Juicy Episode Alert! Warning: there's empowered cussing. Sometimes when you're really stuck in your programming and conditioning (all that stuff you were taught about life when you were a kid) the Universe has to bomb your world A LOT to shock you awake.

In addition to becoming separated from her husband a month & a half after their belated Honeymoon 💣

Athena shares that she's grieving the loss of her first & most beloved pet.💣

And, mere weeks after that, she finds evidence that the separated husband is seeing someone new. 💣

And, yet, she's still doing his laundry?! 🤯 The Universe was screaming WAKE UP GIRL!

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Welcome to the Awakening

to Abundance podcast.

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I'm your host, Athena.

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This podcast is more than a podcast,

it's a transformative journey, designed

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to help you awaken to your abundance,

for you to discover what living

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the fullness of life means to you.

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As always, we're jumping

right in with today's episode!

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Welcome to another episode

of Awakening to Abundance.

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So we're taking a little bit of a turn.

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We have been talking about wholeness

and relationships- and this voice

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note from the past is a very

vulnerable and honest and energetic,

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especially at the end, place of

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a little bit of frustration

with what is occurring.

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But the way that I am

responding to what's occurring.

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And

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a call to move back into alignment.

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And this is what we do

every time we are in

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our manifestation journey and

then our outside doesn't look

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like what we want our lives to be.

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But it's in these moments of

frustration and what am I doing

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that really wake us up into this

is not who I am or what I wanna do.

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And make us move.

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Or make us have an insight.

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Or make us have some sort of

snapping out of what currently is.

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And then having the choice to choose

our alignment and what we wanna manifest

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out of what we are not enjoying.

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Which sometimes we call contrast.

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And it's so much fun for me to listen to

some of these voice notes from the past,

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almost a year and a half to two years

later, and remember where I was then.

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And then now to see where I am.

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And you're gonna hear something that

when I say it in the voice note, I'm

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even saying to myself like, how the

f*ck is this happening right now?

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Like, how have I allowed

myself to be in this position?

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Like what am I doing, really?

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And it's coming from a place

of being out of alignment.

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And that's okay.

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Because that's where we

are, when we are there.

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But now to be like, ugh, that is no longer

my current reality, and my reality is

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that I have this beautiful podcast, and

that I get to share this vulnerable stuff

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with you in hopes that you see where you

are, and know that the power resides in

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you and in your alignment to do whatever

you wanna be, do or have in this life.

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And to move into it.

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And for me, it's doing

all this work from Maui.

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So as you listen, remember that you

are exactly where you're meant to be.

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And if you're experiencing contrast,

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use it as an opportunity to

move into alignment and to

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manifest a life that you love.

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I hope that you enjoy this episode.

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Athena on Phone: I went to the Center

for Spiritual Awakening and then they

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did a grief support thing afterward.

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And I was part of that

and that was really good.

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I am grieving not just Tango's loss-

my loss of my pet, but I think inside

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of that, I also get to grieve and mourn

my husband and what we were, and who

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he was, and all of the other things.

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And so part of the thing that

happened today with the grief

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session was that I cried.

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And I told a woman a story about how I was

sitting at Lover's Point here in Monterey

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and there's, there's a cement wall area

that you can sit on, and like a week after

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Tango passed away, I was just looking

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out at the sea, and it was

beautiful, and it was a full moon.

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And the waves were crazy

and it was beautiful.

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And I'm looking to my left and I

see these two people looking in

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my direction in awe and wonder.

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So I turned my head to

see what was going on.

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And this sweet little black and white cat

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had jumped up nearby onto the

cement thing I was sitting on.

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And there's so much foot traffic in

that area, it's very odd to see a cat.

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And so I just sat there and

I was like, that's adorable.

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So lovely.

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The cat came right up to me and then

sat right next to me for a good minute.

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And then he hopped over my lap,

and then he sat on the other side

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of my lap for about a minute.

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And then he went on his merry way

of checking out his surroundings

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and hunting and stuff like that.

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And before I could even tell

the story I started to cry.

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It was so obvious to me

that this was like a sign.

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Even random animals can give us this

energetic, I'm still with you feeling.

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And why wouldn't these

energetics come from nature.

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And when I left for the center

this morning, there was some

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sweet deer, two little ones out.

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And then when I got home I shook

really hard my hand because I felt

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something on it and freaked me out.

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And I looked down and it's a ladybug,

which is weird 'cause it's winter.

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But it was just so sweet that these little

reminders are always with us, right?

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Because I was starting to get

out of a little bit of alignment.

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I was getting out of alignment.

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Not that I was a little

getting out of alignment.

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I arrived home and my husband opened the

door and after five days of being home

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and not going anywhere or doing anything,

he was like, I'm gonna go out to study.

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And it's Sunday at 3:00 PM and where

he was saying he was going, there's

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not really any open stuff, right?

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And so it just as much as I want

to continue to be as much in

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integrity and aligned as possible,

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I'm not finding it super

easy to do all the time.

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So I could feel my body tense

up and stuff like that.

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But at the same time, this little

thing was on my hand and I shook it.

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Part of getting these feelings

and this energy out of our system

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is sometimes we have to f*cking

move our body and shake it out.

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So it was just this synchronistic

reminder to just, like a, a drop of

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water coming off the back of a duck,

just rolling off the back of a duck-

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that is what I wanted to do, right?

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I wanted to allow it

just to flow out of me.

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So part of what I'm doing

now is processing it out loud

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'cause I feel like that will help too.

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But it just, it continues

to be so crazy and so weird.

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And the other part of what was coming

through to me at the center today was

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just be who you are and stop playing

small because you are trying to

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make these last few weeks tolerable.

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I did his laundry last night.

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And there's a potential that he's cheating

on me, like a pretty big potential.

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And not just based on this one

circumstance, there's a lot of

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other evidence unfortunately.

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And again, maybe I shouldn't use the

words cheating on me because he believes

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in his heart that he's separated from

me even though there's nothing legal and

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I certainly didn't agree to it.

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But that is a definite

form of playing small.

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And so I don't wanna do that anymore.

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And especially since things seem to

be up in the air now about him moving

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'cause he hasn't been talking or

communicating with the moving people.

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If he stays back for whatever reason

and we have to live another six

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months together, I can't live small.

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Like I can't play small.

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And why do I even feel the need to

wash his f*cking laundry anyway?

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Because like I'm doing it already?

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He could f*cking do it already and he

could do my d*mn laundry, but whatever.

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Anyway, can you feel the un

alignment of this energetic?

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Woo.

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It's time to stop playing small,

and it's time to live fully into

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who I am, whether he's here or not.

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And it's time for me to

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have my big life authentically.

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No matter what's going on.

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Moving beyond the conditions

and stepping into my power.

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I think one of the main reasons why I do

these voice notes right now is because I

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almost have to get myself to that place.

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In a way I feel sometimes

like I'm self-coaching.

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Just reminding myself that this is the

commitment I've made to myself and that

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it doesn't matter where he is going.

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It doesn't matter what he's doing.

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It really doesn't matter.

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What matters is the fact

that I am in alignment.

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That's all that matters.

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Thank you for listening to this podcast

episode and being part of this community.

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I wanna hear from you.

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Did something resonate

with you in this episode?

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Are you experiencing awakenings

or synchronicities in your life?

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Email me at

podcast@abundancewithathena.com

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or DM me on Instagram

@abundancewithathena, and

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share with me your stories.

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And until next time, keep Awakening to

the Abundance that's always within you.