I was shadowmaxxing for years before I had a word for it.
When I sat down to write this week's Substack I started tracing the timeline of every wild, unexpected, how-did-that-even-happen moment in my life — and I was shook. Every single one of them arrived right after I stopped avoiding something and went into it instead. Every. Single. Time.
This episode is my box of receipts. The stories. The proof. The pattern that I cannot unsee and now you won't be able to either.
We get into the waterfall in Spain where Love Light and Black Holes was accidentally born from a panic attack.
The shadow work I did on my India trauma in 2018 that blew the dam open and started the flood.
The year I was celibate and fell in love with myself so completely that my husband showed up exactly as everything I'd written in my journal.
The grief after my dad died that opened me up to the most magical, liminal, creatively electric season of my entire life.
The month off I took before Afterglow launched that cleared the channel so completely it sold out without me chasing a single person. And the two book deals that landed in my inbox when I wasn't asking for them, because I was too busy getting out of my own way.
Shadowmaxxing didn't bring me where I wanted to go. It brought me somewhere my vision board couldn't even imagine. And I think you've been doing it too, you just didn't have a name for it yet!
