In today’s episode, I’m sharing all about my recent silent retreat with the Sisters of Life, a little encouragement to go on retreat if you’ve been feeling the nudge, and some thoughts on trust and surrender that have been really on my heart lately. We also pray through the Litany of Trust together, chat about what the podcast will look like this summer, and I share a little hint about some exciting things coming soon! 🤍

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back to the Everbe podcast.

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This is your host Mari, and

today it's just gonna be me to…

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I don't even know what I'm saying.

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Okay, hold on.

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Give me a second.

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What am I saying?

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Welcome back to the Everbe podcast.

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This is your host, Mari Wagner,

and today it's just gonna be me.

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I'm excited to spend some

time with you guys today.

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It's gonna be, I think, kind

of a short and sweet episode.

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I wanna share just something that's

been on my heart, in my prayer, that

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is already bra- bearing a lot of fruit,

um, and might be helpful to you guys.

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And then gonna give a little

update on the podcast and what

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it's gonna look like this summer.

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Um, 'cause we're gonna do a little

shift this summer, so I'm just gonna

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give you a little bit of a roadmap of

what to expect for the next few months.

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But first, I'm kicking it off with

my Everbe moment for the I got the

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opportunity to go on one of the

Sisters of Life silent retreats.

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They do, um, these different women

retreats throughout the year.

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I think it's maybe twice a year.

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I think they have one in the

fall and then one in the spring.

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They might have more than that,

but when it comes to, like, the

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women's silent retreat that I did,

I think they have those two options.

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And I signed up for their spring

one, so this past Memorial Day

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weekend, I was able to go on retreat

with them, and it was so beautiful.

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And I don't know about you guys,

but this happens to me all the

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time, where, like, the days leading

up to a retreat, for some reason I

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just, like, don't wanna go anymore.

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And I had been excited about this retreat

for months, but the days leading up were

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just kind of stressful, and I was just

like, "I have too much on my to-do list.

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Like, there's no way I can

just leave for a whole weekend.

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I have to do my to-do list.

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Like, I'm gonna come…

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If I miss out on that to-do list,

I'm gonna, like, come back even

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more stressed than before," right?

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Which, like, those are the lies the enemy

tries to tell us before we go on retreat.

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Because what do we know about the Lord?

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When we give him our time, he

gives it back in abundance.

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He gives it back twofold, hundredfold.

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So yeah, I was trying to convince myself,

"If I go give time to the Lord this

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weekend, I'm not gonna feel rested.

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I'm gonna feel more stressed,"

which is, like, absolute bogus.

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So, um, luckily Trey was

like, "You should go.

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Like, it's okay.

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I think you'll, I think

you'll feel better if you go."

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But he was like, "If you

really, really are so stressed,

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like, you don't have to go."

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And so he was like, "Why don't you just,

like, take some time to pray about it?"

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This is a crazy thing that happened.

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So Wednesday night, Thursday,

I was, like, pretty convinced,

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and like, "I'm not gonna go.

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Like, I shouldn't go.

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I have too much to do."

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Um, we just have a lot of stuff left

to do for the adoption, and we're gonna

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be going live here in about five weeks,

and so time's really ticking, right?

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And so I'm, like, super hyper-focused on

that, but I draw myself a bubble bath, and

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I go to pray a rosary with the Hallow app.

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And I pray, and then after it's over,

I just, like, say a prayer literally

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out loud, and I was like, "Lord, if you

really want me to go on this retreat,

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like, you have to be very clear with me.

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I hope I wake up tomorrow morning

knowing very clearly whether it is

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your will that I go or not, because in

the end, I just wanna do your will."

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And then I just kind of was

scrolling through the Hallow app to

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see what else they have on there.

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I usually use it to pray the rosary

or the daily readings with Jeff Cavins

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and Jonathan Roumie, and every now and

then for some other random thing, but

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that's what I use it for consistently.

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And I was just wanting to explore

what else they have on there, and

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they have literally so much on there.

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And so I was looking through podcasts

'cause I was, like, wanting to find

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new Catholic podcasts to listen to.

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I haven't listened to a Catholic

podcast in a long time, and I saw

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the Sisters of Life have one, which

maybe everybody already knew this,

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but I didn't really know this.

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The Sisters of Life have a podcast.

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Um, I think it's called Let Live, and

I was like, "Well, this is fitting.

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Let me just click on, you know,

one of their episodes and just

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rest here in my bath and, you

know, see what they're all about."

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And I scroll back a couple months.

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Like, this wasn't the most recent episode.

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It was a random episode from

Lent, um, about your thoughts,

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like the power of your thoughts.

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And so I clicked on it, and within the

first f- five to maybe 10 minutes, Sister

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Mary Grace is on there, and she's like,

"By the way, one of my favorite parts of

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our ministries is our silent retreats.

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Um, if you ever get the chance to go on

one, you should definitely go because

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it's so important to spend a weekend away,

you know, letting our thoughts, um, you

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know, we're engaging with our thoughts

and really letting the silence in."

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And I was just like, "Are you kidding me?"

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How does that happen?

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Like- That was a very quickly answered

prayer, and that was nothing but

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clarity, which was what I had asked for.

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I was like, "Lord, I need

clarity by tomorrow morning."

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And he was like, "Give

me five minutes, girl."

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And then he gave me that podcast episode.

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And again, like, the, the episode

title had said nothing about

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retreats, nothing about silence.

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It was from months ago.

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It was a random episode from months

ago, and literally within the first

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10 minutes, Sister Mary Grace was

like, "I love our silent retreats.

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You should absolutely go if you

have the chance to go on one."

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Um, so I was like, "Yep.

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Okay.

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Well, guess I'm going."

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Um, and I went, and it was so beautiful.

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Like, so glad I went.

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Absolutely what I needed in the

midst of just a busy time and a

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stressful time where we have a lot

of deadlines coming up with all the

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different projects we're working on.

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Um, and my to-do list could wait because

I did come back so much more rested,

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and it was not, like, necessarily a

physical rest, 'cause I don't sleep

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that great, like, away from home.

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So, like, you know, it's

just, like, retreat vibes.

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Like, I didn't sleep super great, and

the food was, like, you know, all right.

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So it's not like I was, like,

physically super rested.

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But, like, spiritually and emotionally

and mentally, yeah, like, there was a

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restoration that just came from being

away and being in the presence of

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Jesus for extended amounts of time.

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I mean, I spent like hours in adoration,

and the silence was so rejuvenating.

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And you were able to have

a, like, spiritual direction

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meeting with a sister as well.

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So I went on a walk with Sister Jordan

Rose, and we just chatted, and it

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was just so beautiful to have her…

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I mean, the Sisters of Life, like,

I've been calling them like the

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real-life Disney princesses, right?

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They're just the gentlest souls, the most

joyful souls, the sweetest souls, and

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they encounter you and truly just see you.

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It's like they see you with so much love.

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And so sharing my life with

this sister was just, like,

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the most healing thing ever.

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Um, and they sang, and it

was, like, so beautiful.

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And the venue was gorgeous.

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It was nestled in the

mountains in Colorado.

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And so I don't know if any of y'all

saw my Instagram story when I shared

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about it, but it was, like, gorgeous

snow-capped mountains i- as the view

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behind the window of the chapel.

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Like, what?

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Yeah.

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Gorgeous.

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So that was definitely my Everbe moment

and my reminder to you, go on retreat.

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Like, you need it.

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Like, I need it.

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You need it.

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Oh, Bodhi's rolling around.

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I bet you can hear him

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Go on retreat.

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Like, you need it.

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I needed it.

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Bodie, stop it

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We all need to go on retreat, and what

I have noticed is that as an adult, you

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do those kind of things less and less.

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Because when you're growing up, when

you're a kid, when you're in high

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school, when you're in college, it's

like those things are just offered for

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youth, like in youth group environments.

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There'll be some sort of retreat

or some sort of conference, right?

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Like the Steubenville conferences or in

college, there's different retreats that

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your ministry might put on, your Newman

Center might put on, or there's SEEK.

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Like, there's all these different

offerings for Us as we grow up, um, in our

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faith life, and then we get to adulthood,

and then you have to go seek it.

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Like, there's not always just a Newman

Center right there that's offering

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you a bunch of events and retreats,

and there's not a youth group.

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And if you're lucky, I mean, maybe

you're a part of a great parish that

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does offer these things, or you are

a part of a women's group or a Bible

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study that makes these invitations.

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And even if you are, my encouragement

to you is say yes to the invitations

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because I think even for me, like, it's

easy for me to sit in the pews and hear

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something being offered at the parish

and just being like, "That's nice.

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It doesn't apply to me," right?

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But, like, no, it does.

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Like, take the invitation.

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Go on these retreats or go seek them out.

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I realized I had not been on a retreat in,

like, years, and it's really good, healthy

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practice to go on a retreat once a year.

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And it doesn't have to

be a big, long thing.

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It doesn't even have to be expensive,

or you don't even have to travel

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for it if you're not able to.

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But, like, even just taking at least one

full day of silence a year for yourself.

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So, like, last year, I

didn't get to go on retreat.

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I've been wanting to go on

retreat for a couple years, and

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I just, like, I haven't done it.

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And last year, I, there was a whole

podcast episode about this last May,

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honestly, around this time, where I

went to an abbey, um, of, I believe,

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cloistered nuns close to where I live.

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And I went, and I just spent a

day of silence there by myself.

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I brought my own prayer things.

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I brought my paints and my canvas,

and I spent, like, eight hours there

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in adoration, walking the grounds,

praying, just being outside with the

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Lord, reading spiritual books, painting.

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Like, just taking a day

of retreat for myself.

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So at least if you could do one full day,

it would be so restorative, and the Lord

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will use it, and he will speak to you,

and he will meet you in that silence.

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Um, but if you're able to do

a weekend, definitely do it.

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Um, this is the encouragement I needed to

hear last week when I was doubting going.

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So if you have a retreat coming up and

you're doubting going, listen to me

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right now because you just keep going.

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You signed up.

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Go.

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It's gonna be worth it.

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It's gonna be good.

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Um, so yeah, that's my

encouragement for you today.

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That's my Everbe moment.

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And one thing that really came out of the

retreat, which I want to talk about today

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and share with you, is the theme of trust.

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I talk about this a lot, and we can

never talk about tiring, fully trusting

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in God and giving him our full surrender

and having great confidence in him when

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we do give him a surrender and our yes.

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I was, um, I picked back up the book

I Believe in Love, which is about St.

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Therese's spirituality, and she is

all about confidence in the Lord.

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She's all about confidence in Jesus.

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Um- And fully trusting him with anything

and everything in her littleness.

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And so that was really inspiring to

me, and one of the sisters recommended

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I pray with this, the Litany of Trust,

which I have always been a fan of, and I

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have not prayed it in a very long time.

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Again, probably a year, maybe a

couple years, I haven't picked it

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up because there was a time in my

life when I read it all the time,

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and then I was like, "I'm good.

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We trust now."

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And y'all know it's a journey.

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Like you, you know, like it's just

a cycle of like trusting and falling

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and trusting and falling, and our

humanity just like always takes over

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because we're not heavenly beings yet.

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So bummer for us, but I picked

back up the Litany of Trust, and I

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just wanna pray it with you today.

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So that's what we're gonna do.

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Like we're just gonna have

a moment of prayer today.

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I posted yesterday on my story a

little in case you needed this.

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If you, um, have noticed every now and

then I'll post, and I'm trying to do

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it more frequently, just these little

in case you needed these reminders.

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Um, and yesterday I posted, "In

case you needed this, you and

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your life has great purpose.

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God is writing your story

with intention and detail.

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He does not leave you abandoned.

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Everything He does and allows is

for a good and greater purpose,

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and His ways are higher than ours.

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Keep following Him."

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So if you haven't fully picked up on

this already, it's not always the case,

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but 9 out of 10 times when I post these

things, it's because it's what I needed

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to hear or what the Lord is speaking

to me that was like a great consolation

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to me and what I needed to hear in that

moment, and then I share it with you.

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And I got a lot of messages yesterday

of people saying, "Thank you so much.

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I needed this.

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Thank you for sharing this.

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It's so hard to trust.

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Like I know these things in my head,

but in my heart it's so hard to trust."

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And I relate to that.

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I've been there, and I know so many of you

as well feel that and struggle with that.

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So today we're gonna pray

the Litany of Trust together.

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Um, and I'm just gonna give

some random commentary that

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comes to me as we go through it.

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This is all very Holy Spirit led.

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This is not a pre-prepared episode.

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It's literally Wednesday, May 27th.

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This episode is coming

out later this afternoon.

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Like no planning went into this.

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It was just like the Holy Spirit put it

on my heart, so this is what we're doing.

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Um, so I hope it's good, but let's pray.

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Name of the Father,

Son, Holy Spirit, amen.

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Come, Holy Spirit.

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Come, Holy Spirit, teach us to pray.

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Lord, we just pray that you would

open our hearts right now to receive

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the words of the Litany of Trust

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To let them penetrate our heart, to let

them steep into our heart and take root

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in our heart, that these words would

take root and bear new life and new

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beliefs of truth and of trust in you

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Let's pray.

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From the belief that I have to

earn your love, deliver me, Jesus

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Sometimes we have this distorted

view of God That he gifts according

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to our performance, right?

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That his gifts are measured or

given in accordance to how well

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we've served him, or how well

we've followed his commandments,

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how good of a child we've been.

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That's simply not true, right?

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We wanna be delivered

of that false belief.

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We don't have to earn his love.

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It is freely given to us, simply given

to us because he loves us, period.

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So from the belief that I have to

earn your love, deliver me, Jesus.

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From the fear that I am

unlovable, deliver me, Jesus.

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How often do we look at ourselves and

hate what we see, or don't believe

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that we are worthy of someone else's

love, value, attention, um, care?

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And that's just us, like, sometimes we

have this, like, negative self-talk.

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I don't know about you, but there's

definitely times when I have this

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negative self-talk where I just,

like, beat myself up, right?

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We wanna be delivered from that.

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That is not of the Lord.

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From the fear that I am

unlovable, deliver me, Jesus.

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And I also wanna say here, I think the

Holy Spirit's bringing up, yeah, our sins.

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Like, sometimes we fall into thinking

our sins are what make us unlovable.

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We are so bad.

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We have … What we have done is so

wrong that the Lord could never love us.

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That is not true.

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Jesus' mercy envelops all of ours,

a- all of us, and all of ourselves of

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who we are, even, even the worst parts

of ourselves we don't want to see.

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And it's actually, like, who are we

to think that our sins are bigger

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than God's mercy and God's love?

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I promise you, he's more powerful, more

gracious, more loving, and more forgiving

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than anything you have done, right?

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Let that be your reminder.

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From the false security that I have

what it takes, deliver me, Jesus.

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Ooh, I needed to hear that one.

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Like, we think that we

have it all figured out.

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Sometimes we think that we have

the best plan, um, that if we

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just work hard enough, we'll

make things happen for ourselves.

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Especially right now, our culture is so

obsessed with manifestation and just,

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like, calling things into existence.

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Um, that's a false security.

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You don't have what it takes.

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You don't have the power, and you

don't have what it takes to take on the

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trials of this human life on your own.

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Sorry.

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It's really hard, and it's really

heavy, and the saints couldn't

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do it and, and we can't either.

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So from the false security that I

have what it takes, deliver me, Jesus.

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From the fear that trusting you will leave

me more destitute, deliver me, Jesus.

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This comes down to us believing Or

us not believing in God's goodness

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and a distrust in God's goodness.

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Because the fear here is that if I trust

you, I'm gonna be worse off, which means

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I don't trust that what you bring is good.

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So we have to go back to that foundational

core belief that God is a good and

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loving father, and He wants good things

for us, so that when we trust Him,

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when He asks us to trust Him, we can

trust without knowing what's coming

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because we know who it's coming from.

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We know His goodness, and

therefore we know that what

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comes, even if it's difficult,

there's goodness in- at its core.

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There's goodness in everything God does.

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From all suspicion of Your words

and promises, deliver me, Jesus.

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This is kind of on that same line, right?

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Like, us being suspicious of who Jesus is

or us reading His words and His promises

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in the Bible that, you know, are going to

give us life, that He's going to provide

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an abundance, that He hears us, that He

gives us the, um, words of eternal life,

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that He is, uh, the, the living water.

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Like, all, all of these promises

He makes, that He will restore

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us, that He will heal us, um, that

what we ask for, He will deliver.

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Like, from suspicion of those

things that the Lord has promised,

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we need to be delivered, right?

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And that's the evil one kind of, like,

planting seeds of doubt in our heart

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in who God is, and it goes with the

earlier one we were talking about.

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We need to believe in God's goodness,

and if that's what you're feeling,

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go back and pray, "Lord, allow

me to believe in Your goodness.

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Show me Your goodness," 'cause that's

where that suspicion comes from.

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From the rebellion against childlike

dependency on You, deliver me,

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Jesus Hmm, childlike dependency.

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What does that look like?

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What does it look like for a baby

or a two-year-old, you know, or a

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six-year-old to depend on their parents?

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You know, depending on their age, like

they literally can't feed themselves.

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They literally can't put themselves

to sleep a lot of the times.

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They literally need to be changed,

their diaper needs to be changed.

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They need to be rocked.

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They need to be soothed.

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They need to be provided

for at every moment.

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And what happens with a baby, a child,

when that secure attachment is formed

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and that understanding in their little

minds is formed, that when I cry

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out, my mother or father will come to

comfort me, that is that same dependence

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that we need to have on the Lord.

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We need to have that childlike dependency

that we know when we cry out, when we

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are hungry, when we are thirsty, when we

are tired, that He will provide for us.

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He will come running to us.

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Um, and sometimes we have that rebellion.

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Sometimes our soul wants to.

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It wants to depend fully.

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It wants to trust, and yet

there's that human part of us

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that's like, "You can't trust.

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You have to do it yourself."

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You know?

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Like, you have to have this like hesitancy

and keep things at arm's distance because

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there's no way the Lord could provide

for you like a child and like a father.

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Deliver me, Jesus, from that, please.

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Okay, moving on.

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From refusals and reluctances in

accepting Your will, deliver me, Jesus.

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Gosh, these are all hard, you guys.

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This is why this prayer is so good.

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These are hard things to do.

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How many times do we refuse or

are reluctant to God's will?

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Our life didn't look like what

we thought it would, and we

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refuse to accept His plan.

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I mean, I know that more than ever, right?

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Like, I expected to be

a mom five years ago.

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That was my plan.

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That was not God's plan And I hated

that plan for a really long time.

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I was reluctant, and I refused

that plan for a really long time.

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And I spent years trying to convince

him that my plan was better.

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And I know this goes for so many women

who are in the same place that I am

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or in a different place of waiting for

their vocation, waiting for the right

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man to come along, and being like, "Lord,

I thought I would be married by now.

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I thought I would at least be

engaged or have a boyfriend by now.

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I thought I would be in a

relationship that was going somewhere.

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Like, that was my plan, and clearly

this isn't your will, and I hate that."

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Like, I- y- it's okay for

you to say that in prayer.

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Like, "Lord," like, "gosh, I

really am struggling with this.

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I really don't like this

plan that you have."

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Give that to Jesus.

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Give that to Jesus.

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And from the refusal and

reluctances in accepting your

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will, let us be delivered, Lord.

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Because in our human understanding,

we don't understand your ways.

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Your ways are higher than ours, and

your thoughts are higher than ours.

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And so it's hard for us to re-

to accept your will sometimes.

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But we need to know that

it is the best plan.

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It is the good plan that you have for us.

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Mm.

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Yeah.

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Okay.

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Next one.

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From anxiety about the

future, deliver me, Jesus

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Tell me you don't worry about the future.

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Yeah.

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So you need to hear this one.

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From anxiety about the

future, deliver me, Jesus.

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Because if we have wholehearted trust

in the Lord, we know He is good,

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we know what is coming is good for

us, we don't have to be anxious.

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Read Matthew 6.

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If this is you, if you're anxious

about the future, read Matthew

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chapter 6, the do not worry passage,

and go all the way through verse 33.

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From resentment or excessive preoccupation

with the past, deliver me, Jesus.

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Some of us struggle with worrying

about the future, and some of us

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struggle with being so preoccupied

about what happened in the past and

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not being able to let go of that past.

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That excessive preoccupation, right?

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That excessive, um, shame or

disgust with the past, right?

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Like, we just, like, hate what

we see in our past, in our life.

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Um, the Lord wants to deliver us

from that as well, because the

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Lord does not work in the past.

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He does not live in the future.

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He is in the present.

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He wants to call us into His

relationship in the present moment.

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He's taken care of the past, and He's

taken care of the future, and He just

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wants you to come to Him today with

today's problems, with today's emotions.

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Um, so surrender all of that to Him.

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If this is you, surrender all of that to

Him and pray this: "Deliver me, Jesus,

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from restless self-seeking in the

present moment, deliver me, Jesus.

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Okay, so for this one, um, I, I pulled

up Truthfully because I was having

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trouble kind of like articulating

like what does this really mean?

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And it's really beautiful what it says.

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Um, so let me just read it to you.

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Um-

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Notice where this line sits in the prayer.

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It's sandwiched between resentment or

excessive preoccupation with the past

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and disbelief in your love and presence.

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The placement is not accidental.

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The entire litany covers all

the dimensions of time, past,

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present, and future, which is

what we were just talking about.

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And it identifies a specific

spiritual trap embedded in each one.

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So restless means unsettled,

never at peace, right?

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Self-seeking means that the driving

force behind this restlessness is

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me, my preferences, my comfort,

my plans, my control, my pleasure.

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It is the opposite of what

Christ calls us to do.

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Whoever wishes to come after me must deny

himself, take up his cross, and follow me.

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So together they describe a person

who cannot receive the present

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moment as a gift from God because

they are too busy demanding that it

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be something other than what it is.

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It's like the dissatisfaction

with your present life, your

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present self, your present moment

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So the Lord here is asking us

to be detached from that, right?

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And to give him our trust in the present

moment, and that we are exactly where

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he wants us to be right now today.

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From disbelief in your love and

presence, deliver me, Jesus.

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Sometimes it's easy for us to

fall into the lies that we are

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abandoned, or that He is not with

us anymore, or that He has left us.

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And the Lord is always with us.

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He never abandons us.

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He never walks away, even when it

doesn't feel like He's close to us.

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There are definitely times where we

won't feel those fuzzy feelings or

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feel that real physical closeness.

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That doesn't mean He's not here, right?

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So from that disbelief that we

are loved and that He is present

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with us, deliver us, Jesus.

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From the fear of being asked to give

more than I have, deliver me, Jesus.

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Have you ever heard the phrase

where it says, "God gives each

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one of His, um, sons and daughters

exactly what they can handle"?

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And sometimes we go through

life's trials, and we are like,

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um, "I can't handle this, Jesus.

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Like, why did you give me this?

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Why did you think I could handle this?"

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From that disbelief of being asked to

give more than I have, deliver me, Jesus.

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The Lord asks us exactly what needs to

be asked of us to grow in holiness, to

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be drawn closer into His love, to be more

conformed to His cross, to know Him more

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intimately And sometimes we're scared

that we're gonna be asked for more than

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we're able to give, and that's not true.

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The Lord will always provide because

in the end it is Him giving through us.

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His grace is what allows us to give.

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From the belief that my life has no

meaning or worth, deliver me, Jesus

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This is the idea that we essentially

believe that, um, our existence

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is essentially pointless, right?

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I mean, this is hard.

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This is sad.

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Um, and, and yet I know people

genuinely struggle, right?

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And, and are falling into these

lies and these false beliefs, right?

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That their life has no meaning or

worth, um, that nothing they do

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matters, um, that the people around

them would be better without them,

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that their suffering has no purpose.

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Um, all of these are lies that the evil

one tries to feed us, um, so that we

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would lose that trust in our identity,

that we would lose that core, ownership

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of our identity as sons and daughters.

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If we are beloved sons and daughters,

these, these lies aren't true.

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They can't be true because our

identity is much too valuable, right?

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Um, so yeah, from that belief

that my life has no meaning

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or worth, deliver me, Jesus.

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From the fear of what love

demands, deliver me, Jesus.

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I love this line because our faith

teaches us that love isn't easy.

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Love isn't like a happy,

necessarily, like, easy, lovey-dovey,

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butterfly-feelings thing, right?

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Love isn't doing sweet things for

someone when you feel like doing them.

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That is definitely a way to show love,

but the truest form of love is willing the

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good of the other, and willing the good of

the other sometimes demands things of us.

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It stretches us.

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It, um, causes us to sacrifice

and maybe do things we don't like

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to do or that aren't easy to do.

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Um, and so love demands a lot, and we

see this in everyday ways in marriage,

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um, in motherhood and fatherhood.

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Um, the demands of a child are

not easy things, and to do that

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over and over and over again all

day, every day, that's not easy.

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Um, marriage demands a lot of you.

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It demands sacrifice.

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It demands that you kind of shed a

selfishness, um, that we've had throughout

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our single years, not in a bad way, but

just because we've never had to worry

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about anyone else rather than ourselves.

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So love demands a But the Lord will give

us the grace to rise to the occasion.

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From discouragement, deliver me, Jesus.

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Um, I think this is a

sure sign of desolation.

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Like, if you are just constantly

discouraged, um, and just, like,

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see no way out, see no light at

the end of the tunnel and just feel

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hopeless, um, that is a sure sign you

need to get your butt in the chapel.

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Uh, maybe go to confession.

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Um, receive the Eucharist

more often, right?

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Just kind of feed your soul

those supernatural graces that we

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receive, um, from the sacraments,

um, to restore that hope and that

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trust and that belief in the Lord.

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Now, the next section switches

to Jesus, I trust in you.

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these, I don't think we need

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to dissect every single one.

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We just need to hear what is being

said, hear that truth, and really

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let it, um, take root in our hearts.

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Um, so let's just pray that together.

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That you are continually holding

me, sustaining me, loving me.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That your love goes deeper than my

sins and failings and transforms me.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That not knowing what tomorrow brings

is an invitation to lean on you.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That you are with me in my suffering.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That my suffering, united to your own,

will bear fruit in this life and the next.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That you will not leave me orphan,

that you are present in your church.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That your plan is better

than anything else.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That you always hear me, and in

your goodness, always respond to me.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That you give me the grace to accept

forgiveness and to forgive others.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That you give me all the strength

I need for what is asked.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That my life is a gift.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That you will teach me to trust you.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That you are my Lord and my God.

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Jesus, I trust in you.

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That I am your beloved one.

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Jesus, I trust in you

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Lord, I just pray that everybody listening

to this, um, would let these words pierce

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their hearts and give them encouragement

and life, um, in whatever it is that

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they're going through, that they would

be able to trust you with your grace.

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Amen.

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In the name of the Father,

Son, and Holy Spirit.

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Amen.

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Well, I hope that was a good time of

prayer and reflection for you guys.

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It's been so beautiful for me to be

praying with the Litany of Trust lately.

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Um, so I hope that

blesses your prayer life.

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Now, before we wrap up, just gonna give

you a little update on the podcast and

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what it's gonna look like this summer.

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So last summer, we took

a bit of a summer break.

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This year we're gonna kinda

take a break, but kinda not.

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So there will still be episodes going out

every Wednesday, but they're going to be

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our most popular, most listened to reruns.

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So no new content, unless I randomly

get on here and record a podcast,

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um, will be going out this summer.

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It'll be reruns of our top listened to

content, um, and most popular content.

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I highly recommend you still listen

to them even if you've heard them,

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because sometimes the message that we

heard at one point needs to be heard

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again years later or months later,

like the Litany of Trust, right?

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Like, I put it away for a while,

and then I picked it back up

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again and I was like, "Wow, it's

wrecking my life in the best way."

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So, um, be just on the lookout for which

episodes are coming back and enjoy them.

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Um, and then in the fall, we'll come back

with our regularly scheduled content.

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Um, and for all you who made it to

the end of this podcast episode,

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I'll give you just a little sneak

peek of something coming soon.

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So at the end of the year, so when we come

back in the fall, fall and winter, um,

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I'm gonna be announcing some new things

that are gonna happen with the podcast.

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Not going to tell you much now.

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Some exciting changes that are happening,

um, but what I'll let you know is

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that there will be a hint next week.

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So whatever episode is coming out

next week will give you a hint as

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to what's coming in the future.

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Um, so I'll leave you with that, and I

hope you guys have an incredible summer.

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Um, I'm gonna be focusing a ton on our

adoption work, and we'll start seeing

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cases this summer in July, and depending

on how quickly things happen, who knows,

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maybe we'll have a baby by the time we

come back in the fall, um, or winter.

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So please pray for us.

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I'm gonna be praying for

each and every one of you.

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Know that you can also reach out to

me on my Instagram, @mari.c.wagner.

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I check my DMs as often as possible and

try to get to as many messages as I can.

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So if you need anything, find

me over there, but I'll be

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praying so much for you guys.

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Please pray for us and this whole process.

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Um, and we'll see you in the fall.

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Bye.