My Bible was open to Philippians 4 when the message came in. Effective immediately, the majority of my contract work is on pause, and most of my side income with it.

So I hit record with my journal still open, and you get to hear what trusting God when everything falls apart sounds like in real time.

I'm not on the other side of this one. I don't know how the numbers are going to work. What I do know is the passage I was reading when it hit: "I can do all things through him who strengthens me" comes right after Paul talks about having little and having plenty, being well fed and going hungry. That's the secret he learned. And I'm getting to practice it again.

We get into what happens when God's definition of good looks nothing like ours, why His provision has sometimes looked like Him clearing space in my life, and why trusting Him doesn't mean pretending this doesn't really freaking suck.

If you're carrying a diagnosis, a job loss, struggles in a relationship or the weight of everything on your plate, and you keep downplaying it because someone else has it worse, you're welcome here. Jesus doesn't make you qualify it first.

How did the disciples grieve without missing the resurrection?

What does cat eye nail polish have to do with hardship?

And where was God working in the losses you haven't looked back at yet?

Got a story of God showing up in something that looked like a loss at the time? I'd love to hear it. Email me at [email protected], anonymously or with your name on it.

If time with Jesus keeps losing to the noise, you're not failing at faith. You're doing faith with chaotic or even ADHD brain, in a world built for neurotypicals.

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