh

so

they intuitively begin to develop their psychic gifts

they they begin to hear and see and feel and sense

and they begin to get direct messages from their team

this is important for you to learn shielding

or it is important for you to learn how to ground

or

it is important for you to release this belief system

or it is important for you to reparent

this younger part of yourself

or this soul fragment is stuck in this other lifetime

and

we think it would be helpful for you to bring it home

so I become a facilitator

a conduit that um

I didn't understand what I was doing for many years

in fact I remember one time I was channeling

and I had the thought I am channeling god

and then I had the thought

that's not possible there's no way to channel god

that's too high a frequency

and there became this like

conflict within myself of like haha

you know is it possible to have a direct um

you know a direct line to source

and you know

through working with you

and working through my other mentors

Robin Benelli and Colleen Benelli

I have come to see that

it isn't unrealistic

that others have seen that I have a direct connection

and and that it's safe to say

anyone can have that direct connection

you just have to set the intention

for that direct connection

and you have to practice connecting

and so

my book is really an entry level way of connecting in

but it's step by step with basic mindfulness

uh huh

I don't want people to experience the overwhelm

that I experienced you know

I I want

if I can prevent people from going haha

right

I'd like to prevent them from going through

you know spiritual psychosis and

and so I've tried to structure my book in a way that is

like rudimentary mindfulness

and then eventually we get to meeting your higher self

meeting your spirit team meeting source

I really love your structure and how you hold the space

and I had a session with you that was so beautiful

and it's very it was very special

it was very unique because of your blend of background

and so yeah

I felt like not only did I experience the therapist

like

the training and the way that you were holding space

but to that in a more spiritual

expansive way

the way you were connecting in with spirit

holding that space channeling the divine and asking

you know really reflecting to me these questions

that had me going deeper I felt like I was already like

on the precipice I knew I could feel the next step

but the specifics and the particular questioning

that's kind of what was missing

I'm glad that you felt that way hahaha

yeah

just like when we got on today

I can feel this

I want to call it like the entourage of light

like a source but all the angels

all the guides ascended masters coming through

and one other thing about energy work

and therapy in general

is the importance of being heard

yeah

when uh

you would ask me questions

and then it's like I would hear myself speaking it

so there was the witness of me

the witness of you the reflection back

and it was really a beautiful experience

that helped me to ground it

and the vocalization to bring it into this reality

but then all of my being feel it and hear it

you've mentioned some of your trainings in shamanism

some of your trainings in shamanism and and Reiki

and

what's your perspective

and how do you blend Reiki with the work that you do

how would you define that

yeah that's a really good question

and um

I'm trained in internal family systems theory

which I think Richard Schwarz was essentially

tapping into shamanistic techniques

and energy work because the

the you essentially

when you're working with parts

you use the elements to help them unburden

right

so I merge internal family systems therapy with Reiki

where I am facilitating Reiki by channeling Reiki

or channeling the ascended Masters

or channeling the archangels

so that the clients can sense that energy

but I don't always say that that's what I'm doing

because not all clients believe in energy work

so I use the framework of internal family systems

to help them identify the part of themselves

that is holding the energy that is stuck

or the energy that is denser

and they can see it usually as like

a cloud or they might have an image of um

a monster or

they might have the image of

something that represents the wound

and then I will ask them to ask the energy

do you want to use air water

earth fire or light to unburden it

so I then ask Reiki or the Ascended Masters

or the archangels

to clear it with whatever element they're using

and then the client is just setting the intention

I wanna use fire or I wanna use light

and they can see the energy Pixilate

and they can see it return to source

but they don't always have the understanding

or the belief system that

that's what's happening

but I know that's what's happening

and so that's one of the things

that was really important to me with this work is

not everybody shares a belief system in energy healing

and not everybody shares a belief system

in the spirit world so

how do we help those

that don't want to experience those truths

still experience the benefit of that way of working

and so

this is one of the ways that I have found to do that

is by merging psychology and depth psychology

they call it active imagination

where you can talk to the archetypes right

so my clients I've worked with atheists

and I will ask them you know

what are you sensing around you

and they'll say well

something calling itself Archangel Michael is here

and I'll say oh

that's an architect that's an architect of strength

and it's an architect and

and I'll stay within their belief system

but they're literally tapping into what I call

the divine within which is the spirit world

and I explore that in my book how

you know there's many belief systems out there

and it doesn't matter which framework you use

or what you believe what's

what matters to me is do you find it helpful

like is it helpful when you tap into this

and how does your body feel

and how does your your essence feel

and if if you feel lighter and you feel more connected

to yourself then keep experimenting with it

and call it whatever you wanna call it

you know

and you you brought up a couple of things here

that leads me to the question about um

the trauma informed Reiki practice

and what does that mean to you

can you explain um

some of the signs of a trauma response or

yeah it's a really good question

because I think my teachers

originally at the psychic school

were not trauma informed so

they just assumed that I knew about my trauma history

I may assumed that I was going to the psychic school

cause I was ready to release that

but my unconscious had suppressed those memories so far

that I had no context so when they started telling me

well you have a family member who is literally attached

energetically to your abdomen

controlling you

I just was filled with fear because I was like

how can that be and I didn't

and then it the trauma just surfaced

so I think it's important for us as

as energy workers to understand

that when we are sensing something in a client

they might not yet have awareness of that

and what might happen if we clear it or we remove it

is it may surface

and they may begin having access to the memories

or the unconscious belief systems

or the body sensations so

you can recognize that

when you're sitting with a client

because they'll start to have an emotional release

or you might feel their body tense

or you might notice

that they start raising their shoulder

or they start getting defensive

or they start acting younger

or different than they were

and this is all an indication that a

neuro pathway has been triggered

from a younger experience

that was more traumatic in nature

now most people that seek energy work

have usually done enough of their own work

that they can handle energy work

or they have enough of a belief system in energy work

that they can be with what comes up

but

I think it is still important for us to consider that

a lot can surface

when we start removing and clearing dense energy

and I have even found with clients

that sometimes the dense energy comes back

because the system is so uncomfortable with the change

that they don't feel safe anymore

and it brings up a whole level of like

discomfort and so they call the wounds back

and so I I think it is also important for us to

you know I don't know

not all of us can be trained in every modality

but at least

have a basic understanding of psychological theories

and neuroscience to understand what might be happening

in the people that we're working with

you know and

I do hope to eventually

train healers in working in a more integrative way

like I do so that they can have at least

that framework of understanding

no I

I think that there's value

and need for pure energy work

just like there's value and need for pure

psychological work um

but

I really think we're heading towards a time in society

where we need to be merging

instead of separating out science and spirituality

we need to start bringing them together

because they really do support each other

and I I explore this in my book is

we are pre

biologically predisposed to have mystical experience

that that is what the neuroscience is showing

is that the brain is literally

structured to have these experiences

and the science cannot yet show

whether or not we are creating it or perceiving it

OK yes

and that is the profound question right

and what if it's both

what if it is both perceiving it and creating it right

yeah

yeah

the the guidance

yes all

do you have any advice for Reiki practitioners

that might have a client in person

and you kind of describe

like how their body would shift and feel

what advice do you have for them

and how to best support a client

that is going through an experience

where trauma is releasing

I think it is important for us to recognize

that they might need additional support

so if we are sensing something

you know in our psychic senses

that may indicate that trauma was there

or if we're seeing some sort of body response

or emotional response that is

you know it's normal to have releases

but if it feels intense we should recommend

that they seek out additional support um

because we're sensing that there's a lot

that's going to be clearing in the next two

to however long we're sensing it might take to clear

so that they can have that support system

and then I think as reiki practitioners

we understand inner child work

right we understand shadow work a little bit

we understand soul retrieval

right so if we can remember that um

healing

isn't just about what happens on the energetic level

it's also about what happens internally

that we need to give ourselves what we never had

so you can clear something energetically

but if you don't start loving yourself

in the way that you weren't loved

the wound doesn't ever fully heal

right from a biological perspective right

the the

the brain the nervous system won't fully heal

unless those new neural pathways get created

and the nervous system learns to stay regulated

so as reiki practitioners

we can invite in that type of practice

by reminding the client to nourish themselves

to do energy clearing daily

to do self care practices that are self loving

such as yoga or listening to music

or moving

or creating art by speaking lovingly to ourselves

and so

these are things that are within our scope of practice

as energy workers right

we we're kind of like coaches in a way and

and so we could say

beautiful yes yes

the aftercare is so important

and it is a benefit to being um

connected to spirit

yeah yeah

appropriate and really supportive to say OK

I feel like this other form of therapy

yeah

yeah

I think this message is coming in

for new Reiki practitioners

that might feel a sense of responsibility

or pressure of having like

a perfect session you know

yeah

yeah

to say that's not how it works

you know we don't want to skip to the end

let it is all about the experience and

and being present and being and feeling

and so there is the integration period

um there can be many weeks or months

and when your clients come to you

it's an honor to be in that space to support them

and hold the space and reflect back the experience

and then also to share okay hahaha

from what I'm sensing

you could consider this other form of aftercare

Ja

in the healing process so yes

I think you know you

you have a lot that um

you share with the world

and with the launch of your book

and also we'll get into a couple other things

but I I really do feel when the time presents itself

that training

to blend your different therapeutic approaches

yeah yeah

I was like oh yeah

hahaha that feels really good that feels really good

beautiful point right

that healing isn't um it isn't linear

right

and it isn't

there isn't a destination

uh huh

that it is an ongoing process that takes a lifetime

or multiple lifetimes depending on your belief system

right and so I think it is really important for us

as practitioners to have that awareness of

it isn't my job to save this person

or solve this problem for them

it's to connect them to the information

so that they can continue their journey of healing

and integration right

we're facilitators we

we are doing the healing for sure

because we're manipulating the energy and

and helping

but if the client doesn't pick up the mantle

right

if they don't then say

I'm gonna integrate this and heal it

nothing changes you know my

I'm a perfect example of that

the first five or six years of my healing journey um

I couldn't put into practice

you know when I wasn't putting into practice

what I was talking about

in therapy or

or even the spiritual people that I did see

at that time I I

I couldn't integrate it so nothing was changing

what helped you move through that how

it was

the conscious realization of the patterns within me

it was the connection to um

the energy and the belief system

right it was OK

that energy just left

and the belief system underneath it was I was unlovable

hmm

and the behavior that

that happens in response to feeling unlovable

is prioritizing others before myself

and trying to save the world right

do I still believe that I'm here to help save humanity

I do I'm one of many people here

that have set forth with that mission

to help humanity evolve

so that we can create peace on earth

I I still know that that's a truth

but I no longer believe it's my job alone

right and so I'm no longer engaging in toxic self

like helping others in a toxic way

I'm recognizing I gotta be in a healthy space

if I'm gonna show up for others

you know and so

oh man that's a big burden to bear

I know and

and that was the belief system

you know when

when Yeshua shared with me Yeshua's life

you know that was what came up in me

is I'm here to finish what Yeshua started right

I'm I'm here to pick up the mantle where he left off

and I'm here to start doing what he did

and I felt solely responsible for that

because I didn't have community yet

I didn't know that there were other people out there

doing what I was doing

and believing what I was believing

so I literally thought and this was the delusion right

this is this is how

how it becomes unhealthy is I thought oh

I have to save humanity

and when you have that deep

mystical experience

without a framework and an other to talk it through

and an other

who has seen similar experiences in people

that's right

yeah

I guess if you work through the confusion

because then you have the belief

but then it's like whoa

hold on that's a lot of pressure

a lot of responsibility

and that's what it felt like right

I mean I remember having meditations

where I was hearing people's prayers

and I was merged with source

and so I was hearing people's prayers

come in and I was merged with source

so I was part of the process

of sending the energy out to them

so that they their prayers would be granted

but I remember being I can't be responsible for that

why am I seeing this I can't be god

like that's too much pressure for one being to be

and then finally

source showed me that it isn't one being

it's one energy and there are literally

light beams coming from that one energy

that fragment out to everything in existence

so everything has a direct conduit to source

so we're essentially granting our own prayers

oh I love

I love hahaha

wow I love that realization

yeah that perspective

I feel that so

so

then it was that you were within that energetic field

you were within that energy

and you were experiencing the conversations

yeah

yeah

yeah

yeah yeah

and it was profound I mean

this is part of the reason

why I feel so passionate about this book

and why I wanted to put this information out there

is because

spirit has shown me how interconnected we all are

and how we cannot exist without one another

and that we literally create together that

that we are literally creating all of existence

by the individual belief systems

and choices that we make

that it ripples out

and that's why I called the book Healing Ourselves

to heal the world

because if you're creating from a wound

you're creating hell for yourself or others right

and nobody wants to experience hell

right

it's not a literal place that you go to to be punished

it's a state of consciousness

uh huh

right

it's a miserable place to be

very lonely

yeah so

as you were sharing that

and speaking about how there's a connection to source

and all being one

I was just feeling the overwhelm of compassion

and I too have had visions in the past um

you know when my team speaks to me

then they'll put a vision with it

of people that are lonely

or struggling or feel alone

and holding a place even within the prayer space

within meditation for them

letting them know they're not alone and

that's right

that's right

that's right

yeah

yeah yeah

to feel that and so prayers are so powerful um

and at the same time

they're very intermingled with religion

yeah yeah

I know in my religion where I was brought up

yeah yeah

it's uncomfortable to me because I

I sense within some of these prayers

by whoever is speaking them

not always

yeah yeah

there's not the connection

yeah

it's a mental space intention that I'm doing quote

what's right but like

the heart isn't fully in it or if

it is it's so scripted

that it feels like that connection is governed

and gate kept

and it's like putting a cap or a filter over

the truest connection to source

yeah yeah

did you have anything when it came to

I I don't even know the word healing

integrating just like

with these spiritual practices

that are so intermingled with a structured religion

and then coming into meeting

you know the divine within and the god

um source

consciousness and having your own mystical experience

yeah in fact

I've had several mystical experiences around this theme

that I've had to work through

so when I first awakened to the energy

I was walking around Chicago

and people were coming up to me

and they were asking me spiritual questions

about how to embody the divine

like they were asking me questions

like I was already a master teacher

and I was like

looking at them like

I have no idea why you're talking to me like this

like this is freaking me out

and then at one point I was in treatment

and I walked up to a group of people

and they said we were just discussing you

we were trying to figure out

what religion you're going to create in this lifetime

and I was filled with fear

because I have studied religion

and I have seen how religions justify oppression

genocide and harm

and I did not want to participate in that

and so

part of my dark night of the soul was rejecting god

because I was taught that god punishes

I was taught that god judges

I was taught that there are good human beings

and bad human beings

right which was so different from my lived experience

which told me everything is loved unconditionally

because everything is made in the image of source

everything is source nothing is separate from source

everything is source

it's just in the form it's taken to understand itself

yeah

and so I had to heal and develop my own practice

right so do I still sometimes do my Catholic prayers

yes but only because

I have now studied the original Aramaic

and the original Aramaic

is very different than the Christian interpretation and

and translation it's actually a false translation

right the

the Lord's Prayer says our father

who art in heaven the original text says

o birther of all creation

oh and see when you say the original transcript

like the yeah

meaning I just got chills through my whole body

yeah

yeah

it's not the same it's not the same

and so for me I had to really work through that

that was part of my healing journey

is I had to come to a place where I recognize that um

there are wounds in spiritual traditions

and I talk about this in my book

that we as followers or seeker of the divine

have got to develop discernment

and anytime you like there is

right

right

uh huh

uh huh

yes yes

uh huh

everything should be questioned

including your connection to source

and that's is that the section on the inner compass

it is

partially through the section on the inner compass

yeah yeah

yeah yeah

cause your book is so well laid out

what would readers discover and how can it support them

what type of reader which is your book best suited for

is your book best suited for

well I

I tried to write towards a general audience

so it would be accessible to all belief systems

and the framework of the book is The Hero's Journey

and part one of the Hero's Journey is initiation

so it is introducing you to new ideas

that are outside your current belief system

so part 1

is structured to introduce you to the commonalities

in several world religions

and spiritual practices so that you can see that

there are many paths to the inner compass

you have to find the one that's right for you

and here's what the commonalities are

and then I break down psycho psychology

and what the commonalities are within psychology

through several healing modalities

and I argue again

the importance is developing self awareness

through mindfulness

to be able to recognize the parts of yourself

that hold wounds so that you can heal them

and I call those roadblocks

so part one is designed to just give you the framework

of what the inner compass is

what roadblocks are and what the collective divine is

through the exploration of spirituality

neuroscience and psychology

with the final chapter being the focus on meta

or the practice of loving kindness

as the key to embodying the inner compass

so what happens when you practice loving kindness

is the frontal lobe

which is responsible for emotion regulation empathy

compassion

adult perspective and collaboration lights up

and the amygdala which is responsible for the fight

flight freeze

fawn response shrinks

and the ability in trauma or stress

for the frontal lobe to interrupt the amygdala

increases the more you engage in loving kindness

so I argue even though this is your innate ability

if you practice this on a regular basis

humanity would evolve like we

we would evolve as a as a species if we

if we prioritize this way of being

then part 2 is focused on identifying roadblocks

so I explore through psychological theories

Maslow's hierarchy of needs and developmental um

how the brain develops from childhood

what the innate traits are of the inner compass

and how those are innate in you in childhood

but the experiences you have

lead you to either embrace them or separate from them

and that's how your wounds form

and it helps you to

to begin to connect to those parts of yourself

through some practices of

of witnessing the inner company or witnessing your um

inner child and your inner critic

and getting to know them and reparent them

and then part 3 is focused on the collective divine

so it includes channeled messages

that my clients and I have received

from our work with spirit

it includes some

um exercises

of how to connect directly to your own spirit team

and to source um

and so it's kind of like a

a step by

step guide of getting to a direct connection to source

starting with basic mindfulness

and basic understanding of the concepts

all the way up to

psychic abilities

hahaha

and there we are

and there we are hahaha

so beautiful

and as you're sharing

uh about your book

I am aware

and remember that you also have other resources

yeah

you have accessible messages through Spotify

meditations and also

I believe it was a YouTube I've seen you on

yeah

comes with your book

yeah every

so there are 36 meditations

and guided practices in the book

and those are available in recorded messages

where I channel source

so when you listen to the recordings

you are getting an energy healing

because I'm channeling the energy

but you're also building your muscle

to develop the skill of mindfulness

and inner awareness and psychic abilities

so it's kind of like a two fold

benefit if you do the book in its entirety

is it's not really meant to just be read

it's meant to be experiential

so that you actually experience

the concepts in the book

through the practices that are available on YouTube

or Spotify or my websites

and then I have other you know

resources available too there's an online course

that I hope to have live by the end of November

that supplements the book

where people will mentor with me

and there's additional exercises

and additional teachings

but it structures it

I read each chapter of the book while channeling

so you're getting an

even more of an energy healing and connection

because

I'm channeling the entire time I'm reading the book

and then there are additional guided practices

and then there's a mentorship program

where we'll meet once a month

maybe twice a month as a group

and we'll talk about what you're discovering

because I think having community to talk about

you know what you experience

when you tap into mystical experiences

is so important

because it can be so confusing and so disorienting

if you don't have you know

a safe space to explore these ideas

you know and then

I also post other videos

and informational things on social media

and YouTube and

and stuff so

so beautiful I love all the support that

and avenues that you are um

you know making available for others

and I'm just feeling all of this comfort

oh thanks

we've talked a lot about the hero's journey

and your path to healing and awakening

and pulling together like

if you look back on your experiences

and all of the modalities

what supported you and what you feel

you know supports others in session

if you could define healing

that's such a big question hahaha

what where

what are we all like

looking towards you know

and it's when we feel I just feel like

yeah

yeah I think it's

it's self awareness right

it's like healing happens when we understand ourselves

and we accept all of who we are

and then we love ourselves as we are

and that doesn't mean that we don't try to change

or shift

if we're doing things that cause ourselves harm

but it

it means before you can make a shift in your life

you've got to first acknowledge what you're doing

and you've got to love it

and you've got to see the protective reason behind it

you know

that there is always a protective reason

behind every behavior

including those that cause immense harm

and to be able to have that amount of compassion

right to recognize wow

that behavior is so toxic and so harmful

and it is an indication

that the person is

completely disconnected from who they are

they're in so much pain

that they think

the only way to feel better is to harm someone

uh huh

and so when that comes up in our

in our reality if we're

you know in the healing space and processing that

you mentioned the compassion

and that's what I'm I was

feeling the compassion the love

the forgiveness

and then the accountability to do better

yeah

uh huh

uh huh

yeah

I think sometimes we think we have to be selfless

and that isn't actually what he taught

help someone and offer to help them a second time

and if they don't accept it

walk away that's the teaching

hmm

that feels

yeah that feels really good

yeah

yeah

yeah we can't

we're in charge of

that's right

that's right

and seeing it in others

and then feeling it within ourselves

what are some of the most like

profound experiences

or how has that touched you personally in your life

getting through the challenges

my relationships have deepened

so much like I I find such

um deep connection now

you know when conflict arises with someone that I love

we get curious about each other

you know we try to understand

uh huh

yeah

uh huh

uh huh uh huh

well and that's where I feel the love come in

the compassion the reiki

the source energy

and that connection to the divine within

holding that space

wow your book is amazing

it has so much to share and such a like

beautiful pathway

and I love how it connects so many dots

and pulls in so many pieces

while keeping it open to all

like you mentioned all belief systems yes

so if others would like to work with you

what type of offerings do you have and

yeah so my website is Blossoming Heart wellness dot com

um like

like the heart is blossoming open

so that's that's um

the website

and I'm in the process of creating online content

as I'm working towards getting a visa to work in Spain

so I live in Spain I'm from America

but I live in Spain and so

I probably won't be able to see clients one on one

until um

September of 26th

but you can work with me through the online course

and you can sign up for my website

and you can see my online content um

as a starting point but

my one on one work will be

probably more towards September

and I just want to acknowledge that

this book was not written by me

hm

to a vast

open understanding

that was accepting of lots of beliefs

right so I don't feel that I wrote this book

I feel like

this book was channeled

because the world wanted this information

in this way so

I actually have to say

thank you to all of the listeners

for trusting me to gather this information

in a way that I hope

helps you connect to this truth within yourself

I just have the biggest smile on my heart and I just

thank you that feels so beautiful

and I feel like when you're sharing your words

I felt this massive feeling of hope and joy and like

you know the humility and the gratitude

but then it's like this light

and it's like yes

your book is here to support others

where they are to answer a call

that maybe they didn't know they were looking

you know they were

didn't really realize they were calling um for

but when they do feel to connect

and to access your book and the information

then

all of these answers are going to be there for them

and this inspiration and and truly

the answers are really

that's right

oh my goodness

thank you so so much for coming on to the podcast today

and I do want to share

I do believe that by the time this is out

the book will be available

can you share with everybody the release date

and do you have a like

a special platform

where they could go to order the book

so it is available um

for purchase now um

if it's before November 4th

if it's November 4th

that's when it's available to receive haha um

so November 4th, 2025 and um

I think right now it's available on Amazon

Barnes and noble um

I'm currently trying to reach out to local

independent bookstores to get them to carry it

and libraries um

but if you're interested go to your local library

tell them that you really want to read this book

um and

and tell them the name of it

it's the divine within

healing ourselves to heal the world

um I did receive a really good Kirkus review

which is um a the gold standard for um

books and so

I'm hoping that that will help get it out into more um

bookstores um

I know some people um

are trying to avoid shopping at Amazon

and I really wanna honor where people are at

so you also can order the ebook directly from me

on my website so if you're an ebook reader

you can get it directly from me

but if you're wanting a hard copy

you'll either have to go to um

Amazon or Barnes and noble right now

okay beautiful

oh and congrats

I know when you shared that information last week

I was so excited for you so amazing

and big heartfelt thanks for coming on today

and sharing your light with everyone

thank you so much

I'm sending everybody so much love and appreciation

and I just want to remind you

don't rush

it's okay to be exactly where you are

know that you are deeply loved

that you are deeply accepted

and that you are worthy of being who you are

don't be afraid to find your path to healing

it can be scary but it will be well worth it

indeed yes

uh huh and I want to thank everybody

for tuning in to the spirit and Soul Healing podcast

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we'll see you again on the next episode

then we do a little dance